2 interesting things I've observed recently/has happened to me recently:
- bus stopping at every bus stop and opening its doors when there was no one at the bus stop.
- spotted two guys sleeping on cardboard boxes behind a shop in toa payoh while walking home..
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Starting to wonder if i've done too much affective interventions for the day :\
had to 'hold' a crying client, then an angry client.
and during lunchtime, was listening to an angry colleague.
lol.
got quite tired after that. but still had to do work :\ and had to explain to a parent while her child was going through counselling.
oh well:\
had to 'hold' a crying client, then an angry client.
and during lunchtime, was listening to an angry colleague.
lol.
got quite tired after that. but still had to do work :\ and had to explain to a parent while her child was going through counselling.
oh well:\
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
My RO very nice :)
i think nice-ness has an effect on me :\
nice music here
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just talked to a very angry student. lol
i think nice-ness has an effect on me :\
nice music here
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just talked to a very angry student. lol
Monday, September 28, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Got this from Counselling Connection
'Sometimes you’ve just got to do nothing but lie in bed in a fetal position and be a miserable wretch. Try not to spend more than one complete day doing this. After twenty-four hours of said behaviour, you should try to move a little.
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These are often at the root of some people’s difficulty establishing intimacy. A person who has experienced a great deal of hurt as a child will often find it hard as an adult to trust their partner, however much they may be in love. Examples of childhood pain that affects adult relationships include long-term conflict between parents, physical or sexual abuse, or a loss or death that was never properly accepted and grieved.
Such experiences can lead to a child having poor self-esteem, a basic doubt about whether or not he or she is worthy of love. These doubts can be carried into adulthood, making it very difficult for the person to open up to someone else in case they are rejected and their doubts are confirmed. Intimacy does not happen by magic. It must be built up over time.
This takes some people longer than for others. Often the harder you work at intimacy, the more valuable and rewarding it is. '
'Sometimes you’ve just got to do nothing but lie in bed in a fetal position and be a miserable wretch. Try not to spend more than one complete day doing this. After twenty-four hours of said behaviour, you should try to move a little.
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These are often at the root of some people’s difficulty establishing intimacy. A person who has experienced a great deal of hurt as a child will often find it hard as an adult to trust their partner, however much they may be in love. Examples of childhood pain that affects adult relationships include long-term conflict between parents, physical or sexual abuse, or a loss or death that was never properly accepted and grieved.
Such experiences can lead to a child having poor self-esteem, a basic doubt about whether or not he or she is worthy of love. These doubts can be carried into adulthood, making it very difficult for the person to open up to someone else in case they are rejected and their doubts are confirmed. Intimacy does not happen by magic. It must be built up over time.
This takes some people longer than for others. Often the harder you work at intimacy, the more valuable and rewarding it is. '
hahahaha.
saw this on yizhong's blog.
A couple was having dinner at a restaurant. Then there was this chio and scantily-clad gal walking past. The husband's eyes (head didn't turn) fixed on the gal as she walked past.
After she walked past, the wife said to the husband,"is she worth the trouble you are going to get now?"
not bad. good one.
saw this on yizhong's blog.
A couple was having dinner at a restaurant. Then there was this chio and scantily-clad gal walking past. The husband's eyes (head didn't turn) fixed on the gal as she walked past.
After she walked past, the wife said to the husband,"is she worth the trouble you are going to get now?"
not bad. good one.
Overexcitability
'The most evident aspect of developmental potential is overexcitability (OE), a heightened physiological experience of stimuli resulting from increased neuronal sensitivities. The greater the OE, the more intense are the day-to-day experiences of life. Dąbrowski outlined five forms of OE: psychomotor, sensual, imaginational, intellectual and emotional. These overexcitabilities, especially the latter three, often cause a person to experience daily life more intensely and to feel the extremes of the joys and sorrows of life profoundly. Dąbrowski studied human exemplars and found that heightened overexcitability was a key part of their developmental and life experience. These people are steered and driven by their value "rudder", their sense of emotional OE. (seeing ur own experience put into words is a pretty interesting experience. hahahaa) Combined with imaginational and intellectual OE, these people have a powerful perception of the world. "I can hear the grass screaming when my dad cuts the lawn! I shout at him to STOP and he (again) just shakes his head. I can't bear to watch."
Although based in the nervous system, overexcitabilities come to be expressed psychologically through the development of structures that reflect the emerging autonomous self. The most important of these conceptualizations are dynamisms: biological or mental forces that control behavior and its development. "Instincts, drives and intellectual processes combined with emotions are dynamisms" (Dąbrowski 1972, 294). With advanced development, dynamisms increasingly reflect movement toward autonomy.
[on a side note:
They often can master concepts with few repetitions. They may also be physically and emotionally sensitive, perfectionistic, and may frequently question authority.
