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I went for my wisdom teeth extraction yesterday morning =] lol.
And like what the dentist mentioned, the swelling is reaching is maximum today (the right side of my face looks as if i permanently have a fishball in my mouth. hahaha)
Here's a picture of the xray of my teeth!

The two wisdom teeth (the last two teeth) of my right jaw (left side of picture) were extracted. the top one just needed a simple extraction (dentist plucked the whole thing out), while the bottom one warranted the incision of the gum and the cracking of the tooth to pluck it out (meaning it went through a minor surgery).
I hope I don't get a dry socket (didn't exactly follow dentist's instructions to go home and rest :\) hehe.
Looking at my face now, I really don't feel like going to work tomorrow. hahaa. Should have taken my 5 days mc O.o
oh
and thanks to Yizhong for being my tooth escort :) lol.
Took this photo at mos burger yesterday!

I like to walk. i like to walk down to potong pasir 'cos you walk beside a big canal with calm waters.. and the peaceful sky will be over your head. and this was the song that kept playing in my mind as i walked today :)

Worlds Apart - Jars of Clay

Worlds Apart - Jars of Clay

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
To give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
More deeply than the oceans,
More abundant than the tear
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
And wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
The battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
And wash the feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak,
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
The sin-soaked heart and make it yours
Take my world all apart
Take it now, take it now
And serve the ones that I despise
Speak the words I can't deny
Watch the world I used to love
Fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
So wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
So steal my heart and take the pain
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
Take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
Take my world apart

hehehe.
was searching for 'manna' in google, and saw the following link =D
it's an online cake shop. description of the cakes are interesting!:)
7th Manna
looks interesting right!

I'm quite scared. lol.
I'm not scared of physical pain in other parts of the body, nor of emotional pain.. but quite scared of having pain in my mouth O.o
really thank God that the dentist is quite nice=)
it's Emmanuel Dental Surgery..at Clemenceau Ave.. quite nice deco .. and they display free copies of My Daily Bread =) hahahaa.
and i found out that the receptionist is a Christian too. hahaa. i was like asking if I can still go for service after extraction of wisdom teeth ('cos some internet sources adviced the pple to go home and rest and minimize movement for the first 2 days O.o).. somewhere along those lines. dunno how it ended up with her asking me to bring my mum there, then i was like saying 'she doesn't want to come with me'.. and the receptionist was like 'ah! xiang1 xin4 zhu3 shi4 hao3 de!' can't remember the second line. hahaa. my mum just waved it away, but i thought it was good =D 'cos i dun usually hear other pple telling tt to my mum. hahaa. and my mum quite like the receptionist =) hehehe.
the dentist is quite nice=] kept explaining why we do certain things (e.g. biting onto something, procedure of how the xray will be).. kept assuring.. it feels comfortable to know what's going to happen, and the process of drilling (yes, i have fillings to be done :( ) was relatively okay too. he knew where it got sensitive and stopped promptly and moved on. i was like wow. hahaha.
very nice=]
i remembered when i went to the other dentist previously, and i had fillings done, the teeth was still quite sensitive and i couldn't eat my dinner properly after tt. but this time, this dentist put in medication before putting in the filling, so i completely don't feel anything after the visit=] hehe.
lessens the phobia of going to the dentist. hehe.
anyway, bookings with the dentist are full. lol. only available next january. haha! think they made an exception for me today (appointment was at 6pm, though the clinic closes at 6), and another exception for the surgery (9.30am on sat, even though it starts at 11am (if i'm not wrong). lol. and yet another to remove the stitches (6pm on Friday as well..i wonder how much the cab fare down from NTU will cost O.o)
hehe. cost wise, a bit more ex than public dentists, but relatively okay for a private one. my extractions are going to cost $500+ for the impacted one, and ard $120 for the halfwaypeekingout one. lol
oh how money flies.

hehehe.
I went for my dental checkup today.
hahaha.
first time taking a mouth X-Ray.. Saw beautiful teeth roots for the first time too=D as well as the nerve that runs underneath our roots and partly into the jaw. so interesting! hahahaa.
and saw my beautiful impacted wisdom teeth. ahhh.
hahaha
the right upper one is growing nicely (very nice position), but the bottom one is nicely horizontal =) i was telling michelle that it looks like a graph with a y and x axis =D
amazingly, i have 2 impacted wisdom teeth. both the bottom ones are horizontal. hahaha. faint. but the left side isn't doing anything, so i guess that's good. hahaha

