it's the last day of 2010! :)
feels kind of reluctant to let it go by. hahaa.

had a good time with some of the '86 sisters today. hahaa :)
was quite exhausted due to the lack of sleep last night. hahaa. come to think of it, i only slept for 3 and a half hours! hahaa. yay! and i managed to survive well.
no wonder i feel so exhausted. haha.
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was tempted to do something today, but held back myself and made the choice not to.
might have been not a recognizably victorious move in the eyes of others, actually it prob won't even matter to them.
but in my heart i am jumping up and pumping my fist in the air.

Jehovah Nissi! :D
twice i was tested, in 2 different aspects.
and twice i chose not to give in.

haha.
okay. it's not everyday that i actually get to be victorious over these 2 aspects. hahahaa.
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one week!
ahhhhhh!!!!!
only guan was able to accurately pinpoint what i'm going through. (using the exact word i gave myself while doing detached analysis of myself. hohoho)
guess i am still grieving.
still rotating between anger and acceptance.
at least they're both active coping styles.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick
but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life
Proverbs 13:12

how apt the bible is to even describing our emotional life and responses.
such sweetness in the words :)

hot choc doesn't sit well in my tummy :(
feeling ill :\

new appointment O_o

school meetings tmr! thank God it's not until 5pm. hahaha.
though i think i'd probably be spending some time packing up my office table :\
hurhur.

i'm going to catch:
The last days of Emma Blank
Lovers' discourse
True Grit

heard recently tt.....
edwin proposed to christine! :D

and ...

marcus proposed to yufen! :D

glad for all of them! :D hahaa.
can't wait to attend these weddings. wahahahhaa.

not to mention robert's and melissa's :D

okies.
i think sometimes at night i'd go mad.
my sanguine side will take over at times. hahahaa.
then my mel side will be sitting in the corner frowning at the silly behaviour.
maybe it's tcc hot choc. it's giving me an adrenaline rush. wahaha.

i miss MASS DANCES!

曹格 - 愛愛MV

i like the erhu playing in front! hahaha. and the fun tone of the music.

jalea is sharp in catching things related to my favourite topic. LOL
i am amused.

I finally understand why people prefer to cook/bake and not wash up.
I've always kinda liked washing up after people cook/bake.. but i guess when you're the one cooking, after you make a mess out of the things in the kitchen as you attempt to cook up a storm (or in this case, alter the making of carbonara), it's kinda not very fun to have to wash up all of the bowls, pan, fork, pot that you used :X
and why is it that we don't have good paying night jobs? hahaahaa.
in the night i can set up organisers, plan my schedule for the coming week, finish up administrative stuff, and do more in 4 hrs than i do in 4 hrs in the day. hahaa.

3 days and it's still ongoing.

what do i do in the middle of the night?
hahahaha.
write xmas cards and send our emails! :D

i can't wait for heaven.
when there'd be no difference in race
no pain
no sufferings
no waiting
no tears
no gender.

i love it when chi places her head slightly at the edge of my keypad and sleep :)
i love to watch things when they sleep :)

Melody - You Cover - Jaci Velasquez

fell in love with this song in secondary school without knowing it's meant to be sung to God :)

You - Jaci Valesquez

Who makes
The sun light up my shadows
When the darkness tries to follow me
Who makes
The air that bring me life
So I can breathe the love that's given to me

CHORUS:
You make everything good
Everything wonderful
You grace my days
And heaven fills my view
Let's forever sing
You make everything pure
Everything beautiful
You make me see the only thing that's true
It's you

Who makes
The waters of my sorrow part
And leads the gladness into my heart
Who makes
The rivers run that wash away
And clean my soul to make a new start

You hung the moon
You placed the stars that shine your love for me
I hope all that I do
Will show reflections of you

am reading christmas notes and cards :)
heh.
i think at the end of the day, the gifts don't matter so much. haha. i like all the gifts (as long as they can be read/used:D), but the notes matter so much more to me :) i guess it gives me an insight to what they think of me :)

