it's the last day of 2010! :)
feels kind of reluctant to let it go by. hahaa.

had a good time with some of the '86 sisters today. hahaa :)
was quite exhausted due to the lack of sleep last night. hahaa. come to think of it, i only slept for 3 and a half hours! hahaa. yay! and i managed to survive well.
no wonder i feel so exhausted. haha.
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was tempted to do something today, but held back myself and made the choice not to.
might have been not a recognizably victorious move in the eyes of others, actually it prob won't even matter to them.
but in my heart i am jumping up and pumping my fist in the air.

Jehovah Nissi! :D
twice i was tested, in 2 different aspects.
and twice i chose not to give in.

haha.
okay. it's not everyday that i actually get to be victorious over these 2 aspects. hahahaa.
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one week!
ahhhhhh!!!!!
only guan was able to accurately pinpoint what i'm going through. (using the exact word i gave myself while doing detached analysis of myself. hohoho)
guess i am still grieving.
still rotating between anger and acceptance.
at least they're both active coping styles.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick
but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life
Proverbs 13:12

how apt the bible is to even describing our emotional life and responses.
such sweetness in the words :)