Went into the pulltabs application on facebook and thought i went into the wrong account when i saw this:


I think the anonymous person sent his/her prizes to the wrong person :P lol

The first night that I can actually stay at HQ to do work. lol.
And i forget to bring extra stuff to study. oh well. Printed out the journals that're going to be discussed for next thursday (some of our presentations are on next thurs) to read.. but feels a bit uneasy 'cos I'd have preferred to read the textbooks instead (easier reading. haha. compared to journals, grosjean can be counted as a bedtime read.)
very sleepy now. not used to the after-dinner syndrome 'cos usually don't need to sit down and study. haha. better get used to it.
my xiong-est days of the weeks are over. yay!

was watching episode 20 of an anime when they made a reference back 10 episodes ago. so a lot of viewers went to rewatch episode 20 for the reference (including me) and it really was there! whahaa. so surprising.
it feels as if they've planned out properly what to do for the rest of the series, even before it's drawn. quite cool :)

Due to the needs of school, which leads to the need to organize, which leads to ventures to the school co-op, I am proud to present... my own system of organization (it's nothing fantastic. I merely got files).

And to protect the edges of the files from the harsh abrasion they might get from being in a tight squeezy environment (mainly my bad), I've got another file to put them in!

hehe. quite proud of it. LOL.
Have been writing lists of things to do too (sometimes the same list stays for a few days..) helps me to reduce cognitive load.. like i'll look through, see how much time i need to complete the various things, look at the time i have and slot the items in to do. oh well :)

I'm lazy to figure out how to put borders around the photos. and I'm lazy to edit them. haha.
Some time ago, the brothers and sisters very kindly passed me lots of money to take care of chi (haha. and weiling subsequently gave me more:S) yup.
i've not taken a picture of all the receipts available (they're in a winnie the pooh glass jar sort of bottle), but i've taken pictures of the xiao huai dan! haha.
he used to be this 'big'...


and then he grew..


and grew...


and grew...


and grew...


After a month or so of no photos, here's an update of chi now! hahaa.



Thanks for all the monetary support through these times.. Please do not pass me anymore money 'cos
1) I feel bad
2) I get the joy of taking care of him. hahaha.
3) I'm taken up a tuition assignment. Yup.

Still wondering how to bring Chi to meet everyone again (he can't fit into the carrier anymore. lol).. so if you've got any ideas, tell me. haha. hope you enjoyed the small update of the xiao huai dan!:)

Just remembered not too long ago that there's social work tutorial tmr. haha. Was a little worried about social work tutorials 'cos past experiences with them are not very pleasant (always need A LOT of preparation..)...I don't have the time to go prepare them (not to mention i don't have the resources as well as I missed the buying course pack period last friday after lecture and the course packs seem to have disappeared. Oh well) 'cos need to prepare for discussion on a presentation in early lang dev next thursday.
Thank God that tomorrow's social work tutorial has become sort of a mini lecture! I just need to print out notes and listen to instructions for the 40% group project. yay.
So glad. haha. 'cos I've still got the Best 1995 journal that begs to be read and i don't wanna spend my 2 hr break tomorrow reading the journal (was thinking i can think about spicing up the presentation instead). Oh. i just remembered i've got an experiment to attend tomorrow at 1pm. hmm.
Got a few overdue items (not from school) that are blinking red lights as well. Hope to finish by tomorrow night! hahaa. Suddenly the reality of school hits many people. lol.

my attention is giving way to fatigue and restlessness. lol.
grosjean chapter 4 and Best,1995 will have to wait till tmr.

I hacked into calyn's hotmail account and saw this in her email, so decided to do it again (for fun).
here's mine.

