hehe. was on 238 with Christine from north just now.. we never saw each other in our whole entire lives before coming to Hope and we've never realised how close we live within the radius of each other till today. she lives at block 224, i live at block 228:D
hahaha. so farnie:)
had service today:D haven't seen shirley leading p&w for quite some time...haha. they put up a very nice little clip with verses incorporated into it:) quite adorable, but it got its point across:)
so fast. gosh. we're coming to the end of the Acts power for living series...so fast. hahaha. last chapter next week:) so cool. one year plus...gosh. and yeah! we're gonna be doing 'song of songs' soon:D hahaha:D the first ever book that caught my attention:)
heh. studying at starhub after service wasn't particularly effective. was quite sleepy. hehehe. tried rj bio mcq paper. horrendous. got strange terms popping up tt i didn't realise. oh gosh. can u imagine? i've also gotta do nyj's killer paper. hahaha:D
i love the night air. so cooling. smell the night air as it wafts in the window. i love the morning air too...that's why it's always so refreshing to take a nice morning walk. hahaha. and i love the sharpness of the night. clearly defined.

:)
had shepherding in the morn:) heh. quite farnie.
then went to sch and wrote an econs essay!:D quite fun to write an econs essay with the real test of time at your feet. guess having to go to school in the day is turning out to be quite good..'cos you're forced to practice during the day and this increases productivity:D hahha:D
yeah! my voice is officially back:) or have i mentioned it before? hahaa:)
i am in a studying mood. hahaha:) oh guess what?! the school library has narnia! hahaha:)
borrowed the forth and fifth book from the library. yeah:) can read during my breaks:) rest my brain:) my brain likes to auto switch itself off these days when thinking is not really necessarily. then what happens is that i go a bit nutty. hahaha:)

gee. the world is really small:)
i went to fungi's blog, then saw jo's name..then i was like. jo has a blog? then i clicked on it. and realised tt it's the wrong jo. hahaha:D then i saw panghao's name on the blog. like 'huh? how come the whole world knows my pri sch classmate? hahaha!' then from panghao's blog, i saw arya. and arya is trace's other and of course trace is my twinklebells! hahaa.
yeah well.
-now here we go again you say
you want your freedom
well who am i to keep you down
it's only right that you should play the way you feel it
and listen carefully to the sound
to the loneliness of your heartbeat
drives you mad
in the stillness of remembering what you had
and what you lost-
i'm in a song mood! caught three pple's performance on singapore idol... christopher's song was good...but his singing was terrible. say so many times already. he doesn't have the voice to carry the song through. and olinda came on and gosh! i love her performance. hahaha:D superb vocals and the song she chose makes you wanna grooooove. then sylvester. haha. his singing surprised me actually. ok. maybe i shld change my opinion of him. today's rendition was quite good too:)
yeahhhhhh.

mentally tiring day...but quite fun nevertheless. or rather, quite funny when you see a whole row of your classmates sitting behind you. hahaha:D my class is so ke lian!
i'm pleased with myself with trigo. hahaha:D very pleased:D hahaha:D okay. i sound funny being pleased with myself without saying anything. but hahaha. what can i say? i'm just pleased with trigo:D hahaha. gosh. i sound a lil mad. think the cg pple must have been wondering why i kept laughing during cg. ah well:D
and i still insist that zai shen yuan is a good show to watch:) the intricate plot...the easy to understand analogies...the link of relationships and how things link well in a complexed web:)
cat was sleeping in my house. poor cat. nowhere to sleep now that construction is everywhere. speaking of construction...i can't come home next week! hahaha. my house'll be under renovations. major renovations:P gosh. feels so odd. will be in my auntie's house most of the time. (can't go home before 6pm everyday) hahaha:D hope i dun get distracted and keep watching scv at her house. cartoons and armed reaction 4!
nah. dun think so. hahaha. this is a plea for pple to study with me next week. hahaha:D
-God is good, all the time
He puts a song of praise in this heart of mine
God is good, all the time
in the darkest nights, His light will shine
God is good, He's so good,
all the time-
i had a headache today. hahaha. then i prayed:D and the headache poofed and disappeared within a min:D enjoyed the fellowship of the brothers and sister without a headache after that:D hahaha:D thank God!

i can't wait for tmr! hahaa. first of all, there's the activity that mr leeba has promised us in place of morning assembly tmr morning. *grInz* he kept saying that we'll be VERY STRESSED for around 20 mins, but at the end of it all, we'll feel good about ourselves:) like. ehhh...what can it be? anyway, seems like only my class pple are interested enough to raise their hands and want to go, my class will prob be the only class going.
yeah:D and mrs teo bought us cornetto ice cream! hahaha. she's funny. she was like asking how much time she has left, the someone told her 2 mins...and then she said 'can i use the 2 mins to digress?' then the bell rang. hahaha. ah well. then she looked like this child who's very satisfied with herself giving a surprise to everyone (very funny!:D haahaha! mrs teo cracks me up:D) and she said she got ice cream for us. and she said since she gave it to us, we owe her something. haha. and dominique guessed about the A. 'cos the ice cream cone is V-shaped...so it's like we must have victory in the exams! and an inverted A...so it's like we all owe her an A.
hahaha:D yeah! ice cream tmr!
gosh. i was quite surprised at my bio results. thought i was dead for certain 'cos of structured and prac. hahha:D oh my! MCQ really pulled me up. for bio, it's not easy to fail. but it's not easy to get an A either.
anyway, maths was funny too. hahaha. it's like we had a crash course on complex numbers 'cos it seems that most pple didn't study complex numbers. hahaha. the end of the lesson saw many pple going out of class to ask mr ho for a session for complex numbers. hahaha.
finally returned mrs wee the money! hahaha. hard to catch her. she's the hod of pccg...and she helped me pay first. hehee.
yeah:) my programme for the next 3 weeks is super packed. the teachers planned out my studying schedule for me. hahhaa.

hehehe. just talked to sister's friend called yahui. hahaha:D she's a year older than me and was in nyj taking arts... she knows bowen and rara and sining! hahaha:D rara and sining were my basketball seniors...and she knows carrie too! hahaha. through bowen. hmmm. apparently 'cos they were together... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. i didn't know that. haha.
ah well. anyway, she's in nus taking social work now:D hehee. so huichun! if u see a girl called ya3 hui4, can talk to her:D hahaha:D
anyway, studied with joycelyn today. hehe. cancelled it at first, but then..ah well. haha. did trigo for the whole day! gosh. trigo became fun:D hahaa. the back part of the specimen paper wasn't very morale boosting:P i looked at it, i was like:P and stats needs practice..once i haven't touched it much, i forget about it. so sad! and i love stats so much! hahaha:D
yeah well. when i was going home, we saw the bus stop area being cordoned off and 2 trucks of policemen being unloaded and four police cars along the road side and lots of people staring at what's happening. it's quite a scary sight. actually we also dunno wat happened...but heard from someone tt there's a riot. a riot?O_o in singapore? gosh. ehhh. well.
hahha. i reached home safely anyway. hope whatever was happening ceased off. we're all singaporeans what, why fight amongst outselves?:)

oooh. i sound disgruntled in my last post:D a disgruntled janitor in the mob factory has a red aura and usually LACERATES. hahahha. think only a few pple will know what i'm talking abt. or maybe just jits. hahaha.
sec 4 maths is making me vomit out blood. hahahaha:D and the specimen paper boosts up ur morale. and i feel hungry at such an hour. disastrous. and i feel awake. and God is my Jehovah Jireh! hahaha. He provides! gosh. was severely lacking in financial resources and was praying for God to help me. hahaha. 'cos i need to pay for this workshop thing by monday to mrs wee (gosh. it's mrs wee and not mrs lee...been looking for the wrong person) and it's $50+++ (can't remember the exact amount..think it's more like $65) and i'm like dying 'cos i have a total of -ve goodness-knows-how-much for normal expenses ('cos i owed jits money for the cds first). and i kept reminding myself 'what i dun have, i dun need' hahaha. and -God is good, all the time-, my mum gave me money! haha. and pple returned the money they owed me. i still have to cover the rest myself but i've still got enough to *yumyum*.
thank God! i tell u ah. really amazing. hahaha.
i wish i'll stop the haha-ing and the hehe-ing...they've become punctuations in my sentences. ah well.

gee. my sister just passed me 'lime' and even lime agrees with me that JEASSEA SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN IN. and BEVERLY GOT A GOOD VOICE. this is what they say about jeassea:
'if there were ever a poster girl for Singapore Idol, it'd be Jeassea. Armed with the right looks, a strong voice and oodles of charisma, she definitely raises the bar in this competition. Judging from her polished rendition of Aretha Franklin's notoriously difficult 'Chain of Fools', she's also one of the few contestants who's able to nail the more uptempo numbers without missing a beat...'
and about beverly:
'Correct me if i'm wrong but this IS a singing competition, right? How then do you explain a wonderful singer like Beverly getting the boot?...'
and this is what they say about jerry;)
'This accountant-turned-busker-turned-dubious Top 12 Finalist caused a MAJOR UPROAR when he wheedled his way past powerhouses like Nana and Beverly in the last piano show. What's worse, his lacklustre and totally unspectacular version of 'To Love Somebody' was nowhere near the quality of the two ousted divas.'
ah well. i just think it's kinda unfair that good singers like Jeassea and Beverly got out in the first round of the finals. Singapore can't recognise talents when they see them:P
oh. and this is stupid. urban exchange is changing their name to Parking Lot Pimp. with darren hayes' new disastrous song 'Popular' and urban exchange changing to such a stupid name, i wonder how the music scene is going to survive in the future. the second law of thermodynamics is very much in motion here.
oh bother. and lime is getting more and more thrashy. can't stand these stupid magazines. yuck:P

"Even now my witness is in heaven. My advocate is there on high. My friends scorn me, but I pour out my tears to God" (Job 16:19-20, nlt).

A Daily Encounter reader who has been hurt deeply asks, "Do you have any insight into dealing with the strong emotions that arise from being deeply hurt and wounded?

