haha. my former fellow research assistant's (we did experiments on 4 year olds together and asked about their noses) wedding featured cos of how they handmade most of the things :) doing research was a fun big part of my undergrad days. haha.
http://sashandsatin.com/post/handmade-windermere-wedding-pictures-by-visual-roots-photography/
haha so funny. my sister appeared for like 2 seconds in the show. she'd be in 6-7 other episodes (she's acting as the secretary of the wedding gown designer).
and chi is sleeping again.
and my room is in a total mess cos i'm shifting everything around.
haha. this is weird, but i actually miss working/studying/using my brain more.
think i should start packing soon too ^^
the thing about being a school counsellor is that because there's only one or two of you in the school, you're bound to be called/called in if something happens in the school, or if a student says that they definitely have to see u, or whichever it is that's to do with counselling which the management's not able to settle and have to ask for u.
i'm usually quite okay with unexpected calls. haha. but when you've only just fallen asleep 3 hrs ago, and u got called by the school for something really small, and something that doesn't even concern you.... i can only sigh.
haha. my cat thinks that she has the right to me and keeps insisting that i play with her now. faint.
ah.
i've been holding back the desire to tease people for the entire day. wahaha. faint. and i keep having to censor my answers to replies to people.
i guess there's too much energy today. since i didn't do much except to meet Rachel to catchup and plan for our thailand trip (:D), settle my finances, write letters and play games :X
it's pretty interesting. in times like this, I wonder how cheeky God is. hahaa. knowing that there's the fun aspect of God and getting reminded of it is pretty interesting. i wonder how often we remember that Jesus is our lover too? haha. or that He is our friend, beyond being our Saviour and Father?
haha. i'm supposed to be studying for Japanese now. instead, Chi is lying on my lap suckling my finger, and i'm lurking around on the enfj forum again.
this one's pretty interesting cos it consists of messages people would wanna say to enfjs, or enfjs to them.
Chi's complaining about the sudden withdrawal of the finger to type. now she's cleaning herself while on my lap. haha.
i think the reason why people get more serious as they grow older is because:
1) the priorities and responsibilities, and as such, the considerations, change
2) society expects them not to behave in certain ways anymore
3) lack of energy
hahaa. anyway, i was just amused by the difference between myself now, and how i would have been during uni years, in a reaction towards something.
i think there's a shift in the reason why i decided to learn Japanese last year to why I wanna learn it now. and i suspect there'd be more shifts along the way. haha. there's a shift in the type of anime that i like to watch too. hahaa. and also a drop in the number of games i play. like for e.g, i used to have 2 game subscriptions online cos i played games every single day (started from sec 1. haha.)
i think recently, I only read every single day. and i'm not playing games (other than iphone games, which ain't counted) anymore! (i'm still watching my anime though). so it's pretty interesting to see what lasted through the years and what didn't :D haha.
my love for quotes didn't last. my game-playing didn't last. my nendoroid collection didn't last. my guitar playing didn't last. my testing of samples didn't last. hahaaaa.
my love for plays is still there. my love for reading still here. my desire to learn things still exist. so is my anime watching :D my interest in human behaviour still exists. haha. i guess the things that've lasted through these years will probably continue on till i'm old? haha.
it was with a shock today when i realize that I'm already 26.
hahaa. so i did a mid-year evaluation of my life, of the various things that I've encountered and learned this year. I think these few years were the bumpiest years I've had in my life, be it work (okay, maybe work stopped being bumpy start of last year, and instead became rather boring), or relationships with people, or things happening in the family of God. haha.
praying through at the same time that I'm doing my planning for the 2nd half of the year, as well as planning for next year, and the year after. (i don't think I've ever planned so much in advance before, but there's a need to at this juncture). at the same time that I'm planning, I'm also keenly aware that God may just lead me in another direction. but at this moment, the sensing is that I am to put things into order. preparation.. but for what? that I don't know.
a schedule is important to me cos it helps me to be effective. hahaa. like i won't spend a large portion of the time mulling over these options, and then at the end of the day get distracted with other thoughts and other things and end up doing a million and one other things (which is not necessarily bad at times i guess) and not doing what i'm supposed to be doing (for e.g. any of the 6 above).
and imagine! this is what i have to do everyday! so for people who doesn't have ADD. BE THANKFUL! ^^
though I'm quite comfortable with whatever i have. haha. or have to go through. i think it makes life more enriching. lol.
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Unicorn hair generally produces the most consistent magic, and is least subject to fluctuations and blockages. Wands with unicorn cores are generally the most difficult to turn to the Dark Arts. They are the most faithful of all wands, and usually remain strongly attached to their first owner, irrespective of whether he or she was an accomplished witch or wizard.
