today's a day of passivity.
there're some days when i'm moved to action.
today i'm moved to passivity.

Dear Xin Ying

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today i learned that one of my secondary school classmates is married.
D:
and 3 of them are engaged.
D:
i think i'm slow in information getting. hahaha
but happy for them! :D like newest engaged one has been with the bf for like more 10 yrs. hahaa. they've been together since our secondary school days. the one and only. and will continue to be. hahaa.
i think it's quite funny to hear about how it is for her. haha. like she used to get batteries and screwdriver for her anniversary gift cos he's highly practical. but for the proposal, he wrote poems! hahaa. everyday one poem for her.. and the first alphabet of each poem added up to the proposal statement!
so sweet!
though for the rest of the days she's get batteries and screwdrivers. hahahaa.
but glad that they're finally getting married :)
the other had a more traditional way of proposing. haha.
i have interesting friends :)

i just realized something.
hahaa
i have no IC to prove my birthday at restaurants. hahaa. wahhaa. faints.

"ENFJs are often interested in the people issues, no matter what role they have in an organization. Be sure to consider the effect of any decision or plan on the people involved. ENFJs usually like people who are positive, inspirational, and advocates for the underprivileged or disadvantaged. Like most Intuitives, they enjoy stories that are rich in metaphors and figures of speech. Lots of ENFJs are interested in psychology and the reasons people behave the way they do. It's best if you spend some time developing a personal relationship with an ENFJ, as rapport is important. They prefer to collaborate and build consensus, rather than compete or demand. ENFJs respond much better to encouragement than criticism, which they can take quite personally. ENFJs generally appreciate diversity, and strive to understand others. They hope you will do the same in return. Many ENFJs have strong values and beliefs. It's important to get to know these values and consider them when dealing with ENFJs. It's safe to assume one key value for many ENFJs is the desire to make the world a better place for people, in one way or another.

Some things to watch for when communicating with ENFJs include being cold, impersonal, or indifferent to the people involved. ENFJs disapprove of those who are demanding, controlling, bossy, or who say things like, "I'm your supervisor so you have to do what I say." Threats will rarely work with ENFJs, and are likely to cause great anxiety and unrest. People who focus only on the numbers and not the people in an issue will not enjoy working with ENFJs. Likewise, those who focus only on the present, immediate issues, without considering the future will alienate many ENFJs. People who forget their manners or common courtesies and social norms will generally aggravate ENFJs. Finally, ENFJs want to know about the people they work with, so if you keep everything about yourself private, many ENFJs will find it difficult to relate to you. This in turn will make it harder for both of you to communicate effectively."

okay. enough posting. blogging is a narcissistic behaviour. haha

"Relationships have their ups and downs; the downs, however, are particularly hard on the ENFJ, who does not manage disharmony well."

"Many ENFJs take their religious and community values seriously and want others to do the same. Loyalty, commitment, and responsibility are important values to ENFJs, even as children."

Saw this online. am very amused.

"Leading

The ENFJ puts relationships and responsibilities before personal leisure. Their time can be imposed upon easily; however, they need to guard against excessive responsiveness to avoid reaching overload.

They particularly enjoy reading novels and seeing movies in order to see how the characters play out the life issues and questions presented in the story; it gives them an opportunity to see how others live and get along. They enjoy discussing their reading and may join book groups in order to do that. They like going to movies and plays with others and like to comment on the plot characterization. They are close observers of others' behavior.

Many ENFJs join religious or community-oriented groups whose focus is to work for better understanding between people. ENFJs like discussion and an opportunity to talk about values and philosophical topics. Many do not like activities in which there is a great deal of competition or in which someone or something could be hurt. "

ENFJ Conflict Reactions Personality Traits:

* ENFJ will likely feel very surprised and misunderstood in conflict
* ENFJ is very likely to take the conflict personally
* ENFJ will become depressed as a result of the early conflict
* ENFJ will usually take the most harmonious approach to finding the solution
* ENFJ is prone to ignore the conflict until a value(s) is violated
* ENFJ typically will prefer to maintain the relationship rather than sacrifice relationship due to conflict
* ENFJ likely see conflict resolution activity as a door to improvement

ENFJ Conflict Resolution Activity Personality Traits

* ENFJ will naturally consider a people centered solution first
* ENFJ will rather quickly find a common ground and work toward a harmonious solution
* ENFJ will avoid criticizing almost at all costs
* ENFJ will typically look for harmonious solutions to the conflict
* ENFJ will focus on what each individual wants to take place
* The ENFJ will encourage everyone to contribute
* ENFJ will seek creative solutions

ENFJ Likely Positive Solutions Will Be

* Agreeable, friendly, cordial, harmonious
* Helpful, useful, positive, beneficial to people
* Well organized, competent, capable
* Perceptive, shrewd, discerning, insightful
* Arrived at through consensus
* Win-win in focus

ENFJ Conflict Resolution Activity-Improvement Opportunities (weaknesses)