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Physical Touch:		9
Acts of Service:		6
Words of Affirmation:		3
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

I think shepherding is kind of a little like being a social worker...
In social work, you empower the person to help himself/herself... in shepherding, you empower the person to be able to walk the path himself/herself (with God). You teach, nurture and generally guide from the side as the person grows older.
In social work, you respect and accept unique characteristics. Same in shepherding.
In social work, you have the willingness to transmit knowledge and skills to others. Same in shepherding. You hate the sinful nature in the person, but you love the person. There really is a difference, trust me.
In social work, there's a commitment to a high standard of personal and professional conduct. In shepherding, there isn't a sort of professional conduct, but we do our best in planning for the person, and do our best for the person to aid in nurturing the person to be the best that he/she can be. And we are committed to a high standard of personal conduct because we follow the standards of God (though as sinful human beings, we fall frequently.)
We believe in self-determination - clients' freedom to make choices and decisions. In shepherding, we don't want the person to just follow what we say. We get our sheep to think, to consider and make choices for himself or herself. Ultimately, it is his/her own life.
hehe.
Of course, as a shepherd, you lead the person not just to himself/herself, but rather to God as well. So that's a very obvious difference I suppose.

My brain's blanking out at what my lecturer is saying. lol.
Guess I'm not that interested in things in the medical setting after all o.O
Social settings, policies and systems surrounding the patient don't quite interest me. I guess physical health doesn't quite interest me (unbalanced. lol)
oh well.
Or maybe it's 'cos my brain has been attending to language stuff and has thus attenuated to things related to physical health.
i heard psychological!

i found the some parts of the remnants of the cockroach. so troublesome. need to clean up.

Learned a lot from the singers and the musicians today :) it's quite amazing how they can listen by ear. haha. amazed at how muahchee can harmonize so well. i'm quite amazed at anyone who can harmonize. lol. i suck at harmonizing (or rather, i don't know how to harmonize:P LOL) i will learn though :S not confident in harmonizing either (harmonizing is a relatively new thing to me. blah).
so many coughing and having sore throats. heh.
supper with jovin and donald was disastrous. stuck between two lame people caused me to wonder why i've decided to come along for supper. haha.
we went to joo seng to want to eat the apparently-very-nice (i've not tried it myself) fishball noodles, but it was closed -.- lol
i'm sleepy and getting relatively incoherent.
there was a small cat (slightly bigger than chi, but still looks like a kitten) who was mewing outside my house just now (at the ledge by the window, to be exact). i was so surprised to see him (yes, he's a he. it's quite obvious on him. not so much on chi o.O)
so i went out of the house to feed him with chi's munchies (since chi doesn't like his munchies so much).. went out two times, 'cos he resumed his mewing position under my window, at the ledge. the second time he started to show signs of affection towards me (by rubbing his cheek against my legs..) and i eh.. well. i started to run away from the kitten. haha.
'cos cats rub their scent off items or humans to mark their territory.. and i didn't really wanna get marked :P chi'll get jealous.
when i came back into the house, chi started to sniff at my legs and ran away from me with his tail down (expression of fear and slight hostility). lol. i washed my feet and my hands.. apparently the scent doesn't go away so fast. lol. oh well.
my house's gonna be rid of pests soon (seeing the rate that chi is playing with cockroaches). he found another one today.. i seriously don't know whether to be glad or to be appalled. lol.
i hope i can wake up tmr:)
woke up at 11.15am (maybe doing things till late at night is not exactly a wise decision when u have sch the next day) when my lesson was at 11am. so i missed the whole interesting lecture by john elliot on history and systems of psychology.. all the talk about descartes, mill, darwin, hall and pavlov. haha.
oh no. chi is playing with the cockroach again.

Restless soul, restless mind, restless body.
Can't sleep, can't settle mind down to sing, can't concentrate.
Decided to do some things on my list of 'Things to be done (As of now..)'.
Why isn't there a job which can allow me to work overnight? hahaha.
Chi is going mad chasing after the big furry toy mouse. I have no idea where the foamy head of the squid has gone to.. or where the rest of the six legs (o.O) of the squid has gone to either.
I like the silence.
I like to listen to the whirring of the fan behind me.
I like to breathe in the cooler air at night.
I like the occasional chi. just occasionally.

