Sunday, May 30, 2004

what do u call a fish with no eye?
A fsh:P

what did sushi A say to sushi B?
Wasabi! (wassup B?)

oh my. so lame:P
ooof. my alarm this morning was a sms received. it's quite an effective alarm, couldn't sleep after that:) except tt today's not a day intended for early waking.
nevertheless, i'm glad the alarm came...allowed me to wake up at a timing quite close to the natural body clock's, and thus will make it easier for me to wake up for the 2 weeks ahead:D *grInz*
yeah! saw twin today!:D finally. hahaha:D haven't met her up for anything for a long long long long long time... didn't do much today, just caught up a bit, talked a bit, ate a lot, timetabled a bit tt kinda stuff:)
farnie twin i have.
jits was farnie too in her smses too. hahaha:D though she doesn't seem to realise it. oh! i forgot to tell her i dun have a storeroom. ah well:D

Saturday, May 29, 2004

:D
the games in hilarious inn were quite hilarious:D we're the shu1 cong2 pai4...hahaha:D fighting with gai4 bang1 and luffy bang1 (one peace!) for the title of the inn owner. hahaha:D everyone in the audi cheered and cheered...and dolphin started the cheering of 'shu cong, shu cong shu cong..'
so farnie:D
saw joy and this guy who was in my WFL class last year in point foodcourt while me, jits, joce, gwen and jingting were settling there for lunch.hahaha:D joy's first response is to hug us, while our first response was one of exclamation. poor joy:D
we had a nice time of sharing lame jokes and playing lame games during dinner time today:D *grInz* truly enjoyed it:)
shepherd's month! i haven't done anything to appreciate my shepherd yet! ooooppsieeee.
unicorn
Unicorn:
Unicorns are on of the purest creatures on earth
and are illustrated and depicted throughout
literature. They are pure calm free-spirited
creatures who love their space. You like being
around other people but you also value your
space and free time. People are in awe of you
but tend to keep their distance. You are loved
by many and are one of the few uncorrupted
people of this earth.


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Friday, May 28, 2004

hah... in the school comp lab now.
wanted to watch anastasia! in v25... but the room is locked. came to the comp lab but didn't know how to open the file (so strange. it doesn't load by itself) yup:) so i'm stuck updating the blog. going to the library with jits later, haven't gone to the library for some time.
-one step at a time, one hope then another
who knows where this road may go
back to who i was
on to find my future
things my heart still needs to know-
hahaha. this must be like the hundredth time i'm exclaiming this...i love to watch anastasia! haven't come across another cartoon movie tt's as good:D and huixian apparently finds it nice too after she's watched it!:D
-you were born in a palace by the sea...
a palace by the sea? could it be?
yes that's right-
it's truly enjoyable:D hahha:D
anyway. school's having halfday today again.. not much of a diff for me from fullday. hahaha.

Thursday, May 27, 2004

"But there is going to come a time of testing at the judgment day to see what kind of work each builder has done. Everyone's work will be put through the fire to see whether or not it keeps its value. If the work survives the fire, that builder will receive a reward" (1 Corinthians 3:13-14, NLT).

Greg Asimakoupoulos writes about Nome, a village on the edge of the Bering Sea. "Nome ... is like many villages of the Artic. The ground on which the community sits is frozen, sponge-like tundra. Sanitation landfills are unheard of. Garbage trucks do not haul off the kind of
refuse we leave curbside each week. Instead, a typical front yard displays broken washing machines, junked cars, old toilets, scrap wood, and piles of non-degradable refuse.
"Tourists who visit Nome in the summer are amazed at the debris and shake their heads. 'How could anyone live like that?' they wonder.
"What those visitors do not realize is that for nine months of the year Nome sits under a blanket of snow that covers the garbage. During those months the little town is a quaint winter wonderland of pure white landscapes."
In some ways many of our personal lives are like that. We have hidden all sorts of junk, unresolved issues from the past, bad habits that have us beaten, impaired relationships, etc., etc., and we make the outside of our life to appear as if we have it all together and everything is fine.
True, I "may" be able to hide who I really am on the inside from you, from my family and friends, but one thing is certain: I cannot hide from God. One day who I really am will be revealed by God for all to see. Much smarter and healthier to clean up our life now while the door of opportunity is so wide open. No matter what we have ever done or have failed to do, God is ready to forgive us, to heal us, to deliver us if we are truly repentant and acknowledge who and what we really are--not to whitewash over our sins with a covering of "snow" but wash us "whiter than the snow."
hahaha:D this is the 909th post since the time i started having this blog. so intriguing:D
hmmm...this is quite interesting...i find it quite fun to type really fast right now at a constant speed. it feels as though my fingers are communicating with the keyboard or something and they're chatting happily, thereby allowing me to be able to have a fast typing speed.
yeah! school was dismissed today at 10.35am due to the victory at the soccer match... i wonder if there's going to be a full day tmr. hahahaa:D hope the hockey girls win! yeah! most probably all of us will be going down to support the cricket boys. i have confidence in the hockey girls and the cricket boys, but not too sure about the badminton girls...hehehe:D
had my 2.4km run today (finally!) was just thinking yesterday tt i'm most prob going to die halfway 'cos i haven't done any running for 3 weeks. hahaha:) so i prayed for God to help me. hahaha:)
was quite amazed when the first round came in at 2.15, then the next round at 4+ (i can't remember wat)...anyway, my third round came in at 6.20! haha. but i grew lazy and decided to stop, thinking tt i'll walk for this round and run the rest. well, it didn't happen. the whole story is tt i took 8 mins plus plus plus for the next 3 rounds. ended up with a timing of 15.09.
btw, we ran in the rain. hahaa. it was drizzling when we started, and happily raining away in the middle. so, all of us were totally soaked through and all that. thank God for the early dismissal. haaa:D

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

-go vj go vj go!-
hahahah:D vj soccer boys won sajc for the finals! hahaha. 4-1! my goodness!:D wat an excellent score.
at first vj scored within the first 5 mins of the first half. hahahaha:D then SA scored in the 2nd half...then the whole vj population was so sad... i was already quite worried in the first half 'cos they've only scored one goal...don't want last yr's scenario to repeat again.
anyway, after sajc scored, the vj spirit literally soared (it was already very high. hahaha:D) and everyone was just cheering 'fight on vj fight on!' with their might:D and within 10 mins, vj did score again! hahaha. and then, we scored again! hahaha:D and then, we still score again! muahahha:D by then we knew we're the champions. hahaha:D
quite cool! everyone was cheering even though we're quite lethargic after having to wait for 2 hours for the thunderstorm to stop and for the B division match to finish:D it was like... the whole time we were just cheering and cheering away (using different cheers!)and if there's any pause, it was only for 1-2 seconds. hahaha:D and pple were really spontaneous! the tsd pple went 'whazzup lah whazzup' if any sa pple tripped our vj pple (intentionally:| we could tell between the intentionally ones and unintentionally ones:P)
anyway, at the end of it all, the basketball girls started to cheer 'full day!' and pple caught on. and then we changed it to '2 days!' hahaha. poor mrs chan...she must be wondering how to handle our 'demand' of 2 days off from school. hhaha:D anyway, she pretended not to hear us and wanted to ask mr tan about wat to do but mr tan just turned her around back to face us. hahahah!:D i dun mind 2 days off from school:D 'cos seriously, didn't expect the soccer pple to do so well!:D
anyway, i dun have much of a voice left. hahaha. and there's busking auditions this friday. perhaps i should just get out of the whole busking thing:)
"The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth" (Psalm 145:18, NIV).

