the door was closed. then another opened. opened very wide. then it closed again. so strange. some doors remained open. but the one which i thought is going to stay open didn't.
what was supposed to grow a lot, didn't do so today.
think i'm a tad affected by physical fatigue right now...should go and sleep soon:)
studied a bit today. maths. hahaha:D

went out with the X-Jameeah pple today (a.k.a X-Jammers!:D) all of us, except for our dear faciliator (who had to go for a class outing), our dear MC (who wanted to join us, but can't in the end) and my dear primary sch fren Adeline:) we wanted to go watch Lord of the Rings... but it turns out that the tickets were sold out (for 4pm show) and the earliest we can watch is at 7.30pm (???!!) at PS. so yup. and then it turns out that everyone has watched it (!!!) except for me and freedy. and freedy watches it for the war scenes (hahaa:D), so we decided to go eat lunch (at 3++???) instead. walked to cine, 'cos that's where huichun was (to check for tickets), sat at Long John's and basically just talked and played all sorts of stupid table games till 6+pm. hahaha:D stupid games include (open, close, open open... , What time is it, white/black magic...blah etc.)then we went to play the find the diff in photos game. ah. quite an amusing night actually. more sharing done. heh:D have a good time talking to Eunice and huichun:)
yep:D yep:D yep:D
going to study tmr.
yep:D
didn't know darlene (from Hillsong) sang on channel 5 on the christmas wish. cool eh?:D

i thank God for answered prayers. yup:)

hehehe:D
christmas is officially over. how about a belated merry christmas, everyone?:D
watched the repeated broadcast of the christmas wish on channel 5 today:D some female was singing the song 'we are the reason' so cool right?:D considering that yesterday's party this song was sung, then at 8pm when the show was shown, the song was sung too:D
-we are the reason that He gave His life
we are the reason that He suffered and died-
the girl actually said something about Jesus dying for us and she thanked the Lord on national tv:D then throughout the show, carols were sung, praising Jesus, praising and thanking God for sending His son down for us:) very nice:)
i'm very glad that for the first time, Christmas is not only happening around me, but it's happening right in my heart as well:)
-I love You Jesus, deep down in my heart
I love You Jesus, deep down in my heart,
talk about deep deep, down down, deep down in my heart,
talk about deep deep, down down, deep down in my heart-
christmas party was really swelllllll...super hip-hop:D hahaha:D the youth people could really dance. such a pity pple missed it. saw someone called Mandy from my senior class, and Violet from vj bball was there too:D. quite interesting to be able to talk to them for the very first time. haha:)
we went carolling too! hahaha. people actually ===stopped=== and listened to us sing. yeah manz! silent night was relatively challenging though...sang till my stomach hurt:P we got quite into carolling mood outside borders...couldn't really stop. people went a tad nutty and started singing all sorts of songs..(song that doesn't end, dui mian de nu hai kan guo lai etc.) yeah. the only night when u can scream and pple will find you normal. ah well. all's fun's in the spirit of love and joy:D
anyway. we sat around and played games till around 11pm, when we figured we should start moving. well. the journey to the mrt station was a tough and tedious one. having to duck whizzing foam and spiralling lengthy objects which threaten to cling to our hair, dig our way through throngs of people and to clutch unto the shoulders of our fellow comrades in this fight against the flood of people. hahaa:)
didn't get home till 1am 'cos me, mingxiu, huiling, eng hao and bowen decided to count down in toa payoh. long story. not going to elaborate. yeahyeah:D christmas is cool. but we do need to remember that christmas is about christ, not clause. and that jesus will always be the reason for the season:D

Josh's song for God. let me borrow it.
You raise me up - Josh Groban

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until You come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when You come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

"The previous summer, I had attended a couple of church service at the Brooklyn Tabernacle at the urging of a friend. Though I had really been touched by what I saw and heard, feeling the sermon had been delivered just for me, (BUT) I hadn't been ready to give up the partying, the carousing. Someday I would do it, I told myself. But not right now! I am too young, having too much fun."

Sounds familiar?

But today Genelle has changed.

"... now I tell people, 'Tomorrow is not guaranteed to anyone. You don't know what is going to happen to you.... I don't think people get a second chance like I did. Today I can live for him and tell other people about what God has done in my life because God saved me.

What happened?

Genelle disliked church, thinking it is a waste of time?

When she was 19 she was expecting a child and moved in with her boyfriend.
The relationship lasted 6 years. After the split she spend more time at clubs & parties. She was feeling that at last she is having her own life, the life she had always wanted with no one to answer to.

She worked with Port Authority of New York on the 64th floor in North Tower of the World Trade Centre. When American Airlines Flight 11 slammed into the building, Genelle & 14 others headed down the stairway.

"By the 13th floor, I could not take it anymore. As I leaned to take off my shoes, the whole place went boom & completely black. I fell back toward the wall and fell to the floor. My eyes & mouth were filled with gravel & dust. I knew I was being buried alive. I was still breathing with my leg & hair pinned under the concrete.

I knew then I was going to die. I started calling Rosa my friend but there was no response. Then I heard a man saying, "Help, help, help." His voice grew fainter and then there was nothing. In the dark, I thought of my children, family, fiance. More than anything, I worried about what would happen to me after I died. I did not know how to ask for forgiveness. I was sure I was going to hell.

I was in & out of consciousness. Every time I woke up, I tried removing the rubble. My head started to swell. I wanted to get it free from the concrete rushing forward & backward.

That's when I started praying "God, I can't take this pain. Help me get my head free of the concrete." Then I made one hard pull & feel the hair ripping from the scalp. My head was bleeding but at least it was free.

My foot started to swell and I could feel iron & steel sticking into my side.

I told myself I got to do something. But what could I do? "God you got to help me!"

I prayed. "You got to show me a sign, miracle, give me a second chance. Please save my life!" My eyes were so caked with soil that tears could not come. "Lord just give me a 2nd chance & I promise I will do your will,'

I heard a beep-beep sound like a truck backing up. I called for help but no response. I could hear people talking on walkie-talkie, so I called out again & again. But still nothing.

Finally someone shouted back: Hello is somebody there?
"Yes, help me, my name is Genelle.
I could see a bit of daylight coming through a crack, so I stuck my hand through it. 'Can you see my hand? I yelled.
No!
I yelled again as I stretched my hand a far as I could.
But they still cannot find me. I lost consciousness.
When I woke, I could hear people above.
I prayed "Please God show me a miracle now."

I tried yelling again, but they still no one can locate me. So I stretched my hand as far as I could & this time someone grabbed it.
"Genelle, I've got you! You are going to be alright. My name is Paul. I won't let go of your hand until they got you out."

"Oh thank you God! Finally someone has found me. I tried to see who it was but I couldn't make out a face. Paul kept telling me I would be all right & I believed him. I kept his name in my head because I wanted to meet him when I got out to thank him.

I could hear men moving steel & concrete above. Finally 2 men took hold of my shoulders and Paul let go of my hand. They put me on a stretcher and then passed me hand to hand up & down a long line of people. I saw them all lining the path, everyone clapping.

Out of the 15 who had tried to escape, only 2 made it out.
I was the last survivor to be pulled out.

Sometimes I wonder about Paul, the man who held my hands and calmed me when I thought I couldn't go on. After I got out of hospital, a reporter interviewed me along with some of the men who rescued me. When I asked about Paul, they seemed puzzled.

"There's no one named Paul on our team." One of them assured me. But... "Someone was holding my hand for at least 20 minutes when you were digging me out. He told me his name was Paul. I kept reminding myself of his name because I wanted to thank him."
"I'm sorry, but nobody was holding your hand when we were removing the rubble.

Though my story had been told on Oprah, CNN, Guideposts & Time magazines, no one named Paul has ever stepped forward to take credit for rescuing me that day. But I know that Paul was God's answer to my prayer for a miracle, a messenger of his love in the midst of my pain."

yeah. had Y-Acts for the past week. super tiring. but super ... rewarding and fulfilling:D
i did learn to play the harmonica, and did learn to speak a bit of malay...and one line of tamil:D i also talked to lots of pple i don't know...found out a bit more about my Toa Payoh neighbourhood, exchanged email address with someone called Lisa from London (who said she's going to send me lots of jokes), met someone from Mauritius, explained the education system to someone from Australia and made friends with two pple from Indonesia --- Maria and Feethlee (dunno how to spell). quite a lot of stuff actually...the X-Jammers will know it:) i think the Y-Acts programme was really a success... during the campfire when all of us shared, think all of us really have these memories imprinted in our minds.. an event which truely challenged our limits (even showed us that we can go beyond them), caused us to reflect and change and shone forth the altruistic spirit in us. whoa. it can be compared to OBS:D yeah.
yeah! christmas service today! my first ever! super cool! hahaha. the ENTIRE auditorium was transformed...lights hung here and there, the stage was decorated and the play was superb. very cool acting! 'cos the pple weren't afraid of performing:D very amusing as well... pple kept laughing. we sang christmas songs, pop version!
what was even better was that you could really feel God's love and the joy of having Him in our lives. whoa once more.
we also celebrated Jun Ting's birthday:D heh. let me affirm her here, though i know she won't see this... yup. As Jie Yun has mentioned.. JT's a person who really shows her love quietly. like she won't deliberately tell you 'I love all of you!' and she doesn't go around hugging people...but you just can feel that she loves you. in her quiet manner, she'll buy stuff for you... as her sheep, i've gotten quite a lot of things. i remember that i went through quite a lot of moments in my life, with her there, guiding, supporting, teaching. i trust her a lot too...lots of stuff i dun bare to pple, but she's really someone you can trust. can really sense her heart for people as well:) she's also someone who's faithful with what she has, and she emphasizes a lot on the leaders are there to serve...most often, can sense God's love through her...i'm very thankful to have her as my shepherd. i'm still need to grow a lot spiritually, and i've got quite a lot to learn from her:) with God's strength, she is ren2 xiao3 li4 liang4 da4. hahaa:D
yup. anyway. that's all:D got the 2004 roster a few days ago. i'm serving on my birthday. wheeee~:D