-nobody knows how weak I am
better than You
nobody sees all of my needs
better than You
and nobody has the power
to change me
to be all you want me to be
Jesus be strong in my weakness
empower me-

not very sure if i should continue on, or to take up the potential new role. i've gone through its toughest period, and things seem to be going quite smoothly, yet i know that it's not what i'm created to continue doing. it's not my passion, it's way out of my giftings.
the brother mentioned that we may be taking up a position which may better suit someone, which may enable the person to do much greater things than i am doing now in the ministry. he mentioned that it'll probably fit for a while, but the person won't be able to sustain for long.. 1 yr, 2 yrs?
i was thinking to myself.. i've been here for 4 years... kinda overstayed?
lol.
maker.
mission.
what does God want me to do?
5 years? hmm.
chi is making a racket by running up and down.
i know what chi's mission can be. lol
to catch all the cockroaches in my house and kill them. haha.
(and possibly spoil all my stuff in the process. lol)

from 'run lola run', sung by potente (main character) herself --> a short snippet, with excess cut away (meaning that only the parts i like are left. haha)

I wish I was a hunter
in search of different food
I wish I was the animal
which fits into that mood
I wish I was a person
with unlimited breath
I wish I was a heartbeat
that never comes to rest

I wish I was a stranger
who understands the sky
I wish I was a starship
when Saturn's flying by
I wish I was a princess
with armies at her hand
I wish I was a ruler
who'd make them understand

*Chorus:
Never-- I wish...
Never say Never
I wish...
NEVER
I wish...
--SAY NEVER

I wish I was a writer
who sees what is yet unseen
I wish I was a prayer
expressing what I mean
I wish I was a forest
of trees that do not hide
I wish I was a clearing
No secrets left inside

yup okay. down to sleep. one french movie down, another to go..
sidetrack a bit.
it felt interesting, watching a french movie. i'm not used to listening to french being spoken, more used to japanese in what i watch.. so at first i felt kinda uncomfortable having to listen to french and having to be conscious of subtitles..
habituation kicks in after a short while though.
watching french movies 'cos our early lang dev mod requires us to watch at least 2 movies of the same foreign language.. it's for an experiment. haha.

Just finished watching 'run lola run' :D
It started out with me wondering what's so good about watching a person running..
kinda like anime.. or coffee.. or green tea..
the more you have it, the more addicted you are to it.
brilliant movie:) hahaha. love the effects. love the music. love the idea. it's very fresh. few movies make my mind and heart beam. this one did :)
i've got the running song running through my head at this moment.
can't find the right version on imeem.. and can't seem to illegally download it either. so too bad.
Watched 'blue fish' (directed by tim burton) yesterday as well. another great movie. I think i'll need to rewatch that one to get further meaning out of it. i feel i've missed out a great deal. haha. can try watching it too.. got a double meaning (or even triple) behind the title. it's relatively interesting.

To tell the truth, I am relatively disappointed that I didn't get the parttime moderator job. hahaa. cindy said that i shouldn't have told doelee my habbo nick (dun meet requirement of not being a habbo. hahaha!). lol. but oh well. i still think honesty is the best policy :) disappointed 'cos it's probably a job i'll look forward to. hahaha. oh well.
bought my textbooks today :) all look quite dry o.O
hahaa. but i look forward to reading them :) along with the 51 journals from early lang dev. and the dunno how many journals from the social work module.
do you know that if you're a bilingual, your aging onset is slower? so you actually have the potential to live longer :)
so interesting right? something i've learned in the monday bilingualism class. haha.
tsunting was tempting me to take the masters programme for speech therapy programme. lol. but i think i'll die. 'cos 1) i'm lazy. 2) i dun love language that much. lol.
too many things on mind that's unsettled :) too many tracks in mind.
recently (okay, maybe not tt recent), realized that there's someone who's very similar to me :) hahaha. thank God for tt person. hahaha. can learn much from him. yup.

we're going geylang!:)
for a cultural trip.
you can join us too if you want. it's more of an ex caregroup outing though.
we're going to see mimi-s and lulu-s.. the 20s, the 40s, the 60s and the 80s (that's the price per half an hour, according to a reliable source) :P
we wanted to go in a car (safer..) but i guess if the whole group of us go, should be fine. as long as the brothers dun go and do something funny like scold the girls who try to approach them :S
just wanted to see how world is like on the other side of life.
i wonder if i'll ever have the chance to talk to one of them and see how their mentality is like.

eh.
chi is playing with a live cockroach.
O.o
i dunno if i shld just pick the cockroach up and dispose of it to give it a quicker death.

i see .
backing off.

i enjoyed my two lectures today.. though both nearly caused me to want to sleep.
lol
i enjoy the smaller class.
and seeing Dr Tan again today made me feel as if I was seeing an old friend :)
i think i've got lots more to type, but i'm really quite exhausted.
she called me up today for a phone interview. so interesting. just read the job description and i'm amazed at the job scope of the job. it didn't look like it, but it's actually quite a long list of things to do. intriguing i suppose.
i really respect you. i usually react in anger. but i guess i reacted the way i did 'cos i was really hurt, especially when i really respect you.
gosh. fell asleep in front of the comp. goodnight.