--->ha! they should have told our teachers about this :X]
ah well :)
-i have never walked on water
felt the waves beneath my feet but
at Your Word Lord i receive Your
faith to walk on oceans deep
and i remember
how You found me
at the very same place
all my failings surely would have drowned me
still You made a way
You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
i'm kneeling again at Your throne
where would i be
without You
here in my life
here in my life-
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it's so easy to get disillusioned with the world
to have the desire to abandon it
after you see the many manifestations of the sins of mankind
and then you see the great limitations and boundaries
systemic problems
and you're fully aware that yes, you can reframe things
and you are supposed to be the one to help people reframe things
but ultimately,
so many things remain unchanged.
and of course, it's easy to say
world i don't want you anymore. 'cos you don't change.
i don't want you anymore 'cos the problem's too big for me to do anything about it.
the sentiments of many counsellors.
realizing that
'there's nothing i can do about it!'
but you keep providing hope.
you hold their disillusionment
you bear the brunt
and you keep providing hope.
and as human beings
we often ask then, who's going to hold the brunt for us?
when you hear of colleagues who're developing somatic symptoms as a reaction to their jobs, you ask. is it worth it?
the money isn't worth it.
lol.
and the disillusionment that comes along with it is strong.
thank God for God.
for being the hope.
THE hope.
and because of Him
you can then keep providing hope.
and you learn
to not personalize what you have heard.
learning to compartmentalize.
shift it aside first.
before making sense of it on a latter date.
:)
and you keep providing hope.
while wondering what sort of impact u can make at such an individual level.
hahaha :)
jiayou people! :)
'The most evident aspect of developmental potential is overexcitability (OE), a heightened physiological experience of stimuli resulting from increased neuronal sensitivities. The greater the OE, the more intense are the day-to-day experiences of life. Dąbrowski outlined five forms of OE: psychomotor, sensual, imaginational, intellectual and emotional. These overexcitabilities, especially the latter three, often cause a person to experience daily life more intensely and to feel the extremes of the joys and sorrows of life profoundly. Dąbrowski studied human exemplars and found that heightened overexcitability was a key part of their developmental and life experience. These people are steered and driven by their value "rudder", their sense of emotional OE. (seeing ur own experience put into words is a pretty interesting experience. hahahaa) Combined with imaginational and intellectual OE, these people have a powerful perception of the world. "I can hear the grass screaming when my dad cuts the lawn! I shout at him to STOP and he (again) just shakes his head. I can't bear to watch."
Although based in the nervous system, overexcitabilities come to be expressed psychologically through the development of structures that reflect the emerging autonomous self. The most important of these conceptualizations are dynamisms: biological or mental forces that control behavior and its development. "Instincts, drives and intellectual processes combined with emotions are dynamisms" (Dąbrowski 1972, 294). With advanced development, dynamisms increasingly reflect movement toward autonomy.
[on a side note:
They often can master concepts with few repetitions. They may also be physically and emotionally sensitive, perfectionistic, and may frequently question authority.
--->ha! they should have told our teachers about this :X]
ah well :)
-i have never walked on water
felt the waves beneath my feet but
at Your Word Lord i receive Your
faith to walk on oceans deep
and i remember
how You found me
at the very same place
all my failings surely would have drowned me
still You made a way
You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
i'm kneeling again at Your throne
where would i be
without You
here in my life
here in my life-
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it's so easy to get disillusioned with the world
to have the desire to abandon it
after you see the many manifestations of the sins of mankind
and then you see the great limitations and boundaries
systemic problems
and you're fully aware that yes, you can reframe things
and you are supposed to be the one to help people reframe things
but ultimately,
so many things remain unchanged.
and of course, it's easy to say
world i don't want you anymore. 'cos you don't change.
i don't want you anymore 'cos the problem's too big for me to do anything about it.
the sentiments of many counsellors.
realizing that
'there's nothing i can do about it!'
but you keep providing hope.
you hold their disillusionment
you bear the brunt
and you keep providing hope.
and as human beings
we often ask then, who's going to hold the brunt for us?
when you hear of colleagues who're developing somatic symptoms as a reaction to their jobs, you ask. is it worth it?
the money isn't worth it.
lol.
and the disillusionment that comes along with it is strong.
thank God for God.
for being the hope.
THE hope.
and because of Him
you can then keep providing hope.
and you learn
to not personalize what you have heard.
learning to compartmentalize.
shift it aside first.
before making sense of it on a latter date.
