yeah. interesting few days. hahaha:D
went to relief teach on tues. actually just babysitted all of them:D watched pearl harbour (watched for 2 hours++ before realising that it's pearl harbour. heheh) and children of heaven:) was with this girl called yushan, previously from tj:) hahaha. then went back to vj:D quite fun to go back to vj. hahaha:D
then on wed. shepherding with gwenie. interesting.
then went to changi to find huiqi and maurise, then went to find huiting at her mum's shop:) she's very helpful! hahaa. helped me pick out a present for sharline. yeah:) and then went to huiqi's house with sengkim. yeah! to prepare for cg.
cg was exciting:D we had normal cg. then we had lao yu sheng:D hahaha. poor sasha (huiqi's dog). she kept putting her nose to the table and whining. ah wellus.
then we had steamboat. and watched white chicks in the meantime. ah wellus. hahaha:D funny show ah. lots of crude humour though.
yeah.
then met with maurise today. hehee. we went to the staff canteen at changi. now i know where it is:D
then went to somerset for sakae sushi buffet with sharline and kaimei:D hahaha. sharline liked the present (whew:D)...hahaa. ordered lots of fried stuff. *grInz* very full. we talked a lot about students and teaching and what-nots. eh. heard some stuff which kinda made me disappointed with nvss. ah well.
then we walked to far east. kaimei had to go off for walk, so yeah, left sharline and me.
saw sze and her cousin on the way there. hahaha. actually she saw me first. i didn't even see her. wellus:)
yeah. walked around far east to find the alteration shops, then looked around. hmm. window shopping basically. actually not even window shopping, we just went past the shops and took a glance at each of them. feeling a little tired. sharline suggested that it's 'cos we ate too much and all of the blood went to our stomachs. yeah. both of us love bio. hahaha:D
then we went to tangs to check out the skirt that she liked. wellus. tangs had a revamp and i hardly recognise the place anymore. so yeah.
was going home when i realised that my pass was with kaimei. hahaa. disastrous. went to borders to find her but found out that she was gone. tried looking around for an organiser but they were all quite ex. yeah.
went to isetan to find kaimei. hahaha. finally got my pass back:) yeah.
came back to toa payoh and decided i should get a new pouch or something but can't find a shop with pouches...so i decided to go to popular and purchase my organiser first.
ended up applying for student membership for three years ($15) and spending half of a day's relief teaching salary on stuff to help me organise my room and life. yeah. basically got the post-it sticky board thing and got my organiser and got lots of files. yeah.
tired of seeing mess in my room. so yeah. it shall be tidy from now on:)
i'm actually kinda amazed at how God changed my attitude towards tidiness. like. just last year i dun even care if my room is messy or not, as long as i can find my notes and have a space to do my work. yeah.

"When Jesus saw Nathanael approaching, he said of him, "Here is a true Israelite, in whom there is nothing false" (John 1:47, niv)

I recently read how Ray, an energetic three-year-old, liked to play being Superman. Each morning he would have his mother pin a bath towel to the back of his T-shirt and off he'd go imagining he was wearing the magic blue and red cape pretending he was Superman. In his mind he came to believe he was Superman.

Then came kindergarten. When the teacher asked Ray for his name, he replied, "Superman." Trying to hide her amusement she asked again, "I need to know your real name." Again he replied in all sincerity, "Superman."

The teacher, still trying to hide her amusement, got down to Ray's level and, looking squarely into Ray's eyes, said quite firmly, "I need to know your real name. What is it?"

Little Ray looked around the room, making sure no one was listening and, leaning close to the teacher, whispered in her ear, "I'm Clark Kent."

We smile at a child's innocence and make-believe world. But in reality some of us, afraid of being known for who we truly are, have hidden behind a pretend-mask for so long that we have come to believe that the role we play is the real us. In doing so we fail to realize that the loneliness we struggle with is caused by our living in a make-believe world neither knowing who we are or being known for who we are. For we can only ever be loved and connected to other loving people to the degree that we are known. Masks can't be loved. Only real people can be really loved.

Let's learn to be like Nathanial about whom Jesus said when he first met him, "Here comes a man in whom there is nothing false." Or in our language, "Here comes an honest man."

hahahha:D
today is valentine's day. and i spent half of the day in dreamland:D wonderful:D
yeahyeah:D
watched the opening ceremony for grammys just now. super cool! as in. i love the last part when they fused all the different songs together. thought it was great. hahaha:D yeahyeah.
if it's not for the fact that i've gotta wake up early tomorrow, i would continue watching it. hahahaha:D

saw guan yesterday before prayer meet and i was like thinking it's quite nice to have your former classmates in the same church as you 'cos you'll see them quite regularly and it'll feel as if we've never really left each other 'cos we'll still see each other and catch up on what's going on in our lives. and knowing that we have the same vision and all, it bonds the friendship even deeper:)
yeah. anyway, had mtv remix screening today! haha. super funny when we watch it. yeah:D and had a nice time talking to jits too.
i tell u ah. it's hard to find little golden hearts hidden ALL OVER RC. there was this elusive heart in the washing machine that was like hiding from me and jits and showed itself clear to joycelyn. grrr.
hahhaa. wellus. had fun nevertheless. and we ate lunch together and we watched tv together and we played daidee and bridge and daidee and bridge. hahaha:) poor rc is a bit messy after we vacated though.
yeah. then walked around tamp mall looking for stuff. yes. important stuff. whereby after that me and jits took the train home.
hahaha. this guy who was stunk of liquer sat down beside me and started speaking to himself O_o jits was like thinking he's mad and i'm thinking he's drunk and both of us decided to move.
then the guy actually came to around the same place we finally sat down at. hahha. but he was standing, so didn't really bother us. then he started to irritate the people around him, talk a lot of nonsense, point here, point there. i told jits that we should just sleep. hahaa. so that he won't come and bother us. anyway, i didn't see this, but jits saw...
the guy held up a beer bottle and actually wanted to drink it in the mrt train... there was this family across him. and the father of the family stood up and showed him his wallet. hahaha:D
that doesn't sound very intimidating, does it? but the thing is...there was a police i.d in the wallet, and there was a sign saying no drinking on the wall of the train and the guy wasn't really scared till the father picked up his phone and called someone, then the guy who was drunk picked up his stuff and moved off.
wellus.
interesting. hahaha.

i think i'm going to puke from eating too much new year stuff. thoroughly sick of them now. hahaha:D don't get them near me!
yeah:D
yesterday was chu yi. and they were so slow in coming to my house i fell asleep waiting for them and woke up after everyone arrived and started knocking on my door. hahaha.
yeah. my nephews came. my niece came. my cousin came. my cousin's wife didn't come. hahaha. turns out that keming knows michael. ah. intriguing. maybe they're in the same platoon? hmm. michael doesn't seem to know him. ahhh wellus. hahaha.nevermind about it.
great. now michael's platoon has a eugene that knows both me and jits. a eugene ho or eugene chua. hahahaha. funny. i dunno anyone called eugene ho or eugene chua. haha. not eugene. yupei! hahaha. gosh. the world is small.
yeah:D
today is chu er. and today is a sleepy day 'cos i finished reading a book at 4am! hahaha. and sleep was scarce. actually not very scarce..just tt i think sleeping so 'early' kinda threw my body clock out of balance.
yeah. visited my aunt (paternal side)...she moved house 'cos of a long story. hehe. anyway, i like her new house better! smaller but cosier. yeah:D got to know my nieces' names. and then visited my aunt too! (materal side. haha) and played with my niece. we played mahjong. muahahhaa. hahaha.
yeah well. u'll realise i dun seem to have cousins playing with me. ALL of my cousins (except one from the maternal side who's decided not to ever marry) ARE MARRIED. gosh.sure makes you feel young, for once.

happy new year to all! hahaha.
i do dislike new year eves. all the cleaning up and what-nots. and i'm still stuck in my room sneezing my head off, trying to clean up my mess (made messier since the start of cleaning up) and being frustrated at the various furniture settled in my room, wishing i can throw everything up and redecorate the room again. hahaha.
i've settled for a change in look. yeah. the computer table is now MINE.
hahaha.

stolen from the gepaa website:

According to experts, most people have either a "dog" personality or a "cat" personality, although a small number fall under the "others" category. This is how it works: think of the animal you would most like to have if you could have only one pet. Then think of the animal you would choose if you were allowed a second pet - this could be the same as the first. The first animal represents one's own personality and the second, that of one's spouse or soulmate. So, for example, someone who chooses Cat for the first animal and Dog for the second animal is compatible with someone who chooses Dog first and Cat second.

At a corporate team-building retreat, the trainer posed the personality question to my unwitting colleague. Being a fish lover, he chose the arrowana as his preferred pet. Asked for his second choice, he pondered for a moment. "Perhaps a grasshopper," he finally said. "It would make good fodder for the arrowana".
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haha.

hahah. guess where i am?
ah well. i'm in the staff room of north vista. again. marking books.
so sad. i dun get any salary for today...hahaha...but if i dun mark the books right, then the new teacher would have to mark the books...and she'll most prob kill me. hahaa. had to scold the class for her just now. so strange.
wellus.

in case some pple don't know
i'm no longer a teacher. hahaa. yvonne happily informed me after all my classes on friday and said that a new teacher's coming in... gee. so friendly. never inform me beforehand.
yeah. shall not type out the details here any more. cried a couple of times. one of my students cried, which kinda surprised me actually..but quite touching..and my guy students were just there... i still miss them.

There can be no such things as an atheist. This is why: Let's imagine that you are a professing atheist. Here are two questions for you to answer: First, do you know the combined weight of all the sand on all the beaches of Hawaii? We can safely assume that you don't. This brings us to the second question: Do you know how many hairs are on the back of a fully-grown male Tibetan yak? Probably not. It is therefore reasonable to conclude that there are some things that you don't know. It is important to ask these questions because there are some people who think they know everything.