Dear Fred (not his real name), one way you can help "drain the pain" of hurt feelings is to write out your feelings. David did this in several of his Psalms. I think he was a man after God's own heart because of his being open and honest with himself and with God. When you write, write as if you are writing a letter to the one who hurt you. Express all your feelings in all their intensity to this person. Then read the letter to God telling him that this is exactly the way you feel (he knows it anyhow);then tear up the letter and destroy it. Write again and again
doing the same thing until all your hurt and angry feelings are dissipated. But never, never, never send one of these letters to anybody. At a later time, should you feel a need to write or contact the person in question, remember always to write and speak the truth in love;never in anger.
God also gave us tears to help drain the pain of hurt feelings. So give yourself permission to weep with all your heart for until we have learned to weep with all our heart, we are not free to love with all our heart either. Tears, however, are for expressing grief ... not anger. Anger needs to be expressed in writing, verbalized, or both.

Also, everyone needs at least one person he/she can trust implicitly with whom to share his/her feelings. It needs to be an understanding and caring person who listens and accepts us with all our hurt and angry feelings but won't give us advice, preach at us, or tell us what we should or shouldn't do or feel. And, if necessary, have several sessions with a qualified Christian counselor to help you
work through and resolve your feelings.

And of course be sure to tell God exactly how you feel and to lead you to the help you need to resolve your hurt and angry feelings so you can get to a point of genuine
forgiveness. Failing to forgive will only hurt you. It's "like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die."

heh. the cat's at my door sleeping.
dunno wat to do with her. ah well.
i got a mini shock when i went down to the english resource room for gp...hahha. saw like 2/3 of the whole class sitting outside the resource with mr lee talking about cohabitation. then i did something stupid, went up to mr lee and said 'oh! i didn't realise that gp starts early today.':P
then i saw serene and thongkheng on the other side of the space outside the english resource room. hahaha:D then i went to join them. realised tt the 2/3 of my dear adorable class is having 'friends of mr lee' class. hehe. then me and serene and thongkheng, michelle and hui xiang were like at the other side waiting for gp lessons to officially start. mr lee mentioned tt 2/7 couples get divorced... then huixiang went 'if so many pple get divorced, why get married in the first place?' and i was thinking about my cousin and j. hmm.
gp... sat beside pat and mich and was writing in serene's book..hahaha:D she did a very nice autograph book thing, pasted the photos in the book and divided it in sections. like a mini collage of all her memories in vj, together with photos and notes from her friends.
watched the results of singapore idol just now. hmmm. i dun think i agree with what has happened. jeassea and beverly both should have gotten in! gosh. what a waste. i like maia's style of singing 'lady marmalade'..didn't catch yesterday's performance but heard the highlights and all... and it was quite good. olinda got a nice voice for her song as well:) okay. i'm biased. i still think sylvester can't sing. so sad that candice drew out! my sister says there're rumours that she's pregnant. pregnant? how odd.
-and some people want it all,
but i don't want none of it all,
if it ain't you baby,
if i ain't got you baby-
hahaa. zai shen yuan is starting to pick up on channel u:D they showed the sleeping on the arm scene. more to come soon!
off to do my work. ladeeeda.

watching 'pooh's grand adventure'...very sweet! very nice:D hahaha.

i found this beside my bag after my trip to the toilet. hahaha. since no one was left around me and the nearest person in the canteen was... 3 tables away, i decided to take it with me and give due recognition to what is written instead of letting it float around for a long time yet, vulnerable to the weathering that occurs so rapidly in singapore.
it is supposed to be for 04S22...which is quite interesting since all the j1s dun seem to be in school today. anyway, it says to 04S22 (goodness knows how they're going to find it.)
'Dear 04S22, as you grow up, may you not lose that child in you. Live young and die young. Happy Children's Day and all the best for your promos!:)
chanks 1 Oct 2004'
hmm. who's chanks? anyway. i read through what was on the paper and it sounded true so i've decided to type it down:D
here goes:
'Youth is not a time of life; it is a state of mind; it is not a matter of rosy cheeks, red lips and supple knees; it is a matter of the will, a quality of the imagination, a vigor of the emotions; it is the freshness of the deep springs of life.
Youth means a temperamental predominance of courage over timidity of the appetite, for adventure over the love of ease. This often exists in a man of sixty more than a boy of twenty. Nobody grows old merely by a number of years. We grow old by deserting our ideals.
Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. Worry, fear,self-distrust bows the heart and turns the spirit back to dust.
Whether sixty of sixteen, there is in every human being's heart the lure of wonder, the unfailing child-like appetite of what's next, and the joy of the game of living. In the center of your heart and my heart there is a wireless station; so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope, cheer, courage and power from men and from the infinite, so long are you young.
When the aerials are down, and your spirit is covered with snows of cynicism and the ice of pessimism, then you are grown old, even at twenty, but as long as your aerials are up, to catch the waves of optimism, there is hope you may die young at eighty.'
i dunno where everyone is. steph and lydia are not around. zara is nowhere to be seen. i have a sneaking suspicion that everyone else is either scattered around (of which they can't be found. strange), studying away, not in school yet or they've all gone to join the 'friends of mr lee' club due to their gp prelim results. hmmm. and here i am, spending my time typing this out. let me join shasta in the world of Narnia then.

heh. went for chem with steph 'cos lydia wasn't in school. then saw jc drawing some male anime char so steph was like asking him something, then jc said something too (which i seriously can't remember) and somehow or another, i concluded tt jc is ...hmmm. well. thong kheng, u've gotta be careful;)
haha. anyway. i think the guys in my class today are mad:P seriously mad. gone loony over results?:D seems to affect only one gender.
gp was well. i dunno if it's normal or more chaotic than usual. serene and alywin were like pouring water everywhere O_o mr lee was trying to quieten all of us down. he kept going 'shhh. shhh.'and the whole class just basically had their own mini tutorials. and mr lee just kept babbling to a whole class who's half-listening to him.
then went with steph for chem lect as well. was reminiscing about the nyj days. hahahaha. heh. went out with cor and steph to walk around parkway 'cos i didn't really wanna stay in sch alone, yet it's too early to go to joce's house.
they ate ice cream. hahaa. poor lil me can't eat ice cream 'cos she's having a terrible cough. then walked around the place... espirit, mango(there's a very nice pair of purple pants that's $30), billabong (steph hints that she wants the handbag:|), op (cor bought this super short skirt which actually has shorts inside). i was the fashion consultant of the day. haha! mango perfume is super longlasting, after quite a lot of washes and a nice long bath later, it's still there:P
yeah:D then went for cg after tt. hahaha:D joycelyn and weiting were really early. hahaha. yeah:D enjoyable time of fellowship with the brother and sisters:D hahaha. very nice to hear about all the testimonies as well:)
sam is super friendly:P she suddenly msned me and taught me how to write the alphabet A. hahahaha:D and she says that i'm morbid! hahaha. she's funny lahz. told me to open the cat's eyelids and use a torchlight to shine into her eyes. if the pupil dilates, then the cat is alive. if the cat springs at me, hahaha. the cat is alive too. so friendly!

the school comp has a very nice font for msn:) it's big and fat and friendly and nice looking:D hahaha. i think steph and i both sound mad. typing furiously away on the keyboard and then laughing and then typing and then laughing at the screen again. ah well:)
just had econs and maths tutorial. which means that the next tutorial i'll have is gp...and gp's going through compre... how thrilling.
my nose is still killing me. was making lots of noise in the classroom in the morning. hhahaa:D and passing around the nkf thing. *grInz*
mr ho was surprising today. at the end of the lessons, he suddenly called my name and mingxian's name (and i was like uhoh. what did i do?) then he said something about not to be too discouraged about our results 'cos we have positive attitudes:D then he said that if we're comfortable with each other, can find him and he'll give us questions to do...like for example, do 3 topics first, the go on to other topics. and he said that we probably went through all the topics...and he was smiling when he said that. hahaha. sorry. dun mind me. i'm quite shocked. okay. cool:D anyway, me and mingxian looked at each other and laughed. comfortable with each other? quite so. we were classmates in primary school:P
but nice of mr ho to actually help us even before we go and ask him for help:) maybe he thinks that i'm scared of him.
yeah well. guess maths starts the ball rolling for all revision again. i can't believe it, but i'm actually looking forward to it. think i'll feel a little empty without studying after the As. gosh.
hello steph! hahahaha. typed that for fun. hello to dancing too! dun be too sad about ur econs. hehe. i hope there's moderation for econs. hahaha. especially for ESSAY! arrgh. stupid j1 teachers. anyway, mr chan agrees that their marking is a lil :P. and he says tt for drq (he set it and gave the answer scheme), the teachers were supposed to elaborate and give us more space for answer. instead, they were rigid and caused the whole level's marks to plummet, so yah:) and mr chan can't say anything abt the case study 'cos it's set by the 'supreme high' hahaha! so funny. and we were talking about why the 'dutch disease' is called the 'dutch disease' and mr chan said something about selling dutch ladies to diversify and he did an imitation of a dutch lady:|
well, so far the past two tutorials have been quite ..surprising. what awaits us at gp? two more hours and i'll know about it:D

haha. i realise that when i'm drowsy, i can't think. so to be able to think, i need to stay non-drowsy. and to do that, i can't take my medicine. so i didn't take my medicine and got some things done instead.
brilliant. feels more on track now after sleeping my hours away. what a waste of time:P unnecessary hours of sleep. guess what time i officially woke up today?:D 1.30pm. 15 more mins and i would be off school. hahaha:D
i've only got one maths tutorial period, one econs tutorial period and hmmm 2 gp tutorial periods tmr. technically, this amounts to nothing at all. wonderful day i'll have.
room's still in half a mess due to exams... can't find something i'm supposed to do. how? hmmm.
-just keep going, just keep going-
:)

i feel like a dying old man:P coughing and wheezing away. with hardly any energy left to keep afloat this hazy misty sea of drowsiness. how many fingers do i have? i lift my hands up and see that there are none.
my body fades, my senses a blur, yet i continue with my work. mechanical. the physical realms doth cease to exist. i am aware of nothing but what is to be done, and with that knowledge, i fight against the waves that crash, that hold on dear. to what? to the truth i know so clear.
why the talk? i do not wish to talk. give me my rest and give me my sleep.and give me my consciousness to keep.

