today's an eventful day. eventful not in terms of the things to do. eventful in terms of my emotions. i was angry and shocked, both in the same day. whoa. emotional fatigue.
angry 'cos of my dad's ridiculous claims and accusations. i've already explained the situation but it didn't seem to have gone across. even more ridiculous is his suggestion:P
shock 'cos of something i heard today. shocked. shocked till i don't know what to say.
so that's my day.
was being indignant and thinking about why i should respect someone who's not worthy of respect. and the answer of 'you weren't worthy to be loved, but God love you anyway' came to mind. oh well. took a while for that statement to really sink in. it's so hard to understand something when emotions have taken over. self control really is needed.
and to think just at the lift, i was thinking about the verse 'love is patient, love is kind'. thinking about how i should strive (with the work of the Holy Spirit in me) to be the kind of person who'll still love when no one else can love... simply because i have God's love in me.
haha. when you say you wanna grow, God really moulds.
Monday, August 28, 2006
i ran just now:) haha. it was another impulsive act. i seem to have impulsive acts on sunday nights. the thought of running came to me at 11pm and refused to go. it lingered on and swirled around in the matter of my brain... till i decided to 'make a trip' down to 7-eleven by using the route that goes round the whole estate instead of the short 2 mins walk=] haha.
i didn't run the whole way of course, considering that i haven't ran for a long time. i briskwalked most of the journey, partly 'cos it feels weird to run when there're people walking towards you... there was this stretch with no one in sight, so i happily ran that stretch. haha. quite delightful! then it was time for cooldown. so i went to get mashed potato from 7 eleven and walked back home=] haha. wonderful. though i started to feel quite tired after buying the mashed potato. lol.
so herein marks the start of my beginning in running once again:) don't ask me to run with you.. 'cos i have no wish to strain myself:) i wanna think LONG TERM and PERSEVERENCE =] not CHIONG and DIE OUT. xD
it's still not exactly my favourite sport though. haha. swimming is so much more enjoyable (in my opinion).. but i'm limited these days 'cos i have no goggles:P wait till i get goggles XD
so much to do, so much to see:) so sleepy. LOL
i didn't run the whole way of course, considering that i haven't ran for a long time. i briskwalked most of the journey, partly 'cos it feels weird to run when there're people walking towards you... there was this stretch with no one in sight, so i happily ran that stretch. haha. quite delightful! then it was time for cooldown. so i went to get mashed potato from 7 eleven and walked back home=] haha. wonderful. though i started to feel quite tired after buying the mashed potato. lol.
so herein marks the start of my beginning in running once again:) don't ask me to run with you.. 'cos i have no wish to strain myself:) i wanna think LONG TERM and PERSEVERENCE =] not CHIONG and DIE OUT. xD
it's still not exactly my favourite sport though. haha. swimming is so much more enjoyable (in my opinion).. but i'm limited these days 'cos i have no goggles:P wait till i get goggles XD
so much to do, so much to see:) so sleepy. LOL
Sunday, August 27, 2006
i'm having extreme holy discontentment. Was watching something which was sent to me through email and thinking to myself that what i see can happen in Hope as well. Great throngs of people who sincerely love God and lives up to God's Word praising and worshipping God together and declaring about the sovereignty and power and immense grace of our Lord Almighty. People who do not dilute the teachings of the bible, with values in line with the perfect standard of God, yet still very relevant to the world, for the bible is written not only for the people 2000 years ago, but as much so now as before. The bible is written for us! For the people of 2006! For the people of 2020! For the people of the past and present and future, to when Jesus comes back for her church.
We need greater annointing. We need greater power. We need a surgery of our minds and our hearts. We need to wear the shield of faith. We NEED to believe that God can do immeasurably MUCH MORE than what we can imagine THROUGH US. We need to believe that God is the God of glory and honour. He is GOD! He's not any Tom, Dick or Harry in the world. He's not even the Bill Gates or whatnots. He's God! The creator of the universe (of which even great scientists have believed in after great details in research in the fields of astronomy, of cosmology, of biology, of physics and beyond.)
God said in His Word:
'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know' - Jeremiah 33:3
GREAT AND UNSEARCHABLE THINGS beyond the wisdom and knowledge of men. Things which have yet to be explored by science. Things which we do not even have the technology to probe into yet. Things of life which boggle even the most philosophical philosophers.
