Idealists want to search for Self, to become themselves, to have a goal, a purpose in life, to be self-actualized, to be and become real, to be what they are meant to be and to have an identity which is uniquely theirs, to become self-actualized into a perfect whole and to have an identity which is perfectly unique, to have meaning, to have their significance appreciated, or at the very least, recognized as existing, to have integrity, that is unity, with no facade, no mask, no pretense, no sham, no playing of roles, to be genuine, to communicate authentically, to be in harmony with the inner experiences of self, to avoid a life of bad faith, to live a life of significance, making a difference in the world, to experience life as a drama, to be sensitive to the subtle gestures and metaphoric behavior in relationships, to help others become kinder, warmer, and more loving human beings, to reform the world, to romanticize their experiences, their lives, and the experiences and lives of others.

haha. what's a life of bad faith? o_O
i think the authenticity and meaning in life part and reforming the world part is quite true though. haha. romanticizing would probably come in the part of sacrifice and passions.
i guess it's always disheartening to know that 'oh. quite a lot of people are mainly concerned about money, or possessions, or how faous they become..' not that i'm not concerned about them, but i always always believe that there's so much more than this. but i'm limited as well, with the resources that i have, by the selfish desires within me.
it's true that the worst thing u can possibly do to another person is to be apathetic. it's like the person's not even worth you dispensing any ounce of emotions anymore. not just to a person, but to a cause, or to what one has always fought for.

whatever is worth it is never easy.

there's a continual need to ask God for a renewed heart. and for the courage to not be scared of being hurt again. a continue fight for the passions to be kept alive. to shine and show the apathetic world that life is beyond just the apathy, or the mundane, or being resigned. that there're still things worth fighting for in the fallen world, to an eternal cause commissioned not by us, but by the God who created us.
we're called to live, and not just called to be living.
that we're called to fight, to be sparks against waves of sluggishness.
and called to share our lives, called to support, empower, be faithful, persevere, to love, to forgive, to continue to strain to grasp hold of what is worth it.