追 (電影版) 張國榮 電影《金枝玉葉》Zhui - Leslie Cheung

just finished watching this movie (and its sequel)
have never watched it before, though i like the song. hahaa.
the first movie 'he's a woman, she's a man' is so much better than its sequel :)
i kinda miss the sound of cantonese.

oh i'm so dead~
hahahahaa.
so dead~ so dead~
so dead~

wahaha.
confession time >_<

at quite a lot of times, i think it's quite possible to sense a person's temperament. hahaha.
like there's something quite similar between the two of you.
and when you meet that person, you just click. hahaa. and it's kind of fun to play with that person. hahaa.
like you kind of intuitively know the soul of the person.
and when you read about certain things that the person likes, or see what the person does, and you're not surprised, 'cos it's what you have expected of that person.
and then your heart is joyful to know that there are such people in the world. haha.
so amazing how God has created us differently.

"I think you're a hopeless romantic who's discovered that romance is hopeless."

梁詠琪-膽小鬼

First chinese song I've ever liked! hahaa.



in primary 5 :X

received my first xmas present today. haha.
thank you :)

gave my first xmas present out too :)
she was quite surprised.

no idea how i ended up reading about abortion in the middle of the night.
i guess it's 'cos it's a very female issue. like usually only females would be thinking about pregnancy and abortions? haha. or maybe only i'd go and think about it, since i keep wondering if i'd ever be able to counsel people who have chosen to go through abortions.
i have personally come to my own stand on the issue, though i guess everyone will have their various understandings and stands on it.

Your Love Is Everything - Jesus Culture (Jayesslee cover)

ENFJs are, by definition, Js, with whom we associate organization and decisiveness. But they don't resemble the SJs or even the NTJs in organization of the environment nor occasional recalcitrance. ENFJs are organized in the arena of interpersonal affairs. Their offices may or may not be cluttered, but their conclusions (reached through feelings) about people and motives are drawn much more quickly and are more resilient than those of their NFP counterparts.

Note the bolded word: so sad! hahaha. but true. hahaha. my environment is not organized :\

i think Tron is a guy show. 'cos it's about a father and a son.
and i can't relate much to quite a few things in it.
though the set was brilliant, and the visual effects were stunning.
i guess i can't identify with the guy and his relationship with his father because i'm not a guy :X

So Close - Jon McLaughlin (Enchanted OST - High Quality)

"That's how you know" - Disney's Enchanted(High quality vid)

hahaha. i quite liked Enchanted when i watched it. kinda forgot about this movie. hahaha.
i find this scene quite funny. hahahaa

frankly speaking, i can't understand why some girls like girly looking guys.
by which, i don't mean that guys must look rugged. i think guys who're clean shaven look nice. i think guys with long hair are cool.
but i don't understand the fad whereby they like the girly looking guys from taiwan shows, or korean shows :\

jazz meets pop is pretty good! :D
haha.
sleepy.
i caught up with the showing of anime episodes for Yumeiro Patissiere Professional! heh :X just shows that I watched a lot of anime in the past week. hahaa.
That CD shop is having lots of albums at 3 for $49. hahaa. makes me happy 'cos Duffy's album is one of those albums in the 3 for $49 list. so are a few High Society compilations. hahaa.
i got High Society Orchestra album (hehe. music is nice :D), a Jazz 101 compilation (which has 6 CDs. haha. on the 2nd CD of 'Jazz meets pop'. Looking forward to the 3rd CD 'Vocal Jazz', and the 5th CD 'Bossanova'. hahaha). there's a difference in quality in the music between the High Society album and the jazz 101 album :X i read that the High Society series consists of HDCD, didn't know that there is an audible difference. haha.
And my last CD is Duffy's Rockferry Deluxe Edition! hehe.
Am so glad that I finally got it! hahaa. everytime I go into a music store, I'd be like looking for it.. then contemplating if I should buy it.. then go out of the store convincing myself that I can listen to it on youtube. hahaha. now I can listen to it whenever I travel too :) her voice haunts my mind (particularly Warwick Avenue). haha. so does Olivia's. hahaa.
first time i spent so much on CDS >_<
I spent equally as much on very basic materials for christmas cards :X
hohoho.
wahaha. I hear 'what do you get when you kiss a guy, you get enough germs to catch pneumonia, after you do, he'd never phone you, i'd never fall in love again'~ hahaha. will usually hear this song before Picturehouse films show. haha. very catchy and chirpy song. you can catch a version of it here.
sometimes when i'm listening to songs, i kind of wish i can keep playing them and listening to them, and not have to sleep. hahaa.
okies. i should sleep soon.

