gosh. today has been an unexpected day. hahaha.
just received smses from two people i don't expect to receive smses from at all. one is genevieve..this girl from chij punggol (lady of our nativity) whom i was tutoring in (yes. in all subjects...) maths last december:) i kinda became like her nanny.. play with her, eat with her, walk her home..haha.
then the second person's mun bbill. hahha. i wasn't just surprised, i was.. pleasantly surprised. hahaha. okay. just a diff in the words used:)
studied with joycelyn today. hehee. so funny. got to listen to the songs which sengkim burnt for us:) saturation kinetics like to set in after a few hours of studying. how absolutely disastrous. oh. there were two frens of joycelyn whom we met. there were super lame! gosh. nearly couldn't stand it at first. haha. but quite interesting in the end. i call them the yellow sisters:)
hmm. what's up with all the sec 4 pple. my sister's still studying away. joycelyn and alvin are both too excited to sleep. like huh? paper tmr!
oh. wait. my sister doesn't have any papers tmr. oops.
speaking of papers. i've decided to go for the mock paper mr ho is setting tmr. oh dear. and i haven't touched maths for like. one ENTIRE WEEK? oh dear.

i've gotta stop the bad habit of sleeping at 4.45am every morning. gosh. keeps losing track of time.
so many decisions to be made in the next few months require planning at this moment. so interesting. hahaha.
by the way, for those who haven't had the chance to try it. taking a stroll around at 2am is rather invigorating.
-as i breathe in the breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire-
of course, if you intend to try that. don't walk around alone. do drag out your sister or brother to go with you. night air makes for excellant company in another. the silence that abounds is more than often filled with cheery talk and joyful laughter.
what an interesting sound the word abound makes.
'where sin abounded, grace did much more abound'

hehe. i'm delighted with bio. believe it or not, my knowledge of biological molecules were kept at a minimal until these two days! wow.
yeah:)
haha. i can't wait for uni. then i can take lit again. yeah! was looking through merchant of venice... bassanio and antonio and shylock and 'in soothe i know not why i am so sad'! hahaha.
yeah well.
-yeah yeah yeah-
hahaha. jiali danced for service today. intriguing.
oh! and sengkim burned a cd for everyone to encourage them for exams! hahaha. lots of songs inside. just tt i can't listen to them:D *grInz* how fun.

from mingxiu and carrie:)

*~A Student’s Prayer~*

Lord, grant me a quiet heart,
before exams start.
Lead me to use my leisure hours,
to invigorate my powers.
My mind from daydreams liberate,
give me the will to concentrate.
From all distractions set me free;
that in my studies I may be
a student with a sole fulfilment,
to make my work a sacrament.
From my faint heart in love expel,
all failures fears that therein dwell.
And from my pillow drive away,
all dark foreboding of the day.
Help me in faith to rest so deep,
that I may have untroubled sleep.
While notes and lectures I prepare,
may I not lost my zest for prayer.
And may I not forget to look,
for guidance in Thy Book.
And may I ever grateful be,
to all who daily pray for me.
While for myself I intercede,
for other students too I plead;
so may exams find
each one alert in heart and mind.
Thus inward joy and peace possessing,
May exams prove a source of blessing.
Amen.

gosh.
the world is so messy these days.
anyway.
it really was a double titration.
gosh.
and i was hoping that it wasn't.
so that at least i can continue to trust in the honesty of the teachers in other jcs.
apparently not.
it is a double titration:P
guess bio prac must have been unfair too.

thank God i dun have chem prac tmr. feeling a little under-the-weather.
oh! i wanna commend the transitlink office:D hahaha. they're very nice pple. 'cos i was on 26 and i was feeling a little yah... feverish so i decided to sleep on the bus. then... i didn't realise that my wallet has slipped down the side into the small crack by the seat...hehe. got off the bus, couldn't find it and i was like 'gosh. dun tell me i lost my wallet too.' hahaha..then i decided to ask if i can go up to 26 to check again 'cos i had a sneaking suspicion that i left it on the bus. hehe. they were like 'okay! let's quickly go up the bus to check before the bus goes off again'...:D thank God for the pple in the transitlink office. hehe.
so intriguing. a brother called jimmy came for cg today. hahaa. he's very open about his life.
so strange. jiali was like leading most of the roles today. hahaa. quite funny. spread out amongst her, joce and jingting i guess. xin ku ta men le.
restructuring again. a minor one. i keep forgetting that we're the central east cg:P hahahaa. so blur. so now instead of being with the rest of the vj and tj pple, me, jits, joycelyn and michael will be in one cg. gosh. the study caregroup!
-Your hand lifted me up, i stand on higher ground
Your love opened my heart, and made this valley sing
You have turned my mourning into dancing
You have turned my sorrow into joy-
hoho. studying is so tiring. but i found good books in the library:) when econs get indigestible, bio makes studying palatable once more!
-i'll give You praise for You deserve it
i'll give You praise for what You've done
i'll give You praise for You are able
i'll give You praise till i overcome

i'll give You praise when the sun is shining
i'll give You praise in the dark of night
i'll give You praise when the battle rages
i'll give You praise till it works out right!-

let me share something joyful:)
i jumped by 2 grades for maths mock paper! hahaa. still not very good. but it's the first time my grades ever jumped:P God is good!

ooooh. nice lyrics are back:) there's a review on darren's new album and they said it's the most exciting yet. except for the song 'popular'...look at this:) i've never heard the song before but read it out and feel the beat!
'I've got a burning desire
It feels like a fire burning deep in my soul
You know its out of control
I feel the temperature rising
I think I'm capsizing
Going out of my brain
I think I'm going insane

I wanna be the crick in your neck, trip in your step
Face in the crowd that you never forget
You're never gonna get rid of me
Have to be removed forcibly
I made it my mission tonight
Scoping your vibe
Getting some digits in the 4 1 5
Don't want someone to make love to me
I Just friends and then well see

Right Dead Back On It
I know where you belong
And you just keep me holding on
Right Dead Back On It
I'm feeling you so strong
So tell me how could this be wrong

Just go to work on me...
I'll go to work on you...

