hehe. i dislike falling sick :) but i dislike having coughs more. hahaa.
'cos if it's a fever, or a cold (to do with the nose), it doesn't affect me as much as a cough :)
went to the doctor today and doctor said i had an asthmatic episode. or rather, was still having an asthmatic episode. that probably explains why my lungs felt inflammed and why i couldn't breathe deeply at all. hahaa. have been having short fast breaths..no wheezing though.
guess i still have much to learn about asthma. haha. despite having lived with it for 22 years of my life.
and here i was sincerely thinking that it's normal for everyone to not be able to breath properly during a cough. oh well.
not bad ah. can still walk around and do things even during an asthmatic episode. a young body is good. haha.
decreased sense of taste, decreased sense of smell. and a groggy feeling all day even though my medicine is non-drowsy. think my body really needs the rest to recover. i keep sleeping. i'll be typing something halfway and feel really exhausted.
didn't go to school today 'cos i couldn't stand up. haha. quite sian diao 'cos i didn't complete my lab (again!!!!) and i didn't go to japanese TA. and what i wanted to do today had to be postponed to another day.
but got my MC! hahaa. and the doctor gave me a 2 days MC! hahaa. haven't got an MC since secondary school? haha. haven't been to the doctor since secondary school!
medicine really does wonders (though i don't like to take it. haha) it opened up my lungs happily.
i like taking deep breaths :) hahaa.
being sick caused me to think about some irrelevant things:
1) i like colours in my entry! hahaa. like this:
God Loves You!
2) Natural birth is really much better. Reduced allergies and asthma. haha. next time you wanna give birth to a child, for the child's sake, please endure the pain and go through a natural birth:) it'll not leave scars on your body as well.
3) falling sick causes me to want to just cuddle up in something warm and sleep and ignore the world for a moment or so. like cuddling up in an egg. haha. also cause me to want to **** *******'s **** and **** ** *** ******** and sleep.

i remember this cg too:)

From huichun's blog once again..
'Next was caregroup...had a good time of praise and worship...all 4 of us had prophecies from God! WOW!!! Guess God's spirit was really present and evident...den had a simple yet meaningful activity cum sharing.'

heh. Last time when i was in PT group, we only have 4 people in the caregroup - huichun, ziwei, me and jitsy :) used to have 5 (including junting).. but junting rose up to the position of a UL to take care of another unit.. so left the 4 of us:)
so service attendance and cg attendance always the same... haha. 4 4 4 4 4 4. haha. but quite exciting ah :) hahaa. it was definitely OUR CG. haha.
think sometimes when the group gets too big, people might not take so much ownership of the group as well. or people don't see the need to sacrifice a bit more. let's be people who take ownership of the things we're given, regardless of the size of the cg, ok?:) there's a reason as to why God has placed certain people and things in our lives.

Excerpts from my younger days!:)

18th August 2003 (Entry from huichun's blog):
'After svs went meridian for lunch. oh btw saw jingyun after svs in nexus...so happy to see her, excited abt discussin which econs tut to choose. jitsy n ziwei went home, so only junting, xinying and myself for lunch, wenjiang joined in too...had an impromptu discussion on 'Is it a sin to leave food behind?' It all started bcos i cant finish the bowl of noodles i bought. den xinying poses another one 'issit a sin to kill ants?' haha...quite a meaningful lunch after all, we got a yogurt treat from derek too...so encouraging of him!'

that same day.. in the morning
'gee...today's the first lesson of Basic Christian Doctrine 2, in an educational institute inside specialist shoppin centre, 6th floor, east wing, room 4. Quite an interesting course. PT side only got junting, xinying, sharon, marcus, chongyao attending...but got lotsa other uni brothers n sisters i noe well...like JoYcE, karen, kim chun, yeu ann etc....A new and comfortable environment, hopefully i dun doze off during the classes :p Our class abit quiet though, keep hearin lotsa laughters from the room left of ours...but its ok..shirley and tony still doin fine in engagin the ppl's attention. i'd rather they dun force themselves to crack jokes, cos they'll bcum cold jokes haha...just jokin! lookin forward to next lesson.:)'
--> My first WFL lesson! hahaha.