Just a random thought.
I am seriously not very good at english =) lol.
it's not a matter of using bombastic words that blow people away, neither is it a matter of being able to form grammatical statements..
it's more of the ability to weave words of intricate meanings into your statements such that a precise delivery of what you really want to bring across or express can be done (i feel).
haha.
and there are many other people who are more brilliant than me in this aspect.. especially the nygep people :P
it's really scary, the way some of them use words (no offence. it's a compliment! haha) they'll splatter unknown words into their sentences and serve it with a nonchalant, i-do-this-everyday manner that cause you to go 'wow'.
you want real life examples in Hope? try talking to jitsy or guan zhen. hahaha.
i am but a mere replica of what i have learned from the people i'm exposed to in secondary school. and i thank God for that :) 'cos i think my english foundation was built then. haha. as well as my love for wordplay.

by right, i should be quite free since i have 2 free days.
by left, i have tons of things (+ a parttime job) to do with renders me busy in these 2 supposedly free days.
thank God for free days.

it's a fantasy job come true :) haha.
work from home.
work in a game.
part time job which is flexible to your schedule.
enforce internet security.
lol.
an extra 640 per month.
hmmm.
now if only my other fantasy job can come true. hahaha.
watch anime and get paid for it. HAHAHA :P

hong teck took us for team coaches course today :)
hahaa.
got to know that last week's attendance was only 5 (there're ard 20 pple in team coaches course), so quite sad.
that's got nothing to do with hongteck taking us for team coaches course though :) lol.
i learned a lot from him today :) i think settling conflicts and problems is an area which is relatively talked about and learned (for me anyway:P).. but still learned quite a lot from today's lessons :)
think something i got reminded of today is that good leadership is non-negotiable.
hahhaa.
something which i've learned today is about the area of strengths..
you know, usually we'll think that when we define strengths, we define it in the area that we're good at, that's we're better at. so, for example, my strength could be that i can read things fast. lol.
hongteck taught us today that sometimes people don't know where their strengths lie. actually, most of the time, it's hard for people to list down their top 3 strengths..
and when he talks about strength, he doesn't mean it in the sense of things that you're very good at, but rather, things which you do that energizes you.
so for example, i may be very good at reading things fast, but if i hate reading, and by reading, it'll cause me to be relatively miserable, that is NOT a strength which i have.
conversely, if i can't read things fast, but i LOVE reading, there's potential for me to grow 'cos my passion will drive me to train myself in that area :)
of course, the best thing'll be that i can both do tt thing well and it energizes me. lol.
self awarenes is very important.(i remember junting commending me before in tt aspect, but i never really understood why there was a need to commend. i've always thought that everyone is equally self aware.)
lol.

tired.
but i think the publicity people (especially jesse and manmi) are even more tired than me.
do pray for them :) they're working hard for the ess this sat =] heh. pray for effectiveness and for God to continually give them the strength to continue on:)
can't do anything much on my part ('cos i dun have the technical knowledge..) but i guess we can all support them by sending smses and praying for them :)
i enjoyed the time today. heh.
or rather, i enjoyed today :)
enjoyed the lecture though i felt it was a waste of time. hahaha. hmm. met a friend there. quite unexpected since it's an english module.. but that friend's from psych:) turns out tt our lecturer majored in psycholinguistics.. so technically, she's a psychology major. no idea why she's based in the english department though :)
enjoyed the talk with the prof. lol. showed him my account.. talked to him a bit about what credits are.. it's 8+/hr. that seems quite high for spending time to talk to people :)
enjoyed the time with jiali :) hehe. though we didn't talk much and spent most of the time talking to other people and finding out how to get clearance from habbo. thanks to cindy who helped us find out from doelee (a moderator from habbo). lol. still wondering if i should apply for the part time position of a mod (mainly considerations about time).
enjoyed the time for ess rehearsal :) it's great to see an idea taking shape. pretty amazing. a lot of changes to be done, but pretty amazing how everything is turning out to be:) lots of things to be learned in the process.. lots of people to learn these things from :)
enjoyed the time after ess rehearsal :) lol. i thought it was really amusing. HAHAHA.
yup. so basically, i enjoyed today quite a bit :) good day. haha.

cracks.
my unconscious mind took over the consciousness yesterday.
fatigued without realizing the extent.

