I realize that I'm more motivated to do work when I'm studying and when i'm more relaxed and feel more in control of the time i have (despite it being a fixed 9-5pm everyday during course).
i'm more fruitful as well.. 'cos I'd tend to limit myself to a certain amount of time. or rather I only have that small amount of time to finish.
but i also become less people oriented. haha. in that i'd prefer finishing up my work to eating lunch with the course mates.. or will take the chance to nap after a short talk with them :X
heh.

i was stuck without the internet for three days :\
what with worship prac on tuesday, preparations for something on the way and the need to check my school email, it was a pretty interesting three days.
hahaha.
and i've got tons of things that just came in :\
course assignments, work review, action plan for this yr and next yr, and pen picture due :P:P:P
but i feel motivated!
hahaha
very in fact :) though a little not very happy about the lesser sleep hours and free time :)
i feel motivated to do my work a bit more. and to voice out things during the work review section. i guess it comes from not caring so much about what happens :P
--------------------------
it was a good time of sharing with you :) to me it felt like a breakthrough in knowing you. strangely one of the few breakthroughs ever since 5 yrs ago. and it allowed me to know you more.
and interestingly, telling you how i felt about that period of time when i was perturbed and much affected about what happened as a result of you, settled something within my heart :)
thanks for the things you've done for me, and the company and support you've given me through these years :) i'd remember the tears, the outbursts. i'd also remember your patience, your humility and how you knew me well (surprising me by how well you know me sometimes.)
: (

went for the grief and loss course today :)
got thoughts, but tired to type out. haha.
that which i thought i've resolved is not yet resolved as of yet.
the world's kinda warped. haha.
i thought i wanted to be a particular form of support, but i realized i can't.
and i certainly didn't expect someone else to want to set up a blogshop.

the things i expect to happen didn't
that which i dun expect happens.

funny.

Selling earphones! :)


Bear design in ear earphones from Bandai:)



Soccer design in-ear earphones from i dunno where:)

Specifications are the same as the earphones you buy in popular :P The soccer design earphones have better specs than the ones in popular. hahaa. slightly more bass (frequency range of 18-20,000hz).

Selling at $7 each ($7.50 with postage).
If you're my friend, you get it at $6.50 :)
Have a nice day~

This is the box of masks that I bought. the top rated masks from my beauty diary. hahaa. it's a popular brand from taiwan :) i've never tried it before.. but their black pearl masks get sold out pretty fast.. so i figured i should go and try.. but i'm the kind of person who likes to have a small sample of everything. hahaa. so i bought this pack.. it features the 8 top sellers for brightening. LOL

Tried the above mask today :)
VERY NICE SMELL :D:D:D
i can't help wanting to breathe in more 'cos of the smell that it has :)
mask sheet adhered to face and felt like a second skin :) nice :)
Essence gets absorbed in quickly :) (maybe 'cos my skin is dry. haha)
My skin is noticeably calmer and in a better condition after taking off the mask :D I think it's supposed to have the effect of whitening, tightening and age defying. haha. i think it does the age defying job pretty well :D at least for now. i dun really feel any tightening or observe any whitening effects though :D

i am on a mask craze.
hahaa :)
i bought hair mask. and i bought face masks. hahahaa.
yay.
can't wait to try them out.
the best time to try them out is now... when my body goes into the more uncomfortable 2nd stage of the month~

chi is very funny.
lol
'cos she only knows how to use the sand to cover the area where she pee-ed and poo-ed.. occasionally when she pees out of the litter box onto the newspaper, she only knows how to dig at the newspaper and the floor (which contains nothing) to try to cover up the pee. super funny 'cos she's digging for nothing. LOL

I'm an owl.
And there're times when my owl instincts kick in and force me to reevaluate why i'm in a job that requires me to wake up at 6am in the morning when my optimum time for working is at night.
It's times like this that I read up on articles like this. Comforting articles which affirm me on my existence, but does nothing to help. hahaha.
Unless I change my job, I'd not be able to listen to my circadian rhythm. lol

smashed up hearts hung up to dry

This is super funny.
Video of the sec 1E students doing the YOG cheer. hahaha
http://www.youtube.com/user/dahmon000#p/u/2/VQ-nadgHLQ8

Jitsy's solution to me having lots of casenotes to write:

Jitsy: casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes casenotes
I have helped you write your casenotes :)

HELLO INVISIBLE!

lol
for the first time in my life
i went into the movie theatre without having my ticket torn.
heee.
i wanted to show the lady my ticket, she barely glanced at it (due to the large number of people going in at the same time).
so i have an intact ticket! :D yay

it turns out that S pple are easily contented with simple pleasures in life.
i guess that's prob why i'm not so contented with simple pleasures in life, though i've grown to be more of that way in the past year.
and i would guess that would explain for the appearance of the S in my personality profile.

READ THIS!

it's about why night owls might be smarter than others :D:D:D

My gmarket page is here :D
but it doesn't show up when you search for miniature rose.
i wonder why :\
gmarket eats up $0.40 if a transaction is approved. lol.
someone buy from me and give me ratings :P

nice dress here!