Definitely I feel attraction
Chemical reaction
But how many times have i been fed this kind of lie
You need a certain kind of man
You need to have the upper hand
I do not think they understand
I am not through with my demands

I need personality please
Intellectual breeze
Ease of conversation, not a sexual tease
Somebody devoted to me
Stacked with sincerity
But you dont know me
But i know it feels
Take a chance on something baby
Show me how you feel'

hahaha:) oh. and look at these lyrics in 'void' ...
-Just like a spinal chord
Severed and broken but the spark still tries-

and these lyrics sound like they'll sound quite nice:D
-Waking up from a coma (tossing, turning)
Sweat has covered my body (my mouth felt dry)
My life flashing before me (nothing much to say)
Still it was so boring (did you hear me sing?)
Only I could adore you (the wind through the trees)
Silently barking orders (rushing up to me)
This is only beginning (don't anger the sea)
Oh, the wave's crashing higher and higher on me-

oh. and these lyrics sound so disastrous:
-Cynical, jaded, faithless, disappointed, disillusioned, used
If I could take back all my sweat, my tears, my sex, my joy I would
My time, my love, my effort, passion, dedication
In case of mistaken identity I gave these things to you
If I sound angry, bitter, sad, infatuated, it's the truth
Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, just a few
Stages of acceptance that it's really over
It's just so complicated and I'm stupid for believing in you-

ah well. wanna contrast two songs here:) so here goes:) both by darren as well:)
'darkness' - Darren Hayes

Been spending so much time underground
I guess my eyes adjusted
To the lack of light
I got
Covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

I have been waiting
Always waiting for something new
Happiness has always ended
In the blink of an eye
There was no one attending
No one attending

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I got covered in darkness
Covered in darkness
Ever wonder why I never really truly connect
Although my eyes are open
I can hold your gaze
But I am never connected
Never connected

I am famous for my generosity
They say I am the kindest
But it is easier to
Give than receive love
Give than receive love

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I was covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

Turning pages over
Run away to nowhere
And it's hard to take control
When your enemy's old and afraid of you
You'll discover that the monster you were running from
Is the monster in you

Better to hold on to love
Better to hold on to love
Change will come

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I was covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

It doesn't really matter where it all began
Cuz all I know
I was lost
I was lost
No, no

It doesn't really matter where it all began no no
All I know
I was lost
I feel lost
Lost
No...

and the contrast...

'Light'--- Darren Hayes

The light, it flickers
Your light, travelling down so deep
Illumination

I have been cold, I have been blind
You have come to change my mind
I can put my faith in you

The light, it blisters
Your light, coming down so bright
Transformation
Turn it up, give me some room to grow
Turn it up, give me that sense to know

I have been cold, I have been blind
You were sent to change my mind
I can put my faith in you

For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I trust, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, in you

The light, it glitters
Your light, when I stand this close
It's almost blinding
Turn it up, give me some room to grow
Turn it up, give me the sense to know

I have been changed, I have become
I have flamed under the sun
I'm the reflection of you

For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I trust, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, in you
In you, you, you

For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I just, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, you, you

It flickers
It blisters
It glitters

In you, in you
In you, you, you
You are

ooh. what a shocking night. hahaha. was browsing through bAa's blog (my bball buddy in nyj!) and got a few shocks of my life:P
anyway, here's what i got from her blog:)
'What life skills are you trying to teach to your players. Below are somepositive messages that I try to teach and emphasize to my players.
1. Make Christ and His teachings the foundation for your life. Your goal is tolive a Christ-centered balanced life.
2. Act like a Winner. I can't stress enough the importance of handling yourselfat all times with class and integrity, especially in the tough times that truly test everyone and usually bring out our worst instincts.
3. Always be positive. Positive people can take on the world.
4. Be committed to hard work. Hard work is not always fun, but it's the priceyou must pay to be more successful. The harder you work, the tougher it is to surrender. 5. Be nice. Treat others the way you would like to be treated.
6. Avoid having to be right all the time. Your goal is to connect with people, not defeat.
7. Be committed to doing things the right way. Remember that perfect practice makes perfect.
8. Smile! In every culture it is the light in your window that tells people there's a caring, sharing individual inside.
9. Learn to stay relaxed and friendly no matter how much tension you're under.
10. Write down your goals and review them often. When you fail to plan, you are planning to fail by default.
11. Focus all your attention and energy on the achievement of your goals.
12. Don't put things off. Get in the habit every day of doing the more unpleasant things first... If you tell someone you're going to do something,then do it.
13. Eliminate the word quit from your vocabulary. If you want to be successful over the long haul, you must be willing to stay the course... People, who won't quit, don't.
14. Learn from your mistakes. There are four things you should do with a mistake: 1) recognize it, 2) admit it, 3) learn from it, 4) forget it.
15. Be able to admit your weaknesses and establish short-term goals to overcome them.
16. Dress and look your best at all times.
17. Respond with a simple, courteous "thank you" when anyone pays you a compliment for any reason.
18. Sit up front in the most prominent rows when you attend class, meetings, etc.
19. Replace the word "can't" with "can," and "try" with "will" in your vocabulary.
20. Be on time. Always try to be at least ten minutes early.
21. Thrive on pressure. The more you prepare the better able you are to handle pressurized situations. Pressure often brings out extraordinary results.
22. Develop a study routine. Discipline yourself to study 1 to 2 hours a night.Your grades/ performance reflect the amount of time you are willing to invest.
23. Stay humble. Respect and recognition comes from personal sacrifice, hardwork, and the grace of God.

haha. look what i saw:P
'Besides MOE has admitted that GEP's main purpose is eugenics - getting us to marry each other is their goal. Please counter this evil plan by marrying the most retarded person you know. Thank you.'
lala.
'eugenics n [sing v] science of the production of healthy intelligent children with the aim of improving the human genetic stock.
great. just what we need. A breeding plan.'
more comments:
'And about the GEP eugenics thingy, YES... its evil machinations must be exposed and
halted, before it is too late...! I can only say "The meek shall inherit the earth".'
yesh!

There's a lighthouse on the hillside that overlooks life's sea.
When I'm tossed it sends out a light that I might see.
And the light that shines in darkness now will safely lead me home,
If it wasn't for the lighthouse, my ship would sail no more.

