today's match was rather interestinG:) *grInz* turkey scored the first goal @ the 11th second... and after 92 mins and 20 seconds, korea scored the last goaL of the gaMe:) but they stilL lost to turkey by one goal... so the score is 3-2 in favour of turkey. i thInk korea got the last goaL in 'cOs the turkish goaLkeeper was too complacent. oh welLz.

something i read and found interestinG...and famiLiar:)
Researchers are very optimistic a new gene therapy technique has rewritten the DNA of bone marrow cells in two youngsters -- called bubble children because they are forced to live in sterile environments due to severely weakened immune systems.
Italian researchers from the San Raffaele-Telethon Institute for Gene Therapy say the new treatment offers these children the promise of a more normal life. The children -- one 7 months and the other 2 1/2 -- suffer from a rare severe immunodeficiency disorder that usually confines patients to sterile environments to protect them from infections.
The disease prevents its victims from producing an enzyme known as ADA, critical for making infection-fighting agents. There are a couple of treatments -- injections of bovine ADA and bone marrow transplants -- but bovine ADA is expensive and bone marrow donations are not always available and can be toxic.
Gene therapy uses modified viruses to rewrite the DNA of cells to replace defective genes with healthy ones. The researchers removed some bone marrow from the two children and isolated the blood stem cells. They used a harmless virus to infect the blood stem cells with a healthy version of the ADA gene. The findings are in Friday's edition of the journal Science.

cool rightz?
btw, the variety of people sitting on bus 238 getting larger and larger... remember the last time i saw this female with a cool hairstyle? today i saw two people with the beckham fin:) hahahaha... on the saMe bus! and i saw three people chatting about footbalL, another femaLe with a male image... and this girl who looks like she should be at orchard instead of on a bus. oh welLz:)

Twelve
angels descended from Heaven, each
putting a piece of themselves
into those
who would follow them....
Which Angel rests inside
you?
Challenge their trial to
find out.

What Kind of Poet Are You?
well....i must admit this is the second time i've done it... the first time i did the quiz, i got an angsty poet or something:)

what's your inner flower?

[c] s u g a r d
e w

Which flock do you follow?

this quiz was made by alanna
am i really that neutraL?

What kind of person you'll be attracted to in real life situation..
A. Rabbit - those who has split personality, like cold as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.

In the process of courtship, which approach would make you feel irrisistable...
D. Giraffe - patience, never give up on you

What impression you would like to give to your lover...
A. Dog - loyal, faithful, never change

What incident would cause you break up with your partner which character you hate most...
C. Crocodile - ruthless, cold-blooded, ironic

What kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner...
B. Horse - both of you can talk about everything and anything, no secret is kept

Would you commit adultery...
A. Human - you care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage

What do you think about marriage...
B. White Tiger - you think of marriage is a precious thing, once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much

At this moment, what do you think of Love...
C. Horse - you dont' want to be tied by a steady relationship, you just want to flirt around

hahahaa...i find the last one rather amusing:) so sorry. but yeah... i agree with michelle, the test seems to be ermz, well, rather accurate.

Noises humans make in the ocean could be intruding on a courtship ritual of male whales whose long sequences of low-frequency sounds actually are love songs to woo females.
A report on Discovery.com said fin and blue whales attract females from hundreds of miles away, using the ocean's sound channel.
Christopher Clark, a bioacoustics specialist at Cornell Laboratory of Ornithology in New York, said the songs invite the females to "sumptuous krill feasts" before mating. Acoustic pollution from shipping, military sonar and seismic surveys are just some of the noises that humans create in the ocean that could mess up this lovers serenade, making it more difficult for the whales to find each other in the vast oceans. That, in turn, could hamper reproduction and population recovery, the report said.

how interestinG:)
guess whatz? i went to lynette's house today! hahahahaa:) *grInz* *beaMzbeaMz* that fungi person and that sam person didn't quite believe that i am going to MY friend's house and not to someone's house whom fungi knows as well. stupid. to tell the truth, i'm rather curious as to who might be living at serangoon ave 3 as well:) hahaha:) that would be cool.. then next time i can find fungi's friend as well and introduce myself:) *grInz* it's good to make more friends:)
anywayz... she lives at serangoon ave 3 at something Gardens ... i couldn't find her house... so i had to ask this lady who was about to go on a taxi where it is... the bad thing was that i didn't know at that time what the condo's name is... so i asked her this qn " ehz... s'cuse me, do you know where block 502 in one of the condos is? then she was like pointing into the place behind where i was standing:) oh welLz:)
turns out that her house is actualLy quite near toa payoh... only like 3-4 bus-stops away... so niCe:)
now if only i can contact yuerong and ask her where she lives... if i'm not wrong, it should be at serangoon as well.. that is unless she has moved away. oh welLz:)

