it's actually quite irritating how there's a delay in the sinking in of 'reactive emotions' towards events. like for this, it's a 9 months delay.
it's as if my body went into strict denial for 9 months, and in a time when it's finally safe (or rather, now that there's time to deal with them) to acknowledge the emotions, the denial lapses and everything floods in.
and i'm left wondering why i'm angry and disappointed with the person after a 9 months lapse.