:)
and you keep providing hope.
while wondering what sort of impact u can make at such an individual level.
hahaha :)
jiayou people! :)
Friday, September 25, 2009
Carrot juice constitutes murder - arrogant worms
Listen up, brothers and sisters
Come hear my desperate tale
I speak of our friends of nature
Trapped in the dirt like a jail
Vegetables live in oppression
Served on our tables each night
This killing of veggies is madness
I say we take up the fight
Salads are only for murderers
Cole slaw's a fascist regime
Don't think that they don't have feelings
Just 'cause a radish can't scream
I've heard the screams of the vegetables (scream scream scream)
Watching their skins being peeled (having their insides revealed)
Grated and steamed with no mercy (burning off calories)
How do you think that feel ( bet it hurts really bad)
Carrot juice constitutes murder (and that's a real crime)
Greenhouses prisons for slaves (let my vegetables grow)
It's time to stop all this gardening (it's dirty as hell)
Let's call a spade a spade (it's a spade it's a spade it's a spade)
I saw a man eating celery
So I beat him black and blue
If he ever touches a sprout again
I'll bite him clean in two
I'm a political prisoner
Trapped in a windowless cage
'Cause I stopped the slaughter of turnips
By killing five men in a rage
I told the judge when he sentenced me
"This is my finest hour
I'll kill those farmers again
Just to save one more cauliflower"
How low as people do we dare to stoop
Making young broccolis bleed in the soup
Untie your beans, uncage your tomatoes
Set potted plants free, don't mash that potato, ah
I've heard the screams of the vegetables (scream scream scream)
Watching their skins being peeled (fates in the stir fry are sealed)
Grated and steamed with no mercy (you fat gourmet scum)
How do you think that feels (leave them out in the fields)
Carrot juice constitutes murder (V8's genocide)
Greenhouses prisons for slaves (yes your compost's a grave)
It's time to stop all this gardening (take up macramé)
Let's call a spade a spade (it's a spade it's a spade it's a spade)
Listen up, brothers and sisters
Come hear my desperate tale
I speak of our friends of nature
Trapped in the dirt like a jail
Vegetables live in oppression
Served on our tables each night
This killing of veggies is madness
I say we take up the fight
Salads are only for murderers
Cole slaw's a fascist regime
Don't think that they don't have feelings
Just 'cause a radish can't scream
I've heard the screams of the vegetables (scream scream scream)
Watching their skins being peeled (having their insides revealed)
Grated and steamed with no mercy (burning off calories)
How do you think that feel ( bet it hurts really bad)
Carrot juice constitutes murder (and that's a real crime)
Greenhouses prisons for slaves (let my vegetables grow)
It's time to stop all this gardening (it's dirty as hell)
Let's call a spade a spade (it's a spade it's a spade it's a spade)
I saw a man eating celery
So I beat him black and blue
If he ever touches a sprout again
I'll bite him clean in two
I'm a political prisoner
Trapped in a windowless cage
'Cause I stopped the slaughter of turnips
By killing five men in a rage
I told the judge when he sentenced me
"This is my finest hour
I'll kill those farmers again
Just to save one more cauliflower"
How low as people do we dare to stoop
Making young broccolis bleed in the soup
Untie your beans, uncage your tomatoes
Set potted plants free, don't mash that potato, ah
I've heard the screams of the vegetables (scream scream scream)
Watching their skins being peeled (fates in the stir fry are sealed)
Grated and steamed with no mercy (you fat gourmet scum)
How do you think that feels (leave them out in the fields)
Carrot juice constitutes murder (V8's genocide)
Greenhouses prisons for slaves (yes your compost's a grave)
It's time to stop all this gardening (take up macramé)
Let's call a spade a spade (it's a spade it's a spade it's a spade)
Thursday, September 24, 2009
me: 'so what i hear from you is that on one hand, you ..., yet on the other hand, you... there seems to be this internal difference which you are facing...'
student: (laughs) 'how can you read my mind like that?'
. satisfaction .
satisfaction. it happens when you consciously realize that you are using many different counselling skills in one session. consciously sieving out and choosing information to tackle.
it happens when your student opens up and shares so much more things because of your skills.
it happens when the students asks you things back in return.
it happens when you suggest something to work on, and the student agrees wholeheartedly with what you have suggested.
GRINS.
guess what? :D
i prayed before i went into the session XD
student: (laughs) 'how can you read my mind like that?'
. satisfaction .
satisfaction. it happens when you consciously realize that you are using many different counselling skills in one session. consciously sieving out and choosing information to tackle.
it happens when your student opens up and shares so much more things because of your skills.
it happens when the students asks you things back in return.
it happens when you suggest something to work on, and the student agrees wholeheartedly with what you have suggested.
