Came back not long ago from the appointment with a certain job agency. The appointment was made after a call yesterday about a job as a medicine packer. Supposed to meet Venetia and the rest to go do up the momento, but realized that i was quite tired as i settled and saw chi. had to entertain chi for a while. now he's asleep.
i feel slightly fatigued as well.
Didn't really have to wear formal clothes i guess, since it's just the filling up of a form for temporary employment. Was sitting there and waiting for further instructions when I realized how bored I was, sitting in the office looking at articles about human resource and attempting to read a magazine with an article about using psychometric testing to find people with the right job-fits for positions.
my soul yawned.
I told them that I'm not free during the camp period. So they've to check with the client if she's okay about it and get back to me again. Don't know how they'll respond if I told them I'm not free for matric camp period either. lol. Or for a period of time in July. Think they might slaughter me?
Anyway, it's silly. One of the persons who was talking to me (supposedly the lady boss) offered me the temp job in her company, to sift through resumes to do job-fitting. 5.50/hr. 8.30am-5.30pm daily. lol. i turned down the job.
so actually, it's not that hard to find jobs afterall? :l
ah. chi is being noisy. and he was so huai dan just now. kept jumping off the bed and running into the living room when mao mi is in the kitchen. what if he gets eaten up!

Heh. went to buy some clothes for the appointment tomorrow. no idea what the appointment is for though. maybe to sign some stuff? LOL.
anyway, i got a call today (while meeting weiling:D so she's there to share my joy with me. haha) from this lady who asked me if i'm interested in a part time job. yup. as a ...
medicine packer
lol. sounds weird ah.
come to think of it. i wonder if it's the same job that i was looking at. lol. anyway, if it is, the pay is supposedly 8/hr. and the working hrs are from 10pm to 8am XD wahahaa.
i'll be used to thon-ing overnight after this. lol.
just don't call me out before 3pm:S
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hehe. chi is a lap cat :) my mao mi isn't. but chi is. he's sleeping on my lab again. hehe. it's official!
Guan mama a.k.a GUAN RUI has asked for permission from his parents to take care of chi for 1 week. THANKEW GUAN MAMA! :) you took a big load off my heart.
and thanks to everyone else who were concerned about chi/offered to take care of chi :)
i feel like a mum. *faint* in whatever i do, chi comes into consideration. LOL.
but quite fun to play with him, feed him (when i'm free), watching him grow/gallop/run around the house. lol.
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lol.
chi vomitted.
quite a lot somemore.
hope he feels better now.
he was still quite energetic after vomitting O.o
went to the box i made for it to play and vomitted a bunch of liquidy stuff there O.o
lol. wellus.

Got this from kimchun :)

Add a rainbow in front of your name in MSN

more updates for Chi!:
Silly thing is getting plumper O.o how? and i suspect he doesn't get enough exercise.. being cooped up in my room most of the time. Then again, i wonder if he's of the right size O.o
wanted to buy kmr 2nd step (to aid in weaning our dear Chi) from Pet Lovers' centre.. but they don't have. the guy said:
"first step, 2nd step, all the same.."
then when i asked about the weaning thing.. they said that 5-6 weeks too young to wean. apparently, the digestive system is unable to take it.
oh well.
shall feed him on milk a little more then:)
so far so good.
no diarrhoea.
no eye infection.
got some injuries on the face (no idea how he sustained them though O.o)
have yet to clean out his cage. maybe i should go it later. before he goes to sleep.
he's sleeping on the same chair i'm sitting on now:)
hehe.
wikipedia says that domestic kittens tend to be more affectionate and dependant on humans. hahaa.
anyone wanna take care of him permanently?:) i'll miss him.. but taking care of 2 cats concurrently is killing me (literally).
you have to spend your energy in taking care of the small one, and making sure that the big one don't feel neglected/pacify the big one when she feels jealous. lol.
financially dying too.
i was thinking about how i should bring him for another vet trip to check against ringworms, as well as the need to vaccinate/neuter him soon. and i went to check the vet fees and was like O.o
love offering, anyone? LOL. kidding kidding.

urgent urgent
I need someone who is able and willing to take care of Chi for around 5 days... specifically from 5-8 June. Going for adults camp in Shah Alam and it's very troublesome to apply for permit to bring a live pet into malaysia:S i need to pay entry fee and quarantine fee. faint. and my pet is not vaccinated! LOL
I need someone who's patient and loving and able to feed chi regularly (e.g. every 8 hours too.
chi is very easily attached to humans. hahaa.
he'll snuggle up to you, he'll follow your legs if he knows your scent. he'll play with you if he's comfortable.
he's not toilet trained though. but he likes to pee and poo at fabric areas (specifically the same spot once he finds his favourite spot. LOL).. so i prob will supply the fabric if needed. will try to train him to pee/poo there O.o lol
he usually pees/poos before and after eating. so yup. it's VERY OBVIOUS.
hmmm.
he'll suckle too. usually after drinking milk. it doesn't hurt. don't worry :)
so yup.
if you fulfill the following criteria and would like to take care of a kitten for a while and enjoy the presence of an innocent playful wide-eyed kitten, do sms me ASAP. thanks.
preferably someone who's seen chi before.
do help SPREAD THE WORD AROUND! :)

My life can be segmented into different areas these days. It can be logged. LOL.