This great wisdom. Found only in the one who created all things.
Impossible IS indeed a small word thrown about by men who find it easier to live in their own comfort zones. I want to witness the impossible come to pass. I've seen the impossible become possible before and i want to witness MORE of these.
It's the time to ask for empowerment and annointing. It's the time for stepping into the purpose which God has destined us to be.
It's the time to act, and react.
We need greater annointing. We need greater power. We need a surgery of our minds and our hearts. We need to wear the shield of faith. We NEED to believe that God can do immeasurably MUCH MORE than what we can imagine THROUGH US. We need to believe that God is the God of glory and honour. He is GOD! He's not any Tom, Dick or Harry in the world. He's not even the Bill Gates or whatnots. He's God! The creator of the universe (of which even great scientists have believed in after great details in research in the fields of astronomy, of cosmology, of biology, of physics and beyond.)
God said in His Word:
'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know' - Jeremiah 33:3
GREAT AND UNSEARCHABLE THINGS beyond the wisdom and knowledge of men. Things which have yet to be explored by science. Things which we do not even have the technology to probe into yet. Things of life which boggle even the most philosophical philosophers.
This great wisdom. Found only in the one who created all things.
Impossible IS indeed a small word thrown about by men who find it easier to live in their own comfort zones. I want to witness the impossible come to pass. I've seen the impossible become possible before and i want to witness MORE of these.
It's the time to ask for empowerment and annointing. It's the time for stepping into the purpose which God has destined us to be.
It's the time to act, and react.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
I am a person of likes and dislikes. Everyone likes and dislikes some things around. I like to sort out what i like and what i dislike.. so that i can understand better why i react to some things and why i don't.
Things i like:
i like to analyse my own behaviour in different situations and examine my reactions.
i like to know about myself. i like to be highly self aware. i like to analyse my motives for doing things so that i don't do things with a wrong motive.
i like to list out things. such as this list about likes and dislikes.
i like to do things for people. if i can do something for you, i'll be very happy. i especially like to do things for the people i love, it makes me even happier. in fact, if i love you and i can do something for you, it brightens up my day by quite a bit.
i like to love people. and i like to love animals.
i like to make people happy. though sometimes it's not possible to make everyone happy. 'cos if some people are happy, other people ain't. sometimes making people means going against my principles. in that case, i'll rather stick to my principles and values than make people happy. 'cos i like to make God happy more than anyone else.
i like movies. in fact, i love movies. i love the stimulation of my sense of hearing and sense of sight. i love to listen to people talk. if there's something i can get you to do, i'll sit you down and talk to me. just don't ask me to give a response. 'cos i just want to listen. i enjoy listening. but it does not mean i'm a good listener. haha. i try to be. does that help?
i like lectures. it's got something to do with my love for the stimulation of my sense of hearing. it's got something to do with the joy i obtain when i learn something new which lies in the area of my interest as well. as a result, i'm usually quite happy when there're lectures. though fatigue may cause me to want to sleep rather than listen.
i like to swim. i like to swim alone.
i like to touch things. i like being able to touch the different textures of things. i like to know if the object i'm seeing is smooth or hard or rough or soft.
i like to see. that explains for my love for movies.
i like to watch plays and musicals and an occasional dance performance. not so much of band or choir. i don't have much of an interest in these performances=S
i like music. a lot. i like good music in good settings.
i like to think.
i like deep connections with people. i get frustrated when i cannot connect deeply with a person after knowing the person for some time. this is kinda impossible sometimes 'cos there're so many people to know.
i like to read. i can spend a whole day reading if i have nothing else to do. reading and listening to music. or sitting opposite someone listening to the person talk.
i like to appreciate beauty.
i like mysteries. i like to see how mysteries are solved. i like detective stories. i like forensic science. i'd like to be a forensic psychologist but i don't think i can reach it. haha. but i like exploring crimes anyway.
what do i dislike?
i dislike people who judge. i dislike people who judge and assume that a person will remain the same just because the person was that way at a point of time. i believe strongly that everyone changes and it's not right to fix a person at a particular frame just because the person did certain things at certain times.
i dislike changes. haha. i take four months to adjust to a major change.
i dislike close datelines.
i dislike cleaning up my room. i wonder many times how i'm going to have a family next time 'cos i dislike cleaning up my room. maybe i won't ever have a family 'cos i don't like to clean up my room. it's a necessity, but it doesn't mean i have to like it. lol.
i dislike not having time to read.