GRINS.
guess what? :D
i prayed before i went into the session XD
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
"To a child, divorce can seem like the death of a parent"
For a child whose parents are going through divorce, the reactions can be quite similar to undergoing the grief cycle while experiencing the death of a parent.
denial.
anger.
bargaining.
depression.
acceptance.
we may face the grief cycle when we cope with changes or loss as well. and sometimes a few stages repeat themselves over and over and over again. previously watched a video of a person tackling grief dealing with the loss of a spouse before.
grief is such an intriguing thing to explore. and such an intricate process to tackle.
grief. trauma.
i miss these :\
For a child whose parents are going through divorce, the reactions can be quite similar to undergoing the grief cycle while experiencing the death of a parent.
denial.
anger.
bargaining.
depression.
acceptance.
we may face the grief cycle when we cope with changes or loss as well. and sometimes a few stages repeat themselves over and over and over again. previously watched a video of a person tackling grief dealing with the loss of a spouse before.
grief is such an intriguing thing to explore. and such an intricate process to tackle.
grief. trauma.
i miss these :\
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Just had a 50 min talk with Rachel :) hahaa. Same timing as a counselling session.
Before April, it was kind of hard to imagine why the turnover rate for school counsellors was high.
Now after 3 months in school, I know why.
hahaha.
I guess I'd still like to start up the system in school.
but my job scope is more of the responsive services cum developmental programmes.
as how one of my classmates puts it, the school system is 'sh***y' to counsellors.
you know something is wrong somewhere, when your classmateSSS want to switch back to being education officers, or to quit the system altogether :\
i'm griping.
bah.
no support:(
we can't properly counsel!
and sometimes you wonder about the qualifications of other counsellors :P
i'm super irritated 'cos i'm not getting what i signed myself up for.
oh.
it's called job satisfaction.
i'm not getting it.
i don't think it's tt bad though. i quite like interacting with the students (when i'm not in rtc). i enjoy counselling students.
i enjoy working with teachers.
but i think rtc just gives me a :\ feel.
maybe i need to go and think through more about what exactly i am disgruntled about.
my management's very nice though :)
my p and vp :)
Before April, it was kind of hard to imagine why the turnover rate for school counsellors was high.
Now after 3 months in school, I know why.
hahaha.
I guess I'd still like to start up the system in school.
but my job scope is more of the responsive services cum developmental programmes.
as how one of my classmates puts it, the school system is 'sh***y' to counsellors.
you know something is wrong somewhere, when your classmateSSS want to switch back to being education officers, or to quit the system altogether :\
i'm griping.
bah.
no support:(
we can't properly counsel!
and sometimes you wonder about the qualifications of other counsellors :P
i'm super irritated 'cos i'm not getting what i signed myself up for.
oh.
it's called job satisfaction.
i'm not getting it.
i don't think it's tt bad though. i quite like interacting with the students (when i'm not in rtc). i enjoy counselling students.
i enjoy working with teachers.
but i think rtc just gives me a :\ feel.
maybe i need to go and think through more about what exactly i am disgruntled about.
my management's very nice though :)
my p and vp :)
Friday, September 18, 2009
I have 'pata pata pata pon pata pata pon!' stuck in my mind :(
and i'm sleepy (again. hahahaa)
today my supervisor asked us who discovered water. hahaha. the answer had completely no link with the qn -.- lol. his answer was that he doesn't know who discovered water, but it's definitely not the fish (then i'm like, fish is not a who...).
anywayyyyyyy... his point (after having no point) was that fishes get so used to the water around them that they may not realize that they're not conscious of the fact tt they're in water till they're taken out of that water. as human beings, we're so absorbed in our culture that sometimes we do not realize/recognize it when discrimination takes place until we get taken out of our culture and are discriminated against ourselves :) which i thought was a good point.. though his riddle made no sense whatsoever to me :D hahahaa.
but he's a nice supervisor anyways :) and quite good :)
i'm cold :)
i always remember how they say if u're cold, and hungry and tired, it's easier for u to sin. hahaa. but i'm quite joyful at this moment, so maybe that's a buffer? :D so doesn't mean when we're tired and hungry and cold, we have the license to sin :)
^^
but i'm still cold and sleepy. hahaa. though not hungry.
- there was a lady all in white
holds me and sings a lullaby
she's nice to see and she's soft to touch
she says Cosette, i love you very much...-
hhahaa
got this song stuck in my mind at this moment.
it's interesting how nigel used citadels in his counselling session! :D
and i'm sleepy (again. hahahaa)
today my supervisor asked us who discovered water. hahaha. the answer had completely no link with the qn -.- lol. his answer was that he doesn't know who discovered water, but it's definitely not the fish (then i'm like, fish is not a who...).
anywayyyyyyy... his point (after having no point) was that fishes get so used to the water around them that they may not realize that they're not conscious of the fact tt they're in water till they're taken out of that water. as human beings, we're so absorbed in our culture that sometimes we do not realize/recognize it when discrimination takes place until we get taken out of our culture and are discriminated against ourselves :) which i thought was a good point.. though his riddle made no sense whatsoever to me :D hahahaa.
but he's a nice supervisor anyways :) and quite good :)
i'm cold :)
i always remember how they say if u're cold, and hungry and tired, it's easier for u to sin. hahaa. but i'm quite joyful at this moment, so maybe that's a buffer? :D so doesn't mean when we're tired and hungry and cold, we have the license to sin :)
^^
but i'm still cold and sleepy. hahaa. though not hungry.