yeah!:D back from student camp!:D it rocks! hahaha:D first of all, the bunk was quite nice:D actually got my own bed, aircon, bathroom, toilet, cupboard, the works:D quite a nice room. carpeted somemore. hhaa:) praise and worship was great:D hahaha:) the youth pple were quite enthu. but so were we! we're divided into different families and houses. i'm in the house kilohana (hawaiian for excellence) and family 2:D first day games were relatively mild. just had a not-so-nice part about sucking up different sauces (poor ziwei sucked up vinegar, someone else had chilli water) and transferring it:D hahaha:) teaching was inspirational:D since it's an excellent camp, it's of course, about excellence:D haha.
second day was full of teachings and workshops:D but the teachings were again, super inspiring. i love sermons and church teachings, 'cos the stuff apply to your life and it's brought across in a humorous, yet impactful way. we had jubilee night on the second day too:D rocks!
third day was mega games day! cheered till a few of us had not much of a voice left (ziwei was speaking in a falsetto until she bathed, then her voice came back a bit. i couldn't sing at all and went to scare xinyi with a deep voice. lol) kilohana got the most creative prize (judging from cheers and our mascot:D)! anyway. for the whole of the third day for mega games, we were just plodding around in mud and more mud... hah. we won all the station games we went to, got quite a lot of weapon cards:D
third day was also global connection night ('cos we had international delegates from other Hope churches, eg, Germany, Europe, Malaysia, Taipei...) 67 of them in all (is the number right?) whereby skits were put up. the first skit by the NE group from Youth was quite impactful. relatively professional. lots of effects used. u won't be able to forget it so soon. think they did rather well. our UNI district did well too!:D we touched more on the comedy aspect, but the last section was quite touching, spoke to a part inside of me.
we also celebrated Jason's belated birthday on sat night:D (third day...haha) or rather, should i say morning. a very inspiring leader, someone who really takes the effort to know his people, someone whom u can really feel his love for Jesus and through his love for Jesus, a cultivated increased love for the people around him as well:) a person of excellence as well. glad to know him:)
poor shepherd wanted to talk to me and huichun:D to catch-up a bit...but i think we ended the celebration too late (around 3+am). heh. i really appreciate my shepherd. shy to tell her. hahaha:D
slept at 4.30+am in the end. woke at 8.30am. quite tired, what with the lack of sleep from previous days. but i got reminded of one of the teachings, got reminded of what God has inspired me with, got reminded that i can lean on His strength, and just clung unto Him to get up and do stuff:D
yup. had Y-Acts, organised by the gen-acts club today:D rather cool:D met at Yishun Safra and all...currently have Adeline (primary school classmate!), Eng Hao (he's from my primary school too, can you believe it?), Eunice (from Bendemeer Sec, nice girl!:D she was in NPCC. going to TJ), Freedy (guy who looks perpectually confused), Hui Chun (yeah!), Joanna (ade's fren!:D my sister!) and me inside. we're called the X-Jameeah!:D and we're the X-Jammers! and we're always X-Jamming. hah. think our cip project's quite cool too:D
we played some get-to-know-u games. wah. the things we did still amazes me. we had frogs in our games, water bombs, balloons, lots of water and mud. we had to crawl from one station (in the field!) to another and back-crawl from another station to another (*faints*) very fun!:D really a time of bonding:D
can't wait to do the project:D i'm going to learn the harmonica and learn to sing songs in canto, hokkien, tamil and malay! O_o"

A basketball in my hands is worth about $19.
A basketball in Michael Jordan's hands is worth about $33 million.
It depends whose hands it's in.

A baseball in my hands is worth about $6.
A baseball in Mark McGuire's hands is worth $19 million.
It depends on whose hands it's in.

A tennis racket is useless in my hands.
A tennis racket in Venus Williams' hands is a championship winning.
It depends whose hands it's in.

A rod in my hands will keep away a wild animal.
A rod in Moses' hands will part the mighty sea.
It depends whose hands it's in.

A sling shot in my hands is a kid's toy
A sling shot in David's hand is a mighty weapon.
It depends whose hands it's in.

Two fish and 5 loaves of bread in my hands is a couple of fish sandwiches.
Two fish and 5 loaves of bread in God's hands will feed thousands.
It depends whose hands it's in.

Nails in my hands might produce a birdhouse
Nails in Jesus Christ's hands will produce salvation for the entire world.
It depends whose hands it's in.

As you see now it depends whose hands it's in.
So put your concerns, your worries, your fears, your hopes, your dreams, your families and your relationships in God's hands because...
It depends whose hands it's in.

ooof. it's camp tmr and i haven't finished packing my bag:( think i'm going to fall asleep in the middle of the day or something similar to that:) oh! just realised that i'll see jessie:D hahaha:) haven't seen her in quite a while. wonder who else i'll see.
i wonder if i can sneak back home too. welllll...

*grInz* haven't updated for some time:) been busy. hahaha:)
i'm finally having my own room...after like, 17 and 3/4 yrs. superb:D went around choosing furniture (didn't noe furniture can be so expensive..).
bought a new ... watyamycallit? sweater? hmmm. jacket? someone tell me the difference between these two...i've never seemed to be able to differentiate and grasp the main difference between these two articles of clothing. nice and thick.
camp's tomorrow! and i haven't finished packing, neither have i finished clearing up the room. eekz. i should try to finish everything today...and perhaps bring something to camp to study during free time as well:D is there going to be free time? haha.
ah wellz. life's going to be quite...happening:D student camp, y-acts, then christmas!:D and the parties before christmas!:D going to be so fun! wheee~

sleepy. think i should start developing a fixed time to wake up and sleep once again. my whole body feels warped. not sleepy, yet sleepy:P not exactly very productive, yah?:D

i have a sudden urge to spout out intelligible answers to several thought-provoking questions in life, or to express my sincere opinions to various aspects in life. possibly about religions (since i've always dealt with this aspect), in relationships or even in the behaviour of pple. my topics never change, uh?:)
but somehow or another, upon second thoughts, the thought-provoking qns don't seem to be so thought-provoking afterall...since there're verses in the bible to support them. wellwell.
i can still share with u my personal opinions about stuff though:)
right now. i'm sleepy. and hungry. and my brain cells are void of new electrons that's to be transported along the neurons. and all that i wish to do now is to talk to Jesus.

yeah well:D being nutty. i've just settled upon the realisation that i don't have archives and that people have been asking about my archives...yah well. i can't seem to have archives, that's the prob:D so i've decided to manually set up my archives. hahaha:D will be changing the months of my archives every month or something:) for ur viewing pleasures, pple. just in case u get bored with using the net:D

got this from rachel's blog

What attracts people to you?
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and this from steph's blog

Grease!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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i found the nyjc student creed!:D
Out of diversity,
Unity with conviction,
Empowers us with confidence, commitment and compassion,
To reach greater heights,
engaging to the full,
the mind, body and soul.

going to do the SAT tutorial now..cleared up comp table and nearly half of my own table. slow progress. but still progress:P

A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the coffee each morning.
The wife said, "You should do it, because you get up first, and then we don't have to wait so long to get our coffee."
The husband said, " You are in charge of cooking around here and you should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee."
Wife replies, "No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible that the man should do the coffee."
Husband replies, "I can't believe that, show me.
So she fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testament and showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says: "HEBREWS"

ah. changed my blog template on impulse. adding stuff to it once more.
i know there're a few probs to fix, like my swirling thing is gone, the ad's covering my poor page (asking for help on that, trying to get it ad-less...see if the person wants to help. hehe)
any other probs u spot, just write it in my guestbook:D

haha. just read this.
During filming in a remote area of Italy earlier this year for the controversial Mel Gibson film "The Passion of Christ," the actor who portrays Jesus was struck during a lightning storm, according to an October report in the trade paper Variety. Also struck was assistant director Jan Michelini, who had been struck by lightning at a previous shoot for the film, in Matera, Italy. None of the strikes created a serious injury. The film's portrayals of Christ and of Jews are expected to make it extremely controversial.

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!
i'm a pooh. just like 1/3 of everyone else who is a pooh:D

yes. after some pondering, i've decided on a few resolutions to be implemented soon. like tomorrow?

1) do a tutorial per day about SATs. simply because i've been neglecting it and since everyone's been talking about it, i figured i might as well start too.

2) spend sparingly. very broke:D (presents and lost money and all that)

3) eat less. no more buffets and snack and snacks and more snacks for me.

