i think i haven't had the time to make sense of things :)
and i guess along the way, i realized i don't know what to make sense of.
Is there anything to make sense of?
Or is it merely to deal with the changes that come along the way?
And what changes are they?
Are there changes?
Life seems to go on as per normal.
And after the outpouring of emotions, there's nothing much left to pour.
and there's nothing to say
and there seems to be nothing to make sense of.
i guess what's worrying is the lack of strong emotions ba.
it's like having a glass lid over a pot of boiling waters. you can see it's boiling, or rather you believe it should be boiling, but it's not.
and it's all dulled.
and matted.
and glossed over.
and you sit by yourself just observing.
bemused by the lack of reaction.
i know there was a short period of time i wanted to be angry.
but i realized that i couldn't.
and another period of time when i wanted to be sad, but what's the use in that?
i hope i get out of this state of apathy soon :)
actions without emotions make for boring non-memorable days.