how do you know when you have to sleep soon?
when you feel that your sense of hearing is suppressed :S

I'm procrastinating! I'm thinking about everything else except for my essay.
okay.
let's finish up the second part of the essay! yay.
I want an older brother :(
lol.
what a random thought.

hahaha. this is silly.. but i'm suddenly really excited about saturday. hahaa. and the amazing thing is that we're having service on sunday instead of saturday this week! why is it exciting to me? 'cos...
Saturday is my spiritual birthday! hahaha. and when i first received Christ, it was also a saturday! and the service was on sunday! hahaha. so can you imagine how excited i am? seems like we're having a similar situation! =D okayokay. i'm mad. hahaa.
you know..
many people think that by receiving Christ, or by putting the work of God first in their lives, they'll lose out on a lot of other things that they can do... losing out on other opportunities in life.. they view the things they do as a sacrifice.. the sacrifice of time, the sacrifice of money, the sacrifice of their lives...
to me, i think if i didn't know Christ, my life will not be as vibrant as now. i won't have the inner confidence, the inner joy and the inner assurance that comes from God alone.
it's not that i didn't have a vibrant life before coming to know Christ. I had my friends, i could do what i want.. i did what i enjoyed (e.g. playing online games and reading up on stuff) and manages to get myself into relatively good schools even while slacking quite a bit:S lol.
but i think it was only after coming to know Christ that i see that better life.
To me, it's not so much a matter of sacrifice... it's more of a matter of I can't give back enough?
'Cos what God has given me through these years is much more than what i can ever repay Him for. it's not really a debt either? gratitude perhaps?
i guess if i'm not a Christ follower, i might not even be alive?
or i might be out there getting myself involved in relationships, or just being caught up with what the whole world is involved in (e.g. jobs..) swept up in the current of studying, enjoying my studies, getting a job, earning money, paying debts, then what?
i enjoy the life of being able to invest my life in people.. 'cos when people's lives change, you'll be so amazed at their potential and the things they can do. i enjoy the life of doing things with the knowledge that God has planned out a future for me.. 'cos it enables me to do what i do with a greater purpose.. and having a purpose in life --> is that not what everyone seeks to have... just that some people have given up that notion and decided to adopt the idea of living day by day due to fatigue or lack of encouragement or support.
you know how there used to be an email thread that reminds people about how at the end of the day, you do not remember how well you did for psle, o levels, a levels or uni years.. you remember the people who encouraged you when you were down, was there to help when you needed that help.. you remember the people who loved you regardless of your flaws, who knew how ugly you are on the inside and still accept you.. who genuinely wants to help you along..
i want to be the kind of person that people will remember at the end of the day.
and that's why i do what i do.
at the end of the day, when you are successful.. do you not hope that someone gets impacted by your success and get influenced by you as well?
i don't think i've much regretted being a Christ follower :) having my sins wiped away. given a new sheet of life. having strength and joy everyday despite what happens in my life. able to impact the lives of others...
there were a few times in the course of the past year.. when i was thinking about how even if i knew i was going to die soon (probably due to the modules i've been taking), i don't think i'll have much regrets. i've done most of the things i want to do.. and i've seen the impact of my life on others..
i would probably be sad. who wouldn't? but i know i'll see some of the people i love soon in the place that i'm going. and i can rest in the arms of God, finally able to see my Savior face to face and ask Him questions which I've always wanted to find out.
i cried the bitterest (if there's such word) cry in these 5 years. i've laughed the most heartfelt laughter in these 5 years too. i've done stupid things. but all in all, God preserved me and moulded me. and changed me. for the better.
yup. so tht's me :) and my reflections on my 5 year walk with God --> wah! so long! when i just came to know Christ, i remember thinking about how i don't think i'll be able to last 5 years with God. hahahaha.

So it's not as tiring as I thought it would be :) hehehe.