...
=]
Things i like:
i like to analyse my own behaviour in different situations and examine my reactions.
i like to know about myself. i like to be highly self aware. i like to analyse my motives for doing things so that i don't do things with a wrong motive.
i like to list out things. such as this list about likes and dislikes.
i like to do things for people. if i can do something for you, i'll be very happy. i especially like to do things for the people i love, it makes me even happier. in fact, if i love you and i can do something for you, it brightens up my day by quite a bit.
i like to love people. and i like to love animals.
i like to make people happy. though sometimes it's not possible to make everyone happy. 'cos if some people are happy, other people ain't. sometimes making people means going against my principles. in that case, i'll rather stick to my principles and values than make people happy. 'cos i like to make God happy more than anyone else.
i like movies. in fact, i love movies. i love the stimulation of my sense of hearing and sense of sight. i love to listen to people talk. if there's something i can get you to do, i'll sit you down and talk to me. just don't ask me to give a response. 'cos i just want to listen. i enjoy listening. but it does not mean i'm a good listener. haha. i try to be. does that help?
i like lectures. it's got something to do with my love for the stimulation of my sense of hearing. it's got something to do with the joy i obtain when i learn something new which lies in the area of my interest as well. as a result, i'm usually quite happy when there're lectures. though fatigue may cause me to want to sleep rather than listen.
i like to swim. i like to swim alone.
i like to touch things. i like being able to touch the different textures of things. i like to know if the object i'm seeing is smooth or hard or rough or soft.
i like to see. that explains for my love for movies.
i like to watch plays and musicals and an occasional dance performance. not so much of band or choir. i don't have much of an interest in these performances=S
i like music. a lot. i like good music in good settings.
i like to think.
i like deep connections with people. i get frustrated when i cannot connect deeply with a person after knowing the person for some time. this is kinda impossible sometimes 'cos there're so many people to know.
i like to read. i can spend a whole day reading if i have nothing else to do. reading and listening to music. or sitting opposite someone listening to the person talk.
i like to appreciate beauty.
i like mysteries. i like to see how mysteries are solved. i like detective stories. i like forensic science. i'd like to be a forensic psychologist but i don't think i can reach it. haha. but i like exploring crimes anyway.
what do i dislike?
i dislike people who judge. i dislike people who judge and assume that a person will remain the same just because the person was that way at a point of time. i believe strongly that everyone changes and it's not right to fix a person at a particular frame just because the person did certain things at certain times.
i dislike changes. haha. i take four months to adjust to a major change.
i dislike close datelines.
i dislike cleaning up my room. i wonder many times how i'm going to have a family next time 'cos i dislike cleaning up my room. maybe i won't ever have a family 'cos i don't like to clean up my room. it's a necessity, but it doesn't mean i have to like it. lol.
i dislike not having time to read.
...
=]
The reason why i posted the former post (refer to post below) is that i wanted to show michelle (right in the photo below) how the 'blog this' function on my phone works. haha. quite a cool function:) Allows me to post pictures directly onto the net without having to host it :D
haha.
it has been two weeks of birthday celebrations, for four people. this week there'll be two more dear siblings' birthdays.. but the celebration planning is not done by the birthday comm. Thank God for the CLs! hahaha. gives me some time to sort out everything else i suppose:)
Today is a day of rest:) haha. 'cos no school. no former commitments. no nothing:) just a day for things to ease by and to be sorted into place:) Just like a river than lazes along the riverbed till it seperates into various streams and braids of water. thank God i've got no lessons today.. 'cos yesterday i was having a horrible headache which wouldn't go away. LOL. i woke up this morning amused, refreshed and breathing in fresh air:) joy. hahaa. a time for me to pen down random thoughts as breezes explore the room:)
-who makes the air that brings me life so i can breath the love that's given to me-
going to school later to do some stuff though:) the chance to see the brothers and sisters just perks me up. hahaa. seriously. i can be very down, can be very tired, can be very stressed... but seeing the brothers and sisters literally lead the gladness into my heart:) my days are brightened everyday 'cos of the many people i see. hahaa:)
haha.
