lol chi is suckling on my finger now. He hasn't done it in a while:) no idea why he suddenly started it again. lol.
it greatly reduced my typing speed. haha.
Got to know the YP structure yesterday. the news came as a surprise, considering that I sincerely thought I was gonna be in Jan's group and has thus mentally prepared myself for it.
I don't like going through major changes without much mental preparation :/ changes in pastoral ministry is already something relatively unpleasant for me, unexpected change is worse.
lol
for me, the news took a while to sink in.. it's not properly sunk in yet, but reality is baring its fangs at me and forcing me to acknowledge the imminent danger that faces me.
got the chance to talk a little to florence on the way back :) thank God for her. I remember my heart feeling much lighter after conversing with her :)
heh
chi just fell asleep on my finger. haha
can't type much now due to a little handicap.. will share more (whatever is appropriate in person ba:)
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
You know, I was never very impressed with people who are
1) big shots/ celebrities
2) working/studying in famous places (e.g. google/cambridge)
3) or have high ranks in schools/work places.
It's not that I glaze over their achievements, or I'm trying to make myself feel better, or that I don't acknowledge that they have characteristics that we can learn from (or yes. please learn from them)..
it's just that.
I'm just not impressed. lol.
It could be due to a drilling by my mum from the time when I was young "celebrities are just human beings!" or it could be due to the over-exposure of smart and famous people in close proximity for four years.
To me, they're just human beings. The same as you and me. The same human being who has sin (be it pride, lust, greed..) and has a God shaped hole in the heart.
1) big shots/ celebrities
2) working/studying in famous places (e.g. google/cambridge)
3) or have high ranks in schools/work places.
It's not that I glaze over their achievements, or I'm trying to make myself feel better, or that I don't acknowledge that they have characteristics that we can learn from (or yes. please learn from them)..
it's just that.
I'm just not impressed. lol.
It could be due to a drilling by my mum from the time when I was young "celebrities are just human beings!" or it could be due to the over-exposure of smart and famous people in close proximity for four years.
To me, they're just human beings. The same as you and me. The same human being who has sin (be it pride, lust, greed..) and has a God shaped hole in the heart.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
... fear and trembling ...
... rawness ...
... breakthrough in growth ...
These were some of the things that went through my mind even as I had dinner with the YP group people :) haha. Think it's a really new pastoral ministry. Exciting to know that I'm part of the pioneer batch of people in this ministry (haha.. was sharing to Stella how it's so cool she came in for a while and am able to participate in pioneering this ministry le) and exciting 'cos this group of people is quite different from the uni group :) hahaa.
hmm. i guess in a way, the people in this group are spiritually more mature. hahaa. And all of a sudden, i think i feel very young! hahaha. and in that I really pray for a breakthrough in growth.. in the ability to think, the ability to connect the principles to working experiences, the ability to build upon my past experiences as well. An experiential love from God which enables me to know Him in a new manner.
and i was thinking about how i'm not working yet! hahaha.
so it is with fear and trembling (lol. for the first time) that i approach this ministry:)
rawness in the relationships ba=] but really thank God for the people... very friendly. hahaha. we'll prob step on each others' toes later on, but feel quite comfortable at this moment :)
hope we all continue to grow together=]
... rawness ...
... breakthrough in growth ...
These were some of the things that went through my mind even as I had dinner with the YP group people :) haha. Think it's a really new pastoral ministry. Exciting to know that I'm part of the pioneer batch of people in this ministry (haha.. was sharing to Stella how it's so cool she came in for a while and am able to participate in pioneering this ministry le) and exciting 'cos this group of people is quite different from the uni group :) hahaa.
hmm. i guess in a way, the people in this group are spiritually more mature. hahaa. And all of a sudden, i think i feel very young! hahaha. and in that I really pray for a breakthrough in growth.. in the ability to think, the ability to connect the principles to working experiences, the ability to build upon my past experiences as well. An experiential love from God which enables me to know Him in a new manner.
and i was thinking about how i'm not working yet! hahaha.
so it is with fear and trembling (lol. for the first time) that i approach this ministry:)
rawness in the relationships ba=] but really thank God for the people... very friendly. hahaha. we'll prob step on each others' toes later on, but feel quite comfortable at this moment :)
hope we all continue to grow together=]
Friday, June 20, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
I have a love-hate relationship with the uni ministry.
It brought about many low points in my life, along with the many highs.
It was the ministry I saw the ugly sides of me, and the ministry which I saw these ugly sides change in God's grace.
