Thursday, January 27, 2005

aiyah. i have nothing to say about the students.
i felt like giving up on the 3n3 students. they dun quite understand tt it's one thing to joke around OUTSIDE OF CLASS, it's another to actually RESPECT THE TEACHER AND PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS. gosh. i wasn't so mad until i actually heard tt four of the students SKIPPED MY CLASS and went to kaimei's homeroom and refused to leave.
i kept telling the teachers i feel like slapping their faces. hahaha. the guys are really PLAIN CRUDE. and the girls are. wellus.
one of the girls was even spiteful. i was quite shocked actually. ah well.
oh. and one of the nicer 3n3 guys just told me to ignore them 'cos they're not worth bothering about. in a matter-of-fact tone.
was having LOTS OF NEGATIVE EMOTIONS. hahaha. felt terribly uncomfortable in me... all the way to rc. reached rc and the first thing i did was to go to the toilet and pray. gosh. a new perspective came my way. hahha. feels so good to put the sermon into practice:)
i'm not going to give up:P I WILL BE JOYFUL. I WILL DO MY BEST TO LOOK AT THEM THROUGH GOD's EYES. yesh. perfect time to grow in the area of love. hahahaa:D
i wish it's a smaller class though. hahaha.
looking forward to sat. literally sleeping 3 and a half hours every night.
oh guess what> my dad actually just got the tepanyaki thing that's something like the steamboat buffet thing... like u can fry stuff on it and u can cook soup on it.. except i dun have a fire in the middle, i have a round tepanyaki thing in the middle. yeah. cool. hahaha. i find it quite cool. so dun mind me.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

A little girl went to her bedroom and pulled a glass jelly jar from its hiding place in the closet. She poured the change out on the floor and counted it carefully. Three times, even. The total had to be exactly perfect. No chance here for mistakes. Carefully placing the coins back in the jar and twisting on the cap, she slipped out the back door and made her way 6 blocks to Rexall's Drug Store with the big red Indian Chief sign above the door. She waited patiently for the pharmacist to give her some attention but he was too busy at this moment. Tess twisted her feet to make a scuffing noise. Nothing. She cleared her throat with the most disgusting sound she could muster No good. Finally she took a quarter from her jar and banged it on the glass counter. That did it!

And what do you want?" the pharmacist asked in an annoyed tone of voice. "I'm talking to my brother from Chicago whom I haven't seen in ages," he said without waiting for a reply to his question. Well, I want to talk to you about my brother," Tess answered back in the same annoyed tone. "He's really, really sick... and I want to buy a miracle."
'I beg your pardon?" said the pharmacist.
"His name is Andrew and he has something bad growing inside his head and my Daddy says only a miracle can save him now. So how much does a miracle cost?"
"We don't sell miracles here, little girl. I'm sorry but I can't help you," the pharmacist said, softening a little.
"Listen, I have the money to pay for it. If it isn't enough, I will get the rest. Just tell me how much it costs." The pharmacist's brother was a well-dressed man. He stooped down and asked the little girl, "What kind of a miracle does your brother need?"
I don't know," Tess replied with her eyes welling up. "I just know he's really sick and Mommy says he needs an operation. But my Daddy can't pay for it, so I want to use my money."
How much do you have?" asked the man from Chicago.
One dollar and eleven cents," Tess answered barely audibly. "And it's all the money I have, but I can get some more if I need to." Well, what a coincidence," smiled the man. "A dollar and eleven cents---the exact price of a miracle for little brothers.
" He took her money in one hand and with the other hand he grasped her mitten and said "Take me to where you live. I want to see your brother and meet your parents. Let's see if I have the miracle you need." That well dressed man was Dr. Carlton Armstrong, a surgeon, specializing in neuro-surgery. The operation was completed without charge and it wasn't long until Andrew was home again and doing well. Mom and Dad were happily talking about the chain of events that had led them to this place.
That surgery," her Mom whispered. "was a real miracle. I wonder how much it would have cost?" Tess smiled. She knew exactly how much a miracle cost...one dollar and eleven cents ..... plus the faith of a little child. A miracle is not the suspension of natural law, but the operation of a higher law...

MY OATH TO YOU...
When you are sad.....I will dry your tears.
When you are scared.....I will comfort your fears.
When you are worried.....I will give you hope.
When you are confused.....I will help you cope.
And when you are lost....And can't see the light.
I shall be your beacon.....Shining ever so bright.
This is my oath.....I pledge till the end.
Why you may ask?.....Because you're my friend.


Signed: GOD

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

gosh. one of my student's father died.