Let's say that you know an incredible one percent of all the knowledge in the universe. To know 100 percent, you would have to know everything. There wouldn't be a rock in the universe that you would not be intimately familiar with, or a grain of sand that you would not be aware of. You would know everything that has happened in history, from that which is common knowledge to the minor details of the secret love life of Napoleon's great-grandmother's black cat's fleas. You would know every hair of every head, and every thought of every heart. All history would be laid out before you, because you would be omniscient (all-knowing).

Bear in mind that one of the greatest scientists who ever lived, Thomas Edison, said, "We do not know a millionth of one percent about anything." Let me repeat: Let's say that you have an incredible one percent of all the knowledge in the universe. Would it be possible, in the ninety-nine percent of the knowledge that you haven't yet come across, that there might be ample evidence to prove the existence of God? If you are reasonable, you will be forced to admit that it is possible. Somewhere, in the knowledge you haven't yet discovered, there could be enough evidence to prove that God does exist.

Let's look at the same thought from another angle. If I were to make an absolute statement such as, "There is no gold in China," what is needed for that statement to be proven true? I need absolute or total knowledge. I need to have information that there is no gold in any rock, in any river, in the ground, in any store, in any ring, or in any mouth (gold filling) in China. If there is one speck of gold in China, then my statement is false and I have no basis for it. I need absolute knowledge before I can make an absolute statement of that nature. Conversely, for me to say, "There is gold in China," I don't need to have all knowledge. I just need to have seen a speck of gold in the country, and the statement is then true.

To say categorically, "There is no God," is to make an absolute statement. For the statement to be true, I must know for certain that there is no God in the entire universe. No human being has all knowledge. Therefore, none of us is able to truthfully make this assertion.

If you insist upon disbelief in God, what you must say is, "Having the limited knowledge I have at present, I believe that there is no God." Owing to a lack of knowledge on your part, you don't know if God exists. So, in the strict sense of the word, you cannot be an atheist. The only true qualifier for the title is the One who has absolute knowledge, and why on earth would God want to deny His own existence?

The professing atheist is what is commonly known as an "agnostic" - one who claims he "doesn't know" if God exists. It is interesting to note that the Latin equivalent for the Greek word is "ignoramus." The Bible tells us that this ignorance is "willful" (Psalm 10:4). It's not that a person can't find God, but that he won't. It has been rightly said that the "atheist" can't find God for the same reason a thief can't find a policeman. He knows that if he admits that there is a God, he is admitting that he is ultimately responsible to Him. This is not a pleasant thought for some.

It is said that Mussolini (the Italian dictator), once stood on a pinnacle and cried, "God, if you are there, strike me dead!" When God didn't immediately bow to his dictates, Mussolini then concluded that there was no God. However, his prayer was answered some time later.

yeah:D emotions service today. hahah.
i missed the first part (last week) 'cos of food poisoning...but today was GREAT. hahaha:D love the keyboard collaboration (really very awe-inspiring), didn't quite understand the drums (but the skills were marvellous hahaa:D) and i think bao wei singing on stage was super amusing!:D
dun ask me why. maybe it's the hairstyle.
hahaha
and we had audience participation:D everyone had shakers. super amusing:D
yeah:D yesh:D
oh yes! we have Hope brisbane people joining us!:D they speak with an accent:D friendly pple too:D and i was like thinking. surprisingly huiyu still speaks without an accent after one yr down under:D haha.
and apparently the food in aus is like 3-4 times more expensive than the food in singapore.
gosh. if i'm in aus, i'll starve to death. hahaha.

just when i'm feeling a bit tired,
a bit moody,
a bit downcast,
a bit of looking to myself instead of God...

my dear faithful God. what can i say? You who makes the heavens and the earth, who set the stars in their place, who crafted every of the mountains and moulded every of our face...
You did Your work in her heart...
and changed it. for You. to love You more.
a big decision. but nevertheless, the words were said.
thank You Lord.
You are faithful.
the news lightened my heart. God is moving in the hearts in ea3!

third service in march! here we come!

aiyah. i have nothing to say about the students.
i felt like giving up on the 3n3 students. they dun quite understand tt it's one thing to joke around OUTSIDE OF CLASS, it's another to actually RESPECT THE TEACHER AND PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS. gosh. i wasn't so mad until i actually heard tt four of the students SKIPPED MY CLASS and went to kaimei's homeroom and refused to leave.
i kept telling the teachers i feel like slapping their faces. hahaha. the guys are really PLAIN CRUDE. and the girls are. wellus.
one of the girls was even spiteful. i was quite shocked actually. ah well.
oh. and one of the nicer 3n3 guys just told me to ignore them 'cos they're not worth bothering about. in a matter-of-fact tone.
was having LOTS OF NEGATIVE EMOTIONS. hahaha. felt terribly uncomfortable in me... all the way to rc. reached rc and the first thing i did was to go to the toilet and pray. gosh. a new perspective came my way. hahha. feels so good to put the sermon into practice:)
i'm not going to give up:P I WILL BE JOYFUL. I WILL DO MY BEST TO LOOK AT THEM THROUGH GOD's EYES. yesh. perfect time to grow in the area of love. hahahaa:D
i wish it's a smaller class though. hahaha.
looking forward to sat. literally sleeping 3 and a half hours every night.
oh guess what> my dad actually just got the tepanyaki thing that's something like the steamboat buffet thing... like u can fry stuff on it and u can cook soup on it.. except i dun have a fire in the middle, i have a round tepanyaki thing in the middle. yeah. cool. hahaha. i find it quite cool. so dun mind me.

A little girl went to her bedroom and pulled a glass jelly jar from its hiding place in the closet. She poured the change out on the floor and counted it carefully. Three times, even. The total had to be exactly perfect. No chance here for mistakes. Carefully placing the coins back in the jar and twisting on the cap, she slipped out the back door and made her way 6 blocks to Rexall's Drug Store with the big red Indian Chief sign above the door. She waited patiently for the pharmacist to give her some attention but he was too busy at this moment. Tess twisted her feet to make a scuffing noise. Nothing. She cleared her throat with the most disgusting sound she could muster No good. Finally she took a quarter from her jar and banged it on the glass counter. That did it!

And what do you want?" the pharmacist asked in an annoyed tone of voice. "I'm talking to my brother from Chicago whom I haven't seen in ages," he said without waiting for a reply to his question. Well, I want to talk to you about my brother," Tess answered back in the same annoyed tone. "He's really, really sick... and I want to buy a miracle."
'I beg your pardon?" said the pharmacist.
"His name is Andrew and he has something bad growing inside his head and my Daddy says only a miracle can save him now. So how much does a miracle cost?"
"We don't sell miracles here, little girl. I'm sorry but I can't help you," the pharmacist said, softening a little.
"Listen, I have the money to pay for it. If it isn't enough, I will get the rest. Just tell me how much it costs." The pharmacist's brother was a well-dressed man. He stooped down and asked the little girl, "What kind of a miracle does your brother need?"
I don't know," Tess replied with her eyes welling up. "I just know he's really sick and Mommy says he needs an operation. But my Daddy can't pay for it, so I want to use my money."
How much do you have?" asked the man from Chicago.
One dollar and eleven cents," Tess answered barely audibly. "And it's all the money I have, but I can get some more if I need to." Well, what a coincidence," smiled the man. "A dollar and eleven cents---the exact price of a miracle for little brothers.
" He took her money in one hand and with the other hand he grasped her mitten and said "Take me to where you live. I want to see your brother and meet your parents. Let's see if I have the miracle you need." That well dressed man was Dr. Carlton Armstrong, a surgeon, specializing in neuro-surgery. The operation was completed without charge and it wasn't long until Andrew was home again and doing well. Mom and Dad were happily talking about the chain of events that had led them to this place.
That surgery," her Mom whispered. "was a real miracle. I wonder how much it would have cost?" Tess smiled. She knew exactly how much a miracle cost...one dollar and eleven cents ..... plus the faith of a little child. A miracle is not the suspension of natural law, but the operation of a higher law...

MY OATH TO YOU...
When you are sad.....I will dry your tears.
When you are scared.....I will comfort your fears.
When you are worried.....I will give you hope.
When you are confused.....I will help you cope.
And when you are lost....And can't see the light.
I shall be your beacon.....Shining ever so bright.
This is my oath.....I pledge till the end.
Why you may ask?.....Because you're my friend.


Signed: GOD

gosh. one of my student's father died.

slight distraction from what i'm doing.
hahaha!
look at what i stumbled on. super funny.
this is the 'eyd website
'eyd means CHAOS in hebrew. so yeah. go figure.
oh gosh. it still works. takes extremely long to load though. give it like a min or so. hahaha. anyway, here's what it says:
"' e y d
greetings from da funk.

welcome to the inner sanctum. to satisfy your curiosity and cravings in every way possible, let us enlighten you on our very noble mission. this webpage is about four fineass babes in a team for some fiery hot competition by the name of CHAOS. CHAOS is short for · creative and heuristic application of science · . all upper secondary students in singapore are greatly encouraged to take part. if you wanna know more about it, all you gotta do is just click on the link above maaaaaaaan.

after much consideration, deliberation and of course arguments, we have decided to christen our team 'eyd, which is hebrew for CHAOS [ say whatever you gotta say, man ] :)'eyd includes four funkadelic babes in a school called nanyang girls' high who go by the names of fengyi, hui qinG, wee zi and xin ying.

to know more about us and how we rock da world, you jez gotta dig this...

chew fengyi
soh hui qing
tan wee zi
tan xin ying

CHAOS aside, mark wahlberg is oh so hot. oohh babyyyy."

ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i can't believe it's still there:P
maybe it's time to revamp the website. hahahaa.
use it for a better purpose rather than allow it to settle and rot. back to what i'm doing:D

i am delighted:D hahaa. and excited. and contented. not contented. i am happy. jubilant. no. wrong word. not jubilant. i am. satisfied. nonono. i am...
blissful.
(oh dear. blissful sounds like i'm getting married)
i am in that state whereby i realise that a new day has started and i can sit up on my bed on my own, walk around on my own, take a deep breath in without vomitting, eat food without having it all gone within a minute... i am well:D thank God! amen!
had food poisoning. hahaha. i kinda left trails everywhere i went:P
doctor said i'll take at least 2 days for my body to recover. and that i've gotta drink lots of water (a few sips at a time) 'cos my body's dehydrated from all the diarrhoea and vomitting. (dehydrated ---> no energy to walk ----> nearly fainting when you stand up)
but prayers work wonders:D thank God for the prayers for me. thanks.
by sat evening, i was able to walk. hahaha. i don't know how that sounds. but to me, it was a miracle. considering that i couldn't even sit up:P
and this morning, i feel healed:D hhahaa. i am delighted. extremely.
actually. the many hours of sleep did me good. had lack of sleep for the past few weeks and these hours of sleep really replenished the lack. and the vomitting kinda got rid of all my phlegm. haha:D
yeah:)
-when it was dark now there's light
when there was pain now there's joy
when there was weakness, i found my strength
all in the eyes of a boy-

wahhhhhhhhhhhh
so maluating
was feeling unwell yesterday and today and i actually burst out vomitting in the mrt on the way home. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
and the best part is... one of the 3N3 girls saw me vomitting. arrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhh.
i'll never get any respect from them from now on.
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i went into class to help kaimei take care of 2N2 for a period today...and in the meantime, reprimanded them for disrespecting the teacher. they were super obedient for the next period when kaimei came in. i told them that if they want kaimei to continue teaching them, then they've gotta show it in actions. they promised.
and then what happens?
the guys went to do the dumbest thing on earth that can be done. they went to beat someone from another class of kaimei up. like O_o|||...there's a whole history to the whole thing which i dun wanna type out. but just know that what they did was the most stupid and brainless thing that could have been done at tt moment.
and i seriously don't know what's wrong with some of the students. one moment they're quite okay, another they decide to be disrespectful towards teachers. i think if we tell the discipline master everytime someone is disrespectful, we can get lots of students caned and suspended.
but what do we gain by doing so? nothing!
gee.
gim seng and mabel are leaving after this week. and clarice is basically just baby sitting the classes. whilst me and kaimei and sharline are at the frontline everyday. aargh. wellus.

i think the saddest thing that can happen is when a student actually gives up on himself. when someone wants to give up.
-all you were thirsty, all you were weak
come to the fountain, leave your heart in the stream of life
let the pain and the sorrow be washed away-
i mean it's frustrating and one can be easily angered at their rebelliousness and all that, but when a student says 'i don't care anymore. i want to get suspended but the principal doesn't want to suspend me.'
when a student had that look of wanting to try again for an instance, and then gives it up, i feel that that's the saddest thing that can happen.
shall see if i can talk to the student.
and i've a feeling the students think that teachers have no life. whatsoever. hahaha.
visiting fungi in her army camp on 22nd!
yeah wellus.
had students visiting me just now. hahha. got this super quiet girl in class suddenly chatting amiably with me out of class. super funny. yeah wellus. shall give them 2nd chances. lots of 2nd chances. oh! the guy who tore up the tingxie book was very nice today. he did his essay diligently. hahaha:) how nice:)

took the liberty of giving my brain a half-day's break from thinking. hahaha. don't think i should do it again in a long long time. waste of time.
i watched tv and tv and tv and played games on zone.com until my score on jewel quest was .. wellus:)
shall go back to planning lessons. i feel more hardworking than i'm a student. actually i think i'm doing more 'homework' each day than when i was a student. hahahaa. intriguing.

i don't think i can be a teacher in the future. hahahaa.
i don't wanna scold them. i just wanna talk to them normally, like they're my friends, but i can't not scold them. 'cos i have to carry out the role of being a teacher.
actually to tell the truth, i don't mind them being noisy, or not listening in class, or not tying up their hair... but the school minds! ah wellus.
as a teacher, i feel like i'm 'over' them, but i wanna be 'with' the people. can't be a teacher. hahahaa.
anyway, the 3E students think that i'm 21. hahhahaa! they were like 18? 19? 21? then i just went 'go and do your work'
wanted to stay in school till very late so as to prepare all my lessons and type them out. the comp doesn't want me to do that though...it's decided to cause the vanishing of the hansvision programme. can't find it AT ALL.
disastrous.
i've got lots of things to mark in the weekend. oh dear.
marking compos. which are quite amusing. very amusing. i wonder if my compo in the past amused my teacher? hmmm;)

"And I [John] heard a loud voice from the throne [heaven] saying, 'Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away'" (Revelation 21:3-5, niv).

Daily the news media continues reporting more and more tragedies as the Asian Tsunami death toll keeps mounting. Over and over we hear tragic stories about thousands of families being torn apart--grieving children losing parents, heartbroken parents losing children, homes totally destroyed, and despicable evil, criminals kidnapping orphaned children for their loathsome sex trade business. Devastating before and after photos of resorts and villages that have been decimated are also seen.

Where is God at times like this? is a reasonable question to
be sure. Thoughts from Chuck Swindoll written to a friend who asked him the same question help us to understand, to some degree, the dilemma we face. In a nutshell here's how Chuck explained the situation:

A great deal depends on one's perspective. Life can be viewed horizontally or vertically; that is, horizontally from a human point of view or vertically from a divine viewpoint.

Viewed horizontally: It's noteworthy that God gets blamed
by critics [many of whom claim they don't believe in God] who see everything from a horizontal viewpoint. For these people life revolves around themselves. If one says that God has nothing to do with disasters, he will be criticized for being uncaring and uninvolved. If God is a God of love they claim, he is supposed to guard us from all harm, always make us happy, and keep us safe. If one says that God is a caring and loving God, then the humanistic public sees him as cruel and even sadistic because He doesn't stop the disasters.

Viewed vertically: In the beginning, God made all things good--everything remained in that perfect condition until sin entered, polluting and corrupting, not only individual lives, but this earth as well. [Sin's] curse that fell on humanity
as well as nature was devastating in its extent. As a result of sin's universal impact certain realities were set in motion: such as consequences following wrongdoing, human struggles and sicknesses, international conflicts and wars, tragedies and disasters, grief and loss and death, to name only a few. Had sin never entered, none of those things would have existed or been of concern. But because it has, unending litanies of problems have and always will accom-
pany life on this planet. In fact, according to prophetic Scripture, they will increase and intensify until the Son of God returns and takes up his rightful place as King of Kings and Lord of Lords on planet earth.1

Swindoll and other theologians explain the difference between God's directive will and his permissive will. God is still on the throne of the Universe and all things are under the control of his directive will. But because he gave man-
kind a free will to choose his own way, his permissive will allows for the consequences of mankind's actions--hence all the problems mankind is facing today in a world that is plagued by evil.

However, because of God's love he has made a way of escape by giving his Son, Jesus, to die for our sins and offer us the gift of forgiveness and eternal life in heaven where "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." But that's in heaven and not on earth. As the late Vance Havner used to say in his inimitable Southern style, "This world is a goner. It's a sinking ship. God's goal is not to save the world but to save people out of it [and its devastating consequences because of all the evil in it].

i just deleted my neopets account. hahahaa. created one (again) after the As but realised that i've been spending too much time on it.
as in. realised that for a lot of times already but didn't want to discontinue neopets 'cos it seems quite interesting to collect the stuff and everything else... yeah. and wellus.
came to the decision yesterday 'cos i realise that it IS just a game afterall and there're much better things for me to invest my time in. yes.
oh yes! i had a nice time talking to two girls from US though:) hahhaa.

hahaha. had a nice long sleep just now:D yeah!
mum woke me up at 8+pm to eat dinner...when she first woke me up, the first thing i thought was '8+? i'm going to be late for school! oh no!':P
hahaha. wellus.
yes.
had 3n3 early in the morning. thank God it was manageable today. hahaa.

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i'm breathing in the delicious night air once again.
and God reminded me of love. love for my class 3N3 students. forgive. forget. love.
'be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly father is perfect.'

i'm quite tired today. slept on 28 all the way home. felt really groggy even as i got down the bus. hahha. lack of sleep from preparation for things.
i'm going to vomit blood teaching 3N3. gosh. they've even got a reputation for being notorious in school. strange thing is tt they were actually quite okay on monday. don't know what happens.
i think it'll be okay if i seperate all of them, but when they sit together, it's actually quite disastrous.
teaching is such a hard balance between being firm and showing love.
tired. hahaha. caregroup was refreshing though:) yeah:D

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okay. i shall stop typing in chinese. feels a bit weird.
taking a break from planning out my chinese lessons. thank God! i'm nearly done with them. only have 4T2's lesson plans not out yet. and i still have quite a lot of time to finish planning it. yeah!
hahaha. and i've got some worksheets from the other teachers today. which means for some days i can just pass it to the classes and ask them to do it while i prepare for lessons. muahhahaha.
delighted i am. i am delighted. haha.

third day of work.
woke up at 8+. hahaha. bliss!
got out of house at 9.30am.
got to the outside bus-stop at 10am!
wait. isn't it quite odd? usually it takes only 5 mins to get to the outside bus-stop. hmmmm...
maybe not. when you consider that the bus took quite a long time to come, and that my shoe strap broke and i spent a long time trying to staple it with no success... it doesn't seem too long afterall.
hhaha.
taught my 2E5 class today. quite disorganised. 'cos first time teaching...felt weird. it feels like the first time i told them my rules. disorganised. but wellus. i have faith that i'll improve with experience. yes. gave them words for ting1 xie3 on the first day!
hahahahha!
poor 2E5 though. my guinea pigs.
yepz. everything went quite well with the 3E combined classes. interesting bunch of pple. actually it seems like the 3N classes are the naughtiest. wellus.
my relief teaching application can't get approved 'cos of the declaration i made about having asthma:P sharline says they're discriminating me. hahaha! anyway, it's still pending. i wonder if i'll get my pay for the first three days. O_o. hmmm. $65 x 3 is quite alot of money.

