I like to remember dates!:) I'm quite bad at birth dates though. Dates that are significant to me are easier to remember. If your birthday falls in the same month as mine, it's easier for me to remember too :) haha.
30th June, 5 years ago, was the day that I became a member of Hope Church Singapore!:) haha. okay. not important to anyone out there...
Yesterday Jiali mentioned reading an entry long time ago when i didn't even know her name. hahaa. I think for me blogging serves two purposes - for archiving/memory's sake, as well as for the sharing of ideas and beliefs:) Remembering dates and blogging them down is kinda my way of replicating Israel's building of a stone structure in remembrance of the times God moved in their lives.
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ACTScalibre camp was an interesting experience:) I realized that
1) I'm super unfit! hahaa. Running around on the first night with Peru has caused me to throw my hands up in desperation and give up running, while at the same time shouting to them to go forth before me to get their two gold medals. hahaha.
2) I can get quite irritated at people who don't listen to instructions. Perhaps I take it a little too personally:)Can learn much from Derek who calmly referees and saves his voice. lol.
3) I miss my tan. lol. The colour I am now used to be the colour I was at a few years ago! hahaa. Don't know why people don't like tans :) haha. Maybe 'cos it's not very good for the skin ba.
4) I'm actually quite scared to sing. HAHA. On Saturday night, when Derek was practicing with Manmi for the song presentation, and subsequently when Huili asked if the song can be more coloured and Derek pointed to me to sing with him 'cos I just happened to be free to write the last line of the song and sing with them then, I was like O.O and was thinking 'noooooooooo.... my voice is not good.' lol.
Derek reminded me that it's not so much about the voice, but rather the passion in singing :)
Really thank God for the presentation. I think all four of us have our own inadequacies and we were all quite scared (because of various things). But thank God that it went well.. experienced the grace that came along. I was having a sore throat (a painful one) 'cos I was eating fillet o fish before the presentation. LOL. I totally didn't expect a sore throat. My voice was not opened and it's not in the best of condition, but i wasn't having a sore throat before that. haha. And i was still having a sore throat when I went up with them to sing.
Imagine my amazement when I realized I could reach the high notes. And imagine my amazement when I realized that my throat was perfectly well after singing. lol
Grace that covered over the weaknesses of human beings who have the desire to glorify Him :)
Thank God for the chance to know people better too :) and to see how people are rising up to the challenges put ahead of them.
It's amazing when people move. it's amazing when God moves.
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
My life revolves around two males these days.
The first is old. Very old.
He has been since the beginning of time. In fact, He's the beginning and the End.
He holds my future in His hands.
He never lets go of my right hand.
He saw me when I was being formed and He knows when I will die.
I learn to love because He first loved me.
He is the reason why I sing.
And the reason why I do the things I do.
Without Him, I can't live. I may be alive, but I will not be living.
The second is young. Very young.
I was not with him at the beginning. I wonder if I can be with him at his end.
He can't hold much in his hands.
Sometimes he'll jump onto my right hand and refuse to let go of biting it.
I was here before he was formed. I will probably still be here when he dies.
I learn to love his species over the years.
Sometimes I'll sing to him and wonder if he can listen.
I do things that tire me out at times because of him.
He lives with me, sleeps with me and eats with him when I'm in the house.
When I take care of the second, I sometimes get a glimpse of how the first takes care of me. I start to understand a little bit more of the first's feelings, of His concern, of His love, of His discipline even when i love, discipline and am concerned about the second.
yup.
a short excerpt about the two males in my life:)
Jesus and Chi.
The first is old. Very old.
He has been since the beginning of time. In fact, He's the beginning and the End.
He holds my future in His hands.
He never lets go of my right hand.
He saw me when I was being formed and He knows when I will die.
I learn to love because He first loved me.
He is the reason why I sing.
And the reason why I do the things I do.
Without Him, I can't live. I may be alive, but I will not be living.
The second is young. Very young.
I was not with him at the beginning. I wonder if I can be with him at his end.
He can't hold much in his hands.
Sometimes he'll jump onto my right hand and refuse to let go of biting it.
I was here before he was formed. I will probably still be here when he dies.
I learn to love his species over the years.
Sometimes I'll sing to him and wonder if he can listen.
I do things that tire me out at times because of him.
He lives with me, sleeps with me and eats with him when I'm in the house.
When I take care of the second, I sometimes get a glimpse of how the first takes care of me. I start to understand a little bit more of the first's feelings, of His concern, of His love, of His discipline even when i love, discipline and am concerned about the second.
yup.
a short excerpt about the two males in my life:)
Jesus and Chi.
Friday, June 27, 2008
lol chi is suckling on my finger now. He hasn't done it in a while:) no idea why he suddenly started it again. lol.
it greatly reduced my typing speed. haha.
Got to know the YP structure yesterday. the news came as a surprise, considering that I sincerely thought I was gonna be in Jan's group and has thus mentally prepared myself for it.
I don't like going through major changes without much mental preparation :/ changes in pastoral ministry is already something relatively unpleasant for me, unexpected change is worse.
lol
for me, the news took a while to sink in.. it's not properly sunk in yet, but reality is baring its fangs at me and forcing me to acknowledge the imminent danger that faces me.
got the chance to talk a little to florence on the way back :) thank God for her. I remember my heart feeling much lighter after conversing with her :)
heh
chi just fell asleep on my finger. haha
can't type much now due to a little handicap.. will share more (whatever is appropriate in person ba:)
it greatly reduced my typing speed. haha.
Got to know the YP structure yesterday. the news came as a surprise, considering that I sincerely thought I was gonna be in Jan's group and has thus mentally prepared myself for it.
I don't like going through major changes without much mental preparation :/ changes in pastoral ministry is already something relatively unpleasant for me, unexpected change is worse.
lol
for me, the news took a while to sink in.. it's not properly sunk in yet, but reality is baring its fangs at me and forcing me to acknowledge the imminent danger that faces me.
got the chance to talk a little to florence on the way back :) thank God for her. I remember my heart feeling much lighter after conversing with her :)
heh
chi just fell asleep on my finger. haha
can't type much now due to a little handicap.. will share more (whatever is appropriate in person ba:)
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
You know, I was never very impressed with people who are
1) big shots/ celebrities
2) working/studying in famous places (e.g. google/cambridge)
3) or have high ranks in schools/work places.
It's not that I glaze over their achievements, or I'm trying to make myself feel better, or that I don't acknowledge that they have characteristics that we can learn from (or yes. please learn from them)..
it's just that.
I'm just not impressed. lol.
It could be due to a drilling by my mum from the time when I was young "celebrities are just human beings!" or it could be due to the over-exposure of smart and famous people in close proximity for four years.
To me, they're just human beings. The same as you and me. The same human being who has sin (be it pride, lust, greed..) and has a God shaped hole in the heart.
1) big shots/ celebrities
2) working/studying in famous places (e.g. google/cambridge)
3) or have high ranks in schools/work places.
It's not that I glaze over their achievements, or I'm trying to make myself feel better, or that I don't acknowledge that they have characteristics that we can learn from (or yes. please learn from them)..
it's just that.
I'm just not impressed. lol.
It could be due to a drilling by my mum from the time when I was young "celebrities are just human beings!" or it could be due to the over-exposure of smart and famous people in close proximity for four years.
To me, they're just human beings. The same as you and me. The same human being who has sin (be it pride, lust, greed..) and has a God shaped hole in the heart.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
... fear and trembling ...
... rawness ...
... breakthrough in growth ...
These were some of the things that went through my mind even as I had dinner with the YP group people :) haha. Think it's a really new pastoral ministry. Exciting to know that I'm part of the pioneer batch of people in this ministry (haha.. was sharing to Stella how it's so cool she came in for a while and am able to participate in pioneering this ministry le) and exciting 'cos this group of people is quite different from the uni group :) hahaa.
hmm. i guess in a way, the people in this group are spiritually more mature. hahaa. And all of a sudden, i think i feel very young! hahaha. and in that I really pray for a breakthrough in growth.. in the ability to think, the ability to connect the principles to working experiences, the ability to build upon my past experiences as well. An experiential love from God which enables me to know Him in a new manner.
and i was thinking about how i'm not working yet! hahaha.
so it is with fear and trembling (lol. for the first time) that i approach this ministry:)
rawness in the relationships ba=] but really thank God for the people... very friendly. hahaha. we'll prob step on each others' toes later on, but feel quite comfortable at this moment :)
hope we all continue to grow together=]
... rawness ...
... breakthrough in growth ...
These were some of the things that went through my mind even as I had dinner with the YP group people :) haha. Think it's a really new pastoral ministry. Exciting to know that I'm part of the pioneer batch of people in this ministry (haha.. was sharing to Stella how it's so cool she came in for a while and am able to participate in pioneering this ministry le) and exciting 'cos this group of people is quite different from the uni group :) hahaa.
hmm. i guess in a way, the people in this group are spiritually more mature. hahaa. And all of a sudden, i think i feel very young! hahaha. and in that I really pray for a breakthrough in growth.. in the ability to think, the ability to connect the principles to working experiences, the ability to build upon my past experiences as well. An experiential love from God which enables me to know Him in a new manner.
and i was thinking about how i'm not working yet! hahaha.
so it is with fear and trembling (lol. for the first time) that i approach this ministry:)
rawness in the relationships ba=] but really thank God for the people... very friendly. hahaha. we'll prob step on each others' toes later on, but feel quite comfortable at this moment :)
hope we all continue to grow together=]
Friday, June 20, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
I have a love-hate relationship with the uni ministry.
It brought about many low points in my life, along with the many highs.
It was the ministry I saw the ugly sides of me, and the ministry which I saw these ugly sides change in God's grace.
It gave me tears. Lots of them.
It brought me joy and showed me a glimpse of the potential which I can grasp.
It changed my perspective of leaders in the church, and changed it again.
There was so much pain. And then there were so many opening of doors I never knew existed.
I first joined the university service on the 18th of June 2005, into the CG of NUSA2. I still remember the sunflower given to me. When I came in, Jiexian was the CL, and I was shepherdless for 3 months. lol.
And then michelle rose up as the CL. And Zhenzhong joined us from Adults.. and CG looked like this...
And then Kinwee moved on. And people joined us... and at our last service as a CG, we looked like this...
And then there was a new CG :) NUSC1. led by Jiadai who led us in a time of finger painting to start off the group...
This CG saw a lot of changes too.. The people who left/moved on (Kaili, Yishyan, and Guo Xiong) and the people who joined us (Yizhong, Jalea, JianKai, Jonathan, Esther, Jeekai, Tim), as well as the people who joined, then moved to other groups (Jesse and Shuyi).
And in a sense, when we discussed the farewell for the group, we felt that it was only apt that we ended off with hand painting.. Sort of as a momento to our group, as well as a timely reminder of how far the group has come in just one year after it was formed.
And then some people were taken out of the group to do greater things in other groups, some of us remained.. and Guanzhen joined us. And we remained as NUSC1 :) It has been interesting in the past few weeks. Hehe.
Say the word.. And I will sing for You
Over oceans deep I will follow
If each star was a song
Every breath of wind praise
It will still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live for You
And after a few months of wondering, a few weeks of asking God for direction and a few days of praying and intensely seeking for a clear direction, the choice was made.
And I thank God how even after I've made the choice, affirmation of the choice was given by God, that even as others were praying for me, the same resounding choice remained.
And I'm amazed at how God's will eventually comes to pass in my life and in another sister's life.. despite certain decisions made earlier on.
It's time to move on:)
It brought about many low points in my life, along with the many highs.
It was the ministry I saw the ugly sides of me, and the ministry which I saw these ugly sides change in God's grace.
It gave me tears. Lots of them.
It brought me joy and showed me a glimpse of the potential which I can grasp.
It changed my perspective of leaders in the church, and changed it again.
There was so much pain. And then there were so many opening of doors I never knew existed.
