and so i spent 3 hours thinking, wanting to do substantive things, but not doing so.
just thinking and pondering.
and then i moved to clear rubbish from my room.
and sat down and thought again.
and though i know i should sleep soon.
sleep which is tugging at my sleeves is unable to pull me away from the weight of my thoughts.
why am i so disturbed by it?
'cos it reminds me of things which are unpleasant.