And I thank God for The Lighthouse, I owe my life to Him.
Jesus is The Lighthouse and from the rocks of sin
He has shown the light around me, so that I might clearly see.
If it wasn't for The Lighthouse, Where would this ship be?

:)

i love the way You love me how You turned my life around
set my feet to dancing it's in You that i have found
a ???? .......of wondrous love
i love the way You love me!:D

heh. drinking JJ's Hawton drink now (san1 cha1 shui3)..tastes horrendous. hahaha:D quite disgusting. and it's a product of singapore! gosh. if all the companies in singapore try to be unique and produce drinks like that...i have a feeling that our bop deficit will get even worse. hahah:D
a very distracting day today. hahaha. had jits and joycelyn over to my house downstairs study room to study but well...i think it's quite a disastrous combination to put the three of us together. coupled with the fact that it's an afternoon! i can't study well in afternoons! makes me sleep! hahahaa. but evening came and jitsy went and it got much better. hahaha:)
gosh. joce just asked me a respiration qn. which reminds me. i can't remember anything about respiration! disastrous. hahaha:D
there were three girls in the study room imitating someone else and pretending to be really depressed over something when they weren't:P so naughty.

'bedshaped'--- keane

Many's the time I ran with you down
The rainy roads of your old town
Many the lives we lived in each day
And buried altogether
Don't laugh at me
Don't look away

You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

I know you think I'm holding you down
And I've fallen by the wayside now
And I don't understand the same things as you
But I do

Don't laugh at me
Don't look away

You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

very inspired by today's stewardship teaching...and fired up 'cos of pastor jeff's teaching. and God really probed in my heart an area which i have been holding on to far too much:P my computer time.
it was a great time just praising, worshipping and adoring the Lord today. just Him being the -centre of our focus-!:D hahaha.
-You're my rock yeahyeah
You're my refuge
You're my hope yeahyeah
and my future-
really wanna mean what i sing
-as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord i offer You my life-

what am i doing being awake at such an hour? all thanks to the dear adorable resident mosquito:P
trying to justify why mosquitoes are on earth. here are a few reasons:
1) to provide as a food source for lizards (either in the house or in the wild ---not that there's much 'wild' in singapore to talk about:D)
2) to act as an alternative source of blood transfusion. or plasma transfusion. or goodness knows what kinda transfusion
3) to spur us on to think creatively (eg. thinking of why they exist)
yeah:D
let me try to go back and sleep. zZz.

maia got out? O_o

"For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me..." (the Apostle Paul in Philippians 1:21-22, niv).

Several years ago one grandmother I know sold off the old family home, pulled up her roots, left many of her friends and activities behind, and moved to a retirement village in another town. She had been healthy and energetic all her life, but in the last year after her move she aged considerably and developed a terminal illness.

At age 65 another friend of mine retired from being a full-time minister of a large church and set up a full-time counseling center and wrote his first book. His book became a bestseller and he has since written ten more. At age 80 he had slowed down but was still counseling and writing.

What made the difference between these two people? Like many elderly people who retire or move to another place, the first person suffered deeply from the loss of friends, her home of many years, and the activities she was used to. She became lonely and life for her seemed to lose its meaning. She had no real purpose to carry her through this time of major change and readjustment.

The second person, however, had something to live for long before his retirement. He just continued it after "retirement."

Loneliness, emptiness, and boredom are all a very real part of modern man's dilemma. They are indicative of our failure to find meaning and purpose for living and they show up in the high divorce rate, the alarming abuse of alcohol and other drugs, and in the high depression and suicide rate.

In America, for example, the most affluent country on earth, some 40,000 people take their own lives each year while it is estimated that ten times that number attempt
to. That means in our country one person out of every 6,000 commits suicide each year. And there are countless others who, while living in the midst of abundance, to quote Henry D. Thoreau, live lives of "quiet desperation."

The tragedy in life, however, is not death, but rather, as Albert Schweitzer once said, "what dies inside a man while he lives." A person dies inside when he has no meaningful purpose outside of himself for which to live."

"Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might" (Ecclesiastes 9:10, niv).

It is purpose--not wealth or success--that makes life worthwhile. Purpose makes even drudgery acceptable and is an immunization against many sicknesses. How then can we
find more meaning and purpose to life? The following tips can help:

Getting out of yourself. Another grandmother I know had a large family to bring up and was widowed rather reasonably early in life. She had her share of heartaches but never allowed these to get her down. She lived a full and active life and had a wonderful gift for passing on cheer to those around her. Her secret was helping other people. She was an active member of her church and had a deep conviction that
one of the basic purposes of the church was to help people less fortunate than herself.

No matter how busy we are or how many problems we have, we can all find little ways to bring cheer to those around us--like bringing home a rose for your wife, a special
treat for the children, a favor for a neighbor. Visit someone who is shut-in. Write a note, use your telephone, or send an email to tell a friend you appreciate him or
her. Words of encouragement and acts of kindness do wonders for both the giver and the receiver.

A vital part of finding happiness and contentment is found in discovering something more important than yourself to believe in, by helping others, and by directing your
thoughts and actions towards them. Egotists are seldom happy.

Love and friendship are also essential for giving life meaning and purpose. Without wholesome relationships, which give us a sense of belonging, we live as islands alone in a very large universe.

So take time for friends. They are a priceless asset in life. "Do you want to make friends?" asks Dale Carnegie, who gives the following advice. "Be friendly. Forget
yourself. You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you."

And remember, as another has said, "the person all wrapped up in himself makes a mighty small package."

"Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" (Isaiah 40:31, niv).

Another way for enriching your personal life is by investing your life in a worthwhile cause. Everybody needs something to live for that is bigger than him or herself--a noble or worthwhile cause into which he can put his best efforts.

A few years ago I was going through a particularly difficult time. Had it not been for both my work and an outside project, I'm sure I would have cracked under the
strain. My work is helping people discover broader personal and spiritual values and my outside project was building my own home--both worthwhile causes.

A creative use of one's talents is also essential for giving meaning to life. God gave us all talents to use. When we aren't using them, we feel unfulfilled.
One man I know was very successful in his work but he was feeling very unfulfilled in it. He felt his job was too small and that he wasn't using his best talents. So he took the risk, quit his job and went back to college to train for the work he really wanted to do. He struggled for several years but today he has built a work that is helping many people and this has greatly enhanced his purpose for living.