Family
Contemplating a trip to hongkong instead of Taiwan 'cos a trip to Taiwan will take up approx $1100 per person. That's a lot! lol. My mum insists on a holiday trip this year 'cos they've never been on a holiday before and she wants to have the chance to go overseas once in her life. Along with my dad. She says she may not be alive to wait for me to graduate and treat her in the future. O.o

Ministry
Went to observe the rehearsal for Sat's service today!:) hahaa. So intriguing. Amazed and amused to see Jobb in the sound ministry. hahaa. The reality of being in the singers' ministry settles in as I observe them practicing for Sat. So much things I don't know! lol. e.g. harmonizing. faint. lol. Thanks to the people who were so fun loving and eager to be excellent in it :) Got to know a few people more! hahaa.

Work
Sent out two resumes (so far. not a lot ah) for part time temp jobs. No replies yet :( LOL.

Chi
Chi is getting 'stickier' by the day :l

hehee.
it's time for another update on Chi (if you ain't sick of him yet.)
yes.
it's officially confirmed! Chi is a boy!:) why? because!
And Chi now knows how to
1) PEE
2) POO (he shakes back and forth as he poos. probably to get the rhythm going :D)
3) PLAY WITH ME! (he'll flip on his back and try to snatch at my fingers with his paws and put them into his mouth!.. hehe. there was once when he bit and i exclaimed in pain, then he didn't dare to open his mouth after that. hahaa. so silly)

oh yah. for those who don't know..
Chi now knows how to drink from the spoon! in an extremely messy manner though:S not the licking kind. it's the drinking kind. licking from the bottom of the spoon. faint.
And silly chi is now nicknamed/named Emochi by me. 'cos he's silent and emo. lol. likes to play and snuggle up, but still silent and emo.
he's very nian ren. every morning at 7am, i have to take him out of his carrier. then he'll snuggle up beside me (near my neck) to sleep. silly thing.
and he follows my legs when i put him on the living room floor to walk! lol.
yup. that's all for updates on chi!

growl.
snarl.
snarl
bite. bite. bite.
growl.
RAWR.
SNARLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

i think i am a strange person.
perhaps many people think they are strange too.
1) i get bored easily.
2) if something which i think is very worthwhile to me is available, i don't get bored with it.
3) if i don't get to dabble much in the thing which i think is worthwhile to me, i get bored again.
4) things which i don't see the potential in, i may drop it very quickly --> doing things out of responsibility is not very appealing to me/will only get substandard things from me.

lala.

i can't finish making them:(
and i'm sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
and it's about 3 hrs to my waking up time.
lol
and i've not packed my bag!

At ang mo kio macs typing this out. Waiting for bobo and venven to come. haha.
just came out from bo's house.
the uni main com and sub com pple were discussing together yesterday night, all in preparation for uni camp .. which is..
TOMORROW!
quite encouraged by the spirit of the people:) have been quite tired in the past few days due to taking of chi/sleeping late (can't remember because of what)/ preparing stuff ard.. this whole week feels more tiring than last exam week 'cos
1) not enough sleep continuously
2) haven't had chance to recover from the brunt of exams
3) no time to properly plan out things to do. plans have to be changed accordingly. plans have become VERY flexible. hahaha.
but quite enjoyable i suppose. though the fatigue is probably getting to lots of people.
encouraged by michelle. who stayed overnight at bo's house with us to tie down things with the programming pple. and she still has work today :) and in view of the fact that we still have 3 and a half days of camp ahead.. woohoo.
encouraged by sze hua, who was so meticulous and detailed in handling logistical stuff that it amazes me. hahaa. thank God for her charm XD
encouraged by weiling (who's probably reading this..), who continually ponders about how to improve on the games, wishing to make it more excellent :) jiayou wor!
encouraged by joyce lim. hahaa. served with her last year for alpha.. think i really enjoy serving with her.. 'cos her spirit is very sweet:) and very uplifting. and she's willing to learn:)
encouraged by bo. who willingly opened up his house for 5 sisters. hahahaa. and hosted us even as he's very tired. thank God for his continual silent 'do-it' spirit for God:)

hehe. encouraged by ven and lishan as well! but will type that another day. especially for venven :)
i think a verse that keeps coming back to me is that of
"Unless the Lord builds the house
the labourers labour in vain."
which is really true. think we labour because we really hope that the uni camp can touch the hearts of all the people who're going.. all 180 of us.

and unless people go, the efforts will all go to waste.
if people are willing,
God can move in a mightier way than you can imagine.