I first joined the university service on the 18th of June 2005, into the CG of NUSA2. I still remember the sunflower given to me. When I came in, Jiexian was the CL, and I was shepherdless for 3 months. lol.
And then michelle rose up as the CL. And Zhenzhong joined us from Adults.. and CG looked like this...
And then Kinwee moved on. And people joined us... and at our last service as a CG, we looked like this...
And then there was a new CG :) NUSC1. led by Jiadai who led us in a time of finger painting to start off the group...
This CG saw a lot of changes too.. The people who left/moved on (Kaili, Yishyan, and Guo Xiong) and the people who joined us (Yizhong, Jalea, JianKai, Jonathan, Esther, Jeekai, Tim), as well as the people who joined, then moved to other groups (Jesse and Shuyi).
And in a sense, when we discussed the farewell for the group, we felt that it was only apt that we ended off with hand painting.. Sort of as a momento to our group, as well as a timely reminder of how far the group has come in just one year after it was formed.
And then some people were taken out of the group to do greater things in other groups, some of us remained.. and Guanzhen joined us. And we remained as NUSC1 :) It has been interesting in the past few weeks. Hehe.
Say the word.. And I will sing for You
Over oceans deep I will follow
If each star was a song
Every breath of wind praise
It will still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live for You
And after a few months of wondering, a few weeks of asking God for direction and a few days of praying and intensely seeking for a clear direction, the choice was made.
And I thank God how even after I've made the choice, affirmation of the choice was given by God, that even as others were praying for me, the same resounding choice remained.
And I'm amazed at how God's will eventually comes to pass in my life and in another sister's life.. despite certain decisions made earlier on.
It's time to move on:)
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Before my short term memory catches up on me and I forget the details of the camp.
Day 1 of camp! (heh. Jesse has already written down a post from her perspective. This will be more of a recount of what happened, as well as things from my perspective. lol :)
Beautiful morning on the day that we set off :) hahaa. Haven't woken up so early in a long time...
Nice?:) Took this picture while I was waiting for my dad to drive my to Newton's circle.. haha. Lazy daughter.
Actually, I remember thinking to myself that it's probably faster for me to take a train down to Newton's circle than to wait for my dad to drive me.
Ah well :)
Loitered around at Newton's circle for a while... bought breakfast, took pictures. Felt interesting 'cos you don't see the usual uni group people around. hahaa. Interesting and a little scared at the same time.
It's quite amusing 'cos I was thinking about how I don't know most of the people there.. haha. Oh well:) Can make friends along the way.. haha.
Long bus ride:) Manmi was my seat partner:) hehe. Quite amazed by the speed of the customs.. haha. The white piece of paper for declaration of goods is no longer needed! It really makes a difference.. the speed of processing through the customs. The removal of that piece of paper and the airconditioning of the customs makes it a more enjoyable experience to enter Malaysia. haha. At least it gave me a better impression and enticed me to want to enter Malaysia in the near future :) lol.
Took pictures of lovely people on the bus. hahaa. I realized I took them in pairs. Can take a look at who was sitting with who :)
[On an extra note.. Picasa is horrendous. It doesn't allow me to do borders. How troublesome.]
Lol.
We used to have a pair of devils on the bus, sitting in front of us (namely Jesse and Huili..)
But as we got nearer and nearer to Shah Alam, and further and further away from Singapore...
Okay. ignore me :)
The bus ride was full of funny songs. lol. Some of which became characteristic of the future YP group. It usually involves cows. Don't ask.
Hmm. I remember something quite vividly during the bus ride though.. Think I was commenting on something, and David was asking 'who's the 'them'?' It happened twice while I was talking. Guess I gotta make my speech clearer and to ascertain more keenly the source of what I listen to in the future as well. That's something I learned from him that day :) lol.
Lunch was at Serimbun (hope I got the spelling right). It's pretty funny 'cos the lights were off when we went into the restaurant. At first I sincerely believed that they're going to present the dishes out with a dramatic entrance (the kind whereby waiters and waitresses present dishes with one hand and come out in a row... the kind in which a candle exists in the middle of the dish..) Well, it turned out that the government switched off the power (we have no idea why). So we have no aircon and no lights for the rest of our lunch.
Ironically, the lights came back after lunch.
hurhur. lol.
That's tracy.. our beautiful transfer guide of the day :) She's very friendly. hahaa. Apparently she's been in this line for a long time.. Seems keen on sharing with us about the upcoming fruit season in Malaysia :) haha. quite a genuine person:) Enjoyed her presence with us..
On a random note, I'm fascinated with hills. Don't ask me why. I think it's probably 'cos we don't have them in Singapore. hahaa.
Pictures of distant hills in Malaysia. All taken while the coach was still moving happily along the road :)
Okay. I'm running out of thoughts and running out of sober-ness (if there's such a word. Getting sleepy.
Tuition tomorrow:) Will update more when I'm more awake. (if the time ever comes that there'll be a time when I'm more awake:)
Day 1 of camp! (heh. Jesse has already written down a post from her perspective. This will be more of a recount of what happened, as well as things from my perspective. lol :)
Beautiful morning on the day that we set off :) hahaa. Haven't woken up so early in a long time...
Nice?:) Took this picture while I was waiting for my dad to drive my to Newton's circle.. haha. Lazy daughter.
Actually, I remember thinking to myself that it's probably faster for me to take a train down to Newton's circle than to wait for my dad to drive me.
Ah well :)
Loitered around at Newton's circle for a while... bought breakfast, took pictures. Felt interesting 'cos you don't see the usual uni group people around. hahaa. Interesting and a little scared at the same time.
It's quite amusing 'cos I was thinking about how I don't know most of the people there.. haha. Oh well:) Can make friends along the way.. haha.
Long bus ride:) Manmi was my seat partner:) hehe. Quite amazed by the speed of the customs.. haha. The white piece of paper for declaration of goods is no longer needed! It really makes a difference.. the speed of processing through the customs. The removal of that piece of paper and the airconditioning of the customs makes it a more enjoyable experience to enter Malaysia. haha. At least it gave me a better impression and enticed me to want to enter Malaysia in the near future :) lol.
Took pictures of lovely people on the bus. hahaa. I realized I took them in pairs. Can take a look at who was sitting with who :)
[On an extra note.. Picasa is horrendous. It doesn't allow me to do borders. How troublesome.]
Lol.
We used to have a pair of devils on the bus, sitting in front of us (namely Jesse and Huili..)
But as we got nearer and nearer to Shah Alam, and further and further away from Singapore...
Okay. ignore me :)
The bus ride was full of funny songs. lol. Some of which became characteristic of the future YP group. It usually involves cows. Don't ask.
Hmm. I remember something quite vividly during the bus ride though.. Think I was commenting on something, and David was asking 'who's the 'them'?' It happened twice while I was talking. Guess I gotta make my speech clearer and to ascertain more keenly the source of what I listen to in the future as well. That's something I learned from him that day :) lol.
Lunch was at Serimbun (hope I got the spelling right). It's pretty funny 'cos the lights were off when we went into the restaurant. At first I sincerely believed that they're going to present the dishes out with a dramatic entrance (the kind whereby waiters and waitresses present dishes with one hand and come out in a row... the kind in which a candle exists in the middle of the dish..) Well, it turned out that the government switched off the power (we have no idea why). So we have no aircon and no lights for the rest of our lunch.
Ironically, the lights came back after lunch.
hurhur. lol.
That's tracy.. our beautiful transfer guide of the day :) She's very friendly. hahaa. Apparently she's been in this line for a long time.. Seems keen on sharing with us about the upcoming fruit season in Malaysia :) haha. quite a genuine person:) Enjoyed her presence with us..
On a random note, I'm fascinated with hills. Don't ask me why. I think it's probably 'cos we don't have them in Singapore. hahaa.
Pictures of distant hills in Malaysia. All taken while the coach was still moving happily along the road :)
Okay. I'm running out of thoughts and running out of sober-ness (if there's such a word. Getting sleepy.
Tuition tomorrow:) Will update more when I'm more awake. (if the time ever comes that there'll be a time when I'm more awake:)
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Monday, June 09, 2008
lol.
back from camp :)
I had LOTS of ideas during the camp as to how to structure the blog entry.. but fatigue is pulling me away :) haha.
Really a blessed camp. a renewal of spirit and heart for most of us.. a time when we see God's hand move through instant healing, prophecies, interpretation of tongues, prophetic prayers and conversion.
Share more when I'm more free:)
Empowered, reassured and well rested!
back from camp :)
I had LOTS of ideas during the camp as to how to structure the blog entry.. but fatigue is pulling me away :) haha.
Really a blessed camp. a renewal of spirit and heart for most of us.. a time when we see God's hand move through instant healing, prophecies, interpretation of tongues, prophetic prayers and conversion.
Share more when I'm more free:)
Empowered, reassured and well rested!
Thursday, June 05, 2008
I was so surprised tonight when ej msned me and passed me the youtube link. hahaa. I'm surprised that
1) he rememebers me!
2) he remembers my nick! (he calls me cheese. don't ask why)
3) he remembers which year i'm in! wah.
lol.
and all i remember is that he's ej and he wanted to bake bread outside schools. hahaha. i'm so horrigible. (horrible and incorrigible).
hahaha.
ej is one of my most unlikely friend. mainly because i only got to know him because someone i liked likes him. wahaha. so being the one who always likes to back out if the person i like likes someone else, i wanted to help to get them together.
oh well :)
he's a good guy!:)
1) he rememebers me!
2) he remembers my nick! (he calls me cheese. don't ask why)
3) he remembers which year i'm in! wah.
lol.
and all i remember is that he's ej and he wanted to bake bread outside schools. hahaha. i'm so horrigible. (horrible and incorrigible).
hahaha.
ej is one of my most unlikely friend. mainly because i only got to know him because someone i liked likes him. wahaha. so being the one who always likes to back out if the person i like likes someone else, i wanted to help to get them together.
oh well :)
he's a good guy!:)
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Suddenly got the craving for Bjork's songs.
lol.
First heard of her when I borrowed 'Dancer in the Dark' by Lars Von Trier from the NLB video collection. (on a sidenote: Lars is the one who destroyed my innocence. lol). One of my songs in the movie can be found here. The music can be heard here:
My favourite scene comes from her singing 'my favourite things':)
lol.
First heard of her when I borrowed 'Dancer in the Dark' by Lars Von Trier from the NLB video collection. (on a sidenote: Lars is the one who destroyed my innocence. lol). One of my songs in the movie can be found here. The music can be heard here:
My favourite scene comes from her singing 'my favourite things':)
took this from one of my older blogs:
THE TOUCH OF THE MASTER'S HAND
Author Unknown
Well it was battered and scarred, and the auctioneer felt It was hardly worth his while, to waste much time on the old violin. But he held it up with a smile... "It sure ain't much but it's all we got left, I guess we ought to sell it too... Now who'll start the bid on this old violin, just one more and we'll be through."
And then he cried, "One! Give me one dollar! Who'll make it two? Only two dollars! Who'll make it three? Three dollars twice! Now that's a good price... now who's got a bid for me? Raise up your hand and don't wait any longer. The auction's about to end. Who's got four? Just one dollar more... to bid on this old violin."
Well the air was hot and the people stood around. As the sun was setting low, from the back of the crowd a gray-haired man came forward, picked up the bow. He wiped the dust from the old violin, and tightened up the strings... Then he played out a melody pure and sweet... sweeter than the angels sing.
And then the music stopped... and the auctioneer with a voice that was quiet and low, he said, "What am I to bid for this old violin? " Then he held it up with a bow.
And then he cried, "One! Give me one thousand! Who'll make it two? Only two thousand! Who'll make it three? Three thousand twice! Now that's a good price... but who's got a bid for me? The people cried out, "What made the change? We don't understand" Then the auctioneer stopped and he said with a smile, "It was the Touch of A Master's Hand"
Now you know many a man with a life out of tune is battered and scarred with sin and he's auctioned cheap to a thankless world, much like that old violin. Then the Master comes, and the foolish crowd. They never understand The worth of a soul and the change that is wrought, just by one touch of THE MASTER'S HAND.
