Today was the first day of work =) hahaa.
Thank God for my other counsellor =) she was very nice!
met some of my potential clients today. lol.
quite cheeky. got some names, but can't match them to faces now. ah well.
there's a piano in the school! just outside the rtc room.. tempting to sit there and play. lol

Hee.
Celebrated Lynn's and Mong's birthdays today=) Feeling a little broke at this moment. hahaa. Was walking around Central when I realized there're lots of nice shops with nice clothing there. hahaaa. but yea... a little broke at this moment so will just budget all the way till next month's salary comes in. hahahaa.
They've still not called me for my wii set! hahahaa.
Was good to catch up with them =) Though I was feeling quite sleepy. hahaa. carryover effects from yesterday =) Lynn was quite sweet.. she bought stuff for us. hahaa. Said it's start-of-work gifts. hahaha
I like pleasant surprises =) hahaa. Unexpected pleasant surprises make me smile and are registered strongly in my mind. Be it an unexpected pleasant time with people, or an unexpected sms of encouragement, or an unexpected gesture of friendship. It's so much more interesting to receive these, than to receive presents or stuff on your birthday. hahaa.

Just came back not long ago from ess programming meet =) hahahaa.
we were supposed to start at 5.30pm (which i guess we did if u calculate halahala and eating time =)
and the discussion went on (amidst moving to different places and moving around) till around 4am. hahahaa. My gosh.
At around 2+ I was stoning away.. hahaa. and drawing on everywhere and doing everything but thinking about the plot ideas. thank God for the rest who drove the discussion along. It's kinda like I know I need to think, and I am not very tired, so actually I could still think, but my brain just refuses to be active and decides to be lazy. hahahaa. faints.
Oh.
And thank God I don't have staff meeting afterall later! hahahaa.
'Cos my other counsellor told me that it's more for the planning of teachers.. and since I'm there to just actually be introduced to the rest of the people =) hee. But my other counsellor is not feeling well, so she's not going tmr. hahahaa. ah well.
looking forward to this year's ESS! =D think we havve great ideas! :P
lol.

Yay. I eventually went to eat the KFC Am meal. hahaa. KFC's new list of breakfast meals =)
been wanting to do so for some time, but didn't have the discipline to wake up early. hahaha.
I got the Am meal. %5.80 for what you see in the following picture, as well as tea/coffee (i got tea:D).

It's very filling! hahaha. I ate till what you see remains in the next photo, and was quite full after that :\

Felt quite fruitful this morning. lol. read half a chapter of the textbook while eating breakfast, and finished up some of the very backdated work i was supposed to do :\
Around 10.25am, I decided to pop by the eng wah movie theatre and see if there's anything to watch ('cos i've got the eng wah movie card). lol. I think usually I'm not even awake at 10.25am. Ended up buying the ticket for Land of the lost 'cos it's the next nearest movie (11am) which I've not watched before. lol. Then i went for arcade before going into the movie theatre.
Land of the Lost is such a thrashy piece of movie. Quite disappointing, considering that I was quite impressed with Will Ferrell's acting in 'Stranger than Fiction'. ah. Got times when I laughed... or grinned.. but it's just plain stupid. Got one good point though. lol. It brought me to the land of the lost.. lost me somewhere at the start.
it's not for the kids 'cos there's a LOT of sexual innuendo (not even innuendo. will ferrell putting his hands down his pants is definitely not innuendo-ey), and not for the adults (an insult to intelligence).
Ghosts of girlfriends past is better. lol.
anyway.
waking up at 7.40am makes the day exceedingly long. hahaha.
i like!

wow the sky changed. lol.
or rather, the clouds creeped up on it.
sorry for the grills. lazy to move to the window and take out of the grills. haha. so just took frm my seat.

Waking up early to adjust my bio clock back to waking up at 6.30am. lol.
At 4.30am, I was thinking about why my body refuses to fall asleep. lol. It drifted in and out of consciousness once again.