you know. it's only been two days since i've joined the teaching staff of north vista sec...but already, it feels like i've been there for like forever. hahaha. sharline and i and kaimei were discussing about students again today and i really want to thank God for the classes i have. i haven't met 1E1...but they're supposed to be the best class out of all the sec 1 classes. hahaha:D
and i haven't met the 'rejects' (so called. poor things) of the 3E classes...those with the poorest results... wonder how they'll be. mdm seah says some of them are just very quiet. but she also says it's very tiring to take care of them.
hahaha. they're my added bunch of pple to teach. starting from today. gosh. thurs is going to be my most tiring day. four classes almost consecutively. four hours of teaching. gosh.
oh yes! let me talk about 4T2! hahaha. heard very bad things about the 4T classes actually...then just tt morning during staff meeting, someone mentioned about a guy in 4T2 being someone not to be messed with. and i was like O_o. right. okay.
but turns out they're very nice. hahaha:D more sensible than 2E5, 'cos they're older. less cheeky than 3N3...which is good. smaller class too. so i can handle them better. and the guy who's supposed to be not very good to mess with, he shows me respect.
let's see if this goes on even when i ask them for homework;)
hahaha. was talking to this girl about earholes. so funny. she just pierced hers yesterday. ah well.
and the guys are friendlier too. as in. they'll greet me even out of school. think my classes are a far cry of kaimei's...hahaha. and sharline's... sharline had a boy in the class who actually shot back 'why should i?' when sharline asked him to stand.
wellus. thank God for the chinese department too..they're quite a fun-loving bunch of pple. hahahha:D we talk a lot of nonsense.
oh! was in the staff room and i was commenting about how wearing high heels everyday is kinda killing me and was saying tt maybe i shld become a pe teacher instead. and the pe hod waved her arms enthusiastically and said 'i don't mind! come join us!' hahaha. funny.

hahaha. blogging in north vista staff room. just finished chinese department meeting not long ago. quite amusing. quite frantic. quite messy. quite enjoyable:) i've got an extra class all of a sudden.
4T2 was surprisingly nice!:D hahaha.
going off to plan tmr's lessons. oh dear. maybe i should plan tmr. wellus.

first day of relief teaching today. bus took an entire hour to reach north vista...yepz. that's where i'm teaching. north vista secondary school...which emphasizes on breeding fine ladies and true gentlemen...which sounds quite amusing to me. but i dun think the school will appreciate it if i tell it to them:)
they actually emphasize very whole values...like integrity, treating others with respect, self-disciple that kinda stuff. hahaha.
i'm co-form teacher with anne, who was teaching in AHS...we found each other familiar. hahahaa:D so funny. ended up deducing that it's 'cos she used to bring her students for vj openhouse and what-nots. yeahhhh... she teachers english and geog. hahaa:)
the teacher i'm relieving is miss lee beeyan...hahah. actually she's still in the school..but having her practical, so she'll be following another teacher around. very nice person! very young and roly-poly:D very fun to talk to anne and beeyan. hahaha.
actually the teachers there are all relatively young..'cos the sch is young. so yepz. hahaha. so yepz. quite fun to talk to them. then you'll usually see how commenting on students, comparing notes on them, talking about appearances deceiving pple...trying to choose a rep without much success. oh yes.
i forgot to mention. my co-form class is 2E5 (for the first time in my life, i know why it's 2E5, 3N3 that kinda stuff)... hahaa. yes. my class is 2E5 and guess what?
SENGKIM'S BROTHER IS IN MY CLASS. hahahahahahaha! superbly funny.
yeah. took 2E5 today. quite a nice class. just a bit too talkative. took 3N3 too. quite okay also. a group of guai students, a group of super talkative and mischievious boys who mean no harm, a group of sian pple, a group of 4 ah lians who're giving me the least respect.
i wonder how 1E1 will be like. i wonder about 4T2 too. gosh. and all the teachers were scaring me about how sec 4 normal tech students will tend to climb over ur head. scary. hahaha:D
actually i was really nervous this morning. 'cos NO ONE briefed us on what to do. NO ONE gave us any materials. we were supposed to just go into class and *poof* wow. become a super-teacher. hahaha. but i prayed on the way there...and really really wanna thank God for beeyan who took it upon herself to teach me a few tactics and some things to tell the students. poor kaimei (who's also relief-teaching chinese, also from vj) was like saying how she looked at the students and the students looked at her and for 5 mins she didn't say anything. hhehe. sharline was teaching english and something else which i can't quite recall. oh! met this other girl (not from vj) who's teaching geog O_o. her name is Clarice. hahaha:D
yeahhhhh.
i forgot to bring the sec 4 normal tech books home to prepare for tmr's lessons. hahaha. how disastrous. shall just do housekeeping. doubt they'll bring their books anyway.
yeah well:)

it's sunday today!:D
sunday's usually my planning day but i guess for this week nothing much can be planned without first getting my timetable. hahaha. school tomorrow! i wonder if the students feel more nervous or i feel more nervous. turns out huiyuan's not working at north vista...but i am! (what an irony)
so many new things these days!:D hahahaha. it's like the rollercoaster ride kinda feeling, anticipating, but worried at the same time.
yeah well.
met jits in the morn to pass her boots, then went to the library. hahaha. then went to marina bay... then waited for the rest of the info counter pple. haha! yes. our first ever ministry outing. hahaa. had lots of snow spray today. eh well. we had steamboat buffet! hahaha. at the same place as on tues! hahaha. me and yiyou were there first. then alvin came. then timothy and michael came together. then karshun came. then mag came. then samantha met us at the place. then titus came when we finished the food, to finish the food. hahaha:D
then we went to the arcade. karshun and yiyou left. then the rest of us went in. hahaha. samantha and i kept trying the para para machine:P:P:P yeah. from an average of C to an average of B. there was this girl who got on after tt and really danced her heart out. like literally really dancing. okay. nvm. hard to explain. i wonder if that's how she usually spends her time...hmm. titus turns out to be quite a para para pro too. hahaha.
then went to play photohunt. then percussionfreaks. which is actually quite disastrous. hahahhahaa. me and michael and alvin were playing cheat by playing on the same machine. hit advanced accidentally and died on the first round O_o
yes. wellus. hahaha. no more ministry outing till around june though. so sad. hahaha.

wellus. seems like everyone's doing an evaluation of 2004. i shall do too!:D hahaha. so funny.
2004. hmmm. is a year of changes. lots of changes. God is very interesting.
...
pt disbanded. transferred to youth service. in eb2 (i think). jocelyn as shepherd. first sheep on first service in youth.
extremely busy in april and may 'cos of taekwondo competition coming up and preparations for chinese drama at the same time. tough tough. tired tired. but it's over.
sheep came. sheep left. then sheep came again. shepherd changed in middle of may to jiali. cg changed to ea2.
church camp. youth camp. preparations for exams.
...
i don't think i can continue. feels more like a timechart instead. hahahaa.
but one thing never changes. God never changes. and i love Him for that.

hahaha! got an interesting shock today!
tryphena accepted Christ today!:D
tryphena was in 03S1C...knew her through winghang...then got to talk to her more on the buses we took together...hehe.
didn't know tt her brother's in Hope until conference this yr...hahaha. then saw her today going down to accept Christ. so cool!
hahaha. yepz:D

sent by guan.

JOSEPH'S PRAYER
by Max Lucado

Nothing stirs so many questions as does the birth of Christ. The innkeeper too busy to welcome God-did he ever learn who he turned away? The shepherds-did they ever hum the song the angels sang? The wise men who followed the star-what was it like to worship a toddler? And Joseph, especially Joseph. I've got questions for Joseph.

What was he thinking while Jesus was being born? He'd done all he could do-he'd made Mary as comfortable as she could be in a barn and then he stepped out. She'd asked to be alone, and Joseph has never felt more so.

In that eternity between his wife's dismissal and Jesus' arrival, what was he thinking? He walked into the night and looked into the stars. Did he pray?

I wonder what he said …

This isn't the way I planned it, God. This doesn't seem right. What kind of husband am I? I provide no midwife to aid my wife. No bed to rest her back. Her pillow is a blanket from my donkey. My house for her is a shed of hay and straw.

Did I miss something? Did I, God?

You've stood where Joseph stood. Caught between what God says and what makes sense. You've done what he told you to do only to wonder if it was him speaking in the first place. You've stared into a sky blackened with doubt.

If you are asking what Joseph asked, let me urge you to do what Joseph did. Obey. That's what he did. He obeyed when the angel called. He obeyed when Mary explained. He obeyed when God sent.

Just like Joseph, you can't see the whole picture. Just like Joseph your task is to see that Jesus is brought into your part of your world. And just like Joseph you have a choice: to obey or disobey. Because Joseph obeyed, God used him to change the world.

