suitable for cafe music :)

okay. i think hearing hysterical laughter is scarier than seeing people in anger or in tears.
first time i see the symptoms of shock/trauma played out in a person. weakness in limbs and tears, followed by talking, then sudden hysterical laughter, memory loss and confusion in person.

sigh. going to Japan with my mum and sis means I can't travel alone >:(
somehow or another, for other countries, i would want people to travel with me.. but for Japan, I prefer to be alone, or perhaps it'd be different if i'm with people who understand Japanese as well? or who appreciates and loves Japan culture as well?
lol

today i gained a greater insight into female SSA.
through my counselling sessions with one of my clients, i realized that the basis of male SSA is really quite different from female SSA.
Came into a slight block in my sessions previously cos my understanding of SSA came mainly from the female side. Had to do more research and listen to him more before I could continue my work. Terminating the session soon, but I think it was a whole learning experience for myself, even as it was for him.
we came to the same conclusion though. and it was rather rewarding for me to hear him voice out that conclusion and conviction himself. it was something he came to himself.
there will come a day when that conclusion will be tested again, but till then, i believe it's a chapter in his life that will close nicely.

i hate to view caning.

i wish they'd have more songs just showing off their singing. haha

pretty stage setup!

still didn't have the time to watch my natsume yuujincho. haha. have been reading 1Q84 :) it's getting slightly bizarre.
i wish i have it in my iphone so that i can read it everywhere i go!
i've finished all the sherlock holmes books after downloading the app! :D
haha.
they should electronize every single book in 3D format so that i can read it everywhere i go.

i think that after my parents pass away, i might want to buy a condo and make it a hospitable place where people (e.g. brothers and sister from overseas who come to singapore) can come and stay :) or to make it a place where ppl can come for lg.
or make it a private healing place for people who just need to be away somewhere to have some peace and quiet and heal.

~this song in my heart
this song in my soul
this soul i was born to sing
it's Your song of free
now i'm free to dance again

i'd sing in the darkness
i'd laugh in the rain
rejoice in Your love again
it's Your song of freedom
now i'm free to dance again~

there's great beauty in this world, even as the world is marred by sin.
there's beauty in joy, and in sorrow. beauty in both young and old.
i remember telling my secondary school before that everybody is beautiful in their own way :)
saw a beautiful sight in the afternoon - that of a beautifully stretched rainbow across the sky =)

:) brought back memories. hahaa.
i miss the dance studio where we learned dance :D and the drama lessons. and even Mr Kang(?)'s philosophy for children lessons with Flowers for Algernon. haha.
am surprised to realize that i can still remember the school song!
hahaa.
i guess nanyang did provide us with a conducive environment to learn and to grow up in :) it wasn't perfect, but it was nurturing.
don't think any of us really sat by the pond though. hahaa. there were mosquitoes there!
hahaa. i remember us playing soccer in the corridorway, and playing basketball during every recess. i remember the times spent with friends before the morning assemblies.. i remember doing lighting in the concert hall and the school hall for 2 yrs.. i remember going up the catwalk and really liking it up there cos i can see the stage from above..
hahaa.
i find it interesting to note that both in secondary school and jc, my school motto emphasized on diligence. hahaa. but i never did catch it till now that i'm working. think i was really lazy in the past! hahahaha

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I would like to affirm a second time that one needs less sleep when one is spiritually well fed. hahaa :)
i thank God for the privilege to hear the stories of people's lives. stories which encourage me and remind me that I'm not alone, stories that testify of God's goodness (which I believe in), stories that affirm one's knowledge of Jesus.
feeling grateful :) that at each season of my life God has always sent people to be with me.

"yet You are always with me, You hold me by my right hand"

hopeful :)

Quoted from TWLOHA:

"We hope that today is a good day, a day spent with family and friends and a day to pause with thanks. We know for some it’s not, or it’s simply not that simple.

To everyone heavy with the weight of things missing or fractured today,

It doesn’t mean you’re ungrateful or unthankful.

It only means you’re human.

And you’re not alone in that.

We lose things in this life. We all do.