hey fengyi, Happy Birthday!
*grInz*

- and they say a hero can save us
but i'm not gonna stand here and wait -
*grInz* the song just played on 98.7fm:) came back from the toiLet:) i think i have a terribLe digestive system. hahaha:) oh well... it doesn't seem to like me very much whenever some extremely MAJOR exam ... like the PSLE and the O leVels... and in the future, probably the A levels as wellz:) *grInz* very nice symptons as well... stomach area will hurt and i'll perpectually feel vomitty:) it's not too bad yet this time thouGh:) hopefully it doesn't get worse.
anywayZ, today's FENGYI'S BIRTHDAY hahahha:) she has joined ' the elite group of 16-yr-olds ' as yingxin will say... or something similar to that:) *grInz* so cool... fungi's birthday took so long to come:) hahaha:) and the presents that we have prepared... oh welLz... quite a lot of thought went into them i must say:) i always feel that it's cool when someone has a birthday:) haha:)
i dun really have much to say these few days... except that i just did something terrible... i drank two cups of coffee in a row. oh wellz. i never drank coffee unnecessarily... this is i think the 6th and 7th cup of coffee i've drank in my whole entire 16 years ++:)
caffeine's bad for your health. it decreases your memory:) oh welLz...:)
oooh... trace's typed out the lyrics for the cow song:) cooL!
here it is:)
i am cow
hear me moo
i weigh twice as much as you
and i look good on a barbecue
yoghurt curd cream cheese and butter's
made from liquid from my udders
i am cow
i am cow
hear me moo.
*LoL*:) it's a funny sonG:)

eeeekz...
wanted to update...
but here comes my daily stomachache.
coming back later to update.
this one kinda hurts like eeeekz.

MANZ.
yirui just sent me a whole list of pictures of butches... and wellz. all i can say is that. hmmmz. some of them don't even look like femaLes. there was this picture with the person looking so much like a guy that she (?) makes some guys look like femaLes. hahahaha:)
oh wellz... tomorrow's the talentime thinGie:) *grInz* i hope our class gets in... it's rather cool the way we always work together as a class to perform:) class spirit and all that... and people are so enthusiastic about it:)
FINALLY. i can talk about funGi's present:) hahahaa:) the stupid shop near my house was closed by 8pm! and i couldn't get that earLier 'cos i was in school with trace, qingz and weezi practising the talentime item tilL 6.35pm. oh wellz:) i reaChed home @ 7pm. how disastrous. then my dad had to drive me to bishan to get fungi's present binded:) oh welLz:) i think it looks rather niCe:) hahahaha:)
oh guess whatz? my dad won the lottery with my IC number:) *grInzgrInz*

hahahaha:)



My Song is I Can't Ever Get Enough Of You.

What song are you? Take The Test!
darren hayes rules!

- I love Rock N' Roll
So put another dime in the jukebox, Baby
I love Rock N' Roll
So come and take your time and dance with me -
hahaha:) that's a rather nice song:) i've figured i don't mind rock... just not TOO rock... and definiteLy NOT METAL.
ooh... something i've received from emazing...
Notice: Our company requires no further physical fitness programs. Everyone gets enough exercise:

jumping to conclusions,
beating around the bush,
running down the boss,
going around in circles,
dragging their feet,
dodging responsibility,
passing the buck,
climbing the ladder,
wading through paperwork,
pulling strings,
throwing their weight around,
stretching the truth,
bending the rules,
and pushing their luck!

*grInz* so interesting... i wonder if mum will allow me to go to the fitness club later... considering that today's the starting of the school days and everything eLse:) i've realised that i kinda miss school. hahaha:) it's the -friends-factor- i tell you. you miss the company terribly when you don't see them:) *heh*
oh wellz. shall go down now:) i kinda miss the ladder-stepper too:) hahahaa:) oh guess what? there's actualLy an equipment calLed the Ab-shaper. how funny:)