THE TOUCH OF THE MASTER'S HAND
Author Unknown
Well it was battered and scarred, and the auctioneer felt It was hardly worth his while, to waste much time on the old violin. But he held it up with a smile... "It sure ain't much but it's all we got left, I guess we ought to sell it too... Now who'll start the bid on this old violin, just one more and we'll be through."
And then he cried, "One! Give me one dollar! Who'll make it two? Only two dollars! Who'll make it three? Three dollars twice! Now that's a good price... now who's got a bid for me? Raise up your hand and don't wait any longer. The auction's about to end. Who's got four? Just one dollar more... to bid on this old violin."
Well the air was hot and the people stood around. As the sun was setting low, from the back of the crowd a gray-haired man came forward, picked up the bow. He wiped the dust from the old violin, and tightened up the strings... Then he played out a melody pure and sweet... sweeter than the angels sing.
And then the music stopped... and the auctioneer with a voice that was quiet and low, he said, "What am I to bid for this old violin? " Then he held it up with a bow.
And then he cried, "One! Give me one thousand! Who'll make it two? Only two thousand! Who'll make it three? Three thousand twice! Now that's a good price... but who's got a bid for me? The people cried out, "What made the change? We don't understand" Then the auctioneer stopped and he said with a smile, "It was the Touch of A Master's Hand"
Now you know many a man with a life out of tune is battered and scarred with sin and he's auctioned cheap to a thankless world, much like that old violin. Then the Master comes, and the foolish crowd. They never understand The worth of a soul and the change that is wrought, just by one touch of THE MASTER'S HAND.
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Recently have been thinking about quite a lot of stuff. including, but not exclusive to, families (in general), marriage (no. i'm not thinking about getting marriage. just the topic of marriage in general), relationships (including bgr, friendships, relationships between brothers and sisters..), ministers, revival, passion, taking care of children (in part due to taking care of chi, who is like a child...), future direction, personal growth, ministry, studies..
quite a myriad of items.
Made a few decisions which could potentially affect my ministry and career, though it may not. In a sense, I'm glad there's a small resolution to this uncertainty for half a year, in another sense, I still wonder if it's the right choice to make.
But I'm sure God will make it certain, seeing how He's delivered me through all the different stations in my life.
My relationship with God is very similar to David's (i find). No, I'm not a shepherd boy. No, I'm not called to be a king. But I identify with David in his madness for God. I understand how it feels to be unashamed before the Lord, dancing before Him with abandon, against the odd views of other people. I identify with David's psalms, his anguish, his sorrows, his exuberance, his exaltation of God. I have tasted a little bit of how David feels when God delivered Him, when God gave him victory over his enemies, a little bit of the anguish he feels. Emotionally, I've tasted the extreme high and the extreme low. And the haste in which they come and go.
Psalm 73 used to be a psalm which speaks very much into my heart. I used to identify with it quite well. The whole psalm in fact. lol. Now not so much. We all grow from glory to glory, and so I've moved on as well.
But some verses which always stay with me/I remember well are verses 21-26
"When my heart was grieved,
and my spirit embittered,
I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.
Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me into your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever."
Amen.
And alongside the verse, I'll remember of how the same words I've told Joycelyn in the past reminded me of this truth when she shares why she does things...
that God will never shortchange me in what I do.
He won't shortchange you too.
And I always remember of how in the bible, God keeps the tears that we cry in a bottle. (Upon much searching, I realized that I first read this verse in the new living translation bible that I have.. it's not in NIV.. so presenting to you.. the NLT version)
Psalm 56:8 (NLT)
"You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book."
What a personal God we have!
And that is, I guess, part of the reason that allows me to continue on. Knowing that I'm working hard for my taps in heaven (eternal rewards), loving God back out of His love or me, knowing that I can never outgive God (remembering the story of the little girl who exchanged fake pearls for real ones..) and knowing that all that I go through is recorded (He remembers, He's written them down.)
Sometimes it hurts.
Sometimes I wonder why I must do certain things.
Sometimes I look back (though the bible did say that those who look back are not fit for Christian service. hee.)
Sometimes I deliberately, defiantly ask God to go away and not to bother me.
Sometimes I get tired and don't feel like doing anything.
Sometimes I just want to be left alone.
We all feel this way... sometimes.
But at the end of the day, yetI am always with God. He holds us by our right hands, never letting us go.
It's just whether we know He's there or not.
quite a myriad of items.
Made a few decisions which could potentially affect my ministry and career, though it may not. In a sense, I'm glad there's a small resolution to this uncertainty for half a year, in another sense, I still wonder if it's the right choice to make.
But I'm sure God will make it certain, seeing how He's delivered me through all the different stations in my life.
My relationship with God is very similar to David's (i find). No, I'm not a shepherd boy. No, I'm not called to be a king. But I identify with David in his madness for God. I understand how it feels to be unashamed before the Lord, dancing before Him with abandon, against the odd views of other people. I identify with David's psalms, his anguish, his sorrows, his exuberance, his exaltation of God. I have tasted a little bit of how David feels when God delivered Him, when God gave him victory over his enemies, a little bit of the anguish he feels. Emotionally, I've tasted the extreme high and the extreme low. And the haste in which they come and go.
Psalm 73 used to be a psalm which speaks very much into my heart. I used to identify with it quite well. The whole psalm in fact. lol. Now not so much. We all grow from glory to glory, and so I've moved on as well.
But some verses which always stay with me/I remember well are verses 21-26
"When my heart was grieved,
and my spirit embittered,
I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.
Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me into your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever."
Amen.
And alongside the verse, I'll remember of how the same words I've told Joycelyn in the past reminded me of this truth when she shares why she does things...
that God will never shortchange me in what I do.
He won't shortchange you too.
And I always remember of how in the bible, God keeps the tears that we cry in a bottle. (Upon much searching, I realized that I first read this verse in the new living translation bible that I have.. it's not in NIV.. so presenting to you.. the NLT version)
Psalm 56:8 (NLT)
"You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book."
What a personal God we have!
And that is, I guess, part of the reason that allows me to continue on. Knowing that I'm working hard for my taps in heaven (eternal rewards), loving God back out of His love or me, knowing that I can never outgive God (remembering the story of the little girl who exchanged fake pearls for real ones..) and knowing that all that I go through is recorded (He remembers, He's written them down.)
Sometimes it hurts.
Sometimes I wonder why I must do certain things.
Sometimes I look back (though the bible did say that those who look back are not fit for Christian service. hee.)
Sometimes I deliberately, defiantly ask God to go away and not to bother me.
Sometimes I get tired and don't feel like doing anything.
Sometimes I just want to be left alone.
We all feel this way... sometimes.
But at the end of the day, yetI am always with God. He holds us by our right hands, never letting us go.
It's just whether we know He's there or not.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
And some idiot dare to tell my mum that psychology is not a good course to take.
I felt like smacking the person.
If psychology is not important, so is medicine.
People don't see the importance of mental health 'cos it's something which you do not see the physical symptoms of.. but little do they know that mental health (and human behaviour) affects ALL aspects of your life. It can affect human functioning and your ability to excel, it can affect a person's mental construct and the ability to think rationally, it can even affect a person physically (psychosomatic symptoms, phantom illness).
gee.
I felt like smacking the person.
If psychology is not important, so is medicine.
People don't see the importance of mental health 'cos it's something which you do not see the physical symptoms of.. but little do they know that mental health (and human behaviour) affects ALL aspects of your life. It can affect human functioning and your ability to excel, it can affect a person's mental construct and the ability to think rationally, it can even affect a person physically (psychosomatic symptoms, phantom illness).
gee.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Came back not long ago from the appointment with a certain job agency. The appointment was made after a call yesterday about a job as a medicine packer. Supposed to meet Venetia and the rest to go do up the momento, but realized that i was quite tired as i settled and saw chi. had to entertain chi for a while. now he's asleep.
i feel slightly fatigued as well.
Didn't really have to wear formal clothes i guess, since it's just the filling up of a form for temporary employment. Was sitting there and waiting for further instructions when I realized how bored I was, sitting in the office looking at articles about human resource and attempting to read a magazine with an article about using psychometric testing to find people with the right job-fits for positions.
my soul yawned.
I told them that I'm not free during the camp period. So they've to check with the client if she's okay about it and get back to me again. Don't know how they'll respond if I told them I'm not free for matric camp period either. lol. Or for a period of time in July. Think they might slaughter me?
Anyway, it's silly. One of the persons who was talking to me (supposedly the lady boss) offered me the temp job in her company, to sift through resumes to do job-fitting. 5.50/hr. 8.30am-5.30pm daily. lol. i turned down the job.
so actually, it's not that hard to find jobs afterall? :l
ah. chi is being noisy. and he was so huai dan just now. kept jumping off the bed and running into the living room when mao mi is in the kitchen. what if he gets eaten up!
i feel slightly fatigued as well.
Didn't really have to wear formal clothes i guess, since it's just the filling up of a form for temporary employment. Was sitting there and waiting for further instructions when I realized how bored I was, sitting in the office looking at articles about human resource and attempting to read a magazine with an article about using psychometric testing to find people with the right job-fits for positions.
my soul yawned.
I told them that I'm not free during the camp period. So they've to check with the client if she's okay about it and get back to me again. Don't know how they'll respond if I told them I'm not free for matric camp period either. lol. Or for a period of time in July. Think they might slaughter me?
Anyway, it's silly. One of the persons who was talking to me (supposedly the lady boss) offered me the temp job in her company, to sift through resumes to do job-fitting. 5.50/hr. 8.30am-5.30pm daily. lol. i turned down the job.
so actually, it's not that hard to find jobs afterall? :l
ah. chi is being noisy. and he was so huai dan just now. kept jumping off the bed and running into the living room when mao mi is in the kitchen. what if he gets eaten up!
Heh. went to buy some clothes for the appointment tomorrow. no idea what the appointment is for though. maybe to sign some stuff? LOL.
anyway, i got a call today (while meeting weiling:D so she's there to share my joy with me. haha) from this lady who asked me if i'm interested in a part time job. yup. as a ...
medicine packer
lol. sounds weird ah.
come to think of it. i wonder if it's the same job that i was looking at. lol. anyway, if it is, the pay is supposedly 8/hr. and the working hrs are from 10pm to 8am XD wahahaa.
i'll be used to thon-ing overnight after this. lol.
just don't call me out before 3pm:S
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hehe. chi is a lap cat :) my mao mi isn't. but chi is. he's sleeping on my lab again. hehe. it's official!
Guan mama a.k.a GUAN RUI has asked for permission from his parents to take care of chi for 1 week. THANKEW GUAN MAMA! :) you took a big load off my heart.
and thanks to everyone else who were concerned about chi/offered to take care of chi :)
i feel like a mum. *faint* in whatever i do, chi comes into consideration. LOL.
but quite fun to play with him, feed him (when i'm free), watching him grow/gallop/run around the house. lol.
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anyway, i got a call today (while meeting weiling:D so she's there to share my joy with me. haha) from this lady who asked me if i'm interested in a part time job. yup. as a ...
medicine packer
lol. sounds weird ah.
come to think of it. i wonder if it's the same job that i was looking at. lol. anyway, if it is, the pay is supposedly 8/hr. and the working hrs are from 10pm to 8am XD wahahaa.
i'll be used to thon-ing overnight after this. lol.
just don't call me out before 3pm:S
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hehe. chi is a lap cat :) my mao mi isn't. but chi is. he's sleeping on my lab again. hehe. it's official!