Things are taken. Things break and leave and we are kept from what we love. We are kept from peace.

If today finds you more aware of what you’ve lost than what you have, this is for you, a note to say you’re not alone. A lot of people feel what you feel today.

Perhaps today finds you with the same faces as one year ago today. And when they ask how you are or if anything is new, perhaps you wish you had some different answers. Answers that sound like change or pride or progress. Maybe you wanted this year to be about change but not a lot has changed. Or maybe changes came but they were not the ones you hoped for.

It’s okay. Where you are and what you feel and what you wish was different. It’s okay.

You’re still here and this day will pass and tomorrow has never happened before. The same is even true for the rest of today. Things can still be new. There is room for healing and surprise and even room for change.

This life is not a race. It’s not a contest or a competition. It’s a patient broken story breaking more and healing more with all our different days, rich with winning as well as losing. The beauty is that we get to go together.

We’re meant to win and lose together. We’re meant to know some people on this journey, to walk it together, to mourn and cry one day, to laugh and dance the next. We get to carry each other and we get to remind each other all that’s true, of everything not lost. We get to remind each other that we absolutely positively can't give up, can't settle. We get to say that these terrible wonderful journeys are priceless and we must keep going. Not because we have to but because our stories our bigger than ourselves and because we just might be surprised."

look at dedicated counselling rooms!

i'm a fangirl!

Hmm.
I don't know if it's just me, but when I saw the first reply written by a brother to this sister (whose status is being shown), I felt that it was rather inappropriate. like.. if i'm the sister, and i'm feeling awful, and the brother says that to me, i'd be thinking -_-. unless the brother has been someone who's been rather caring. cos i feel that this kinda reminder is important, but it has to be at the appropriate time as well. like maybe after finding out what happened and identifying, THEN put in this reminder. so that in the midst of care, there's a reminder of God's truth as well.
maybe it's just me ba.
but when i saw the status and the reply, i couldn't help but to want to show tt it's okay not to feel good at that moment at tt time.
i mean, we never know, but the sister could already be managing her emotions at the time she wrote this status, but just wanted to be identified with? :)

"We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home."

one of the main gripes i have about being a counsellor is that people have the expectation of me to always be ready to listen, and always be ready to counsel. and that i shall have a gentle unassuming, all encompassing, love-giving demeanor at all the times of my life.
and if i shall not be so, they impose their impressions on how i am as a person on my competency as a counsellor.
-_-

i'm here to remind everyone that counsellors also:
1) bleed when cut
2) has times when they feel angry, depressed, exhilerated
3) are human beings with fatigue

but in a counselling session, out of the professionalism to you as a client (should u go into a counselling session):
they suspend all their needs and emotional reactions at that moment so as to focus on your needs and emotional reactions. and only when in appropriate juncture, should they see that it is helpful for your growth and recovery, do they let this out.
while, at thesame time, letting their own personality shine through as well.

was suddenly reminded of a line from the movie 'We bought a zoo'

their happy was too loud

I was just reflecting on how ironic it is that I was just mentioning that I was in a bit of a hilltop period of time, when things started to come in again. haha.
Not that I'm in any sort of valley at this moment. In fact, I feel quite well spiritually and emotionally, despite the many crashes of heavy whatever-it-is-called crashing down on me.
i thank God for 2 changes which I observe.. the fact that I'm out of my depressive state of mind, as well as the fact that God has grown my heart to be more resilient through the years.
That's not to say that my life is not still defined by the word 'pain'. but other vocabulary has been added on to it. words like 'love', 'Presence', 'resilience'.

episode 32 is very sad. lol.
i was gonna comment on the cheesiness of adding a certain scene to the show, when the whole scene just turned the whole situation around. it's super sad :(

A Thousand kisses episode 32:

Forgiveness is love too

amen to that.

and the world keeps spinning on.
and in the face of a dear friend, i could only encourage and assure. and encourage and assure. and encourage and assure. and continue to assure.
and encourage and assure.

and it'd be okay at the end of the day.

heard about Z and S :) happy for them too!