'broken by you' by jordan knight sounds a tad like darren hayes' songs... the music anywayz:) very niCe:) oh welLz... darren hayes stilL ruLez!
the old popular branch at the carpark is giving a 20% discount on everything:) so cool:) hahaha... i kinda regret buying the A4 sized papers so early though. oh welLz... it stilL has rather nice stuff i guess:) and a couple of literature books i dun mind buying... that is, if i have the money. sadly i don't. i'm going to have to buy a present for isobel and yiLeng... aarGh... stilL has no idea what to buy for the both of them, especialLy isobel. i feel so bad. heh:)
aargh... i've been terribly lazy... wonder if i can finish all my homework by today. hopefully yes. i've got to go to sembawang avenue 3... anyone who knows where it is, please KINDLY lead me there. all i know is that 105 goes there:) *grInz*
oh wellz..some horrendous news... Brian Harvey's getting jailed... he's bankrupt and his wife is sueing him for dunno-wat of their four-year old child. and apparentLy his CD was a flop. so sad. i rather liked 'straight up no bends'... *sighz* it's just that it's not really a CD worth buying. ah wellz. and onto why East 17 (E17) disbanded is 'cos he was caught consuming Ecstasy and he was sacked out of the band... or else he'll still be earing 1.2 millions.
eekz... jordan knight sounds terribLy like a female in 'when you're lonely' how disastrous. i like the speaking part of 'close my eyes' the part when the music changes into some amusing tune:) *grInz* that part's niCe:)
if anyone's free and would like to know about eh-hmmz.. other people in singapore:) here's a rather established homosexual community site set up especially for them:) rather interesting i must add.
it's at Fridae

*grInz*
i'm listening to the jordan knight CD. hahahaha:) shalL go on with my quest of searching for (or maybe more of a saving up money for) the 911 CD with the song ' all i want is you ' inside:) very niCe of the sembawang watever watever which had old archives...:)
eeKz... stomachache.
updating later.
bye for now.

take the antisocial test.


and go to mewing.net. because laura's feeling social.

hahaha... that's cooL:)

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Which Peanuts Character Are You Quiz

i was rather pissed off at myself yesterday night... *grInz* after i got off 238. 'cos i saw this femaLe (at least i think she's a female) and she had a realLy cooL hairstyLe! i wanted to telL her that..hahaha:) but then i've decided that my reputation was more important. oh wellz. actually i wanted to ask her ' are you a homo ' but then i guess that will be rather rude. oh welLz.
there was this guy who was sitting just across of me on the bus... and the female with the cool hairstyle was standing facing him and the guy was like ..peer at the female... then peer over at me... wriggles eyebrows... then peers at her again. hahaha:) it was rather amusinG. oh welLz. the guy anywayz. oh welLz... although i wasn't particularly very discreet. oh wellz once more:)
i wanted to ask the female too how she can stand to have people staring at the way she dresses and her hairstyle, whether she notices the censure from the singaporean society and how she finds the courage to stand up to them.
see ... so many qns unanswered 'cos of my 'face' how dreadful.

' i hope you dance' - Lee Ann Womack
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)

***
i'm in the place where there is no darkness.
how ironic a phrase that is.

tracy has very nicely added some PROFOUND questions for me to ponder..hahaha
something about responsibility. do you think it is a person's responsibility to 'contact everybody to reduce this missing of theirs'? or, in general, do you think it is a person's responsibility to placate everyone who loves you and might get jealous/feel neglected/hurt when you don't happen to spend time enough with them according to that other person(s)?
and how much is it your responsibility?
it wld be easy to say it's all her responsibility of course. but let's say she doesn't even want to talk to me. would it be her responsibility just because i want her to?
but what if you have, say a married couple. and the wife is very open and friendly or something, and inadvertantly hurts her husband. is it her responsibility then to do something about it so that he doesn't feel hurt? or shd he just 'not be so conservative'?

what do you think?
i believe in accurate terms, one should really call everyone up to reciprocate their love and fondness of you... in comfortable terms:) let's just say if i like fungi... and i keep insisting that she calls me, i'll be possessive, and that'll be MY fauLt:) if she doesn't feel like talking, it's her own choice, we've gotta respect her for that:) privacy remember? *grInz*:)
as for the married couple thinGie... i feel that the wife should spend some private and quality time with her husband you know:) it's to keep the romance continuous in their life as wellz:) commitment is important in relationships:) that is... as long as the husband is not TOO demanding...oh welLz.. u noe this kinda stuff rightz, it takes two to tango:)