I needed the quiet so he drew me aside
Into the shadows where we could confide,
Away from the bustle where all the day long
I hurried and worried when active and strong.
I needed the quiet tho at first I rebelled,
But gently, so gently my cross he upheld,
And whispered so sweetly of spiritual things,
Tho weakened in body, my spirit took wings
To heights never heard of when active and gay,
He loved me so greatly he drew me away.
I needed the quiet, no prison my bed,
But a beautiful valley of blessings instead --
A place to grow richer in Jesus to hide
I needed the quiet so he drew me aside.

- Alice H. Mortenson

we got back econs mcq, econs case study and maths paper 1 today... hohoho. merry christmas:) mr chan was his normal self. actually he looked quite delighted. i wonder why. hahaha. case study was disappointing for the whole class... highest was 20 out of 30:P (if i didn't remember wrongly). i didn't do well for mcq. hahaha:D quite funny. well. dun talk abt maths paper 1.
mr ho was being very demoralising.thankfully i didn't do the stupid things that he mentioned. *whew* and mrs teo just went about things as per-normal. same tone, same voice, same 'let's go on with life' attitude:)
stayed back together with jits and michelle to help shanyi with her art piece. heh. poor girl has to hand it in by tmr evening and she's got lots more to do.. she's got this junior called angela and oh my! her drawings are like...O_o she was doing her promo piece.. oil painting in the renaissance period style. very nice!
yeah well. i really dun feel quite well:) better rest my soul in Christ before i topple over and meet zhou1 gong1. heh.

"'I the LORD do not change. So you, O descendants of Jacob, are not destroyed. Ever since the time of your forefathers you have turned away from my decrees and have not kept them. Return to me, and I will return to you,' says the LORD Almighty" (Malachi 3:6-7, NIV).

The sun set last night and rose again this morning as it has for thousands or millions of years. While some things never change, we can't say that about life in the last few decades--not to mention what lies ahead in the coming years!

I read that if we were to put the entire world's knowledge from the beginning of time until 1845 on a graph it would measure only 1 inch tall. From 1845 to 1945--just 100 years--the graph would measure 3 inches tall. But from 1945 until today the graph would be as tall as the Washington monument.

Change today is the order of the day. It has been said that today's average worker will need to be retrained at least three times during his working career to keep up with all the changes. Changes in technology, lifestyle, philosophy, morals, etc., are happening so fast it is difficult to keep up with them all.

Furthermore, the security that so many of us knew in earlier times has pretty much vanished. With escalating terrorism worldwide unless we have an anchor for the soul
we can be left drifting on a restless changing sea of uncertainty. But for those who have faith in God, of this one thing we can be absolutely sure: He never changes! His
love is from everlasting to everlasting and he is still in control of the world and universe no matter what. As the Bible says, "I the Lord do not change."

Americans have engraved on their coins, "In God we trust." But until that commitment is engraved on people's hearts and we genuinely trust in the God who changes not, we will have no lasting security.

hahaha:D yup:D we had info counter outing today! hahaa. for photos, please go to timothy's blog (points at top right hand corner where all the names are) hahahaa:D and i copied this entire thing from timothy 'cos i'm too lazy:P

'After my unit "Annual General Meeting"..me and evelyn (wanna spare you all with all the "he", "she", "him", "her" this time round...) took bus no.106 down to orchard. By the time I reached it's already 3pm..and I went to starhub foodcourt to find a place to write my cards for clarence and magdalene...surprisely saw xinying...after some dicussion with her we decided that we won't be going to marche anymore..since everyone is like so broke. And I decided that we should go to OA Bakery instead..since evelyn recommend me to go there.

We meet at Somerset MRT at 3.30...and all are present! They are clarence, magdalene, xinying, alvin, michael and our special guest livi! Haha..after everyone arrived we walked to OA Bakrey. Hmm..first time eating there..haha...and actually quite worth it la..$5 for the main course + soup + fruits + salad + garlic bread + free flow of drinks! Haha..and after we had our meal there we celebrated clarence and magdalene birthday. Haha..hope you all like the card we wrote to you all and the cd that we gave you! (magdalene...pls help me to burn one copy of that album hor..hurhurhur...)

Hoho..after that we went to the outside of Fish & Co. to take pictures (see below)! Haha..know I choose this place? Bcos this place is "LOVE" mah..Wanna tell all the info counterians that if we serve God but without LOVE, we gain nothing! And indeed we had fun in taking those pictures..hehe.

After sending alvin off to the bus stop (he got to report for work at 6pm)..the rest of us went to PS's arcade! Haha..went to key Keyboard Mania again..this time round I still got 1 miss for Midori no Kaze!! *bangs my head against the wall*..but thank God i still maintain the 71% passing marks for Klungkung1655. Also had one round of Percussion Master with xinying..haha..at the 3rd round I let livi play too~~..haha..they seems like they don't have the coordination skills..opps.'

:P i think i have hand-eye coordination problem. i look at the screen right i was like 'oh my, what is what?' quite fun though. hahaha:D
went for second service today with jits. haha. long story. it was strange. like going up to service alone even when you see people you know. 'cos like they don't recognise you. didn't want to shock them too. hhhaha:D
was commenting to jits that everytime we come for adult service, wenjiang seems to be the one playing guitar. hahaha:D
ahhhh. 'zai shen yuan' is a nice show! hahaha.

i love shows with nice endings! hahaha:D zai shen yuan has a nice ending!!:D much much more developed than 'witness to a prosecution'. oh manz. hahah:D if u wanna know the ending, must show from 3 episodes before the da4 jie2 ju2:D
the huangfu shaohua person has very nice features!:D he's got very nice eyelashes. hahaha. and lijun looks very good when she's in distress:P felt a bit odd seeing her with her hair all done up and everything at the end of the show... i like her better when she's pretending to be a guy. more defined features:D
oh man! and i feel that the tie-muer emperor is just... misunderstood. ah well. oh! but the emeige is funny:D she's so cheeky! hahaha. really nice ending! hahaha.just tt it's also a bit odd that the emperor suddenly realises how good the empress is to him. and how did the empress know that lijun, being the zhuang4 yuan2 is actually a girl? hmm.
poor yan yu gu niang too...
hahaha. assange provides entertainment.
i think the plot's good:D hahaha:D very good:D it's comparable to 'witness to a prosecution'! really ah. if 'witness to a prosecution' has a more developed, longer ending, it'll be so much better!
but 'zai shen yuan' is a nice show too! gosh. really must watch the ending if u have to miss any parts. watch the last 3 episodes!!! eh..that'll prob come like in.. a long time yet. hhaha:D

if people would just say out what they wanna say, it'll make things a lot easier. and makes the show less exasperating. hahahaa. haven't finished watching zai shen yuan...still got 4 more episodes to go. 3 hours more.
i'm on the part of how the three 'brothers' are gathered together once more in the palace and tie-muer and huangfu shaohua both have a liking for lijun (who is their 4th 'brother') poor queen. she must think tt the king is a bit weird:P
i wonder what will happen. hopefully the huangfu shaohua guy will end up with lijun (he still doesn't know that the 'forth brother' is lijun, and not just lijun's female cousin!)
and sometimes you wonder. how can such a good father and husband be so crafty as to want to overthrow the king? ah well. the sinful desires of the heart are hard to fathom.

haha.
watching the whole series of zai sheng yuan...hahaha. the 9o'clock channel u show..hehee. sister borrowed the whole series and now i'm watching it. hope it has a more satisfying ending than witness to a prosecution. hahaha... ah well:)
i changed the background pic of this template into a theme of pink and white but then it's more than 250kb and anything larger than that will be resized once uploaded onto photobucket which will make the dimensions of the tables all wrong and if i'm going to really change it, i'll have to re-size all the tables too. how troublesome.
we shall see.
i dun feel so hyper already. hahahaa:D but i still feel rather energetic. the ending to witness to a prosecution was quite ...rushed. hahaha:D so sad. what a nice plot though.

i love otah! hahaha. delicious yummy spicy chewy otah!
i'm a little high today. strange. must be the alcohol tasting funny coloured barley in reacting with the delicious mushroom swiss and newly fried fries i had in the morning with the info counter pple:D maybe alvin's lame jokes added to the effect as well.
it's magdalene's birthday today. and timothy said to pretend we didn't notice and give her a surprise by celebrating it with her tomorrow as well:)
poor joycelyn had a nice sprained neck and looked quite amusing today. and jiali was very nice to feed her two hungry sheep:)
and lots of postcard writing today. hahahaha:D i shall spend the time today and tomorrow wisely to bless others and to finish up my work:) oh gosh. results on monday. i can hardly wait. hahaha:D gotta personalise what i've been saying:) how exciting:)

sister just came home and started complaining about how everyone seems to want to go to ajc(:P) and no one wants to go to nyj (:D) with her. hahahaa. i would have agreed with her in the first three months due to biasness against ajc, but now that i know sisters from aj, i'm not so sure about commenting against it.
hahaha. nevertheless, the sec 4 prelim results are coming back and everyone seems to be getting anxious about it. if my sister gets into nyj and joins basketball, i'll be terribly amused.
guess it really depends on the attitude whichever school you get into. the attitude determines the altitude.

hohoho. i just ordered something on the Hope estore. hahha. how exciting. dun mind me. i've never ordered anything online b4 'cos of a lack of an online payment:D hehee.
oh! go and try hovering ur cursor over the links. hahha. editted the html to get a blurred effect. if it's irritating, let me know:)

my sister's going crazy over 'zai shen yuan'...the last time i say girl looks like she doesn't know if she's male or female show...turns out to be quite a nice show actually:) yeah:)
went out with jits to plaza sing to walk around. found her in yamaha...realised tt the organs and pianos are super ex:P well. then went to spotlight 'cos wanted to do something. hahaha. found amusing stuff there. then we thought of watching a movie but couldn't really settle on anything to watch. wanted to watch 'the terminal' but it starts too late. then we saw this new percussion machine in the arcade and wanted to try it but i suggested going in the morn instead so as not to malu ourselves. muahaha.
oh look! it's raining:)
anyway. what else did we do? oh! then we were going down the escalators when we realised that there's a Times bookshop and we went in and read lots of children's storybooks (hahaha!) and i read Narnia for the very first time in my life. yepz. came home after tt:)
going to study later:)

"Wherefore, seeing we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily besets us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us" (Hebrews 12:1).