full day of meetings tomorrow :(

i dreamt that we were in a war and sins were abundant.
and that i killed people.
and mistrust was everywhere.

heh.
am getting calls and smses from students booking appointments for help in ITE application. haha.

exhausted.
but thankful for today :)
hope many people were as touched as i was.
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thinking today that i need to firm up the way i self care.
was reminded of this when David shared something about how he'd get drained at the end of the week if he's been ministering to pple.
it reminds me of my job.
and how at the start of my job, after meeting just one client or two, due to the intense nature of the sharing, i was rather drained. could feel heartbeat getting faster, brain frying and all that thing. hahaa. couple this with continual non-privacy of my office, and it was horrendous.
along the way, i learned to cope, but mainly also 'cos there're people whom i can continually talk online to :) like pockets of joy.
haha.
but i also realized tt it's not very efficient, 'cos i can feel a difference in myself during holidays and during workdays. and it's not 'cos of the work. i think i have a low threshold for stress (maybe? hahaa)
so need to find more proper self care. haha.
like finding the right balance between meeting people, spending time with God and being alone. haha

Saw this on Chiewmei's photos:

my gosh. this is super funny

i can't stand people who throw cats down the rubbish chutes, or throw dogs out to die (e.g. throwing a deaf and mute dog downstairs and let it die) when they're old. i feel angry when i read about these kind of news.
you won't do that to your children, so why do people do that to animals?

Kevin kern Le Jardin

Was playing songs randomly on my lappie, when i heard this :)
i have the tune if anyone wants :)

tried this today :) hahaa.
cake's quite dry. but the soya on top is nice! :D the almond caramel bits are nice too! :D
eaten together it's ok. would have been nicer if i got tea to go along :)
u can read reviews on the stall here and here:)

i intend to buy a flat saucepan
so that i can cook bacon
and do my carbonara :D
the authentic italian way.
anyone wanna try?
LOL

ipod nano. gen 6. hehe

do you know what's a covenant? :)
what's the difference between a covenant and a contract?
a covenant consists of the relationship factor.
a contract doesn't.
both are not to be broken.

when will my graduation ceremony for my diploma course be? -_-
i'd prob get my cert in special needs before the diploma in counselling -_-

i think i can spend 2 months just cleaning up my room and not finish doing it.
'cos i'd be distracted and go on to doing other things instead.
there're a thousand and one things to do. hahaa.
i really think i need a new room. hhahaa.
but i am adamant to finish rearranging and decorating my room!
as how i am adamant in doing a lot of other nonsensical stuff as well.
if only human beings don't require sleep. hahahaa.

:P

oh btw, the anime has been described as pure shojo fluff. hahaha.
so don't bother watching it.
but oh! i love to watch food animes. hahahaa

Look at this!

looks so tempting. haha.
heard about the patissiere 'cos of the anime Yumeiro Patissiere. all the creations in the anime series were created by this patissiere. wow. hahaha.
one of the few times i'm tempted by desserts!