I Am
Arianrhod
Celtic Goddess of Love and Fertility.
I love everybody!! Like a Care Bear or Barney, I even like people that are stupid or have weird mental disorders!!!!
What Celtic Goddess are You?
Quiz by Aoibhell

i had a dream this morning... it was rather strange, a rather new dream to me... 'cos though the theme is dark, the dark side of the dream seemed almost like a summary, and the main part is focused on the later part, when the colors seem rather vibrant and the setting is almost normal:)
wat's so strange about it is that i didn't particularly feel any strong emotions in it... like fear or anxiety or something. not much anywayz.
yes, anywayz, my dream:) it starts off with this knowledge that i've been terribly abused... and that in order to escape, i have indirectly killed my abuser. btw, my abuser's a female and in my dream, someone i know specifically, of whom the name i shall not mention. be rest assured it's none of my best friends though:) yes anywayz, so i indirectly killed her, and the police are puzzled onto how to rate this case, for i have been abused as well. well, this whole part was very short, and of course, the colors are rather dark - purple, black and lots of shadows. no blood though. i do remember there was a scene of my abuser dying though.
the main part of the dream was that i was walking with fungi and telling her about what i have done. something about 'i don't know whether i'll go to jail" and blah blah...as we walk, we came onto this overhead bridge (covered overhead bridge rather) and met someone i knew... i didn't really care much about talking to that person, just went on telling fungi. then gradually we stopped talking and just walked on. (we're on the streets now..some sort of a basar malam thinGie... a lot of stalls and a lot of aisles..) then i saw two of my juniors and i waved hi to them. they didn't seem to know me though. and last of all, we just chose one of the aisles to walk into... and i asked her if she wants to look at the right side, and she wanted the left or something. the dream ended off with both of us looking at purple clothing.
somehow or another, i woke up thinking about career choices... how strange.

i intended to start this blog with a serious note... but somehow or another, i mistook zhuang hui for isobeL... so currently i'm in an amused mood:) do excuse me if i sound too flippant about the topic (although i have absolutely no intentions of doing so.)
- and the thought crosses my mind, if i never wake in the morning,
would she ever doubt the way i feel about her in my heart -
'game of deceit' ended off with a very touching scene of zhong zheng hugging yulin and telling her that she's his wife and that he loves her.
- so tell that someone that you love,
just what you're thinking of,
if tomorrow never comes -
i guess it may seem very common... but what's so special about this is the circumstances that have led up to this confession. wellz, the basic plot of this story is that yulin and zhong zheng were forced to marry each other... and that they used to keep quarreling with each other. but they've decided to tolerate each other 'cos of their fathers. oh wellz. one's gotta have seen the entire show to understand fully what i'm talking about.
anywayz, the last scene got me thinking (once more) about how everyone of us needs a bit of caring of sometimes... that when one grumbles about other people not caring about them, one has to consider about how other people needs care and loving as well, that they're not the only people on this earth that matters... that the a person belongs to the whole community. without the person, the community can still exist, whereas without the community, the person won't even be there at all (literally and figuratively).
then wellz, it got me reflecting upon what i have read previously. something about how couples marry 'cos of the exhileration and excitement they get while being with each other...and that the basis of the whole relationship is 'cos of the mystery surrounding the other party... but as these fade as the years go by, and finally one day they realise that their relationship has nothing else to base on, the couple will split. rather saddening.
and finally, it got me to ponder about relationships in a whole (it's always relationships huh?)... how i've said before that some people view relationships with other people so flippantly that it saddens me a lot. (friendships etc.)
that's all i've gotta say for the pondering part. let me post and publish this first:) just in case...

You were male in your last earthly incarnation.

You were born somewhere around the territory of what is now know as modern North India, approximately in the year 1425.

Your profession was: builder of houses, temples, cathedrals.

A brief psychological profile of you in that past life:
You had mind of a scientist, always seeking new explanations. Environment often misunderstood him, but respected his knowledge.

A lesson that your last past life wishes you to learn in your present life is:
Your lesson -- to study, to practice and to use wisdom, enclosed in psychological sciences, and in ancient manuscripts. With strong faith and hard work you will reach your real destiny in present life.

hmmmz
i had a dream about fungi telling me over the phone " how nice " and the first thing i thought was that she has read my blog. hhahaha:) how stranGe:)
terribLe disastrous... i just got bitten two times by a mosquito... should haVe kilLed the unknown flying creature i saw just now...attempted to bathe clover yesterday night.. *grInz* it wasn't particularly very successfuL...'cos cLover kept climbing out of the tub of water i've prepared for her... and she kept trying to run away when i wiped her fur with a wet cloth. oh welLz..her fur ended up to be all scruffy and everythinG:) very amusinG:) but now she doesn't stink that much:) wonderfuL:)
did a bit of reflecting and scaring myself yesterday night:) haha:) i was just thinking that i have ONLY 2 more years before i get into the university, only 5 years more before i'm officially known as an adult and probably has to make decisions.. and a few years more before i have to go out to work. how freaky.
oh welLz...something i've received from quickinspirations.com this morninG:)
'Thus nature has no love for solitude, and always leans, as it were, on some
support; and the sweetest support is found in the most intimate friendship'
fungi's going off with her family for an annual getaway starting from today...