This is why I believe it is important to discover what your best talent is (or talents are), get the training you need to sharpen that talent, and find a place where you can use it--either in your job, in a hobby, in your church, or with a volunteer organization. God's purpose for your life will definitely involve the use of your gifts and talents in ways to help others.

Faith, hope, and charity. The poet Goethe lists nine requisites for meaningful living. They are as follows: "Health enough to make work a pleasure. Wealth enough to
support your needs. Strength enough to battle with difficulties and overcome them. Grace enough to confess your sins and forsake them. Patience enough to toil until
some good is accomplished. Charity enough to see some good in your neighbor. Love enough to move you to be useful and helpful to others. Faith enough to make real the things of God. Hope enough to remove all anxious fears concerning the future."

There is, I am sure, no greater way to increase your hope for the future and enrich your personal life than by learning to love others more fully, by developing a vital
faith in God, and discovering and fulfilling your God-given life purpose. Why not tell God right now that you want to do that and confirm your decision by becoming more involved as a volunteer in community service, a mission organization, and/or in your church or chapel. If you are not involved in a local church, ask God to help you find the church that is right for you.

yet another one:

this is my pink piggy staring up. sitting on the table........

this is what happens when you take a break from reading former bio practicals and suddenly glance upon the tigger on your desk:D


and upon adding a background...



here's another:

I am truly passionate.

Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.

my kitchen currently has no cupboards:D it has no plate, no spoons, no detergent. it has only one sink, one mirror and one refrigerator. hahaha:D and once again, my living quarters is confined to my dear adorable messy room:D and my desk has no light. hahahha.

just came back home. hahaha. what a tiring day:)
was on the bus with grace on the way home...with another of her band friend. corny pple! nice talking to grace 'cos haven't talked to her for some time. hahaa. she's funny. cracks me up. i was asking her how melody is...and then she was like sharing about how melody is staying in the same hostel house with some singaporeans (she's in australia now...) and the singaporeans are like...really pampered at home. haha. so there was this girl, she was trying to cook an egg, she switched on the stove, put on the pan and cracked the egg. what's missing? the fire! and she insists that gas can cook an egg.
and another girl, she came home and then she was like 'why's there so much gas? who's trying to kill us? who? who??!'
i was like. oh gosh! hahaha. it's quite amusing the way she narrates it. and her band friend stays at bukit timah. i didn't know..so i asked him where he stays. and he was like 'very near toa payoh' and i was like 'wherE?' and he said 'bukit timah..very near. just across the road.' and then i was like 'across the road?' and he says 'yah. PIE':P
oh! and david yeo stays at the unit beneath grace...and sylvester used to go to david's house and they'll sing the whole block off. hahaha:D
and of course. we both agree that jeassea is good. *nods to self*
anyway. i feel so bad! hahaha. i borrowed jiali's maths promos paper to practice...and i couldn't find it this morning to return to her! hahaha. and in using up the time to find it, i was still stuck at home at 8am. hahaa. and i was supposed to meet mr chan at 8.30am. hahaha. changed the appointment to 9.30am. then i missed the bus... and reached school only at... 9.50am 'cos i thought i could take the dustbin way but it was locked. hahaha:D
oh! writing an econs essay in merely 35 mins can get you 16 marks! but mr chan says my macro essays seem to have the points...but is not direct enough. like i have the points but it's kinda faint, there but not there, enough to get me through but not a good grade. gotta improve!
and then there was bio. bio was good. refreshed my memory. hahaa. combination of august cum mrs teo cracks me up too. and then i decided to sit in for gp 'cos i tend to remember what i hear better. yeah. got mr lee to evaluate my essay too:P he says that i should be chewing an a grade by now. but 'cos i'm very naughty. never follow what he says in class. thus my scope and balance still needs practice. ah well. i realise i tend to be micro, not really macro. which is BAD. with a huge capital B! italicized and bold. with flashing neon lights around it.
anyway. it's quite tiring 'cos econs was 30mins (to get mr chan to discuss and mark my essays!), bio was 2 hours and gp was another 2. gosh. my brain. hahaha. saturation kinetics.

just came back from my 7-11 trip:D to get mashed potato and 100-plus and pretzel bits and mashed potato again and coffee. to keep me up to finish up my 2 econs essay and maybe study even more! hahahaha. saw yewluck...heh. he said hello before i even realised he was there. strange. 'cos in school we dun say hi to each other. hahaa. i asked him if he was studying till so late. he said he just came back home. hohoho.
out of impulse and curiosity, i went to http://xiaxue.blogspot.com and nearly fainted. it was worse than mr lee seemed to have described. haha. dun go. she'll just remind you of the queen in snow-white and the seven dwalves.
neighbours came to my house just now to look at the finished toilet. house felt like it's under display. hahaha:D

Mayonnaise Jar and Coffee

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full.
They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded with a unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided,I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things - God, your family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions - things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house,your car. The sand is everything else - the small stuff."
If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room >for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you."
"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18 holes once in a while. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first -the things that really matter."
"Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked," he said. "It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a cup of coffee with a
friend."

cat's sleeping in my room right now...hehehe. bathroom and toilet are done! yeah:D finally! hahaha. still no lights nor heater though:) and still no kitchen:D hahaha:D it's like the only purpose for the kitchen is to bathe and go to the toilet.
was on the bus when i saw vj girls and one of the girls was sitting in a very odd manner and when she opens her mouth, gosh. lots of. hmm. dirt. pretty girls with a foul mouth turn pple off. it's like polluting the language itself. it's already bad enough that we don't really have a strong command of how the language goes (which is really quite sad. hahaha:D but i guess it can't really be helped. i would love to learn more about different languages)...but to actually further destroy it. sigh. and it doesn't even sound nice:P it's like adding dirt to a beautiful piece of art.