Christmas Isn't Christmas Until It Happens In your Heart

Christmas isn’t Christmas till it happens in your heart
Somewhere deep inside you is where Christmas really starts
So give your heart to Jesus, you’ll discover when you do
That it’s Christmas, really Christmas for you

Jesus brings warmth like a winter fire
A light like a candle’s glow
He’s waiting now to come inside
As He did so long ago

Jesus brings gifts of truth and life
And makes them bloom and grow
So welcome Him with a song of joy
And when He comes you’ll know

That Christmas really Christmas
Christmas really Christmas
Christmas really Christmas for you

Bought the audio CD for 'Wide Awake' by Erwin Raphael Mcmanus, hoping to pass this on to people. Read mixed reviews online about the book. hmm. shall see how it goes :) haha

taking care of a cat is not very hard actually.
you just gotta take note of her needs, which includes:
1) changing the litter tray
2) feeding her 3 times daily, complete with treats in the early morning when you call her and she comes running up your bed.
3) daily carries/pats on the head/stroking of back
4) letting her sit on your lap/sit by your laptop/sit on your bed/suckle your little finger everyday
5) spending some time playing chase with her (or in my case, the 'chi? doko?' game)
6) trying to ward of her knee biting attempts
7) getting her adjusted to any uncommon/strange items/people in the house occasionally.

haha.
though 4am playing chase makes me wanna sleep.

i like the way chi's tail increases in its speed of wagging everytime i call her name. haha

sometimes...
the sisters have to protect the brothers.

Dare You to Move (Switchfoot) - The String Quartet

wow

Interesting facts about the ENFJ:
On personality trait scales, scored as Active, Pleasant, Sociable, Demanding, Impatient, Appreciative, and Compromising
Most likely of all types to cope with stress by exercising (how come this doesn't seem to happen to me? LOL)
Most likely of all types to believe in a higher spiritual power
Ranked by psychologists as among least likely to have trouble in school
Personal values include Friendships, Education & Learning, Creativity, and Community Service
Among types highest in job satisfaction, but also among most likely to report plans to leave their jobs
Commonly found in careers in religion, teaching, and the arts

this verse is stuck with me :)

2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

faith and trust in God :)

Watched 'The White Ribbon' with Sherli on Wed. had originally considered watching this with wanqi, but the m18 kind of pushed us into watching Rapunzel instead. hahaa.
it's not violent, just that the themes covered are more serious.. so it's actually not m18 'cos of violent scenes (unless seeing the death of an animal upsets you alot...), or sexual scenes that kind of thing.
Story was about the odd happenings in a village. I would say that it's a rather 'Lord of the flies' film.. hahaa. though not as outrightly brutal as the book, but it does show the ugly and negative side of human beings :) rather interesting. quite even paced too :)
if you're not watching the movie, you can read more about the film here and here
Interestingly, i observe that I am personally neither shocked nor dismayed at the portrayal of the humans in the show. Somehow or another, it seems that I already know that the nature of human beings are as such.
pessimistic outlook? or a desensitized heart? haha.

Watched another movie in the night.

Had 1 for 1 discount for this 'cos GV is having a promotion :D
felt that the movie was not bad too :) the starting was not as funny as i thought it'd be (the whole theatre was laughing, which kinda puzzled me 'cos i didn't think it was exactly very funny O_o), but i felt that some scenes were rather lovely :) enjoyed the scene when the female lead pretended to be a dj and talked to the male lead.. enjoyed also the scene when they were in the snow :) haha. I felt slightly offended when they joked about abortions though.
Here's its IMDB page: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1725995/
And you can read reviews here and here
heh :) I think the female lead really looks like a korean though! hahahaa. and she's quite pretty! hahaa.

recently saw people who were doing photo shoots of cosplayers in raffles place.
thought that was quite cool. hahaha.
the fact tt ppl do photoshoots for cosplayers :)

This looks interesting!
can't wait for it to come out :) wondering if i'd still have time for anime. hahaha

JS - Thank you - The Katinas (cover)

can't file my taxes 'cos i lost my IC and can't confirm my date of issue of IC :\

"Since relationships are central to the ENFJ's life, they will be very "hands on" and involved with their intimate relationships. They may be in the habit of constantly asking their partner how they're doing, what they're feeling, etc. This behavior may be a bit smothering, but it also supports a strong awareness of the health (or illness) of the relationship."