i hereby conclude that that fungi person has a way of making peopLe miss her when she's not around. hahaha:) 'cos it happens to me, to traCy, to qingz... and goodness knows who else. oh wellz. rather cool to have the ability to get people to miss u:) although i guess it's gonna be a tiring responsibility as wellz... to make sure that u contact everyone so as to reduce this missing of theirs. oh wellz.
- u're not here by it's okay
i assure you that it's alright -
i'm gonna miss everyone when i go into JC. *sighz*. like absolutely everyone. the people i'll miss the most will probably be the ones whom i have been closer to... wellz, there's qingz, weezi, jitsy (especialLy, since she's moving to shanghai...), fungi, tracy, isobel, grace, joanne, nina, shauna, huiyuan, yileng (i should call yileng soon:)... i dunno...
i dislike emotions... 'cos i can never explain them fully in language... *sighz*

ahz... terrible... the msg which i posted and published yesterday seemed to have been lost in internet space. oh wellz:) *grInz* all that i can say is that ehz... wellz... i like fungi's present:) haahaha:)
- wise men say,
only fools rush in,
but i can't help falling in love with you
shall i stay,
will it be a sin,
but i can't help falling in love with you
like a river flows,
surely to the sea
darling so it goes
some things are meant to be -
*grInz* the above is one of the songs that we have decided to sing during busking:) hahaha... for youth day:) i think what we're doing for youth day is really so wonderful... selling the necklaces, bracelets and handphone hang-thingies... and doing busking... then we're also taking part in talentime:) grace has this wonderful idea of doing a remix of 'twinkle twinkle little star':) i trust that no one from the other classes read this blog and copy our beautiful idea:)
another song for acapella busking is:
- the snow is falling, the city is white
your eyes are shining like diamonds tonight -
that was 'this gift' by 98 degrees:) went to zhang laoshi's house today to visit her and the baby:) she got a very teeny baby that likes to frown..hahaha:) he's called Samuel Ho Yi Xin:) i think the name sounds nice... now that it's typed out, it looks kinda like yingxin's name:) *grInz*:)
my family members gave me a shock just now... i went home, then i saw no one at all... at 9.15pm! my goodness... so i started checking all the cupboards and everything.. to make sure they're not like u noe...tied up or something. i was so glad to see clover:) hahaha:) clover looked rather glad to see me too:) then i went to bathe... and halfway while bathing i heard a sigh... and the thing is i didn't hear anyone coming in...so i was rather freaked out... but then i didn't think much of it... then i heard the tap running. it was so freaky. i couldn't hear any footsteps or anything. hahaha:) but in the end it turned out that it's just my mum who has come home from social interaction with our neighbours from the other block. oh wellz:)
missed fungi today... it was like, me and qingz were saying on the way to novena square to eat about how fungi should have been with us. guess it's 'cos we're rather used to going out with her. oh wellz. i miss jitsy too. so currently i miss fungi and jitsy. hahaha:)
i saw this guy today on the mrt... usually i'm not as crazy about 'cute guys' as qingz...rather, this guy kinda caught my attention 'cos he had a nice zipper shirt on:) hahaha:) it was really niCe! wellz, he's about 170 - 173 cm (my estimation)_and his hair is shaven... so i guess (guess...) that he's in the army as well. oh wellz. he was on the same train as me from toa payoh to tanjong pagar... then he got off. oh wellz:) i feel rather sleepy:)
zzz. collecting the ordered stuff tomorrow:) zzz.

So which letter of the alphabet matches YOUR personality, huh?