4) start clearing up my room:D will be updating my progess...think it'll be one of the reasons to keep me going. hahahah:D

5) expound on the wonders of walking. daily. hahaha:D maybe i'll go swim again. though swimming does cause my hair texture to deteriorate:P

yup:D the other resolutions will be between God and me:D shall update about the success (yes! success!) of my resolutions next time:D

*grInz*
no more tutoring...gracious. i do wonder how teachers survive teaching them...it's positively more exhausting than anything i've done before:D being a receptionist is much less tiring:D
went to the soup spoon with stephyesterday:D yummilicious! went out with qing and fungi in the evening:D quite amusing...we walked around. bummed around. sat around. ate around. talked around.
ohoh! saw august and his girlfriend! hahaha:D and saw weilin too!:D she sounded quite different...upon telling her that she sounded like a mixture of meizhen and sam, she found it an insult (jokingly) and said 'thanks ahz. i haven't seen you for a while and when i see you, you insult me' *grInz* i told her that's my way of greeting people:D
anyway, today's WEEZI's BIRTHDAY! anyone who hasn't done so must wish WEEZI a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!:D u're also welcomed to remind her that in a few months it'll be mine.
watched Matrix with huiyuan, huichun and jits at ang mo kio min house today:D stupid me have always thought it's ang mo kio main house. ah well. i love matrix! hahaha:D anyway, we kinda overshot and had a short time to buy dinner and rush to sub-d meet:D
sub-d meet was quite amusing...dunno why everyone's so excited to see everyone else:D anyway, sheralyn's hair has suddenly turned half a shade lighter at the top..hhaa:D felt like eons since the last sub-d meet, turns out that it was only 2 weeks ago. seems like we miss each other, yah?:D oof. i saw jessie too! when i was rushing to sub-d:D she went 'xinying!' then i went 'jessie!' then she went 'ah! late ahz!' then i went 'hehehehehe!bye!'
-make it last forever, friendship never ends'

i didn't have a very nice dream last night...of all strange things to dream about...i dreamt that there was this teacher who caught her students just to eat them up..mostly males (she's surprisingly nicer to females)then i remembered i was amongst a few who were caught...and we were pleading with her not to kill us and she was just nonchalent...then the guys were pleading too...then somehow the next scene was of all of us standing, facing the sky and singing to God, somehow with the knowledge that if we sing passionately, we will all not be eaten:D
yeah well. i'm supposed to go bathe now. shall update what happened to me later:D

i feel tired. poofed out. oooooooooooofffffffff.
tutoring the kids seem to be more and more tiring day by day...especially when the students seem to be increasing in number. hahaha:) got to know this girl,genevieve on wed..'cos she was waiting for her social service centre to open at 1pm, then i decided to stay outside and do some stuff before going for shepherding, so i decided to accompany her:) talked a bit...got to know the mentality of the students in CHIJ something about lady of the nativity or something, not sure... yup:) got to know the area a bit more too. at least i could walk from hougang mall to the sch this morning:D yeah!
felt like a nanny today...hahaha:D promised her to accompany her once more today, then we went to huiyuan's house, then i said i'll follow her back to her sch, just to make sure she doesn't get lost or something...and then i had to walk her home...which is past hougang mall, 3/4 way across some neighbourhood thing, which caused me to emerge super near punggol park is. ah wellz. long way to walk. quite exhausted:) but okay i guess...since i'm only seeing them for the last day tmr:)
anyway, i think wat chiew said was quite true, we're quite pampered down there:D getting soon kueh and curry puffs and today, roti prata for breakfast. muahahaha:D
btw, if u all are looking forward to keeping a pet free-of-charge and easy to take care of, you can try considering weavers:D 'cos this girl, josephine, is currently breeding weavers and they seem quite harmless, just rather small (u've gotta be careful not to squash them:D)
ah. tired. still got stuff not done. looking forward to the meeting with God though:D

i've been absorbing myself in the colourful world within the tv screen:D starting from last night, i decided to amuse myself by watching a musical on arts central called 'D'elisir D'amore'. frankly speaking i have no idea what it means...all that i can guess is that it could mean 'the elizir of love' wait...elizir looks a bit weird. looks like it's of a wrong spelling. ah well. hahaha. it's Italian! so cool! oh. it's really the wrong spelling. right spelling is 'the elixir of love' wah! i translated the thing correctly! and found a website for it:D go to the 'the elixir of love'
today...i watched the cartoon 'a monkey's tale' ...it's about two tribes of monkeys who didn't trust each other:D westlife sang the theme song...and it's actually quite interesting, talking about how 'we were two, now we are one' you can get the song lyrics from here:D and know more about the movie here:D
i also watched 'ben xiao hai'...think it's english name is 'broken heart' or something similar:D...was quite an...interesting(?) movie. ah wellz.
that's about all. hahaha:D will be a more outside day tmr:D hopefully.

went for nygep gathering yesterday:D quite amusing. 1 yr has passed and nothing much has changed. good good:) the company was wonderful, and the bonding was nice, very nice very nice:D let's have another one! hahaha:D
today. what happened today?
today. me, hui yuan, weez, jits and chiew went to chij punggol to help primary 4 and 5 students with their maths:D *grInz* saw yancy there!:D ended up in the same classroom as yancy, jitsy and this guy called zijian (who was once my maths tutor:D)children there are quite nice! all girls. hahaha:) primary 4 pple consisted of sangeetha (the one i'm teaching, sweet girl:), phriya, grace and joanne:D...primary 5 students were much more...10 of them. and we only have 3 pple at that time 'cos yancy had to go early. i was helping four girls - marilyn, stephanie (hahaha!)...and ehz, i can't remember:D ah wellz:D nice pple too! they actually do their maths quite fast. haha.

ooof.
i miss the massaging chair.
physically tired (very). spiritually refreshed and learning.

*grInz* i'm amused.
we really are going to phoenix hotel for retreat. hahahaa:) wheeeeeeee~~~
just read my guestbook, hehehe. yupyup:D 'if only through heaven's eyes' is officially the song of the cows:D yeah! and oopsie, twas patricia who shouted 'leslie!' from the bridge and not dear innocent serene:D *grInz*

*grInz* dear friends. i'll be hibernating in orchard road for the next 2 and a half days (21st-23rd). DO NOT call my house phone:D just call my hp:D if u can't get me and it's important, leave a msg. if it's not THAT important, wait for me to call you back:D
dunno if i'll have internet access...so try NOT TO FLOOD MY MAILBOX:D if i get internet access, i'll blog. and u'll know. then u can flood my mailbox:P
in case there're still pple who dunno about our nygep'02 outing:D
it's on the 23rd NOVEMBER, SUNDAY, from 3pm - possibly around 9pm (?), consisting of flying kites and steamboat buffet. cost will be around $10+? please confirm by 21st NOV (if possible) to ME (yes! mememmemee) if u're going (for only kites? or only steamboat? or BOTH --- recommended!)
if u're going for both, or only for kites, meet at 3pm at marina bay mrt station control where HUI QING AND WEEZI will pick u up:D
if u can only make it for steamboat, ehz. still working out a time to meet. i'll prob be the one to pick u all up...
*yawn*
if u dun get back to me by tmr, weezi will hound u down (kiddin'!) try to make it, it may be the last outing for this yr. may be. maybe we can have a christmas party. hahaha!

got this from isobelly through our nygep yahoogroup:D i bet there're going to be fallacies in this...but well...

It's not the fault of the student if he fails, because the year has
ONLY 365' days.
Typical academic year for a student.

1. Sundays-52,Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest. days left 313.
2. Summer holidays-50 where weather is very hot and difficult to study. days left 263.
3. 8 hours daily sleep-means 130 days. days left 141.
4. 1 hour for daily playing-(good for health) means 15 days. days left 126.
5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies(chew properly & eat)-means 30days. days left 96.
6. 1 hour for talking (man is a social animal)-means 15 days - days left 81.
7. Exam days per year at least 35 days. days left 46.
8. Quarterly, Half yearly and festival (holidays)-40 days.Balance 6 days.
9. For sickness atleast 3 days. remaining days 3.
10. Movies and functions atleast 2 days. 1 day left.
11. That 1 day is your birthday. "How can you study at that day?" Balance days 0

"How can a student pass ?????"

hohoho:D had a major matrix/philo/'i-think-therefore-i-am'/logic discussion with huichun and huiyuan (two huis!:D) at nus arts fac canteen today. hahahaa:) quite interesting:D we made a lot of lame comments, looked at huichun's interesting logic stuff and talked a bit here and there about stuff. i kept persuading them to watch matrix:D we're watching matrix next week! (i think). now the main thing is, does anyone has the matrix vcds?:D:D:D:D:D hehehehe. btw, me and hui yuan has decided to take the level 2000 paper (is that what it's called???) for philo instead of the 1000 one...'cos the 1000 one seems harder to us than the 2000 one. ah well:)
anyway, was buying sugar-coated peanuts outside the university hall when i realised that the packet wouldn't fall out. then i decided to buy another packet but the latter packet didn't fall out as well...huiyuan decided to buy the third packet and in the end both the second and third packet fell out. ah wellz. so in the end i got two packets of sugarcoated peanuts and huiyuan (who didn't wanna eat them originally) had to eat them too. hahaha:D got a bit sick after i ate so many peanuts. won't be eating them again anytime soon (i hope)

oh gracious. i dun recognise qian ru anymore. i can only try to figure out which one she is in the photo:( how disastrous. i mean like, i can easily point out adeline, suatying, yuanling, linda, mingxian, jerome, jolene(both tan and goh), sizhen, liyu, panghao, yvonne, renna, kimhong, xiangjun, huishan...blah blah quite easily...but qian ru! her face changed quite a tad.
oh. i just realised. she's at AJ!!! hahaha:D and she knows... CENWEI!!! *faints* i do believe cenwei is steph's fren (yes? no?) wellus wellus wellus.

a few blessings to share here and there:D
thank God that mum allowed me to go to retreat without any protests or exclamations and what-nots:D hahaha:) been prayin' and prayin' 'cos normally mum will put up a huge fuss about sleepovers and what-nots. whew. this time she just calmly asked me some qns and said 'okay':) then she asked me about what's the name of my church and all that. we talked till 1.30am! hahhaa:)
and thankfully meixue was at the hostel to pass money to lijia so i dun have to travel down to VS hostel just to pass $15 from the club fund to her. saved me quite a lot of time:) time used for other purposes:D
kimchun just went 'hug jason' and asked me to guess a name and a surname. ehz. wells. anyway, it unscrambles to form 'joshua ng'...who else but our dear sub-d leader:D
ah. everyone wants to have a gathering. no one seems to be properly organising it. i think i'm supposed to help in 2, organise 2, and what have i done? nothing:( better sort them out before this friday!:D yahoooooooo!~:D