You have never changed
Your love is endless and Your mercy has remained
through all the ages You shine
so bright
nothing can compare
You made the heavens and Your glory fills the air
through all the ages
You write the ancient skies

So instead of waking up at 6.20am (that was the alarm time I set), I eventually woke up at 7.40am (awakened by my mum shouting for my sister to wake up -.-). lol.
Felt really groggy just now... Stoned for a little. hahaa. The first thing I did was to come online 'cos I figured that i've better do something (anything) to make sure I continue to be awake and not pop back to sleep (not at least for two or three hours). hahahaa. Forcing my bio clock into a new timeframe! =)
Feeding Chi and looking at the sky helped =)
Beautiful sky today. hahaha. Just one plain solid colour.
Blue.

Was listening to 'Ancient skies' by Michael Gungor, when it switched seamlessly to 'Rescue' by the same artiste. hahaha. From his different albums. Interesting!
And the sun was contained in a dallop of bright gold on one of the hdb flats, before it spread and caressed the rest of the flats with its gentle warmth.

-i am not my own
i'm Yours alone
i am not my own-

Suddenly realized that I have tons of things to read/want to read. hahaa. I want to finish reading up my textbooks (counselling wise), and I want to read the book on crafting short screenplays that connect.. of course, I'd want to finish reading up on the counselling system in school, and I'd actually want to re-read my notes from the modules in NIE. but no time =)
heee.
Or rather, there's time, but there's a lot of things to be done too =) And a lot of things to think about =)
I think one thing I really miss about student life, is the luxury of time to just think and think and think and think and think. hahaha =D
I realize that I write better scripts when I'm alone in a dark room and having a lot of time.

-give a little time for the child within you
don't be afraid to be young and free-
hahaha
this song has been stuck in my mind for some time and it remains as one of the songs i like to listen to, again and again. for now that is =)

Went to CG overdrive at expo with huiying on friday morning =) hahaaa. We were relatively impressed when they made us a name tag for entrance into the exhibition. hahaa. As huiying puts it, it's as if technology exceeded us when we didn't notice it. LOL.
--> our tag. done within a few seconds of printing. hahaa.
But I guess that was like one of the few things that impressed us.
Think we went very early.. so it's kinda dark. And the starting gallery was kinda hard to see due to the lack of lighting. Quite sad. And when you go in, it's kinda empty. So a little disappointing =) Me and huiying were like ..ehh... what do we do ah? Go where ah? hahahaa. ah well. so we walked around.
think our first interaction with the booths was when we reached the Academy of Art University booth, when we were greeted quite enthusiastically by two quite pretty ladies who asked us what area we were interested in. hahaha. Or rather, they asked me. LOL.
I was like 'eh........ I'm just looking around.' and they were like 'oh! but you must be interested in something, or else you won't be here'. haha. which in a way, is true.. but i was interested in the shortlisted animated clips rather than course in the school. lol. so i told them animation (of which i loved to see, and have a slight interest in learning.. or rather, i have the interest in drawing. ah well.) lol.
but it was quite interesting =) 'cos they shared that you don't need to have a bachelor's in a related area to actually take up a masters in say, 2D animation. which i thought was pretty interesting :) like if you suddenly realized that you love doing game design or something, you actually switch and learn from the start, and come out with a masters in that area. hmm. the world's getting pretty flexible =D
and then huiying asked about further studies. hahaa. so after that, we cld kinda ask more things at other booths =) at the end of the day, we got quite a load of info and some interesting stuff from the booths. hahaa.
huiying bought 6 ebooks! LOL

In the end, we didn't catch the shortlisted animated films 'cos they didn't show it :P We located the tv that was supposed to show the films, but it just didn't play.
disappointinggggggggg.
but it was a great time knowing more about this area, and getting to know this sister more as well :D

Hee. Didn't have a good night's sleep 'cos of my perpectual headache through the day that lasted into the night. Woke up at 5.30am eventually after a few drifts between dreams and consciousness and took paracetamol. Had a better sleep with less drifts after that. lol.
My field supervisor called me! hahahaa.
She sounds like a nice middle aged lady. hahaha. Except that I was super blur when she called. hahaa. Think she's an early morning person? :\
Off to expo! shucks. I'm late.

