i think recently i was just thinking more of how things in the past affect me..
specifically in the areas of unconscious influences.. not that i've not thought about these areas before, it's more of how i've been doing more evaluation and more deliberate tracking of where my beliefs and emotions and thoughts come from.
and i realized that there may be certain things i realized before, but i don't acknowledge them.
and perhaps sometimes the reason i don't acknowledge them is 'cos i don't want to believe that these things affect me.
hahaa.
ah wells.