Years ago I remember reading a simple but profound statement by Cecil Osborne. He said, "When we are hiding a deeper sin or fault, we tend to confess a lesser one all the more vigorously."
A friend of mine, for example, had been trying to overcome his smoking addiction for 20 years without success. No matter how hard he tried, he just couldn't break the addictive habit.
When he shared his struggle with me, I simply asked, "Why do you need to smoke?"
He looked at me with a blank stare as if to say, "Are you crazy, what are you talking about? I don't need to smoke."
He then mumbled a few incoherent sentences, turned around, and walked away. He died a few years later of cancer!
True, my friend's smoking addiction was a problem, but it wasn't the real problem. It was the fruit of a deeper root--the symptom of some unresolved issue he was either afraid or unwilling to examine. He was confessing the wrong sin/problem.
The same principle is true of all addictive behaviors and many of our negative and sinful actions. To overcome we need to be ruthlessly honest with ourselves, to at least one safe person who won't judge or put us down, and to God. We need to admit and confess not only the symptoms but the causes behind them. We may need to ask God to give us the courage to face these causes and to lead us to the help, support, and recovery program we need to overcome them.
This is the kind of praying God loves to hear and answer. As his word says, he "is near to all who call on him in truth."

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

this is a poem joanne supplied:)
-----------------------
u fit into me
like a hook into an eye

a fish hook
an open eye
-----------------------
ouch. how painful:| apparently she quite likes my 'a man with no garden looks forlorn (for lawn)' nick:D i like it too!:D hahahaa.
centrestage auditions today! hahaha. me and jitsy got through! going to heats 2! wah. long way to go.
heard this guy who was singing with a strong voice and all. my oh my. scary. hahahaha:D
u all ALL must come for the semi finals kkk?:D:D:D
it's on the 19th of june!:D and this sat's comedy play!:D come come! hahaha. anyway, it'll be quite a loss if u all dun come. free performance by our professional Yhope pple!:D
good gracious.
i flipped the tv channel to channel 8 and saw...
JILL LOWE
on 'zao an ning hao'. speaking. chinese.
and talking about.
makeup in the morning
O_o

Monday, May 24, 2004

i think there are a few things i've still been holding on even after i've come to accept Christ. need to think through these things, understand what God wants me to learn from them, put them down and claim the right to a new life.
met up with the games comm pple today:D hehehe. made a few new friends... hahaha. i can't wait for next monday when we try out the games!:D it'll be so cool! and i can't wait for the student camp to come! the games are so... cool! hahaha:D refreshing unique never-quite-seen-before (in my opinion) games which will keep u squealing and laughing and on ur feet for 2 hours straight:D
my twin's got a big 'dumpling' on her finger... (injured finger). please pray for her. please also pray tt michelle will very nicely remember to bring her tape recorder:D hehehe:D
yes!:)

Sunday, May 23, 2004

i'm going to die of laughter
hahahaha:D
super farnie.
was just listening to my self-recorded tape from 4 years ago (sec 2)
-come morning light,
just a victim of fantasy-
lots of songs recorded as well. including my first ever favourite english song 'all i want is you'- 911! and gee. i was mudding while i was recording the song. and we went to seoul garden:| and i was being a pretend dj. so farnie!!!
and the other side of the tape had me and my sis pretending to be soft toys talking...or rather doing xiang4 sheng1...and a really adorable version 'doraemon'. hahahaa:)
-you wanna run, you wanna break free
what you want ain't what you need-
hahahhaa. and there's an interview with king arthur and his adventures with merlin. oh! it was a project done:P an interview with a character from a book. ERP:P
-it's alright it's okay you never loved me anyway-
and dalena and mitch teo's rendition of 'our song' by m2m..and our singing of 'byebyebye' by nsync:P hahahaha!
-they don't always happen when you ask
and it's easy to give in to your fear
but when you're blinded by your pain
can't see your way clear through the rain
a small but still resilient voice
says love is very near-
okayokay...enough of talking nonsense:)
i think back to sec 2 with fond memories and speckles of sadness. sec 2 was a strange year...it was the year of friendships, of longing, of disillusion, of doubt and of wonder.
and of wander.
oh! and of drama. hahahaha:D
hmmm:)
knew about what the restructuring is about..North is finally combining with each other, and east will just be east. and priscilla's going to take north, and shirley's going to take east.
again, it doesn't affect me much... but i think it'll be a change for some leaders:) was quite heartwarming when they affirmed priscilla though...she's really touched lives around her:) and more than that as well. quite touching too, some of the things she has done. she's a person whose spirit really will overflows to you:) and lots more as well.
-all that i am
all that i have
i lay them down before You O Lord
all my regrets
all my acclaims
the joy and the pain
i'm making them Yours-
yesterday's time with cs was really annointed. God gave me the wisdom and the sensitivity to know what to talk about and when to talk about some stuff. the whole time with cs flowed so smoothly that i knew it can't be me, it has to be God. 'cos i seriously didn't know how to bring out certain topics. God also opened up cs' heart to me:) yup. really wanna affirm her for her accountability and openness in her life.
one of the times when the presence of God is so tangible within our midst. thank God for Him!:D

Saturday, May 22, 2004

i can't wait for service tmr! and i can't wait for jb camp to come!:D
and i can't wait to see more brothers and sisters!

