I think it could be cos I was in AVA for 4 yr in ny.
could be the years of fixing videocams on tripods in the auditoriums for performances, bringing that same videocam around to follow after people (e.g. Mr Lee Kuan Yew when he was in our school) . could be the many hours spent in the dark soundroom waiting for specific moments in the play/concerts where my lights will be changed.
could be the memories of having fun times talking to fellow ava members in the room, or the excitement of climbing up high onto the catwalk.
hmmm.
i suddenly miss the times behind the videocam. hahahaa.
when i can just focus on what's in front of me, reduce the thoughts in my mind and just do.