It gave me tears. Lots of them.
It brought me joy and showed me a glimpse of the potential which I can grasp.
It changed my perspective of leaders in the church, and changed it again.
There was so much pain. And then there were so many opening of doors I never knew existed.
I first joined the university service on the 18th of June 2005, into the CG of NUSA2. I still remember the sunflower given to me. When I came in, Jiexian was the CL, and I was shepherdless for 3 months. lol.
And then michelle rose up as the CL. And Zhenzhong joined us from Adults.. and CG looked like this...
And then Kinwee moved on. And people joined us... and at our last service as a CG, we looked like this...
And then there was a new CG :) NUSC1. led by Jiadai who led us in a time of finger painting to start off the group...
This CG saw a lot of changes too.. The people who left/moved on (Kaili, Yishyan, and Guo Xiong) and the people who joined us (Yizhong, Jalea, JianKai, Jonathan, Esther, Jeekai, Tim), as well as the people who joined, then moved to other groups (Jesse and Shuyi).
And in a sense, when we discussed the farewell for the group, we felt that it was only apt that we ended off with hand painting.. Sort of as a momento to our group, as well as a timely reminder of how far the group has come in just one year after it was formed.
And then some people were taken out of the group to do greater things in other groups, some of us remained.. and Guanzhen joined us. And we remained as NUSC1 :) It has been interesting in the past few weeks. Hehe.
Say the word.. And I will sing for You
Over oceans deep I will follow
If each star was a song
Every breath of wind praise
It will still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live for You
And after a few months of wondering, a few weeks of asking God for direction and a few days of praying and intensely seeking for a clear direction, the choice was made.
And I thank God how even after I've made the choice, affirmation of the choice was given by God, that even as others were praying for me, the same resounding choice remained.
And I'm amazed at how God's will eventually comes to pass in my life and in another sister's life.. despite certain decisions made earlier on.
It's time to move on:)
It brought about many low points in my life, along with the many highs.
It was the ministry I saw the ugly sides of me, and the ministry which I saw these ugly sides change in God's grace.
It gave me tears. Lots of them.
It brought me joy and showed me a glimpse of the potential which I can grasp.
It changed my perspective of leaders in the church, and changed it again.
There was so much pain. And then there were so many opening of doors I never knew existed.
I first joined the university service on the 18th of June 2005, into the CG of NUSA2. I still remember the sunflower given to me. When I came in, Jiexian was the CL, and I was shepherdless for 3 months. lol.
And then michelle rose up as the CL. And Zhenzhong joined us from Adults.. and CG looked like this...
And then Kinwee moved on. And people joined us... and at our last service as a CG, we looked like this...
And then there was a new CG :) NUSC1. led by Jiadai who led us in a time of finger painting to start off the group...
This CG saw a lot of changes too.. The people who left/moved on (Kaili, Yishyan, and Guo Xiong) and the people who joined us (Yizhong, Jalea, JianKai, Jonathan, Esther, Jeekai, Tim), as well as the people who joined, then moved to other groups (Jesse and Shuyi).
And in a sense, when we discussed the farewell for the group, we felt that it was only apt that we ended off with hand painting.. Sort of as a momento to our group, as well as a timely reminder of how far the group has come in just one year after it was formed.
And then some people were taken out of the group to do greater things in other groups, some of us remained.. and Guanzhen joined us. And we remained as NUSC1 :) It has been interesting in the past few weeks. Hehe.
Say the word.. And I will sing for You
Over oceans deep I will follow
If each star was a song
Every breath of wind praise
It will still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live for You
And after a few months of wondering, a few weeks of asking God for direction and a few days of praying and intensely seeking for a clear direction, the choice was made.
And I thank God how even after I've made the choice, affirmation of the choice was given by God, that even as others were praying for me, the same resounding choice remained.
And I'm amazed at how God's will eventually comes to pass in my life and in another sister's life.. despite certain decisions made earlier on.
It's time to move on:)
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Before my short term memory catches up on me and I forget the details of the camp.
Day 1 of camp! (heh. Jesse has already written down a post from her perspective. This will be more of a recount of what happened, as well as things from my perspective. lol :)
Beautiful morning on the day that we set off :) hahaa. Haven't woken up so early in a long time...
Nice?:) Took this picture while I was waiting for my dad to drive my to Newton's circle.. haha. Lazy daughter.
Actually, I remember thinking to myself that it's probably faster for me to take a train down to Newton's circle than to wait for my dad to drive me.