Can he do the same with you?

yeah! thank God for sustaining me through the day today:D
we had unit outing today! haha. at east coast. felt weird to be going to vj bus stop without going to school. strange indeed. hahha. and yeah! i started my new year resolution today. not to be late:D *grInz*
bad stamina. hahaa. haven't exercised for a long time. played a little bit of captain's ball and i nearly died. so intriguing. but east coast sure was nice today:D realised that if u lie on the grass and look towards the beach, you can't see the sand and it'll seem as though the world consists of only the grass and the sky. very nice:D
and kyeng wai joined us today! so cool. hahha. we played monkey today too. think everyone became a monkey at least once. hahhaa:D
then we went for lunch at mandarin gardens:D *grInz* try the glass noodles (?) salad...quite nice:D unique taste it has. tried lots of other dishes too. hahaha. basically shared our food around. the beef fried rice that jitsy tried doesn't have much of a taste, the horfun that was bought looked quite delicious... hahaha:D
yepz:D then went with jits, yixiu, sengkim and kyeng wai to the library. hahaha:D actually i wanted to go to the library, but these pple were kind enough to accompany me. yeah! thank God for them! hahaha.
jits left soon after. and the rest of us stayed to
1) study
2) read books
3) sleep
4) surf the net
5) talk nonsense
yup:D got to know yixiu and kyeng wai more today. interesting people:D *grInz*
wellus. enjoyed myself today...fellowshipping with the unit pple:D hahaha:D going for interview tmr for chinese teacher job at north vista sec. wonder how it'll go:)

gosh. it's 3.07am. heyhey! (like carrie in the xmas drama) nice number;)
hahaha.
i'm blogging 'cos i just breathed in a nice small gust of fresh night air that wafted in through the window and makes me wanna sing
-as i breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire!-
hahha. as a habit, i like to flip through my old entries and see how my views were different from last time till now...oh. i think i'm thinking less now. haha. or maybe there isn't so much to ponder about anymore..'cos a lot of things are already settled. especially about life.
but of course, there are still multiple question marks that can't really be answered till the future comes. and i'll leave all those question marks to the future to be thought about.
oooh. the night air smells delicious. i can just sit here and continue drinking it all in.
oh. but i dun think it's a good thing to do. hahaha. shall write cards and talk to God and talk to God and write cards.
saw priscilla and her sheep just now while buying paper. hahahaha:D i was just choosing paper when she suddenly turned her head towards me and peered and gave me a shock. hahaa. seeing Hope pple eVerYwhErE. so cool:D
i'm going to do a major renovation of my room soon! yesh. if i ever get the whole pile of mess out, that is.

yeah. changed my template. newest template style. hahaha:) give comments pls.

today is my last day of work at the bakery. i quitted my job! feels odd not to work there anymore. hahahah:D told the chefs i'll pop in on sat and say hi. hahaha. and the yong tau fu auntie still wants to give me discount. yeah!
quitted the job because of a few reasons:
1) it's giving me a lack of sleep. reach home at around 11.15-11.30pm. then go online, do stuff, read books, sleep at 2-3am. wake up at 7.15am if there's morning shift. then the whole day do things again. as a result, i've been sleeping for only about 3-4 hrs a day. worse than school! hahaha.
2) pressure from mum telling me that she heard that the boss is very ke4 bo2 and she doesn't want me to work there anymore
3) unattractive pay
4) washing trays everyday has made my hands very dry:P so sad. and i sprained my finger. hahaha. hahaha. hahaha.
5) too little time for God. i wanna spare up more time to serve God. yes.
yeah...a little sad though. 'cos thomas and billy (the chefs) were going to teach me how to make cakes!!! ahhhh. been talking abt it since last week. and uncle (the old chef with 40+ yrs of experience) has started to joke about the 'nian ji qing qing...' thing. hahaha. and wellus. it was enjoyable talking to them about world stuff.
and i just met michelle and waiyun! was hoping to get to know them better. we click quite well when we first met. hahahaa.
everywhere i go, i leave a bit of me there. hahaha. so intriguing. wellus:)
anyway, the chalet's committee pple went out for steamboat buffet today! yeah! at marina bay! hahahaha.
quite sleepy. i nearly fell asleep serving customers in the afternoon. hahahaha.

yeah:D merry christmas!:D hahaha:D so cool:D
yeah! east christmas party yesterday!:D thank God for joy for doing the planning of the programme flow, for gwen for preparing the food and delaying the people and for everyone to respond and add noise to the party:D hahaha. think the best time was during the gift exchange when everyone mingled together...hahaha:D got gifts from tingting and jiali. thanks! i, on the other hand, forgot all about gift exchange and got nothing for everybody. oh dear. and my christmas cards were still happily sitting in the bag:D
hahaha. wellus:D
got cards too! i love receiving cards 'cos the words speak more loudly to me than the presents. hahaha:D
oh! and we had carolling with the east d guys after that. hahaha. quite funny. at first we got rejected (awwwwwww) by the first two houses we went to, then gradually houses started to invite us in to sing for them and carolling got much more exciting. hahaha:D houses with a lot of people always resparked the spirit of joy in me to sing more enthusiastically for the people. hahaha:D got to know valerie more during carolling too! hahaha. both of us were just admiring the houses and the people and the songs and the funny dogs which kept barking at us. had an enjoyable time talking to her all the way during carolling:D
oh! met this vj girl called marilyn at one of the houses. haha. j1 this yr. intriguing. her parents invited us to eat turkey! and turkey! and more turkey! and ham! and ham! and ribs! hahaha. and drinks! another house gaves us chocs!:D hahaha. yet another house wished us merry christmas personally. so joyful to be able to celebrate it all together even when we don't know each other... but as long as we all love Jesus, we're all brothers and sisters, we're all in this universal family that bonds us together under God's love:D
yeah!:D then went to gwen's house and plopped onto the sofa to watch tv. hahaha:D can't remember what we watched. what did we watch? cartoons! oh! totally spies. gosh. we were watching tt in the middle of the night? even the guys??? haha. wellus. cool gadgets they have anyway:)
yeah:D then bathed. haha. the guys didn't bathe:P so dirty:P (all except for winstar who bathed today)
played mahjong! no one fed me:P so sad:( hahahaha:D then played cards:D then i can't quite remember. oh yes. watched more tv. stupid tom and jerry show. jerry makes cute noises though:D
then made the decision to go and sleep even when i'm not tired. oh! for the first time for any sleepovers, i'm sleeping on the bed!:D hahaha. with maurise (again).
yeah:D then maurise woke up at 8+ ('cos i said hi to her then went back to sleep:P) and i got the whole bed to myself. hahaha:D cool cool:D btw. we heard funny screams in the middle of our sleep. dennis is suspected.
yeah!:D woke up to more card playing and card writing. hahaha. and watching tv. then we ate drumsticks at gwen's house (left overs from the christmas party!) then went to bedok to eat. then went back to gwen's house and watched Lord of the Rings...extended version! 3 and a half hours. fell asleep for a short while in-between. haahaha:D so sad.
then played more cards. then ate dinner. watched a little bit of nemo, then went home:D yeah! hahaha.
merry christmas!

i just got my one yr late christmas present today! or maybe it's supposed to be my 9 months late birthday present! hahaa:) i've got my own chinese bible! hahah. very cool! got timeline and the type of books they are and got character stuff. better view of how everything goes. i am pleased:D
yeah! and got cards! and more cards! hahaha. i haven't written my christmas cards! hahaha.
it's 2.52am! haha. and i still haven't finished typing out the script, not to say write christmas cards! hahaha. tmr it shall be. yeah!

We are the reason - Avalon

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn'
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart just to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

We are the reason
that He gave His life
We are the reason that
He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all that He could give
To show us the reason to live

He is the reason to live....

i really want to thank God for Hope. for the defined structure... for God working through the people, for the people's hearts in really wanting to serve God, for the right doctrines taught, for the ernestness in equipping people with the skills to serve God more, for the accountability system, for the wonderful and genuine fellowship, for the perseverence shown many-a-times by many of the leaders 'cos people matter to God, thank God for the holistic love which is present... really want to thank God for many things.
there was a question i kept wondering. i wondered why i didn't come to know God earlier in my life. and i realised that if i did, i wouldn't have come to know God in Hope of God. wouldn't have come to meet my wonderful brothers and sisters. hahaa:)
God has the perfect plan for me. He knew what i needed. and He knew what is best for me. and in His timing, things are fulfilled.
typing out script for east christmas party tmr! hahaha. script done in 30++ mins:D proud of it. hahaha:D thank God for alvin and all his creative ideas.
anyway. carolling tmr! service today was great! brilliant rendition of the angel medley by avalon. very cool! very pro. hahaha:D to my untrained ears it was very cool anyway. i'm sure professionals would applaud to it too:)
play today was very nicely presented too! i love the style. very creative. hahahaha.
yes. anyway. carolling tmr! hahaa. and before tt is the east christmas party. so exciting!:D hahha.
oooh. the executive committee of celebrate christmas in singapore has decided to play the theme of 'Christ is the reason for the season' as the theme for orchard road this yr. very nice! they had booklets explaining what christmas is really about (about Christ!:D) and a display of the christmas story with pple posing up as shepherds and roman soldiers. hahaha:)
and there was a mini stage with some church choir pple and they sang 'one way'! hahaha.

oh brilliant. there're pple who came for interviews today. mum helping me to find recep job... got to know this person called May who's applying to be a parttime chef:) she's working at a hotel right now. hahha:)
hands are becoming quite dry due to lots of washing. perhaps i should get hand lotion...now i know why they sell hand lotion. haha:D
christmas party at rc tomorrow!:D yeah! still haven't figured out what to wear for the costume:P and wellus. haven't bought the present for gift exchange either. how disastrous can i get? hahaha:) shall do everything tmr! morning shift tmr. thank God. no need to wash the trays:)

this is my 1147th entry and gosh. let me blog about work.
my two colleagues quitted! so sad. irene was in her uniform at 12pm talking to her friends(she only starts her shift at 2pm) and the boss saw and scolded her saying tt she shan't wear her uniform and talk and what-nots and something about quitting(which i can't remember) so these two girls went to quit their jobs and now it's left with me O_o and phylin (at least tt's how i think her name should be spelt). and phylin is actually the person who works the roster. gosh. i feel like quitting in this christmas season. to spend more times planning out things. no time no time!
but if i quit, then it's phylin ALONE. feels quite bad right? hahahah.
alas.

frm jOy'S blog:

A GREAT STORY......