heh. we came to the end of the Acts series yesterday!:D sparked off a lot of thinking. the race. really hope to see everyone ending the race together too:) that we can say for certain that we WILL see each other for eternity. that truly, a friend's a friend forever if the Lord's the Lord of them. race on. for no obstacle is too great when Jesus is with you.
studied with joycelyn today. think i'm very distracting. hahaha. forgot to bring my dear adorable econs tys so can't do my econs essay. did maths and bio:) can't wait for maths session with mr ho to clear up complex numbers and stats. wrote a lot of nonsense/non-nonsense on joycelyn's paper. upside down. my upside down handwriting is really improving.
the cat which keeps coming to my house for food and shelter is VERY NAUGHTY. she was in the house, then i was patting her. then i saw a flicker of shadow going past the door and i was like 'eh? what's tt?' then i saw ANOTHER CAT (black and white) outside the door. gosh. then the cat which keeps coming to my house saw and ran outside to scratch tt cat. so bad! cat fight:P had to really restrain the cat which keeps coming to my house. and she was growling away. naughty cat.
i really like my new windows. dun have to open them to see the scenery outside:) silent barrier.

this is my class:D

this is from mr ho. hahaha. hohoho merry christmas:D encouraging?:)

'hmmm, can't remember if i said this... BUT, yes, it's good to try your best for A level preparation. Many of you are also gearing towards an A for Math. Good! BUT, fact of life is, not all of you will get A's. So be realistic. Don't be disappointed too if that happens to you. 5 years down the road, who cares what your results are. Believe me when I say that while I may be disappointed FOR you, I will NOT be disappointed WITH you. Ok? 'cos now and then I will have students coming forward (esp during release of A level results) to 'apologise' for 'disappointing' me. ??? All of you are individuals and results don't say much about u.'

yeah! i'm back home!:D hahahaha. how fun:D hahaha. i have my own room back! okay. and new windows:D *peers at windows* new restructure room after As. that's good.
farewell assembly yesterday! another 2 years gone, just like that. wow. i thought i'll never see this day, but it has already come and go. quite an amusing presentation put up by the fac caps and the bands and anu and his friend. haha. and draco is the champion house of the year! hahaha. my class is extra proud 'cos we're supposed to be a strong class:D hahaha.
mass dance was a little disappointing 'cos they didn't start with whiney whiney. whiney whiney brings everyone together..ah well. and they didn't have neutron dance...so sad. hahaha. we were hoping to dance our hearts out for the last time but ah well.
mr chan was very funny during the ct session. he was like 'must look at all of you one more time' haha. and then he went 'i won't miss you all now. i'll miss you all when you're gone.' awww. he says we're the naughtiest class he's had. then said something about how he used to envy those teachers who teach S1 classes 'cos apparently they're all very guai and how apparently econs with bio is a different matter. hahaha. subversive elements, niece, nonsense and all, i think he'll still miss our class:P hahaa.
took lots of photos with everyone around. heh. junior class was quite sweet, bought us cake. coffee cake:P i have no comments on their choice of cake. but nevertheless, the cake looked well decorated.
i'm starting to miss jc life already. hahahahaha. it really felt like a shotgun relationship with the school or something. gosh. feelings can of course, be deceiving too:)
the j1s this year are SO DIFFERENT from us. gosh. dunno how to comment on it. wonder what vj will become. and this year's sec 4s are... well. dunno what to say also. wonder why the feel differs from year to year. siao, sien, sian and slack really describe my batch really well:P

very interesting. i'm quite confused about a lot of things right now. hahahha. the telephone game is going on.
anyway, borrowed sloman and this apparently very good bio textbook. since i'm deprived of my dear adorable notes, i figured this is the best way to get some studying done while i'm in my aunt's house with its conducive studying environment. i wonder if i've typed this out before, but there was a quote at the back of the door of the room i'm staying in now which says 'the ability to discipline yourself to delay gratification in the short term in order to enjoy greater rewards in the long term, is the indispensible prerequisite for success.'
yeah:D
zara was telling us about how her friend is engaged and getting married next yr in tues and it's an arranged engagement and even though the guy is 20 and is a businessman and is quite good looking, her friend was crying everyday 'cos she didn't want to get married. and lubna is getting engaged next year and how it's supposed to be this year but she rejected all the offers of proposal. gosh. how scary. i'm glad i'm not from some wealthy family in india or pakistan or iran or something.like. what? u get married now? so many more things to do:P yeah well. poor girl.
-yeah thunder only happens when it's raining
players only love you when they're playing
women, they will come and they will go
when the rain washes you clean you'll know
you'll know-

at home now!
i'm missing my home. hahaha. or rather the convenience of my home. had to come back everyday to get worksheets i need.
buying food has turned from something adventurous, to quite a burden. gotta think of what food to eat, what foods not to eat...it's still all about the balance. hahaha:D which means... conscious taking in of more vegetables and fruits! a horror to some people:D
it's really true. when you have more freedom, you'll tend to set the rules yourself. lord of the flies. how to survive with no rules??? my life will go absolutely haywire:)
colour scheme for this sat is orange! yeah! hahaha.
but i really wanna thank God for my aunt. heh. really ah. if it's not for her house, my sister and i would have to stay in a hotel room for one whole week. or rather 10 days. hahahaha. sounds so cool right. i stay in a hotel;)
ohhhhhhhhhhhh
tummyache. time to go aunt's house.

we just had a 2 hour maths session with mr ho. quite funny. mr ho's in a good mood. he went 'e^2, e^2' to us and then went 'quickly. i'm so bored i'm rocking to entertain myself' quite funny.
was doing complex numbers. disastrous. hahaha:D
yeah well. stayed over at my aunt's house yesterday. quite a nice room to study in and sleep. more sleeping than studying i guess. hahaha. very nice scenery 'cos she lives on the 20th floor. feels like u're in the city, yet out of the city. and cool to know that if u're hungry, the whole toa payoh central is just a walk away. there were 4 dwarf hamsters at her house. hahaha. but all of them looked a little scruffy. and they all ran away when i put my hand near the cage. how friendly:)
second day of eating outside food. this is becoming quite an adventure...searching for new foods to eat everyday, and trying to balance your meals. hahahha:)

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how disgusting. i dun like coke. and steph is still printing out stuff. and i'm falling asleep:) hehehehe:D

