i think this year's the year when all my emotions seem to be on full blast...like when i was sad ('cos of results), or when i was confused and frustrated (the fungi incident), or happy (when i see darren) etc etc.
'cos currentLy i feeL this GREAT CONCERN for darren hayes... it's as if he's realLy my close friend or something and i'm terribLy worried about him... whether he's sleeping right... whether he's feeling okay... whether he knows that he has us in singapore to support him.
i've never in my whole entire life had such a conflict of emotions as of this year... feelings that arise due to relationships, religion, ideals, school, family... it's very strange and puzzling, confusing, and yet, you know that it's not as bad as you make it out to be. that everything will be resolved soon... that if one adopts a third person view, one would be able to solve the problem quite easily.
and it finalLy struck me this morning (at about 7 something - when i first woke up) that O Levels are indeed coming, that next year i WILL be going to a new school...and that in TWO years' time i'll be in the NUS (if i can get in) and that probably in about FIVE years or so, i'll be officially an ADULT and i'll have to work for a living. how creepy.
and even while i'm typing this... i'm wondering.. shouldn't i be revising for my prelim exams...
scary.