I really don't like to do essays in schools because of
1) I get stressed out by the presence of people
2) It's very distracting
3) I'm more productive doing essays at home, in the comfort of my room, shut off against the world, with the fan behind me and my cat locked outside.
4) * **** **** ** ******** ** ******. **'* **** *'* ****** ** ** ** *** ***** *** ****** **** ** *** ** ** **********, *** **** **** **** ****** **** ** ** **** *** **** **** *** ******* *** *******. lol.
5) I don't have to move from place to place.

XD

Waves of mercy, waves of grace
Everywhere I look I see Your face
Your love has captured me
Oh my God this love, how can it be!

Last week when I was down and out, God used this passage to encourage me greatly :) Want to share this.. it might not speak to you as much as it has spoken to me because I can identify with it, but i hope that in some way or another, it will encourage you in your walk with God as well :)

A Call to Persevere
Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of our faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing - but let us encourage one another - and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, but only a fearful expectation of judgement and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God. Anyone who rejected the law of Moses died without mercy on the testimony of two or three witnesses. How much more severely do you think a man deserves to be punished who has trampled the Son of God under foot, who has treated as an unholy thing the blood of the convenant that sacrificed him, and who has insulted the Spirit of grace? For we know him who said, "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," and again, "The Lord will judge his people." It is a dreadful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.
Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering. Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. You sympathised with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions.
So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For in just a very little while,
"He who is coming will come and will not delay.
But my righteous one will live by faith.
And if he shrinks back,
I will not be pleased with him."
But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved.

[Hebrews 10:19-39, NIV. emphasis - mine.]
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I feel very loved :)
Loved by God who proved to be faithful through the times.
Loved by people who know me and love me.

oh. and i realised that actually i can say what i want. i don't always have to sacrifice. lol.

-every blessing You pour out
i'll turn back to praise
when the darkness closes in Lord
still i will say

blessed be the name of the Lord
blessed be Your name
blessed be the name of the Lord
blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
my heart will choose to say
blessed be Your name-

it's been around 1 week since i've got the news :) think for the past 1 week, i've been wondering what to say, how to say...
the thoughts i have are but my own. thoughts not fully fleshed in sharing to people. different understandings.
i'm so glad to be able to talk to michelle today :) so glad to realise that she actually knows me more than the extent i thought she knows me at. when she thought what she thought would have been my choice in this matter, i was so amazed that she knew. and i'm so glad she knows. felt very comforted in this.
guess i still need to settle certain emotions in my heart.. but all in all, i still love God for who He is.

Something I got from Christine
Something She got from Jacq.
I think it conveys very raw thoughts and emotions :)
here it is:

i miss u. i miss the times when we spent tgt. i miss ur undivided attention. i miss those days where i am always placed first. i miss those days where u would do anything for me even to the extent of pain. i miss those days where u would just say u love me, me only. i miss u. i miss u dearly. i cant help but to suppress my desire for u. i yearn for the touch u gave and the days where the world is jus revolving between u and me. these times spent is irreplaceable.

i never wanted to live so badly.

i can only say it is gone. i can only say i choose not to have u. i am having intense regret for the pressured decision made. i chose to walk out on u, i chose to avoid u, i chose to just live in pretense. T.T i doubt ur existence.

i stopped living. i cant celebrate with u when u had victory nor can i smile at u to say u did it. i chose to turn away from u. i chose. the choice i made had put me in great misery and had turned me into an emo-tian. pain is an understatement of what i am feeling; i can only feel-- NUMB.u never fail to surprise me and move me with ur deeds. i always feel belonged each time i am embraced. but all these are GONE, GONE, GONE.

when u are gone, my heart's misses u.
when u are gone, my mind's failling too.
when u are gone, my world came crashing thru the day.
when u are gone, i think i will never be okaes.