I like clarity. I like it when things are nicely cleared, laid open in the open. hahaa.
I don't like ambiguity =\ Ambiguities in relationships especially bother me quite a lot =S I like it when people say explicitly - 'i want to be your friend'. hahahaha. or 'let's be going-out buddies'
it makes me very happy. hahahaha.
Ambiguities makes me want to CLARIFY. like ask 'eh. are we considered to be acquaintances, friends, close friends? or?'
ah well.
lol.
sorry. bad habit to want to give a label to things.

I realized a few things today while walking back home from the interchange...
I realized that shop and save is opened 24 hrs! so is the kopitiam at toa payoh =D
i realized that I missed walking around alone.
I realized that there are people who play with cats in the void deck in the middle of the night. haha.
I realized that there's a 24hr Indian Muslim and Thai Muslim eating place near my house.
Yup =)

I often think that the night is more alive and more richly colored than the day. ~Vincent Van Gogh

Recently, I got reminded about the consecration and envisioning once again.
Consecrating myself to the purposes of God and to His promises and His standards. In terms of the different aspects and areas of my life. To repent of different thoughts and attitudes or even certain emotions which I've allowed to settle in (which are not helpful to me).
Envisioning came to me in the area of service. Think sometimes I tend to tone down a lot of things, for e.g. in the areas of sharing, or serving. Hmm. I'm not exactly sure why I do that. Haha. Maybe not wanting to seem overbearing (?). That's not to say that I'm super zai or something, but I'm definitely not living up to my potential at this moment.
Probably also 'cos I'd yet to make a resolution to certain events in my life, and was still making sense of them.
But yea. Envisioning a reality that is greater than who I am at this moment, and act according to it. I may not be the best backup singer at this moment, but that doesn't mean I can't do my best to lead the people in the service to praise and worship God the best that I can. The congregation is not big at this moment, but that doesn't mean it won't grow bigger.
While serving on Saturday, I was just looking at the congregation and thinking, if I can't even help to usher the congregation of this size into the presence of God, how will I then be able to do that for a larger congregation?
If I can't even help to take care of the people in my cg at this moment, as an armour bearer, how can I then take care of my own cg when the time comes?
If I can't even take care of my own life and Chi at this moment, how can I then take care properly of a family if I ever have my own?
It's the principle of being faithful with the small things that we have, the things that we've been entrusted with, and really multiplying them. The ageless reminder that when we're faithful with little, we'll be entrusted with much.
It's not when we're entrusted with the much, then we start to live up to our potential. But rather, that we treat what we have with excellence, do the best we can with God, love God to the extent of how we know it, and 'all these things will be added to you'.
I've very amazed at how God has grown me in the area of being able to harmonize. lol.
I don't think I'm the most faithful backup singer around. I don't deliberately go and learn how to sing, I don't vocal train, I don't really take care of the instrument which I serve God with (i.e. my voice). haha. But harmonizing has always been an area which I am greatly humbled in and this leads me to depend on God.
I remember that the fear of having to harmonize always cause me to have a slight fear of being on stage as a backup singer for God. All the things about scared of losing face, scared of singing wrongly, scared of failing in this area...
I remember that this year, the chances of having to harmonize increased due to obvious reasons (i.e. split service). hahaa. faints. And how I was backup singing on my birthday.. and I really wanted to honour God and love Him by being able to harmonize while singing for Him on stage. So I prayed to God to teach me to harmonize, to help me to harmonize. I searched videos on youtube so that I can memorize the harmony 'cos I didn't know how to. and I listened to a particular video for a few hours for a few days just so I'll remember it. Hee.
And really thank God, 'cos i could harmonize during practice itself. wahhhhhh. Great relief! and great joy! Seeing the fruits of being faithful in this area was amazing.
And subsequently, I could harmonize without having to learn. hahaa. Which was even more amazing 'cos just a year ago, I can't harmonize for nuts =\
So that's a small area of breakthrough for me =)
Just wanted to testify to this =) 'cos I got reminded of the whole process while I was harmonizing for 'You are my strength' during altar call time. And I can't help but to be glad about it =)