It was written by an 8-year-old, Danny Dutton of Chula Vista, CA, for his third-grade homework assignment. The assignment was to explain God. Wonder if any of us could do as well?"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
EXPLAIN GOD

One of God's main jobs is making people. He makes them to replace the ones that die, so there will be enough people to take care of things on earth. He doesn't make grown-ups, just babies. I think because they are smaller and easier to make. That way He doesn't have to take up His valuable time teaching them to talk and walk. He can just leave that to mothers and fathers.
God's second most important job is listening to prayers. An awful lot of this goes on, since some people, like preachers and things, pray at times beside bedtime. God doesn't have time to listen to the radio or TV because of this.
God sees everything and hears everything and is everywhere which keeps Him pretty busy. So you shouldn't go wasting His time by going over your Mom and Dad's head asking for something they said you couldn't have.
Atheists are people who don't believe in God. I don't think there are any in Chula Vista. At least there aren't any who come to our church.
Jesus is God's Son. He used to do all the hard work like walking on water and performing miracles and people finally got tired of Him preaching to them and they crucified Him. But He was good and kind, like His Father and He told His Father that they didn't know what they were doing and to forgive them and God said "O.K."
His Dad (God) appreciated everything that He had done and all His hard work on earth so He told Him He didn't have to go out on the road anymore. He could stay in heaven. So He did. And now He helps His Dad out by listening to prayers and seeing things which are important for God to take care of and which ones He can take care of Himself without having to bother God. Like
a secretary, only more important. You can pray anytime you want and they are sure to help you because they got it worked out so one of them is on duty all the time.
You should always go to church on Sunday because it makes God happy, and if there's anybody you want to make happy, it's God. Don't skip church to do something you think will be more fun like going to the beach. This is wrong. And besides the sun doesn't come out at the beach until noon anyway.
If you don't believe in God, besides being an atheist, you will be very lonely, because your parents can't go everywhere with you, like to camp, but God can. It is good to know He's around you when you're scared in the dark or when you can't swim and you get thrown into real deep water by big kids.
But...you shouldn't just always think of what God can do for you. I figure God put me here and He can take me back anytime He pleases. And...that's why I believe in God.

well well:D
look at the time. it's a delightful 12.29am:D whooooooo~
hahaha:) met two new pple today:D okay..the others are new too but we see them on stage during p&w, so not counted:) one was pamela and one was priscilla:D priscilla reminded me a lot of qinglan:) interesting...
lots of pple having exams now...must pray for them:) yup.

*grInz*
i can't wait for next week! will be quite a lot of stuff coming up:D i think:)
i can't wait for this sunday's service as well:) got some new stuff:) hahahaha:)
our group project file ended up so thick that we could hardly squeeze everything in:) it was a 3-inch file:) *beam* and we had lots of dividers...and lots of pages:) i'm so proud of my group!
though i felt a tad guilty having to leave halfway through mr chan's checking of our file 'cos there was caregroup:) yeah!:D

*grInz* i find it quite amusing to catch up with somebody i haven't seen or talked to for 2 years+...yes. i'm still referring to choo:) was wondering why she managed to reply so fast ('cos she's an instructor and all that), then she replied saying that she's having a residential course now...so there's a laptop and all, but can't type for long 'cos there's still work to do:) but she said 'keep in touch!' i will! superbly interesting. actually got triggered off to type to her 'cos of the sudden reminder of some stuff she said when i saw mabel sitting at the comp beside me doing pw on tuesday... yup.
got a melancholic revival of emotions just now when i saw this song on someone's blog (do u wanna keep it personal?)

"If only through heaven's eyes"-N'Sync
I never thought you were a fairweather friend
You never let me down, you're true to the end
You're in the darkest hour, when all was lost
Somehow you left the light on
You faced the wrong and showed the world a thing or two
Stood up for me, for you
And you should know

Some say it wasn't worth the things we went through
I say it ain't worth losing you
I hope you know how much you've changed all our lives
Someday you'll see if only through heaven's eyes

I still remember the things that you said
I keep your words alive I could never forget
Cause in the final hour you made me proud
So proud that I could know you
You told the world its time that they believed in you
You stood for right and truth
And you should know

Some say it wasn't worth the things we went through
I say it ain't worth losing you
I hope you know how much you've changed all our lives
Someday you'll see if only through heaven's eyes

Only through heaven's eyes...

And so we can't forget
We've got to keep remembering them all
The ones who took the fall
They did it for us all
And we should learn from it
Stand up if you believe in it
You've got to face the world... be strong

Some say it wasn't worth the things we went through
I say it ain't worth losing you
I hope you know how much you've changed all our lives
Someday you'll see if only through heaven's eyes
{repeat}

think this song means quite a lot to me 'cos my closest friends(?:) have used it before...i can still remember the first time i heard it in fungi's room, with no one else but me and the song, it was so nice!well:) think this can be our song? the song of friends:D the song of nygep? i dunno:)

*grInz* to further explain what i said about alywin..'cos the melancholic/sad/remembering mood was so nicely established, until his normal, a bit chirpy voice popped into the mood and nicely burst it completely. yup:D that's what i mean:)
hahaa. for the second half of doing the gpf, we did some of the group stuff, then all of us got addicted to isketch and wouldn't stop playing it:D *grInz* then we were all laughing like mad and going crazy trying to figure out the words...in the end, there were only the four of us in the comp lab. hahaha:)
watched the mtv of 'me against the music' by britney in collaboration with madonna today...no wonder they said that it was rather... *coughcough*. beat's not bad though, kinda drums into ur head...but the scenes on the mtv does encourage some stuff.
-all my people on the floor, let me see you dance-
wanted to say that OP was quite blessed today as well:) 'cos during the qn and answer section, the person actually asked me this qn
'why do you think the government implemented the policy? Do you think education would have been enough?'
and i actually was quite stumbled...'cos i mean like. duh the government implemented it to ensure that there is a supply of organs. hahaha:) then somehow or another, some part about how people may not act out what they listen..that kinda stuff, appeared in my mind. and i merely babbled on about it:) hahaa:)
talking to xinyi just now, i'm really thankful for her to be sent into my life, for sharing her daily encounters with God and encouraging me in the same time. i really thank God for sending me to Hope as well:) 'cos i think i may not have grown should i have accepted Christ earlier. God has His timing:) and i thank God for His people...who are so accepting and loving:)
i was looking at the sky in the evening whilst i was at the corridor walking back home and i saw such soft wisps of clouds in the sky. can't help marvelling at them:) and i got reminded of what rachel said before. indeed. i can't help marvelling at the creator of these marvels in life as well:)

yeah! pw op is officially over:) it was relatively okay, i guess...except that i had to speak rather fast so as to be able to cover all the contents within the things i have to cover:) steph's group's intro was quite interesting, and set a sentimental mood, but alywin kinda spoiled it once he started speaking. in my opinion anyway.
patricia's birthday today, must wish her happy birthday!:D surprisingly, patricia's birthday's the same as nicole's sec best friend's birthday:)
went to parkway to eat and saw two actors from channel 8...the MC king guy and some older person i forgot the name of:) then...we went to yoshinoya 'cos pat wanted to buy a cookie, and we saw Mr Boy, Mr Toh and some other jolly teacher whcih i dunno the name of:) hahaha. but serene and pat didn't see them and wanted verification. proof. hahha:) so, when we saw them at the bus-stop from the other side of the road, and a bus was coming, serene started to take off and shouted 'leslie!' on the bridge. we ran to catch up with them. quite amusing:D
and due to the fact that we can't tell the teachers that there's a back-gate which we can get into school by, we had to pretend to love looking at the structure of a flower...hahaha:) mr toh walked past and seriously believed us when we said we're interested in plant bio. *grInz*
mr boy says he has never seen joseph before...must intro them next time!:D *beamz* doing gpf now...hopefully it'll get us a good grade!

in school doing pw once more...pat, jac and serene are going mad behind my back. just saw desiree:D never knew she's from cedar...haha.

anyway, today was pw day too:) went back to school 'cos mr chan wanted to talk to the whole class about the gpf (group project file):) was 15 mins late (uh-oh), then turns out that serene was the only one of my group there:D hahahaha:) nice jacko-mama saw that i forgot to bring my shou ces home yesterday and brought in today for me:D *grInz* she nearly fainted when i said i wanted to throw them away. hahahaa:) went a little nutty doing stuff around, reading pat's amusing typed out minutes (Jac: does oral contraception encourage infedelity? All: (in unison) no!!!) which i thought sounded like a script:) and choosing colours for dividers for individual sections:) hahaha:)
we went to siglap to eat...tried teh bing (iced milk tea...now it sounds like bubble tea) there...very fulling! ate lor mee, which was not bad except that the uncle added too much vinegar. hahaha:) went a bit crazy when pat bought drinks at 7-eleven. you know the machine that dispenses soft drinks and there's music at the same time? pat was deliberately filling up the drinks little by little so that she can listen to the music and comment on them. hahaha:) guy at the counter was quite amused...he grinned at us when we started laughing like nuts and went out of the store.
continued with pw for the rest of the day:) had a nice time today as well:) all of us were super efficient. hahahaha:) meeting tomorrow once more:) another wacky day perhaps?