Ah well :)
Loitered around at Newton's circle for a while... bought breakfast, took pictures. Felt interesting 'cos you don't see the usual uni group people around. hahaa. Interesting and a little scared at the same time.
It's quite amusing 'cos I was thinking about how I don't know most of the people there.. haha. Oh well:) Can make friends along the way.. haha.
Long bus ride:) Manmi was my seat partner:) hehe. Quite amazed by the speed of the customs.. haha. The white piece of paper for declaration of goods is no longer needed! It really makes a difference.. the speed of processing through the customs. The removal of that piece of paper and the airconditioning of the customs makes it a more enjoyable experience to enter Malaysia. haha. At least it gave me a better impression and enticed me to want to enter Malaysia in the near future :) lol.
Took pictures of lovely people on the bus. hahaa. I realized I took them in pairs. Can take a look at who was sitting with who :)
[On an extra note.. Picasa is horrendous. It doesn't allow me to do borders. How troublesome.]
Lol.
We used to have a pair of devils on the bus, sitting in front of us (namely Jesse and Huili..)
But as we got nearer and nearer to Shah Alam, and further and further away from Singapore...
Okay. ignore me :)
The bus ride was full of funny songs. lol. Some of which became characteristic of the future YP group. It usually involves cows. Don't ask.
Hmm. I remember something quite vividly during the bus ride though.. Think I was commenting on something, and David was asking 'who's the 'them'?' It happened twice while I was talking. Guess I gotta make my speech clearer and to ascertain more keenly the source of what I listen to in the future as well. That's something I learned from him that day :) lol.
Lunch was at Serimbun (hope I got the spelling right). It's pretty funny 'cos the lights were off when we went into the restaurant. At first I sincerely believed that they're going to present the dishes out with a dramatic entrance (the kind whereby waiters and waitresses present dishes with one hand and come out in a row... the kind in which a candle exists in the middle of the dish..) Well, it turned out that the government switched off the power (we have no idea why). So we have no aircon and no lights for the rest of our lunch.
Ironically, the lights came back after lunch.
hurhur. lol.
That's tracy.. our beautiful transfer guide of the day :) She's very friendly. hahaa. Apparently she's been in this line for a long time.. Seems keen on sharing with us about the upcoming fruit season in Malaysia :) haha. quite a genuine person:) Enjoyed her presence with us..
On a random note, I'm fascinated with hills. Don't ask me why. I think it's probably 'cos we don't have them in Singapore. hahaa.
Pictures of distant hills in Malaysia. All taken while the coach was still moving happily along the road :)
Okay. I'm running out of thoughts and running out of sober-ness (if there's such a word. Getting sleepy.
Tuition tomorrow:) Will update more when I'm more awake. (if the time ever comes that there'll be a time when I'm more awake:)
Day 1 of camp! (heh. Jesse has already written down a post from her perspective. This will be more of a recount of what happened, as well as things from my perspective. lol :)
Beautiful morning on the day that we set off :) hahaa. Haven't woken up so early in a long time...
Nice?:) Took this picture while I was waiting for my dad to drive my to Newton's circle.. haha. Lazy daughter.
Actually, I remember thinking to myself that it's probably faster for me to take a train down to Newton's circle than to wait for my dad to drive me.
Ah well :)
Loitered around at Newton's circle for a while... bought breakfast, took pictures. Felt interesting 'cos you don't see the usual uni group people around. hahaa. Interesting and a little scared at the same time.
It's quite amusing 'cos I was thinking about how I don't know most of the people there.. haha. Oh well:) Can make friends along the way.. haha.
Long bus ride:) Manmi was my seat partner:) hehe. Quite amazed by the speed of the customs.. haha. The white piece of paper for declaration of goods is no longer needed! It really makes a difference.. the speed of processing through the customs. The removal of that piece of paper and the airconditioning of the customs makes it a more enjoyable experience to enter Malaysia. haha. At least it gave me a better impression and enticed me to want to enter Malaysia in the near future :) lol.
Took pictures of lovely people on the bus. hahaa. I realized I took them in pairs. Can take a look at who was sitting with who :)
[On an extra note.. Picasa is horrendous. It doesn't allow me to do borders. How troublesome.]
Lol.
We used to have a pair of devils on the bus, sitting in front of us (namely Jesse and Huili..)
But as we got nearer and nearer to Shah Alam, and further and further away from Singapore...
Okay. ignore me :)
The bus ride was full of funny songs. lol. Some of which became characteristic of the future YP group. It usually involves cows. Don't ask.