Restless.
And i can't sleep. lol.
I went to bed at 2am.
And tossed till 2.15am. then remembered of an article which advises us to do something if we're not able to sleep in 15 mins. lol.
hahaha.
i want to finish my work (note that i only have a desire to work at night when the cold winds blow). lol. so that i can prepare for going to school and not bother about the keying in of data and the changing of the journal articles to apa format.
work that dulls my brain dries my brain. thank God i'm not doing admin for the rest of my life. and thank God i'm not keying in entries for the rest of my life either. Seriously speaking ah, i don't know how people survive in this kinda jobs.. but then again i'm a person who doesn't like business, so maybe i'm weird. lol.
maybe it's just the lack of human interaction and the seeming lack of human investment. o.o
the night air smells nice :)
i like to sleep by the window pane 'cos the night air smells nice.
ah. i wish we work from 12am to 9am or something. lol. i'd actually be quite happy. hahahahaa.
or maybe from 9pm to 6am.
o.o
why do we work from morning anyway? lol
maybe i should have asked Eddy if his company needs another person .. then i'd be working from 2am onwards. okay. just some random thoughts. i doubt i'll find satisfaction in his job anyway. lol.
i'm just rambling along.
it's so troublesome to work in the office when i can be more efficient at home sometimes.. but some things are meant to be done in the office ('cos the info can't be brought home).. then those that can be done at home, u wonder if u should do 'cos u can't clock the hours for them. lol.
but i do dislike having work stuck in the office. i like it better when i can take my time to do them. lol.
give me general guidelines, the skeleton, and total flexibility after that, and i'll produce good work.
a part of me starts to want to rebel when more rules and guidelines are given. lol. just cause me to be very sian diao.
i hope the people i work with in the future are not going to be people who give instructions every moment. i will just faint.
thank God Mani doesn't do that with me. she gives me a lot of flexibility. lol.

Quite excited=D
got to know the school i'm posted to today.. not sure if i wanna say the name here.. 'cos students might search it up O.o
lol
i think i need to make some stuff private from now on. so troublesome.
but quite excited=D gathering info about the school (though i dun go into the sch till a few months from now. lol). and just so happens i have a friend who was from there! so she's my xian4 ren2. poor girl. haha

Chinese version of "A heart after You"

yi sheng gen sui ni (a heart after you) - Joshua

Once there were two
and then two more
and the glass figures walked their individual paths
Side by side they walked their individual paths

And soon
more came
there were small at first, but they grew
led at first, but soon they led.

And then came a crossroad
Two waved goodbye
We know the roads are not that far
They'll cross again some day.

And the joy there is
When another one joined
Someone who was on another road
but have joined this one.

There were others
but they're still small
Now led, maybe they'll lead in the future.

So the three walked.
And walked
And walked.
One was gazing at the countryside
and when that one turned back
the two were no more.

So now the one walks alone
down the road when no one goes
Calling to the two who're gone.
Calling
Calling
Calling.

Sometimes we are able to discern certain underlying things which are not obvious on the surface.. and yet because they are not obvious on the surface, and because they're from certain groups of people, we may just simply dismiss it, or think that the people can handle it themselves.. without calling them to accountability, or talking to them about it..
and a few months down the road, you realize the problem gets fullblown, and the people gets pulled away...
it could happen to leaders, could happen to anyone, could happen to you and me.
having it happen twice in my face is not pleasant.
i guess we can say that no one will have predicted its happening, no one could have known that it'll turn out to be that way.. but i think eitherwise. if at that point of discernment, i've had spoken up or gently asked, instead of leaving things there, then perhaps the situation would have changed...
yet i know that all things are still under God's control.
just something for me to learn i guess. to clarify, encourage, ask about it.. when i discern something that may not be right. be it whether it's from our leaders, or from just anyone of us.

Today is light headed day.
Was watching dgrayman.. think something they shared struck me. like how sometimes we complain 'cos of the things we experience, the many things we need to do.. and at times like these, we may complain, and become careless with our words.. saying things such as
'I wish I can die..'
'If I can sleep now, I don't mind sleeping forever..'
(Tapp in the anime said this)
But when we're really faced with death, and realized that life on this earth becomes out of our grasp, then our perspective towards these things will probably change..
Tapp changed his line..
it became
'If I can live now, I don't mind overworking for the rest of my life..'
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I like my laptop =] Have not explored all the features as of yet.. but it's been quite fun to have it =]
having orientation on the 1 April.. my whole class has 20 people (only 20 emails in the mailing list).. hehe. and half of them are guys (can tell by the name...). I think there's a mother in the class. lol. can't wait to see what my classmates are like!