it has been two weeks of birthday celebrations, for four people. this week there'll be two more dear siblings' birthdays.. but the celebration planning is not done by the birthday comm. Thank God for the CLs! hahaha. gives me some time to sort out everything else i suppose:)
Today is a day of rest:) haha. 'cos no school. no former commitments. no nothing:) just a day for things to ease by and to be sorted into place:) Just like a river than lazes along the riverbed till it seperates into various streams and braids of water. thank God i've got no lessons today.. 'cos yesterday i was having a horrible headache which wouldn't go away. LOL. i woke up this morning amused, refreshed and breathing in fresh air:) joy. hahaa. a time for me to pen down random thoughts as breezes explore the room:)
-who makes the air that brings me life so i can breath the love that's given to me-
going to school later to do some stuff though:) the chance to see the brothers and sisters just perks me up. hahaa. seriously. i can be very down, can be very tired, can be very stressed... but seeing the brothers and sisters literally lead the gladness into my heart:) my days are brightened everyday 'cos of the many people i see. hahaa:)
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
-when i'm a sparrow in the winter
You are the seed i find
when i'm a heart with a splinter
Your hot blood keeps me alive
if i can call You a colour
You'll be the deepest of blues
if i had my pleasure with anything
You'll be the one that i choose
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
now that i can see the mysteries revealed
now i'm coming clear
i can see my fears released
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
i'm soft, like clay
Your hands, they mould me
for You, i will run away
just to hear You calling out my name!
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
now that i can see the mysteries revealed
now i'm coming clear
i can see my fears released
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
i'm broken and empty
without You
i'm blinded
i need You
i need You near me
i need You near me
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
now that i can see the mysteries revealed
now i'm coming clear
i can see my fears released
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
please catch me
i'm falling for You
please catch me
i'm falling for You
please catch me
i'm falling for You-
'Like an apple tree among the tree of the forest
is my lover among the young men.
I delight to sit in his shade
and his fruit is sweet to my taste.
He has taken me to the banquet hall,
and his banner over me is love.
Strengthen me with raisins,
refresh me with apples,
for i am faint with love.
His left arm is under my head,
and his right arm embraces me.' Song of Songs 2:3-6
When i was in Secondary 3, i fell in love with a song called 'You' by Jaci Valesquez. I fell in love with the one whom the song was describing. and i alluded it to another human being. Here're the lyrics :)
Who makes, the sun light up my shadows
When the darkness tries to follow me
Who makes, the air that brings me life
So I can breathe the love that's given to me
You make everything good, everything wonderful
You grace my days and heaven fills my view
Let's forever sing
You make everything pure, everything beautiful
You make me see the only thing that's true
It's You
Who makes, the waters of my sorrow part
And leads the gladness into my heart
Who makes, the rivers run that wash away
And clean my soul to make a new start
You make everything good, everything wonderful
You grace my days and heaven fills my view
Let's forever sing
You make everything pure, everything beautiful
You make me see the only thing that's true
It's You
You hung the moon
You placed the stars that shine your love for me
I hope all that I do
Will show reflections of You
Then i went to tell Grace that i like this song.. and she told me it's a christian song :) hahaa:) at that time i'm still anti-christ, but it's a beautiful song nevertheless :)
Now that i'm a christian, it means so much more. Not just because i finally know the one whom this song is written for, but also because i can finally fully identify what the song is singing about. and with all my heart, i sing the same song:)
You are the seed i find
when i'm a heart with a splinter
Your hot blood keeps me alive
if i can call You a colour
You'll be the deepest of blues
if i had my pleasure with anything
You'll be the one that i choose
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
now that i can see the mysteries revealed
now i'm coming clear
i can see my fears released
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
i'm soft, like clay
Your hands, they mould me
for You, i will run away
just to hear You calling out my name!
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
now that i can see the mysteries revealed
now i'm coming clear
i can see my fears released
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
i'm broken and empty
without You
i'm blinded
i need You
i need You near me
i need You near me
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
now that i can see the mysteries revealed
now i'm coming clear
i can see my fears released
now it's crystal clear i'm falling for You
please catch me
i'm falling for You
please catch me
i'm falling for You
please catch me
i'm falling for You-
'Like an apple tree among the tree of the forest
is my lover among the young men.
I delight to sit in his shade
and his fruit is sweet to my taste.
He has taken me to the banquet hall,
and his banner over me is love.
Strengthen me with raisins,
refresh me with apples,
for i am faint with love.