Isn't it amazing how God works in our lives! On a Saturday night several weeks ago, this pastor was working late, and decided to call is wife before he left for home. It was about 10:00 PM, but his wife didn't answer he phone. The pastor let it ring many times. He thought it was odd that she didn't answer, but decided to wrap up a few things and try again in a few minutes. When he tried again she answered right away. He asked her why she hadn't answered before, and she said that it hadn't rung at their house. They brushed it off as a fluke and went on their merry ways.

The following Monday, the pastor received a call at the church office, which was the phone that he'd used that Saturday night.The man that he spoke with wanted to know why he'd called on Saturday night. The pastor couldn't figure out what the man was talking about. Then the man said, "It rang and rang, but I didn't answer." The pastor remembered the mishap and apologized for disturbing him, explaining that he'd intended to call his wife.

The man said, "That's OK. Let me tell you my story. You see, I was so depressed, and down that night, I was seriously planning to commit suicide. Before I did, I prayed, 'God if you really do exsist out there, give me a sign now.' At that point my phone started to ring. I looked at the caller ID, and it said, 'Almighty God'. I was afraid to answer!"

The reason why it showed on the man's caller ID that the call came from "Almighty God" is because the church that the pastor was calling from is called "Almighty God Tabernacle"!!

That's God...

Have you ever been just sitting there and all of a sudden you feel like doing something nice for someone you care for...THAT'S GOD ... he talks to you through the Holy Spirit.

Have you ever been down and out and nobody seems to be around for you to talk to...THAT'S GOD ...He wants you to talk to him.

Have you ever been thinking about somebody that you haven't seen in a long time and then next thing you know you see them or receive a phone call from them...THAT'S GOD...there is no such thing as "coincidence."

Have you ever received something wonderful that you didn't even ask for, like money in the mail, a debt that had mysteriously been cleared, or a coupon to a department store where you had just seen something you wanted, but couldn't afford...THAT'S GOD...he knows the desires of your heart...

Have you ever been in a situation and you had no clue how it is going to get better, but now you look back on it...THAT'S GOD...he passes us through tribulation to see a brighter day...

wow. finally can settle down for a while and type out a blogger entry!:D yeah! hahahaa:D i feel like a busy person. so odd. it's the holidays!
haha:D
anywayz, had pm at rc today:D yeah!
then learnt how to play G, D(or izzit C)and E minor on the guitar... can't quite remember it now... hmmm. can only remember G. hahaha:D Sara says if i've learnt guitar i can teach her. hahha.
gosh. work. work is sometimes not very appetizing...much prefer office jobs now...though office jobs can be boring:P
wellus. was looking through. see first. think i prefer to do my jobs alone. can't multitask. talk to me while i'm working and i get distracted. alone is good. for working.
and i don't know what a resume looks like. at all.
maybe i shouldn't go and work. this is getting troublesome.
hahaha:D
i miss school! i want to learn and learn and learn. and learn and learn somemore.
yeah!
hahha. so intriguing. went to concourse with sis and jits today...turns out that yun's working at concourse! at american express! hahaha. intriguing.

hey pple!:D anyone who missed getting the ticket to SMU extravaganza can sign up here! yeah!

-heaven is a wonderful place,
filled with glory and grace
i wanna see my Saviour's face!
heaven is a wonderful place-
hahahha:D can't stop singing this song ever since i learnt it from alvin on noah ark's night trip to 7-11:D east chalet is officially over! hahaha. such a great time of fellowship and learning:D
oh! lots of blessings from God too:D hahahaha:D kim's fever was gone after praying for her, and alvin's mum got transferred to a normal ward!
and the weather for mega games day was wonderful! thank God!
think God convicted a lot of our hearts during this east chalet. holding onto the promises! amen!

gosh. just slept for 6 hours after returning from east chalet!:D hahaha.

Investing in a worthwhile cause...

I would rather stumble a thousand times
Attempting to reach a goal,
Than to sit in a crowd
In my weather-proof shroud,
A shriveled and self-satisfied soul.
I would rather be doing and daring
All of my error-filled days,
Than watching and waiting, and dying
Smug in my perfect ways.
I would rather wonder and blunder,
Stumbling blindly ahead,
Than for safety's sake
Least I make a mistake
Be sure, be safe, be dead.

Nov 06

-with all my heart, i long to feel You
with all my soul, i long to seek You-
i vaguely remember singing this song yesterday. haha.
yeah!
the internet is distracting. so i shall blog offline. so strange. typing in notepad now. lots more time i guess.
yeah. met lots of people today. hahaha. went to starhub to study with jits and eesiew and twin. twin went to buy something, came back and said to me 'if i told you who i saw, you won't be sitting here anymore'. hahaha. she saw junting. ah well.
so the four of us went to ka jiao her and sharon (they were having shepherding)...ah well. quite interesting. and then carrie arrived. and we went back to studying. oh. saw a sister called xuelian who arrived too early for pm so invited her to join us. hahaha. saw jason too.
when we were leaving, jt has changed her sheep. haha. mingxiu was there instead. yeah!:D
service was interesting. new songs! hahaha. and we were on our first part of a new series. how exciting!
had c-e-w meeting. very exciting things happening. hahaha:D anyway, met joseph and carrie on the way to the mrt. farnie.
poor jasmine was very sick. hope she'll rest well at home:)
yeah. then went to find steph to pass her her stuff. met this former nanyangal (oh no! i can't remember her name) and someone called jessie (yes. another jessie.)
-i long to hide in the shadow of Your wings-
should i work in december? hmm.

Nov 07

i found another ants' nest...in an uncovered hole left behind due to changing of my windows. how disastrous.
studied with joycelyn at macs today. my sister was supposed to join us but she couldn't wake up:P her mum joined us for a while. haha. quite funny. she bought one whole meal and ate only the burger, leaving the sundae, the drink and fries to us. even bought two apples. healthy living!
hahaha. quite funny.
yeah well. did nyj paper, half of cj's paper, my srj is with jits and more bio stuff. ammonia to nitrites to nitrates. yes. by nitrobacter. izzit? let me check. yes. i'm correct. nitrifying bacteria, of which an example is nitrobacter. then denitrifying bacteria will convert nitrates to nitrogen gas. brilliant creatures.
i can't remember my differential equation, nor can i remember my newton-rhapson (which IS disastrous 'cos it's the only question i can definitely do)
exhausted. hahaha. but joyful:D looking forward to exams:)

Nov 08
ah. studied with twin and jitsy and michael (who took a long time to travel from pasir ris to bukit timah) at bukit timah plaza, at the place beside kfc. hahaa:) quite an empty place...few people seem to venture there. quite a tempting place to eat though...food smells everywhere.
was quite disturbed in the morning over a dream i had...then the HS prompted me to drop it and don't be bothered about it, for as long as i check my own heart constantly and look to God, it would not be an issue at all.
yeah. anyway:) quite cool:D haha.
oh yes. i've developed a phobia of singing. it's all twin and jitsy's fault. they kept laughing whenever i started to sing while listening to the cd that sengkim burned for us. if i never ever sing again, it's because of the both of them. they traumatised me.
hahaha:D
oooh. 2 weeks and 1 day before the end of As! yeah. cool! i think i'll miss studying. so sad.
ah well.

Nov 11
studied with twin and shuyi at kap macs today:) heh. quite a nice place to study, though time was short 'cos i reached there at like 4pm. haha. finished reading 'the cartoon guide to economics' which wasn't very enlightening but proved to be quite interesting.
saw the central e guys. and knew a new person called chewie. hahaha!:D shuyi's friend:D the name's so interesting:)
i haven't bought my slippers and my white shirt. gotta do it tmr.
hmmmm.
hope the uls come back soon. hahaha. then she can get confirmation, so that i can get confirmation from her:)
was at timothy's house on tues and got michael to read to me about guan's msg posted on the tagboard. a formal gathering? hmm. okay.
i'll inform the rest of the teachers and discuss with them or something. dunno how to contact mrs yak though. hahaha.
yeah:D less than 2 weeks before the As end. hahaha. the As are sapping the energy out of me. but it's okay, i can draw strength from God!:D
-there is joy in the Lord
there is love in His Spirit
there is hope in the knowledge of Him
there's a fountain that flows
like a river from heaven
abounding in love to my soul-

Nov 15
one week and three more days to the end of As. hahaha:D
anyway, tried smsing miss lee to ask if the teachers will be able to come, but she said that most of them will most prob be out of the country by the end of the month..so wellus. i still haven't thought of the plans yet. hahaha:D maybe we'll just end up at the steamboat buffet place (yet again! so boring!)
haha. there've been multiple requests for basketball. yeah.
anyway, quite fun these days. swam with jits last wed, then played table tennis with xiangyu and twin (never played with guan.hehehe). twin has the potential. hahaha. i'm losing my touch.
yeah:)
studied yesterday with joycelyn..heh. i think we like to distract each other. then hongyao joined us at 7++.
oh! if u wanna study alone, go to marine parade lib starbucks and kapok the huge sofa there...hahaha. the one near the counter. very nice place to study 'cos the music's just over ur head and it's supremely comfortable and bright and nice smelling and you'll feel cozy, yet in that alert state of mind to enjoy your studying. i shall restructure my room once the aircon and the door comes.
i've just discovered more mini occupants in the same room as i am. hahaha. maybe they'll provide amusement for the cat. thinking of ways to kill the mini occupants though. they seem to like to wander into my room before going out to the living room. how disastrous:)

nov 16
interesting day today.
got out of house at 12.30pm, but reached school at the ultimate late time of 1.45pm. gosh. the bus was dragging its wheels. i thank God i'm not late. just in time to see everyone going up to put their bags. whew.
econs paper today. hahaha. forgot to bring my jacket, but surprisingly didn't freeze to death:D God made the aircon blow at a nice temperature. it was very cold, but it was a very comfortable cold (to me. michelle, who was in the same predicament as me, said she has no blood in her hands for the last essay) and cleared my brains very nicely to think faster. no brain freeze for me. haha.
heh. i wanna share this though i think some people will kill me after i do share it.
i didn't really study a lot for my econs, was actually quite comfortably spotting... actually i didn't even spot. just that somehow or another, i felt no importance in studying for anything else except for the macroeconomic probs and policies and externalities. (of course i read through some of the others...like protectionism and what-nots, but those were only flipped through...) i'm convicted that it's the prompting for the HS and really, guess what came out? hahahaa.
first question was about externalities (totally.), forth question was about national income multiplier (which i know nothing about, except that it's influenced by mpw, which is made up of mps and mpm...know this 'cos it was in the macro prob and policies notes and some other stuff which i've only read once or something dropped into my mind) and fiscal policy(woohoo!), fifth question was about money supply and monetary policy and the last was about macroprobs in Singapore due to a falling exchange rate. i did 4,5 and 6 'cos the first question required more extensive thinking and not a mere regurgitation of the points i've learnt. but really thank God! to have studied a mere portion and have these portions coming out in the exam, i don't know what to say.
actually after properly studying about the macro probs and policies, i do find these questions so much more interesting and more fun to do than the microeconomic problems. those are so... narrow! so boring. macro is so ...case-study!is so... real-life, so intriguing how everything is nicely interwined together. a nice complex network of what happens in the world around us. i am starting to enjoy econs.