Guan mama a.k.a GUAN RUI has asked for permission from his parents to take care of chi for 1 week. THANKEW GUAN MAMA! :) you took a big load off my heart.
and thanks to everyone else who were concerned about chi/offered to take care of chi :)
i feel like a mum. *faint* in whatever i do, chi comes into consideration. LOL.
but quite fun to play with him, feed him (when i'm free), watching him grow/gallop/run around the house. lol.
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Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
more updates for Chi!:
Silly thing is getting plumper O.o how? and i suspect he doesn't get enough exercise.. being cooped up in my room most of the time. Then again, i wonder if he's of the right size O.o
wanted to buy kmr 2nd step (to aid in weaning our dear Chi) from Pet Lovers' centre.. but they don't have. the guy said:
"first step, 2nd step, all the same.."
then when i asked about the weaning thing.. they said that 5-6 weeks too young to wean. apparently, the digestive system is unable to take it.
oh well.
shall feed him on milk a little more then:)
so far so good.
no diarrhoea.
no eye infection.
got some injuries on the face (no idea how he sustained them though O.o)
have yet to clean out his cage. maybe i should go it later. before he goes to sleep.
he's sleeping on the same chair i'm sitting on now:)
hehe.
wikipedia says that domestic kittens tend to be more affectionate and dependant on humans. hahaa.
anyone wanna take care of him permanently?:) i'll miss him.. but taking care of 2 cats concurrently is killing me (literally).
you have to spend your energy in taking care of the small one, and making sure that the big one don't feel neglected/pacify the big one when she feels jealous. lol.
financially dying too.
i was thinking about how i should bring him for another vet trip to check against ringworms, as well as the need to vaccinate/neuter him soon. and i went to check the vet fees and was like O.o
love offering, anyone? LOL. kidding kidding.
urgent urgent
I need someone who is able and willing to take care of Chi for around 5 days... specifically from 5-8 June. Going for adults camp in Shah Alam and it's very troublesome to apply for permit to bring a live pet into malaysia:S i need to pay entry fee and quarantine fee. faint. and my pet is not vaccinated! LOL
I need someone who's patient and loving and able to feed chi regularly (e.g. every 8 hours too.
chi is very easily attached to humans. hahaa.
he'll snuggle up to you, he'll follow your legs if he knows your scent. he'll play with you if he's comfortable.
he's not toilet trained though. but he likes to pee and poo at fabric areas (specifically the same spot once he finds his favourite spot. LOL).. so i prob will supply the fabric if needed. will try to train him to pee/poo there O.o lol
he usually pees/poos before and after eating. so yup. it's VERY OBVIOUS.
hmmm.
he'll suckle too. usually after drinking milk. it doesn't hurt. don't worry :)
so yup.
if you fulfill the following criteria and would like to take care of a kitten for a while and enjoy the presence of an innocent playful wide-eyed kitten, do sms me ASAP. thanks.
preferably someone who's seen chi before.
do help SPREAD THE WORD AROUND! :)
Silly thing is getting plumper O.o how? and i suspect he doesn't get enough exercise.. being cooped up in my room most of the time. Then again, i wonder if he's of the right size O.o
wanted to buy kmr 2nd step (to aid in weaning our dear Chi) from Pet Lovers' centre.. but they don't have. the guy said:
"first step, 2nd step, all the same.."
then when i asked about the weaning thing.. they said that 5-6 weeks too young to wean. apparently, the digestive system is unable to take it.
oh well.
shall feed him on milk a little more then:)
so far so good.
no diarrhoea.
no eye infection.
got some injuries on the face (no idea how he sustained them though O.o)
have yet to clean out his cage. maybe i should go it later. before he goes to sleep.
he's sleeping on the same chair i'm sitting on now:)
hehe.
wikipedia says that domestic kittens tend to be more affectionate and dependant on humans. hahaa.
anyone wanna take care of him permanently?:) i'll miss him.. but taking care of 2 cats concurrently is killing me (literally).
you have to spend your energy in taking care of the small one, and making sure that the big one don't feel neglected/pacify the big one when she feels jealous. lol.
financially dying too.
i was thinking about how i should bring him for another vet trip to check against ringworms, as well as the need to vaccinate/neuter him soon. and i went to check the vet fees and was like O.o
love offering, anyone? LOL. kidding kidding.
urgent urgent
I need someone who is able and willing to take care of Chi for around 5 days... specifically from 5-8 June. Going for adults camp in Shah Alam and it's very troublesome to apply for permit to bring a live pet into malaysia:S i need to pay entry fee and quarantine fee. faint. and my pet is not vaccinated! LOL
I need someone who's patient and loving and able to feed chi regularly (e.g. every 8 hours too.
chi is very easily attached to humans. hahaa.
he'll snuggle up to you, he'll follow your legs if he knows your scent. he'll play with you if he's comfortable.
he's not toilet trained though. but he likes to pee and poo at fabric areas (specifically the same spot once he finds his favourite spot. LOL).. so i prob will supply the fabric if needed. will try to train him to pee/poo there O.o lol
he usually pees/poos before and after eating. so yup. it's VERY OBVIOUS.
hmmm.
he'll suckle too. usually after drinking milk. it doesn't hurt. don't worry :)
so yup.
if you fulfill the following criteria and would like to take care of a kitten for a while and enjoy the presence of an innocent playful wide-eyed kitten, do sms me ASAP. thanks.
preferably someone who's seen chi before.
do help SPREAD THE WORD AROUND! :)
Friday, May 23, 2008
My life can be segmented into different areas these days. It can be logged. LOL.
Family
Contemplating a trip to hongkong instead of Taiwan 'cos a trip to Taiwan will take up approx $1100 per person. That's a lot! lol. My mum insists on a holiday trip this year 'cos they've never been on a holiday before and she wants to have the chance to go overseas once in her life. Along with my dad. She says she may not be alive to wait for me to graduate and treat her in the future. O.o
Ministry
Went to observe the rehearsal for Sat's service today!:) hahaa. So intriguing. Amazed and amused to see Jobb in the sound ministry. hahaa. The reality of being in the singers' ministry settles in as I observe them practicing for Sat. So much things I don't know! lol. e.g. harmonizing. faint. lol. Thanks to the people who were so fun loving and eager to be excellent in it :) Got to know a few people more! hahaa.
Work
Sent out two resumes (so far. not a lot ah) for part time temp jobs. No replies yet :( LOL.
Chi
Chi is getting 'stickier' by the day :l
Family
Contemplating a trip to hongkong instead of Taiwan 'cos a trip to Taiwan will take up approx $1100 per person. That's a lot! lol. My mum insists on a holiday trip this year 'cos they've never been on a holiday before and she wants to have the chance to go overseas once in her life. Along with my dad. She says she may not be alive to wait for me to graduate and treat her in the future. O.o
Ministry
Went to observe the rehearsal for Sat's service today!:) hahaa. So intriguing. Amazed and amused to see Jobb in the sound ministry. hahaa. The reality of being in the singers' ministry settles in as I observe them practicing for Sat. So much things I don't know! lol. e.g. harmonizing. faint. lol. Thanks to the people who were so fun loving and eager to be excellent in it :) Got to know a few people more! hahaa.
Work
Sent out two resumes (so far. not a lot ah) for part time temp jobs. No replies yet :( LOL.
Chi
Chi is getting 'stickier' by the day :l
Thursday, May 22, 2008
hehee.
it's time for another update on Chi (if you ain't sick of him yet.)
yes.
it's officially confirmed! Chi is a boy!:) why? because!
And Chi now knows how to
1) PEE
2) POO (he shakes back and forth as he poos. probably to get the rhythm going :D)
3) PLAY WITH ME! (he'll flip on his back and try to snatch at my fingers with his paws and put them into his mouth!.. hehe. there was once when he bit and i exclaimed in pain, then he didn't dare to open his mouth after that. hahaa. so silly)
oh yah. for those who don't know..
Chi now knows how to drink from the spoon! in an extremely messy manner though:S not the licking kind. it's the drinking kind. licking from the bottom of the spoon. faint.
And silly chi is now nicknamed/named Emochi by me. 'cos he's silent and emo. lol. likes to play and snuggle up, but still silent and emo.
he's very nian ren. every morning at 7am, i have to take him out of his carrier. then he'll snuggle up beside me (near my neck) to sleep. silly thing.
and he follows my legs when i put him on the living room floor to walk! lol.
yup. that's all for updates on chi!
it's time for another update on Chi (if you ain't sick of him yet.)
yes.
it's officially confirmed! Chi is a boy!:) why? because!
And Chi now knows how to
1) PEE
2) POO (he shakes back and forth as he poos. probably to get the rhythm going :D)
3) PLAY WITH ME! (he'll flip on his back and try to snatch at my fingers with his paws and put them into his mouth!.. hehe. there was once when he bit and i exclaimed in pain, then he didn't dare to open his mouth after that. hahaa. so silly)
oh yah. for those who don't know..
Chi now knows how to drink from the spoon! in an extremely messy manner though:S not the licking kind. it's the drinking kind. licking from the bottom of the spoon. faint.
And silly chi is now nicknamed/named Emochi by me. 'cos he's silent and emo. lol. likes to play and snuggle up, but still silent and emo.
he's very nian ren. every morning at 7am, i have to take him out of his carrier. then he'll snuggle up beside me (near my neck) to sleep. silly thing.
and he follows my legs when i put him on the living room floor to walk! lol.
yup. that's all for updates on chi!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
i think i am a strange person.
perhaps many people think they are strange too.
1) i get bored easily.
2) if something which i think is very worthwhile to me is available, i don't get bored with it.
3) if i don't get to dabble much in the thing which i think is worthwhile to me, i get bored again.
4) things which i don't see the potential in, i may drop it very quickly --> doing things out of responsibility is not very appealing to me/will only get substandard things from me.
lala.
perhaps many people think they are strange too.
1) i get bored easily.
2) if something which i think is very worthwhile to me is available, i don't get bored with it.
3) if i don't get to dabble much in the thing which i think is worthwhile to me, i get bored again.
4) things which i don't see the potential in, i may drop it very quickly --> doing things out of responsibility is not very appealing to me/will only get substandard things from me.
lala.
Friday, May 16, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
At ang mo kio macs typing this out. Waiting for bobo and venven to come. haha.
just came out from bo's house.
the uni main com and sub com pple were discussing together yesterday night, all in preparation for uni camp .. which is..
TOMORROW!
quite encouraged by the spirit of the people:) have been quite tired in the past few days due to taking of chi/sleeping late (can't remember because of what)/ preparing stuff ard.. this whole week feels more tiring than last exam week 'cos
1) not enough sleep continuously
2) haven't had chance to recover from the brunt of exams
3) no time to properly plan out things to do. plans have to be changed accordingly. plans have become VERY flexible. hahaha.
but quite enjoyable i suppose. though the fatigue is probably getting to lots of people.
encouraged by michelle. who stayed overnight at bo's house with us to tie down things with the programming pple. and she still has work today :) and in view of the fact that we still have 3 and a half days of camp ahead.. woohoo.
encouraged by sze hua, who was so meticulous and detailed in handling logistical stuff that it amazes me. hahaa. thank God for her charm XD
encouraged by weiling (who's probably reading this..), who continually ponders about how to improve on the games, wishing to make it more excellent :) jiayou wor!
encouraged by joyce lim. hahaa. served with her last year for alpha.. think i really enjoy serving with her.. 'cos her spirit is very sweet:) and very uplifting. and she's willing to learn:)
encouraged by bo. who willingly opened up his house for 5 sisters. hahahaa. and hosted us even as he's very tired. thank God for his continual silent 'do-it' spirit for God:)
hehe. encouraged by ven and lishan as well! but will type that another day. especially for venven :)
i think a verse that keeps coming back to me is that of
"Unless the Lord builds the house
the labourers labour in vain."
which is really true. think we labour because we really hope that the uni camp can touch the hearts of all the people who're going.. all 180 of us.
and unless people go, the efforts will all go to waste.
if people are willing,
God can move in a mightier way than you can imagine.
just came out from bo's house.
the uni main com and sub com pple were discussing together yesterday night, all in preparation for uni camp .. which is..