I read about an airplane used by missionaries that gained some two-hundred pounds in weight since it was manufactured sixteen years previously. Nobody knows where the extra weight came from.

"We've been joking about the only plane in Weight Watchers," said the pilot. "But it's really a serious matter. Unless we can shed the extra weight, the plane's utility is seriously limited. We just can't carry an extra two-hundred pounds and have space for the cargo we need to deliver."

Many of us, like the missionary airplane, are carrying extra weight that can stop us from being fully functional and fully alive. For some, the extra weight may be physical, which can lead to ill health. For others, it may be unresolved emotional or spiritual issues. For example, if I am carrying an overload of guilt, fear, grief, hurt, anger, or resentment, or have some unconfessed sin or unresolved addiction in my life, any of these things can keep me stuck, not going anywhere.

God is not out to get us because of these things, but he wants us--with his help and the help of supportive friends--to resolve and overcome our issues so we can throw off the weights that are holding us back and be free to "run with patience the race set before us" and win!

oh yeah. forgot to mention..we met lots of pple today. various pple whom we know... eh. i only met shuwen (she cut her hair again! now it's like. a tuft of grass left.) and yah. shuwen. oh! alywin and cheryl too. jitsy! ur class cheryl! going out with my class alywin! O_o dancing seemed to be saying hi to the whole world (hehehe. exaggerated:D)... like yos. and her kindergarten sch mate. and can't remember who else:) and turns out tt the kindergarten sch mate corinne and liting and dancing (did i get this right?) met knows lydia as faith's sister. only rux and me and steph dunno her:P
the world is small. and liting knows suatying who's my primary sch classmate. and like joanna knows adeline and twin knows dalena. i find it quite amazing.

hohoho.
last paper today. mcq was. tricky. i dunno. got qns coming out of the 10 years series:D which is good. hahaha:D
heh. took bus to parkway and talked to this girl from s1A whom i saw in the library the last time..her chinese name is jiahui!:D very nice to talk to her:D
then walked around parkway looking for straws...hahaa. saw this guy from 03S13...eh. dunno how i know him. anyway, his cd shop wasn't open so he followed me the whole time i looked for straws. wah. when he shares with me about his life..
'meaningless, meaningless, everything is meaningless!'
anyway, found straws.
then went to eat breakfast at macs with joycelyn. heh. then we went to buy snacks. and saw this kitten which is biting grass. hahaha:D picked the kitten up and the kitten just played with us without showing any signs of fear:D wells.
heh. then went to her house:D her room's quite interesting to explore. heh. then we went for cg together. wah. jiali and kelvin are super early.
heh:D i love cg. hahahaa:D oh no! i took out the brush from joce's toilet bowl and never put it back O_o wellllllllllll. hahahaa.
then went down to heeren's to meet corinne, dancing, steph, lydia, liting and rux. hahaha:D i'm really broke today. hah. took neoprints too. really small.
hmmmm. i just got an invitation from the singapore air force to go for a seminar...i wonder if everyone got it. anyway, it says:'beyond a Q&A session, beyond the usual slideshow presentation, as a privileged guest, you will discover all about life in the air. and on the edge, you will walk away with a thorough insight into the advanced technology the RSAF employs. You will discover the challenges and opportunities of being a part of this elite fighting force...'
wellus. and junting shocked me. hahaha. she says tt she's gonna change ministry in 2 weeks...and said that she's gonna be taking care of NS guys and if i become a pilot, i can go over and help her O_o
i'm going to make a list of what to do after As!!!

hahaha. doing bio mcqs.
was looking for my clips to clip up my hair but realised that i've lost them... haa. my hair accessories never stay with me for more than 2 weeks:P
anyway, that brings me to my next question, should i cut my hair again? hahaha:D
it's getting a little long and a little troublesome, especially if i'm going to swim more often now.
whheeee.
last paper tomorrow!
i dunno wat i'm going to study tmr. hmmm:) finish up bio?:| yeah. i shall do that. give myself a break before going to......... maths.
if bio is orange and econs is green, maths is...purple. it can look as delightful and light as the colour of lavender, or as dark and mysterious as a pool of dark waters, or simply incomprehensible as the undercurrents in the royal empire which has crumbled a long time ago:D

many things in our lives come at the most unexpected times
if we're not sensitive about it, or happen to do other things at the wrong moment, an opportunity will slip right past us without us even noticing the shadow of it.
if i've just slept earlier tonight, i wouldn't have noticed the call. and i haven't noticed the call, it'll be an opportunity missed to comfort, to share, to love.
when you let God juggle the things in your life, you can then walk steadily ahead with a light heart, with the knowledge and assurance of Him with you.
i wasn't sensitive to opportunities before, and have let numerous chances slip away.
but i'm learning.
thank God for putting me in the right situations.

i was watching lie4 huo3 xiong2 xin1 and was feeling extremely uneasy...like i should be studying or something. and it feels odd to watch tv.
so i went to study bio. hahahaha:D

*grInz* i feel quite awake and ready to do lots of things now that i've taken a 5 hour afternoon nap which is actually more than the amount of time i slept last night. hahahaa:D
yeah!
had econs paper 1 and 2 this morning:) hahaha. really felt my brain freezing under the temperamental airconditioning and the temperamental rain which kept distracting everyone by starting and stopping and going on a nice cycle of doing so:)
got a pleasant surprise this morning when i flipped open the notes for 'conflicting goals for the government' hahaha. jits wrote a letter to me on the 10th of sept, stuck it in-between the notes and i didn't notice it till today:D
yeah:) econs is over:) finally. now i can go on studying. heh.. drq was intriguing. couldn't really do the last 10 marks of the drq...weird qns. actually found case study easier:P it's about congested roads. couldn't really do the last 10 marks of case study too...hahaa. guess i don't think like an economist:)
took the same bus home with liting today..haha:D quite interesting talking to her..we talked about what we're going to be, driving (or rather the troubles of driving) and about meeting old friends:) the whole journey from school to boonkeng.. sure beats just sleeping on the bus:)
aunt (from dad's side) came just now to my house to give out a wedding invitation...turns out that she sold her plot of land (hey nina! i'll no longer have any aunts that live near you...) 'cos her son used it for mortage to lend it to another friend of his for business stuff and the friend kinda well...didn't return the money so that they've gotta sell the land. hmmm.
all the chem pple. all the best for your papers! i shall do bio mcq for the whole day tomorrow. let's see how many i can finish:)

arrrghhhh. watching witness to a prosecution II is frustrating! that stupid worm is not giving any clues onto whether he's good or not! aarghhhh... how can??? was talking to jits and we agreed that it's frustrating not to know. hahaha. so i went to look online for synopsis...but they don't have! only have for witness to a prosecution 1...but read a little about what the ending might be... sighhhh.
anyway:)
went with dancing, corinne and steph to liting's house to give her a birthday cake and surprise her. hahaa:D dancing's idea:) our great planner for the day is quite blur though... in the end, liting saw us...hehehe.
yeah:) then went to meet sis at paya lebar b4 going to marine parade library to study with charlotte, joycelyn and jingting:) saw this librarian who kept walking here and there and here and there and here and there and here and there. literally:P
hehehe. well. then we went to water-rise to eat the $1 mini pancakes+fries...hahaha. then we saw the east c sisters and wanqi with them as well and heard tt gwen was in bk. then charlotte left:) then after eating, we went to disturb gwen and saw that she was studying with dennis and another brother whom i dunno the name of. then we went out. then jingting needed the toilet so we went into bk and disturb gwen again. hahaha!
then we went off and jingting went to the other side. me, my sister and joycelyn took the same bus. then i went home to watch witness to a prosecution while sister went to bugis. whee. that's my day:D

wellus.
this is a template taken off blogskins from a long time ago which i've never used before and since i'm getting a little tired of the old template, i've decided to change.
dun really like this template 'cos it's a little too messy. too many scrolls around. hahaha:D but wellus. the template has a defined structure which most templates seem to miss and all's well that adds us well:)
*grInz*
jean wrote a card to pastor jeff and shared about how she came to know God. really really find it encouraging:D *grInz* warmed our souls on saturday...hahaa. y-acts. everything was worth it!
-it only takes a spark,
to get the fire going
and soon all those around
will warm up to its glowing,
it's just the same with God's love
once you've experienced it
you'll pass it on to everyone
you'll want to pass it on-
perseverence!

hmmm.
maybe i should watch lord of the rings one day. never got to watch it:P

bio option paper today:)
we've got strange questions:P question 1 was about growth curves. that's quite okay... actually relatively normal question:) question 2 was about sperm count and the quality of semen and it got me concluding that males are troublesome. question 3 was about the removal of anterior pituitary glands and their growth...it's actually an indirect qn asking about thyroxine production (at least i think it is. hahaa:D) bet the qn was set by mrs teo:) thought it was quite interesting.
essay. well. essay. hahaha!:D i mixed up the production of pollen grains with the production of ovules. eeeekksss. hahaha:D how disastrous. i answered a wonderful answer of how the ovules came about with its meiotic and mitotic divisions and tata, the question was asking about pollen grains. ahhh. hahaa. nvm:D
well, at least i'm not the only one who messed up part a. lynette was in front of me and she couldn't remember her points. hehe. so both are of us are dead for our dead adorable 8 marks part:)
but it was better than i thought it would be. thought i was dead. hahaha:D oh!! wanna share something. hahaha. i skipped a large part of control in repro. then before going in, i was flipping through again and somehow or another, God kept probing my heart to read about thyroxine production. well:D hahaha. thank God i did, or else i would know nothing about qn 3:P

Holy Spirit Rain Down

Holy Spirit rain down, rain down
O comforter and friend
How we need Your touch again
Holy Spirit rain down, rain down
Let Your power fall, let Your voice be heard
Come and change our lives as we stand on Your Word
Holy Spirit rain down

No eye has seen,
no ear has heard
nobody knows what God has in store
So open up heavens
open it wide
over Your church
and over our lives...

"I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving kindness" (Jesus in Luke 12:15, NIV).