was happily typing away about wenjiang's birthday when the comp suddenly went mad and black and decided to cause internet explorer to be numb towards my commands and the system to turn a deaf ear towards what i click:D hehehe:) so i had to restart the system. ah well:)
anyway, as i was saying, i've been doing pw these days:D printed out pw stuff yesterday morning till 11am...would have been late for service if i haven't decided to take a taxi down:) reached at 11.15am:D only took 15 mins!
service was refreshing and gave me an new experience:) actually, i was reflecting a bit about my attitude towards God on sat night...then i decided that i need to change a bit, so sunday service was quite a new experience in the case that for the first time, worship seems much much more joyful and uplifting to me than praise. felt much closer to Him:)
celebrated wenjiang's birthday in the afternoon:D the whole buncha us were huddled together in the Asia room. Shu wen joined us too!:D we had a delightful time of affirming him (and suaning him. hahaha:) not really lahz...'cos he's quite corny, then actually got 2 grps bought corn for him. well.) we were quite worried that the sprinklers might by set off when we lighted the candle for his cake, but nothing happened:D hehehe:)
actually, can really see wenjiang's heart for his people and the vision:)
and in the room, while everyone was together and sharing, i can't help but feel the love that's spread about once more:) knowing that all of us belong in the same family, the same vision, relatively selfless people:) all of us growing together, helping, sharing truthfully about aspects in our lives - the the good, the not-so-good, the ugly and the ugliest. knowing that all of us love Him together as well:) ah.
anyway, i had pw afterwards:) which lasted until 10pm at jac's house with jac, serene, jac's family and husky the dog:D *grInz* quite an amusing time. pastor prakich was right...u see a person truely in his/her house:)
dad came to pick me up at night..he only appeared 30 mins after he said he's reaching pasir ris:D mum says they've been circling around and round and can't find the place. hahaha:) then we took another 20mins to try to figure out how to get out of pasir ris to tampines, then to the PIE, then to the CTE:) very funny. kinda lost inside there:)

eating pasta now:D large shells swimming in lotsa sauce. yummy. pasta simply cannot survive without lots and lots of sauce:) i'm in food heaven~!
had chinese AOs today..no inspiration for chinese compo...think i kinda peaked in inspiration for mock paper. ah wellz. too bad then. then the paper itself, nothing we learned came out (except for one miserable cheng yu)...hehehe:D
went for the ecclesiology seminar...was quite doubtful unto what i'm supposed to do, where it is and everything...xinyi assured me that it's at nexus. hahaha:D went there, then the counter person enthusiastically said hi (quite amusing)...and just basically helped me from there. then i went in and sat at one of the green seats until xinyi came, and eventually jason. saw rachel and freddy too:D (only after a long while though... hehehe:)
pastor prakich, the pastor who was teaching us, was not exactly what one considers as charismatic...but he's got very firm principles (and a sense of humour as well) that can really be seen. he's also got a spirit of deacon, always wanting to serve, to do more for the kingdom of God...he was telling us about how his regional pastors will try to trick him into resting and all that. quite amusing:)
i thought teaching was quite...inspiring:D i dunno why...but i felt terribly motivated after the seminar. hahahaha:) the 'women in ministry' did help to clear out some doubts about verses in the bible. strange how greek words can portray some stuff differently from english words even when they seem similar:)
saw fungi today when i went to ps to eat with xinyi and jason...also saw jieyu, javin, yongxiang and lots of vs guys in ps upon a second trip to ps:D
lost my buspass...hopefully i dropped it in nexus:)

ooooof. i feel zoned out. hahaha:D been studying chinese half of the day. sleepy. tomorrow, and it'll be over (i hope)
had a pw op rehearsal on wed afternoon which went quite well:) (considering that it's our first ever time presenting)...mr chan said that all of us just need to control our fidgeting and make the statements shorter:D yeah! content was okay...then speech was okay...actions were okay:) guess to get an EE, we'll need to practice in front of the mirror all day:D
yup. anyway, joined the gep alumni:) quite cool...'cos we'll be like the first group of pple to join:D hey pple! all of u must join k? something to remind us of the sec school yrs we spent. to link us to other pple too.
had shepherding this morning:) we ate the traditional breakfast of toast and half-boiled egg and a drink:D quite interesting...'cos both of us haven't eaten it for a long time:) delightful:)
ohoho. found out that the beads place at toa payoh is selling 50 entensions for only $2! (the thing to put the beads on) so much cheaper than the one we bought at orchard (20 for around $2?) they have a lot of crystals too! all different colours! corinne! we must buy from there!:D

koped this from desiree's personal message
1. What is the time right now: 10:04pm
2. Name:xinying:D
3. Preferred Name: eh. watever. call me me!:D
4. What are you wearing right now: nygh sec 4 camp t-shirt which states 'being and becoming' and shorts and specs. and whatever there is.
5. Star sign: pisces
6. Where do you live: toa payoh
7. Gender: female
8. Single or taken: hahahaha:D desiree said 'taken by God' not erasing it:D
9. Righty or Lefty: righty
10. Hair color : blackish brown
11. Eye color: dark brown
12. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: lots and lots of friends;)
13. Birthday: 7th March!
14. Lucky Gem Stone: how would i know?
::FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT ON GUYS::
1. Boxers or briefs: *cough* doesn't bother me:P
2. Long or short hair: geez.
3. Dark or blonde hair: geeeeeeez.
4. Tall or short: taller?
5. Six pack: muahahhaaha! six pack will turn into fats in the later yrs. nahh...
6. Muscular arms: i would think that all arms have muscles..and are thus muscular
7. Good or bad guy: good? good!
8. Hats or no hats: hahahha:D if they can carry it off...
9. Ears pierced or not: some guys look odd with pierced ears.
10. Dimples: are we talking about chilam here?:D he's got great dimples!
11. Studly or cutie: sturdy
12. Dark or light eyes: dark.
13. Fat or thin: moderate
14. Jewellery or none: some.
15. Curly or straight hair: nice straight soft hair.
16. Freckles or none: that reminds me of archie...
17. Indoor or outdoor: healthy person. hahahha:D
18. Shy or outgoing: depends on the occasion o_O

::EVERYONE::

1.. Would you date someone just for his/her looks: tempting...but no
2.. Chocolate or white milk: milk. anytime:D
3.. Mud or jelly: mud or jelly? mudpies?:D
4.. Skiing or boarding : never tried both
7.. Summer or winter: winter will be too cold for me i think. i'll sneeze:(
8.. Cake or pie: yummy:D
9.. Silver or gold: leather. nice to touch.
10.. Sunset or sunrise:both signifies a beginning...and an end:)
11.. Have you ever fractured/broken/sprained a bone: my ankle. stepped on the soccer ball
13.. What's your favorite color: pink.purple.orange (!)
14.. Do you hate anyone?: nopez:D
15.. What do you dream about: lots of things:D
16.. Do u have a HUGE crush on someone right now: nopez:D crush is unreciprocated right? nopez:D not interested.
17.. Who's the loudest friend: eh. u're askin' me?
18.. Who's the quietest friend: quiet ahz? memememe~:P
19.. Who do you tell your dreams to: God:) my diary. my shepherd:) friends:)
20.. What shampoo and conditioner do u use?: ORGANICS ROCKS!:D
21.How many T.Vs in your house: three. *grInz*.
22.. Who's the last person you called: xinyi:D but she didn't pick up the phone
23.. Where do you want to get married: i know quite a lot of pple will mention they don't wanna get married/wanna become a nun/become a businesswoman/too troublesome... hehe:) ehz. in a church. hahahaha!
24.. Favorite number: 3 and 7. wanna guess whyyyy?
25.. Favorite boys names: daniel, julian, josh, all the j names. rocks.
26.. Favourite girls names: keira, autumn. hahaha:D
27.. Have you ever gone skinny dippin?? nopezz. nopezz. nopezz. i'll prob freeze to death:P
28.. Have you been in love?: Desiree:i'm in love with GOD ... (me too!:D---me)

feeling sleepy. doing pw:( such a day should be spent at home cuddled up with a good book, or by the beach enjoying the breeze and the company, or hiking up a mountain, or swimming in the pool, or preparing for a drama...and not being cooped up in the sun-less comp lab doing pw. (and typing this)
am i mumbling and grumbling? *grInz* nopez. i'm just amusing myself as i type this out. haven't touched powerpoint for a relatively long time...effects now are quite advanced:) better looking too:D
'You are cordially invited to Perfect 10 98.7fm & COCA-COLA Party-In-The-Park on 14-Nov Fri, 7.30pm @Fort Canning Green. See U!' ----- party in the park sounds like this concert that darren hayes was in last time...hahaha:)
chinese today wasn't very nice either...teacher just went on and on and on and on and on... ah well.

i don't feel like sleeeeepppping. hahaha:) quite into holiday mood...which is bad. 'cos there's chinese this friday! *gasp* yeah well. doing pw in the meantime too. i feel as if i know more about the Catholic Church or feminism with the Pill more than i know anything about biology, maths, chemistry or economics. oh dear.
currently on friendster...didn't want to open an account 'cos i was afraid i'll get addicted to it. ah well. nvm. i got a bit too tired of seeing the same invitation with different names appearing in my inbox day by day.
nothing much to update about. 'cept that chinese lessons are not particularly very fun, lectures are okay... (though the attendence was 'wonderful') and that i miss PE:)

hmmm:) had chinese lessons today... saw yuanling early in the morning at the bus-stop...didn't even know she lives near me:D she's in tj now... derek's band junior. hahaha:)
went to amk main house with steph after chinese...interestingly, no one was in the house:) jason had to take a cab down to open the door for us. hahhaa:) yup! me, huichun and steph cooked spaghetti! sauce of mushroom with herbs taste yummy:D then we watched 'matilda':) then ziwei came, we all talked...and then... she revealed that she has clay aiken in her discman!:D aaaaahhhh!:D:D:D
anyway. had unit pm at 3pm:) caught up a bit with the brothers' lives:) Jason shared something quite ...(how to say..) solemn, touching on the fundamentals:) hmm.
anyway. something i saw online:)
"Love spreads the gospel with ease.We spread the gospel by living it.
If communities were actually living the Gospel we would be living in
peace and harmony and goodwill,filled with grace and mercy."
well:)

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ah. well:)
last tutorials of the year...mr chan's still going to be out civics tutor...but i do wonder about mr ho and mr lim...are they following us up too?:) mr lim's very nice...he offered to help us during the hols for repaper:) mr toh really went to buy us chocolates...hahaha:) so funny:D he said next time if we see him on the street, don't call him Mr Toh...call him leslie or pee lee (??) 'cos he doesn't want the people to know he's a teacher. hmmmm:)
had shepherding today:) it's always good to talk to junting:) thankful for my shepherd:)
still missing clover:) like this morning when i woke up and want to go pat clover's head, then i realised she's not there anymore...and after i come back home i'll always go and announce my presence to her, i can't do that anymore either. mum asked me if i want to buy another one...i told her not yet. ('cos i threw away the cage, the water bottle, the wheel... gotta buy new ones:). well.

lotsa changes coming up...
school's decided to start the house system next yr 'cos there's going to be the odd combinations in 2006. what with 3 H2s and 1 H1 being the minimum... whole messy business which i dun quite grasp...ah well:) we get to choose the house names since we're the first batch to have this change!:D some teacher suggested Gem, ruby... mrs chan suggested superman, batman... and thong kheng was talking in class about what would guys feel being in a house called Aphrodite (goddess of love?)... dominique suggested gucci, prada (hahha!) lynette suggested our OG names (special meaning) and i was thinking about the colours of the rainbow:)
another change came about just now...my dear hamster clover died at 10pm. dun think i'll quite forget the last few moments spent with her. buried her just now... ah well:(
heart's lighter now though. was singing songs to God just now...He truly is my pillar of strength when i am weak.