Friday, May 21, 2004

officially stepping down next thurs:)
finally. lots of things to settle before passing on to my jie1 ban1 ren2 though:)
-beautiful Lord, wonderful Saviour,
i know for sure, all of my days are
held in Your hands, crafted into
Your perfect plan-
quite comforted when i listen to the new exco discuss about plans for huahui in the future and the investiture. yahyah..i know we aren't supposed to be listening to the investiture...but afterall, it's their first exco meeting and seriously speaking, i dun think any of the former exco pple are totally relaxed about letting them hold their first exco meeting themselves:)
longyuan kinda broke down a bit 'cos zhangkuo told her tt he wants to quit the exco... then she went on to say about how much tears and effort and meetings we held...all the things we dun have to do but did all for the hope in seeing more juniors in hua hui and making everything easier for the exco this yr...
the scoldings and dissuading from the various teachers about hai cheng...or rather, whether we should have haicheng.
it wasn't easy i guess. having a not-very-united exco... and having so few members. and little support.
but i have strong hope for the new exco:D hahaha. the pple we chose are quite talented:)
yeah!

Thursday, May 20, 2004

THE SECRET OF HAPPINESS

"Then he [Jesus] said to them, 'Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions'" (Luke 12:15, NIV).

The search for happiness is as old as mankind. Hedonism, an ancient Greek philosophy, stated that the chief end of man was happiness. Democritus, who lived in 460 BC, said, "Happiness is the object of our conduct." And Aristipus, a pupil of Socrates, put it this way. "The most intense pleasure is the highest good and is the aim of life."
People today still long for happiness, but in spite of our greatly increased knowledge and achievements so many people still haven't learned its secret.
On the University campus the highest death rate is caused by suicide. Hospital beds are filled with unhappy and lonely people. Some doctors estimate that over 80% of patients are suffering as a result of emotional distress. A world-famous psychiatrist claims that "the central neurosis of our time is emptiness." And according to the United
Nations World Health Organization, depression is the world's number one health problem.
Marilyn Monroe had everything that many seem to think brings happiness--beauty, wealth, fame, sex appeal, and popularity--but she ended her life in suicide. Actor Mel Gibson also had everything the world had to offer but he never felt happy or fulfilled. This is one reason he produced and paid to make the film, The Passion of the Christ.
It is claimed that Voltaire who was famous for his infidelity said on his deathbed, "I am lost! Oh, that I had never been born." And millionaire Jay Gould said when dying, "I suppose I am the most miserable devil on earth."
Actually, wealth, fame, power, or beauty don't make one happy or unhappy. They are externals. Happiness comes from within. It is a by-product of an inner condition. If one lives only for personal happiness, he will probably never find it. As one person said, "The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of unhappiness."
Happiness is many things to many people. It depends on one's particular needs, abilities, interests, and maturity. Happiness for one man is to be an accountant, for another a farmer. Happiness for one woman is not to have any more children, for another to have several more--not that any one of these in and of itself can make anyone happy.
For me, happiness begins with being honest with myself and learning to understand and accept myself for who and what I really am. This way I can utilize my strengths and work towards overcoming my weaknesses.

"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want" (Philippians 4:11-12, NIV).

As said, happiness is many things to many people. For one thing, it means we need to know and accept ourselves for who we are.
Happiness also means learning to accept my personal circumstances. Some of them can be changed. Others can't. And unless I accept the ones that can't be changed, I'll never be happy or content. As blind Helen Keller said, "I thank God for my handicaps, for through them I have found myself, my work, and my God."
Happiness is also having a worthwhile goal ... a noble purpose for which to live ... something of value to strive for.
I was once talking to a union representative on a construction job. At the time he was also demonstrating for a cause that was popular back then. He told me he joined this group because it gave him something to live for. I don't know if this man is still demonstrating for a cause,
but certainly everybody needs something to live for other than himself and his own happiness.
Happiness in itself is not a worthwhile goal to live for. To be happy all of the time is unreal, as happiness is only one of life's great emotions. To be in touch with all of one's feelings is more important than being happy all of the time. To feel sad, hurt, angry, afraid, and unhappy at the appropriate times is both normal and healthy. However, if one is unhappy most of the time, this is nature's way of
telling him/her that something is missing in his life or some conflict needs resolving.
To be happy, one also needs to have worthwhile work into which one can put one's best efforts.
Everybody has some talents, and to find personal fulfillment and happiness, it is important that he discover his gifts, receive adequate training to sharpen them, and find a place to use them. This is equally true for both men and women.
It is a wise man who helps his wife find, develop, and use her special gifts. He will reap just rewards through his wife's increased fulfillment and happiness.
Unfortunately, at times of economic uncertainty, finding fulfilling work through employment may not always be possible for everybody. However, there are many avenues to find fulfillment other than through paid work. If one is creative, one can get involved in arts and crafts and perhaps sell some of the items made. One can help many others by becoming involved in church work or with other volunteer service agencies.

"Blessed and fortunate and happy and spiritually prosperous are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness (uprightness and right standing with God), for they shall be completely satisfied!" (Matthew 5:6, AMP).

We have already pointed out that happiness is many things to many people. It means we need to know and accept ourselves for who we are; learning to live with circumstances we are not able to change; it is having a worthwhile and noble purpose for which to live; and something of value to do.
"If you find a really happy man," states one author, "you will find him building a boat, writing a symphony, educating his son, or growing double dahlias in his garden. He will not be searching for happiness as if it were a button that has rolled under the wardrobe, he will not be striving for it as a goal in itself, he will have become aware that he is happy in the course of living life to the full twenty-four hours of the day.
The happy person also has healthy relationships with other people. The person who lives only for himself is immature and usually very miserable. Even the ancient Greeks had a word for the self-centered person. It was idios from which we get our word, "idiot." It means belonging to one's self.
To love and be loved is without question one of our greatest need for happiness, without which is our greatest source of unhappiness. Without love all else in life is meaningless. Once again, however, love comes from within. If we give love we will receive love. That is a law of life. Unfortunately, many people, especially in childhood,
were hurt because of a lack of love and as adults are afraid to love for fear of being hurt again. With effective counseling and the will to overcome this fear can usually be conquered.
A well-integrated self is also needed for happiness. If the self is whole or mature, happiness will follow.
The greatest man who ever lived, Jesus Christ, is our great example. He developed in every area of his life. He "increased in wisdom and in stature and in favor with God and man" (Luke 2:52 ). That is, he matured mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally. We need to do the same.
Finally, character and a clear conscience are critical for lasting happiness. To feel forgiven for all the wrongs one has done gives one a deep sense of freedom. Any wrongs, therefore, that we have done need to be put right and any impaired relationships resolved. Not only do we need our brother's forgiveness, but also God's. When we confess our
sins and faults to Him, He always forgives us. We then need to forgive ourselves.
Remember, happiness is a process not an event. Diligently follow the process and happiness/contentment will be the rich reward.
good gracious.
look at the time:)
twin has put me in a strange 'haha' mood which caused me to be quite excitable and i can't sleep. which is good. 'cos i haven't finished my stats 6 hw. so strange of mr ho to jump.
hmmm. i wonder what changes there's going to be in the future. twin knows abt some restructuring tt'll affect me a teeeeenyy, weeeeeenyy bit. and then she said something abt how it'll bring both of us closer... or maybe not, 'cos her house and my house will still be as far apart.
i think my twin's in a strange mood too...:|
i'm starting to view restructuring in a positive light. hehehe:D
and talking to jt now. haha:D ooof. so many 'haha's making me feel a bit dizzy.
i noticed a trend.
before from 9-11pm...one will see the youth brothers and sisters online:D then 11-12's the transition period. after 12am, u'll see mostly uni pple online:D except for twin. hehehe.
hey jitsy! shall we go and dig out the bottle one day?:D