As a kid I never felt fully loved. So for many years I substituted approval for love. I got lots of approval for the many good things I did and, yes, it felt good at the time, but it never satisfied nor lasted. Why?

Approval is based on what we do. Affirmation is based on who we are. Approval is a good thing when given and received for the right reasons, but when substituted for
love, it can become another addiction to avoid facing the pain of not feeling loved.

Many of us codependents suffer from this affliction. We only feel good when we feel needed. But deep down what we really need is to feel loved and affirmed at the very core of our being--for who we are and not for what we do. More than anything else, we need to know this love and affirmation from God the heavenly Father. Only when we feel so affirmed can we get off the merry-go-round of doing things to get approval.

And how do we experience God the Father's love and affirmation at the core of my being? First, by believing that God loves us because his Word says so. And second, by
sharing my total self (including my dark side) with one or two safe and trusted friends who will love and accept me just as I am--warts and all. As they love and accept me in this way, little by little, I come to love and accept myself, and in so doing, I open myself to accepting God the Father's love and acceptance through them.

while i was searching around my house's kitchen for food, i saw a packaging that was classy and unique. it looked like the cover of jitsy's Donne poem book... green with gold wordings. ancient looking. and i was like 'what's that?'
turns out to be egg rolls! from macau. i mean, egg rolls only...so why do we have to package it until so nice.
this is no ordinary egg roll. my gosh. the first surprise came when open the inner plastic packaging (5 egg rolls per plastic packaging, 10 in the whole box), the buttery smell of egg rolls just waft into your nose and refuse to go. and you take one out, and my oh my. you can see the depth of each layer, unlike our usual chinese new year egg rolls.
bite into it and you feel like you're eating a thinner version of the delicious crust of egg tarts, it crumbles into your mouth, exactly where you bit it. the rest of the egg roll remains perfectly intact.
i feel like the eggs were have just been burst open and are spread all over my tongue. and melted butter and sugar was added.
heavenly.

groggy.
quite blur today. everything passed by in a whirl. not functioning properly. strange.

i felt quite relieved that the papers today are over:)
was relatively amused when mrs chan went up on stage and mentioned about someone fainting after seeing the qns on maths p1 on monday. we were like 'really? never see anyone faint'. hahaha:D then she said she hoped that we have a strong heart 'cos she looked through today's paper.. hahaha.
i'm glad i have a strong heart then. i looked at today's paper i blanked out. couldn't remember my sampling formulas...couldn't remember my estimation stuff. couldn't even remember my poisson distribution (which is really disastrous 'cos binomial, poisson and normal are like... my best out of the the entire stats thing:P) but it's okay. hahaha:D 'cos i nearly blanked out on a lot of stuff (eg. reading the question wrongly), and thank God i didn't... hahaha.
after this paper i'm going to practice maths EVERYDAY manz. hahaa. really really.
hahaha. if maths was terribly hard, bio appeared to be the most entertaining, most relaxing, most fun paper out of the former 3 papers i had. what can i say? i really enjoyed doing the paper. especially essay question 9. hahahaa. took a long time to write qn 9 (45 mins) and ended up having not enough time for the rest of the structured and one more essay!:P even though i couldn't do like respiration and not much of the ecology question, and i answered the impulse thing at the wrong section and had to draw arrows here and there, it was still nevertheless, thrilling to know that i've finally found a study method which works in remembering points in detail even after 1 whole week of not looking at the notes. too bad it's only 2 hours! hahaa.
yeah!:D i'm looking forward to tomorrow:) hahaha:) caregroup! yeah:D hahaa. and mugging about growth and repro:D and meeting pple:D and goodness knows what:D hahaha:D

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gosh. i really can't study at home. hahaha. but gotta train to study at home! gee. i can only study at home at night. geee.
anyway, went to get my notes back from twin in the evening...and saw adeline on my way to meet mum. oh before that i saw debbie and ruth and yaoguo. then i called joanna to get twin to study together 'cos joanna was at mos and twin was at macs and mos was beside this sushi bar place, which is just beside macs. hahaa.
went to study with them in the end too...met joanna's friend called jayne (in nyj now!) and yeah...got some news about nyj in the meantime:D mrs goh doesn't teach the j2s and the other female teacher is on maternity leave. oh!!! mrs judy tan is on maternity leave too! hahaha:D so cool. she was still not pregnant last yr.
yeah. got more pens from popular to get my notes. and labels for info count. and now i should be doing my work, 'cept that i need to do lots of things before i continue my work.
so intriguing.
i can't wait for prelims to be over so that i can continue mugging for As:P

i'm beat. what a heavy first day of exams. fun nevertheless. haha:D God answered my needs! He sent Mr Leong to turn down the fan of the aircon just when i was getting really distracted from the strong cold air blowing at me, even when the teachers walked by a lot of times and i didn't really want to tell them to turn up the temperature.

"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment ... Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight" (1 Peter 3:3-4, NIV).

King Duncan of sermons.com shared how his pastor told about a young female soldier who wrote home to her parents about a young man she was attracted to. "Of course," she said,"since we are not allowed to wear makeup, he has no idea how I really look."

Oh?

It's incredible, at least in the Western world, how much value we place on physical beauty. But as we all know outward beauty has little to do with the character of the
person or whether they are real or not.

In the wonderful children's story, The Velveteen Rabbit, by Margery Williams the Rabbit asked the old Skin Horse the baffling question, "What is real?" To the stuffed rabbit,according to the boasting of the other toys, being real had something to do with being impressive and captivating.

But as the wise Skin Horse answered, "Real isn't how you are made. It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."

"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real, you don't mind being hurt."

"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in your joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

nina was just commenting on my posts...that the 'brother' one is touching...and the post about me is... (in her words, hope she doesn't mind)
'dunno. but it felt like i totally didn't know you at all.'
hmmm. how to put it? i guess it's not that bad. i was still myself, trying to be as honest as i can be in sec 4...but then it's like, so many things happening in the class. i didn't want to unload anything much
1) i'm afraid. i was fearful of what huiqing would have viewed me (her being my best friend and all)
2) i felt that i would adding on to the burdens that everyone already has.
3) i wanted to be that pillar of strength that people can consult. can ask for advice. can come to talk to me when they're troubled. and in my own naive way, i thought that that's the way to be. i didn't know how else to be. i didn't know that being myself is enough. i really wanted to help.
but that was before.
really. when i think about how God has changed me, one thing i marvel the most is how God has changed my attitude towards sharing openly about my problems and sharing openly about things which may make me vulnerable. God showed me that in the family of God, we have a covenant with each other. God showed me that it's okay, i don't have to do what i did in sec 4. that i can really help others by sharing what i went through as well. God helped me to open up. that God gave us friends, gave us brothers and sisters for us to help each other up in times of troubles and needs as well. ('two are better than one')
i found security in God. i found love in Him. and through the love He's given Him, i can love others more.
so i guess you can get to know me more once more? hahaha. i'm still xinying, trying to be as honest as can be and trying to love others the way God loves me.

got this from eunice and huichun. hahaha.
BROTHER

I cried for my brother 6 times.

I was born in a secluded village of a mountain. Days by days my parents plowed the yellow dry soil with their backs facing the sky.

I have a younger brother, 3 years younger than me.

Once, to buy a handkerchief which all girls around me seemed to have, I stole 50 cents from my father's drawer. Father known about it right away. He made my younger brother and me kneeled against the wall, with a bamboo stick in his hand.

"Who stole the money?" he asked. I was stunned, too afraid to talk. Father didn't hear any of us admit, so he said, "Fine, if nobody wants to admit, you two should be beaten!" He lifted up the bamboo stick.

Suddenly, my younger brother gripped father's hand and said," Dad, I was the one who did it!”

The long stick smacked on my brother's back repeatedly. Father was so angry that he kept on whipped my brother until he lost his breath.

After that, he sat down on our stone bed and scolded my brother, "You have learnt to steal from your own house now, what other embarrassing things you will do in the future?? You should be beaten to death! You shameless thief!"

That night, mother and I hugged my brother. His body full of injuries, but he didn't shed a single tear.

In the middle of the night, all of sudden I cried out loudly. My brother covered my mouth with his little hand and said, " Sis, now don't cry anymore. Everything has happened." I still hate myself for didn't have enough courage to admit what I had done.

Years gone by, but the incident still looked like it just happened yesterday. I will never forget my brother's expression when he protected me.

That year, my brother was 8 years old; I was 11 years old.

When my brother was in his last year of his lower secondary school, he was accepted in an upper secondary school in the central. At the same time, I was accepted into a province's university.

That night, father squatted in the yard, smoking, packet by packet. I could hear him said, "Both our children have good results? very good results?"

Mother wiped off her tears and sighed," What is the use? How can we possibly finance both of them?"

At that time, my brother walked out, he stood in front of father and said, "Dad, I don't want to continue my study anymore, I have read enough books."

Father swung his hand and slapped brother on his face. "Why do you have a spirit so damn weak? Even if it means I have to beg for money on the streets, I will send you two to school until you both finish your study!"

And then, he started to knock on every house in the village to borrow money. I stuck out my hand as soft as I can to my brother's swollen face, and said, "A boy has to continue his study; If not, he will not be able to leave this depths of poverty."

Me, on the other hand, had decided not to further my study to university.

Who knows on the next day, before dawn, my brother left the house with a few pieces of worn-out clothes and a few dry beans. He sneaked to the side of my bed and left a note on my pillow;

"Sis, get into an university is not easy. I will go find a job and send money to you."

I held the note while sitting on my bed, and cried until I lost my voice.

That year, my brother was 17 years old; I was 20 years old.

With the money father borrowed from the whole village, and money my brother earned from carrying cement on his back at construction site, finally, I managed to get to the third year of my study in the university.

One day, I was studying in my room, when my roommate came in and told me, "There's a villager wait for you outside!"

Why is there a villager looking for me? I walked out, and saw my brother from afar, his whole body is dirty, covered by dust, cement and sands. I asked him, "Why don't you tell my roommate that you are my brother?"

He replied with a smile," Look at my appearance. What will they think if they know that I am your brother? Don't they laugh at you?"

I felt so touched, and tears filled my eyes. I swept away dusts from my brother's body. And said with a lump in my throat, " I don't care of what people say! You are my brother no matter what your appearance is?"