-who makes the sun light up my shadows
when the darkness tries to follow me-
*grInz* today was a day of drifting about:) (phrase suggested by Mr Lim) went through the lectures, tutorials... pace set by teachers are rather slow these days:) our class seems to be quite hyper during mr toh's class though. hahaha:) told him that since our class is the first official class he took, and since he's not teaching us next year, then maybe he can take us out to eat:D sort of as a last gathering. suggestion placed forwards included marche's (lynnette suggested it!):D i told him we can all go and eat, then pretend to lose the card, then we'll only need to pay $100:D *hehehe*
-who makes the air that brings me life
so i can breathe the love that's given to me-
feels this urge to apply to SMU for uni courses next time instead of our dear traditional NUS... 'cos the representative from SMU was so upbeat about life and in describing the college and what-nots about everyone will get a chance to go on an exchange programme and that sometimes, we have to love what we do:) cliched stuff but in comparison with what the other people said, it seemed more interesting:) i want to do bio!
-who makes the waters of my sorrow part
and leads the gladness into my heart-
cca's gradually starting once more:) discussing the details of hai cheng tomorrow:) can just imagine the amount of work we need to do for next year:D doing a production all by ourselves :D the work of 20+ people:D can we make it?:D yup!
-who makes the river runs that wash away
and cleans my soul to make a new start-
anyway, f.y.i, the song that has been running through this post is called 'You' by Jaci Valasquez:) quite a nice song:) liked it a lot when i was in sec4:) saw it again recently, like it even more now:D
-You make everything good, everything wonderful
You grace my days and heaven fills my view
let's forever sing
You make everything pure, everything beautiful
You make me see the only thing that's true
it's You-

oooh... i haven't updated for ... 4 days:)
ah wellz.
dun seem to have much fate with teachers and marks these days...there's been a severe mis-communication between me and the chinese teacher. 'cos my chinese marks were wrongly stated and i told mr chan, then mr chan told the chinese teacher. then the chinese teacher came to find me in the morning and proceeded to reprimand me for not checking the marks properly and what-nots. the funny thing is that i don't remember checking the marks at all:)
then during break she saw me near the toilet, then she started to ask in a very irritated voice where my answer scripts are and then she said that she has asked someone to tell me to pass it to her quickly (i didn't receive that message either)...then she accused me of skipping lessons and what-nots and didn't believe me when i said i attended every lesson after the promos ( i mean like, why should i skip? it's my best sub:P)
ah well. i admit i didn't really behave in an biblical manner (heh). hating to be accused (this is one of my two hates:( ), i retorted back that i didn't skip lessons and what-nots and that all the classmates can vouch for me and that i really didn't get a chance to check my marks. think i got a little emotional:P (really really dislike people accusing me of something i didn't do). trying to sing 'there is joy in the Lord' in my heart didn't seem to lower my emotions. (but it did cause me to remember to soften my tone)
was sitting in the general office waiting for someone (:D) when i just took out the book with all the teachings and happened to turn to the teaching on humility. then kinda recalled that proverbs 12:16 stated that 'A fool shows his annoyance at once, but a prudent man overlooks an insult'. felt like a fool then. kinda shows some hidden aspects of my character i've gotta edit. ah well:D better to see it now than later:)
anyway, after checking with juncheng and peilee, it turns out they checked the results immediately after getting back the bio results. and on that day, after the bio results, me, steph and lydia went to talk to mr basil chan...and when we went for chinese lessons, everyone had finished and were already nicely seated. that's why we didn't get to check our results:) serious case of miscommunication. so coincidental too.

we saw Mr Hannis(nyjc econs lecturer:D) today! hahaha:)
'cos VJ had a friendly soccer match against RJ today, then OVA (we guess that it stands for Old Victorians Association) had a friendly soccer match against ORA (Old Rafflesians Association) too:D and apparently Mr Hannis was from RJ. hahha:) we called him and he saw us and waved to us.
OVA against ORA was quite amusing 'cos there're actually more people walking about than running...then Mr Tan was at the side commenting that they can't run anymore and what-nots. quite amusing:D Mr Seet played too! he's like...the most enthusiastic player already, but the ball doesn't seem to have much affinity with him:D hehe.

This certifies that I, xinying, Have Become Cooler Than I was Before

You too can Become Cooler at flooble

-still i would wanna be
someone who'd answer to me
someone, who sees like a child, gives like a saint, feels like an angel
nevermind the broken wings and
speaks like a picture, cries like the rain, shines like the star
as long as the fire remains-
those lyrics came from the song 'someone' by stephanie sun:)
hahaha:D feeling very happy. had some peace and quiet just now...whole house to myself! family's at some wedding dinner somewhere:) i'd much rather have the whole house to myself than the wedding dinner. extremely rare chance. haha:)
the night seems to be still young. i shall attempt vectors tutorial 2 without any notes. have a nice day:D

ah!:) had an inspiring testimony shared by Mr Lim today:D *grInz*
he had 236 for PSLE...then came into VJ...then got only 3 Os and a pass for his midyears...then he thought to himself 'hmm. not very good.' so he studied EXTRA HARD and then at the end of the year, he got A,A,B,B. took the S papers for maths and chem, following yr prelims, his S papers got a merit and a fail...*grInz*...BUT, at A levels, he got 4As and 2 distinctions. hahaha:)
now...if he, all of us can too!:D so, shall work EXTRA HARD from now on:) yup. oh forgot to mention. He was a basketball player, got the Colours award, learnt guitar too, had a girlfriend during then and is a christian too:D
rather amazing how his grades jumped SO MUCh. gracious. whole class was terribly amazed and kinda in awe. hahaha:) 'cos he doesn't look like that type of person:)
i guess one never knows what one can do with God's strength behind him:D

thank God i managed to scrape past. been praying and praying to just get promoted (can't really hope for too much looking at the stupid papers). really really really thankful:)
though for this exam, everything's that supposed to go wrong went alright, while everything that's supposed to be alright went terribly wrong. (with the exception of maths, gp and chinese:) i thought i've only attempted like a third of my case study for econs, in the end, i passed my case study. i thought i can do okaily for my econs essays, and in the end, they disappointed me greatly. haha:) quite amusing. and to think that i didn't much study for econs and studied like nuts for bio...and in the end, i got 9 marks higher for econs than my bio. not fun. not fun at all.
teachers were very nice today. especially mr ho. hahaha:) he was like...exceptionally nice. said that he saw people in some other classes crying, then commented that he just saw a guy crying nearby or something. then he said he was quite surprised 'cos it's a guy and all that. then he said that could be due to gp or something ('cos gp compre was very horrid this time and in some other classes, a lot of pple didn't pass ... they got less than 45 marks) then he said that in comparison with the other alphabet classes, he's quite okay with our marks (:P) he shared that there are students who got A in midyrs and got an O this time...then he said that there was a student who got 60++ for his midyrs but got 30+ for promos..and he told him straight in the face that the guy deserved it 'cos he had been sleeping in class. haha:) and he told our class at least no one in this class deserved him to say that to. at least that's something nice. he also asked if anyone of us is emotionally unstable. which was...relatively amusing:D
and mr chan was very sweet today too. promised to help me search for one more mark for econs (the impt of 1 mark!) and he talked a bit to us too:)
i think i'm just going to keep praying and praying now for u, steph:) if my prayer was answered, yours will be too!:)

can't remember how to sing the first part of this song...can someone help?