I don't like it when Chi steps across the keyboard of my lappie. hahaa.
Currently reading
It's the latest book by Jodi Picoult. haha. finally made the trip down to Borders to use the card I got from a participating in a focused group discussion. borrow it from me if you need to! :)
This is the third book I'm reading from her! Also read 'my sister's keeper' and 'handle with care'.
haha. recommended books:)

i realize that if something irritates me or frustrates me, i can lay it aside, sort of bubble wrap it for a while.. like maybe 2-3 months, and then it'd erupt out of the bubble wrap and bother me again.
and then i can STILL bubble wrap it and wait for another 2-3 months, and then the same thing happens.
i've been wanting to revamp my room, but due to the immobility of one of the BIG computer tables in the room, i have been unable to shift things around.
now i can't stand it anymore. it's hindering my organizing, and it's hindering my shifting of items.
and i think i should go learn some woodcraft or household i dunno what or something... i keep thinking about storage spaces and shelves, but due to a lack of skills, i'm limited. i have the idea in my head but i can't carry it out.
and that kinda frustrate me more.
lol.
i dun like the feeling of being frustrated.
someone reminded me to sit down and pray :) heh.

helpless o_o

i realized tt i am naturally captivated and captured by works from the Impressionist and Post impressionist period :)
picked up a paper printout of L'Estaque done by Pierre-Auguste Renoir 'cos it soothed my emotions without knowing that it's from the Impressionist period, though the style is similar to Van Gogh's (who's from the Post Impressionist period). haha.
i love the strokes :)
am putting it up on my bare bare walls.

i think God loves us with a tough form of love (not tough in the normal sense when he disciplines us, but tough as in, difficult, tedious) when He gave us freedom and freewill, knowing that we can choose to walk away from Him and go to other things instead, yet still loving us 100% all the time in return, not asking for anything back, not forcing anything on us.
it's so hard :(

Hi all! :)

I'm doing a market survey :) haha. Never did one before.. so here goes
Would you buy a mini preserved rose (see above) in the form of a keychain for the price of S$3.90?
(inclusive of postage)
How about at S$4.50?

How about a mini plant in the form of a keychain? :) at the cost of $2.50 without postage, and $3 with postage? haha


give comments!
and the kind of questions u would ask yourself when you consider.
dunno why i'm doing a market survey based on nothing when i have no business background AT ALL.

today's an extremely interesting day :)
got a bite on my right elbow, and lots of red bumps appeared around the bite. still itching, still not subsided. looks as if i've had like 11 mosquito bite bumps gathering around in an uneven manner around that area.
and i just cut my finger! not intentionally. accidentally. was cutting some stuff to segment this tray i got from daiso so that my things can be more organized (am on organizing spree! can't stand the untidy state of my room! and can't stand not having proper things to put these things in. ahhh. would GLADLY throw out my computer table and my cpu and monitor and the not working printer if i can, but i haven't had time to go and plug out all the wires and what-nots. lol.), when i cut too hard and cut into my left forefinger instead.
and woohoo, blood flowed out.
i was rather surprised at the amount of blood that came out. it gathered into a nice red drop, and then became a stead stream of blood down my finger to my palm. wow. hahahaa. and wiping it all away doesn't help. hahaa. went to wash it under running water, and subsequently pressed a tissue hard against it. now i have a bloody tissue. looks like those gauze you have after placing it between the space where a tooth has been plucked out. finger feels numbish and painish and swollen. hahahaa. and red! feels poisoned.

huichun's married
junting's getting married.
not sure about ziwei..
jitsy, can you please go get married too? :D

LOL

i can't take my mind off f80 :\

i think i can't live long in times of stability and peace
a part in me starts to scream out
i need strong emotional engagement
anguish
laughter
sorrow
anger
excitement
exhilaration

and i need an outlet for my mind
intellectual discourse
or daydreaming
or thinking of creative ideas

maybe that's why there's usually only 2 days of weekend.
i may be able to survive on leisure and activities.. but i can't thrive on it. my brain needs engagement.. and not just on an individual level ('cos i realized reading doesn't relieve that boredom), but connecting on a social level.
and i can't tell whether it's the sang or the mel side of me that needs that connection.
i need a good, solid conversation.
or a fruitful time spent.

how shall i put it into vivid description?
it's a craving that can't be satisfied.
no.
not even a craving
it's something within you gnawing at you.. disturbing you.. digging away at your mind.
it's an intellectual and emotional and social hunger.
it's prob the result of lack of working of the brain.
hmmm
maybe learning something new will help.
hahahaa

8 more days to payment for Italy!
8 more days to bonus day!
8 more days to... F80? :X

--------------
3 yrs to go~
the meek will inherit the world!

the first official start of the programme tmr! :)
excited =)
dialogue in the dark~

for 2 days consecutively, 4 different people in school asked me if i'm attached -_-

something that's not supposed to be affecting me is affecting me -_-

I watched Toy Story 3 twice 'cos there were some details which I felt I missed, and 'cos it was just simply too good to let up. It stayed and revolved around my mind the entire week I was waiting for the 2nd time I can watch the movie.
Was reading reviews of the movie, and I find this review quite a good one :)
Watching it the second time round brought about a different kind of feel. It was slightly boring at the start 'cos you already know what's going to happen. The starting animation was still brilliant to me though :D And then halfway through the movie, when the laughter and action picks up again, that's when I re-enjoyed the movie. hahaa. I managed to notice more details in the front part of the movie though.
Such a good watch.
and the end still brought about strong emotions.
Even listening to the song brings about emotions.
ah.

it's actually quite amazing how young the students can start to learn to smoke.
primary 5!!!
they usually start in primary 5!
then go to primary 6!
self mutilation as well.
usually starts in primary 5.
and suicides.
so better watch out for your child when he/she is in primary 5 :X