From his pocket, he took out a butterfly hair clip. He wore it on me, and said, "I saw all the girls in town are wearing it. So, I think you should also have one."

I could not hold back myself anymore. I pulled my brother into my arms and cried and cried.

That year, my brother was 20 years old; I was 23 years old.

The first time I brought my boyfriend home, the broken window had been repaired. And it looked so clean inside the house. After, my boyfriend went home, I danced like a small girl in front of my mother, "Mom, you don't have to spend so many time cleaning the house!"

But she said with a smile," It was your brother who went home early to clean the house. Didn't you see the wound on his hand? He was injured while replacing the window."

I went into my brother's small bedroom. Looking at his thin face, I felt like there are hundreds of needle pricked in my heart.

I put some ointment on his wound and bandaged it, "Does it hurt? " I asked him.

"No, it doesn't hurt. You know, when I was working in the construction site, stones falling on my feet all the time. Even that could not stop me from working and?"

In the middle of the sentence, he stopped. I turned my back on him and tears rolling down my face.

That year, my brother was 23 years old; I was 26 years old.

After I got married, I lived in the city. Lots of time my husband invited my parents to come and live with us, but they didn't want. They said, once they left the village, they didn't know what to do. My brother also didn't agree, he said, "Sis, you just take care of your parents-in-law. I will take care of mom and dad here."

My husband became the director of his factory. We wanted my brother to get the job as the manager in the department of maintenance. But, my brother rejected the offer. He insisted on starting to work as a reparation worker.

One day, my brother was on the top of a ladder repairing a cable, when he got electrocuted, and was sent to the hospital.

My husband and I visited him. Looked at the white gypsum on his leg, I grumbled, "Why did you reject to be a manager? Manager will not do something dangerous like this. Look at you now, such a serious injury. Why you didn't want to listen to us?"

With a serious expression on his face, he defended on his decision, "Think of brother-in-law, he just became the director, and I almost uneducated. If I became the manager, what kind of rumors will fly around?"

My husband's eyes filled up with tears, and then I said, "But you lack in education also because of me!"

"Why talking about the past?" My brother held my hand.

That year, he was 26 years old and I was 29 years old.

My brother was 30 years old when he married a farmer girl from the village. In his wedding reception, the master of ceremonies asked him, "Who is the one you respect and love the most?"

Without thinking, he answered," My sister." He continued by telling a story I could not even remember.

"When I was in primary school, the school was in different village. Everyday, my sister and I walked for 2 hours to go school and go home. One day, I lost one of my pair of gloves. My sister gave me one of hers. She only wore one glove and walked for so far. When we got home, her hand was so trembled because of the weather that was so cold that she could not even hold her chopsticks. From that day on, I swore that as long as I live, I would take care of my sister and be good to her."

Applause filled up the room. All guests turned their attentions to me.

Words were so hard to come out from my mouth, "In my whole life, the one I would like to thank the most is my brother,"

And in this happy occasion, in front of the crowd, tears rolling down my face again.

when i was in primary 4, i was in table tennis and i skipped the cca to bury coins in the sand pit in my primary school. i was also in choir and we went to the Equatorial Hotel to sing. and calligraphy. and i loved to watch Hercules and Triple nine. life revolved around these things...and friends. and wishing your best friends would go into the same class as you after streaming.
when i was in primary 5, i took care of class 1G in my primary school and always had to ask them to put their fingers on their lips because they are extra rowdy. life revolved around books (Patsy Kelly investigates) and crushes and my best friends and my Tamagotchi. i had a teacher called miss phua who is biased against me and has favourites in the class. a year when imagination kept running wild.
in primary 6, my diary entries were full of crushes and of whether fong chian or me will become the new wushu leader. a year of tests and competitions and pen-pal-ing. no mention of studies. i also made a promise to love no one except for myself and to learn how to play the song 'fur elise' on the piano. still lots of wild imagination. start of keen interest in music.
in secondary 1, i wanted to quit gep and i got hit by a car. got my first music cd from xavier and melvyck and my first teddy bear from yileng. i disliked shauna very much and thought that the rgps pple were snobbish and proud. i joined ELDS and AVA club. i had another horrible lit cum english teacher who likes to accuse me of things i never did. was in NDP as a dance cum banner girl. started to mud. a lot. and played pokemon.
in secondary 2, i made 3 resolutions i never kept and got married to mudsane on mud. i received the letter of the day prize from 98.7 fm and began actively writing in from then. i missed the 1/7 people a lot and kept going over to 2/9 to find qing and the rest. 2/7 choreographed her own dance to one of britney's song. questions of identity and self-worth ('passing through time with my translucent self')came in mind. loved maths and wanted to excel in it because of my maths teacher Miss Lau. becoming nonchalent and numb about things around. had IP and got chosen for exhibition.
in secondary 3, i started to feel tired. crushes came in again. went out a lot after school with classmates. craze about bubble tea. missed OBS and Sheares terribly much. started to research into stuff like zodiac signs and tarot cards. had our weekly singing session on monday afternoons. wrote the song 'desert oasis' with jitsy. had sharing sessions through writing letters in a notebook with sze as it seems that only the 2 of us experienced similar things.
in secondary 4, year of emotional rollercoaster. lots of depression and counselling going on amongst the classmates. started having vivid dreams which wouldn't leave me. friends. got especially close to qing, trace and fungi. started to counsel people about relationships. got to know quite a lot of undercurrents beneath the surface of the class. did something stupid on the 12th of may.
in jc1, joined band, basketball and chinese society at one go which packed my days full. complex link of relationship within og and og mate's classmates. had to counsel og mate's classmate. life was cca and og. then something happened. Jesus cleared away the mud from my eyes and i got to know Him and love Him and accept Him as the Lord and Saviour of my life during the Sars period. diary entries became full of how i grew to know more about Him.
my life started.

-sing praise to the Lord and God of all
His love endures forever
and He is good, He's above all things
His love endures forever
sing praise, sing praise-
hehehe. papers tomorrow:) let's jia you together, okay?:D
to nygep dudettes: heyhey! another studying obstacle to overcome (or for sze, she's gone over tt already..hahaha. since her papers are over)... we may not be in the same school now, but yeah, all of you know that our friendship remains strong:) let's encourage each other and spur each other on throughout the days of prelims. and let's have another gathering after the As! muahaha. maybe we'll go and have steamboat buffet (again! hahaa) hey jo and fungi, we do our best, God will do the rest, amen?:)
to vjcians: hahaa:D corinne and dancing and steph and lydia and rux and liting and everyone else around. oh yeah. thong kheng too. hahaha. yeahyeah. well. vj prelims are supposed to make us sit up and feel as if we haven't studied. hahaha:D so we'll just do our best too. hehehe:D one month + more in the sch before we're officially 'kicked out'. *grInz* jia you!
oh look. 2 pm. study time. bye!

today is a long and interesting day:)
wo gan3 chu4 liang2 duo1, bu4 shi4 ji3 ju4 hua4 jiu4 neng2 xing2 rong2 de2 chu1 de.
themes of what i've thought through today can be summarized into:
1)God's grace. mercy. love.
2)family of God. care.
3)prayers. God's timing. He was invited.
4)-getting to know you, getting to know all about you-
5)covenant of caregroup:) acceptance.
6)studies. God's glory.
7)past experiences

anyway, studied together with jocelyn, jingting and jasmine after meeting. hehehe:D quite productive. so we're studying again next sat! muahaha. quite worrying too 'cos my integration and differentiation are still in shambles.
actually i don't feel any more anxiousness about the exams on monday. i guess i'm really viewing prelims as this obstacle i have to cross before continuing the race towards A levels.
got to know more people today! hahaha:D hope resource sister (dunno her name) who's very nice and gave me a nugget during camp (hahaha!) told me tt it's okay for me to read the books there...hahaa. as long as i do return (duh:D) 'cos info counter finished our stuff very early today. then she was sharing with me about the book that she's reading:) Abraham is a phlegmatic!:D hahaha:D
then i got to know sherry too. from blessing point:) and was helping her to display the cards and all that. blessing point having discount! hahaha:D
got to know livi. hahaha:D and joel from security. so fun:)
yeah:D
wat a nice day today is:D hahaha. really really:)

i keep speaking chinese today. wo ye bu zhi dao wei she me. zhen qi guai.
hahaha:D anyway. went to siglap macs to study. saw jay-en and cheryl and their gang of pple. met cs too! parents are troublesome. *nods to self*
oh! let me comment about the staff at macs. every macs has a supervisor right? and i observe that this macs' supervisor is really close to the staff. they keep joking around. and when one of the staff went to on the radio too loud, the supervisor actually told her to lower the volume outside the counter and turn up only the volume within the counter 'cos people are studying. so nice! and the staff for the second shift actually came early to help 'cos he was like asking 'eh? you need to come so early meh?' to like 2 pple. hahaa. makes me like macs more. hahaha.
studying alone is not really fun. was studying econs and wanted to ask some stuff, then realised that i've no one to ask:P hahaha. so funny. shall ask steph when i see her tomorrow:) speaking of whom, steph injured her chin and needed stitches...so yeah. she's stuck at home. maybe i can bring entertainment to her otherwise routine day at home. can make a movie. 'an unique day in the life of stephanie.. spiced up because xinying came':P
the info counter pple are quite amusing. it's a very different feel from multimedia... 'cos it's like multimedia is more backstage and more technical...then info counter is... more public. eh. different i guess. hahaha. my favourite part of multimedia was getting to know the whole programme beforehand! hahaha. and my favourite of info counter is getting to peek through the lost and found stuff!:D
anyway. went to find jits to get back my notes...haha. missed the stop happily and in order not to look too stupid ('cos the next stop was at a temple and no one stopped there), i decided to wait for a few stops before actually stopping and transferring to another bus to go back. hahaha.
be jealous! i have rocky road and banana split at home! be jealous! muahaha!