His left arm is under my head,
and his right arm embraces me.' Song of Songs 2:3-6
When i was in Secondary 3, i fell in love with a song called 'You' by Jaci Valesquez. I fell in love with the one whom the song was describing. and i alluded it to another human being. Here're the lyrics :)
Who makes, the sun light up my shadows
When the darkness tries to follow me
Who makes, the air that brings me life
So I can breathe the love that's given to me
You make everything good, everything wonderful
You grace my days and heaven fills my view
Let's forever sing
You make everything pure, everything beautiful
You make me see the only thing that's true
It's You
Who makes, the waters of my sorrow part
And leads the gladness into my heart
Who makes, the rivers run that wash away
And clean my soul to make a new start
You make everything good, everything wonderful
You grace my days and heaven fills my view
Let's forever sing
You make everything pure, everything beautiful
You make me see the only thing that's true
It's You
You hung the moon
You placed the stars that shine your love for me
I hope all that I do
Will show reflections of You
Then i went to tell Grace that i like this song.. and she told me it's a christian song :) hahaa:) at that time i'm still anti-christ, but it's a beautiful song nevertheless :)
Now that i'm a christian, it means so much more. Not just because i finally know the one whom this song is written for, but also because i can finally fully identify what the song is singing about. and with all my heart, i sing the same song:)
Monday, August 21, 2006
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
today's only the second day of school and already i'm feeling overwhelmed. like there's so much things to do, yet not enough time to do it. haha. i can't even rest on my free day. lol.
but so exciting! hahaa. so excited for michelle and ellson's birthday celebration on saturday=D so excited for all the other lectures to start... so excited for myself to finish the social psy textbook. LOL.
in a new term, there're new people. when they're new people, there's time needed to know these new people. then you tend to have lesser time for your old friends. not because you don't want to be with them, to talk to them, but it's 'cos ur attention is now spread over even more people (on top of all these other things you have). yea.
-i wonder what you're doing
i wonder where you are
there's oceans between us
but that's not very far-
=]
i'm abnormally self conscious when you're around. frustrating.
but so exciting! hahaa. so excited for michelle and ellson's birthday celebration on saturday=D so excited for all the other lectures to start... so excited for myself to finish the social psy textbook. LOL.
in a new term, there're new people. when they're new people, there's time needed to know these new people. then you tend to have lesser time for your old friends. not because you don't want to be with them, to talk to them, but it's 'cos ur attention is now spread over even more people (on top of all these other things you have). yea.
-i wonder what you're doing
i wonder where you are
there's oceans between us
but that's not very far-
=]
i'm abnormally self conscious when you're around. frustrating.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Haha... This is very interesting... I'm actually blogging from my phone right now... Took me a while to find everything 'cos viewing a site from the laptop and viewing a site on your handphone is quite different... As can be expected. Haha;) better go off to sleep... Lots of things to think abt tmr:)
Monday, August 07, 2006
today is a tiring day :) heh. today i woke up at 9.20am, alarmed. not 'cos my alarm rang (it doesn't ring anymore. haha), 'cos i thought it's already 11+ and i've missed the time to meet micheo at somerset. haha. we went for 11.30am service today. rushed breakfast in 10 mins? HAHA.
was quite interesting today 'cos we had a guest speaker:) He's a funny pastor.hahaa. got quite a nice voice too :) i tend to notice people's voices and the texture of their voices :) heh.
then we joined NG14A4 (confusing) for lunch at tian tang (heaven). hahaha. interesting place. it was empty. HAHAHA. then we joined them for ktv at party world! hahaa. actually wanted to join the dota people..but was worried that we wouldn't finish the game in time for me to go to city hall to meet weiling at 5... soyea. stayed with the ktv pple :) 'cos an interesting experience 'cos i don't know weiwei and fengqi they all very well. even shushan. haha. but was even more interesting 'cos my first shepherd was there! junting came back from australia 2 weeks ago! hahaa. yay. missed her:) 'cos haven't talked to her for a very long time. my philosophy towards shepherds is 'once a shepherd, always a shepherd'. hahahaha. yay. got time to talk to her a bit more :) really glad and thankful for the chance. hahaa. oh guess what! she saw claire and talked to her in hope brisbane! hahaa. and she was shocked to hear that claire plays dota too. LOL. apparently it's quite the culture there.. 'cos it's $8 for overnight dota.. which is very hua suan. hahaha.