TOMORROW!
quite encouraged by the spirit of the people:) have been quite tired in the past few days due to taking of chi/sleeping late (can't remember because of what)/ preparing stuff ard.. this whole week feels more tiring than last exam week 'cos
1) not enough sleep continuously
2) haven't had chance to recover from the brunt of exams
3) no time to properly plan out things to do. plans have to be changed accordingly. plans have become VERY flexible. hahaha.
but quite enjoyable i suppose. though the fatigue is probably getting to lots of people.
encouraged by michelle. who stayed overnight at bo's house with us to tie down things with the programming pple. and she still has work today :) and in view of the fact that we still have 3 and a half days of camp ahead.. woohoo.
encouraged by sze hua, who was so meticulous and detailed in handling logistical stuff that it amazes me. hahaa. thank God for her charm XD
encouraged by weiling (who's probably reading this..), who continually ponders about how to improve on the games, wishing to make it more excellent :) jiayou wor!
encouraged by joyce lim. hahaa. served with her last year for alpha.. think i really enjoy serving with her.. 'cos her spirit is very sweet:) and very uplifting. and she's willing to learn:)
encouraged by bo. who willingly opened up his house for 5 sisters. hahahaa. and hosted us even as he's very tired. thank God for his continual silent 'do-it' spirit for God:)
hehe. encouraged by ven and lishan as well! but will type that another day. especially for venven :)
i think a verse that keeps coming back to me is that of
"Unless the Lord builds the house
the labourers labour in vain."
which is really true. think we labour because we really hope that the uni camp can touch the hearts of all the people who're going.. all 180 of us.
and unless people go, the efforts will all go to waste.
if people are willing,
God can move in a mightier way than you can imagine.
Monday, May 12, 2008
I guess taking of a cat is not as easy as it seems. lol.
It's time consuming, financial consuming and energy consuming.
hehe.
anyway chi's definitely growing bigger! though not as big as how I'd like him to be. he's still small enough to be carried in two palms. I think it's a him anyway:)
and he's very worrisome! think he drinks milk the wrong way.. so everytime will burp/fart out a lot of air. it's very scary. sometimes he'll hiccup.. and it makes you wonder what's wrong. 'cos his eyes will go very big and become very watery, and he's just keep expelling a lot of air. and there's nothing you can do but stroke its back/pat its back, in the hope that it helps to get the air out sooner.
but he's getting stronger:) he can now climb out of the carrier on his own. woohoo. and much faster too.
a bit quieter today.. after the traumatic event of falling off my bed. and the traumatic event of being forced to drink from a shallow dish. it got very quiet after that:l and got quite reluctant to suckle. he's since recovered (i hope).
i don't have the time to take care of it. lol. especially with uni camp coming up and all. don't know what to do then.
and the milk powder is diminishing soon!:) he now drinks the whole portion at one feeding (the big spoonful of powder).
and he doesn't like his carrier anymore.. so now he wanders ard my bed most of the time.
okay. i know some people find it unhygenic. i don't really care at this moment anyway. he's so small! and i'm not allergic to him! fell asleep a few times while stroking it to sleep.
let's pray that it survives. very scary to keep hearing burping voices from him:S
It's time consuming, financial consuming and energy consuming.
hehe.
anyway chi's definitely growing bigger! though not as big as how I'd like him to be. he's still small enough to be carried in two palms. I think it's a him anyway:)
and he's very worrisome! think he drinks milk the wrong way.. so everytime will burp/fart out a lot of air. it's very scary. sometimes he'll hiccup.. and it makes you wonder what's wrong. 'cos his eyes will go very big and become very watery, and he's just keep expelling a lot of air. and there's nothing you can do but stroke its back/pat its back, in the hope that it helps to get the air out sooner.
but he's getting stronger:) he can now climb out of the carrier on his own. woohoo. and much faster too.
a bit quieter today.. after the traumatic event of falling off my bed. and the traumatic event of being forced to drink from a shallow dish. it got very quiet after that:l and got quite reluctant to suckle. he's since recovered (i hope).
i don't have the time to take care of it. lol. especially with uni camp coming up and all. don't know what to do then.
and the milk powder is diminishing soon!:) he now drinks the whole portion at one feeding (the big spoonful of powder).
and he doesn't like his carrier anymore.. so now he wanders ard my bed most of the time.
okay. i know some people find it unhygenic. i don't really care at this moment anyway. he's so small! and i'm not allergic to him! fell asleep a few times while stroking it to sleep.
let's pray that it survives. very scary to keep hearing burping voices from him:S
Friday, May 09, 2008
"The truly creative mind in any field is no more than this:
A human creature born abnormally, inhumanly sensitive.
To him...
a touch is a blow,
a sound is a noise,
a misfortune is a tragedy,
a joy is an ecstasy,
a friend is a lover,
a lover is a god,
and failure is death.
Add to this cruelly delicate organism the overpowering necessity to create, create, create - - - so that without the creating of music or poetry or books or buildings or something of meaning, his very breath is cut off from him. He must create, must pour out creation. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency he is not really alive unless he is creating."
-Pearl Buck-
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ah.
i was wondering if i have attention deficit disorder... lol.. since i get bored easily and get distracted easily. so i went to read up more on the disorder and realised that i don't have it. lol.
sadness.
hhaha.
so i went to search on the category that i'm supposed to be in..
# They are flexible thinkers, able to use many different alternatives and approaches to problem solving.
# They are original thinkers, seeking new, unusual, or unconventional associations and combinations among items of information.
# They can also see relationships among seemingly unrelated objects, ideas, or facts.
# They are elaborate thinkers, producing new steps, ideas, responses, or other embellishments to a basic idea, situation, or problems.
# They are willing to entertain complexity and seem to thrive on problem solving.
# They are good guessers and can readily construct hypotheses or "what if" questions.
# They often are aware of their own impulsiveness and irrationality, and they show emotional sensitivity.
# They are extremely curious about objects, ideas, situations, or events.
# They often display intellectual playfulness and like to fantasize and imagine.
# They can be less intellectually inhibited than their peers are in expressing opinions and ideas, and they often disagree spiritedly with others' statements.
# They are sensitive to beauty and are attracted to aesthetic values.
---> seems to explain for why i behave in certain ways.
alright!
just received an sms to write a script. a bright sunshine spot in the midst of three weeks of stormy weather.
something within me is enjoying the task of writing the script even before i start.. lol
A human creature born abnormally, inhumanly sensitive.
To him...
a touch is a blow,
a sound is a noise,
a misfortune is a tragedy,
a joy is an ecstasy,
a friend is a lover,
a lover is a god,
and failure is death.
Add to this cruelly delicate organism the overpowering necessity to create, create, create - - - so that without the creating of music or poetry or books or buildings or something of meaning, his very breath is cut off from him. He must create, must pour out creation. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency he is not really alive unless he is creating."
-Pearl Buck-
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ah.
i was wondering if i have attention deficit disorder... lol.. since i get bored easily and get distracted easily. so i went to read up more on the disorder and realised that i don't have it. lol.
sadness.
hhaha.
so i went to search on the category that i'm supposed to be in..
# They are flexible thinkers, able to use many different alternatives and approaches to problem solving.
# They are original thinkers, seeking new, unusual, or unconventional associations and combinations among items of information.
# They can also see relationships among seemingly unrelated objects, ideas, or facts.
# They are elaborate thinkers, producing new steps, ideas, responses, or other embellishments to a basic idea, situation, or problems.
# They are willing to entertain complexity and seem to thrive on problem solving.
# They are good guessers and can readily construct hypotheses or "what if" questions.
# They often are aware of their own impulsiveness and irrationality, and they show emotional sensitivity.
# They are extremely curious about objects, ideas, situations, or events.
# They often display intellectual playfulness and like to fantasize and imagine.
# They can be less intellectually inhibited than their peers are in expressing opinions and ideas, and they often disagree spiritedly with others' statements.
# They are sensitive to beauty and are attracted to aesthetic values.
---> seems to explain for why i behave in certain ways.
alright!
just received an sms to write a script. a bright sunshine spot in the midst of three weeks of stormy weather.
something within me is enjoying the task of writing the script even before i start.. lol
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Studying for pediatric psych exams now..
Realised that maybe having the exam questions presented to you doesn't make it easier to study. it kinda increases the stress on you to memorize the answer, have the best answer and all.
i mean, if the questions are not given to us, at least i can just study the notes, memorize my main points and smoke on that day (hopefully with substance..). but now i'm memorizing.
but i guess it does help us remember the points.
memorized questions 3 and 2.
i still have 1,4,5,6,7!
it's like, u sorta know the material, but you don't go and memorize it. lol.
maybe i'll sleep at 5am again. lol
Realised that maybe having the exam questions presented to you doesn't make it easier to study. it kinda increases the stress on you to memorize the answer, have the best answer and all.
i mean, if the questions are not given to us, at least i can just study the notes, memorize my main points and smoke on that day (hopefully with substance..). but now i'm memorizing.
but i guess it does help us remember the points.
memorized questions 3 and 2.
i still have 1,4,5,6,7!
it's like, u sorta know the material, but you don't go and memorize it. lol.
maybe i'll sleep at 5am again. lol
In one toilet trip, i realised that maybe i need to appreciate the people around me more:) 'cos in appreciating them, i can love them more. and love can cover over a multitude of sins.
in one night, i realised that i don't like to be left out of things:) actually i realised it before, but it's concretized. lol. good that i got to know more about myself:)
and though it's 1.51am, i'm wide awake.
must be the 1 and a half hour nap, accompanied by the tea i drank this morning. lol.
in one night, i realised that i don't like to be left out of things:) actually i realised it before, but it's concretized. lol. good that i got to know more about myself:)
and though it's 1.51am, i'm wide awake.
must be the 1 and a half hour nap, accompanied by the tea i drank this morning. lol.
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
heh.
i really enjoyed my japanese paper:)
it's as delicious as eating unagi sushi. hahaa. it's the same feeling as when i'm watching a good anime and unexpected things unfold. i don't know why i enjoyed it, but i did:)
hehe.
it's probably not my best paper, but writing it was fun. hahaa.
and i was looking at my senseis during the paper and thinking about how i'm going to miss them. or rather, how i'm already missing them:)
so interesting ah.
i always miss the lecturers whom i like. haha. when i don't get to go to their lessons anymore. i miss Dr Tan, i miss Dr Tang. I miss my forensic lecturer Stella Tan. and i'm going to miss Dr Tay this sem, alongside with my japanese senseis. I really enjoyed Japanese. hahaa. every lecture made me laugh. and tutorials were fun too:)
I enjoyed my cognitive psych paper too. haha. though i kinda forgot what conjunctive and disjunctive search was.. heh. and my integration question was not the best.. but i enjoyed writing section b very much, as well as some questions in section A (e.g. question 3). haha.
okay. i better get back to studying for pediatric psych. lol.
i really enjoyed my japanese paper:)
it's as delicious as eating unagi sushi. hahaa. it's the same feeling as when i'm watching a good anime and unexpected things unfold. i don't know why i enjoyed it, but i did:)
hehe.
it's probably not my best paper, but writing it was fun. hahaa.
and i was looking at my senseis during the paper and thinking about how i'm going to miss them. or rather, how i'm already missing them:)
so interesting ah.
i always miss the lecturers whom i like. haha. when i don't get to go to their lessons anymore. i miss Dr Tan, i miss Dr Tang. I miss my forensic lecturer Stella Tan. and i'm going to miss Dr Tay this sem, alongside with my japanese senseis. I really enjoyed Japanese. hahaa. every lecture made me laugh. and tutorials were fun too:)
I enjoyed my cognitive psych paper too. haha. though i kinda forgot what conjunctive and disjunctive search was.. heh. and my integration question was not the best.. but i enjoyed writing section b very much, as well as some questions in section A (e.g. question 3). haha.
okay. i better get back to studying for pediatric psych. lol.
heh.
by the way,
just want to say a thanks for all the times you've beared with me during this exam period.
for those who beared with me when i was
tired.
down.
angry.
lethargic.
irritated.
thanks for your unconditional love:)
thanks for the many encouragement cards, many massages, hugs, encouragement, help, errands ran, food supplied and company.
by the way,
just want to say a thanks for all the times you've beared with me during this exam period.
for those who beared with me when i was
tired.
down.
angry.
lethargic.
irritated.
thanks for your unconditional love:)
thanks for the many encouragement cards, many massages, hugs, encouragement, help, errands ran, food supplied and company.