what an absolutely busy, but boring week.
so busy i was that i find myself hardly able to do anything else other than wash up, check email, watch 15 mins of A thousand Kisses (the whole show's 1 hr) and sleep. haha. there're days when anything beyond facebook and email is a luxury.
and yet it was rather boring cos there was nothing creative to be done this week, other than using my new resources. the routine of school life is already getting to me in the 2nd week of the restarting of work.
oh actually, something interesting did happen, i went for drama auditions and tried out Box and Sticks. but it felt like a super long time ago.
well. i guess my sense of time is still kinda warped.

it would cost me around SGD$1k for the air tickets if I were to travel to Bangkok, and from there travel down Osaka.

Okay!
That's it!
I'm saving money to for June Holidays! :D
Have just downloaded an app on my iphone to track my spendings. Am shocked that I spend around $5 just for the food in school per day! D:
And surprised to find out that I actually have more money to spend per day than the amount I originally thought I have.

and time is getting late.
And I've yet to finish my tracking.
Should I travel alone for Japan again? :D

I wanna go to Universal Studios Osaka! :D

We're singing 3 songs I really like this Saturday! :D looking forward to it! :D

still like this song cos of the story behind it.
am always in awe of people with fierce dedication and commitment.

finds that she gets impatient when people speak too slowly.

first saw this on facebook. so funny!

"If you have an opportunity for an afternoon nap, particularly after a poor night of sleep, take one; you will feel more alert and energetic afterwards. Following a mid-afternoon nap, performance may temporarily deteriorate due to grogginess. However, once sleep inertia dissipates (usually 5-20 minutes), mood, energy, and subjective alertness improve beyond baseline; in sleep-deprived individuals, objective alertness and performance also improve. In non-sleep deprived individuals, improvements in performance have also been documented when measured 1.5 to 12 hours after a nap, particularly when naps are scheduled in preparation for all-night work shift. Naps should be limited to 45 minutes and avoided after 4:00 p.m.;otherwise, one may enter deep sleep, which may cause grogginess for a period of time after the nap and reduce the pressure for sleep that night."

heh. that's what i'm experiencing at this moment. Was particularly sleepy this morning cos I slept late last night, but I took a nap during lunchtime (sacrificed my eating time) and now i'm feeling super alert and quite refreshed. hahaa.

the bad thing is, i've not rehearsed for my auditions later. T_T

new song from their Japan repackage album!

The fan event on the second night :) where everyone held up signs saying that 'SNSD makes our lives complete'

last part when Taeyeon ran to the other side was one of the 2 times when i saw her up close!

I like it that my RO stated firmly what the school can do or cannot do so as to protect the students in the school, even in the face of a screaming ultra agitated mother.

Can't concentrate on the 2nd day of school. hahaa. was sleepy in the morning.
am awake now, but that's 'cos i was struck with the desire to travel again. hahaa.
excitement drives me i think.
interest brings along a great deal of energy from me and a great desire to get things done well.
maybe i should really start saving up for an extended trip to somewhere to do some things. hahaa.
maybe i should consider investing in a portable airon and putting it in my room. hahahaa. it's so warm!

Second day of school reopening and already I'm feeling stoned D:

heard about J and J :)
glad for them! :)

my belief in inclusion is violated once again.

"we still have a long road in front of us. if you're already crying now, what will become of us?"

the start of episode 22 has me sighing deeply. what a narrow minded mum who thinks that status in life is all that makes a person -_-

some goosebumpy cheesy lines from the drama which i kinda like. hahaha. lighthearted moment for the heavy going drama ba.

woo bin and joo young handcuffed together

woo bin: i caught the guilty one
joo young: who? me?
woo bin: ya
joo young: why am i guilty?
woo bin: you stole my heart.

sounds like something i'd have written when i was primary 6. hahahaa

Ahhhh. Watching A Thousand Kisses is driving me nuts cos it seems like everything will be rosy, and yet there're so much dark undercurrents D: and your emotions ebbs with the flow of the plot D:
i remember when i watched Stairway to Heaven, i cried my eyes out for the first episode. and then again for the second episode. and after crying my eyes out in the third episode, i stopped watching kdrama altogether. lol.
haven't cried in watching A Thousand Kisses, but it makes me feel frustrated and makes me wanna throw something at someone in the screen X:

episode 11 has me gawking with mouth wide open at his courage. and rashness. lol

watching A Thousand Kisses now.
seriously can't comprehend how a wife can forgive the husband for cheating on her. can hardly scratch the surface of understanding how the Hope sister did it. bewildering.