* ENFJ will typically take everything personally
* ENFJ will not see debate as objective problem solving and not easily understand how others do not
* ENFJ may not see or seek all the possible facts and details
* ENFJ may overlook, disregard, write off solutions that seem non-people-oriented
* ENFJs are likely to ask questions when they are really wanting to make a statement
* ENFJ are prone to indirectness and thus appear to be manipulative
* ENFJ struggle if they cannot discuss things calmly and without strife
* ENFJs will have difficulty with those who openly blame and criticize
* ENFJs may decide too quickly, then regret it later
* ENFJ may overlook the obvious logic of a situation as clues to what is causing the problem
* ENFJ may later regret deciding so quickly, but the drive is there to remove the pain
* ENJF may exaggerate the effect of their hurt feelings and others

ENFJ’s are drawn to careers that serve others with minimal chance for conflict. Detail and paperwork can cause angst for the ENFJ who hates to be alone. They are often drawn to religious groups and academia, situations where they can interact with others and be challenged. Other popular ENFJ career directions include: Entertainer, Artist, Psychologist and Occupational Therapist.

very true!

heh.
a friend from aardwolf suddenly asked for catchup. so weird.

Gosick Opening AND Ending Theme Songs

one of the animes that i'm catching :D love the drawing styles and the songs :D

IU | Seulong (2AM) - Nagging [Eng Sub|RomHangul+DL] (아이유),(슬옹) TEASER

song stuck in my mind for the whole day! hahaa.
IU looks very pretty in here :D

From the book

"I'll check my email, or take a phone call, or go wander around the house, check the pantry for something to eat in the very moment i should be praying"

sounds familiar?

Read in 'Fathered by God' that the enemy's first plan is to keep a man out of battle altogether. and if that doesn't work, that the person rises up to fight the battle, then the second plan is to dogpile the person. bury you in battles.
the author advises the readers to choose what battles to fight.

i'm not a man :D
but i can understand this!
choose your battles wisely.

i calculated.
i had 3 students cry in front of me on friday. each at a different timing.
P was in a bad mood and i had 2 encounters with him.
i stayed till 6.30pm to do work and left not cos i finished the work, but cos the bell for school closing was ringing.
a student who would usually listen to me walked away from me on friday.
i was still recovering from illness and throat still felt crappy.
something happening in my direct sphere of influence was affecting me.
something else happening in my direct sphere of contact was affecting me greatly.
i think the next time, instead of meeting pple, i should make sure i'm alone. before i start to spew damage all around me :P
i felt like doing a domo-kun.

appreciated the 'are you ok?'s that two pple asked. one from someone i did damage to :X the other from clara.
good to be able to find out more about the situation from clara too.. helps me to clear my thoughts a bit more, and it was good to know that someone cares and knows that i'm very affected by it.

sigh.
sometimes i find it quite sad that i have a series of things i'm allergic to.
like one whole list.
1) prawns
2) crabs
3) crayfish
4) sotong
5) kiwis
6) dust mites
7) cockroaches

and now to add on to the list, there's
8) limpets -_- (even though i'm not allergic to abalone).

had a second case of limpet allergy reaction yesterday after just popping one piece of cooked limpet (my mum only told me it was the same 'baby abalone' that caused me to have an asthmatic attack previously - we could not discern the cause cos i've never had any allergic reactions to abalone, and my mum thought it was just another species of abalone. we concluded it could have been something else in the food) before i went for counselling and hopesem.
the symptoms started appearing in the midst of the counselling session, with increased coughing and phlegm. difficulty in breathing came about around 15 mins of the start of symptoms, but i thoguht it was cos of the coughing. knew i was having an asthmatic attack only when it continued :X
and it continued on.. and got worse. LOL. started to have rapid buildup of mucus. and had to keep sneezing them out. itchiness in both ears was becoming obvious.
and jingting pointed out the appearance of rashes on both my forearms. i think they're hives though. my first time having hives D: and they appeared on my knees too D: they've since faded away.
i really had the mind to leave the class there and then and go to see a doctor. hahaa. but i wanted to learn :P thank God the class didn't mind (i hope they didn't) all the noise i made while expelling the mucus.. and thank God the symptoms (the expelling of mucus part) went away at around 9.30pm. the hives only just went away. like around 12pm today.

thank God i'm 24. i think if i experience these symptoms at 40+ i may be dead. hohoho.
am on mc today. sigh. kept falling sick these 2 months. fevered twice in 2 weeks -_-

C S Lewis Song - Brooke Fraiser

If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude that I was not made for here
If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared

[CHORUS]
Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan as I wait for hope to come for me

Am I lost or just less found? On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
Is this a soul that stirs in me, is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
'Cause my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
And avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE]
For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live, I was made to love, I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He's coming

-it's the elephant in the room and we pretend we don't see it
it's the avalanche that looms above our heads and we don't believe it-

i like the description :)

there're times when i feel like school counselling is getting boring, or bothersome, or really not what i wanna do.
there are other times i really feel proud that i'm one, that i'm in close contact and proximity to the students, that i am in touch with what's going on in their families, that i'm in a setting to apply what i have learned.

there're times when i look at the other counsellors, their qualifications and senority, and wonder why in the world i'm in this position. like they know so much more about the systems, about where to get contacts... and blah and blah..
there're other times when i am proud to be one of the youngest school counsellors in the secondary system.. and though it's really hard, i can learn a lot of things. haha. or be able to know how things work in the ministry system much more.. e.g. how they allocate budget :P or things that're of a much more macro view in the school system.