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

how different.
the routes we take in life. the choice we take.
the ways in which we thought a friend would go, but the friend never did.
i'm bemused about it all.
hehehe:D today's a very interesting day.
we had an interview talk thingie today...and the speaker's favourite word was 'damn!':P i dun quite like his favourite word though. anyway, the speaker, though being very... did bring about an interesting aspect of how we can bring about our qualities to the interviewers...and that is through the illustration of daily things that we do.
anyway. he did something good today...the qns that were asked took up so much time it dragged into mr ho's maths lesson...which kinda gives us a breather... no maths for today! gosh. why has it turned into a lesson which poses invisible stress on us? so odd. no other tutorials do tt. hahaha:D
anyway. had shepherding today at starbucks. quite enjoyable.. anyway i think i'm still not quite used to having lessons on paper...not enough space to write and feels as if there's not enough time to write down points. and i always feel the urge to add on to what is already on the paper...kinda like a collaboration of all the things i've learnt (eg. any verses remembered which might help to elaborate on the points, or anything learnt in daily life which might do the same thing too) hehe:D i do like seeing the blanks being filled up though:)
had an interesting encounter in the starbucks toilet... 'cos after i came out of the cubicle and went to wash my hands, this little primary school girl from Haig Girl's school said hi to me. hahaha:D then i said hi back..and i asked her what her name is. her name's kaiying...and then she said she should say sorry to me...and i asked her why. then she said something about not noticing where i was going... i was going :| in my mind but i just said 'oh nevermind nevermind:D' to her. frankly speaking, i have no idea about what she's talking about at all. hahahaha:D
was on 31 on the way back to toa payoh when i received a msg from qingz...which reminded me tt we were going to meet in orchard, but forgot abt it. hehee. thank goodness she and weez were still in toa payoh watching the basketball finals...ah well.
i saw wanling today!(shao1 jiao1 bao!:D) haha. haven't seen her for so long. and qing and weez. then we looked at the 'fabric of the nation' exhibition...quite interesting. went to orchard...fungi met us later with her paddle in hand.
ahhhhhhhh. haven't seen the nygep pple for so long!:| and they're all so far away! (qing's in hcjc, fungi's in rj and iso's in nj! our vj population... less than 10!:P)
can i quote something out of trace's blog? will she kill me? hehehe. nevermind. i trust tt our friendship is strong enough for her not to kill me over such a trivial thing:D
'miss secondary school. actually, i miss the all-girls environment. was reading some sec sch girl's blog (i find it quite interesting and i love the way she blogs heh) and yup brought back all the nice memories of our palm tree soccer goal and four thirteen's unlockable climbable windows and the football-basketball-files-stuffed metal cupboard and the wooden benches in the morning smelling the morning saying hi to everyone, xy waving and screaming your name from halfway down the quadrangle it's a lovely way to welcome a person btw, of birthdays and teachers and sze's house's road singing down it in the middle of the night to 7-11.'
actually i think it was 3/13 having unlockable climbable windows...hehehe:D and i do remember our coconut trees which suffered so much battering from the soccer ball. and the basketball games. and the kicking of soccer along the corridor (of course, and the narrowing missing breaking windows with the ball as well) what else do i remember? the tuesday afternoons (izzit tuesday) full of compos. and compos. and compos.
i recall lit lessons with jane and grace and jit and nina(oh my. was our elect lit class tt small?:|) in the library with miss choo...
ho! and the scandals in class:P hohohohohoho. we were young and ignorant then:P
let's meet up again one day! not to relive 'the old days', but to catch up on each other's life, so tt even as we move on, we will never be too far apart from the point in which we last saw each other.
-as i come into Your presence
past the gates of praise
into Your sanctuary
till i see You face to face
i look upon Your countenance
i see the fullness of Your grace
and i can only bow down and say
You are awesome in this place, mighty God-
i recall last year that we had a cg on the day that vj had a psychology talk (30th may...and i really really wanted to go for the psychology talk, but i thought about it, thought about what jt has said before, thought about whether my actions would please God, thought about the consequences of going for one and not the other, and i chose to go for cg 'cos there're always other chances for the psychology talk...whereas cg, once tt cg is gone, there won't be another of the same again..and i really wanted to know more about my sisters in the cg, enjoy their fellowship and learn more about God:)
and i truly did enjoy tt cg. hahaha:D remembered tt we buried a bottle and made a statement to dig it up 1 year later.. i wonder if the statement still holds true. shall ask:)
sometimes i do need to remind myself tt it's a decision/a step tt nbs will have to make themselves, whether to sacrifice a bit of their time to do this thing or another, whether to go for cg or not... we can prompt, we can suggest, but in the end, if they dun take the step themselves, growth won't come with it. 'cos when they truly think through it and make the decision themselves, they convict themselves of the decision made:)
something else i learnt today too...that i should not have delayed the time in rectifying something which is not quite right... i keep thinking tt gentle hinting will do the job, but since i've realised tt it doesn't get to the point, perhaps a gently teaching might help:)think i need to reflect through and pray through to find out the root of why the not quite right thing surfaced...for solving the surface stuff will not quite help... in the end, what is learnt is going to affect the person for life, and not just temporarily.
need to reflect through the way i follow-up as well:)