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hahaha! look at the line hardworking and determined! i'm determined. but i'm not so sure about hardworking;)

hmm. in school typing this out now. 'cos my whole entire room is under plastic sheets as well. hahahaha:D will be staying over at my aunt's house tonight...saw worship cds in my 2nd cousin's room:) shall steal her books to read! muahahha. oh. and she has like almost all of the channels on scv. what a temptation! hahaha. and it's in her room! where i'll be studying. oh gosh.
nahhhh. can't tempt me:P mind's in too much of a structure to watch tv continuously. my only show today is zai shen yuan. and my only show tmr night is STILL zai shen yuan. on wed night, the tv is but a black box which reflects its surroundings on its face:)

sure feels weird walking around with shoes in your own house. shall treat it as though i'm living in the hostel. how thrilling.
can't sleep:D hahaha. shall do qt:D too much sunshine today. delays my inner clock by a few hours. i dunno if that's good or bad:D hahahaha:D good i guess. more time to do more things:)
-so we cry
holy, worthy, glory, majesty,
You reign on high,
high above all the earth
You are my God
my Lord and King-

my house is in a mess. total horrendous mess which makes me feel a tad miserable. like my whole entire house is reduced to three rooms. confined space. restricted movement. having a house which doesn't feel entirely yours anymore. my poor house. and plastic sheets are all over the place. perfect setting for an old abandoned flat in a horror movie.
-there's a calf with mournful eye-
okay. 60 seconds over. hahaha:D
studied with joycelyn and her friends te se and te qin (twin sisters!) today. quite..eh. strange. 'cos dunno te se and te qin personally. but quite okay...hahaha:D lakerol --- makes people talk ;)
then both of them left...so i'm stuck with joycelyn. saw the very bored librarian who keeps walking around the library like 500-600 times throughout the day everytime we go to marine parade library to study:) think he's just bored:) seems to be quite nice with the kids. oh!!! saw a very adorable little girl today who has an eurasian look and a chinese mother. think she's got mixed blood in her:D her eyes are.. BIG AND DEEP AND SOULFUL. very enchanting lil girl.
then we moved to bk. hahaha. it was apparently the 'peak period' for toilet-going..'cos the toilets are mostly full. i found it quite amusing.
learnt how to make the star using the straws today. my second attempt at making a star without instructions was...well. hmmm. hard to handle. hahahaha:D

sometimes talking to my sister is like incurring a volcano's fury.
hmmm. was just trying to look for my physical geog book to find out what kinda volcano gives the loudest explosion when i decided to flip through mckean from sec 4 for fun and realised that mckean actually HAS jc stuff. which is kinda amusing 'cos we seemed to have learnt some stuff before but i simply can't remember:)
at this moment, i'm supposed to be on 31 on my way to marine parade lib to study..instead, i'm still happily stuck at home printing out the bio stuff needed to be done by tomorrow:) brilliant:)
anyway, i had quite a nice morning, except for the fact that the volcano erupted in my house and i got slightly burnt:P walked to the market and said hi to my parents, had a nice quiet breakfast at my own pace (gosh. haven't had tt in quite a while:D), walked around the market 'cos they just renovated the whole place, bought some stuff, can't find slippers and then walked home again. nice weather we have today:) i wish i can cycle...if i can, i'll prob be out cycling right now. wonderful weather to swim too. 'cept that the swimming pool will prob be relatively fuller than during the weekdays. which makes swimming not as enjoyable.
off to study i go!

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hehe. was on 238 with Christine from north just now.. we never saw each other in our whole entire lives before coming to Hope and we've never realised how close we live within the radius of each other till today. she lives at block 224, i live at block 228:D
hahaha. so farnie:)
had service today:D haven't seen shirley leading p&w for quite some time...haha. they put up a very nice little clip with verses incorporated into it:) quite adorable, but it got its point across:)
so fast. gosh. we're coming to the end of the Acts power for living series...so fast. hahaha. last chapter next week:) so cool. one year plus...gosh. and yeah! we're gonna be doing 'song of songs' soon:D hahaha:D the first ever book that caught my attention:)
heh. studying at starhub after service wasn't particularly effective. was quite sleepy. hehehe. tried rj bio mcq paper. horrendous. got strange terms popping up tt i didn't realise. oh gosh. can u imagine? i've also gotta do nyj's killer paper. hahaha:D
i love the night air. so cooling. smell the night air as it wafts in the window. i love the morning air too...that's why it's always so refreshing to take a nice morning walk. hahaha. and i love the sharpness of the night. clearly defined.

:)
had shepherding in the morn:) heh. quite farnie.
then went to sch and wrote an econs essay!:D quite fun to write an econs essay with the real test of time at your feet. guess having to go to school in the day is turning out to be quite good..'cos you're forced to practice during the day and this increases productivity:D hahha:D
yeah! my voice is officially back:) or have i mentioned it before? hahaa:)
i am in a studying mood. hahaha:) oh guess what?! the school library has narnia! hahaha:)
borrowed the forth and fifth book from the library. yeah:) can read during my breaks:) rest my brain:) my brain likes to auto switch itself off these days when thinking is not really necessarily. then what happens is that i go a bit nutty. hahaha:)

gee. the world is really small:)
i went to fungi's blog, then saw jo's name..then i was like. jo has a blog? then i clicked on it. and realised tt it's the wrong jo. hahaha:D then i saw panghao's name on the blog. like 'huh? how come the whole world knows my pri sch classmate? hahaha!' then from panghao's blog, i saw arya. and arya is trace's other and of course trace is my twinklebells! hahaa.
yeah well.
-now here we go again you say
you want your freedom
well who am i to keep you down
it's only right that you should play the way you feel it
and listen carefully to the sound
to the loneliness of your heartbeat
drives you mad
in the stillness of remembering what you had
and what you lost-
i'm in a song mood! caught three pple's performance on singapore idol... christopher's song was good...but his singing was terrible. say so many times already. he doesn't have the voice to carry the song through. and olinda came on and gosh! i love her performance. hahaha:D superb vocals and the song she chose makes you wanna grooooove. then sylvester. haha. his singing surprised me actually. ok. maybe i shld change my opinion of him. today's rendition was quite good too:)
yeahhhhhh.