Hmm. I remember something quite vividly during the bus ride though.. Think I was commenting on something, and David was asking 'who's the 'them'?' It happened twice while I was talking. Guess I gotta make my speech clearer and to ascertain more keenly the source of what I listen to in the future as well. That's something I learned from him that day :) lol.
Lunch was at Serimbun (hope I got the spelling right). It's pretty funny 'cos the lights were off when we went into the restaurant. At first I sincerely believed that they're going to present the dishes out with a dramatic entrance (the kind whereby waiters and waitresses present dishes with one hand and come out in a row... the kind in which a candle exists in the middle of the dish..) Well, it turned out that the government switched off the power (we have no idea why). So we have no aircon and no lights for the rest of our lunch.
Ironically, the lights came back after lunch.
hurhur. lol.
That's tracy.. our beautiful transfer guide of the day :) She's very friendly. hahaa. Apparently she's been in this line for a long time.. Seems keen on sharing with us about the upcoming fruit season in Malaysia :) haha. quite a genuine person:) Enjoyed her presence with us..
On a random note, I'm fascinated with hills. Don't ask me why. I think it's probably 'cos we don't have them in Singapore. hahaa.
Pictures of distant hills in Malaysia. All taken while the coach was still moving happily along the road :)
Okay. I'm running out of thoughts and running out of sober-ness (if there's such a word. Getting sleepy.
Tuition tomorrow:) Will update more when I'm more awake. (if the time ever comes that there'll be a time when I'm more awake:)
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Monday, June 09, 2008
lol.
back from camp :)
I had LOTS of ideas during the camp as to how to structure the blog entry.. but fatigue is pulling me away :) haha.
Really a blessed camp. a renewal of spirit and heart for most of us.. a time when we see God's hand move through instant healing, prophecies, interpretation of tongues, prophetic prayers and conversion.
Share more when I'm more free:)
Empowered, reassured and well rested!
back from camp :)
I had LOTS of ideas during the camp as to how to structure the blog entry.. but fatigue is pulling me away :) haha.
Really a blessed camp. a renewal of spirit and heart for most of us.. a time when we see God's hand move through instant healing, prophecies, interpretation of tongues, prophetic prayers and conversion.
Share more when I'm more free:)
Empowered, reassured and well rested!
Thursday, June 05, 2008
I was so surprised tonight when ej msned me and passed me the youtube link. hahaa. I'm surprised that
1) he rememebers me!
2) he remembers my nick! (he calls me cheese. don't ask why)
3) he remembers which year i'm in! wah.
lol.
and all i remember is that he's ej and he wanted to bake bread outside schools. hahaha. i'm so horrigible. (horrible and incorrigible).
hahaha.
ej is one of my most unlikely friend. mainly because i only got to know him because someone i liked likes him. wahaha. so being the one who always likes to back out if the person i like likes someone else, i wanted to help to get them together.
oh well :)
he's a good guy!:)
1) he rememebers me!
2) he remembers my nick! (he calls me cheese. don't ask why)
3) he remembers which year i'm in! wah.
lol.
and all i remember is that he's ej and he wanted to bake bread outside schools. hahaha. i'm so horrigible. (horrible and incorrigible).
hahaha.
ej is one of my most unlikely friend. mainly because i only got to know him because someone i liked likes him. wahaha. so being the one who always likes to back out if the person i like likes someone else, i wanted to help to get them together.
oh well :)
he's a good guy!:)
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Suddenly got the craving for Bjork's songs.
lol.
First heard of her when I borrowed 'Dancer in the Dark' by Lars Von Trier from the NLB video collection. (on a sidenote: Lars is the one who destroyed my innocence. lol). One of my songs in the movie can be found here. The music can be heard here:
My favourite scene comes from her singing 'my favourite things':)
lol.
First heard of her when I borrowed 'Dancer in the Dark' by Lars Von Trier from the NLB video collection. (on a sidenote: Lars is the one who destroyed my innocence. lol). One of my songs in the movie can be found here. The music can be heard here:
My favourite scene comes from her singing 'my favourite things':)
took this from one of my older blogs:
THE TOUCH OF THE MASTER'S HAND
Author Unknown
Well it was battered and scarred, and the auctioneer felt It was hardly worth his while, to waste much time on the old violin. But he held it up with a smile... "It sure ain't much but it's all we got left, I guess we ought to sell it too... Now who'll start the bid on this old violin, just one more and we'll be through."