I guess taking of a cat is not as easy as it seems. lol.
It's time consuming, financial consuming and energy consuming.
hehe.
anyway chi's definitely growing bigger! though not as big as how I'd like him to be. he's still small enough to be carried in two palms. I think it's a him anyway:)
and he's very worrisome! think he drinks milk the wrong way.. so everytime will burp/fart out a lot of air. it's very scary. sometimes he'll hiccup.. and it makes you wonder what's wrong. 'cos his eyes will go very big and become very watery, and he's just keep expelling a lot of air. and there's nothing you can do but stroke its back/pat its back, in the hope that it helps to get the air out sooner.
but he's getting stronger:) he can now climb out of the carrier on his own. woohoo. and much faster too.
a bit quieter today.. after the traumatic event of falling off my bed. and the traumatic event of being forced to drink from a shallow dish. it got very quiet after that:l and got quite reluctant to suckle. he's since recovered (i hope).
i don't have the time to take care of it. lol. especially with uni camp coming up and all. don't know what to do then.
and the milk powder is diminishing soon!:) he now drinks the whole portion at one feeding (the big spoonful of powder).
and he doesn't like his carrier anymore.. so now he wanders ard my bed most of the time.
okay. i know some people find it unhygenic. i don't really care at this moment anyway. he's so small! and i'm not allergic to him! fell asleep a few times while stroking it to sleep.
let's pray that it survives. very scary to keep hearing burping voices from him:S

I AM
EXHAUSTED.

lol.
my brain really not working.

"The truly creative mind in any field is no more than this:
A human creature born abnormally, inhumanly sensitive.

To him...
a touch is a blow,
a sound is a noise,
a misfortune is a tragedy,
a joy is an ecstasy,
a friend is a lover,
a lover is a god,
and failure is death.

Add to this cruelly delicate organism the overpowering necessity to create, create, create - - - so that without the creating of music or poetry or books or buildings or something of meaning, his very breath is cut off from him. He must create, must pour out creation. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency he is not really alive unless he is creating."
-Pearl Buck-
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ah.
i was wondering if i have attention deficit disorder... lol.. since i get bored easily and get distracted easily. so i went to read up more on the disorder and realised that i don't have it. lol.
sadness.
hhaha.
so i went to search on the category that i'm supposed to be in..

# They are flexible thinkers, able to use many different alternatives and approaches to problem solving.
# They are original thinkers, seeking new, unusual, or unconventional associations and combinations among items of information.
# They can also see relationships among seemingly unrelated objects, ideas, or facts.
# They are elaborate thinkers, producing new steps, ideas, responses, or other embellishments to a basic idea, situation, or problems.
# They are willing to entertain complexity and seem to thrive on problem solving.
# They are good guessers and can readily construct hypotheses or "what if" questions.
# They often are aware of their own impulsiveness and irrationality, and they show emotional sensitivity.
# They are extremely curious about objects, ideas, situations, or events.
# They often display intellectual playfulness and like to fantasize and imagine.
# They can be less intellectually inhibited than their peers are in expressing opinions and ideas, and they often disagree spiritedly with others' statements.
# They are sensitive to beauty and are attracted to aesthetic values.
---> seems to explain for why i behave in certain ways.

alright!
just received an sms to write a script. a bright sunshine spot in the midst of three weeks of stormy weather.
something within me is enjoying the task of writing the script even before i start.. lol

Studying for pediatric psych exams now..
Realised that maybe having the exam questions presented to you doesn't make it easier to study. it kinda increases the stress on you to memorize the answer, have the best answer and all.
i mean, if the questions are not given to us, at least i can just study the notes, memorize my main points and smoke on that day (hopefully with substance..). but now i'm memorizing.
but i guess it does help us remember the points.
memorized questions 3 and 2.
i still have 1,4,5,6,7!
it's like, u sorta know the material, but you don't go and memorize it. lol.
maybe i'll sleep at 5am again. lol