yea! then went to meet weiling and micheo's fren elaine to go for fop together:) btw, breadtalk's mochi thingy is NICE! go try it. haha.
very tired. haha.
was quite interesting today 'cos we had a guest speaker:) He's a funny pastor.hahaa. got quite a nice voice too :) i tend to notice people's voices and the texture of their voices :) heh.
then we joined NG14A4 (confusing) for lunch at tian tang (heaven). hahaha. interesting place. it was empty. HAHAHA. then we joined them for ktv at party world! hahaa. actually wanted to join the dota people..but was worried that we wouldn't finish the game in time for me to go to city hall to meet weiling at 5... soyea. stayed with the ktv pple :) 'cos an interesting experience 'cos i don't know weiwei and fengqi they all very well. even shushan. haha. but was even more interesting 'cos my first shepherd was there! junting came back from australia 2 weeks ago! hahaa. yay. missed her:) 'cos haven't talked to her for a very long time. my philosophy towards shepherds is 'once a shepherd, always a shepherd'. hahahaha. yay. got time to talk to her a bit more :) really glad and thankful for the chance. hahaa. oh guess what! she saw claire and talked to her in hope brisbane! hahaa. and she was shocked to hear that claire plays dota too. LOL. apparently it's quite the culture there.. 'cos it's $8 for overnight dota.. which is very hua suan. hahaha.
yea! then went to meet weiling and micheo's fren elaine to go for fop together:) btw, breadtalk's mochi thingy is NICE! go try it. haha.
very tired. haha.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
my dear adorable cat is sleeping on the floor again:) she's having some sort of an ear infection and her ear stinks. literally. with a funny odour wafting out of her ear very often, something which can be smelled 15cm away. hehe.
but i still love her :) 'cos she's my cat. though i try not to breathe so much when i'm near her :) heh.
we played DOTA today! hahaa. i haven't played DOTA with the brothers and sister(s?) for some time.. lol. just the game with jianliang and jan and michelle=] haha. 'cos i'll lag out. SADLY, i lagged out again today! at the LAN shop! disastrous :) but ezalor did me proud! haha. just that i really cannot kill heroes very well 'cos i'm a support hero :) maybe i should have followed behind ellson or jeffrey and supported them instead:) it was me, ellson, jeffrey against weiling (with zhenzhong as her advisor), benaiah and edwin. intriguing. it's my first time on the same team as jeffrey and ellson:)
i'm on a 8 week 'training' programme to get myself to go from my nonexistent running time to 30 minutes of continuous running. haha. bought sports shoes on impulse 'cos i don't wanna drag in the running thing. got rubberbands to tie my hair too. yay. i can start tomorrow by walking 30 minutes. lol.
today alan preached. i miss alan's preaching. hahaa. he's got a very nice way of putting ideas together and bringing ideas across clearly. i like teachings with a very clear way of bringing ideas across clearly. haha:)
today i did duty :) quite enjoyable 'cos was doing with matthew and windez.. then both of them around my age and quite nice to be with. hahaa.
today i bought 'case for creator' :) what a thick book.. but i enjoyed the first chapter. i've a feeling i'm going to enjoy the following chapters 'cos it talks about science:) i love science. especially biology. hahaa. and i love Jesus. so let's see how science and Jesus links together:) what a wonderful combination!
but i still love her :) 'cos she's my cat. though i try not to breathe so much when i'm near her :) heh.
we played DOTA today! hahaa. i haven't played DOTA with the brothers and sister(s?) for some time.. lol. just the game with jianliang and jan and michelle=] haha. 'cos i'll lag out. SADLY, i lagged out again today! at the LAN shop! disastrous :) but ezalor did me proud! haha. just that i really cannot kill heroes very well 'cos i'm a support hero :) maybe i should have followed behind ellson or jeffrey and supported them instead:) it was me, ellson, jeffrey against weiling (with zhenzhong as her advisor), benaiah and edwin. intriguing. it's my first time on the same team as jeffrey and ellson:)
i'm on a 8 week 'training' programme to get myself to go from my nonexistent running time to 30 minutes of continuous running. haha. bought sports shoes on impulse 'cos i don't wanna drag in the running thing. got rubberbands to tie my hair too. yay. i can start tomorrow by walking 30 minutes. lol.
today alan preached. i miss alan's preaching. hahaa. he's got a very nice way of putting ideas together and bringing ideas across clearly. i like teachings with a very clear way of bringing ideas across clearly. haha:)
today i did duty :) quite enjoyable 'cos was doing with matthew and windez.. then both of them around my age and quite nice to be with. hahaa.
today i bought 'case for creator' :) what a thick book.. but i enjoyed the first chapter. i've a feeling i'm going to enjoy the following chapters 'cos it talks about science:) i love science. especially biology. hahaa. and i love Jesus. so let's see how science and Jesus links together:) what a wonderful combination!