Tuesday, May 18, 2004


oooh. i'm quite dead. fiddled around here and there and then i closed the page of which i pasted my original template and now i can't get it back:|
how disastrous. perhaps i should change my template anyway. just couldn't find a nice one yet. nvm about it. shall use this one then. hahahaha:D but this one is so...unmodified. thought it's quite nice and plain though. btw, it's a template which blogger originally provides. ah! so sad.
-carve upon my heart,
the truth that sets me free
according to Your Word O Lord,
be it unto me-
no nice templates on blogskins recently. perhaps i should try to make my own. perhaps not. it'll prob take up quite some time:) see first. hahaha:D
oooh. so cute. got this from the Hope website:D
this is how Jesus associates words...
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hehehee.
anyway, if anyone's bored, can go and look at this website...it's quite interesting:D the ideas pple come out with these days...hahaa.
hmmm. just got to know from wenqi today that the year 1s this year actually have the combination of biology, literature, chemistry and mathematics. i do feel like strangling the school. hahahah:D
actually i don't think it'll make much of a difference... considering that my chemistry will still have minimal foundation and i do prefer econs over mathematics.
i'm quite surprised when sean asked me about chinese drama night just before econs lect today. it's such an unexpected qn out of nowhere from someone i dun usually talk to...hahaha:D maybe 'cos he realised tt i'm not someone who's 'dao'...prob thought tt all the former poiching pple are 'dao' 'cos panghao and yewluck were both quite 'dao' towards him. so amusing.
i like today. nice peaceful day. even bio practical was easy. hahahaa.
this poem is so lyrical! gosh.

'i know why the caged bird sings' - maya angelou
A free bird leaps on the back of the wind
and floats downstream till the current ends
and dips his wing in the orange sun's rays and dares to claim the sky.

But a bird that stalks down his narrow cage
can seldom see through his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.

The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn and he names the sky his own.

But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.

such a lively poem.

Monday, May 17, 2004

hahahha:D
i slept for 2 and a half hours in school today. too sleepy.
anyway, the j2s in taekwondo kept to their promise and all didn't come to school today except for my team pple. shows how hardworking we are:P nah.. i wouldn't have gone to school today if not for the fact tt i had to make up for my missed econs test like wed... ah well:) the feeling of having to go back to school even when u're exempted from school is not a very nice one. hahaha:D
i realise that i keep bumping into yos (draco's fac cap) whenever i'm with lydia...and i keep bumping into crystal whenever i'm with steph. how odd.i don't mind bumping into crystal 'cos i know her. but to keep bumping into yos is a bit weird 'cos i dun know her personally and everything we see each other again, we'll just stare at each other for a while and then walk away:P maybe one day (which will never come), i can get to know her as a friend. then it won't be so strange. hahaha:D
wah. i never realised tt my char on aardwolf is still there until today. haven't gone on like for one whole entire year. maybe i should just really give the char to derick. hmmm...

Sunday, May 16, 2004

hahaha. was quite exhausted just now after taekwondo competition... even missed my stop while taking 13...but after a nice bath, i'm wide awake again!:D
taekwondo expose (pronounced as expos-zay) is finally over!:D wah. my team (vjc team 1) got silver. we really don't deserve the silver. got better than the other team when seriously i thought the other team will get gold or something. ah well. some hiccups at the last moment for them.
yup. we dun deserve the silver 'cos we train like much less than the other team due to lots of other commitments my team pple have... (me having chinese drama as well, meiyue having guitar comp, huixian having rash and wake...poor jitsy most prob is the only one who can train everytime but dun have us around. hahha:D)
i really thought tt we'll get bronze and the other team will get gold or something. was a little nervous before the comp...but i prayed to just place everything in God's hands. God will know wat's best. yup:)
and God truly blessed us today by giving us a silver:D hahaha:D was very surprised. hahaha:D
God blessed lily too. hahaha:D she was the only yellow belt person from vj, and thrashed all other 27 pple (where 21 were from tj) to emerge as champion. hahahaha:D
ah well.
i feel quite sleepy.
oh. and i'm suddenly so happy 'cos my school now ends properly at the designated time instead of ending at like 11+ pm at night. hahahhaa:D cooL!:D
ooooooffffff!
hai cheng's over! hahaha:D
it was quite a success.. *grInz* went much better than we thought (in terms of the audience, the participation level, the standard of the shows, the coordination of lights and sound...) longyuan and i were so delighted tt it's over tt we hugged each other and jumped around even when the flower spirits were still dancing outside:P
gosh. was quite a disastrous day... tempers flew here and there... longyuan was terribly irritated with fu lei(director of hua hun---the play i'm in) 'cos he was adjusting the lights for us during the rehearsal of the play longyuan was directing. and one of the pa pple was criticizing us saying 'i've never seen any concert where the pple are still adjusting the lights one hour before the play'.
i hope she realises that it's not a concert. and having been in pa in sec sch for 4 years, i've seen plenty of concerts and plays not finishing their lights EVEN WHEN it's just before the audience came in.
it's 'cos we only had one small week to practice the whole thing. and the play i'm in - hua hun-..only started practicing like 3 weeks ago? and it's a play in which every character's action has to be fine-tuned 'cos the background atmosphere will affect the whole scene quite a lot.
moreover, they only gave us 2 hours in the entire week to practice our lights:P
anyway. there's some pple i really am pei4 fu2 after the performance...
one of them to mention is our former chinese teacher (the 2nd one from last year). her art is really good! she drew the ying hua tree and she did it alone. yah. btw, ALL of the props were made by us!:D except for the sofa and the tables and the chairs, EVERYTHING ELSE was made by us! cool right? including the screen and the gui4 zi in third play 'gui4 zhong1 yuan2' they looked so professional we really thought tt the school bought it. i think they can sell it or something. hahaha:D
another person i pei fu is the director... even in the credits, he chose not to show up...sticking to his word of not asking for credit or name, nor wanting any cip points. i think he's quite a good director...hua hun would not make it in a mere 3 weeks without him.
and i pei fu jia yun fei, our assistant director as well. he had to direct the props pple, and most of the time, also direct us...yet his tone was still one of encouragement and everything. anyway, today's his birthday and we celebrated it for him after the performance. hahahah:D
yeah! the hua hun pple are going out on one of the days to celebrate...hehehe. and the director and assistant directors are treating us!:D now...where shall we go?;)
ohoh! wanna thank jits and steph and lydia and thongkheng for coming down to support:) couldn't entertain u all 'cos my makeup was really TOO horrendous.
my initial clothes have always been one of blue shirt and skirt, but then haimeng says tt the colour is too much like hers, so laoshi lent me one of the shirts she brought, which was...PINK:P and the makeup artist looked at my clothes, and gave me this horribly bright and 'youthful' style. i nearly died when i looked into the mirror.
hope everyone enjoyed the show. it's time for me to marinate tmr for taekwondo. *grInz*
one down.
one to go.