Today me and Lingyun went to the Da Vinci exhibition at Science center =D hahaa. Lingyun jio-ed me. hahaa. Otherwise, I'd never have known about the exhibition.
Hello lingyun :D haha. I know you'll be reading this post. hahahaa.
That's the ticket and the programme sheet.
Me and lingyun =)
Our two cool tickets :D
The entrance to the annexe. hee. No photography allowed inside due to the delicate nature of the exhibition :D

Chicks which were just born today! =D We saw them on our way out of the science center.. at the discovery corner.

The exhibition was quite interesting =) it showcased Da Vinci not just as a painter, but as a genius who dabbled in different domains (e.g. mechanical engineering, anatomy, painting, sculpture..). I love his sketches of the anatomy 'cos they're very nice. hahaa. And his handwriting's very nice too. hahaa. And i like his painting, though they're just digital reproductions :D hahaa.
I do, however, still prefer Van Gogh's artworks. hahahaa.

That's the new body wash I bought =) hahaa.
Eyed it the other time while i was choosing my shower foam (I tend to try a new one everytime. hahaha), but in the end decided to go for the cheaper and safer choice - Palmolive. Some berries thing. I'm lazy to go to the bathroom and check. haha.
Yes.
So I bought this one this time =) 'cos it smelt very nice and delicious. hahaa. It really smells like a smoothie =) Actually, it smells like vanilla ice cream =) Creamy smell. It's got hyssop, almond bits and honey. As well as chemicals. But it really feels very good to bathe with it! hahaa. It smells like you're applying vanilla ice cream on yourself (though it's not as runny as vanilla ice cream). It's soap-free, so no soapy feel to it. Just feels smooth and non sticky =D ahhaa.
Makes me want to apply again and again. lol. And skin feels clean and non-dryish, not sticky either. And smells faintly of vanilla ice cream :D
Recommended for people who like their shower washes to smell nice and delicious!:D

Since I'm having regular income per month now, I've decided to do a few things. hahaa.
1) Buy clothes that I need to prepare for the working days ahead.
- I've been buying clothes from sprees, and from shops which say 'sales'. hahaa. Don't think I've purchased a lot (but since I don't usually buy a lot, it feels like a lot). hee. I think i still belong to the 'buy quality, but make sure it's not too expensive' group of people in Singapore. Spending money on clothes make me sim1 tia3. hahahaa.

2) Buy quality food for Chi. HAHA.
- Especially in terms of dry food. Hehe. Think I've not really been buying dry food for Chi (which contains a higher protein percentage=). haha. Don't think I'm a very good pet owner. hahahaa. ah well.

That's the dry food I bought in the end. Quite expensive, considering that it's only 0.9kg. I think I bought it for $20+++. lol. Usually I can get 2.5kg with that amount spent. ah well. Chi's favourite dry food was still Orijen (but I can't find it at pet lovers' centre anymore..)

3) Start a piggy bank. Heh.
Think it's good to save up money, yah? =) hahahaa. $2 a day will yield a $700+ per year. yay. Quite cute right? My pinky bank. hahahaa.

I think I should get used to doing a reflection everyday. hahaa. since it's part of my jobscope in the future to journal down my learnings and reflections, as well as to write down case notes for every case i meet in the future. Which means.. I need to start training to be diligent in journaling, journaling, and journaling =)
(at this point, I got distracted and went off to do other things O.O)
Monday was, as how Jeslyn puts it, a random day. haha. It was a day of relaxation and fun (for me la). i wanted to use today to finish some planning, but didn't get to do that. Guess (I got distracted here again. lol) I'll have to finish it tmr=)