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
hehe.
What do you do on a Tuesday afternoon before your cognitive psych paper?
Search around the net for social issues!
okay. I'm only interested in certain social issues. don't mind me :) blame it on the secondary school background. lol. homosexuality, suicide and the likes.
here's one i read today. i know i'm slow :P
it's the open letter from otto fong (a science teacher from RI) who openly came out of the closet to his colleagues, the school, and as the news went on... the rest of singapore..
good food for thought.
What do you do on a Tuesday afternoon before your cognitive psych paper?
Search around the net for social issues!
okay. I'm only interested in certain social issues. don't mind me :) blame it on the secondary school background. lol. homosexuality, suicide and the likes.
here's one i read today. i know i'm slow :P
it's the open letter from otto fong (a science teacher from RI) who openly came out of the closet to his colleagues, the school, and as the news went on... the rest of singapore..
good food for thought.
Sunday, May 04, 2008
Saturday, May 03, 2008
Went to bathe at computer center just now :)
And saw yanting on the way!:) haha. but she was gone by the time I came back.
:)
I formed a whimsical song about my God in the bathroom. lol. it consists of a regular chirpy tune with rhyming couplets in verses of 4 lines each, with a bridge of 2 lines for every 2 verses. haha. quite fun :)
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"... love is kind..."
"... it is not self-seeking..."
:)
gratification of the human nature is a big no-no.
Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead...
looking forward to the day. if it comes. if it doesn't, then it's okay.
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the mixture of warmth and a cool drizzle
the washing away, a cleansing, a gentle healing
- no more sitting on the porch of indecision,
no more standing under stars of apathy
and it might be easier to dream
but dreaming's not for me -
let your 'yes' be 'yes' and your 'no' be 'no'.
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And saw yanting on the way!:) haha. but she was gone by the time I came back.
:)
I formed a whimsical song about my God in the bathroom. lol. it consists of a regular chirpy tune with rhyming couplets in verses of 4 lines each, with a bridge of 2 lines for every 2 verses. haha. quite fun :)
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"... love is kind..."
"... it is not self-seeking..."
:)
gratification of the human nature is a big no-no.
Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead...
looking forward to the day. if it comes. if it doesn't, then it's okay.
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the mixture of warmth and a cool drizzle
the washing away, a cleansing, a gentle healing
- no more sitting on the porch of indecision,
no more standing under stars of apathy
and it might be easier to dream
but dreaming's not for me -
let your 'yes' be 'yes' and your 'no' be 'no'.
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Friday, May 02, 2008
Shepherd of my soul
I give You full control
Wherever You may lead
I will follow
I have made the choice
To listen to Your voice
Wherever You may lead
I will go
Be it in a quiet pasture
Or by a gentle stream
The Shepherd of my soul
Is by my side
Should I face a mighty mountain
Or a valley dark and deep
The Shepherd of my soul
Will be my guide
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This exam period has surprisingly, been my most tiring yet. It doesn't matter that there is a one week break between my first paper and my second, a lot of things suddenly crop up which demand attention in the week itself. Adding on the physical fatigue that I feel, many a times in the week, I can only cry out to God for strength.
God, i need more strength.
God, i need more of Your love to love.
I like being around people. half the time. It'll be good if there's a proportion of being around people. Like maybe 12 hours with people, 12 hours without :) hahaha.
I give You full control
Wherever You may lead
I will follow
I have made the choice
To listen to Your voice
Wherever You may lead
I will go
Be it in a quiet pasture
Or by a gentle stream
The Shepherd of my soul
Is by my side
Should I face a mighty mountain
Or a valley dark and deep
The Shepherd of my soul
Will be my guide
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This exam period has surprisingly, been my most tiring yet. It doesn't matter that there is a one week break between my first paper and my second, a lot of things suddenly crop up which demand attention in the week itself. Adding on the physical fatigue that I feel, many a times in the week, I can only cry out to God for strength.
God, i need more strength.
God, i need more of Your love to love.
I like being around people. half the time. It'll be good if there's a proportion of being around people. Like maybe 12 hours with people, 12 hours without :) hahaha.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
An advertisement for a blog! haha. He didn't ask me to advertise, but then I was thinking, why not? :)
Monday, April 28, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Today is an exciting day :)
haha.
It started out with prayers for Joyce, Jonathan and Melody at SDE!:)
Then next comes breakfast and more studying for SW2104. except that i didn't feel like studying, so i watched anime while eating breakfast:)
heh. then i figured that i should re read the notes and reconcile what i've studied in the textbook and what to study in the notes=] hehe.
took about an hour to do tt before figuring out that maybe i should just prepare to go to the exam hall. haha :)
thanks jiehui for driving us down to pgp! thanks yizhong and guan for going down with me and praying for me:)
paper was alright :) i got a small shock when i realised i'm sitting at the first seat though. and my friend's sitting beside me! hahaha.
anyway, after tt.. went back classroom. quite tired. fatigued and hungry. lol.
went down for service with calyn and yizhong. when i reached somerset, i was like *O.o* (mind zonked out. lol)
hahaa. a few interesting things happened at nexus.
1) minghan deposited his guinea pig at the reception area!
hahaha. me and gary and celestine were like "guinea pig!! so cute! can eat one or not?" hahaa.
no la. we just went "guinea pig!! so cute! will it bite us? can pet?"
then minghan told us that his guinea pig won't move, won't bite. lol.
yes, the guinea pig doesn't bite!:) hahaa. for ease of calling, the guinea pig's called Silent (named by me. since no sound comes from it).
Silent is very timid! Silent shivers and jumps slightly when you pet and stroke it. lol. that was when Silent was in the carrier. then gary and i decided to pick it out and put it on the carpeted floor :D
to cut the long story short, Silent was not as immobile as we originally thought it was. Silent got bolder and started to move around to explore and then it sniffed and sniffed. we took photos! waiting for gary to send me the photos. LOL.
then it sat beside me for very long. then while we were both looking at it, it made a sound! =D so Silent is not so silent after all. hahaa.
and we were so happy to hear it make a sound that we exclaimed. and then we realised that...
Silent is peeing O.o
on the carpetted nexus floor.
LOL.
and it shitted!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
so being nice people, we shouted for tissue and picked up the shit. well. can't do anything much with the pee :l
then.
Silent sat down again.
and made another sound.
...
and we asked for tissue again to pick up the second tootsie-roll. lol.
yup.
anyway, i declared that Silent's a girl 'cos it's so timid.
turns out we were wrong when Celestine checked its gender after service.
Silent is a GUY. lol.
2) Someone fainted during service
Heh. poor girl:)
3) I talked to a sister called Alice from the family group :)
actually, when i was talking to her, the word 'respect' came to mind.. reminding me of what pastor shared a few sermons ago :) heh. she's helping out in the registration for the mother's day thing.. so that's why she was here :) haha. found out that she has a daughter in NYP taking business stuff.. hehe. think she's quite pro-poly 'cos of her daughter:) but interesting to hear from her perspective :) hehe. found out that gary's quite smart too! he's got 10 for his O levels, but chose to go poly instead. wow. i have amazing people in my counter :)
4) I made friends with a few poly sisters and brother!
hehe. made friends with gorris (hope i got the name right), xueping, some guy i can't remember and another sister i can't remember the name of:S shucks. anyway, i managed to find out the name of the brother (of which i've also forgotten:S) who stays one bus stop away from me!:) haha. donald. lol. he's the one who offered the inner bus seat for me the first time we took a bus together from yio chu kang and explained that that is what guys should do XD
5) There was no sound from the tvs at reception area today
Don't know what happened. lol. no sound even though the volume display on the tv screen was supposed to be quite loud. hahaa. that's why we have so much time to play with the guinea pig and talk and make friends with each other right? hahahaa.
but i missed the entire sermon. hehe.
Yup :) so that's what happened at nexus.
was quite hungry after service. and felt quite weak. on the way to PS, i was wondering if i'm gonna faint halfway there. lol.
cg dinner:) guan intro-ed an interesting game. can keep in mind for future! lol.
met michelle after dinner :) hahaa.
oh! we walked around carrefour for a bit first. hahaha. our best purchase was that of 2 doryfish fillets about the size of your chicken cutlet and one honey marinated half chicken. guess the price :) ha ha ha. the aunty gave us discount.
then saw carrie and claramae and passed down one fillet. ok. that was quite irrelevant :) hahaa.
talked to michelle for a bit :) i don't know a bit was how long. lol.
but we both missed our last buses home! and i had no money to take Nightrider. actually. i realised i got no bus home from PS :(
so.. we took cab!:) dropped michelle off first before going back to my home:)
talked to the cab driver on the way:) haha. it's a lady driver btw :) i think it's quite rare to see a female cab driver. my first time actually :)
talked to her for a bit :)
we talked about her two children, about driving, about which church she's from (she's from faith methodist! haha. the church building beside the road at commonwealth:D we rented the building for district meeting before:D), about psychological disorders ('cos she has a friend who has a son who kept pulling his hair from young:S), about counsellors in schools (and how they may not be certified..) and about the pediatric ward in kk hospital ('cos she was asking about where her friend's son can get treatment. i really dunno. lol. i only know about this ward 'cos of Dr Tay. the other suggestion i gave was to ask for referral from her GP. heh:)
yup.
and then i reached home.
oh guess what? the lady driver's name's called Alice too!:)
haha.
It started out with prayers for Joyce, Jonathan and Melody at SDE!:)
Then next comes breakfast and more studying for SW2104. except that i didn't feel like studying, so i watched anime while eating breakfast:)
heh. then i figured that i should re read the notes and reconcile what i've studied in the textbook and what to study in the notes=] hehe.
took about an hour to do tt before figuring out that maybe i should just prepare to go to the exam hall. haha :)
thanks jiehui for driving us down to pgp! thanks yizhong and guan for going down with me and praying for me:)
paper was alright :) i got a small shock when i realised i'm sitting at the first seat though. and my friend's sitting beside me! hahaha.
anyway, after tt.. went back classroom. quite tired. fatigued and hungry. lol.
went down for service with calyn and yizhong. when i reached somerset, i was like *O.o* (mind zonked out. lol)
hahaa. a few interesting things happened at nexus.
1) minghan deposited his guinea pig at the reception area!
hahaha. me and gary and celestine were like "guinea pig!! so cute! can eat one or not?" hahaa.
no la. we just went "guinea pig!! so cute! will it bite us? can pet?"
then minghan told us that his guinea pig won't move, won't bite. lol.
yes, the guinea pig doesn't bite!:) hahaa. for ease of calling, the guinea pig's called Silent (named by me. since no sound comes from it).
Silent is very timid! Silent shivers and jumps slightly when you pet and stroke it. lol. that was when Silent was in the carrier. then gary and i decided to pick it out and put it on the carpeted floor :D
to cut the long story short, Silent was not as immobile as we originally thought it was. Silent got bolder and started to move around to explore and then it sniffed and sniffed. we took photos! waiting for gary to send me the photos. LOL.
then it sat beside me for very long. then while we were both looking at it, it made a sound! =D so Silent is not so silent after all. hahaa.
and we were so happy to hear it make a sound that we exclaimed. and then we realised that...
Silent is peeing O.o
on the carpetted nexus floor.