Friday, May 14, 2004

ooooooofff.
i reached home at 12am today! hahaha:)
had rehearsal today...our rehearsal was quite a disaster 'cos at scene 5, the whole pattern was totally messed up. then the director decided to practice after the rehearsal, which ended after 8.30pm.. i don't mind the practice actually:)
but then, laoshi started to make things difficult for us by saying tt she wants to meet all of us at ya xuan right after the rehearsal, and we were protesting and saying tt we need to go and practice 'cos there ain't much time left and everything. in the end, the assistant director just decided to let all of us go to the hostel to practice first and he'll explain everything to the laoshi. hehehe:)
nice jitsy brought water for me at the hostel! hahaha:D
anyway, i think i'm going to fall asleep soon. missed cg today! so sad. wonder how cg was...hmmm:)

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

something interesting at the polyclinic.
my mum went to help me get the queue number first, and upon asking wat i have, the nurse passed a mask to my mum for me to wear.
think she's afraid i might have sars.
hahahaha:D
hohoho:)
i got mc for 2 days. hohoho:D
but i wanna run 2.4km tmr! i feel well enough to run 2.4km tmr and i'd rather run it tmr than next week!:D
my niece is holding her wedding dinner at fullerton hotel! my gosh. i feel so old all of a sudden. her children will be calling my 'great grand aunt':| how appealing:P
didn't take my econs test today 'cos i felt tt i was going to just fall asleep during the test. mr chan wanted me to take my temperature and kept holding on to that notion 'cos i told him i have a sore throat, slight cold and slight cough...he went 'do you have a fever?' and went on about how pple do die after they exert themselves physically (eg. taekwondo training ---according to him, it's bad enough)...yup. so in the end, he went to the general office, with me trailing behind him protesting 'i don't have a fever...i really don't have a fever' hahha. the farnie thing is tt the general office doesn't have any thermometers!:D then mr chan said tt he can lend me his personal thermometer or something, then decided against it 'cos the idea's quite disgusting to the both of us:P
hah. silly mr chan. i think he was just trying to waste time.
yeah! the four of us could make it for training today!:D haven't trained together in quite a while...hehehe:)
saw cs today...talked a little to her...then saw cs' mum. hahaha:D they look alike!:D

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

this is my third entry of the day.
went down just now to the study room to study econs...with no success 'cos the study room had this mother teaching her kids how to do maths and she was super loud and clearly agitated. her kids apparently found it fun to go out of the room and come back in again and while doing so, did not quite realise the disturbance caused to other pple in the studying room. well. they're kids afterall:)
saw mingxian in the study room with this guy whom my mum says is not her brother. further spying by my mum (unknownst to me) actually confirmed this suspicion. how amusing. i still insist tt he's mingxian's brother though.
anyway, my niece is getting married on the 5th of june, which sadly enough, falls nicely on the second day of the church family camp:) ah well. i'll just miss the nice buffet in the afternoon and the dinner at night. mum hints tt i'll be missing out on real good food 'cos my cousin is rich and i think my cousin's wife is kinda proud so she prob won't allow sub-standard food anyway.
another cousin of mine is getting married on the 9th of august as well. and i got to know that he's a christian! think he's my first relative (distant or close) who is also a christian:) so it'll be a church wedding and all tt. yeah! at least i'll be able to attend that one. how fun. i don't mind attending weddings as long as i do know the person. think i'll find it most interesting if keming gets married. of course, considering tt he's now the same age as me, i've got a long time to wait before being the event actually comes around to perk up my life.
and i do hope that it'll be a long time to wait. or else it'll just be another shot-gun marriage, like the other cousin. marrying at the age of 21... and his wife is 19:|
hey! that's only one year older than me! how mind boggling.
i do wonder how i am going to survive tomorrow's econs test:) the cold has officially turned into a full-fledged one, all sneezy and running and nose-reddy. cough's still under control though.
yeah! jitsy's praying for me:)
oh no. speaking of praying...please pray for xinyi for her exams as well:) physics tomorrow and chemistry the day after..
how nice it is to be able to pray:) knowing that i can pray anytime, anywhere and everywhere, aloud or silent in the heart 'cos i have a relationship with Jesus. and Jesus, having died for me on the cross, have taken my sins in that i can draw near to God and talk to Him as easily as i talk to you, and that's called prayer.
how nice:)
is it good to reminisce about the past?
i really do miss nyj's bbgt...
it's always the possibilities that entice you to think back. the 'maybe's and 'what-if's... and the previous memories which u keep in ur mind, motionless and unmoving, stored in the prism of memory, distorting and dispersing one's focus on today's facts: that everything has moved on since the moment in time which u've kept with you.
-'cos time will pass me by-
not sentimentality that i have tonight, just wistful thoughts which bubbled through my mind.
might as well let them bubble through and be trapped no more.
it's the SASAH day. sick.and.stuck.at.home. hahaha:D
been drinking xia shang ju (eh. dunno wat it is in english...summer herbal tea? O_o) the whole day and ate these medicine lookalike lozenges with 2.5mg of dequalinium chloride each in them. let me check up wat it's for.
Dequalinium chloride is an antiseptic agent that is active against many bacteria, yeasts and fungi. It kills the micro-organisms that may be associated with sore throats.
well. i hope it kills off every of these micro-organisms...they're causing me to develop a cough and cold as well:P
quite farnie this morning...sent a msg to weez telling her tt i won't be going to school in the morning, then she sent a msg back saying tt she was going to call me to tell me tt she won't be going to school either 'cos she's sick.
just nice.
hahaha.
talking to joyce right now... joyce formerly from nygep, 2 years younger than me, was in my psg's class...but not in my group. then she went overseas... quite amusing talking to her:D
ooh. something interesting to note. according to her, apparently in her former class, everyone has accepted Christ except for two pple. ah. intriguing. 19 out of 21:D
i do believe it'll be an impactful class:D