Somehow or another, the topic of bgr and singlehood has been resurfaced in the topics surrounding my life once again (since 3-4 months ago).
could be due to the long overdue unfinished, unchased after article that beckons to be written.
could be due to same gender cg. haha. nice topic to open hearts.
could be due to people we know getting married. yay.
i've had quite a few random thoughts about this area these few weeks as well. lol.
i have been thinking about..
how glad i am for the sisters and brothers who got attached :) may they spur each other on in their love for God and in the vision God has given them :)
how the heart is deceitful above all the things :) haha. that in the past, there've been times when i did foolish things. oh well.
(gotta run. no more time. lol)
Have been reading 'not even a hint' by joshua harris. this is one thing i think we can continually remind ourselves about (amidst many other things written in the book).
haha.
"The opposite sex shouldn't be viewed as a bunch of potential partners - they are men and women created in God's image, whom Christ died to save. They're family! We are given not only the responsibility but also this amazing privilege of looking out for each other - even fighting and sacrificing for each other. This is what true love is about."
i think when this is put into perspective, it helps us to relate to each other more easily with purity, as well as to respect each other.
i don't have the gift of celibacy. there are times when i feel like getting someone close to hug (:P) amidst other things (:P). but then at these times i remind myself (amidst other reminders as well..) that even as we build each other up, we're helping each other to become the man/woman that the future partner is looking for. i'm glad, actually, that it's possible to have the purity in heart in relating to the opposite gender, that we can help each other along.. and at the end of the day, when i see a brother whom i've liked with the sister that he likes, i can't help but applaud the union that God has brought about. and i really thank God for the many things i've learned from brothers i'm close to as well :)

drama. scripts. lighting.
ah!
i love plays :) i love watching musicals :) i love theatre :)
i love creating stories.
i think all of us really have different ways of looking at things.
some of us are concerned about the flow,some of us are concerned about the storyboard, some of us are concerned with the stage directions, some of us are concerned with whether everything links or not, some of us are concerned with the actual acting, some are concerned with lighting (e.g. me.) and some are concerned with keeping to the context of the whole script.
kinda to do with what kinda exposure to theatre we've had in the past i suppose..
it's interesting. it gets frustrating at times. it's exhilarating at others. and it makes you want to puke blood most of the time. oh well.
but i still like theatre :)
i can't appreciate dance performances so much(sorry jiali), and i can't appreciate band and choir performances (guess i'm not cultured enough)... but theatre.. drama.. plays.. musicals. ah. they make my heart sing. good ones.
bad ones make me cringe and cause me to want to throw things at them (i know. i'm not gentle.)
lol.
i think i jump too fast to rejecting or accepting ideas. need to be more open to the ideas first. will grow in that. lol.

And a friend's a friend forever
if the Lord's the Lord of them

yup.
a very very small tribute (i like tributes these days:D) to the two deers (yes. it's a deliberate error:P)
i think it's a very unlikely friendship. haha. seeing that the three of us seem to be quite different (even if we disregard the gender difference).
i thank God that i got the chance to know the two of you though :) to see things from two other perspectives, to learn about life from two other points of view as well.
i still remember the exponential friendship curve we've had in the first three months. then after we knew each other kinda inside-out (ha ha ha ha ha), the curve flattens out a little. but the friendship remained :)
yup. let us continue to build each other up in our various ministries, continue to share our lives, continue to take pictures, continue to try different kinds of food :) lol. continue to have (non)daily convos and continue to give each other weird names:P
come join me in yp soon! (hahaha. kidding:D)
alternatively u two can get married and go to adults (okayokay. i'm kidding too:) later give pple wrong impression. then u two can have extra shepherding =)

when i smell something stinky coming from behind me, i know that's when chi is poo-ing :S and i turn, just to confirm it for myself.
and the smell gradually disappears due to its dissipation, as well as the wonders of anti-bacterial cat litter.
readings for early lang dev is out! 43 in all! so exciting.
i love journals.
ha ha ha ha ha.
looking forward to monday when i meet the prof :D

A certain lethargy, a sort of languidness
A spiritless pile of words.