Monday, January 24, 2005

slight distraction from what i'm doing.
hahaha!
look at what i stumbled on. super funny.
this is the 'eyd website
'eyd means CHAOS in hebrew. so yeah. go figure.
oh gosh. it still works. takes extremely long to load though. give it like a min or so. hahaha. anyway, here's what it says:
"' e y d
greetings from da funk.

welcome to the inner sanctum. to satisfy your curiosity and cravings in every way possible, let us enlighten you on our very noble mission. this webpage is about four fineass babes in a team for some fiery hot competition by the name of CHAOS. CHAOS is short for · creative and heuristic application of science · . all upper secondary students in singapore are greatly encouraged to take part. if you wanna know more about it, all you gotta do is just click on the link above maaaaaaaan.

after much consideration, deliberation and of course arguments, we have decided to christen our team 'eyd, which is hebrew for CHAOS [ say whatever you gotta say, man ] :)'eyd includes four funkadelic babes in a school called nanyang girls' high who go by the names of fengyi, hui qinG, wee zi and xin ying.

to know more about us and how we rock da world, you jez gotta dig this...

chew fengyi
soh hui qing
tan wee zi
tan xin ying

CHAOS aside, mark wahlberg is oh so hot. oohh babyyyy."

ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i can't believe it's still there:P
maybe it's time to revamp the website. hahahaa.
use it for a better purpose rather than allow it to settle and rot. back to what i'm doing:D

Sunday, January 23, 2005

i am delighted:D hahaa. and excited. and contented. not contented. i am happy. jubilant. no. wrong word. not jubilant. i am. satisfied. nonono. i am...
blissful.
(oh dear. blissful sounds like i'm getting married)
i am in that state whereby i realise that a new day has started and i can sit up on my bed on my own, walk around on my own, take a deep breath in without vomitting, eat food without having it all gone within a minute... i am well:D thank God! amen!
had food poisoning. hahaha. i kinda left trails everywhere i went:P
doctor said i'll take at least 2 days for my body to recover. and that i've gotta drink lots of water (a few sips at a time) 'cos my body's dehydrated from all the diarrhoea and vomitting. (dehydrated ---> no energy to walk ----> nearly fainting when you stand up)
but prayers work wonders:D thank God for the prayers for me. thanks.
by sat evening, i was able to walk. hahaha. i don't know how that sounds. but to me, it was a miracle. considering that i couldn't even sit up:P
and this morning, i feel healed:D hhahaa. i am delighted. extremely.
actually. the many hours of sleep did me good. had lack of sleep for the past few weeks and these hours of sleep really replenished the lack. and the vomitting kinda got rid of all my phlegm. haha:D
yeah:)
-when it was dark now there's light
when there was pain now there's joy
when there was weakness, i found my strength
all in the eyes of a boy-

Friday, January 21, 2005

wahhhhhhhhhhhh
so maluating
was feeling unwell yesterday and today and i actually burst out vomitting in the mrt on the way home. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
and the best part is... one of the 3N3 girls saw me vomitting. arrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhh.
i'll never get any respect from them from now on.
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

i went into class to help kaimei take care of 2N2 for a period today...and in the meantime, reprimanded them for disrespecting the teacher. they were super obedient for the next period when kaimei came in. i told them that if they want kaimei to continue teaching them, then they've gotta show it in actions. they promised.
and then what happens?
the guys went to do the dumbest thing on earth that can be done. they went to beat someone from another class of kaimei up. like O_o|||...there's a whole history to the whole thing which i dun wanna type out. but just know that what they did was the most stupid and brainless thing that could have been done at tt moment.
and i seriously don't know what's wrong with some of the students. one moment they're quite okay, another they decide to be disrespectful towards teachers. i think if we tell the discipline master everytime someone is disrespectful, we can get lots of students caned and suspended.
but what do we gain by doing so? nothing!
gee.
gim seng and mabel are leaving after this week. and clarice is basically just baby sitting the classes. whilst me and kaimei and sharline are at the frontline everyday. aargh. wellus.

Monday, January 17, 2005

i think the saddest thing that can happen is when a student actually gives up on himself. when someone wants to give up.
-all you were thirsty, all you were weak
come to the fountain, leave your heart in the stream of life
let the pain and the sorrow be washed away-
i mean it's frustrating and one can be easily angered at their rebelliousness and all that, but when a student says 'i don't care anymore. i want to get suspended but the principal doesn't want to suspend me.'
when a student had that look of wanting to try again for an instance, and then gives it up, i feel that that's the saddest thing that can happen.
shall see if i can talk to the student.
and i've a feeling the students think that teachers have no life. whatsoever. hahaha.
visiting fungi in her army camp on 22nd!
yeah wellus.
had students visiting me just now. hahha. got this super quiet girl in class suddenly chatting amiably with me out of class. super funny. yeah wellus. shall give them 2nd chances. lots of 2nd chances. oh! the guy who tore up the tingxie book was very nice today. he did his essay diligently. hahaha:) how nice:)

Sunday, January 16, 2005

took the liberty of giving my brain a half-day's break from thinking. hahaha. don't think i should do it again in a long long time. waste of time.
i watched tv and tv and tv and played games on zone.com until my score on jewel quest was .. wellus:)
shall go back to planning lessons. i feel more hardworking than i'm a student. actually i think i'm doing more 'homework' each day than when i was a student. hahahaa. intriguing.