~my Beloved is mine and i am His,
His banner over me is love~

Heard the burmese version of it when I was in Myanmar :) I guess part of the reason as to why I miss the STM was also cos of the team I went with. It's really important to go with a good team. lol. The team I went with was not the best, we still had conflicts and what nots, but I think all in all, we really complemented one another quite well.
Delia mentioned that one of the strengths in the group was that we were quite a humorous group. I agree with it! haha. I guess i enjoyed the time as the humour was something I could appreciate. hahaa. Li Ping will make funny comments on things, Joshua will have his schizophrenic sang moments in which he'd suddenly spout out something ridiculously funny, Guo Feng is permanently amusing with his expressions and his actions (though he claims he's not), Sze Hui (who's usually quiet) will also come up with weird comments that cause the group to burst into laughter. haha. Calean is not funny funny per se, but she's a presence whom I'm comfortable be, and her honesty makes me comfortable as well (like I don't have to keep sensing how the person is). hahaa. Claramae and Serene are already people whom I'm close to :)
I think it helps that I'm not the only Sang in the group. hahaa. we have a good mix of all personality types, and that really helps. I feel like I could rest. hahahaa. It was a time of working hard and laughing hard. and though the first 2 nights were really tough for me personally cos had to resolve conflicts with my two closer people, the third night was good cos we really trashed things out and it really felt great after that.
i also learned a lot more about myself through the trip. haha. like my own triggers, and my own reactions towards certain things cos of how I'm made up. I felt that I could use my strengths, and that my strengths are appreciated. I could use my gift of teaching to teach and bless people. Delia also observed and said something about me which I really appreciated cos sometimes she put into words what I really do. Claramae observed the same in me and affirmed me in that through the letter she wrote to me and I think for a while in a long time, i felt like how I felt when I was much younger, that people are noticing and taking care of me as well :)
And my love tank was nicely filled up through the days when time was spent with the people, and I had a fellow language of love sister - Calean! hahaa. I enjoyed listening to Sze Hui and Li Ping and Serene and learning new things about them which I've never known before. I enjoyed that I could share my interests and sing songs spontaneously (which I really miss since uni times).
I guess I appreciated that people were honest and desire to help one another to grow. I enjoyed the sharing of testimonies and the desire in people to want to hear about God. I enjoyed being in the company of people who loved God fervently and expressed that love out. I enjoyed that I don't always have to be the one to suggest things. haha.

seems like it's getting normal that in the STMs i go to, there'd be
1) discomfort
2) temptations

:)

my mel side is acting up :)

anyway, commitment is not as scary as it sounds. sometimes we waste so much time thinking if we should commit, rather than just commit and work on it, that we could possibly have learned much if we've just committed earlier.
lol.

like my japanese lessons. were concerned at the start if i can commit to it (and along the way as well, cos twice a week is still rather intensive). but we just continued on, and now we've come to the end of our basic lessons and going into intermediate! :D wooohooo~
imagine how it'd have been if i've spent 3 months thinking about whether to commit to japanese lessons instead of just going on to try -_-

of course, there're things which are not so important which you can consider longer to commit to. like my USS fun pass :P

unconsciously, i get irritated when people say they're afraid of commitment.
like. who's not afraid of commitment? of course we're all not so comfortable with commitment.
cos it means definite sacrifice. it means u gotta work hard at something you've made a promise to. and you've gotta work hard at it for a long period of time.
but how can you grow in something unless you commit to it?
my unconscious qn that arises will always be: if it's something you'd definitely have to commit to, then are you helping yourself to overcome this fear? (instead of one who keeps talking abt it.)