LOL.
and it shitted!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
so being nice people, we shouted for tissue and picked up the shit. well. can't do anything much with the pee :l
then.
Silent sat down again.
and made another sound.
...
and we asked for tissue again to pick up the second tootsie-roll. lol.
yup.
anyway, i declared that Silent's a girl 'cos it's so timid.
turns out we were wrong when Celestine checked its gender after service.
Silent is a GUY. lol.
2) Someone fainted during service
Heh. poor girl:)
3) I talked to a sister called Alice from the family group :)
actually, when i was talking to her, the word 'respect' came to mind.. reminding me of what pastor shared a few sermons ago :) heh. she's helping out in the registration for the mother's day thing.. so that's why she was here :) haha. found out that she has a daughter in NYP taking business stuff.. hehe. think she's quite pro-poly 'cos of her daughter:) but interesting to hear from her perspective :) hehe. found out that gary's quite smart too! he's got 10 for his O levels, but chose to go poly instead. wow. i have amazing people in my counter :)
4) I made friends with a few poly sisters and brother!
hehe. made friends with gorris (hope i got the name right), xueping, some guy i can't remember and another sister i can't remember the name of:S shucks. anyway, i managed to find out the name of the brother (of which i've also forgotten:S) who stays one bus stop away from me!:) haha. donald. lol. he's the one who offered the inner bus seat for me the first time we took a bus together from yio chu kang and explained that that is what guys should do XD
5) There was no sound from the tvs at reception area today
Don't know what happened. lol. no sound even though the volume display on the tv screen was supposed to be quite loud. hahaa. that's why we have so much time to play with the guinea pig and talk and make friends with each other right? hahahaa.
but i missed the entire sermon. hehe.
Yup :) so that's what happened at nexus.
was quite hungry after service. and felt quite weak. on the way to PS, i was wondering if i'm gonna faint halfway there. lol.
cg dinner:) guan intro-ed an interesting game. can keep in mind for future! lol.
met michelle after dinner :) hahaa.
oh! we walked around carrefour for a bit first. hahaha. our best purchase was that of 2 doryfish fillets about the size of your chicken cutlet and one honey marinated half chicken. guess the price :) ha ha ha. the aunty gave us discount.
then saw carrie and claramae and passed down one fillet. ok. that was quite irrelevant :) hahaa.
talked to michelle for a bit :) i don't know a bit was how long. lol.
but we both missed our last buses home! and i had no money to take Nightrider. actually. i realised i got no bus home from PS :(
so.. we took cab!:) dropped michelle off first before going back to my home:)
talked to the cab driver on the way:) haha. it's a lady driver btw :) i think it's quite rare to see a female cab driver. my first time actually :)
talked to her for a bit :)
we talked about her two children, about driving, about which church she's from (she's from faith methodist! haha. the church building beside the road at commonwealth:D we rented the building for district meeting before:D), about psychological disorders ('cos she has a friend who has a son who kept pulling his hair from young:S), about counsellors in schools (and how they may not be certified..) and about the pediatric ward in kk hospital ('cos she was asking about where her friend's son can get treatment. i really dunno. lol. i only know about this ward 'cos of Dr Tay. the other suggestion i gave was to ask for referral from her GP. heh:)
yup.
and then i reached home.
oh guess what? the lady driver's name's called Alice too!:)
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Boa's songs were accompanying me through the time I was studying for my human development over lifespan exam :) one song particularly stuck to my mind (there're others as well, but can't possibly introduce them all here.) lol. don't think it's the best song in the album, but don't know why it's stuck with me :) maybe it's the way she sings the song :) hahaha. should be quite a famous song i suppose.
you can click here for the kanji lyrics, the romanized lyrics and the translation of the song :) hahaa.
enjoy!
you can click here for the kanji lyrics, the romanized lyrics and the translation of the song :) hahaa.
enjoy!
Friday, April 25, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Some people need to learn basic courtesy in their lives. Such as asking before using someone else's item. Or asking before peering at someone else's computer screen or textbook for a long time for no reason at all.
It's rude when you don't ask and just assume. I especially hate it when people read others' messages or emails without permission. I think it's an invasion of their privacy.
It's rude when you don't ask and just assume. I especially hate it when people read others' messages or emails without permission. I think it's an invasion of their privacy.
hahaha. Just realised that one of the anime I'm catching --> "Itazura na Kiss (Mischievious Kiss)" is actually very famous. lol. Famous 'cos the Taiwan series 恶作剧之吻 is actually based on the manga!:) hohoho. Exact same plot. おもしろいですよ！
Yes. it's a shoujo anime (girl fiction):P
guys can still watch it if they want though :) lol.
Yes. it's a shoujo anime (girl fiction):P
guys can still watch it if they want though :) lol.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Something i read on a random blog :) hahaa. it's not exactly the most fluent passage, but it's interesting :)
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Story By: Anonymous
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water:
we had a kid;
I went into business and tried to make more money.
When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ease.
She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to been viably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.
Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture,O.K.? I've got something to do in the company.Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her.
At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer,because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release.
Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible.
Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?
This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement,that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning. I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.
I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger.
So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But Isuddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.
Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid Iwould change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms,walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision.
I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card.
I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old
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'Never take someone for granted cos u'll wake up one day and realise u've lost a Diamond while collecting Stones...'
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Story By: Anonymous
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water:
we had a kid;
I went into business and tried to make more money.
When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ease.
She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to been viably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.
Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture,O.K.? I've got something to do in the company.Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her.
At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer,because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release.
Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible.
Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?
This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement,that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning. I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.
I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger.
So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But Isuddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.
Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid Iwould change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms,walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision.
I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card.
I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old
.......................................................................................................................................................................
'Never take someone for granted cos u'll wake up one day and realise u've lost a Diamond while collecting Stones...'
it's the time of the year whereby we mug/do work together in the same classroom once again:) hahaa. and for some late night owls, stay overnight to do work together/mug/fellowship. haha.
one person going to school became a family affair when my sister and mum decided to accompany me to school. hahaa. so funny.
i think during service today i was reminded of how i'm a seed planted in my family.. and was praying for my family during service 'cos i felt burdened.. but when i went home and reality hits me, i realised tt it's really much harder to love them than how i thought it was. hahaa. so i just told God honestly that i still find it hard. that it's tough for me to love them much. it's not that i don't love them.. but i think there's an extent of greater love which i can give to them.. a greater love that Jesus would have given to them if He was in my shoes. lol.
so my gracious God reminded me once again of how my family can be :) hahaa. thus the family affair. really quite an enjoyable time of the ride here.. haha. quite a crazy time when we went down the misty road. lol.
but it's a time which kinda changed some of the opinions which i may have formed towards them:) and it made things much easier in my heart.
hope to continue to grow in this area as well:) hehe.
meanwhile, back to studying :) hahaa.
one person going to school became a family affair when my sister and mum decided to accompany me to school. hahaa. so funny.
i think during service today i was reminded of how i'm a seed planted in my family.. and was praying for my family during service 'cos i felt burdened.. but when i went home and reality hits me, i realised tt it's really much harder to love them than how i thought it was. hahaa. so i just told God honestly that i still find it hard. that it's tough for me to love them much. it's not that i don't love them.. but i think there's an extent of greater love which i can give to them.. a greater love that Jesus would have given to them if He was in my shoes. lol.
so my gracious God reminded me once again of how my family can be :) hahaa. thus the family affair. really quite an enjoyable time of the ride here.. haha. quite a crazy time when we went down the misty road. lol.
but it's a time which kinda changed some of the opinions which i may have formed towards them:) and it made things much easier in my heart.
hope to continue to grow in this area as well:) hehe.
meanwhile, back to studying :) hahaa.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Was searching online for information about sheep and saw this prominent website:) I think it's very interesting. haha. particularly check out the section on Smart Sheep, why do sheep follow each other and how sheep protect themselves.. lol.
Monday, April 14, 2008
hehe.
last lesson of TA6 today :) so we took a picture. hahaa. きょはTA6のクラスはおわりますから、写真を撮りました。
Sensei sent the photo to us ('cos we used his phone.. and two other phones.. to take the photos) and a msg to encourage us for the oral exams:) hahaa.
"TA6のみなさん
写真があまりきれいじゃありませんが、送りますね。
みなさん、ありがとうございました。
私も楽しかったですよ。
オーラルテストと試験がんばりましょうね。
ながみ
The photo taken is note very pretty/nice, but I've sent it over.
Everyone, thanks.
I also had fun.
All the best for your oral examinations
Nagami"
when i read the first line, i was like "hahaha." really あまりじゃありません。lol.
hahhaa. have been catching this cat anime series (for children i think) on crunchyroll. super cute. super funny. hahaa. i think it's funny anyway :)
First episode can be found here. hahaha.
First episode can be found here. hahaha.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Thursday, April 10, 2008
heh.
got reminded of radiolitez tonight :) haha.
wanna hear how i sounded like in the past when i was deejaying?
found a clip with my voice on it (accidentally. 'cos was using a programme to rip songs off the radio airwaves XD). haha.
here it is: (if you wanna listen to it. that is. the first clip is my deejaying before the songs. the second clip starts with the songs and end with my voice. lol you can listen to 2 songs that i really like as well. especially bryan adams' 'when you love a woman'. not everyone will agree with my taste though.)
i still have firestarter's version of 'more than words'. lol.
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heh. i guess maybe i do get quite affected if my voice is gone for a longer time than expected. especially with auditions coming up:S
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
「Congratulations! You were waiting in the Gold Exchange Queue to exchange 500 munny for 10 Gold... and now you have been selected!
There were 53560 people in the Gold Exchange Queue.
Your place in the Queue was: 21069 away from the front.
10 Gold has been deposited into your (fluff)Friends Account, which you can now spend at the Golden (fluff)Shop:
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lol? alright! haha.
There were 53560 people in the Gold Exchange Queue.
Your place in the Queue was: 21069 away from the front.
10 Gold has been deposited into your (fluff)Friends Account, which you can now spend at the Golden (fluff)Shop:
http://apps.facebook.com/fluff/gold_shop.php」
lol? alright! haha.
XxxHolic:Kei (season 2 of XxxHolic is out!:D)
きれいなゆこさんとわたぬきくんとどうめきくん。
XxｘHolic が だいすきです！
[Editted by Xin Ying. Please credit. LOL]
きれいですよ！
(pretty right!)
hahaha:)
きれいなゆこさんとわたぬきくんとどうめきくん。
XxｘHolic が だいすきです！
[Editted by Xin Ying. Please credit. LOL]
きれいですよ！
(pretty right!)
hahaha:)
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Monday, April 07, 2008
Starting on Code Geass soon. hahaa. I know I'm slow :) it's an anime by CLAMP:) hehehe. I just finished a few series in these few weeks (shigofumi, bamboo blade and i can't remember what..).
Some people think I'm slacking when I'm watching anime. Or that they think that I don't do work just 'cos I watch anime at HQ. lol. I don't believe in doing work in front of people just to show that I'm doing work, yet slacking at home and not doing anything after going back home.
I don't think I have more time than other people, or that I have less things to do than other people. Well, maybe at this moment I do have much lesser things to do than other people, since I've finished all my projects. Have a programming test next friday, and japanese oral test next wednesday.
According to Bryan, Okada sensei said that it's better to listen to the Nihongo CD for 10 mins a day everyday, rather than one hour for one day and neglect the language for the rest of the week. hehee. watching anime helps me to build up my listening skills!:) lol. but i realised that i'm really quite far away from the standard.. haha. was watching the raw (no subtitles) version of some shin-chan.. could catch the rough meaning, but some things just went past me without me understanding it. lol.
anyway, i've got time to watch anime because:
1) I don't stone. I either do work, or take a nap, or watch anime.