Friday, January 14, 2005

i don't think i can be a teacher in the future. hahahaa.
i don't wanna scold them. i just wanna talk to them normally, like they're my friends, but i can't not scold them. 'cos i have to carry out the role of being a teacher.
actually to tell the truth, i don't mind them being noisy, or not listening in class, or not tying up their hair... but the school minds! ah wellus.
as a teacher, i feel like i'm 'over' them, but i wanna be 'with' the people. can't be a teacher. hahahaa.
anyway, the 3E students think that i'm 21. hahhahaa! they were like 18? 19? 21? then i just went 'go and do your work'
wanted to stay in school till very late so as to prepare all my lessons and type them out. the comp doesn't want me to do that though...it's decided to cause the vanishing of the hansvision programme. can't find it AT ALL.
disastrous.
i've got lots of things to mark in the weekend. oh dear.
marking compos. which are quite amusing. very amusing. i wonder if my compo in the past amused my teacher? hmmm;)

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

"And I [John] heard a loud voice from the throne [heaven] saying, 'Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away'" (Revelation 21:3-5, niv).

Daily the news media continues reporting more and more tragedies as the Asian Tsunami death toll keeps mounting. Over and over we hear tragic stories about thousands of families being torn apart--grieving children losing parents, heartbroken parents losing children, homes totally destroyed, and despicable evil, criminals kidnapping orphaned children for their loathsome sex trade business. Devastating before and after photos of resorts and villages that have been decimated are also seen.

Where is God at times like this? is a reasonable question to
be sure. Thoughts from Chuck Swindoll written to a friend who asked him the same question help us to understand, to some degree, the dilemma we face. In a nutshell here's how Chuck explained the situation:

A great deal depends on one's perspective. Life can be viewed horizontally or vertically; that is, horizontally from a human point of view or vertically from a divine viewpoint.

Viewed horizontally: It's noteworthy that God gets blamed
by critics [many of whom claim they don't believe in God] who see everything from a horizontal viewpoint. For these people life revolves around themselves. If one says that God has nothing to do with disasters, he will be criticized for being uncaring and uninvolved. If God is a God of love they claim, he is supposed to guard us from all harm, always make us happy, and keep us safe. If one says that God is a caring and loving God, then the humanistic public sees him as cruel and even sadistic because He doesn't stop the disasters.

Viewed vertically: In the beginning, God made all things good--everything remained in that perfect condition until sin entered, polluting and corrupting, not only individual lives, but this earth as well. [Sin's] curse that fell on humanity
as well as nature was devastating in its extent. As a result of sin's universal impact certain realities were set in motion: such as consequences following wrongdoing, human struggles and sicknesses, international conflicts and wars, tragedies and disasters, grief and loss and death, to name only a few. Had sin never entered, none of those things would have existed or been of concern. But because it has, unending litanies of problems have and always will accom-
pany life on this planet. In fact, according to prophetic Scripture, they will increase and intensify until the Son of God returns and takes up his rightful place as King of Kings and Lord of Lords on planet earth.1

Swindoll and other theologians explain the difference between God's directive will and his permissive will. God is still on the throne of the Universe and all things are under the control of his directive will. But because he gave man-
kind a free will to choose his own way, his permissive will allows for the consequences of mankind's actions--hence all the problems mankind is facing today in a world that is plagued by evil.

However, because of God's love he has made a way of escape by giving his Son, Jesus, to die for our sins and offer us the gift of forgiveness and eternal life in heaven where "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." But that's in heaven and not on earth. As the late Vance Havner used to say in his inimitable Southern style, "This world is a goner. It's a sinking ship. God's goal is not to save the world but to save people out of it [and its devastating consequences because of all the evil in it].

Sunday, January 09, 2005

i just deleted my neopets account. hahahaa. created one (again) after the As but realised that i've been spending too much time on it.
as in. realised that for a lot of times already but didn't want to discontinue neopets 'cos it seems quite interesting to collect the stuff and everything else... yeah. and wellus.
came to the decision yesterday 'cos i realise that it IS just a game afterall and there're much better things for me to invest my time in. yes.
oh yes! i had a nice time talking to two girls from US though:) hahhaa.