Monday, May 10, 2004

ooof. it's quite painful when you spent half an hour in continuous typing at an average speed and all of a sudden the whole post is gone because ur computer has decided to throw a tantrum once again. how disastrous.
hahaha:D
nevermind:D
i wanted to say tt my family rocks 'cos all of them have suddenly decided to buy tickets from me!:D hahaha. which kinda amuses me a tad 'cos my dad will probably not understand anything...but nice of him to come anyway. yeah!:D
and there're more promises too...like for eg...
sarah who says she might be coming 'cos two of her classmates are in the plays...
crystal...but she's considering first 'cos her service is in the evening...i told her to join Yhope for tt sat and come for chinese drama night..hahaha. how evil:) see wat her response is first...
sean...he's nicely agreed to help me ask his class pple. hahaa:D and zhongzheng who has nicely agreed to help me ask the health and fitness pple, though i only talked to him today:D
i kinda pity the taekwondo exco pple though...'cos under the command of laoshi, they have to buy tickets:P
speaking of laoshi, i think she doesn't seem to quite like 1)singaporean students, 2)females.
she'll have this biasness while talking to females, seems to render them as more incapable than males. how odd.
ah well:D
i think today's chinese drama live ad was quite nicely done:D and it kinda influenced pple towards considering coming for chinese drama night as well...(although after the life ad, quite a number of pple kept asking me 'is Santosh in chinese drama?' one former VS guy even commented tt if santosh is performing, the whole former VS population in vj would go. hahaha:D)
i remember talking about prcs and locals in chinese soc...but i can't remember why. anyway, i was talking abt how prcs are actually very nice! 'cos they always keep the locals in mind whenever they think of something. do u noe one of the main probs we always address is the fact tt there's a lack of locals in the chinese soc? 'cos our performances will mainly be targeted at singaporeans, and it'll be weird with merely prcs... and they always consider how we'll feel while watching the plays and all tt. very nice pple actually:D sometimes the things they consider, i dun even think abt it:D
'hua hun' is coming out quite interestingly... scene 5, which is a very complicated scene and the highlight of the whole play, is one with lots of effects. quite cool too:D highly recommended to come!
anyway, i shall just type until here for now. will start a new post.

Sunday, May 09, 2004

hohoho.
today's a day of studying at serene macs with twin...then a time of listening to their plans for lots of things (eg. birthday celebration...cg...presents...) hahahah:D interesting.
was trying to study for econs test this wed...but realised tt i forgot some basic concepts about money while reading through the notes...gotta clarify soon:P how disastrous:D
i find today a relatively more fruitful day than most days... spent quality time praying to God, spent time with sisters, spent time with my family, spent time for ministry, spent time for studying and going to spend more time on homework. heh:)
i just realised tt till now, all my shepherds' names start with the letter J. hahaha:D how amusing:) i wonder if the trend continues...
"But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for ourselves this day whom you will serve.... But as for me and my household, we will erve the LORD" (Joshua 24:15, NIV).

"In Florida, two young men, eager to win the admiration of fraternity brothers, removed a stop sign and brought it back as a trophy. In Tennessee, a couple of teenagers wereat a party in a high-rise apartment, and one dared the other to slide down the trash chute in the hall.

"The Florida boys were convicted of manslaughter after a fatal accident occurred at the intersection. The Tennessee boy who slid down the trash shoot was killed by an automatic trash compactor and his friend was traumatized with guilt and grief."

Foolish choices made on the spur of the moment can lead to dire consequences. Choices made without consideration of the consequences can be equally disastrous. In fact, life is the sum total of all the choices--conscious and unconscious--we make. Choices we made years ago have brought each of us to where we are today. Choices we make today will determine where we are tomorrow, and next year, and the next, and so on.

So when it comes to making choices, as another has said, "Don't sacrifice your future on the altar of the immediate." And another, "It is choice, not chance, that determines your destiny." When making choices, it is wise in everything to acknowledge God and he will direct our path (see Proverbs 3:5-6).

And whatever you do, don't forget life's most important choice that will determine where you spend eternity. If we fail to make this choice it means we choose by default, and therein reap the eternal consequences of our sin; because we are all sinners destined for an eternity apart from God, love, and all that is good--in the place the Bible calls hell. If we want to spend eternity in Heaven with God, we need to make this our choice and act upon it by accepting God's Son, Jesus Christ, as our Savior.

Again, whatever you do, don't leave your eternal well-being to chance. Choose God. Choose God's gift of salvation. Choose life--life everlasting.

Saturday, May 08, 2004

restructuring.
the whole east jc cgs will now be under YEA. and EB will be under joy.
when jiali told us about the restructuring, it didn't struck me hard...guess 'cos it's kinda expected. think it struck the high school pple 'cos they'll be having a different UL and all tt... and shepherds and all tt...
i'd better start planning this week out. hahaha:D then after this week, shall plan the whole of my two months out or something:D yeah! i shall cultivate the good habit of PLANNING! DETAILED PLANNING.
yup:)
i think i'm going to miss the hs pple a tad.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

"Taste and see that the LORD [God] is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him" - "Gustad, y ved que es bueno Jehová: Dichoso el hombre que confiará en él'" (Psalm 34:8, NIV).

A fellow shared how, in much younger days, he walked more than a hundred miles to see Niagara Falls. When he was about seven miles from the Falls, he heard what he thought might be the thunder of the crashing waters. When he askeda man working on his house if this was the falls he could hear, the man said, "It could be, but I don't know because I've never been there!"

Amazing! So near yet so far!

I grew up in Queensland, Australia, the state where the Great Barrier Reef is. It is one of the wonders of the world and I'd never seen it until a few years ago! When I lived there, I took it for granted and never bothered to see it for myself. Now I live in Southern California and am amazed at how many locals have never visited Yosemite or the Grand Canyon. Jokingly I tell them that they have sinned--by not going and experiencing these breath-taking marvels of God's creation.

Even more amazing is the fact that so many more have never bothered to taste of the goodness of the LORD [God], or have ever taken the time or interest to marvel at his greatness, to experience his divine love, or to consider his great gift of salvation with his pardon for all their sins, and the gift of eternal life which is there for the taking. They are so very near and yet so very far. And as God's Word says, "How shall we escape if we ignore [neglect] such a great salvation?" (Hebrews 2:3).

Still even more ...

How amazing it is
that God
should ever choose
to love me, a sinner.
But even more amazing,
and far beyond my
comprehension,
is the fact that
the Great Creator
and LORD
of all this vast wide
universe, wants
you and me
to love him too!

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

and i can really say that.
for that baby step today, i've done the best that i can.
-when the oceans rise and thunders roar,
i will soar with You above the storms,
Father You are king over the flood,
i will be still
know You are God-
today presented itself with a few tests on obeying God's word. intriguing:)
and when you choose to deny yourself (even just for a little while) and hold onto God instead, God did interesting stuff in my life:)
take for example, the dear adorable bio test... i must really admit tt i hardly studied for it... 'cos of the ccas and what-nots. i selectively studied just right in the morning...and thankfully the bio test qns were actually quite okay. hehee:)
and many-a-times throughout the day, things happen which made me really wanna throw up my hands and say 'bah!' and just go home, take the day off and sleep or something. hhahaa. tempation to just be an escapist or to just complain about 'me, me and more mes'...(like tt tv ad one bright morning assembly)
but u see, life isn't about me.
i wanna live my life for Christ, and if i wanna live my life for Christ, i've gotta see things in His perspective, and to allow Him to help me see the world through Him.
and i see... i see disappointed faces, i see fatigue in others, i see people making the effort to encourage... lots of interesting things to see.
and i see... i see what Jesus would have done for them. Jesus would have sat down and talked to the disappointed faces, to console them, encourage them, inspire them. i see what Jesus would have said to the tired people, to offer to carry our burdens for us. Jesus would have gone to the root of all the problems and offered solutions to all of them. and that is to know Him personally.
Jesus would not have thought of Himself. His primary concerns were the people.
though i felt uncomfortable just putting down my 'rights' for a moment or two... i would have rather liked to stay neutral and let everything pass or something, i know that i have to take this baby step to grow as well. and i'm glad i did.
may i take even more steps in diminishing my pride and expanding the amount of love for others instead.
it's an answered prayer too:D yeah!:D
"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones" (Proverbs 22:17, NIV).