mentally tiring day...but quite fun nevertheless. or rather, quite funny when you see a whole row of your classmates sitting behind you. hahaha:D my class is so ke lian!
i'm pleased with myself with trigo. hahaha:D very pleased:D hahaha:D okay. i sound funny being pleased with myself without saying anything. but hahaha. what can i say? i'm just pleased with trigo:D hahaha. gosh. i sound a lil mad. think the cg pple must have been wondering why i kept laughing during cg. ah well:D
and i still insist that zai shen yuan is a good show to watch:) the intricate plot...the easy to understand analogies...the link of relationships and how things link well in a complexed web:)
cat was sleeping in my house. poor cat. nowhere to sleep now that construction is everywhere. speaking of construction...i can't come home next week! hahaha. my house'll be under renovations. major renovations:P gosh. feels so odd. will be in my auntie's house most of the time. (can't go home before 6pm everyday) hahaha:D hope i dun get distracted and keep watching scv at her house. cartoons and armed reaction 4!
nah. dun think so. hahaha. this is a plea for pple to study with me next week. hahaha:D
-God is good, all the time
He puts a song of praise in this heart of mine
God is good, all the time
in the darkest nights, His light will shine
God is good, He's so good,
all the time-
i had a headache today. hahaha. then i prayed:D and the headache poofed and disappeared within a min:D enjoyed the fellowship of the brothers and sister without a headache after that:D hahaha:D thank God!

i can't wait for tmr! hahaa. first of all, there's the activity that mr leeba has promised us in place of morning assembly tmr morning. *grInz* he kept saying that we'll be VERY STRESSED for around 20 mins, but at the end of it all, we'll feel good about ourselves:) like. ehhh...what can it be? anyway, seems like only my class pple are interested enough to raise their hands and want to go, my class will prob be the only class going.
yeah:D and mrs teo bought us cornetto ice cream! hahaha. she's funny. she was like asking how much time she has left, the someone told her 2 mins...and then she said 'can i use the 2 mins to digress?' then the bell rang. hahaha. ah well. then she looked like this child who's very satisfied with herself giving a surprise to everyone (very funny!:D haahaha! mrs teo cracks me up:D) and she said she got ice cream for us. and she said since she gave it to us, we owe her something. haha. and dominique guessed about the A. 'cos the ice cream cone is V-shaped...so it's like we must have victory in the exams! and an inverted A...so it's like we all owe her an A.
hahaha:D yeah! ice cream tmr!
gosh. i was quite surprised at my bio results. thought i was dead for certain 'cos of structured and prac. hahha:D oh my! MCQ really pulled me up. for bio, it's not easy to fail. but it's not easy to get an A either.
anyway, maths was funny too. hahaha. it's like we had a crash course on complex numbers 'cos it seems that most pple didn't study complex numbers. hahaha. the end of the lesson saw many pple going out of class to ask mr ho for a session for complex numbers. hahaha.
finally returned mrs wee the money! hahaha. hard to catch her. she's the hod of pccg...and she helped me pay first. hehee.
yeah:) my programme for the next 3 weeks is super packed. the teachers planned out my studying schedule for me. hahhaa.

hehehe. just talked to sister's friend called yahui. hahaha:D she's a year older than me and was in nyj taking arts... she knows bowen and rara and sining! hahaha:D rara and sining were my basketball seniors...and she knows carrie too! hahaha. through bowen. hmmm. apparently 'cos they were together... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. i didn't know that. haha.
ah well. anyway, she's in nus taking social work now:D hehee. so huichun! if u see a girl called ya3 hui4, can talk to her:D hahaha:D
anyway, studied with joycelyn today. hehe. cancelled it at first, but then..ah well. haha. did trigo for the whole day! gosh. trigo became fun:D hahaa. the back part of the specimen paper wasn't very morale boosting:P i looked at it, i was like:P and stats needs practice..once i haven't touched it much, i forget about it. so sad! and i love stats so much! hahaha:D
yeah well. when i was going home, we saw the bus stop area being cordoned off and 2 trucks of policemen being unloaded and four police cars along the road side and lots of people staring at what's happening. it's quite a scary sight. actually we also dunno wat happened...but heard from someone tt there's a riot. a riot?O_o in singapore? gosh. ehhh. well.
hahha. i reached home safely anyway. hope whatever was happening ceased off. we're all singaporeans what, why fight amongst outselves?:)

oooh. i sound disgruntled in my last post:D a disgruntled janitor in the mob factory has a red aura and usually LACERATES. hahahha. think only a few pple will know what i'm talking abt. or maybe just jits. hahaha.
sec 4 maths is making me vomit out blood. hahahaha:D and the specimen paper boosts up ur morale. and i feel hungry at such an hour. disastrous. and i feel awake. and God is my Jehovah Jireh! hahaha. He provides! gosh. was severely lacking in financial resources and was praying for God to help me. hahaha. 'cos i need to pay for this workshop thing by monday to mrs wee (gosh. it's mrs wee and not mrs lee...been looking for the wrong person) and it's $50+++ (can't remember the exact amount..think it's more like $65) and i'm like dying 'cos i have a total of -ve goodness-knows-how-much for normal expenses ('cos i owed jits money for the cds first). and i kept reminding myself 'what i dun have, i dun need' hahaha. and -God is good, all the time-, my mum gave me money! haha. and pple returned the money they owed me. i still have to cover the rest myself but i've still got enough to *yumyum*.
thank God! i tell u ah. really amazing. hahaha.
i wish i'll stop the haha-ing and the hehe-ing...they've become punctuations in my sentences. ah well.

gee. my sister just passed me 'lime' and even lime agrees with me that JEASSEA SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN IN. and BEVERLY GOT A GOOD VOICE. this is what they say about jeassea:
'if there were ever a poster girl for Singapore Idol, it'd be Jeassea. Armed with the right looks, a strong voice and oodles of charisma, she definitely raises the bar in this competition. Judging from her polished rendition of Aretha Franklin's notoriously difficult 'Chain of Fools', she's also one of the few contestants who's able to nail the more uptempo numbers without missing a beat...'
and about beverly:
'Correct me if i'm wrong but this IS a singing competition, right? How then do you explain a wonderful singer like Beverly getting the boot?...'
and this is what they say about jerry;)
'This accountant-turned-busker-turned-dubious Top 12 Finalist caused a MAJOR UPROAR when he wheedled his way past powerhouses like Nana and Beverly in the last piano show. What's worse, his lacklustre and totally unspectacular version of 'To Love Somebody' was nowhere near the quality of the two ousted divas.'
ah well. i just think it's kinda unfair that good singers like Jeassea and Beverly got out in the first round of the finals. Singapore can't recognise talents when they see them:P
oh. and this is stupid. urban exchange is changing their name to Parking Lot Pimp. with darren hayes' new disastrous song 'Popular' and urban exchange changing to such a stupid name, i wonder how the music scene is going to survive in the future. the second law of thermodynamics is very much in motion here.
oh bother. and lime is getting more and more thrashy. can't stand these stupid magazines. yuck:P

"Even now my witness is in heaven. My advocate is there on high. My friends scorn me, but I pour out my tears to God" (Job 16:19-20, nlt).