Nov18
just watched singapore idol...hehe. i think i'm starting to know why sylvester has a large fanbase...he's very sincere. thought he did 'kiss by a rose' very well..dunno why the judges didn't quite like it except for dick lee. hahaha:D it was superb. the starting was superb anyway. haha. but he's gotta work on his vocals.
and taufik! he seemed a little out-of-sorts today. no idea why though. hmmm. yet the judges seemed to like him. but it's so obvious he's a little out-of-sorts. wellus.
of course, olinda. i support olinda...but guess pple dun seem to like her image. no idea why either O_o people are just strange. ah well:) olinda has a strong voice! she reminds me a tad of fantasia. hah.
yeah! studying bio is so exciting:D hahaha.
oh! saw munbbill and hanjie at bedok library today when me, jits and michael went to study there after cg. heh. didn't even notice them till jits proded me and told me tt they were saying hi to me.
and saw mrs kuan with michelle! hahaha:D as usual, i walked past her and it wasn't till mrs kuan tapped me on the shoulder and jitsy exclaiming 'mrs kuan!' that i realised tt it's her. oops.
delifrance is always a nice place to study. hahaha. and mocha shall be my favourite type of coffee;)

nov19
yikes. cancel sign in didn't seem to work so fast O_o
oooh. so many reunions after exams. hahaha. can meet up with the nygep pple, meet up with the epirotes pple, meet up with dancing, steph, corinne, liting, lydia, desiree and rux to go out together (we must, k?:D), meet up with goodness knows who else. maybe the 03S11B pple. hahaha.
four papers more. four delightful papers. econs and bio.
i miss kimhong actually (my primary sch classmate cum og-mate). haven't really kept in touch with her since last yr. hahaha. she's like the most unassuming person i know. glad tt we're meeting up soon:)
and all the rest of you pple who have gone in non-existence ever since the start of prelims, hopefully you'll reappear. hahaha.
yeah wellus. i'm talking nonsense here. hahaha. shall go and enjoy my growth and repro notes:D so interesting!
oh. no. i forgot the scientific name of yeast. saccharomyces what? saccharomyces cerensiae. haha. all the funny names which are quite a delight to pronounce.. like. spirogyra. which is an unbranched filamentous green alga. hahaha! i remember! hahaha. nvm. dun mind me. btw, alga is the singular form of algae. yeah. do u noe escherichia coli which lives in our intestines can mulitply up to 20 times per min (or izzit per second? should be per min). so can you imagine the number of e.coli is in ur intestines right now?:D:D:D
thank God we didn't have biotech for option. i'll just be bored to death.
hahaa.

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awww. so sad. olinda got out:P
she got good vocals. anyone caught her wearing the miniskirt in 'footloose'? hahaa.
anyway. anyway. anyway. jits says tt singapore idol is messed up. i think so too. wellus.
couldn't really study well today. extremely restless. what a waste of time. oh! saw sharon in the macs at toa payoh central while i was looking for a toilet. hahahha.
ohoh!
i heard EIC on power 98 on maggie's show today. the guys are fab! haven't heard good acoustics for a long time. hahaha. they're having a concert on the 24th of dec at the studio in esplanade...high chance i'm not going. it's only $25 btw. wellus. everyone should try listening to them. they totally blew the listeners away this afternoon, including me. really good!

nov24
oh look. tomorrow's the last day of As for me:D hahaha. how exciting.
went to make my atm card today...much easier to withdraw money next time. new system in house. mum deposits money, i withdraw. guess who thought up of the idea?:)
yeah well.
muscles ache now.
i do miss basketball afterall. hahahaha.

nov27
-i wanna be a reflector
i wanna shine with Your glory
i wanna let the whole world know that You're living in me-
hehehe. has sms in the morn yesterday. intriguing. hahaha. sms led to sisters' sharing today during dinnertime which was quite interesting:)
yeah! and then went with jits after sms to Times and read books! rather. read half a book due to the lack of time. hahaha. and we proceeded to somerset to meet qing and nina but well..both of them were... so me and jits went to the toilet, then to mount zion which recently opened at somerset to look around. hahaha.
qing showed us her multiple pictures of *a-hem* her object of attraction - tay ping hui. hahaha. hah. tph reminds me of ceilings and beds and what-nots. which reminds me tt i still owe fungi mark wahlberg. oh dear.
yeah. the four of us went to the bowling place above cine...went to the wrong storey and found ourselves in front of ktv.. hahaha. then heard that the bowling alleys are under renovation (!!!) and checked them out. wellus. they were really under renovations. so sad. haha.
then we proceeded to pizza hut to eat! yeah!
and weez and huiyuan and jane joined us later! and qing left 'cos she wanted to go to john little first, then to library, then to i can't remember where. then after dinner, we saw trace and yengyong!
u know wat? i couldn't quite recognise yengyong from the back now. i saw trace and then i was like, 'who's tt caucasian girl beside her?':P hahahaha. guess what yy did to her hair O_o
yeah. then i ran out of plans of what to do. hahaha. so we walked. and parted at the traffic light. then walked yy and trace to meet arya and i can't remember his name and then we went home! (me and jits).
yeah. today.
went to nina's house to learn rollerblading! hahaha. so interesting. i fell multiple times of my butt. hahahaha. and i'm quite scared of going fast. wellus. nina said i improved! yeah! by the way, we rollerbladed to the cemetry near her house. quite a nice cemetry if i must say. a scary slope though. and mosquitoes which are too friendly:)
then lunch:D which consisted of pratas! the prata person cheated our money!
then service! hahahaha:D service was full of surprises. i never cease to be amazed at the testimonies shared. really cool!:D hahaha.
then dinner. wellus. dinner was a time of fellowship!
then me and joycelyn and jingting and shimin went to walk around... heh. sent shimin off and saw sharon and hongyao and bowen and joseph and derek's friend (oh no! i forgot his name again!) and i really can't remember who else. hahaha.
then saw tom and hongyao again while waiting for jiali and jas outside john little. haha. tom is a very friendly brother to his brother (harry)...he keeps asking us to go and 'bug his brother'. yeah wellus.
heh. and the rest of the night passed in an interesting fashion. wellus;)
then saw chiew! hahahaha. actually i thought i saw chiew. then i shouted her name. then she never turned. so i thought i saw wrongly and decided to walk behind her to try to see her face. then saw jon, who pointed me to chiew. ahhhh!
intriguing.
then mrt! gosh. my arm is feeling a bit tired from all the typing. thought i'll have no company for my train. hahaha. then the ys pple appeared. and jolene (is tt how u spell her name?)appeared and yeah! i had jolene, xiao wen and jerlyn for company! hahaha.
still looking for a job. oh! i forgot to mention!
sihui came today!:D:D:D hahahaha. okay. nvm. hahahaha. 'cos usually she can only come on sunday mornings 'cos of her family...but today she could come for youth service!:D
i can't think of a place to go for our gathering. gosh. i shall wreck my brain tonight!:D

clearing up my hotmail inbox so that it won't get flooded even if it's not checked for some time. found this:)

Want a Donut?