Friday, January 07, 2005

hahaha. had a nice long sleep just now:D yeah!
mum woke me up at 8+pm to eat dinner...when she first woke me up, the first thing i thought was '8+? i'm going to be late for school! oh no!':P
hahaha. wellus.
yes.
had 3n3 early in the morning. thank God it was manageable today. hahaa.
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i'm breathing in the delicious night air once again.
and God reminded me of love. love for my class 3N3 students. forgive. forget. love.
'be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly father is perfect.'
i'm quite tired today. slept on 28 all the way home. felt really groggy even as i got down the bus. hahha. lack of sleep from preparation for things.
i'm going to vomit blood teaching 3N3. gosh. they've even got a reputation for being notorious in school. strange thing is tt they were actually quite okay on monday. don't know what happens.
i think it'll be okay if i seperate all of them, but when they sit together, it's actually quite disastrous.
teaching is such a hard balance between being firm and showing love.
tired. hahaha. caregroup was refreshing though:) yeah:D

Thursday, January 06, 2005

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okay. i shall stop typing in chinese. feels a bit weird.
taking a break from planning out my chinese lessons. thank God! i'm nearly done with them. only have 4T2's lesson plans not out yet. and i still have quite a lot of time to finish planning it. yeah!
hahaha. and i've got some worksheets from the other teachers today. which means for some days i can just pass it to the classes and ask them to do it while i prepare for lessons. muahhahaha.
delighted i am. i am delighted. haha.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

third day of work.
woke up at 8+. hahaha. bliss!
got out of house at 9.30am.
got to the outside bus-stop at 10am!
wait. isn't it quite odd? usually it takes only 5 mins to get to the outside bus-stop. hmmmm...
maybe not. when you consider that the bus took quite a long time to come, and that my shoe strap broke and i spent a long time trying to staple it with no success... it doesn't seem too long afterall.
hhaha.
taught my 2E5 class today. quite disorganised. 'cos first time teaching...felt weird. it feels like the first time i told them my rules. disorganised. but wellus. i have faith that i'll improve with experience. yes. gave them words for ting1 xie3 on the first day!
hahahahha!
poor 2E5 though. my guinea pigs.
yepz. everything went quite well with the 3E combined classes. interesting bunch of pple. actually it seems like the 3N classes are the naughtiest. wellus.
my relief teaching application can't get approved 'cos of the declaration i made about having asthma:P sharline says they're discriminating me. hahaha! anyway, it's still pending. i wonder if i'll get my pay for the first three days. O_o. hmmm. $65 x 3 is quite alot of money.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

you know. it's only been two days since i've joined the teaching staff of north vista sec...but already, it feels like i've been there for like forever. hahaha. sharline and i and kaimei were discussing about students again today and i really want to thank God for the classes i have. i haven't met 1E1...but they're supposed to be the best class out of all the sec 1 classes. hahaha:D
and i haven't met the 'rejects' (so called. poor things) of the 3E classes...those with the poorest results... wonder how they'll be. mdm seah says some of them are just very quiet. but she also says it's very tiring to take care of them.
hahaha. they're my added bunch of pple to teach. starting from today. gosh. thurs is going to be my most tiring day. four classes almost consecutively. four hours of teaching. gosh.
oh yes! let me talk about 4T2! hahaha. heard very bad things about the 4T classes actually...then just tt morning during staff meeting, someone mentioned about a guy in 4T2 being someone not to be messed with. and i was like O_o. right. okay.
but turns out they're very nice. hahaha:D more sensible than 2E5, 'cos they're older. less cheeky than 3N3...which is good. smaller class too. so i can handle them better. and the guy who's supposed to be not very good to mess with, he shows me respect.
let's see if this goes on even when i ask them for homework;)
hahaha. was talking to this girl about earholes. so funny. she just pierced hers yesterday. ah well.
and the guys are friendlier too. as in. they'll greet me even out of school. think my classes are a far cry of kaimei's...hahaha. and sharline's... sharline had a boy in the class who actually shot back 'why should i?' when sharline asked him to stand.
wellus. thank God for the chinese department too..they're quite a fun-loving bunch of pple. hahahha:D we talk a lot of nonsense.
oh! was in the staff room and i was commenting about how wearing high heels everyday is kinda killing me and was saying tt maybe i shld become a pe teacher instead. and the pe hod waved her arms enthusiastically and said 'i don't mind! come join us!' hahaha. funny.
hahaha. blogging in north vista staff room. just finished chinese department meeting not long ago. quite amusing. quite frantic. quite messy. quite enjoyable:) i've got an extra class all of a sudden.
4T2 was surprisingly nice!:D hahaha.
going off to plan tmr's lessons. oh dear. maybe i should plan tmr. wellus.