Upon searching for my long time ago CLC notes, i found
1) my chinese bible
2) a photo of me and Carrie
3) the first letter given to me by Junting (which was on an xray of a her knee!)
4) the notes on lateral leadership
5) important concise notes on the basics of SOW, follow up and discipleship
6) my notes on the analysis of films module
7) my notes on Stage Lighting design (and a cue sheet on lighting!)
8) all my previous camp notes! hahaa

Today I woke up being bitten by ants who crawled onto my bed.
but I was rather joyful :)
Spent some time talking to my mum, and spent some time playing with my cat. Finding the kitten outside my house was a highlight! It's great to just be able to play with a kitten, to feed it and to give it a pillow to sleep on. heh. (though when i came back, it was gone. hahaha.)
and had lunch with michelle and yufen :) enjoyed the time though we didn't talk about much things other than chit chat and catchup. i guess i miss talking to Michelle :)
and met Guofeng, Calean and Joshua up to buy stuff for the STM trip. haha. introduced Catsocrates to them. nice to have someone appreciate what you introduced :)
It was good to be punctual for my counselling session. haha. i went to the wrong room and sat inside for 15 mins before realizing that i was in the wrong room D:
turns out that i don't feel very drained meeting both my counsellees in a row... hmmm. and it kinda showed me that i do enjoy one on one counselling afterall. haha. ironic cos i was just sharing that maybe i should change jobs. hahaha. it's the admin work la. if there's no admin work i'd be happier i guess :)
bought my first pendant with real diamonds today too (not for myself :P) met an auntie in the shop who asked for my opinion on her pendant, of which i honestly gave an opinion and she took it! hahaa. so interesting :) i suspect that a large sum of my salary goes into buying things for others, my travels and my japanese lessons. lol. oh. and food. hahahaha.
ah well :)
ended off the day with dinner at Marche's (:X) at 10pm. and sat beside 2 Japanese ladies who were speaking in Kansai ben! was trying to decipher what they were talking about. hahahaaaa. did some reflections as well and now i'm gonna prepare to spend time with God :) yay

i'm amazed at brain connections. one thing can trigger off the firing of a thousand thoughts.

Was one of the people standing in front of Taeyeon at the start! hahaa. okay. enough reminiscing. hahaa. one of the best times of the concert when i was in front and all the girls were just in front of me

i think one thing i really miss about the SNSD day is being surrounded by fans who have the same passion, being able to speak the same language, being excited about the same thing, and being able to sing the songs, with the lyrics, with the rest of the people together, without people being tired of it.
i guess for the first time, i really felt the withdrawal symptoms of not being able to share a passion with someone to the same degree. recalling back on some conversations i had long time ago, and suddenly understanding what the person meant.
and i really miss my first lg in YG. lol.

congrats to Ellson and Florence! :)

was so tired after the concert (11 hrs of sitting and waiting and 3 and a half hours of pure standing) that i had to take a nap to have the energy to take a bath. hahaha

listening to me always cracks me up. HAAHHAA

the fanchants are madddd. too many to memorize.
chikgumun snsd
aporodo snsd
yowaoni snsd
snsd saranghaeyo

Was faced with a temptation of an old nature during the Japan trip. lol.
had to sit myself down one night and seriously pray about it. am still wondering why the temptation came when i've not faced it for a long time, and also when i was well in my relations with people.
rather intriguing.
guess i put my guard down =) haha.
after praying, my guard was up through the whole day the next day. it was a battle of the natures. the sinful nature vs the holy nature of the Holy Spirit. hahaaa.
i guess it's a warning for myself to always be vigilant in this area ba. haha.

educating myself in the ways of jewellery. looking to buy a nice chain and pendant for my mum (cos she lost her chain)... so was getting brochures from the stores. it seems that the 'perfect' diamond cut is 57/58 cos of the refraction of light.. there are also cuts for 81 (?) and 107 -unique cuts which are super expensive. lol.
am also looking through the swaroski collection. haha

Songs which I hope they'd do:

1) Trick (from new album) - i like this song better than their 'The Boys'. lol.
2) The Boys - English Version (from new album) i suspect they'd start the concert with this song. haha.
3) Into the new world (from first album)
4) Oh! (from their Oh! album) - i really like this song even though it's cutsey. hoho. i wish they'd come out with a japanese version of this song.
5) Day by Day (from Oh! album) - i really like the MV of this song. hahaa. nothing beats a simple video of their facial expressions.
6) Gee (from Oh! album) - I like the Japanese version, though I think they'd do the Korean version. haha.
7) Genie (from Oh! album) - I wish they'd do the Japanese version too. LOL.
8) Run Devil Run (from Japanese album)
9) I'm in love with the hero (from Japanese album)
10) Hoot

I suspect they'd do the following:
1) Let it rain (from Japanese album) - fits with Singapore's weather? LOL
2) Lady Marmalade (Taeyeon and Tiffany duet)
3) some solo song by Jessica D:
4) Hinmae

preparing to memorize SNSD songs for the concert on Friday :)
preparing to do notes for training up the core people in M for leading the people :)
preparing presents!

feeling a sort of reluctance towards work. a disinterest in work.

love the low notes. haha. and the sudden high note. haha

forever drawn to beauty in people.
and beauty itself.

i like this song!

Reposting this from Huan Yan's blog. Ming Siew (the lady missionary from OM who hosted us through the trip shared this with us on the last day):

Fellowship of the Unashamed
I am a part of the fellowship of the Unashamed. I have the Holy Spirit Power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions, mundane talking, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded. I now live by presence, learn by faith, love by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.

My pace is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my Guide is reliable, my mission is clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back, diluted, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.

I won't give up, back up, let up, or shut up until I've preached up, prayed up, paid up, stored up, and stayed up for the cause of Christ. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I must go until He returns, give until I drop, preach until all know, and work until He comes.

during my Japan trip, i was stuck with a cho, a pseudo sang and a mel-cho (?). hahaa. and my natural tendency was to gravitate to the phleg people from Emmaus >_< being surrounded by people, i found myself sinking more and more into the mel side, trying to find a corner to be by myself, to reflect through things, but was unable to do so.
hahaha.
but all in all, was quite comfortable with the general mix of the people there (14 of us in all:D) hahaa. i guess the emmaus people does remind me of my LG as well? hahaa. oh my LG, i missed you all!
i missed my shepherd as well! and my close friends. wahhaa. throughout the trip i was thinking of Rachel, Venetia, Justin, Jiali, Florence...
i really liked some of the people i met though :) like Shiyun (hahaa. she's my entertainer through the trip), JD (he always makes me laugh during the times we work), Yi Xin (my sleeping partner!).. i guess I like people whom i can play with. hahahaa.

Careers for the NF "Idealists" (INFP, ENFP, INFJ, ENFJ)

The Idealists are quite different from the Rational NTs discussed above, and will generally prefer different types of careers. While the NTs gravitate towards the sciences, most NFs do not find such objective and dry topics to their interest. According to Keirsey, the Idealists are on a search for their "true self" and want to make the world a better place to live by helping others. Integrity matters.

NF types with ADD often get by in school and might even do well, depending on their particular circumstances, but they are highly sensitive to criticism and classroom setting. NFs are particularly prone to imaginative daydreaming, even the ones who are not ADD.

According to Keirsey, "Novelists, dramatists, television writers, playwrights, journalists, poets, and biographers are almost exclusively NFs." These are the writers who wish to "inspire and persuade." Note: Most of the personal ADD websites are undoubtedly written by NFs. This is somewhat interesting because Intuitive ADDers often have reading and writing problems, even those who consider themselves to be compulsive readers and writers! I've had several NF ADDers comment that they took ADD medication so they could read better or write with less editing. But it is not so much the "writing" per se as the release of ideas which most attracts the NF. And ADDers are definitely full of ideas.

Idealists are also drawn to teaching, where they are highly over represented. In the teaching field, they often end up arguing with the more common SJ types about how things should be run, arguing on behalf of students or alternative teaching styles. Other fields which NFs are often attracted to are psychiatry, ministry, and acting.