BUT..i'm glad i made this choice.i'm glad i din go on further. i'm glad i chose to stop. i'm glad u just got cast away. for i never knew what could be in place if i hadnt choose this way. i was almost ruined when all seemed to be the end of me. there was no turning back but i am thankful i am found once again. it is his grace that pulls me thru the day. saying to rehab is a torture for addicts but to abstain is a breakdown for me (pulseless). everyday was the yearning for the touch, the attention, the words, the call-- just yearning for u. wonder if drugs are ever as strong. but each day passes with a new beginning and i am glad i was bleached with grace. i am grateful for the life i was given.

i never wanted to live so badly.

in all paradise...truth prevails.escapism is never a backdoor. u can run but u cant hide. light rays jus shine to judge. when it is day, shame never fails to be around. i took forever to lift my head high and again. i cant seem to hear what he had to say. all i am clothed with is disgrace. wretch and whore, i cant seem to find a line. i am all tt it describes. how did i ever fall into this route? i cant hear him anymore, dun even mention a whisper, i cant hear him at all. is this the end of my life?

i never wanted to live so badly.

salvage a worthless piece-- impurities.when all seem lost and life is tossed, i finally hear a whisper, i finally see a beam. i can never understand how life can be so free. i am not chained i am............. FREE! confession is pain but forgivenes is sane! it does exist! it does say u may live, it does say u are free. i can breathe again. i can feast with saints. i dun feel condemned, i dun feel ashamed. not anymore. i can re-live. i can express freedom once again.

i never wanted to live so badly.

BUT with the expense of someone whom i never knew loved me this much. the scarred hands gave me a second chance. the scar that serves as a yardstick for the rest of my life. and now... these scars in me allows second chance for many who are like me. it is time to hear tt whisper, it is time to see that beam. it is time u say,

i never wanted to live so badly.

sia la.
this lynn girl added me on msn and wanted to show me her boobs. what the ....
and i just realised that her display pic is tt of her naked. what the ....
how did this person ever get my contacts? O.o

Sonnet 18

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st:
So long as man can breath, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

~ William Shakespeare (1564-1616)

2010 JAPAN TRIP
Exact locations: Undecided
Exact month: Undecided.. probably mid year.
Tentative list of people going:
1) Me
2) Joyce
3) Eugene

Anyone else wants to come along?:) You've gotta start saving up for it! haha.

and i was thinking (while walking to programming lecture) about how it's not as tiring as i thought it'll be to meet people and have lessons and meet people and have lessons consecutively when my body decided to warn me that i'm stretching it a little.
'heart is willing, but body is weak':S
i went to the toilet at 2.15pm, in the midst of programming lecture.. and returned back at 2.40pm (with an unresolved stomachache). then went to the toilet again at 2.50pm and came back at 3pm. hahaa. thank God by then it's much better:)
the last trip occurred after coming back to school from clementi :)
i was really quite zonked out after going to hq at 4+pm. just wanted to do up the surveys and ignore everyone. hahahaa.
was quite reluctant to go out to buy presents too :X hahaha.
was trying to do lab just now when i realised that trim() doesn't trim away whitespaces in between (how evil!) wellus.

A bit the wrong context.. but...
here's a song!:)

I grew up with the notion of
吃得苦中苦，
方为人上人。

i think it's shaped the way i think and the way i view certain things:)
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i like the verse that's printed on the DesperationBand CD pamphlet:

Revelations 12:11b:
'They did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death'
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One big test tomorrow:)
the amount of time we spend on doing things that'll disappear soon with the wind, the effects of which but cause a gentle imprint on the skin of history and disappear as soon as it tries to make a mark.
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friends of the same page prayed and interceded together on a monday evening at the stairs. haha.

the song that ian introduced :)

一人hqで勉強します。
ちょっと寂しいです。

...
We lust for what we cannot have,
A long, unbroken chain
Of lovers who remain unloved
And loved who love in vain.

While I'm near mad with wanting you
As trees must have the sun,
You cannot help but find a love
Who loves another one.

Excerpt from 'I wish this poem were pixie dust' - Nicholas Gordon

Love Defined
- Matt Dubois -

What is love, but an emotion,
So strong and so pure,
That nurtured and shared with another
All tests it will endure?

What is love, but a force
To bring the mighty low,
With the strength to shame the mountains
And halt time’s ceaseless flow?