I've finished playing Dirty Split yesterday. Not bad, considering that it's a free game. hahaa. They've got good graphics.
You can read the 'review' here. The game can be downloaded at the same place. To save the game, you'll have to press ESC. hahaa.

I was quite delighted when my upper right wisdom tooth started to grow.
Not so delighted when my lower right started to grow though O.o
It was uncomfortable at first.. and I thought it'll emerge.. but it's not emerged yet.. and it's causing quite great pain when I try to bite continuously on the right side. then I have to stop eating for a while 'cos of the pain.
=(
so sad.
I was thinking maybe I'll be able to have all my wisdom teeth.. but i think i may have to go pull them out soon.
I'm scared of pain!
actually i'm not la. just don't like pain in areas that don't usually have pain (e.g. my mouth. lol)

I think one of the possible reasons why I have encounters with so many interesting things.. was probably to prepare my heart for the people and interesting encounters i'll have in ministry ba.
i'm still trying to figure out if i'm growing numb to it, or if i've learned to be not so shocked by it.
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I used to struggle with homosexuality =] lol.
i don't now. haha.
but it didn't take one yr to go away.
it took ard 3 yrs or so (of course there've been breakthroughs along the way.. including realization of my own make-up, why i may struggle with it, backload)...
and i have a few friends who are in same-gender relationships as well.
and when i see them, i know it's wrong, but in my heart, all i wanna tell them is that i understand. that i still love them as my friends. that though i hate the sin in them, they're still dear to me.
they're still my friends.

I've bought my laptop! =D
Lenovo Ideapad Y430. hehehe. 4GB ram. 320Gb HDD.
yay =D for more specifications, go look online for it yourself. heheh.
Okay. to save you the trouble:
It features:

* Intel Core 2 Duo 2.26GHz Processor
* Intel P45 Motherboard chipset
* 2GB RAM
* 250GB Hard Disk
* 5-in-one card reader
* DVD writer
* Ethernet 10/100, Bluetooth,Modem,Wi-Fi a/b/g/n
* Nvidia GeForce 9300M (256MB) graphics card
* 6-cell Lithium Ion battery
* 2.4 kg weight (but it feels a little heavier than my previous laptop.. a little bulkier too)

I tried playing a game on it. Not bad! haha!
And it has face recognition. so that was quite funny. haha.
heh.
Bought it at $1549 (price given in the pamphlet at IT fair).. but had free carry case, free thumbdrive (4Gb), free USB charged portable speakers (thanks to nicholas for helping me bargain.. haha), free CD case (which i doubt i'll use O.o) and free harddisk drive (160GB - which i suspect is given wrongly. haha.)
So i think i've got a pretty good bargain! hahaha.
yay =D

Songs from D Grayman..

Musician (Allen's song in the secret room of the ark)

Tsunaida te ni Kiss wo (Musician) - Sanae Kobayashi

Lala's lullaby.. dunno from where. lol

Lalas Lullaby - Wada Kaoru

Lacrimosa dies illa
Qua resurget ex favilla
Judicandus homo reus.
Huic egro parce,Deus
Pie Jesu Domine

Judicandus homo reus.
Huic ergo parce,Deus
Pie Jesu Domine

Requiem day that
on which will arise from the burning coals
man accused to be judged.
therefore, O God, do Thou spare him,
faithful Lord Jesus,
grant them rest. Amen

At first it was 1am.
and i was like O.o
now it's 11pm!
hahaha. faint.
The time that I start to feel tired gets earlier and earlier.
oh dear.
i'm getting old o.O

With regards to the David case...
I've been reading through a few websites (including the original straits time articles) 'cos there have been quite an amount of speculation as to whether he really committed suicide, as well as contradictions between the information given and information found out later (e.g. no wounds on wrist). So now there's a small hoo-haa going on.. the 2nd death case found in ntu didn't help either. lol.
here are two websites which summarized the speculations...
http://leapon.net/en/curious-case-david-widjaja
http://justlimz.blogspot.com/2009/03/david-case-high-profile-crime-not.html

interesting.

