i feel old.
not jaded.
more of old.
i can identify with the Asako sensei in Gu Gu the cat.
i can identify with her smiles, her silent observation of life, and the acceptance of it all.
am i disinterested in human beings? hardly.
maybe i am disillusioned.
ha.
that will be new.
maybe i'd become a cynical old lady who sees deteriorative state of humankind and sigh.
and look daily to the warm embrace of her Lord.
the One who will make promises and keep them.
the One who's faithful to the end.
the only One who's faithful to the end.