And then he cried, "One! Give me one dollar! Who'll make it two? Only two dollars! Who'll make it three? Three dollars twice! Now that's a good price... now who's got a bid for me? Raise up your hand and don't wait any longer. The auction's about to end. Who's got four? Just one dollar more... to bid on this old violin."
Well the air was hot and the people stood around. As the sun was setting low, from the back of the crowd a gray-haired man came forward, picked up the bow. He wiped the dust from the old violin, and tightened up the strings... Then he played out a melody pure and sweet... sweeter than the angels sing.
And then the music stopped... and the auctioneer with a voice that was quiet and low, he said, "What am I to bid for this old violin? " Then he held it up with a bow.
And then he cried, "One! Give me one thousand! Who'll make it two? Only two thousand! Who'll make it three? Three thousand twice! Now that's a good price... but who's got a bid for me? The people cried out, "What made the change? We don't understand" Then the auctioneer stopped and he said with a smile, "It was the Touch of A Master's Hand"
Now you know many a man with a life out of tune is battered and scarred with sin and he's auctioned cheap to a thankless world, much like that old violin. Then the Master comes, and the foolish crowd. They never understand The worth of a soul and the change that is wrought, just by one touch of THE MASTER'S HAND.
THE TOUCH OF THE MASTER'S HAND
Author Unknown
Well it was battered and scarred, and the auctioneer felt It was hardly worth his while, to waste much time on the old violin. But he held it up with a smile... "It sure ain't much but it's all we got left, I guess we ought to sell it too... Now who'll start the bid on this old violin, just one more and we'll be through."
And then he cried, "One! Give me one dollar! Who'll make it two? Only two dollars! Who'll make it three? Three dollars twice! Now that's a good price... now who's got a bid for me? Raise up your hand and don't wait any longer. The auction's about to end. Who's got four? Just one dollar more... to bid on this old violin."
Well the air was hot and the people stood around. As the sun was setting low, from the back of the crowd a gray-haired man came forward, picked up the bow. He wiped the dust from the old violin, and tightened up the strings... Then he played out a melody pure and sweet... sweeter than the angels sing.
And then the music stopped... and the auctioneer with a voice that was quiet and low, he said, "What am I to bid for this old violin? " Then he held it up with a bow.
And then he cried, "One! Give me one thousand! Who'll make it two? Only two thousand! Who'll make it three? Three thousand twice! Now that's a good price... but who's got a bid for me? The people cried out, "What made the change? We don't understand" Then the auctioneer stopped and he said with a smile, "It was the Touch of A Master's Hand"
Now you know many a man with a life out of tune is battered and scarred with sin and he's auctioned cheap to a thankless world, much like that old violin. Then the Master comes, and the foolish crowd. They never understand The worth of a soul and the change that is wrought, just by one touch of THE MASTER'S HAND.
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Recently have been thinking about quite a lot of stuff. including, but not exclusive to, families (in general), marriage (no. i'm not thinking about getting marriage. just the topic of marriage in general), relationships (including bgr, friendships, relationships between brothers and sisters..), ministers, revival, passion, taking care of children (in part due to taking care of chi, who is like a child...), future direction, personal growth, ministry, studies..
quite a myriad of items.
Made a few decisions which could potentially affect my ministry and career, though it may not. In a sense, I'm glad there's a small resolution to this uncertainty for half a year, in another sense, I still wonder if it's the right choice to make.
But I'm sure God will make it certain, seeing how He's delivered me through all the different stations in my life.
My relationship with God is very similar to David's (i find). No, I'm not a shepherd boy. No, I'm not called to be a king. But I identify with David in his madness for God. I understand how it feels to be unashamed before the Lord, dancing before Him with abandon, against the odd views of other people. I identify with David's psalms, his anguish, his sorrows, his exuberance, his exaltation of God. I have tasted a little bit of how David feels when God delivered Him, when God gave him victory over his enemies, a little bit of the anguish he feels. Emotionally, I've tasted the extreme high and the extreme low. And the haste in which they come and go.
Psalm 73 used to be a psalm which speaks very much into my heart. I used to identify with it quite well. The whole psalm in fact. lol. Now not so much. We all grow from glory to glory, and so I've moved on as well.
But some verses which always stay with me/I remember well are verses 21-26
"When my heart was grieved,
and my spirit embittered,
I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.
Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me into your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever."
Amen.
And alongside the verse, I'll remember of how the same words I've told Joycelyn in the past reminded me of this truth when she shares why she does things...
that God will never shortchange me in what I do.