- there was a lady all in white
holds me and sings a lullaby
she's nice to see and she's soft to touch
she says Cosette, i love you very much...-
hhahaa
got this song stuck in my mind at this moment.
it's interesting how nigel used citadels in his counselling session! :D
Thursday, September 17, 2009
David once mentioned that he posed this question to his students in RP before..
Received this email from Ivy in school email today too..
A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.
The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange. You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?
Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could make........ ........
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Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?
Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was. This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.
The great critic Leo Velski Julian as well as Sourav who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens.. If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.
While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.
'Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right.'
Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.
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lol.
Chiew Lim happily told me today that next week we'll be going on excursions (a.k.a home visits).
i hope we stay in singapore for staff retreat! hahaha.
'cos the next day is GC! hahahaa.
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Received this email from Ivy in school email today too..
A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.
The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange. You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?
Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could make........ ........
Scroll down
Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?
Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was. This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.
The great critic Leo Velski Julian as well as Sourav who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens.. If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.
While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.
'Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right.'
Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.
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lol.
Chiew Lim happily told me today that next week we'll be going on excursions (a.k.a home visits).
i hope we stay in singapore for staff retreat! hahaha.
'cos the next day is GC! hahahaa.
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Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
i opened blogger up with the full intention to blog about something, but i forgot what it is. hahaha.
:)
feeling sleepy.
guess i can't sustain sleeping at 2am and waking up at 6.45am anymore. lol :)
wouldn't it be nice if school only starts at 10am? :)
and ends at 4.30pm :)
LOL.
work will be so much more enjoyable if it starts later : )
hahaaa. but then i guess we're already very fortunate to be paid sufficiently for our work :)
:)
feeling sleepy.
guess i can't sustain sleeping at 2am and waking up at 6.45am anymore. lol :)
wouldn't it be nice if school only starts at 10am? :)
and ends at 4.30pm :)
LOL.
work will be so much more enjoyable if it starts later : )
hahaaa. but then i guess we're already very fortunate to be paid sufficiently for our work :)
Sunday, September 13, 2009
you know, sometimes you have a desire to do certain things, and you don't voice it out, but everything else you do stems out from that desire to want to bless in that area...
and when someone realizes, acknowledges it and affirms it,
it's a very liberating feeling.
it just makes u go 'wow'.
hahaa.
thanks you wenjiang :) (though u prob won't read this and won't know what i'm talking about).
thank you justin :)
and when someone realizes, acknowledges it and affirms it,
it's a very liberating feeling.
it just makes u go 'wow'.
hahaa.
thanks you wenjiang :) (though u prob won't read this and won't know what i'm talking about).
thank you justin :)
sometimes i wonder about the futility of life.
hahaaa.
that the pursuits of so many things in life end up to nought.
i guess maybe tt's why sometimes i'm not so interested in doing things that doesn't seem to have continuity and longevity. lol.
that these things disinterest me very quickly.
but then again, i guess one'd never know the possibility of that thing having continuity and longevity. lol.
i'm babbling.
hahaaa.
that the pursuits of so many things in life end up to nought.
i guess maybe tt's why sometimes i'm not so interested in doing things that doesn't seem to have continuity and longevity. lol.
that these things disinterest me very quickly.
but then again, i guess one'd never know the possibility of that thing having continuity and longevity. lol.
i'm babbling.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Today's unit caused me to laugh like mad.
the game weiling led was super funny. hahaa. we were supposed to pair up and beat each other in three areas - thumb fight, patting of head (>_< my head's innocent. lol)
hahaa. literally.
oh shuyi very nice! she bought socks for all of us from China =)
and some weird tasting crab flavoured Pretz :\
stinky Pretz :\
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this is for you :)
jiayou!
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the game weiling led was super funny. hahaa. we were supposed to pair up and beat each other in three areas - thumb fight, patting of head (>_< my head's innocent. lol)
hahaa. literally.
oh shuyi very nice! she bought socks for all of us from China =)
and some weird tasting crab flavoured Pretz :\
stinky Pretz :\
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this is for you :)
jiayou!