"Laughter may not be the best medicine, but it is surprisingly effective. While the idea has been around for a while, more studies are confirming the anecdotal evidence. In a study published in Diabetes Care, researchers reported that people with type II diabetes had a smaller rise in blood glucose then they watched a comedy program versus a boring lecture on television. A team at the University of Maryland found that people who laughed often and were able to see the humor in situations were less likely to develop heart disease.
"Researchers say people who laugh tend to be healthier people. In study after study, hostility and anger are associated with disease, and humor with health. This is especially true when you're laughing it up with friends. Research on support groups has shown that the effects of laughter are magnified when it takes place in a social setting."
Amazing isn't it? It's taken modern science to discover, or at least, to confirm, that God's Word taught 3,000 years ago; that laughter/cheerfulness is a good medicine.
Interesting, too, until the time of Christopher Columbus almost everyone believed the world was flat, and yet Isaiah, one of the Old Testament prophets wrote over 2,000 years ago: "He [God] sits enthroned above the circle of the
earth..." (Isaiah 40:22, NIV).
And over 3,000 years ago God gave the ancient Israelites strict laws by which to live, many of which had to do with good health and hygiene. God promised that if they obeyed these laws, they would be protected from diseases that afflicted the Egyptians. (See Exodus 15:26.)
If we also live according to the principles found in God's Word, the Bible, we too can have a much happier, healthier life. Naturally, we need to know what God's Word says and teaches if we are to live by it.

Monday, May 03, 2004

God promised to help me change my perspective of things around me. not to change the circumstances, but to change my heart towards the circumstances.
Not only did he slowly change my heart, he also sent by encouragement which renewed me and reminded me once more of my identity - a child of God.
jason sent an ecard entitled 'i dreamed i had an interview with God'...though i've seen various version of this ecard before, it struck me especially much today. perhaps it's 'cos i've been reflecting through quite a lot of stuff these few days... perhaps it's just 'cos it's a period of time which rushes by and leaves me yearning for God's comforting presence more and more.
strange that he should say 'Readjusting our lives, time & priorties is always a
thing to do so as not to sway too much away fr God's purpose 4 our lives..' 'cos i was just thinking a lot about matt 28:19-20 on wed... i was thinking through if i've been living up the great commission in my life since i've joined youth, and i felt that i haven't.
and then i was thinking quite a lot about friends and friendship in general on sat night...and i'm very thankful for twin:D and twin surprised me and touched me today by sharing her sentiments about the same topic with me, right after i finish viewing the ecard.
and i could very visibly and clearly feel God's love. i just teared a bit there and then.
i'm not a person who feels comfortable with heartfelt expressions of emotions and all that...not very good with words either...
but i just wanna say tt i'm really thankful to God for jason and xinyi tonight:)
and i thank God for all the understanding people in my life...i thank God for the chinese soc juniors who so nicely always try to involve me into their conversations and everything, thank God for my taekwondo team...thank God for laughter ('cos it helps to bond pple together too:D) and thank God for who He is.
the word thanks. my heart's swirling with it right now.
thank You Jesus for Your love for me.

Sunday, May 02, 2004

so sad tt the only day twin can make it nicely to study, i can't.
nvm. we have an eternity to find a sunday to meet up to study:D
hope to see my twin soon!
hope to see the nygep pple soon too!:D
another outing? how about 1st of june?:D it's a monday! first monday of the holidays!
or 31st of may, if it's more convenient for more pple...:D
yeah!
vj's Viesta Soleil (meaning 'fun in the sun') is over! and it's a success!:D *grInz*
originally, i thought tt the whole event wasn't so hyped up and everything 'cos the school still seems pretty silent and only a few individual classes can be seen making the effort to make their store more 'glamourous'.
whereas for my class, nothing much was seen until thurs when thongkheng massed smsed the entire class and sounded like so stressed and sad and saying tt he's disappointing us and all tt, then we started to have a bit of action:)
but it's really on friday afternoon when pieces started to come together, and the store looked pretty good!:D much better than i've imagined it to be:D
but sat really amazed me 'cos the class stall had a lot of pple lining wanting to throw the balls at the cans...apparently it looks easy. hahaha:D and it's only $2...so well:) yeah:D i wonder how much our stall made.
apparently mr ho and kenneth both got 'tortured' on sat. haha.
the haunted house for funfair was good!:D nice atmosphere. they transformed the Lt till i can't recognise it:) and the person in the control room acted very well:) although i thought the food part was quite boring:P
yeah:D
service was quite interesting yesterday. they announced the schools tt were completed...quite nice to hear tt aj, cj, nj and rj were also completed:D vj too!:D can't remember wat other schools...but i heard guangyang, beatty and cedar...and all of them are around my area! hahaa:D
chinese drama rehearsal today... sat in vs hostel canteen for 2 hours listening to the director talk abt the scenes, positions, lighting... scene 5 is going to be so cool!:D hahahaha:D a lot of playing with the lighting to bring out the atmosphere. i thank God i'm not doing lighting for this whole haicheng...or else i'll just be superbly drained.
me and jits reached 10 mins before time for taekwondo:D hehehe. and subsequently, everyone else came late:P next time i shall just reach early and buy a huge serving of watever food i want and slowly take my time to finish lunch:D haha.
i feel tt green pattern gives a weird feeling. it's very slllooowww....i like greenblue pattern better:D hope they call us to do tt pattern during competition...not sure if tt'll be a good thing though. 'cos green blue moves are harder to execute. yup:)
we had to be smuggled into changi beach club today. hahaha:) and smuggled out. so farnie.
think sir's very nice. he got milo and drinks for us for training every sunday, then he'll clean up everything himself. me, jits and huixian wanted to offer our help, but he says it's okay. think he treats us as his friends or children or something.
i think he needs a constant company, always there.
oof. i'm getting sleepy. nearly fell asleep just waiting for the bus at the busstop today. hahaha:D
no school tmr! wheeeeeee~