*grInz* i forgot to mention that jitsy is currently in shanghai... in some hotel thinGie at the service dunno-wat:) hahaaa:)she's been there for the second day in the row ... and apparently she forgot alL about the abundance of dog meat there. oh wellz. hopefully she hasn't consumed any. i do detest the idea of people eating dog meat. how terrible of them.
hui qing's being extra hardworking by starting to revise her work...argh... oh wellz... at least i've started to do my physics. hahaha:) and i thought i could let me brain have a little rest after the intense concentration on homework for the past two weeks...it's rather strange to get the brain working once more after letting it rust for so long. hahahaha:) shall finish up physics today. worksheets 11-14 or some-sort of a similar stuff. the prob is i can't find my worksheet 13-14.heh:)
i've sort of figured out why qingz and i are best friends:) hahahaa:) i mean... besides all those sharing of dunno-watz, window-shopping, listening to music, doing crazy things, ability to communicate well (hopefully) and shared telepathy (dee-dee-dee) nah... there's also 'cos i'm able to just share all my crazy ideas with her without the fear of her laughing at me or anything. as in... like maybe i have this crazy poem or something or just this bongus idea or something...i'll be able to tell her without being afraid of her u noe... perhaps looking down on me or jeering at me:) not that all the other people will (hopefully once more), but there's always this uncertainty about how they'll view me. at least i know qingz will be there:) and jitsy too:)
isobel is just too kind.
oh wellz.. i don't know. i can't really explain either. strange things friendships are. i mean, i know i'll never you know look down on someone or anything like that...and i know my friends will prob not do that to me too... but the uncertainty still lingers around. oh wellz. you know whatz? it's really terribly difficult to tell others that you'll always support them, be with them... blahblah 'cos they prob won't believe you... anywayz, it's always easier said than done. that's why i try to be a good friend (not that i'm succeeding too well:) whenever i can be.
oh wellz. i can't bring my ideas across very well. forget about it.
have a nice day:)
- i wanna thank you my friend for making me feel worthwhile -

do allow me some time to wake up my right brain (the part where music and emotions and dunno-wat-stuff comes in:) *grInz* 'cos i feeL like my left brain (the detaiLs and listing part) is over-exerting itself. hehee:) everything's rather boring to me now:)
- strangely out of place -
listening to 98.0 now...can't seem to appreciate the music. it's an absoLuteLy horrendous feeling i tell you... not being able to feel the emotions intertwined into the music... to pour ur soul into the container of lyrics...to allow the music to enrapture ur whole beinG:) like there's a barrier (or just this unwillingness) between u and the musiC...hmmz.
and i feel terribly uneasy... like i should be finishing up the physics and geog worksheets in front of me right now and i'm being a sloth and not doing it... i should finish up the physics later:):):)
i like talking to people:) like actualLy u noe... talking to them in real-life, not just online or something...
'cos in real-life u can hear the voice, and u can actually try to visualize how the voice would look like... like perhaps very round or just a deep pool of water or maybe it's like really airy or somethinG:) then u can feel the emotions they're radiating out... and occasionally touch can be established:) it feels satisfying to be touching someone... the ruffling of the hair, the patting of the back...
just an innocent tap on the arm:) very niCe indeed:)
it's rather saddening to see that people view touching as a sort of taboo now or somethinG...like whenever touch is established, it is viewed with strange eyes...or people think too much of it. that when children are asked to hold hands, they go 'ewwww'.
well... i admit i used to be afraid of touch too... it just felt strange and abnormal to me in the past u noe... like i'll feel uncomfortable or something...but i've learnt:)anywayz... it's not exactly my fault either (hahaha... shifting the blame:) 'cos my family doesn't make contact with each other.
except my grandmother. bad memories. that was a long time ago though..when i was 5 or 6 or something. oh wellz.
- if u touch me, i won't run -
so coincidental, i quoted this line from the song playing on the radio now:)
oh cooL! 'strange relationship' is playing on power 98:) hahaha! @ 12.08 am:):):)
DARREN HAYES ROCKZ!

hmmmz.
blogger.com didn't allow me to 'post and publish' my entry yesterday... so currently i can't really recall what i wrote about yesterday...:)haha:) oh welLz... basically, yesterday i went to Seoul Garden to eat and went to the UK funfair. spent about $45 there... took three rides (Wild Mouse, Space Fall and Frisby) and played a whole variety of games:) hahaha:) well... it was rather fun i guess... though i feel extremely exhausted.
today.
yes today:) today wasn't too clear either...all i've remembered is that i slept during the last 20 mins of physics 'cos i was too tired. woke up @ 5 today to finish up and touch up on qingz's testimonial:) hope it sounds niCe enough:) i think it sounded rather cooL:) hahaha:)
- sometimes late at night
i lie awake and watch her sleeping -
went to nina's house with fungi to watch the taped NBA finaLs of New Jersey against the Lakers. they can really jump really high... and they return to their positions very fast... no wonder they're (as nina called them) 'cream of the crop'....:)
i feel like i'm merely dictating what i did today... really terribLe. i can't think much today... 'cos i'm too sleepy. oh wellz.
someone's present's going rather well though:) hahaha:) *beamz* thankz to very niCe peopLe:) oh yeah! i forgot to say... i met adeline at the funfair. so interesting:) lady luck's with me:)
i can't blog properly today. aarGh.