Friday, August 04, 2006
okay, i'm a bit boliao. hahaa. look what i found on the net! LOL. my words! quoted! amazing.
Click here for the article. LOL.
Lifted from the article:
Outraged, student Xinying Tan, 15, said, “I think this attack didn't weaken America. Instead, it helped to strengthen America’s citizens."
The attackers, said Xinying, are "stupid because we all know that America will definitely retaliate. Though it's the economic downturn now, America still has quite a lot of resources. All the family members… the worry, the distress.”
that's in response to 9/11. i don't seem to remember saying that. hahaha. but who cares!
Click here for the article. LOL.
Lifted from the article:
Outraged, student Xinying Tan, 15, said, “I think this attack didn't weaken America. Instead, it helped to strengthen America’s citizens."
The attackers, said Xinying, are "stupid because we all know that America will definitely retaliate. Though it's the economic downturn now, America still has quite a lot of resources. All the family members… the worry, the distress.”
that's in response to 9/11. i don't seem to remember saying that. hahaha. but who cares!
i think i'm allergic to my cat. haha. 'cos i'll sneeze like crazy whenever my cat is in the room with me. then when she leaves, i'll stop sneezing. how odd. my cat is currently sleeping on my bedroom floor unreservedly. lying on her side with her body stretched to the full length and her tail lying carelessly over her legs. her breathing is slow and steady and she sleeps on undisturbed despite the noisy sound effects that were coming out from my laptop as a result of the dota game i'm playing.
and now she awakens with a sudden turn of her head and began to lick her paw. turning to position herself in a more comfortable position, she now places her head on her paws and proceeded back to a serene slumber.
slumbering is an act which doesn't come to me at the normal time of 12am or 1am. it comes to me in the stillness of the night, when everyone is in deep sleep and has gone off to dreamland with their dreams and knowledge of the day. it's as though sleep has coerced everyone to enter her sweet embrace and realised that she left me out. so here she comes, with open arms to persuade me to fall into her embrace, so that i may join everyone in dreamland. her job will then be done.
yet, i am restless even as i step nearer to her. i hesitate and stood one step away from where i was, hesitant to move on. it's not that i do not wish to slumber, but many things still await doing. as i list out the things undone, she backs away, with a deep resigned sign escaping from her heart, as though she is disappointed that i did not willingly allow myself to fall into slumber. sorry sleep, i will learn to be more willing. in the future.
and now she awakens with a sudden turn of her head and began to lick her paw. turning to position herself in a more comfortable position, she now places her head on her paws and proceeded back to a serene slumber.
slumbering is an act which doesn't come to me at the normal time of 12am or 1am. it comes to me in the stillness of the night, when everyone is in deep sleep and has gone off to dreamland with their dreams and knowledge of the day. it's as though sleep has coerced everyone to enter her sweet embrace and realised that she left me out. so here she comes, with open arms to persuade me to fall into her embrace, so that i may join everyone in dreamland. her job will then be done.
yet, i am restless even as i step nearer to her. i hesitate and stood one step away from where i was, hesitant to move on. it's not that i do not wish to slumber, but many things still await doing. as i list out the things undone, she backs away, with a deep resigned sign escaping from her heart, as though she is disappointed that i did not willingly allow myself to fall into slumber. sorry sleep, i will learn to be more willing. in the future.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
was just thinking about how God has allowed me to go through a lot of different experiences and learnt quite a lot of things, but i've never quite put things i know into practice.
like we used to play basketball/soccer almost everyday in sec3/sec4, the training during first three months for bball, then taekwondo in JC and running ard tracks for so many years. now i don't play basketball anymore. hahaa. i do miss the feeling of lining up and continuously shooting 2 pointers though. and i don't run anymore. hahaa. strangeness. like all the times you train to run and to push yourself, not much use now? haha. i remember running 2.4km everyday for a period of time. oh well.