NOTE: a few mistakes have been rectified.
1) lyrics to 'lover of my heart'
2) guan's name has been changed to nina. it was nina, me and jits arriving at 9.50am nicely:) no. guan did not travel to cbd, back to KAP, back to cbd, then back home. yes. this is to her shepherd --- do not worry;). and nina, your name is back!:D hahaha.

it feels good to be able to publish again...though i did delete quite an informative post because i thought i couldn't publish due to that post or something. how sad! but i did post a long entry on my other blog! muahahaha. of course, this statement is typed to irritate people because you can't find it! ever!
oh look. i found the list of phonetics too. anyone wanna learn about pronunication?:)
studied with jits and nina today. disastrous. we moved and moved and moved and moved. first from delifrance to food junction, then back to delifrance, then we were contemplating crashing into weez's house and then we went to the ulu macs at bishan interchange (which turned out to be not very ulu 'cos we saw Hope people there. hahaha! and the tables were quite full), then we went to Nonya Wok, then back to macs where we finally settled down. hmmm:) what a journey:D
i slept at 5++am this morning! not to my own choice though:D bed became dusty after tidying room and couldn't sleep 'cos it became itchy:P and mum's alarm kept ringing. hahaha:)
they're going to demolish the wall outside my house tomorrow morning O_o
i like studying bio better than studying econs. so much more fun. hahaha:D and i like studying econs better than doing maths (unless it's stats). and my results usually appear in that order too. and i'm having a tummyache. so here i go off the comp and on to the toilet!

i wonder if this post will be published:D *grInz* blogger doesn't seem to like my posts anymore. refuses to publish them. so friendly of it. if this continues i shall move! muahahaha.
i found interesting things while packing my room just now. hahaa. found the floor plan of SPC and Keppels! and the lighting plan for Nyp auditorium (with my whole lighting course notes along with it:P) and lots of lost lyrics and notes. and some interesting letters. and lots of dust which got inhaled by me:(
*cough*

this is an interesting site about the growth and development of foetuses!

ARTS Feast 2004 - "Humid" [Human. Identity]
Modified By: CHAN WEIZHENG
Created By: CHAN WEIZHENG

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Date & Time: Friday, 10 September, 8-10 pm
Venue: Tampines East Community Club;
Theme: What being human is all about.

Ticket price: $8 (till Aug 29), $10 (after Aug 29),
Concession: $5 (for Students, NSmen, Senior Citizens)

ARTS Feast is an annual event presented by theatrExprezz, a local amateur group. It was first launched in 2002, with the aim of creating a platform for local artistes to present their original works.
This year Hope Centre (S) is collaborating with theatrExprezz to bring ARTS Feast 2004 to the heartlanders in the North-East region of Singapore. It will be held at the Tampines Cultural Centre, the first and only state-of-the-art theatre housed within a community club - the Tampines East Community Centre.
Entitled "HumID (HUMANidentity)", the theme this year explores the theme of what being human is all about.
Is being human just about eating, working, playing and dying? Is there more to life?
Come and be enthused by 2 hrs of music, song, dance and drama on Sept 10, 2004 @8pm.
We have performers from our very own members as well as artistes from the Philippines, secondary schools and local groups.
Tickets go on sale from Sunday Aug 22 at Nexus Reception area. Look for us there!
For more information please visit http://www.hopecentre.org.sg/whatsnew_big.htm

anyone interested?:D

-i want to walk with You every day of my life-

we had study cg today. supposed to meet at 12pm but i was late and due to my forgetful mind leading to a lack of hp, i couldn't sms at all. hahaha:D

-To talk with You through the good and the strife-

my memory is really failing me. i packed my notes in the morning, put them down, went out to the living room and immediately forgot where i put them. had to search all over the house just for my packed notes and goodness, it's so stupid. it was like ... blank. and no matter how i searched my memory, i simply can't recall what i did with it. i don't even remember holding it in my hands. i felt like 10-second tom in '50 first dates'. hahaha:D

-You're my friend-

yeah. finished photosynthesis. the processes of which had eluded me for more than a year. ah well. bugged down by old topics. how stupidifying. hahaha:D 'stupid' is the root word for today. quite fun studying with the cg pple. haha:D jitsy, jocelyn, jiali and joycelyn (4 Js! and Jesus! that makes 5!) hahaha. but quite an interesting studying session. makes me realise i haven't touched much of maths. hahaha!:P oh! joycelyn's friends came to study with us too:) yvonne and wanling. (eh. not sure about spelling. yeah) and they had a hamster with them! hahaha:D

-You're my Father, for all time-

and i realise that i end almost everything with hahaha:P... it's like a punctuation to the statement. or simply an end to what i have to say. what a stupid habit:D must control the urge to go haha at the end. hahaha:D oops.

-nothing can keep us apart-

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

-You're the lover of my heart-

new pastor moved into town and went out one Saturday to visit his parishioners. All went well until he came to one house. It was obvious that someone was home, but no one came to the door even after he had knocked several times. Finally, he took out his card and wrote on the back: Revelation 3:20 and stuck it in the door.

The next day, as he was counting the offering he found his card in the collection plate. Below his message was the notation Genesis 3:10.

Revelation 3:20 reads: "Behold I stand at the door and knock. If any man hear my voice, and opens the door, I will come in to him, and will dine with him, and he with me."

Genesis 3:10 reads: "And he said, I heard thy voice in the garden, and I was afraid, because I was naked."

i just read nina's blog and i must agree with her...the effects on caffeine from coke on her have not worn off yet. she sounds a little... high. hahaha.
yeah. we studied at Han's today:) terribly soporifying. oh! something quite cool happened to us though. haha. all three of us were late! and all three of us (me, jits and nina) were late at the same time! and we were on the same train without knowing it. so we all reached at 9.50am instead of 9.30am. hahaha:D
anyway yes. it was quite soporifying for me at first 'cos i was happily packing my room away late night. so fun to pack at night till i forgot about the time and realised that i'm getting a little sleepy at 2++am:P but then it was a little too early to sleep, so i forced myself to concentrate. haha. wasn't really fun i tell u. but it worked nevertheless. next time i go to Han's i shall get their coffee. everyone seems to get their coffee.
i had nice you tiao and the butterfly thing given to me by mum who just happened to come home with breakfast while i was on my way out. cool:) saw mingxian at the busstop too. hahaa. learnt that nicole has a short attention span and she hardly studies but somehow or another she scores really well. could be 'cos of consistent work in addition with intelligence. whee.
back to studying at Han's. went to pick up guan at around 12++ when it started to pour really heavily and guan and i were like uh-oh. haha. we had streats at first and then we had shreds of streats 'cos we used them as umbrellas and it was really really pouring. haha. i ran across the road and guan got stranded there and this nice guy came over and offered to shelter her across the road. then he walked back! so nice. haha.
we reached another junction when it was quite a long distance across the road and were contemplating if we should eat at the hawker centre first or something. decided to pray about the rain:) and God is good! hahaa. after praying, we walked out, and voila! the heavy downpour became a drizzle. and after a few more steps, it stopped! completely! quite funny 'cos it's like everyone around us are still using umbrellas and we were walking happily without anything sheltering us. prayers work wonders:D
i had my two bouts of sleepiness during the afternoon. from 1-2pm and from 4-5pm. a short nap did wonders too. hahaha:D
finishing photosynthesis tonight so that i can explain to pple. had 2 pple asking about it within the span of ... one day. ah well.
caregroup tomorrow! i'm wondering.

-it is Your love, it is Your goodness
it is Your kindness and compassion, that fills me up inside
it is Your grace, Your tender mercy
it is Your presence in my life that satisfies-
...
family day today!:D very interesting. hahaha:D quite a nice time together:D but we all smell like food and butter after that. hahaha:D had a nice time knowing the sec 4s more too! haha. people like kim, joycelyn, tingting, maurice (okay...dun really know her. haha), huiqi (she made a super amusing remark to gwen today!) and shimin:D
yeah:D fun games too. hahaa. poor arms though. full of smiley faces and what-nots. hahaha:D yeah:D then we played ball games. hahaha. quite farnie:D and i learnt new things too!
poor jits seem to be allergic to the grass and mud and whatnonsense...'cos her hands weren't washed and think she might have touched her faces and there're lots of mosquito bite lookalike things tt popped up. so poor thing!
enjoyed myself really much:) yeah!
gee. so strange. i'm talking to lydia's sec 1 brother now. hahaha:D 'cos lydia's busy cooking her peanut butter cookies which required no peanut butter (O_o) and she refuses to do a personal delivery for me. how evil!
hahaha.
watched Singapore shakes just now... modern stories inspired by Shakespeare...today's was inspired by Hamlet. quite dark. quite confusing at the end too. like you don't really know whether's the guy's really gone mad or whether he's just anguished and everything. scenes not really well developed at the second part. first part was okay though.
okay. lydia's going for a second batch of cookies. hahaa.

i was just doing my rare once-in-every-three-months-only-done-at-night-or-when-the-circumstances-are-right long hours thinking. and gosh. it gets more and more tiring to think. guess i postponed this thinking process for quite some time.
hahaha. yeah. after thinking must come to a conclusion.
God provided me with the conclusion. how cool can that get?:D
hahah:D
yeah!
i shall do a shared major in psychology and social work in nus in the future! (suggested by kimchun). can't imagine myself in the future. u know, like, the future IS the future...it's still far away:P not. everyone's been asking me about /the future/ how disastrous. i really know nuts about /the future/.../the present/ is something which is more immediate now. hahaha:D /the future/ is in God's hands. and i trust Him with /the future/ more than i trust /the future/ to be in my hands:)
-just keep going, just keep going-
i'll sure miss bio though. oooh. bio. with all its intricate knowledge about the detailed mechanism of God's creation. how i love thee! thy voluminous body with thy hidden treasures. thou dost noth shy away from me, but freely share thy treasures. how i will miss thee! no more the intimate knowledge of thee. no more listening to the murmurs of what thou hast to say.
oh! how my heart will ache when thy presence leaves. leave not thy shadow or a trace.
when thou leaves, i will miss thee. but now thy presence haunts me night and day.

:P

okay. i can't go on. sounds too :P to go on.
look at the time! it's 3am! i will study. yesh. hhahaa. talking nonsense. here i am to embrace the intricate details of the plant transport system. goodbye!:D

hmmm.
i saw michelle (teo) and sze today while walking around with joycelyn.
mitch looks the same except that her skirt seemed to have grown another 2 inches shorter and her front was more pronounced. sze looks the same.
so i hugged sze and refused to hug mitch.
ah well.