In one toilet trip, i realised that maybe i need to appreciate the people around me more:) 'cos in appreciating them, i can love them more. and love can cover over a multitude of sins.
in one night, i realised that i don't like to be left out of things:) actually i realised it before, but it's concretized. lol. good that i got to know more about myself:)
and though it's 1.51am, i'm wide awake.
must be the 1 and a half hour nap, accompanied by the tea i drank this morning. lol.

heh.
i really enjoyed my japanese paper:)
it's as delicious as eating unagi sushi. hahaa. it's the same feeling as when i'm watching a good anime and unexpected things unfold. i don't know why i enjoyed it, but i did:)
hehe.
it's probably not my best paper, but writing it was fun. hahaa.
and i was looking at my senseis during the paper and thinking about how i'm going to miss them. or rather, how i'm already missing them:)
so interesting ah.
i always miss the lecturers whom i like. haha. when i don't get to go to their lessons anymore. i miss Dr Tan, i miss Dr Tang. I miss my forensic lecturer Stella Tan. and i'm going to miss Dr Tay this sem, alongside with my japanese senseis. I really enjoyed Japanese. hahaa. every lecture made me laugh. and tutorials were fun too:)
I enjoyed my cognitive psych paper too. haha. though i kinda forgot what conjunctive and disjunctive search was.. heh. and my integration question was not the best.. but i enjoyed writing section b very much, as well as some questions in section A (e.g. question 3). haha.
okay. i better get back to studying for pediatric psych. lol.

heh.
by the way,
just want to say a thanks for all the times you've beared with me during this exam period.
for those who beared with me when i was
tired.
down.
angry.
lethargic.
irritated.
thanks for your unconditional love:)

thanks for the many encouragement cards, many massages, hugs, encouragement, help, errands ran, food supplied and company.

The above song was stuck in my brain for the entire cognitive psych exam.. it was proactive interference, of another kind. lol. it's the ending song of xxxholic:kei!:)
the harmony in front is quite cool:)

And i made the following!
Just koped the picture from Michael's blog and koped his words!:)
hahaha.

okay :) some funny nonsense here.
hahaa.
it's really all nonsense.



ohh.. i like the next one XD


and the next one is motivational!

hehe.
What do you do on a Tuesday afternoon before your cognitive psych paper?
Search around the net for social issues!
okay. I'm only interested in certain social issues. don't mind me :) blame it on the secondary school background. lol. homosexuality, suicide and the likes.
here's one i read today. i know i'm slow :P
it's the open letter from otto fong (a science teacher from RI) who openly came out of the closet to his colleagues, the school, and as the news went on... the rest of singapore..
good food for thought.

lol.
my cat seems to be huge in comparison to Chi (the kitten being taken care of by the e1a people at this moment :) haha.
今日はちょっと暑いです。
勉強しますはちょっとつまないです、そして難しいです。
今晩学校へ日本語を勉強しにいきます。
明日はプラグレミン試験と日本語試験があります。
あそびたいですが、べんきょうします。
悲しいですよ。
勉強したくなかったですから、アニメをみました。
でも、いまべんきょうしたいです。

-I can sing with my last breath
Sing all I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne-

what an amazing day!

- I know I am loved by the King
and it makes my heart
wanna sing!-

Went to bathe at computer center just now :)
And saw yanting on the way!:) haha. but she was gone by the time I came back.
:)
I formed a whimsical song about my God in the bathroom. lol. it consists of a regular chirpy tune with rhyming couplets in verses of 4 lines each, with a bridge of 2 lines for every 2 verses. haha. quite fun :)
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"... love is kind..."
"... it is not self-seeking..."
:)
gratification of the human nature is a big no-no.
Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead...
looking forward to the day. if it comes. if it doesn't, then it's okay.
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the mixture of warmth and a cool drizzle
the washing away, a cleansing, a gentle healing

- no more sitting on the porch of indecision,
no more standing under stars of apathy
and it might be easier to dream
but dreaming's not for me -

let your 'yes' be 'yes' and your 'no' be 'no'.
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Shepherd of my soul
I give You full control
Wherever You may lead
I will follow

I have made the choice
To listen to Your voice
Wherever You may lead
I will go

Be it in a quiet pasture
Or by a gentle stream
The Shepherd of my soul
Is by my side

Should I face a mighty mountain
Or a valley dark and deep
The Shepherd of my soul
Will be my guide
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This exam period has surprisingly, been my most tiring yet. It doesn't matter that there is a one week break between my first paper and my second, a lot of things suddenly crop up which demand attention in the week itself. Adding on the physical fatigue that I feel, many a times in the week, I can only cry out to God for strength.
God, i need more strength.
God, i need more of Your love to love.
I like being around people. half the time. It'll be good if there's a proportion of being around people. Like maybe 12 hours with people, 12 hours without :) hahaha.