i think my junior mistook me for a guy or somethinG...
she probably thought that i was some guy she liked or something similar.hahaha:) rather amusinG once u think about it:) 'cos she just went 'love you' on icq to me.
i am SO amused. nvm:) sister's loitering around. i just shooed her out. oh wellz.
i just learned that qn moot means qn not valid. from nina:)
my brain can't function now...probably went into sleeping mode. shall try lay-ups tomorrow. i can't do lay-ups. so sad. oh wellz:) i'm thinkinG of going back into learning wushu... under the same teacher... 'cos that's the national style. it'll probably give me an easier chance to get into the national wushi training team too. oh wellz. hopefully i haven't forgotten the basics. gotta start training all over again though. still considering.
that's all for today. sleepysleepysleepysleepysleepysleepy.
yawn.

*grInz* i'm supposed to go off and bathe now... but well, let me just add something in:)
i feel very productive these two days... 'cos i was actually happily doing maths...(relative velocity) and the thing is... i understand it completeLy:) hahaha:) rather good... got back a bit of my confidence about maths, and the fun in doing the questions (like in primary school, when i enjoyed doing the questions:) can't be too complacent thouGh:)
went to semakau isLand today:) surprisingly, there isn't any smell...hahaa:) mrs yak and the other geog teachers turned out to be rather fun-loving:) hahaa..mrs yak has on shoes with colorfuL shoelaces. rather amusinG to us:) ferry was rather luxurious... and the information learnt are actually quite interestinG:) we had a tour around the island, with us stopping at the end of the openings of the east bunds. it's very scenic.. and we were just standing there and enjoying the unblocked view of the sea and the breeze:) hahaha... we should really have a picnic there or somethinG:) btw, me, qingz and joanne also saw a flying fish. so cool you know. it leapt out of the water and went back in:) and we saw a stock by the waters. mrs yak they all took a small bus while we were in the big one... so they got to walk through the mangrove. wasted a chance with nature:) *grInz*
sea was beautifuL:) when we went back, it was like...one side of the ferry's experiencing a thunderstorm, while the other side is having rather 'fair' weather:) it continued like this for quite a while before the other side had rain as well. cheese and bacon on toasted bread was niCe:) it was offered by mrs yak 'cos we were hungry:)haha:)
we really did enjoy ourselves, as in trueLy loved going there:) (even with the boring video clip) $13 was worth it:)
i shall feel productive once more later ... when i finish up on qingz's testimonial and lit hw:)
there's otah tonight:)
darren hayes is on 'all day thursday' tomorrow on 98.7fm:)

hmmz...i thought i smell popcorn. how interestinG:)
my whoLe body feels exhausted today... *yawn* hahaha:) played basketball with fungi and nina near their houses... then lost all my energy somewhere there and couldn't move properly. how terrible. i can't do lay-ups properly... gotta practise:) practice makes perfect remember? cliche cliches...*grInz*:)
my forth uncle from my dad's side died today... the one who had the same mother as my dad... he died of cancer. so did his mother... then i was just thinking about how our chances of getting cancer are higher. oh wellz:) parents have gone to 'shou ye' at the place...i'm not allowed to go... something about 'xiao hai zi zhui hao bu yao qu". hmmz.
and the worst thing is... i don't even feel much.yes...maybe it is a pity that someone died... one more valuable talent (everyone has a talent:) gone from this world... but then i don't like feel really sad or something. if clover dies, i'll probably be really depressed. oh wellz... i choose to believe it's not entirely my fault...'cos i've never met that uncle... i've seen his son and son-in-law though:) don't you think it's rather sad? i mean... hey manz, he's my uncle afterall! i'm supposed to be down now that he has gone off to heaven and left the mortal world. the result of LARGE families... especially my dad's ... 11 or 12 siblings in all... two mothers...how confusing. i have like 30 or 40 over cousins and triple times that number of nephews and nieces with some grand-nephews and grand-nieces. haha:)
oh yes! before i forget...NBA FINALS THIS THURSDAY! i'll check out the time once more:) CHANNEL 5:) wonderfuL:) they look so cooL playing basketball. hahaha:)
i feel like going to sleep. zzz. heh:)

wonderfuL:)
i've managed to clear the problems... i've finally realised that you can't exactly combine a targetted object with an image 'cos the axis of a particular point on the picture will happily interfere with the URL. that's how those people who did the 'click on any part of the picture to win a certain prize' actually managed to do their things. cool:)
so... to allow the picture to be on my blog as well as allowing others to get to my guestbook, this is the best i can do. btw, this is from zhuang hui.
Victoria concert hall.
13th June 2002

$8. $10. $12. $16.