He won't shortchange you too.
And I always remember of how in the bible, God keeps the tears that we cry in a bottle. (Upon much searching, I realized that I first read this verse in the new living translation bible that I have.. it's not in NIV.. so presenting to you.. the NLT version)
Psalm 56:8 (NLT)
"You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book."
What a personal God we have!
And that is, I guess, part of the reason that allows me to continue on. Knowing that I'm working hard for my taps in heaven (eternal rewards), loving God back out of His love or me, knowing that I can never outgive God (remembering the story of the little girl who exchanged fake pearls for real ones..) and knowing that all that I go through is recorded (He remembers, He's written them down.)
Sometimes it hurts.
Sometimes I wonder why I must do certain things.
Sometimes I look back (though the bible did say that those who look back are not fit for Christian service. hee.)
Sometimes I deliberately, defiantly ask God to go away and not to bother me.
Sometimes I get tired and don't feel like doing anything.
Sometimes I just want to be left alone.
We all feel this way... sometimes.
But at the end of the day, yetI am always with God. He holds us by our right hands, never letting us go.
It's just whether we know He's there or not.
quite a myriad of items.
Made a few decisions which could potentially affect my ministry and career, though it may not. In a sense, I'm glad there's a small resolution to this uncertainty for half a year, in another sense, I still wonder if it's the right choice to make.
But I'm sure God will make it certain, seeing how He's delivered me through all the different stations in my life.
My relationship with God is very similar to David's (i find). No, I'm not a shepherd boy. No, I'm not called to be a king. But I identify with David in his madness for God. I understand how it feels to be unashamed before the Lord, dancing before Him with abandon, against the odd views of other people. I identify with David's psalms, his anguish, his sorrows, his exuberance, his exaltation of God. I have tasted a little bit of how David feels when God delivered Him, when God gave him victory over his enemies, a little bit of the anguish he feels. Emotionally, I've tasted the extreme high and the extreme low. And the haste in which they come and go.
Psalm 73 used to be a psalm which speaks very much into my heart. I used to identify with it quite well. The whole psalm in fact. lol. Now not so much. We all grow from glory to glory, and so I've moved on as well.
But some verses which always stay with me/I remember well are verses 21-26
"When my heart was grieved,
and my spirit embittered,
I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.
Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me into your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever."
Amen.
And alongside the verse, I'll remember of how the same words I've told Joycelyn in the past reminded me of this truth when she shares why she does things...
that God will never shortchange me in what I do.
He won't shortchange you too.
And I always remember of how in the bible, God keeps the tears that we cry in a bottle. (Upon much searching, I realized that I first read this verse in the new living translation bible that I have.. it's not in NIV.. so presenting to you.. the NLT version)
Psalm 56:8 (NLT)
"You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book."
What a personal God we have!
And that is, I guess, part of the reason that allows me to continue on. Knowing that I'm working hard for my taps in heaven (eternal rewards), loving God back out of His love or me, knowing that I can never outgive God (remembering the story of the little girl who exchanged fake pearls for real ones..) and knowing that all that I go through is recorded (He remembers, He's written them down.)
Sometimes it hurts.
Sometimes I wonder why I must do certain things.
Sometimes I look back (though the bible did say that those who look back are not fit for Christian service. hee.)
Sometimes I deliberately, defiantly ask God to go away and not to bother me.
Sometimes I get tired and don't feel like doing anything.
Sometimes I just want to be left alone.
We all feel this way... sometimes.
But at the end of the day, yetI am always with God. He holds us by our right hands, never letting us go.
It's just whether we know He's there or not.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
And some idiot dare to tell my mum that psychology is not a good course to take.
I felt like smacking the person.
If psychology is not important, so is medicine.
People don't see the importance of mental health 'cos it's something which you do not see the physical symptoms of.. but little do they know that mental health (and human behaviour) affects ALL aspects of your life. It can affect human functioning and your ability to excel, it can affect a person's mental construct and the ability to think rationally, it can even affect a person physically (psychosomatic symptoms, phantom illness).
gee.
I felt like smacking the person.
If psychology is not important, so is medicine.
People don't see the importance of mental health 'cos it's something which you do not see the physical symptoms of.. but little do they know that mental health (and human behaviour) affects ALL aspects of your life. It can affect human functioning and your ability to excel, it can affect a person's mental construct and the ability to think rationally, it can even affect a person physically (psychosomatic symptoms, phantom illness).
gee.