Like the NTs, the NFs are easily bored and often restless, even those who are not ADD. NFs may plan for job or career changes from time to time in order to keep things interesting and challenging.

More detail from "Please Understand Me":
ENFJs "make superior therapists, charismatic teachers, excellent executives, and personalized salespersons." To be avoided: accounting. "Almost any people-to-people occupation where personal, sustained contact is involved" will be best for the ENFJ. However, they "experience some degree of restlessness whatever their jobs."
"INFJs make outstanding individual therapists" and "often select liberal arts as a college major and opt for occupations which involve interacting with people on a one-to-one basis."
"ENFPs have a remarkable latitude in career choices and succeed in many fields."
INFP "career choices may be toward the ministry, missionary work, college teaching, psychiatry, architecture, psychology -- and away from business."

The ADD NF: The specific job setting is likely to make the difference for an NF who is ADD. Most importantly, try and find a particular job within your field which has a minimum amount of paperwork or be sure there is reliable support staff. A career of successfully helping people should keep an NF interested in their work, and an interested ADDer is a focused (or hyperfocused) ADDer.

finds it interesting that everybody asked me about the happenings of the phone, but nobody asked how i am.

the song for Melissa's walk in at the church wedding.
very very nice! :)

yesterday i met a fellow sang-mel (but she's a sang mel cho) and she was super fun to play with!:D hahahaa.
didn't have a dull moment with her at all (though i was super sleepy). hahaa. i enjoyed the time :) (even though the atmosphere was sombre cos of the context it was in)

first knew about this song from Serene who sang it during KTV. haha

i was just thinking that at the age of 25, i don't think i've matured enough to be a woman who can 进得了厨房，如得了厅堂。so i wanna build myself up in this area :) hahaa. to be self disciplined in different aspects (haphazardly changing things and praying for changes in different areas, such that i grow each day).
while recovering from my diarrhoea, i also got reminded of how we're always expecting things to happen quickly, like at the snap of fingers. but our body, or the world itself, doesn't operate in such a quick manner. we need days for the body to recover. we need days for the world to change. we need days for ourselves to change. and we need days for the effects of things to take place :)
but as long as i am consistent in the change, the small bit of changes build up over time and accumulate into something great :)

nice rendition! :)

between baby boys and baby girls, baby girls are definitely cuter! hahaha

学校の男の人たくさんも結婚しています。ときどき、神様に感謝します。わたしのタイプから、誘惑するものがあります。Hahahaha!

it's the season for farewells.
the farewell of a colleague whom i'm more comfortable with, and will be sad to see leave.
the farewell of fellow counsellors who were in the same batch as me.
the preparation of a farewell of something very close which will happen 6 months later.
ah.

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was sleeping yesterday night when chi woke me up with whimpering sounds. she'd stop whenever i stroke her forehead, but start again when i stop. i wonder what kind of dream she was having O_O

bought Habibi :) and finished it in 2 hrs! lol
it's a little too exotic and explicit for my liking. haha
i prefer Blankets in terms of story plot, but the drawings in Habibi are simply astounding.

LOL. SNSD tickets sold out within 10 minutes of special Samsung mobile pre-sales. this is madness O_o all 5500 tickets are sold.
i was in conference when i received smses from junyao informing me of the updates. wahh. lots of black market sales going on now. hahaaaaaaaa

on a totally random note, i think why i like SNSD is cos as a girl group, they're quite funny. hahahaa. their appearances on variety shows crack me up everytime (e.g. hello baby, Taeyeon and Syeohyun on We Got Married, the whole group on Win Win, Champagne and the likes).

it's actually quite irritating how there's a delay in the sinking in of 'reactive emotions' towards events. like for this, it's a 9 months delay.
it's as if my body went into strict denial for 9 months, and in a time when it's finally safe (or rather, now that there's time to deal with them) to acknowledge the emotions, the denial lapses and everything floods in.
and i'm left wondering why i'm angry and disappointed with the person after a 9 months lapse.