The world needed something new to distract them...
So they made the petaminx.
Without realizing that some time ago, the teraminx has already been created.

another thought struck me.
a simple reminder.
as believers, we know we have the freedom in many aspects.
such as the freedom of speech.
but if that freedom of speech causes people to fall away, or to be stumbled, or to be hurt, then it would probably be more cautious not to exercise it.
i was quite tempted to grumble about a particular situation in my life which has been bothering me (just that silently and in the background) for a short period of time.
which i have the right to grumble in.
but might not be beneficial or helpful, and it's just senseless griping,
so yes, self control.
hahaha.

lol.
i fell asleep just now =] hhahaha.
and woke up at 4+ am =\
sorry to those pple who tried to talk to me on msn.
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recently, i was just thinking more about the thing about expectations (with the background of some things i've learned about it along the way, either from people or own experience)
when we have expectations of people which we do not convey, it usually results in disappointment.. 'cos the person doesn't fit the kind of mould (be it flexible or not) which we thought the person will fit.
not that we definitely have to meet the expectations of the person.
but i think sometimes it's good to evaluate ourselves when other people seem to have expectations of us, which we don't feel like it's in our position to meet, or when we ourselves know we should be meeting that expectation, but are not meeting them.
to evaluate to see if we've been conveying wrong messages along the way (which lead to this kind of expectation), if there is a need to reconvey certain expectations and talk it out... and also to evaluate to see if we need to grow to meet that expectations (kinda like a parent expecting a teenager to be more independent, but the teenager may still act like a child). sometimes we may not want to meet that expectation probably 'cos it may be a tougher way out than to just fail the expectations that await us.
there may also be times when people break expectations for good reasons (e.g. giving the person who's expecting a chance to grow, restore a more balanced expectation from that person).
i think it's an interesting thing. lol.

Came to my rescue (Acoustic) - Hillsong

Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek your face
Lord all I am is yours

My whole life
I place in your hands
God of Mercy
Humbled I bow down
In your presence at your throne

I called you answered
And you came to my rescue and I
I wanna be where you are

In my life be lifted high
In our world be lifted high
In our love be lifted high

Human beings are so selfish. I know. I'm a human being.
We think about ourselves most of the time. Sometimes we grumble because circumstances don't go our way, sometimes we do things out of selfish motivations.
But a lot of things don't matter anymore when things around you start to change.
When you have a personal friend die, a lot of things don't matter anymore.
It's suddenly so precious to know that God is real. To know that one day you'll see that friend again.
When you have a close friend is hurting and struggling, a lot of things don't matter anymore.
All your heart yearns to know is that God heals, God restores. All you hope is to see the person around.
When all you can do is to pray, that's all we do.
A lot of peripheral things we busy ourselves with don't matter anymore, when the harshness and reality of life is presented stark naked before our eyes.

I found old photos in this old comp! =D

--> counter ministry when timothy was still leading it :)

--> my first followupper and shepherd!

--> sengkim and tom doing dunno what o.O

--> long time ago in Bethlehem

--> dunno where this came from! hahahahaha.

Contemplated posting unglam photo of jiali here.. but decided against it.

--> can u make out who it is?=)

I watched Kungfu Chefs on Monday with my family.
It was boring o.o
Halfway through the show I was wondering why I'm spending money on the show. lol.
The start of the movie was not too bad. It was pretty amazing. Apparently the rest of the show didn't live up to its opening.
The show started to get cheesy when vanness appeared. lol. I mean seriously speaking, I am not interested in half-hearted, half developed plot lines that make no sense whatsoever, nor am I interested in a full dunno-how-many-minutes stupid fighting sequence between the girl vanness likes and him against some bad guys just to show them laughing together in the end (ironically, the same girl who could fight in this scene can't even struggle out of two guys' grasp in one of the later ones). The love story (or the hint of it) seems more like a fling and some of the side characters are so side-character-ish, they can probably be cast aside without punching any hole into the feel of the movie.
I guess the redeeming parts of the movie come in the form of the Sammo Hung and food. hahaha. Sammo Hung was good. At least his martial arts looked real (unlike Vanness', which looked really rehearsed) and his acting was not bad (much better than everyone else's anyway). hahaha.
Food was good too (but then again, food is often good :D). The intriguing ways in which different types of food are prepared, and the skill in which food is prepared is kinda mesmerizing =)
So yeah, don't bother to go and watch it. Unless you wanna sit through a movie which tastes as good as plain water when you're bloated =)

Devotion (Acoustic) - Hillsong

Lyrics | Hillsong United lyrics - Devotion lyrics