What is love, but a triumph,
A glorious goal attained,
The union of two souls, two hearts
A bond the angels have ordained?

What is love, but a champion,
To cast the tyrant from his throne,
And raise the flag of truth and peace,
And fear of death o’erthrow?

What is love, but a beacon,
To guide the wayward heart,
A blazing light upon the shoals
That dash cherished dreams apart?

And what is love, but forever,
Eternal and sincere,
A flame that through wax and wane
Will outlive life’s brief years?

So I’ll tell it on the mountaintops,
In all places high and low,
That love for you is my reason to be,
And will never break or bow.

プレゼンテシェン練習お終ります！やだ！
(Presentation renshuu wa owarimasu! yada!)
私の先生わおもしろおいです：）
(Watashi no sensei wa omoshirooi desu:)
永見先生のclassわとてっも楽しいです：）TA classわだいすきです。
(Nagami sensei no class wa tottemo tanoshii desu:) TA class wa daisuki desu.)

Seems a bit weird to keep blogging about my own birthday :) but will blog about it soon anyway. it's a year of birthday surprises! :) thanks to 4 groups of people!:)
studying for social work test with not much enthusiasm.. feels like a revision for developmental psych. good i suppose. hahaaa.

I'm in a fight not physical
And I'm in a war
But not with this world
You are the light that's beautiful
And I want more
I want all that's Yours

Joy unspeakable that won't go away
And just enough strength
To live for today
So I never have to worry
What tomorrow will bring
'Cause my faith is on solid rock
I am counting on God

CHORUS
I am counting on
I am counting on God

Bridge:
The miracle of Christ in me
Is the mystery that sets me free
I'm nothing like I used to be
Open up your eyes you'll see
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i like this song :)

pretty? hahaa.

happy birthday to Wei Yang!, SunShine, Danny and Jiayan!
hahaha.

:)
got pictures from qing's facebook!
hahaa.
the 9 presents that they gave me :)



me with the cauliflower bouquet (wrapped by fungi!)


the cauliflower bouquet!:)


fungi loving the cauliflower bouquet she wrapped. lol


us :) those who turned up. hahaa. me, yileng, yingxin, fungi and qing :)

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earlier in the year, we celebrated jingting's 21st birthday at the singapore recreation club :) haha. picture courtesy of jasmine low :)

here's us!

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present #10 came from my own sister who gave a chomel starfish pendant:)
present #11 came from jiali who bought cheesecake for me:) hahaha!
present #12 came from jiayan who gave a very big paperclip(hahaha) and a box of meiji's meltykisses :) it's been shared. LOL
thank you lingyun for remembering my birthday!:) and to michelle who wished me happy birthday:)
thank you xavier who already asked me about my birthday 3 days in advance, and wanted to treat me to lunch. hahaa. but it's okay la :)
thank you michelle and weiling in advance for spending sunday with me as a celebration:) haha. so silly.
thank you joyce and yizhong and jalea in advance for planning tim's and my birthday! LOL.

:)

i have such silly people around me. hahaa.

Carrie stuck this sticker on my profile (and possibly lots of other sisters' profiles as well).

=)
and APA format rules the world. LOL. i'm so used to APA that it's weird to use other formats anyway. haha

shucks. i overshot by 165 words on my part for the essay. lol.

Here's a review for Darren Hayes' 'newest' CD 'this delicate thing we've made'. hahaha. got the CD as one of the 9 gifts I received from the girls (fungi, qing, yileng, yingxin, guan, wanling and huiyuan). listening to it now :) hahaa
the reviewer doesn't like 'waking the monster', but i like! hahaa.
and now i can listen to 'neverland' without using imeem! hahaa.
thanks fungi for bringing it over from US =]

from the ball of undecipherable emotions, i managed to tease out two yesterday. dissonance and reminiscence:) think these 2 were the heavier emotions in the ball. now it feels lighter. haha.
had a good time praying to God yesterday:) had a good day thinking about things also. and had a good time at team appreciation night as well. haha.
ah. my social work lecture was at 10am. i refell asleep and woke up very peacefully at 10.26am. LOL.