I'm going to be earning money by spending time on habbo. lol.

Got this forwarded email from yizhong!

[I am looking for student assistants.

If you are a member of Habbo (www.habbo.com or www.habbo.com.sg), please contact me. No programming is required.

The task is to help me in onilne data collection. Student assistants will be paid based on hourly rate. ]

wahahhaa.

It's quite heartening to have brothers and sisters staying near you. haha. i think i'm quite blessed in this aspect, to have brothers and sisters staying near me... can catch up with them on the way home..
for example yaoguo.. i've not seen/talked to him for around 3 years or so, but i got the chance to take the same bus as him (we've never seen each other in the toa payoh vicinity in our lives, much less have the chance to take the same bus) and got to find out a bit of how he is.
when christine (from youth dance) was still in singapore (she's currently overseas, working in disneyland!), we used to catch each other quite often at the interchange and just take the same bus together back (she stays one stop down from where i stay).
now i can take the same bus back as donald after praise and worship prac 'cos we stay one bus stop away from each other as well :)
hmmm.
have seen two other people around too.. like gabriel and this poly leader i don't know the name of. lol.
and today, i found out that siewyee (this sister i met during last friday's genacts event) stays 5 mins (walking time) from where i stay. lol. so amazing :) she's flying off to peru this sunday! she and her hubby only managed to get the house a year+ ago.
maybe when more church brothers and sisters get married, they'll move to flats near me too. hahaa.

One of my favourite songs to play on o2jam (when it was still around. lol).



itchy hands.

All's well that ends well.
v2 is out!:)

i don't like it when people leave me alone to do something (e.g. during exams when you have one last exam and the whole world thinks they're doing you a favour by leaving you alone) and leave you out of the loop.
or when people ask you to do something, and in the end, when they don't need you to do that anymore, they don't update you, they just give you a miss altogether.
it irritates me when there're chunks of missing information in the picture i'm seeing.

thinking if we should change song..lol.
写不出分手的片段。感觉不出失恋的滋味。
有一阵子没有那种伤与痛，所以写不出来。哈哈。
心中蛮开朗的。
听了好多悲伤的歌曲，好像也没什么帮助。

可惜不是你-梁静茹
这一刻 突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天 今天同时在放映
我这句语气 原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点 骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变
却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最后
曾一起走 却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段 我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权利关心你
可能你 已走进别人风景
多希望 也有 星光的投影

感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口
---------------------------------
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句 Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管 只要你能愉快

I can't help thinking about what was shared on saturday about the covenant. hahaa.
or rather, i can't help thinking about the person who was mentioned in the covenant. kinda have an inkling on who it is.. but i guess i can't conclude on the name if it was not explicitly mentioned.
i think in a sense, when i knew that the person has left, the first thought that came to my mind was 'why in the world did he do that?' (probably most people have that thought as well). and even though he's just a person i know, but definitely am not close to, i couldn't help feeling slightly betrayed (strange ah), like he's broken a promise and let us down.
though at the end of the day, he himself is accountable to God for his actions, the repercussions and effects of his departure will never be fully measured until the day when all of us stand before the throne.
I've often evaluated how affected I'll be personally if a leader or someone close to me leaves. And to be honest, I really wasn't much affected by the brother's departure.. until recently when i recalled of the teachings he's given and recalled of all that he's shared to us before.
there're a few leaders whom i respect a lot in Hope, along with a few other brothers and sisters (haha. i love my brothers and sisters, but there're a particular few whom i really respect.) and i couldn't help wondering how i'll respond if they leave. i suppose it won't be to the extent that i will leave God, but it will definitely affect me much more than in the past.