-come, now is the time to worship
come, now is the time to give your heart
come, just as you are to worship
come, just as you are before your God
come-
hmmm. family day tomorrow!:D going out in the morn with the info counter pple to go bowling/pool (whichever it is...i still don't know). clarence's treating. haha.
service today:) was considerably late for wfl...hahaha. forgot to bring the notes too. how disastrous. was musing over how pple like to fly aeroplanes and was wondering how many aeroplanes will be flown around me in the future. then next time can give a wonderful testimony about the person who flew aeroplane in the future. hahaa. sharon's 3-hour long wait never fails to encourage me when i'm waiting for pple:)
yeah:D jiali popped up from behind me, which gave me half a fright. ah well. (speaking of whom, she just came online)
distraction distraction (the whole blog entry is incoherent)... ej's talking about snakeheads and how they seem to only feed on live stuff:| apparently they're fish food for arawanas (whatever they are) but it seems tt it's something like the 'old lady who shallowed a fly.. y she swallowed a fly I don't know why.. but she swallowed a spider to eat the fly why she swallowed the fly I don't know y story...'
oh well.
i'm suddenly filled with swirling thoughts so guess i'll just end here for today:) family day tmr!

i was quite disturbed about the shallow notion some people seem to have of the word 'love' and the surface meaning which they attach to verse 1 cor 13:4-7. was going to type out a whole chunk about what i feel when i realised that it doesn't really help things. it struck me that i used to have the same shallow notion of the word 'love' and it was only after knowing Jesus, personally touched by His great love for us, that i realised what i've known previously about many things have barely scratched the surface of truth.
...
yeah:)
anyway, woke up early in the morning (actually it wasn't really early...guess i haven't been waking up early in the morning for quite some time) to pass steph stuff:) then came home to watch bourne identity! felt really sleepy and as a result i stopped the show somewhere along the second disc to sleep for a while first, only to realise that i stopped the disc 1 min before the ending! gosh. what a waste of electricity.
yepz. then went to braddell heights cc to study with dancing and yunyun 'cos i wanted someone to study with. heh. it's my turn to be adopted for the day. the reading room looked like a brilliant place to settle down and consume the knowledge present in my notes but looks are deceiving. it ended up that for me, i could not really study there 'cos the room has a nice soporifying effect which distracts my mind and makes me want to go to sleep instead. not very friendly, especially not in the afternoon when my willpower to awaken is weak and i fall asleep easily. the night always presents the most ideal conditions for a conducive and effective studying session.
what a pity exams are not at night.
i just recalled something this morning while looking at the venation of the leaves outside steph's house. i don't know if it was a lack of sleep or watsoever, but i said something really stupid yesterday. jitsy and i were observing the petals of this flower at Han's...and she asked if it was monocot, and i answered in the affirmative and jitsy asked how did i know and i said ... 'parallel veins in the leaves'. right. we were looking at petals. no leaves. where are the leaves!!! and i looked at vascular bundle arrangement, and it was so obviously a dicotyledon. ah well. lack of concentration;)
countdown. one more week and two days before prelims. oof. how exciting. like a rollercoaster ride. the joyful anticipation:P

"The LORD came and stood there, calling as at the other times, 'Samuel! Samuel!' Then Samuel said, 'Speak, for your servant is listening' (1 Samuel 3:10, NIV).

"One summer night a young man who lived in Scotland decided to take a shortcut across the moors on his walk into town where he worked.
"The countryside was known for its limestone quarries. He knew he would be passing near one of these quarries, but thought he could avoid it. The night was pitch black
without a star in sight, but the young man set out through the rock and heather anyway.

"Suddenly he heard a voice call out with great urgency, 'Peter!'

"He was unnerved but stopped and called back into the darkness, 'Yes, who is it? What do you want?' There was no response--just a gentle breeze over the deserted moorland.

"He decided that he'd been mistaken and walked on a few more steps. Then he heard the voice again, this time even more urgent than the first: 'Peter!'

"He stopped dead in his tracks, bent forward to peer through the darkness, and stumbled to his knees. He reached out a hand to the ground before him, but only clutched thin air. It was the quarry! Sure enough, as Peter carefully felt around in a semicircle he found that he had stopped on the edge of the abandoned limestone quarry one short step before a fatal plunge into the abyss. Out there in the desolate moor someone knew him and someone cared about him.

"Peter Marshall never forgot that incident. Dedicating his life to the one who'd called him by name, he went on to become one of America's greatest ministers.

Did you ever stop to realize that God also knows you by name--and everything else about you. Have you ever "heard" him calling you? If you learn to listen with your heart, you will hear what he wants of you.

yeah anyway. enough about singapore idol. hahaha:D
went to meet cs in the morning:D hehee. good time of sharing. and learning from the Word of God:D yeeeaaaaah.
then went to the hostel. hahaha. to get something for jits. hahaha. i can't type it out here 'cos it might be embarrassing. might or might not. ah well. talking nonsense. my mind is preoccupied.
preoccupied with why 2 yrs are passing really fast. the speed of its travel is starting to burn into my mind everyday. 2 years! so many things have changed. so many things not done!
okayokay. sidetracked.
608 took one whole hour to twirl and swirl and tour around the cbd area before reaching the busstop i alighted at. hahaha:D i saw the esplanade, suntec city, fullerton hotel, the supreme court, lots and lots of tall tall buildings and not-so-tall buildings. hahaha:D
gosh. i sure like the feel of the seats on 608... hahaa. very comfy and nice to touch.
Han's a nice place to be in. very big, very nice decorated:) friendly staff. haaha. and nice sofa! round sofa seats. oh. but i'm never gonna eat sirloin steak again in my whole entire life. tastes horrendous. hahhaa. asked for well done but my steak had nice pink streaks that tasted :P (wah. i'm glad i didn't ask for medium rare:P)and sent it back to be cooked again. then they gave me a new plate of steak. second piece was more tender but ah well. i have no liking for the chewyness of steaks.
yeah!:D so we studied at Han's till around 3.30pm..then went off to toa payoh to swim! hahaha.
swimming was disruptive today. so many pple! hahaa. to me anyway. jits said it's okay. i turned around in the water for the first time today. my nose nearly died on me. hahaha. oh! and i learnt how to dive ( a little) using the squat position as the starting position. jits taught me:D i tried using the standing up position and i smacked against the water and ouch. it hurts. a lot. very much. youch. my anterior was stinging from the pain:P
we tried talking underwater. hahaha. all of jit's words sounded like 'hmmmhmmmhmmmmmhm' to me. hahaha:D
oh and we saw pple diving from the diving board. doing back flips and half-turns and it looks so pretty but the person always ends up with a big splash.
yeah. tt's my today. i shall swim again next monday or something. haha

aiyah really ah.
CHRISTOPHER's GOT A PLAIN VOICE. how can anyone vote him in! and he looks like jieyu, which turns me off. (speaking of whom, saw him when jits and i were studying at kfc. hahaha! he no longer looks like a huggable teddy. more lean now. bet he goes around trying to jio girls in nyj:P) nice eyes and nice piece of song though. aiyah. the song was nice. the voice wasn't.
candice got in, as expected:D she's good in this song. beautiful rendition i felt. not sure if she can carry off other songs though...
hmm.
daphne. jitsy's against her song. but i feel tt it can be forgiven 'cos of her age... hmmm. unique voice? not really i feel.
next week's contestants look like they can't really make it. wonder how it'll turn out to be:D

I CAN'T BELIEVE THE JUDGES SAID CHRISTOPHER WAS GOOD:P he's...okay. but he's not the idol type and he lacks the maturity to sing 'your song'.
okay. candice will definitely get in. she was GREAT MANZ. eh. daphne was okay...guess she did quite well 'cos of the age:)
miss dong has a great voice. but her song doesn't appeal. so sad!
hmm. wondering about the results. hahaha:D
shirin was not bad. cheesy song. but not bad.
results!

i nearly forgot what i did yesterday until i started typing this out:)
went to study with jits:) it was our original plan to study at Han's but we ended up at toa payoh library 'cos jitsy was carrying a luggage around:D haha. she's moving her files from the hostel back home.
yeah. then we moved to kfc to eat and because jitsy said the library was too quiet...it was always happily causing us to fall asleep so i guess it's good that we moved. hahaa.
yeah:) we had movie marathon today. hahaha:D watched fifty first dates, then went up to study with jits and shimin while they were watching passion and then went down to watch spiderman!:D hehehe. our unit identity looks nice 'cos it's luminous orange and shines even in the dark!:D it didn't quite struck me tt it's our last unit cg together until i read jiali's blog. hmmmm.

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ehhhh? dun remember logging in to get their tickets:P
prac today! hahaha. if today's prac was 'do-able' according to mrs teo, i'd rather not think about how the prelim papers will turn out to be. hahaha:D
prac was absolutely disastrous!
actually the concepts are quite alright... just that there doesn't seem to be enough time. either that or some parts of the experiments are quite... hmm. i dunno wat to say. hahaha. i spent too much time on the slides at first ('cos i had the microscope first) and i really thought i had quite a lot of time at hand until things started to get haywire. hahaha:D first, my onion epidermis (izzit? can't remember) kept curling itself up and i think the cells kinda destroyed themselves (goodness knows how) and cell material just kept coming out in shreds. hahah. and i was happily picking up my methyleneblue vial when the cover came off and the whole vial dropped to the floor and methyleneblue spashed everywhere. for your information, methyleneblue is used to stain dna/rna. thankew.
so halfway through the prac, i had a radical new design for my school uniform...then i continued with my experiments and added the lipase to the wrong solutions and had to redo it again. *grInz*. and i missed out a 6 marks section which looked inconspicuous (really!) 'cos it was at the very end of qn 1.
ah well. i found the whole day quite amusing though. there's this pe teacher who helped us order food and got the drinks store uncle to come into lt1 to sell peelfresh 'cos there was demand for food and drinks and with demand comes supply.
the library was surprisingly empty today. goodness knows why. then i went to kfc to study. yeah. studying alone is more effective. but lonely:(
go read dancing's post. hahahaha:D she's very nice to wait for me to finish typing this so she can read it. hahaha:D