ADHD:

hyperactivity -
one example:
You may get bored easily. Boredom begins to set in about 15 minutes after you begin a project, or a few months after you begin a new job. You find TV boring, the computer is better, a little more interactive, but still becomes boring. You have an intense need to make everything in life a little more interesting. You food contains more spices, your desk contains toys, your life is filled with gadgets that looked great at the store but you lost interest when you got home.
another example (i used to get scolded for this a lot. haha. like all the way from when i was very young i was scolded for this. then ppl kept giving me strategies (e.g. junting asked me to write down my thoughts first)
You may interrupt others or answer a question before the other person is finished. Entering in a conversation in the middle of someone else’s sentence can be embarrassing and lead to others thinking that you are rude and inconsiderate.
Example #3:
You may become restless after a few minutes of inactivity. Time to sit down to a relaxing evening with your partner and 15 minutes later you are ready to go and do something, or you begin to fade in and out of the conversation, planning what else you can do. You spend your day at work walking around and talking, getting coffee, making phone calls or anything else you can do to relieve the restlessness from sitting at a desk.

Emotional Turmoil:
You may become easily angered. Do you find your temper rising over the smallest incident? Does your family and friends wonder why you can get angry so quickly? At the same time, are you able to release your anger quickly, left wondering what all the fuss is about?
--> used to say that my emotions come very fast, but they disappear very fast too. ah well

things that scare me in the night:
1) my mum using her handphone to look for things in the living room. from my view, it's only a light floating around O_o she spooked me in the same way for 2 nights in a row!
2) calls from my other ftsc/counsellees at 12+am >_<

nice voice! :)

needing a second opinion, i asked a fellow sister.
and realized that i'm not the only one with those opinions.
and realized that my reaction was quite normal.
and realized that my perception had been right.

there're a few things that tick me off very strongly.
1) injustice
2) exclusivity without reason (e.g. not supposed to be exclusive, but became exclusive).
3) unfounded rejection

personally offensive to me and makes me go 'what the heck'.
discouraging as well.
all negative words.
haha

i'm quite excited! i'm starting on a new project! :D even in the midst of preparations for the STMs. hahaa.
yayyyy.

energized by discussion on how to better help and bless a dear sister :)

~people you've been before
that you don't want around anymore
and you push and you shove
they won't bend to your will
i'd keep them still~

the scars of broken covenants and broken promises ache on rainy days.

I found a new remedy to cramps! :D:D
sitting cross-legged helps to relieve my bad cramps! (why am i declaring this on my blog?)
but it really helps! hahahaa.
:D i can concentrate so much better now.

everyone's been talking about the 2 year old toddler.
reminds me of the time when i witnessed a dog being hit by a car, and nobody (other than this kind man after asking a few people) wanted to help me to carry its body to the side of the road so it won't get run over by any other cars.
reminds me of the times when i myself felt too tired to get a student down to talk to her even after hearing that she's been cutting herself.
issit really something that's only happening now? or is it more a matter of apathy rearing its ugly head in the media.
how many people will get shaken by this and then subsequently go on not to continue in their apathy towards the various things in society today?

From 'The Gift of Therapy' by Yalom:
"Those who are cradlers of secrets are granted a clarifying lens through which to view the world - a view with less distortion, denial, and illusion, a view of the way things really are."

having bad cramps :(
and i'm feeling lightheaded even though i'm sitting down.
i hope this doesn't happen next month!

hee.
this is koped from SNSD's newest MV (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6pA_Tou-DPI&feature=feedu) :D
i love Taeyeon's look (the one i captured.. not her clothes. haha)
and the second person is Tiffany :)

i was quite affected by this unexpected case yesterday in school.
it was a lot of misdirected anger and frustration and mistrust. i guess it would have been therapeutic for the student, but at the end of the session, i felt super drained.
and it lasted till this morning. woke up feeling unmotivated to go to work. like no desire or passion to go to work at all.
shifting my glance towards God helped though :)
and having my dad drive me to school helped too :)

o_o
attending 2 wedding dinners on consecutive nights in November.
and thinking about whether I should go for the Japan relief missions :\