oh yah.
left my laptop at cottage waffle place without realizing it..
me and guan and weez walked around suntec for quite some time after leaving that place, and then while we were walking through citylink to the mrt, i suddenly realized that i didn't have my laptop with me.
lol
thank God for weez and guan who went back to help me look for the laptop. haha. had to rush off 'cos was meeting my mum and the rest of the family to celebrate her belated birthday.
thank God also that the laptop was still there.
i think quite a couple of thoughts went through my mind. lol. the first thought was that God will protect my laptop. the second was of daniel in the lion's den, that if God doesn't deliver, He is still good and I will still trust in Him and praise Him. the third thought was that if he doesn't deliver, maybe He wants me to learn to take better care of my possessions (not the first time i left my laptop somewhere without realizing it. lol) oh well.
and i was thinking how troublesome it would be without a laptop.. haha.
thank God that my laptop was found! hehe.
but a bit tiring to have to go take it. haha.

I realize that there's a difference in the process of producing something and absorbing something. when i'm producing something, i can't have music in the background. when i'm absorbing something, i can. in fact, it might help sometimes.
when i produce something, i can't stay there for long. i need constant breaks. and if i've been producing for some time, i need a long long break.. either i produce something of another genre, or i absorb instead.
i can absorb something for a longer period of time if it's fresh material. old material makes me bored after a while. haha.
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hehee. psycholinguistics is a fascinating area in psychology to me :) it could possibly be due to the fact that my favourite lecturer loves that area, it could also possibly be due to my familarity with the material. hahaa. quite excited to revise what i've learned about this area in early lang development (my 3rd module by my fav prof!) and in bilingualism (i'm interested to hear what they've got to say about this area since my whole independent project was on bilingualism). hahaa.
my specific interest lies more in the area of phonology (phonological representation of chinese consonants in english L1 and chinese L1 speakers was the area i was exploring for my irp). hahaha. i get quite sensitive to the way people talk and pronounce due to the fact that i was critically analyzing how my subjects spoke in the experiments i conducted. hahahaa.
Dr Tan is continuing on what i've explored 2 semesters ago.. she said she's doing something along those lines and requested the sound files from me. hopefully she'll be able to do a better job in analysing the data (my spss skills are not exactly the best) and will be able to contribute much to the relatively untouched area of bilingualism in the very young field of psycholinguistics. imagine a breakthrough in the understanding in that field and part of the credits given to you! woohoo.
singapore is a great place to explore this 'cos of our bilingual environment. hahaa. what an apt place we are placed in :)

there've been times in the past months when i've felt a certain way, when i know what i'm sharing/doing is right, but i don't quite understand/couldn't quite place why it's right.
then during wfl i'll be like "ohhhhh. so that's why i feel like that.." or "yes! i agree with you!" in my heart. lol.
i once thought it's enough to just integrate the principles u've learned into your life.. i mean applying it is important right?:) but i guess it's important to remember where the principle came from as well.. so as to be able to have a reason for why we're doing the things we do :) and to be able to explain it well.
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i can't multi-task well :( it's a weakness. hahaa. sadly.
i usually do one thing at a time. finish up one thing before starting to tackle another. then finish the third before tackling a forth.
tried to do that for the past month or so.. and realized that it's not the most effective way of doing things, looking at the stuff i have on hand at this moment and the time factor.
i need to multi-task. wahaha. faints.

As much I really try to keep an objective mind and unbiasness towards the whole situation, I still can't help feeling indignant for the team.
i think there're points that we cld have done better, and i can identify with how it feels to have the work you've created being criticized and all.. but to harshly put it across that the team doesn't appreciate what was created was a tad too much.
at the end of the day, i thank God that we have a clear conscience. i think the publicity head's done a great job in affirming the people and softly putting the msg across, and i think we're justified in why we gave certain comments.
and God will protect his annointed.

tempted to climb over the 'fence' and into the neighbour's house.
hahaha

YAY! version 1 of the main script has been out (--> a result of cognitive processes going too fast. has been done. is out). Without the character profiles and the mm clips.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
hahaha. but yay! version 1 of the main script is out!
Jesse is stoning.
The two zhongs are looking intently into the same screen.
i'm listening to Mr Q and giving my brain a break before evaluting version 1 of the script. lol.
thank God i dun see blue rabbits hopping around today :D

better give the context.
we're at yizhong's house rushing out things. woohooooooooooooo!