there're people who understand how my world is like.
うれしい

“For each individual mind there is an optimal level of stimulation. The more intelligent and the more developed the brain, the higher level of stimulation is absolutely necessary to make it feel right. An intelligent brain craves stimulation the way a gambler craves roulette. It seeks stimulation by picking up puzzles to solve, problems to uncover, ideas to examine, patterns to discern, contradictions to catch and resolve. What happens when the brain is understimulated with too little mental feed? The result is boredom, ennui, restlessness, irritability, and depression.” - Piechowski

"Therapists must be familiar with their own dark side and be able to empathize with all human wishes and impulses."
"Young therapists must work through their own neurotic issues; they must learn to accept feedback, discover their own blind spots, and see themselves as others see them; they must appreciate their impact upon others and learn how to provide accurate feedback."
".. is a psychologically demanding enterprise and therapists must develop the awareness and inner strength to cope with the many occupational hazards inherent in it."
".. the rationale for using the here-and-now is that human problems are large relational and that an individual's interpersonal problems will ultimately be manifested in the here-and-now of the therapy encounter."

I think i'm still working through my own neurotic issues. hahaa.

... and it really did seem like a long time has passed by since sunday.
yet only one day has passed by :S

ahhhhhhhhh
why is this sold out!

sometimes i don't know where pple get the confidence they place in me. hahaa.
like sometimes i know what to do,
at other times, i'd be like "Shucks! what in the world am i supposed to do now!!!'
so it's great that God is in control
hahaha!

i'm 24, but there're times when i don't feel like i'm 24. haha.
especially when i'm counselling people, or giving advice to parents as to what to do. haha.
so these days, i've been helping myself to get a little more in touch with my supposed age. hahaa.
of course, i have no idea how people of my age are supposed to act. hahaa. or to be.
but i think my sang side feels suppressed. hahaa. so maybe giving in a little more to it? haha

JS - "You Raise Me Up" by Josh Groban

love their looks here. haha.

seems like WFL nursery is not over.
hahaha

wow. i didn't even realize it's 4.12am :\ have just kept on doing the card. haha. officially finished! :) now to clean up the mess i've made :\

haven't felt nervous about backup singing for some time. haha. but am starting to feel rather nervous about the next time to serve :\
suddenly wishing that the songs will come out faster so that i can practice, and to use the songs for my qt so that i can really let the songs speak to me before going up on stage and singing.

JS - You Are My Strength - Hillsong (cover)

Woo. I find this song hard to harmonize. hahaa. am learning now so I can do it in the future! :D

xinying wants to go on a road trip too!
but definitely not alone. haha.

Hi God, recently, You've been answering my prayers pretty fast these days.

end of course! :D
watched another movie today. haha. watched easy A. hahaa. i don't know what to make of the movie. it made fun of Christianity :P slightly offended actually.. 'cos we're not like what they portray in the movie! slightly offended also 'cos the guidance counsellor was portrayed in a weird manner (though i guess it does show that everyone has their weaknesses). i like the style of presentation though.. and some parts are really quite funny. hahaa.
I wanna watch 'hello stranger'! :D
last day of course today. haha. we didn't do anything much, mainly chatting through the day. hahaa. we did watch a video on paralinguistics and how it affects children with autism though. that was pretty interesting :) hahaa

me: how did you feel when you stepped into this 'counselling room', despite not wanting to come for counselling before that?

client: i came, opened the door, then you said hi. and i thought 'wah, so welcoming, so nice.'

You wrote letters to me and I see them.
You heard my prayers everyday when I prayed them.
You saw me form in my mother's womb.

Disney's Tangled Soundtrack TRACK 14 "Kingdom Dance" (Score)

Cheery instrumental music! :D

Disney's Tangled Soundtrack TRACK 7 "I See the Light"

Disney's Tangled Soundtrack TRACK 4 "When Will My Life Begin (Reprise 2)"

I wrote a letter to you, which you probably will never see.
I prayed a prayer for you, which you will not hear.
I saw you from afar, but you did not see me.

yay. i feel tired, but fruitful :)
finished my 40% assignment in 2 and a half hours. hahaa.
and am halfway through my reflections (20%).
have finished the in tutorial assignments.. there's only the grp presentation tomorrow, and i'm formally done for this module! :)