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Thursday, September 10, 2009
Was searching online for loving and giving.. hahahaa. to find a creative way to collect love offerings.. when i saw this:
'While giving is essential to loving, the ability to receive is what makes us lovable. If you're a great giver, but a lousy receiver, then you may be able to love, but you make it hard for yourself to be loved.'
ah :)
it's like allowing yourself to be vulnerable too.
'While giving is essential to loving, the ability to receive is what makes us lovable. If you're a great giver, but a lousy receiver, then you may be able to love, but you make it hard for yourself to be loved.'
ah :)
it's like allowing yourself to be vulnerable too.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
actually till now, i'm still not sure if what i'm experiencing in school is so called normal.. hahaa. seems to be having the message that work place is supposed to be more supportive (in terms of having colleagues who'll be there to support you, and having someone who'll properly induct you). doesn't seem like i've had any proper induction/introduction. LOL.
i've still not gotten myself introduced to the school. hahahaa.
Sounds like more and more people are thinking of converting back to being an EO, or quitting the profession of a counsellor :S
i've still not gotten myself introduced to the school. hahahaa.
Sounds like more and more people are thinking of converting back to being an EO, or quitting the profession of a counsellor :S
Monday, September 07, 2009
Went down to nie today to return my overdue books :\
hahahaa.
felt like a waste of time to travel down to nie just to return books :S
anyway, met seokhui on the way down :) hahaa. was quite surprised to see her there. don't know why she's there though. LOL. moe scholar becoming teacher? :)
then saw bakemono and his gf! haha. bakemono's a good friend of mine in japanese tutorial class in the past :P so is his girlfriend :) i dunno his name 'cos i've always called him bakemono (of which his reply was bakamono). i do however, know his girlfriend's name :) very nice people :) bakemono's half crazy too. he curtseyed together with us during grad day. hohoho.
so i returned books :( paying for fines is a awful way of spending money :\
and i saw bakemono on the bus again -.-
lol
anyway, had a good catchup with him :) finding out from him where he and his gf are working at at this moment. ah. the world's different when you have to support yourself. hahahaa.
chi's happily sleeping against the wall :D
so cute!
HAHAHAA.
went to collect my wii set today as well.. but they said that it's been a long time since i ordered it, so they needed to fax the receipt over to verify my receipt o.o
and that they'll contact me again O.o
i like the airport!
i miss the airport!
i wanna go to the airport again!
hahahaa.
felt like a waste of time to travel down to nie just to return books :S
anyway, met seokhui on the way down :) hahaa. was quite surprised to see her there. don't know why she's there though. LOL. moe scholar becoming teacher? :)
then saw bakemono and his gf! haha. bakemono's a good friend of mine in japanese tutorial class in the past :P so is his girlfriend :) i dunno his name 'cos i've always called him bakemono (of which his reply was bakamono). i do however, know his girlfriend's name :) very nice people :) bakemono's half crazy too. he curtseyed together with us during grad day. hohoho.
so i returned books :( paying for fines is a awful way of spending money :\
and i saw bakemono on the bus again -.-
lol
anyway, had a good catchup with him :) finding out from him where he and his gf are working at at this moment. ah. the world's different when you have to support yourself. hahahaa.
chi's happily sleeping against the wall :D
so cute!
HAHAHAA.
went to collect my wii set today as well.. but they said that it's been a long time since i ordered it, so they needed to fax the receipt over to verify my receipt o.o
and that they'll contact me again O.o
i like the airport!
i miss the airport!
i wanna go to the airport again!
Read a post about artists in the church from Jiali's blog which i felt was quite beautiful =) hahaa.
I wonder if there's a job which allows you to read books and write reviews on them. hahaa.
had a humbling afternoon yesterday :) but i learned a few things about myself, and a few things about the people around me. it's interesting :)
thanks for asking me about it :)
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there are times when i plug in my earphones and the music distracts me from my thoughts.. there are also other times when i plug in my earphones and the music becomes a background sound which helps me to concentrate on my thoughts better and to allow me to craft words in a clearer manner.
I wonder if there's a job which allows you to read books and write reviews on them. hahaa.
had a humbling afternoon yesterday :) but i learned a few things about myself, and a few things about the people around me. it's interesting :)
thanks for asking me about it :)
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there are times when i plug in my earphones and the music distracts me from my thoughts.. there are also other times when i plug in my earphones and the music becomes a background sound which helps me to concentrate on my thoughts better and to allow me to craft words in a clearer manner.
Friday, September 04, 2009
At the end of the day, we're all just normal human beings.
We all need someone to love.
We all need to know that someone loves us.
We have our strengths
And our weaknesses.. (which we may feel vulnerable in showing, thus we hide them at times).
We all have an innate sinful nature.
We're all prone to temptations (different ones, but nevertheless, still the general category of temptations).
We're able to do certain things (some very well, some not so well) and not be able to do others.