maybe i should start running again? but it's so boring! hahaa. it's so.. monotonous. and i'll need to go buy new sport shoes if i wanna run. ah well. maybe i should! haha. just got another $40 from teaching cultural arts in may. lol. amazing. but the idea of spending ard $100 this month and $66 next month is something which is not very palatable. the thought of running again is not very appetizing too =] hahaha.
oh btw, i'm terribly un-sporty. i prefer to walk. i can walk for a long long time. like a few hours? just don't ask me to run. LOL. i can swim for a long long time too, like 2 hrs, but dun ask me to run. hahaha. u get the idea, i hope :)
so next time u wanna go on a walk, call me along. i can walk with you from one end of singapore to another. lol. maybe we should try that one day. think will need to map out route though.
and i'm starting to clean my room now.. in the middle of the night. haha. disastrous.
like we used to play basketball/soccer almost everyday in sec3/sec4, the training during first three months for bball, then taekwondo in JC and running ard tracks for so many years. now i don't play basketball anymore. hahaa. i do miss the feeling of lining up and continuously shooting 2 pointers though. and i don't run anymore. hahaa. strangeness. like all the times you train to run and to push yourself, not much use now? haha. i remember running 2.4km everyday for a period of time. oh well.
maybe i should start running again? but it's so boring! hahaa. it's so.. monotonous. and i'll need to go buy new sport shoes if i wanna run. ah well. maybe i should! haha. just got another $40 from teaching cultural arts in may. lol. amazing. but the idea of spending ard $100 this month and $66 next month is something which is not very palatable. the thought of running again is not very appetizing too =] hahaha.
oh btw, i'm terribly un-sporty. i prefer to walk. i can walk for a long long time. like a few hours? just don't ask me to run. LOL. i can swim for a long long time too, like 2 hrs, but dun ask me to run. hahaha. u get the idea, i hope :)
so next time u wanna go on a walk, call me along. i can walk with you from one end of singapore to another. lol. maybe we should try that one day. think will need to map out route though.
and i'm starting to clean my room now.. in the middle of the night. haha. disastrous.
i dunno why it bothers me so much. haha.
today, for a few seconds, i did an innocent action without much thought. then when he questioned me on why i did it, i was stunned. 'cos i had no answer. HAHAHA. it just felt natural to do that at that moment. think it was 'cos of something he said. it bothers me 'cos i realized i wasn't thinking without doing the action. amazed at how fast my mind can wander if i don't take captive of my thoughts. lol.
today benaiah asked us on the key to our hearts.. haha. what's the key to your heart? what's the thing that will cause you to be delighted?
i have lots of things i think. haha.
1) good music - nowadays hard to find music that's constantly good. those kinda music u listen and listen and listen and listen and will still like it. then 10 years down the road u're still not sick of it. btw, love me by colin raye, though it's quite good, DOESN'T pass the test. 'cos i got sick of it.
2) ONLINE GAMES! hahaha. or computer games! since i'm 13, i've been playing computer games nonstop. LOL. even did an individualised research study (IRS) on RPGs. haha. and i've created my own RPG before!
3) movies. LOL. good ones. GOOD ONES. hard to find too.
haha. 4th one cannot tell u all xD
today, for a few seconds, i did an innocent action without much thought. then when he questioned me on why i did it, i was stunned. 'cos i had no answer. HAHAHA. it just felt natural to do that at that moment. think it was 'cos of something he said. it bothers me 'cos i realized i wasn't thinking without doing the action. amazed at how fast my mind can wander if i don't take captive of my thoughts. lol.
today benaiah asked us on the key to our hearts.. haha. what's the key to your heart? what's the thing that will cause you to be delighted?
i have lots of things i think. haha.
1) good music - nowadays hard to find music that's constantly good. those kinda music u listen and listen and listen and listen and will still like it. then 10 years down the road u're still not sick of it. btw, love me by colin raye, though it's quite good, DOESN'T pass the test. 'cos i got sick of it.
2) ONLINE GAMES! hahaha. or computer games! since i'm 13, i've been playing computer games nonstop. LOL. even did an individualised research study (IRS) on RPGs. haha. and i've created my own RPG before!
3) movies. LOL. good ones. GOOD ONES. hard to find too.
haha. 4th one cannot tell u all xD