"Love song for a saviour" - jars of clay
In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You"

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

It seems too easy to call you "Savior",
Not close enough to call you "God"
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

"I want to fall in love with You"

"my heart beats for You"

-let's talk about *cough cough* baby, let's talk about you and me, let's talk about all the good things and the bad things there may be-
let's talk about today, baby!:D
hahaha. okay. nvm. going a bit mad:) just finished reading one of agatha christie's mysteries... (yesyes i know it's primary sch material...but it's nice!!!) quite a nice twist at the back:) book is called 'why didn't they ask Evans?' ah well.
anyway. anyway. anyway.
some of the north sisters were wearing their secondary school uniform today:D hahaha. quite amusing. surprisingly, they still can fit in and still looks like they do fit into the uniform:D as if they're still sec 4 students. ah wellz:D
carrie's birthday today:) wanted to tell her thankz for bringing me to service. but never really got the chance to 'cos me, jits, huichun and christina (hmmmz:D) have got to leave to wash cups. mini cute lil' cups containing simple-looking drinkable liquid saturated with intense meaning. missed the birthday celebrations though:D was nice that all of us got together to celebrate her birthday:) *beamz*

yup. anyway. vj open house was yesterday!:D rocks!:D hahaha. theme of the year is Larc En Ciel...which means colours of the rainbow:) went to school early in the morning to practice taekwondo 'cos i didn't practice with them on friday afternoon and vanessa asked me to take her place 'cos she's gotta do ushering:) luckily we practiced...'cos i forgot the last few steps of the white-yellow stance. hahaha:) then rushed down to help chinese society with that booth, commented that it looks extremely chinese, bought kacang puteh from the Biz Club (they cheated my money. there was a buy 1 get 1 free deal in the goodie bag), then rushed back up.
actually was rushing about during the whole open house:) but it was fun:D did mass dance for two times throughout the day (for the first one, we thought that taekwondo demonstration was going to start already, so we didn't join in) mass dance rocks!:D it's like victorians will all gather together at the link bridge, then u have the whole group of us dancing in unison and cheering whilst everyone else looks at you. and surprisingly, mass dance steps that i can remember came fast and furious to me...and those that i can't, i just follow quite easily too:) wish we can do that everyday. hahhaa:D
let me go further back in time and talk about friday's farewell assembly:) it was quite interesting...we had the dance club performing a dance to the chicago music while a bat was flying above their heads (haha!), two pple singing their own composed songs (complete with music. hmm. think country rock style:D) and some other stuff i can't remember. then we had an ice cream eating competition where mr li shocked all of us by scooping with his hand and finishing 500ml in ... 22 seconds! hehe:) then school went nuts and asked us to sing auld lang syne (???) and you can really feel the school spirit when we all turned to the crest and sang the school song (last time for the J2s)....then after all that came... (what else but...)...mass dance!:D hahaa:) couldn't do couple dance 'cos lydia didn't know the dance and i had no partner:P anyway, saw alywin and kenneth doing the dance together. and they were mashing potatoes like nobody's business. looks so......... (hahhaa:) mad classmates. (yeah. for pple who don't know what mashed potatoes is... ehz. ask a vj person next time. not me though.)
ohohoh! i nearly forgot the very nice clips they showed. school made this wonderful presentation about the '03 graduating batch. hahaa:) said that they're the SARS generation. one of the S represents sexy, suave and something i can't remember either, A for 'ass-tounding', R for 'rebellious (very) and the other S i can't recall. and they had this clip that goes to the music of 'always look on the bright side of life' where they filmed teachers with their heads nodding to the music, and pretending to whistle. very amusing!:D

i feel like just going off to bed, snuggle my head into the pillow, hug the bolster and just sleep, not bothering to do anything else:D *grInz*
very sleepy:( too many sleep bugs trying to bother me. hahaha:)
went down to mj open house yesterday to help a bit:) think God knew that i don't really like going anywhere unfamiliar on my own...so He sent Jacqueline to me:D quite interesting. 'cos i went to the bus stop, then she came to the same bus-stop as me. then it happens that we're taking the same bus, then to the same place, same destination!:D took 31 to tanah merah 'cos she says it's less crowded there...then to pasir ris:) got to know her more too:D
oh dear. i need to go sleep. shall update next time:D ehhehehe:)

free ice cream tomorrow! whoooosh!:D anyway. going to watch pi1 li4 huo3, so no time to update for now:D something iso sent.

Even though I clutch my blanket and growl when the alarm rings.
Thank you, Lord, that I can hear. There are many who are deaf.

Even though I keep my eyes closed against the morning light as
long as possible.
Thank you, Lord, that I can see. Many are blind.

Even though I huddle in my bed and put off rising.
Thank you,Lord, that I have the strength to rise. There are many who are bedridden.

Even though the first hour of my day is hectic, when socks arelost,
toast is burned and tempers are short, my children are so loud.
Thank you, Lord, for my family. There are many who are lonely.

Even though our breakfast table never looks like the pictures in
magazines and the menu is at times unbalanced.
Thank you, Lord, for the food we have. There are many who are hungry.

Even though the routine of my job often is monotonous.
Thank you, Lord, for the opportunity to work. There are many who have no job.

Even though I grumble and bemoan my fate from day to day and wish my circumstances were not so modest.
Thank you, Lord, for life.

hohumm:D
watched 'so close' again this morning. there're definitely certain subtle elements in it. but nevertheless, it's a wonderful show:D got 'Lavender' from steph, shall watch it when i'm free:) the second disc of 'state of divinity' can't be read. so odd. (never touched the first few discs 'cos i watched from episode 10+ onwards) all chinese shows. haha:)
anyway, went to corinne's house to make earrings today:) made 7 pairs! we should really start selling earrings. maybe that can earn some money for the cbf too:) my blue 'dragonfly' earring dropped off though.so now only the yellow one is left. so disappointing...to think that's my only pair of different coloured earrings:P
very happy today:) 'cos i walked to corinne's house...then saw new places and a different route to get to the same destination. saw where cedar is too:) took one hour to walk from toa payoh to her house though:) walked past this church called the Calvary baptist church or something...then the song 'O mighty cross' popped into my mind:) actually, i kinda sang songs most of the way there...'cos got quite a long stretch to potong pasir is quite deserted. no human beings in sight. hahaha:)
i wish i have more times like this...exploring around:D *grInz* ah well. for now i can only make do with knowing how to walk to corinne's house, potong pasir and junction 8. well well.

A boy was sitting on a park bench with one hand resting on an open Bible. He was loudly exclaiming his praise to God. "Hallelujah! Hallelujah! God is great!" he yelled without worrying whether anyone heard him or not.
Shortly after, along came a man who had recently completed some studies at a local university. Feeling himself very enlightened in the ways of truth and very eager to show this enlightenment, he asked the boy about the source of his joy.
"Hey" asked the boy in return with a bright laugh, "Don't you have any idea what God is able to do? I just read that God opened up the waves of the Red Sea and led the whole nation of Israel right through the middle."
The enlightened man laughed lightly, sat down next to the boy and began to try to open his eyes to the "realities" of the miracles of the Bible. "That can all be very easily explained. Modern scholarship has shown that the Red Sea in that area was only 10-inches deep at that time. It was no problem for the Israelites to wade across."
The boy was stumped. His eyes wandered from the man back to the Bible laying open in his lap. The man, content that he had enlightened a poor, naive young person to the finer points of scientific insight, turned to go. Scarcely had he taken two steps when the boy began to rejoice and praise louder than before. The man turned to ask the reason for this resumed jubilation.
"Wow!" exclaimed the boy happily, "God is greater than I thought! Not only did He lead the whole nation of Israel through the Red Sea, He topped it off by drowning the whole Egyptian army in 10 inches of water!"

hmm. just realised that pple have been signing in my guestbook and i didn't know it:D hehee. htmlgear seems to have stopped sending me notices about pple signing my guestbook. ah well:) so odd. shall hafta check it up:D
went shopping today! with lydia, stephie, corinne and ruxuan:) only lydia was on time:( hahaa:) and while we were waiting for others, we helped a japanese guy and commented on the bunch of vj pple gathering nearby, with her telling me about how her church pple are at sentosa and that she's b-o-r-e-d:) oh. and her tale of how to kill corinne;) i didn't do much. i merely tried to teach her the cow song:D
yepz. then corinne came. walked around. went to kfc to eat, walked around somemore. looked at jewellary, clothes. (what else is there to look at?) even went to watson's 'cos we're waiting for steph and rux to arrive:) then lydia decided to not wait for them anyway and we went off to the second level:) corinne saw this shirt in projectBLOODbros that she thought rux will like... think that shop's quite ex. can find perfect substitutes in other places. hahaha:) looked around in warehouse, walked into topmen, then up to topshop, and steph and rux still haven't arrived:D (that is to emphasize how late they were. hahaha. kiddin'!) anyway, surprisingly, steph was earlier than rux:D rux joined us later:)
went to taka levi's later, saw nothing much in there...then we discussed our 'plans' for the day:) decided to go to far east, then back to wisma (i wanted to check out the price of this cross i saw at Le Coral (?) and corinne wanted to buy her tops.), then to taka (steph wanted to buy present for fren), then to heeren (someone needed to do something. can't remember), then to plaza singapura 'cos there're new shops there.
in the end, we couldn't go to plaza sing at all. hahaha:) not enough time:D feet were dying too.
spent quite a lot of time in far east looking at almost every possibly shop with clothing, or accessories, or goodness knows what. got this recommendation from steph:) this shop consists of one-of-a-kind items...and it's really one-of-a-kind 'cos u won't find a second one anywhere. so whatever u buy, it'll be the only one in the whole wide world:D hehehe:) shop is called Mazzario. go find it:) most items are handmade:) yepz:)
anyway, highlight of the day came when lydia and corinne decided to buy the turkish ice cream. super amusing:D anyone who goes to far-east should go and try to find it:D *grInz* chewy icecream!
second highlight came when we saw liling at taka!:D (while eating dinner) hahaha:) and third was neoprints!:D oh dear. i'm shortening everything. really too long:D but had a wonderful and delightful time with them today:D yepz:D

i've got 'chun ni' stuck on my mind now:)all jit's fault. hahaha:)
water bap today was cancelled 'cos of the rain...yup. might as well:) 'cos pple will be more free next time:) so maybe u all can go!:D
had shepherding in the morning at centrepoint macs...felt like it was night instead. hahaha:) 'cos all the shops were still not open and whole place was like ...dark...
had the last word for like class today:) think word for life class was quite interesting:D really built up my foundation and imprinted the truths in me. makes me more aware of all the false doctrines around and why they are false. lots more stuff as well:)
service today was about trusting God in tight spots!:D how applicable. ah wellz:) about finances as well. how apt:D
since water bap was cancelled, me, jits, xinyi and huiling went to Times to read:) actually went with the intention of looking for a baptize name for shuyi...but well. the comics were just too tempting:D read this book called 'the wish list' by Eoin Colfer (okayokay..children's book. but wellz). quite interesting:) kinda reminded me that every action, every word, every unspoken thought that i have will be judged by God in the end:)
going shopping with steph, corinne and lydia tomorrow:) think after tomorrow i won't be going out anymore:) yup:)

ah.
i miss watching hongkong serials:D recalling the times of 'my date with a vampire I and II', 'duo2 qiang1 shi1 jie3' and whatever nonsense with all sorts of pple including but not only chilam(!), hacken lee(!), joyce tang(!), marcus something (!)...hahaha:D and many many many many many more:D they dun seem to show much hongkong serials these days...mostly taiwan shows:) except for the channel u sat 7pm show with hacken lee(!!!):D and ehz. i can't remember the female's name:)
hahaha:)
think i shall go watch 'state of divinity' again. stupid movies:D ah. i forgot anita yuen:) actually, have i ever finished watching 'state of divinity'? hmm.