2) It's my passion. And we need to set aside time for our passion as well:) hahaa. I learn things through anime as well. Some people stone while watching TV or anime. I absorb and evaluate. Ask me for an evaluation of the anime series I've watched anytime.. and I'll tell you what I've learned from it, or derived from it:) hahaa. I derive much visual pleasure from anime :)
3) I procrastinate doing some stuff. hahaha. Sad to say, I do procrastinate in doing some not-so-enjoyable tasks that don't require immediate attention (e.g. not due in the next 3 days.)
lalala.
:)
Some people think I'm slacking when I'm watching anime. Or that they think that I don't do work just 'cos I watch anime at HQ. lol. I don't believe in doing work in front of people just to show that I'm doing work, yet slacking at home and not doing anything after going back home.
I don't think I have more time than other people, or that I have less things to do than other people. Well, maybe at this moment I do have much lesser things to do than other people, since I've finished all my projects. Have a programming test next friday, and japanese oral test next wednesday.
According to Bryan, Okada sensei said that it's better to listen to the Nihongo CD for 10 mins a day everyday, rather than one hour for one day and neglect the language for the rest of the week. hehee. watching anime helps me to build up my listening skills!:) lol. but i realised that i'm really quite far away from the standard.. haha. was watching the raw (no subtitles) version of some shin-chan.. could catch the rough meaning, but some things just went past me without me understanding it. lol.
anyway, i've got time to watch anime because:
1) I don't stone. I either do work, or take a nap, or watch anime.
2) It's my passion. And we need to set aside time for our passion as well:) hahaa. I learn things through anime as well. Some people stone while watching TV or anime. I absorb and evaluate. Ask me for an evaluation of the anime series I've watched anytime.. and I'll tell you what I've learned from it, or derived from it:) hahaa. I derive much visual pleasure from anime :)
3) I procrastinate doing some stuff. hahaha. Sad to say, I do procrastinate in doing some not-so-enjoyable tasks that don't require immediate attention (e.g. not due in the next 3 days.)
lalala.
:)
From a mailing list:
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
Charles H. Spurgeon said, "Stars may be seen from the bottom of a deep well when they cannot be seen from the top of the mountain. So many things are learned in adversity which the prosperous man dreams not of."
Ovid wrote, "The road to triumph is built by adversity."
Walt Disney stated: "All the adversity I've had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles, have strengthened me.... You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you."
John Adams agreed. He said, "People and nations are forged in the fires of adversity."
Patrick Henry believed that "adversity toughens manhood, and the characteristic of the good or the great man, is not that he has been exempted from the evils of life, but that he has surmounted them."2
And as Stan Mitchell said, "The child of God cannot attain spiritual completeness without facing trials. The Africans have a saying: 'After the rain, come the flowers.'" And then Mitchell asks, "So how does your garden grow?"
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
Charles H. Spurgeon said, "Stars may be seen from the bottom of a deep well when they cannot be seen from the top of the mountain. So many things are learned in adversity which the prosperous man dreams not of."
Ovid wrote, "The road to triumph is built by adversity."
Walt Disney stated: "All the adversity I've had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles, have strengthened me.... You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you."
John Adams agreed. He said, "People and nations are forged in the fires of adversity."
Patrick Henry believed that "adversity toughens manhood, and the characteristic of the good or the great man, is not that he has been exempted from the evils of life, but that he has surmounted them."2
And as Stan Mitchell said, "The child of God cannot attain spiritual completeness without facing trials. The Africans have a saying: 'After the rain, come the flowers.'" And then Mitchell asks, "So how does your garden grow?"
thank God for my mum! hahaa. she's decided to sponsor part of my camp fees. wahaha. apparently she doesn't like the idea of a loan (--> pride?) and so has decided to sponsor a part of it :)
hehehe.
and we've decided to go on a holiday as a family (eh. or rather, me and my mum have decided) in july:) to hongkong (again!)
hah. we've never gone on a holiday as a family in our whole entire lives. my mum has never gone on a plane before. hehe. so it'll be はじめて for the かぞうく. いいです！:)
i've been mixing up the usage of がandを in にほんご。need もっと れんしゅう と ふくしゅう！
にほんごはきれいごですが、むずかしいです。
わたしはちょっとねむいくてつかれましたです。でも、しゅくだいをしませんから、まだ寝ます。かわいそですよ。
哈哈哈。
がんばりますよ！
^^
にほんごはたのしいですね。みんあ、わたしのblog post はよくわかりますか。
@[^.^]=====@@======[^^]@ ---> whoosh?
えと。
さよなら？
バーイバーイ！
<[^.^]~
hehehe.
and we've decided to go on a holiday as a family (eh. or rather, me and my mum have decided) in july:) to hongkong (again!)
hah. we've never gone on a holiday as a family in our whole entire lives. my mum has never gone on a plane before. hehe. so it'll be はじめて for the かぞうく. いいです！:)
i've been mixing up the usage of がandを in にほんご。need もっと れんしゅう と ふくしゅう！
にほんごはきれいごですが、むずかしいです。
わたしはちょっとねむいくてつかれましたです。でも、しゅくだいをしませんから、まだ寝ます。かわいそですよ。
哈哈哈。
がんばりますよ！
^^
にほんごはたのしいですね。みんあ、わたしのblog post はよくわかりますか。
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えと。
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Sunday, April 06, 2008
I feel like doing the running man. hhahaha.
Someone should choreograph a dance to 'Friends in high places'.
Speaking of dances..
What Calyn mentioned on a bus trip home one day reminded me that..
I want to learn social dancing too! Influence from secondary school and from theatre studies. hahaa.
No partner though. lol.
Calyn don't wanna learn with me!
I've also wanted to learn sign language! but no one else wanted to learn with me! lol
Someone should choreograph a dance to 'Friends in high places'.
Speaking of dances..
What Calyn mentioned on a bus trip home one day reminded me that..
I want to learn social dancing too! Influence from secondary school and from theatre studies. hahaa.
No partner though. lol.
Calyn don't wanna learn with me!
I've also wanted to learn sign language! but no one else wanted to learn with me! lol
Ah. I'm very excited. hahaha.
I haven't felt this excited since receiving the call from Gwen 3 years ago. hahaha. It's the adrenaline that comes from receiving a good challenge! It's the fear that causes your heart to beat slightly faster than normal. It's the excitement that accompanies that fear, knowing you're stepping further into God's future for you, uncertain of where you're going, but excited of what's ahead!
I was so excited I was jumping around in my room. hahaa. okayokay. Please don't have the impression that I do that often.
I'm actually a very serious person :)
But right now.. I'm excited. hahaa.
-supernatural rain
is carrying destiny!-
So many changes up ahead! So many challenges. woohooo!
I haven't felt this excited since receiving the call from Gwen 3 years ago. hahaha. It's the adrenaline that comes from receiving a good challenge! It's the fear that causes your heart to beat slightly faster than normal. It's the excitement that accompanies that fear, knowing you're stepping further into God's future for you, uncertain of where you're going, but excited of what's ahead!
I was so excited I was jumping around in my room. hahaa. okayokay. Please don't have the impression that I do that often.
I'm actually a very serious person :)
But right now.. I'm excited. hahaa.
-supernatural rain
is carrying destiny!-
So many changes up ahead! So many challenges. woohooo!
Jesse and I and Hui Li...
are going for
Adults Camp together!
(if we can settle payment by today :l)
woohoo!
hahaha.
are going for
Adults Camp together!
(if we can settle payment by today :l)
woohoo!
hahaha.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Need love vs Gift love.
Need love is when you say you want to be loved. E.g. I need a hug. I need someone to appreciate me.
Gift love is when you give of yourself. I love you, so I give. It's like the giving of love from parents to children, the giving of Mother Theresa to the people on the streets of Calcutta.
Need pleasure vs appreciation pleasure.
Need pleasure is when you have a need... and when that need is fulfilled, the pleasure that comes from it is need pleasure. Take for example, after running the Army Half Marathon, you're perspiring and sweating and all you want is to a cold cup of milo and the chance to just walk around, cool down and enjoy the slight warm breeze, and when you get all of it, you go 'ahh..' there's a sense of satisfaction, a sense of pleasure. That is need pleasure.
Appreciation pleasure is that sense of awe, that sense of appreciation at something you didn't anticipate. It's like you're sitting by the side of the sea, and all of a sudden you realise there's a beautiful sunset in front of your eyes. And you just pause and say to yourself 'wow. I'm gonna just take some time to drink it in.' That. is appreciation pleasure. You didn't plan for it, but it appeared anyway, and it brings you great pleasure.
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the 4 types of love..
Eros
Philia
Storge
Agape
Which is yours? Can it really be defined so clearly?
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Need love is when you say you want to be loved. E.g. I need a hug. I need someone to appreciate me.
Gift love is when you give of yourself. I love you, so I give. It's like the giving of love from parents to children, the giving of Mother Theresa to the people on the streets of Calcutta.
Need pleasure vs appreciation pleasure.
Need pleasure is when you have a need... and when that need is fulfilled, the pleasure that comes from it is need pleasure. Take for example, after running the Army Half Marathon, you're perspiring and sweating and all you want is to a cold cup of milo and the chance to just walk around, cool down and enjoy the slight warm breeze, and when you get all of it, you go 'ahh..' there's a sense of satisfaction, a sense of pleasure. That is need pleasure.
Appreciation pleasure is that sense of awe, that sense of appreciation at something you didn't anticipate. It's like you're sitting by the side of the sea, and all of a sudden you realise there's a beautiful sunset in front of your eyes. And you just pause and say to yourself 'wow. I'm gonna just take some time to drink it in.' That. is appreciation pleasure. You didn't plan for it, but it appeared anyway, and it brings you great pleasure.
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the 4 types of love..
Eros
Philia
Storge
Agape
Which is yours? Can it really be defined so clearly?
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Ah. From Beyond at Blk 5.., we're moving on to Grace Haven instead. Think will be quite an exciting time!:) Tougher time perhaps? 'cos heard from the previous volunteers there that it's tough at the beginning 'cos there's a lot of rejections at first... but fulfilling in the end. It's okay! i can take rejections :) Looking forward to the fulfilling end!:)
The months have played a fool of me
The weeks the days the busy the free
The sun that shone its daily light
The flight in sky of every night
The shimmering of eyes gazed above
The transience of a heart that loves
The temporal glimpse of happiness
The weighing truth that none rehearse
The death of thought that died but once
The hope that rose with a single glance
The deceit that courses through the blood
The path to take, a decision too hard
The poem which started with a single thought
The components of soul which were fought
The poem, unknown, with the context hidden
The poet, unshaken, with a farewell bidden.
--------Copyrighted by Xin Ying :) ---------
Not that anyone's gonna use the poem above. lol
3 rounds 3 round. hahaa. let's see if i can get it to 4 rounds :)
enlarging my right earhole once again.. see if i got the mood to properly continue to enlarge it. the max i got was only 6 ear sticks in before? hmmm.
The weeks the days the busy the free
The sun that shone its daily light
The flight in sky of every night
The shimmering of eyes gazed above
The transience of a heart that loves
The temporal glimpse of happiness
The weighing truth that none rehearse
The death of thought that died but once
The hope that rose with a single glance
The deceit that courses through the blood
The path to take, a decision too hard
The poem which started with a single thought
The components of soul which were fought
The poem, unknown, with the context hidden
The poet, unshaken, with a farewell bidden.
--------Copyrighted by Xin Ying :) ---------
Not that anyone's gonna use the poem above. lol
3 rounds 3 round. hahaa. let's see if i can get it to 4 rounds :)
enlarging my right earhole once again.. see if i got the mood to properly continue to enlarge it. the max i got was only 6 ear sticks in before? hmmm.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers." - Galatians 6:9-10
i think it is particularly frustrating when someone knows you're sick, and yet does not show concern, being preoccupied with the routine of what is to be done. makes me wanna go '...'
i think it is particularly frustrating when someone knows you're sick, and yet does not show concern, being preoccupied with the routine of what is to be done. makes me wanna go '...'