The Chinese High String Orchestra.
German International School Chamber Choir.
- i've been thinking and here's what i've come to conclude
sometimes the distance could be more than what two people can use -
i've heard from my parents a few days ago that the family that was killed (or rather mother and daughter if i'm not wrong) by the maid is the one who was living in my flat and moved to sengkang last year. poor them.
i'm having an abnormally high temperature (in comparison with my hamster's temperature) rather strange 'cos i haven't been taxing my brains out or anything. in fact, i haven't done anything much. played basketball... a bit of it anywayz, listened intently in class (though i was as usual, half dozing off) and went home to sleep. perhaps it's 'cos i slept with wet hair. i've got a tad of a headache too. manz... my physical health seem to be dropping. how absolutely terrible and horrendous.
i feel like just keeping quiet today... just feeling the presence of oneself in the world, the presence of others around you. using other sense rather than hearing. make it more real:) sound does blind us to how wonderful the person can actually be sometimes:)

oh manz... this is rather scary...i took this 'fill up your room' thingie at http://www.umbra.com/room/go.html... and wellz... this is what they say about me.
All about U... attitude
you are a cheerful, optimistic person, emotionally grounded and outwardly friendly,there isn't a soul that wouldn't trade places with you.
but there is a dark side.
as the sky opens up and unleashes its fury, so does your temper. luckily, it is tempered with a kind, loving, nurturing soul.
All about U... lover
your love ranges from the passion of beethoven to the intricate beauty of mozart.
your relationship is based on an enduring trust and classical balance that helps you rise to the highest level of understanding and passion.
All about U... style
people look to you for fashion advice.
mixing and matching colors, doing crazy things with your hair.
you are trendy and eclectric (whatever this word is) but far removed from the mainstream. parts of your wardrobe are a blast from the past.
you are no stranger to vintage clothing.
(i think this one's rather strange)
All about U...relationships
toiling with transparent glee.
revealing a person that covets his/her close friend or loved one. an individual that doesn't necessarily embrace each new person he/she meets, but whose trust and affection must be earned over time.
honesty, truthfulness and loyalty are highly regarded.
All about U... problems
your problems are small but they do exist. you run in fear from big problems - foisting them over to your larger parent.
but not all problems can be avoided and the garbage has to go somewhere. sometimes you overflow in extreme moments and refuse to accept more problems than you can handle.
in the deepest corner of your being you believe, as do your parents, that problems should not be hidden from sight but are better handled in a transparent, translucent and open manner.
All about U...future
as time passes, space becomes more real and precious. life takes on a whole new meaning.
your appreciation of things old and new will take you places many can only imagine.
you look to fulfill your love of travel as soon as possible and have already seen more of the world than others have in a lifetime.

rather interesting...hahaa:) oh well..there's something wrong with my guestbook address... i've gotta change it soon.. maybe later. going off to rest. i feel extremely exhausted:)
- when you're weary
when you're down and out
lay your hands on me -

heyheyhey:)
*grInz* sunday today
anything to say?
do come to the bay
enjoy the sun's rays
and we'll make some hay:)
ahz. crap. i'm in a perfectly delighted mood. hahaa:) yesterday's career conference was wonderfuL:) the first guy, Mr Arthur F Camazzi was extremely funny:) *grInz* he's not afraid of being laughed at, and he knew how to get the whole audience moving. i found the exercises of getting into different postures (the warrior, the child, the lover and the king) rather interesting, rather profound ideas. i think i'm going to flunk my SATs in JC... all the questions that one of the speakers posted are all ehz... rather foreign to me. how sad. the professional sharing workshops weren't too bad i guess, gave me some insight onto what these people are doing. the lawyer came from the Lee and Lee company or something similar... which isobeL says is the company in which Mr Lee Kuan Yew's lawyer came from. how interesting:) oh yeah... we had a lot of breaks. three in all... and we were eating in all the breaks. i think the school's afraid of us being starved or something:)
- i wanna thank you my friend
for making me feel worthwhile -
i'm going to add a guestbook in here soon...rather than my e-mail address:)
my poor clover's still sneezing while i'm gradually recovering.
- governments elected nobody votes
politically correct isn't that a joke
we censor music then give children guns
on CNN, still fighting to death over Jerusalem
four letter disease still makes us run
can't comprehend that you can die from love -