:) really thank God for some of the friends I've made in the workplace since the 'newer' batch of people came in. haha. can joke around with them and talk about things which are in our era. haha.
and can let down my guard when i'm with them because we're of similar age :)
thank God.
last time felt like it was very hard to connect to the people in the workplace 'cos pple i work closely with are at least a decade older than me. and they're of position, so can't really joke about things :X i guess i need people serving and working alongside for me to be able to form part of the joy in serving and working. haha.

the downside of my new work timing is that i get to watch lesser movies. haha.
last time can still catch a movie before meetings.. now there's not enough time to do so. hahaa.
so it's either a movie, OR the meeting.
hahaa.
i wanna watch
1) Uncle Boonmee (picturehouse film)
2) The King's Speech
3) Black Swan

if anyone wanna watch with me, lemme know! :)

a sister said to me
"i realized that if i go for missions, i'd either need a very good friend with me, or my husband."

i think so too.

one little kitten went out to play
over the hills and far away
she saw a place she chose to stay
in that place her head she lay

at first life was all bright and gay
then things started to come her way
soon she can't tell difference between night and day
she just hopes that tears will keep at bay

one day while foraging around in hay
she met another in the stray
and now she wonders and she prays
should she go or should she stay?

Quoted from an online article that someone put up on buzz on gmail.

"This immediately raises a critical issue for pastoral life today, which is the level of "hurry sickness" we all have. Because you cannot mourn in a hurry. Speed may be good when it comes to ambulances and Internet connections—maybe even when it comes to the length of sermons, if my wife can be trusted—but all the technology at MIT cannot microwave the healing of a human heart."

salty and sweet :)

thought i could handle it.
turns out i still can't.
the onslaught still came as bad as before.
and i had to keep on fighting.

today i told a few people very seriously that i think i'm a rather serious person and i don't really know how to tell jokes.
hanyun looked at me and said i'm very funny.
oh dear.

i'm addicted. to my pan.
hahaha.
so i've been trying to cook EVERYTHING that i eat on the pan.
be it instant noodles (literally becomes char mee), or pasta (stir fried pasta with egg, butter, sesame oil and bakkwa. and ya. it's my own 'recipe' hoho. hahaa.) oh. i used my mum's cooked soup (which was in the fridge), poured over my noodles, and waited for it to dry up to form a nice gravy thing for my noodles too ;) haha.
just give me something and i'd prob find a way to stir fry it. haha. i like the slightly fried texture and the sizzling sound. there's a certain satisfaction in the sizzling sound that makes you feel like a chef. LOL
i wish i have more things to stir fry though :)
like i miss the bacon.
and the dou miao.
and veges.
and i dunno what other sort of nonsense i can stir fry.
i see otah in the fridge. haha.

I find some jokes really tasteless. It's as if we see the sin, and we're laughing the sin off.
Irks me rather much.

神奇侠侣 (Mr & Mrs Incredible) 预告片

watching this tmr! can't wait! hahaa

Just came back not too long ago from cutting and dying my hair at Jeric's Salon. hahaa.
my first time at a professional salon.
usually I use the neighbourhood ones. but thought that it would be too late for me to go back to the one I usually go to. Went to Jeric's 'cos they were having a discount of some sort. $168 (before GST) for cutting and colour. actually.. quite expensive >_< the last time i did cut and colour at my neighbourhood one i only paid $50. LOL
oh. but the service is very different. hahahaa.
like they'd ask me for my choice of drinks, and served me biscuits.. and i asked my stylist (his name was Caleb) a lot of questions about the hairdressing line. haha. seems like it's quite a hard line to be in.. he said that what i can share with my students about hairdressing are that it requires lots of passion.. and lots of hard work. cos the working hours are long.. and the starting pay is quite low. and it's a lot of other things other than just styling people's hair.
talked a lot to this girl from Shanghai as well. hahaa. she was the one applying the hair dye on my hair :D quite nice to hear what she has to say ba. hahaa.
quite enjoyed the time :) though financial wise, it's quite painful. hahaa.
but i'm quite glad about the result. hahaha

i've been praying for protection these days. not just over myself, but over my own family as well. not sure how to describe it, but it feels as if i've been under spiritual attack. like really literally can feel missiles coming towards me.
at first it was the gastrointestinal infection.
then it was things that happened at work, right when i felt that things were going smoothly (for once).
and then i lost money.
and then my dad's crate of fish got stolen.
not to discount the negative thoughts that've been coming along to bombard me (strange 'cos i'm not pms-ing at this time).
and all these within the span of a week.

it's as if i'm not under spiritual covering. haha.
gotta pray for protection!

it's new year's eve! :)

2 months. and it's ongoing.

i wonder when it'd stop.