We need time alone (some much more than others) and we need to spend time with others (some much more than others too. hahaha)
We have the need to be appreciated.
We have the need to know that we're contributing to something.
:)
Come meet these needs in Christ and the community of His people :)
We all need someone to love.
We all need to know that someone loves us.
We have our strengths
And our weaknesses.. (which we may feel vulnerable in showing, thus we hide them at times).
We all have an innate sinful nature.
We're all prone to temptations (different ones, but nevertheless, still the general category of temptations).
We're able to do certain things (some very well, some not so well) and not be able to do others.
We need time alone (some much more than others) and we need to spend time with others (some much more than others too. hahaha)
We have the need to be appreciated.
We have the need to know that we're contributing to something.
:)
Come meet these needs in Christ and the community of His people :)
i'm held by Your love
upheld by Your strength
on Your shoulders You bore me
by Your faith i stand
cherished by You Lord
treasured in Your sight
so close to Your heart
held firm in Your hands
this song has been replaying again and again in my mind :) hahaa
think i had quite a slack day today. lol. didn't do much at work.. did quite a lot of thinking and reading up though. i'm already in holiday mood :X (think some pple will kill me for this. lol)
went through one and a half months of peak season. lull period feels weird. LOL. shall take the time to finish up the textbooks and to increase my knowledge and to clean up room and plan for the days ahead =)
upheld by Your strength
on Your shoulders You bore me
by Your faith i stand
cherished by You Lord
treasured in Your sight
so close to Your heart
held firm in Your hands
this song has been replaying again and again in my mind :) hahaa
think i had quite a slack day today. lol. didn't do much at work.. did quite a lot of thinking and reading up though. i'm already in holiday mood :X (think some pple will kill me for this. lol)
went through one and a half months of peak season. lull period feels weird. LOL. shall take the time to finish up the textbooks and to increase my knowledge and to clean up room and plan for the days ahead =)
Thursday, September 03, 2009
In a therapy session, you 'hold' the person so that any sense of abandonment, fears of rejection, feelings of danger is taken away.
i guess in a sense, maybe that's why we feel more comfortable sharing to some people and not to others.. 'cos perhaps we feel more 'held' by some, and not so by others. could be the way they react to us, or the things they say to us, or actions they've done in the past.
i was just thinking about how i always had to muster up a great effort to share to a particular friend of mine, and i realize that i don't feel 'held' by the person. as if i'm always gonna get rejected by her.
why ah?
so odd.
i guess in a sense, maybe that's why we feel more comfortable sharing to some people and not to others.. 'cos perhaps we feel more 'held' by some, and not so by others. could be the way they react to us, or the things they say to us, or actions they've done in the past.
i was just thinking about how i always had to muster up a great effort to share to a particular friend of mine, and i realize that i don't feel 'held' by the person. as if i'm always gonna get rejected by her.
why ah?
so odd.
I find this funny. hahaha.
Q. What happened then?
A. He told me, he says, "I have to kill you because you can identify me."
Q. Did he kill you?
A. No.
Q. ...and what did he do then?
A. He came home, and next morning he was dead.
Q. So when he woke up the next morning he was dead?
Dear GOD, Thank you for the baby brother, but what I prayed for was a puppy. -Joyce
Dear GOD, Why is Sunday school on Sunday? I thought it was supposed to be our day of rest. -Tom L.
Dear GOD, I didn’t think orange went with purple until I saw the sunset you made on Tuesday. That was cool! -Eugene
--> orange, purple and pink! :D:D:D
Q. What happened then?
A. He told me, he says, "I have to kill you because you can identify me."
Q. Did he kill you?
A. No.
Q. ...and what did he do then?
A. He came home, and next morning he was dead.
Q. So when he woke up the next morning he was dead?
Dear GOD, Thank you for the baby brother, but what I prayed for was a puppy. -Joyce
Dear GOD, Why is Sunday school on Sunday? I thought it was supposed to be our day of rest. -Tom L.
Dear GOD, I didn’t think orange went with purple until I saw the sunset you made on Tuesday. That was cool! -Eugene
--> orange, purple and pink! :D:D:D
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
"Philosophers (and other users of logic) spend a lot of time and effort searching for and removing (or intentionally adding) ambiguity in arguments, because it can lead to incorrect conclusions and can be used to deliberately conceal bad arguments."
i was wondering why philosophers usually commit suicide.
i guess it might not be that they think too much.. and possibly was unable to come to an conclusion of sorts. no. i believe that each has probably come to conclude in his/her own way, their own answer and perspectives on different matters. it is probably then, that the reason why they may have commited suicide is 'cos regardless of how many conclusions or perspectives they have thought about to the various issues and questions in life, there exists more ambiguities than the conclusions formed.