Minor disadvantages of unicorn hair are that they do not make the most powerful wands (although the wand wood may compensate) and that they are prone to melancholy if seriously mishandled, meaning that the hair may 'die' and need replacing.
got reminded of how it took me 2 yrs and a change of 3 shepherds before I shared something really private to me to my 4th shepherd. something that really forced me to be vulnerable. and i remembert the whole setting very well. we were in the turkish restaurant (where they used to sell turkish ice cream), on the 2nd level of far east, and i remembered remembering her response very clearly - that she just listened and waited for me to share.
that. was therapeutic for me. and it encouraged me greatly.
hoho.
my thought stream ceases (and i get a peer into what it means to stone) when i'm sick and drowsy cos of medicine and cos my body's fighting off hostile whatever it is that's causing me to be sick.
is that what it means to be a normal person? i realized i hardly had any thoughts today cos half the time i hardly knew how the world is like.
i can hardly remember anything much of today either.
i don't think i quite like this :(
i liked it better when my thoughts were flying in my head, and the world presented itself in various possibilities.
being in this subdued state makes me more conscientious though (like for e.g. makes me wanna clean up my room. hahahaa)
maybe i should make it a habit to clean up a bit of my room everyday before i sleep. haha
few material things grab my mind and refuse to release it.
there was one for the whole of past month, and now a few one has joined the list of one.
1) books by haruki murakami
2) the $18 unagi yuzu sushi roll i saw today. i like unagi. and i like yuzu. and when the rare chance comes when the two collides into a single roll, my mind is sold. the problem is the price. haha. i refuse to pay $18 for a single sushi roll D:
have been wanting to buy the haruki murakami books everytime i go near any bookstore, but i'm trying to be more deliberate in my spending (like spend more on others/necessary things), rather than on my growing pile of books (consisting of books both read and unread). haha.
on a side note, you know you're getting old when you have to take a nap to have enough energy to wash up to prepare to sleep D:
i've been watching a video of a fellow enfj talk. haha. it's quite enjoyable to listen to people talk about themselves (and out of counselling). i really quite enjoy it actually. it's like getting to know the person more :)
so anyway, the girl was raving over hunger games in one of her videos, and she took 9 hrs to finish the first book.
and my first thought was like "isn't 9 hrs a little long? i took 3 and a half o_o is that a positive trait of ppl with ADD?' hahaa. ah well.
anyway, the point is, i really quite enjoy listening to people talk.
i just realized that my facebook posts are quite different from my blog posts.
hahaha.
i think my facebook posts comes out more from my sang. my blog posts mainly from my mel.
or maybe cos blog posts tend to be the result of the overflow of my bubbling thoughts. my thoughts bubble everyday, so they overflow almost daily. hahaa.
i had quite a bit of time today to be by myself :D to plan for the week, to journal down my thoughts and learnings in the past week, to reflect through things with God. to take the single rider's queue for transformers, to become lightheaded after the cyclone ride, and hurrying over to the human one. to catch the last session of shrek's adventure. to take 4 rides in 1 and a half hrs :o
i think i shall add on a theme park to my house in heaven. if possible.
"you broke my heart, cos i couldn't dance, you didn't even want me around
and now i'm back to let you know i can really shake them down"
"something about responsibility. do you think it is a person's responsibility to 'contact everybody to reduce this missing of theirs'? or, in general, do you think it is a person's responsibility to placate everyone who loves you and might get jealous/feel neglected/hurt when you don't happen to spend time enough with them according to that other person(s)?
and how much is it your responsibility?
it wld be easy to say it's all her responsibility of course. but let's say she doesn't even want to talk to me. would it be her responsibility just because i want her to?
but what if you have, say a married couple. and the wife is very open and friendly or something, and inadvertantly hurts her husband. is it her responsibility then to do something about it so that he doesn't feel hurt? or shld he just 'not be so conservative'?
what do you think?"
i remember knowing that she was referring to the girl she liked.
at 16, i was thinking about what it means to live, about people who’re committing suicide, about sexuality, about friendships, about what it means to love people, about the place of touch in people’s lives, about what courses I would take when I get into psychology in uni.
at 26, i'm still thinking about these things, with the exception of the courses to take, and adding a few other things. except that now i think of these things in the context of who God is in my life, what i know, and how these things make sense in the light of who i believe in.
recently a lot of references to my secondary school has been coming up. am making sense of my history, and how it's shaped me as who i am now.
