After trying to search for the lyrics of 'I'm Forever Yours' by Planetshakers and being unable to find them, i've decided to type them out myself:)

"I'm Forever Yours" - Planetshakers

I give my all to You
Send me and i will go for You
To the ends of the earth
I'll follow after You
I want the world to know
Your love endures forever

Tell me and i'll obey
This is far greater than sacrifice
Trusting you and not myself
Will always lead to blessing
Lord have Your way in me
Not my will, Yours be done

Chorus:
Here i stand within Your presence longing for Your touch
A thousand days cannot compare to one day in Your courts
Hold me now and never ever let me go
My Jesus, my precious Saviour
I'm forever yours

Bridge:
And I will worship You forever
I will worship You

Think this is really my heart song for now. Especially the bold sections. Firmly believing in the fact that trusting God and not myself will always lead to blessings, firmly believing that obedience to Christ is the key the growth, firmly believing that everything comes with a choice. A choice to obey, a choice not to obey. A choice to acknowledge His power, a choice to acknowledge His sovereignty. A choice to obey even when it hurts, a choice to trust even when things seem shaky.

Here i stand within Your presence longing for Your touch
A thousand days cannot compare to one day in Your courts!

And i'm singing this song not because i'm going through tough times of doubt at this moment, but singing it as a reflection of what i've learnt last year through my incidents with people and with God. how everytime i lay down my pride (including pride in thinking that i have the right to feel certain ways), He blessed me so greatly. A choice to persevere for 2 years of tough moulding and questions. of anger, tears, depression and doubt. When i constantly faced with the question of trusting Him or not.

Trusting You and not myself
Will ALWAYS lead to blessing
Lord have Your way in me
Not my will, YOURS BE DONE

amen:) so sweet is the fruit.

And i will worship You forever
i will worship You

I was just thinking on the bus the other day about the topic of death. it's a weird topic to think about... i was thinking about how it is like to just one day die and not be on this earth anymore. not being able to eat the things i like, to watch the animes, to laugh with my friends, to hug someone or give a person a pat on the shoulder.
one life and soon it'll pass.
that's why i don't want to waste it away! i don't want to spend the time knowing that i should do something and not do it. and even when i fall into the phlegmatism or stubbornness of not doing what i should be doing, i want to realise it, repent and change.
time's too short to always keep holding onto one's pride. to keep thinking that one's right. to keep looking at oneself. to be selfish to think that the world revolves around oneself. to think that no one cares or understands. life's too short to be forever struggling with lies from Satan. look to Jesus. trust in Jesus despite understanding and obey. everybody can do that, if only you choose to. Win the mental battle. and stop thinking that one can't win the mental battle.
and even if sometimes we're blinded and we can't focus on Jesus... we still have the brothers and sisters around. so that we can gambaru together. so that when i'm blinded, you can help to take off my blindfolds (though sometimes it hurts to see the light after not seeing it for some time), and i can help to take off your blindfolds when you're blinded. to help each other remember about character of God. that He is mighty to save IN ALL SITUATIONS.