I've got a trait in me, which is both a strength and a weakness. I like to look far into the future in terms of relationships and evaluate the outcomes of these relationships.
it's usually 3-6 months in advance. hahaa.
sometimes it allows me to see great hope in a situation which seemingly seems very bleak at that moment. it allows me to see further into how a person can become in the future. it allows me to envision the person i'll see 3-6 months later, the potential of the person, the potential of the relationship (e.g. friendship, kinship..).
it also, in a sense, buffers me against potential seperations by preparing my heart and mind for it first. so that when the time comes, it eases me more gently into the change that happens.
but in the midst of buffering, though i am eased more gently into that change, as the body does the buffering, i start to experience the emotions which i will otherwise experience 3-6 months later. i can visualise the various scenarios, and as such, it's like a trailer experience as to what is to come.
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hahaa. a lot of things have been happening in my life.. and they're not properly registered in my memory as of yet :) pple leaving, pple coming, things to do, things that were done.
my son and my daughter in the infocounter ministry are both transferring to adults soon :) hahaa. robin and veronica. they self-claimed that they were my children:S
but really thank God for them in this ministry:) when the ministry was done and pple were leaving church and all, they stayed on. don't think they'll see this.. but..
thank God for robin.. seeing his growth in the ministry and spiritually was something which i thank God for:) he's very passionate about business stuff.. and i'm sure greater things lay in wait as he enters the adults group:) thank God that he's forever very regular and faithful in turning up for duty, and in serving God through this ministry:) thank God that he trusted me enough to share about certain things in his life. I thank God that i had the chance to give advice in certain areas.. and thanks for taking in my opinions when he didn't have to listen to me:)
and thank God for veronica too.. i thank God for the chance to be with you at the side through your ups and downs. i thank God for your continual service to God even as you rose up. i thank God for your dedication to God, me and the ministry despite studying and working at the same time. much enjoy your presence:)
ah. haha. i'll miss the two of them :) planning for their farewell=D

From jesse's blog :)
Extraverted (E) 50% Introverted (I) 50%
Sensing (S) 50% Intuitive (N) 50%
Feeling (F) 65% Thinking (T) 35%
Perceiving (P) 55% Judging (J) 45%

Check out my beautiful percentages!
i'm neither here nor there. jialat sia.

hahaa.
am i mel?
jesse says tt everyone's got their own mel side:)
i agree with her!:)
haha. my sheep once commented i am more mel than her.
i agree with her too.
and i'd guess my shepherd will say tt too:)
venetia says 'i'm mel leh'
lol

multilayered emotions. multifaceted refractions that shine forth.
there're things in me that i can't decipher.
think that's why God created different forms of expressions.
when i can't find the words for it,
there's still music.
when i can't find the tune for it,
there's still movement.
and when i can't find the movement for it,
i think.
and try to comprehend...
what is it that i am hiding?
what is it that i am denying?
what is it that i am lamenting for?
what is it that i am experiencing?
what is it that i am feeling?

ちょっと疲れいました
お休みなさい!
i like the piano pieces done by this guy. clicking on the link just now wld have brought you to one of his piano piece.. (not really his.. but he played the piece. lol)

Many a times, battles are won or lost in the mind. The thought that starts, builds, and manifests itself in the behavioural realm.
The choice starts in the mind as well. When we decide our hearts (subconsciously) and our minds (consciously) as to what we want to do/ where we want to go, we carry out that attitude or bring forth the behavioural manifestation of it in our actions and words.
so says the verse 'out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks'
i guess that's why joy is so important:) joy that comes from being secure, from knowing our purpose in life, from unconditional love. joy that flows from within.. 'cos it influences our thoughts, it influences our attitudes towards things, and as such, it influences our motivation to do things, which influence our actions ultimately.
so if we want to do something well (e.g. not succumbing to a particular temptation) , many a times it's not a matter of changing our behaviour per se, but rather, a change of our thought processes and our outlook towards it 'taking captive of our minds'.
something we know :) but not something we all apply XD