A Daily Encounter reader who has been hurt deeply asks, "Do you have any insight into dealing with the strong emotions that arise from being deeply hurt and wounded?

Dear Fred (not his real name), one way you can help "drain the pain" of hurt feelings is to write out your feelings. David did this in several of his Psalms. I think he was a man after God's own heart because of his being open and honest with himself and with God. When you write, write as if you are writing a letter to the one who hurt you. Express all your feelings in all their intensity to this person. Then read the letter to God telling him that this is exactly the way you feel (he knows it anyhow);then tear up the letter and destroy it. Write again and again
doing the same thing until all your hurt and angry feelings are dissipated. But never, never, never send one of these letters to anybody. At a later time, should you feel a need to write or contact the person in question, remember always to write and speak the truth in love;never in anger.
God also gave us tears to help drain the pain of hurt feelings. So give yourself permission to weep with all your heart for until we have learned to weep with all our heart, we are not free to love with all our heart either. Tears, however, are for expressing grief ... not anger. Anger needs to be expressed in writing, verbalized, or both.

Also, everyone needs at least one person he/she can trust implicitly with whom to share his/her feelings. It needs to be an understanding and caring person who listens and accepts us with all our hurt and angry feelings but won't give us advice, preach at us, or tell us what we should or shouldn't do or feel. And, if necessary, have several sessions with a qualified Christian counselor to help you
work through and resolve your feelings.

And of course be sure to tell God exactly how you feel and to lead you to the help you need to resolve your hurt and angry feelings so you can get to a point of genuine
forgiveness. Failing to forgive will only hurt you. It's "like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die."

heh. the cat's at my door sleeping.
dunno wat to do with her. ah well.
i got a mini shock when i went down to the english resource room for gp...hahha. saw like 2/3 of the whole class sitting outside the resource with mr lee talking about cohabitation. then i did something stupid, went up to mr lee and said 'oh! i didn't realise that gp starts early today.':P
then i saw serene and thongkheng on the other side of the space outside the english resource room. hahaha:D then i went to join them. realised tt the 2/3 of my dear adorable class is having 'friends of mr lee' class. hehe. then me and serene and thongkheng, michelle and hui xiang were like at the other side waiting for gp lessons to officially start. mr lee mentioned tt 2/7 couples get divorced... then huixiang went 'if so many pple get divorced, why get married in the first place?' and i was thinking about my cousin and j. hmm.
gp... sat beside pat and mich and was writing in serene's book..hahaha:D she did a very nice autograph book thing, pasted the photos in the book and divided it in sections. like a mini collage of all her memories in vj, together with photos and notes from her friends.
watched the results of singapore idol just now. hmmm. i dun think i agree with what has happened. jeassea and beverly both should have gotten in! gosh. what a waste. i like maia's style of singing 'lady marmalade'..didn't catch yesterday's performance but heard the highlights and all... and it was quite good. olinda got a nice voice for her song as well:) okay. i'm biased. i still think sylvester can't sing. so sad that candice drew out! my sister says there're rumours that she's pregnant. pregnant? how odd.
-and some people want it all,
but i don't want none of it all,
if it ain't you baby,
if i ain't got you baby-
hahaa. zai shen yuan is starting to pick up on channel u:D they showed the sleeping on the arm scene. more to come soon!
off to do my work. ladeeeda.

watching 'pooh's grand adventure'...very sweet! very nice:D hahaha.

i found this beside my bag after my trip to the toilet. hahaha. since no one was left around me and the nearest person in the canteen was... 3 tables away, i decided to take it with me and give due recognition to what is written instead of letting it float around for a long time yet, vulnerable to the weathering that occurs so rapidly in singapore.
it is supposed to be for 04S22...which is quite interesting since all the j1s dun seem to be in school today. anyway, it says to 04S22 (goodness knows how they're going to find it.)
'Dear 04S22, as you grow up, may you not lose that child in you. Live young and die young. Happy Children's Day and all the best for your promos!:)
chanks 1 Oct 2004'
hmm. who's chanks? anyway. i read through what was on the paper and it sounded true so i've decided to type it down:D
here goes:
'Youth is not a time of life; it is a state of mind; it is not a matter of rosy cheeks, red lips and supple knees; it is a matter of the will, a quality of the imagination, a vigor of the emotions; it is the freshness of the deep springs of life.
Youth means a temperamental predominance of courage over timidity of the appetite, for adventure over the love of ease. This often exists in a man of sixty more than a boy of twenty. Nobody grows old merely by a number of years. We grow old by deserting our ideals.
Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. Worry, fear,self-distrust bows the heart and turns the spirit back to dust.
Whether sixty of sixteen, there is in every human being's heart the lure of wonder, the unfailing child-like appetite of what's next, and the joy of the game of living. In the center of your heart and my heart there is a wireless station; so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope, cheer, courage and power from men and from the infinite, so long are you young.
When the aerials are down, and your spirit is covered with snows of cynicism and the ice of pessimism, then you are grown old, even at twenty, but as long as your aerials are up, to catch the waves of optimism, there is hope you may die young at eighty.'
i dunno where everyone is. steph and lydia are not around. zara is nowhere to be seen. i have a sneaking suspicion that everyone else is either scattered around (of which they can't be found. strange), studying away, not in school yet or they've all gone to join the 'friends of mr lee' club due to their gp prelim results. hmmm. and here i am, spending my time typing this out. let me join shasta in the world of Narnia then.