There was a certain Professor of Religion named Dr. Christianson, a studious man who taught at a small college in the Western United States. Dr. Christianson taught the required survey course in Christianity at this particular institution. Every student was required to take this course his or her freshman year regardless of his or her major. Although Dr. Christianson tried hard to communicate the essence of the gospel in his class, he found that most of his students looked upon the course as nothing but required drudgery. Despite his best efforts, most students refused to take Christianity seriously. This year, Dr. Christianson had a special student named Steve. Steve was only a freshman, but was studying with the intent of going onto seminary for the ministry.
Steve was popular, well liked, and an imposing physical specimen. The starting center on the school football team, he was the best student in the professor's class. One day, Dr. Christianson asked Steve to stay after class so he could talk with him.
"How many push-ups can you do?"
Steve said, "I do about 200 every night."
"200? That's pretty good, Steve," Dr. Christianson said. "Do you think you could do 300?"
Steve replied, "I don't know... I've never done 300 at a time."
"Do you think you could?" again asked Dr. Christianson.
"Well, I can try," said Steve.
"Can you do 300 in sets of 10? I have a class project in mind and I need you to do about 300 push ups in sets of ten for this to work. Can you do it? I need you to tell me you can do it," said the professor.
Steve said, "Well... I think I can... yeah, I can do it."
Dr. Christianson said, "Good! I need you to do this on Friday. Let me explain what I have in mind."
Friday came and Steve got to class early and sat in the front of the room. When class started, the professor pulled out a big box of donuts. Now these weren't the normal kinds of donuts; they were the extra fancy BIG kind, with cream centers and frosting swirls. Everyone was pretty excited it was Friday, the last class of the day, and they were going to get an early start on the weekend with a party in Dr. Christianson's class.
Dr. Christianson went to the first girl in the first row and asked, "Cynthia, do you want to have one of these donuts?" Cynthia said, "Yes."
Dr. Christianson then turned to Steve and asked, "Steve, would you do ten push-ups so that Cynthia can have a donut?"
Steve said, "Sure," and jumped down from his desk to do a quick ten. Then Steve again sat in his desk. Dr. Christianson put a donut on Cynthia's desk.
Dr. Christianson then went to Joe, the next person, and asked, "Joe, do you want a donut?"
Joe said, "Yes."
Dr. Christianson asked, "Steve would you do ten push-ups so Joe can have a donut?" Steve did ten push-ups; Joe got a donut. And so it went, down the first aisle, Steve did ten push ups for every person before they got their donut. And down the second aisle, till Dr. Christianson came to Scott. Scott was on the basketball team, and in as good condition as Steve. He was very popular and never lacking for female companionship.
When the professor asked, "Scott do you want a donut?" Scott's reply was, "Well, can I do my own push ups?"
Dr. Christianson said, "No, Steve has to do them."
Then Scott said, "Well, I don't want one then."
Dr. Christianson shrugged and then turned to Steve and asked, "Steve, would you do ten push ups so Scott can have a donut he doesn't want?"
With perfect obedience Steve started to do ten push ups.
Scott said, "HEY! I said I didn't want one!"
Dr. Christianson said, "Look, this is my classroom, my class, my desks, and these are my donuts. Just leave it on the desk if you don't want it." And he put a donut on Scott's desk.
Now by this time, Steve had begun to slow down a little. He just stayed on the floor between sets because it took too much effort to be getting up and down. You could start to see a little perspiration coming out around his brow.
Dr. Christianson started down the third row. Now the students were beginning to get a little angry. Dr. Christianson asked Jenny, "Jenny, do you want a donut?"
Sternly, Jenny said, "No."
Then Dr. Christianson asked Steve, "Steve, would you do ten more push ups so Jenny can have a donut that she doesn't want?" Steve did ten; Jenny got a donut. By now, a growing sense of uneasiness filled the room. The students were beginning to say "No" and there were all these uneaten donuts on the desks. Steve also had to really put forth a lot of extra effort to get these push ups done for each donut. There began to be a small pool of sweat on the floor beneath his face, his arms and brow were beginning to get red because of the physical effort involved.
Dr. Christianson asked Robert, who was the most vocal unbeliever in the class, to watch Steve do each push up to make sure he did the full ten push ups in a set because he couldn't bear to watch all of Steve's work for all of those uneaten donuts. He sent Robert over to where Steve was so Robert could count the set and watch Steve closely. Dr. Christianson started down the fourth row.
During his class, however, some students from other classes had wandered in and sat down on the steps along the radiators that ran down the sides of the room. When the professor realized this, he did a quick count and saw that now there were 34 students in the room.
He started to worry if Steve would be able to make it. Dr. Christianson went on to the next person and the next and the next.
Near the end of that row, Steve was really having a rough time. He was taking a lot more time to complete each set.
Steve asked Dr. Christianson, "Do I have to make my nose touch on each one?"
Dr. Christianson thought for a moment, "Well, they're your push ups. You are in charge now. You can do them any way that you want." And Dr. Christianson went on.
A few moments later, Jason, a recent transfer student, came to the room and was about to come in when all the students yelled in one voice, "NO! Don't come in! Stay out!" Jason didn't know what was going on.
Steve picked up his head and said, "No, let him come."
Professor Christianson said, "You realize that if Jason comes in you will have to do ten push ups for him?"
Steve said, "Yes, let him come in. Give him a donut."
Dr. Christianson said, "Okay, Steve, I'll let you get Jason's out of the way right now. Jason, do you want a donut?" Jason, new to the room hardly knew what was going on.
"Yes," he said, "give me a donut."
"Steve, will you do ten push ups so that Jason can have a donut?"
Steve did ten push ups very slowly and with great effort. Jason, bewildered, was handed a donut and sat down.
Dr. Christianson finished the fourth row then started on those visitors seated by the heaters. Steve's arms were now shaking with each push up in a struggle to lift him against the force of gravity. Sweat was profusely dropping off of his face and, by this time, there was no sound except his heavy breathing. There was not a dry eye in the room.
The very last two students in the room were two young women, both cheerleaders, and very popular. Dr. Christianson went to Linda, the second to last, and asked, "Linda, do you want a doughnut?"
Linda said, very sadly, "No, thank you."
Professor Christianson quietly asked, "Steve, would you do ten push ups so that Linda can have a donut she doesn't want?"
Grunting from the effort, Steve did ten very slow push ups for Linda.
Then Dr. Christianson turned to the last girl, Susan. "Susan, do you want a donut?"
Susan, with tears flowing down her face, began to cry. "Dr. Christianson, why can't I help him?"
Dr. Christianson, with tears of his own, said, "No, Steve has to do it alone, I have given him this task and he is in charge of seeing that everyone has an opportunity for a donut whether they want it or not. When I decided to have a party this last day of class, I looked at my grade book. Steve, here is the only student with a perfect grade. Everyone else has failed a test, skipped class, or offered me inferior work. Steve told me that in football practice, when a player messes up he must do push ups. I told Steve that none of you could come to my party unless he paid the price by doing your push ups. He and I made a deal for your sakes. Steve, would you do ten push ups so Susan can have a donut?" As Steve very slowly finished his last push up, with the understanding that he had accomplished all that was required of him, having done 350 push ups, his arms buckled beneath him and he fell to the floor.
Dr. Christianson turned to the room and said. "And so it was, that our Savior, Jesus Christ, on the cross, cried to the Father, "Into thy hands I commend my spirit." With the understanding that He had done everything that was required of Him, he yielded up His life. And like some of those in this room, many of us leave the gift on the desk, uneaten.
Two students helped Steve up off the floor and to a seat, physically exhausted, but wearing a thin smile. "Well done, good and faithful servant," said the professor, adding "Not all sermons are preached in words."
Turning to his class the professor said, "My wish is that you might understand and fully comprehend all the riches of grace and mercy that have been given to you through the sacrifice of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, who spared not the only Begotten Son, but gave Him up for us all--for the whole Church, now and forever.'
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Don't leave the donut uneaten.

hello hello! i'm back online again.
hahaha.
supposed to not use the comp till today. but gwen said she saw me online yesterday...so i guess i did come online:D hahaa. which means i didn't fulfill the 'not using comp until today' thing.
i can't remember anything O_o
ah well:)
anyway, i've got lots to blog about. hahaha:D
gp paper was quite a delight to do. was choosing between qn 1 (society focusing on young at expense of old), qn 6 ('Is recycling the answer to the problem of waste?') and qn 11 ('how important is religion in society today?') was writing out the outline for 11 when i realised that i'll do a lot of analysis which will prob cause me to go everywhere at everytime. so i did 6! hahahaa. okay. oh! huiyuan did 6 too! hahaha.
anyway. compre was okay. choice vs destiny. so interesting. quite fun to do too:)
oh! let me share about my traumatising experience yesterday:P
was in the bathroom happily showering, when i suddenly felt pain on my soles... then i was thinking..could it be that the heater has gone mad? then i thought, can't be..'cos my head feels okay and it's only my soles that are dying from the scalding water. turns out that it's the first round of water from the washing machine:P i hopped around and nearly died. hahaha. had to jump to the far side of the bathroom, switch on the tap there at full blast to prevent the washing machine water from reaching me and scream for my mother ('cos my bathroom seems to be strangely sound-proof after renovations )_( maybe it's to reduce noise pollution when pple sing):D hahahaha. gosh. so traumatising. my soles remained happily red even after the bath.
yeah.
then got a call from junting. hahaha. she called all the j2s but only jitsy and i picked up the phone. yep.
why is everyone talking about universities? i'll prefer to leave thinking about the choice of uni to after As!:D yeah.
-uni uni, don't run away from me
uni uni, a hard choice, can't you see?
uni uni, why's everyone talking about u now?-

ah. i'm supposed to be banned from the comp. so what am i doing up here now? to save my messages from exploding. hahaha:D

dear nygep'99 pioneers,

yes! nygep reunion after As!
tentatively two dates: 30th nov (tues) and 1st dec (wed).
time and venue not set. i'll think about them after my As. hahaha:D
if you haven't replied to my msg, reply soon. currently, response for 1st dec is quite good. except tt yengyong, nina, jo and grace can't make it. and qing and trace are uncertain.
btw. fungi requested for basketball to be in the programme. if you have more ideas, can just sms me. haha. i won't reply though. lack of smses.
please help pass the word around. i only have the numbers of 20++ pple. hehe.
that's all for now. if anyone wants to help me in preparation, please ensure your papers do not end later than the 26th. which means that all humanities S paper pple are out. muahaha:D
okay. all the best for your exams! we'll see each other soon:D hahaha. continue to encourage each other k? sms someone u haven't smsed in a long time! seeya.

your dear adorable cow,
daisytoots:P hahahaha:D

i received more smses from pple i didn't expect! haahha. another two actually. hahaa. how exciting:)
one from michael. haha. not our mj michael. but from da michael. former UL:)
one from eesiew. hahaha too. she asked me an econs question. thank God i knew how to answer. or else i'll just faint. haha.
gosh. gp on thurs. gosh. gp on thurs. gosh. gp on thurs. gp discussion for all j2s at freedy's house on wed. time to be confirmed. venue is his condo's function room. which is somewhere opposite nyj. which is in our area! yeah. or if it's the other condo, then it'll be in orchard area! who wanna come?:D let's all aim for an A together!
i'm in a singing mood. haha. figured out a tune for 'desert oasis' (finally!) but i forgot how to sing it:P hahaha.