hmm:) now that i have a lot of time on my hands, i'm looking for more stuff to do:) i want to help where i can!:D
feels so much happier:) at least i'm moving in momentum with time once again:D hahahaa:)
shall wear my hat tomorrow:) i miss my hat:)

lalala!:)
been wondering who this sharon person who smsed me is...then realised that it's the p6 girl from mac fsc:) ah well:)

yah anyway. shall not comment on maths today:P
dear sisters and brothers (if there're any reading this), please pray for me k? pray for the teachers to be SUPER lenient and for me to be able to get promoted:) (hehe. chances of that are very low)
pray that i'll find joy no matter what, and that my source of strength will forever be from Him, so that even if there're bad results shooting me in the face, i'll still be able to stand, for His strength is infinite:)
thank you dear brothers and sisters:)
everybody else, jits and guan-y are both going for water baptism this sunday!:D at around 4 pm at east coast:D if your exams are over, or you really miss us, or you just wanna have an excuse to go to the beach, do join us!:D 'cos this event is quite special to the both of them and they want to share this memorable and joyful occasion with all of you (friends!:D). yup:) if you wanna come (come come!:D), sms me or jits or call guan:)
*grInz*

oh gracious.
rachel has the same birthday as qingz!:D hahaha:)
yep! went for praise and worship night!:D very nice!:)
pastor lawrence was there with his saxophone! hahaha:) added interesting atmosphere to some of the praise and worship songs:)
and there were like...6 pple leading us:) hahaha:)
very nice songs too!:D hahaa:)
we had praise, then worship, then praise again:) 1st praise was good:) but it was the worship that really set my heart in peace and brought out this spirit of joy in me:) had this bubbling cauldron of happiness inside me that was overflowing during second praise:) wonderful! ministered me a lot too:)
and when it ended, we were like 'awwwww' hahaha:) felt like only 30 mins when it had been..ehz. 1 and a half hours+:) heh:)
one day in the house of God is better than 1000 days in the world:) *beamz*

anyway. today's chemistry was horrendous. more horrendous than midyears. felt quite defeated 'cos it seemed like nothing much that i studied actually came out.
ah well. learnt that there are going to be re-papers afterall:) and the teachers are already preparing for them... guess they know that we won't do well. hahhaa:)
but i'll still trust in God's providence and His plan. and maybe through these exams, He's helping me to get rid of my weaknesses and see those blotches i still have in my faith. and i know that even if He doesn't deliver me through the exams, it's part of His plan for me, perhaps to strengthen me, perhaps to correct me.
And that's why when i saw the song 'Heart of Worship', the lyrics just spoke to me a lot. How can i not thank Him for everything He has done for me, the love He has shown me, the aspects in my life He has changed? He let me see how blind i was before, how ignorant i was, how proud i was to think that He didn't exist, how spirtually dead i was to harden my heart against anything anyone spoke to me about, how complacent i was to think that i don't need any God or whatsoever in my life?
some people say that they don't feel God in their lives, they don't see anything happening in their lives even when they pray, that kinda stuff.
But they don't ask themselves, if they haven't even accepted Christ into their lives, if they haven't even bothered to accept Him, if they're spiritually still dead (and not realizing it), how can they hear from Him? God is trying to speak to them, He wants to talk to them, to be a friend, a lover, yet when He speaks, people don't listen.
It's not as if there will be an explosive event whereby people will 'ooooof' all of a sudden hear God's voice talking to them or something. He doesn't force people to accept Him, yet He's greatly saddened everyday when people are still sinning and sinning and unaware that they are sinning. It's a step on our part, an acceptance of a gift from heaven greater than anything else on earth.
Just like a friendship, if i want to be friends with you, yet you don't want to be friends with me, how can i talk to you and help you? And if we've never been friends, then when you ask me to help you with personal things, what can i do?
indeed, the verse matthew 17:12 on joy's blog is quite true too
'What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?'
ask yourself this question today, do you constantly fill empty? feels like loving someone, yet the person you fall in love with doesn't seem to reciprocate your feelings?
Proverbs 19:22 says 'What a man desires is unfailing love; better to be poor than a liar'. indeed, this unfailing love can only be provided by God Himself. Are you deceiving yourself today? Are you being sceptical? Do you deliberately not want to listen?
I used to be like that too. I would like think to myself 'hah. how do i know if you're telling the truth?' then i'll humour those people who share Christ to me and say 'orh okay. orh okay' or i'll be pissed off (pardon me using these words, but yah. to describe how i felt) when my own classmates had praise and worship sessions in class itself.
Or perhaps you're thinking, how do i know that this God is the right God? well, i didn't either. i just decided to try it out. (and to stop people from bothering me *grInz*)...but ever since, He's shown Himself in many circumstances. and listening to the multiple testimonies around, how can you not believe?
Are you afraid of the truth showing Himself to you?:)

daniel bedingfield just said 'i want a girl who really loves God passionately'
haven't really listened to the radio properly for a long time:) hahaha:) he just repeated that statement. ah wellz:)
quite a funny guy:) oh gracious. he just spoke in chinese. ah. and nice voice too:)
interesting 10 minutes with daniel bedingfield:)
was reading through the milestones Hope of God made as well:) quite cool!:D to think the church actually started out with five people. i feel so inspired now:D hahaha:)

channel u news showed scenes of OBS today!:D reminded me of the things we did.. whole watching jumping rope...building a raft...the trust we have to put in each other...the very low morale after not being able to find the tree we're supposed to find and choo reprimanding us (first and only task we didn't complete...) the night trail on hill 31 (all the talk about wild boars and goodness knows what:)...the time when we sat in a semicircle in the dark talking at noordin beach...ahhhh! then when choo told us that we were one of the closest watch she's ever seen (hehe. we got something special for that:) for just five days we were together (different pple from different classes and ccas in school) and at the end of it all, we felt as if we've been best friends all our lives...ah. i forgot to mention..the 11pm milo that choo pao4 for us...
and qingz was in my buddy watch! though i can't really remember what the name is:) haha...just know it's two words...
anyway, sheares rock! OBS rocks. everyone should go and try it:) ah. if u're in residential, you get wonderful food:D they try to fatten everyone up there.
anyway, had chinese paper today:) compo was okay... paper 2 was a bit harder than normal...but okay too (i hope:)
asked mr lim about how to draw the diagram in thermochemistry today...i was like 'ehz...i don't know anything 'cos i haven't really studied thermochem'...and i had to keep apologizing 'cos he'll ask like 'from gaseous atoms to blah blah...what formation is this?' then i'll be like 'eh...i dunno... sorry!' anyway. now i know:) quite fun to draw once u know..hahaha:D
i really want to thank God for sending Mr Lim, Mr Chan, Mr Ho and Miss Lui to be my teachers, for all my brothers and sisters who kept encouraging me, for my hamster, for His constant presence with me even when i sometimes don't realise it, for His gently correction about my heart's attitude towards some stuff, for my dear friends who are around, here and there, popping up at unexpected times to cheer me up:)
i think i've been rather boggled down by exams the past few days...not anymore though:) it's now viewed as something i need to clear and to try not to disappoint any more people. hahaha:)
happened to flip to psalms 145 yesterday night...comforted me alot:)

ah. arenes are awesome:) hahaha:) find benzene and methylbenzene quite fun. ah wellz:) i still dunno how to draw the energy diagram though...maybe i should go and ask mr lim. hmm.

my econs' dead. horrible case study (to me anyway) + i didn't really concentrate on econs. hmmm.
nvm:) shall depend on chem and maths instead. now how to do that is a very good qn...
i do dislike promos. ah wellz. ah wellz. my life was nice and happy and peaceful before stupid promos decided to upset it.
anyway, after the decidedly horrendous econs exam that i've went through (oh yah! forgot to mention that mr chan was very nice. he came to me before the paper, waved his hand in front of my face and asked, how?...then i told him. cannot cannot cannot. then he say, cannot ah? anyway, back to the main point:), the four of us - me, steph, corinne and lydia decided to go and eat:D i mean, we had the intention of eating...but then it continued on to become window shopping:D *grInz* 'cos lydia's looking for shoes. so, we looked around:) steph, corinne and i shared to buy earrings from topshop... ehz...super big. hahaa:) steph got the pink pair, corinne got the blue pair, and i got the multicoloured one:) those kinda hoop earrings. diameter's the length of three of your fingers placed together. oh. forgot to mention. we were at suntec:)
went to citylink too 'cos corinne wanted to change her sim card:) ah. had a nice time today:) kinda forgot that we're in the middle of exams:P
i need to pia for my chem and maths! it's a needdDdd! i neeeeeeddDdd a pass on my chem!!!:P

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