and at the end of the day, perhaps to them, they realize the futility of it all.
and maybe that's why they write. so as to be able to lend meaning and to justify the time and effort spent in removing the ambiguity in the arguments.
i was wondering why philosophers usually commit suicide.
i guess it might not be that they think too much.. and possibly was unable to come to an conclusion of sorts. no. i believe that each has probably come to conclude in his/her own way, their own answer and perspectives on different matters. it is probably then, that the reason why they may have commited suicide is 'cos regardless of how many conclusions or perspectives they have thought about to the various issues and questions in life, there exists more ambiguities than the conclusions formed.
and at the end of the day, perhaps to them, they realize the futility of it all.
and maybe that's why they write. so as to be able to lend meaning and to justify the time and effort spent in removing the ambiguity in the arguments.
i love it when it rains =)
the freshness of the cold air which reaches my nose is as delicious as delicacies spreading its flavour on the tongue.
it's like nose-candy. hahaa. as likened to eyecandy.
i love to listen to the sound of rain :)
it fills up the emptiness of the day, and fades off as background noise to help me concentrate on things better.
i love rain!
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we had staff dinner yesterday night =)
my first staff dinner
hahaha
went there and dunno what to do. so joined the table with the admin staff and some people whom i lunch with :)
heee.
wonderful people :) hahaha.
the two empty chairs belonged to me and this animation instructor who teaches maya to the students. hahahaa. till now i still don't remember this name. hohoho.
was waiting to be served the whole night. hahahaa.
'cos dunno what to expect.
but quite interesting :) my table became the most havoc table. we were clapping along, cheering along, and laughing like mad. 'cos we have funky ivy (who loved the old love songs being performed by some of the other staff), and funky doris (who's the advocator of people dancing on stage) and funky aishah (who was trying to persuade chiewlim (the guy on extreme right). lol. ivy is really very funky =D hahahaa. she's very nice too :) and chiewlim's very serving. he kept serving us (drinks and pudding and whatnots).
interesting people =)
the vp ended up at our table at the end. hahaa. he said he saw 3 of his ex colleagues on the same day he saw me (on sunday at PS. hee).
the animation guy was commenting to me that it feels as if we're all attending a malay wedding ('cos had a couple of malay songs in the middle. hee). then i guess the mood switched to a chinese wedding (with 'yue liang dai biao wo de xin' being sung), and an english wedding (with L-O-V-E being sung), and subsequently an indian wedding O.o LOL. ^^
the programme's quite boring :D
hahaha
but it's great to know another side of the colleagues ^^ (hee. thanks justin for letting me know about the spelling mistake)
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L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore and..
ah. so that's E :)
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being in the opportune time and place was good for my role as a counsellor.
hahaha.
managed to listen to two different students and a mum :)
the freshness of the cold air which reaches my nose is as delicious as delicacies spreading its flavour on the tongue.
it's like nose-candy. hahaa. as likened to eyecandy.
i love to listen to the sound of rain :)
it fills up the emptiness of the day, and fades off as background noise to help me concentrate on things better.
i love rain!
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we had staff dinner yesterday night =)
my first staff dinner
hahaha
went there and dunno what to do. so joined the table with the admin staff and some people whom i lunch with :)
heee.
wonderful people :) hahaha.
the two empty chairs belonged to me and this animation instructor who teaches maya to the students. hahahaa. till now i still don't remember this name. hohoho.
was waiting to be served the whole night. hahahaa.
'cos dunno what to expect.
but quite interesting :) my table became the most havoc table. we were clapping along, cheering along, and laughing like mad. 'cos we have funky ivy (who loved the old love songs being performed by some of the other staff), and funky doris (who's the advocator of people dancing on stage) and funky aishah (who was trying to persuade chiewlim (the guy on extreme right). lol. ivy is really very funky =D hahahaa. she's very nice too :) and chiewlim's very serving. he kept serving us (drinks and pudding and whatnots).
interesting people =)
the vp ended up at our table at the end. hahaa. he said he saw 3 of his ex colleagues on the same day he saw me (on sunday at PS. hee).
the animation guy was commenting to me that it feels as if we're all attending a malay wedding ('cos had a couple of malay songs in the middle. hee). then i guess the mood switched to a chinese wedding (with 'yue liang dai biao wo de xin' being sung), and an english wedding (with L-O-V-E being sung), and subsequently an indian wedding O.o LOL. ^^
the programme's quite boring :D
hahaha
but it's great to know another side of the colleagues ^^ (hee. thanks justin for letting me know about the spelling mistake)
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L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore and..
ah. so that's E :)
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being in the opportune time and place was good for my role as a counsellor.
hahaha.
managed to listen to two different students and a mum :)