i like this song!

Reposting this from Huan Yan's blog. Ming Siew (the lady missionary from OM who hosted us through the trip shared this with us on the last day):

Fellowship of the Unashamed
I am a part of the fellowship of the Unashamed. I have the Holy Spirit Power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions, mundane talking, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded. I now live by presence, learn by faith, love by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.

My pace is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my Guide is reliable, my mission is clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back, diluted, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.

I won't give up, back up, let up, or shut up until I've preached up, prayed up, paid up, stored up, and stayed up for the cause of Christ. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I must go until He returns, give until I drop, preach until all know, and work until He comes.

during my Japan trip, i was stuck with a cho, a pseudo sang and a mel-cho (?). hahaa. and my natural tendency was to gravitate to the phleg people from Emmaus >_< being surrounded by people, i found myself sinking more and more into the mel side, trying to find a corner to be by myself, to reflect through things, but was unable to do so.
hahaha.
but all in all, was quite comfortable with the general mix of the people there (14 of us in all:D) hahaa. i guess the emmaus people does remind me of my LG as well? hahaa. oh my LG, i missed you all!
i missed my shepherd as well! and my close friends. wahhaa. throughout the trip i was thinking of Rachel, Venetia, Justin, Jiali, Florence...
i really liked some of the people i met though :) like Shiyun (hahaa. she's my entertainer through the trip), JD (he always makes me laugh during the times we work), Yi Xin (my sleeping partner!).. i guess I like people whom i can play with. hahahaa.

Careers for the NF "Idealists" (INFP, ENFP, INFJ, ENFJ)

The Idealists are quite different from the Rational NTs discussed above, and will generally prefer different types of careers. While the NTs gravitate towards the sciences, most NFs do not find such objective and dry topics to their interest. According to Keirsey, the Idealists are on a search for their "true self" and want to make the world a better place to live by helping others. Integrity matters.

NF types with ADD often get by in school and might even do well, depending on their particular circumstances, but they are highly sensitive to criticism and classroom setting. NFs are particularly prone to imaginative daydreaming, even the ones who are not ADD.

According to Keirsey, "Novelists, dramatists, television writers, playwrights, journalists, poets, and biographers are almost exclusively NFs." These are the writers who wish to "inspire and persuade." Note: Most of the personal ADD websites are undoubtedly written by NFs. This is somewhat interesting because Intuitive ADDers often have reading and writing problems, even those who consider themselves to be compulsive readers and writers! I've had several NF ADDers comment that they took ADD medication so they could read better or write with less editing. But it is not so much the "writing" per se as the release of ideas which most attracts the NF. And ADDers are definitely full of ideas.

Idealists are also drawn to teaching, where they are highly over represented. In the teaching field, they often end up arguing with the more common SJ types about how things should be run, arguing on behalf of students or alternative teaching styles. Other fields which NFs are often attracted to are psychiatry, ministry, and acting.

Like the NTs, the NFs are easily bored and often restless, even those who are not ADD. NFs may plan for job or career changes from time to time in order to keep things interesting and challenging.

More detail from "Please Understand Me":
ENFJs "make superior therapists, charismatic teachers, excellent executives, and personalized salespersons." To be avoided: accounting. "Almost any people-to-people occupation where personal, sustained contact is involved" will be best for the ENFJ. However, they "experience some degree of restlessness whatever their jobs."
"INFJs make outstanding individual therapists" and "often select liberal arts as a college major and opt for occupations which involve interacting with people on a one-to-one basis."
"ENFPs have a remarkable latitude in career choices and succeed in many fields."
INFP "career choices may be toward the ministry, missionary work, college teaching, psychiatry, architecture, psychology -- and away from business."

The ADD NF: The specific job setting is likely to make the difference for an NF who is ADD. Most importantly, try and find a particular job within your field which has a minimum amount of paperwork or be sure there is reliable support staff. A career of successfully helping people should keep an NF interested in their work, and an interested ADDer is a focused (or hyperfocused) ADDer.

finds it interesting that everybody asked me about the happenings of the phone, but nobody asked how i am.

the song for Melissa's walk in at the church wedding.
very very nice! :)

yesterday i met a fellow sang-mel (but she's a sang mel cho) and she was super fun to play with!:D hahahaa.
didn't have a dull moment with her at all (though i was super sleepy). hahaa. i enjoyed the time :) (even though the atmosphere was sombre cos of the context it was in)

first knew about this song from Serene who sang it during KTV. haha

i was just thinking that at the age of 25, i don't think i've matured enough to be a woman who can 进得了厨房，如得了厅堂。so i wanna build myself up in this area :) hahaa. to be self disciplined in different aspects (haphazardly changing things and praying for changes in different areas, such that i grow each day).
while recovering from my diarrhoea, i also got reminded of how we're always expecting things to happen quickly, like at the snap of fingers. but our body, or the world itself, doesn't operate in such a quick manner. we need days for the body to recover. we need days for the world to change. we need days for ourselves to change. and we need days for the effects of things to take place :)
but as long as i am consistent in the change, the small bit of changes build up over time and accumulate into something great :)

nice rendition! :)

between baby boys and baby girls, baby girls are definitely cuter! hahaha

学校の男の人たくさんも結婚しています。ときどき、神様に感謝します。わたしのタイプから、誘惑するものがあります。Hahahaha!

it's the season for farewells.
the farewell of a colleague whom i'm more comfortable with, and will be sad to see leave.
the farewell of fellow counsellors who were in the same batch as me.
the preparation of a farewell of something very close which will happen 6 months later.
ah.

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was sleeping yesterday night when chi woke me up with whimpering sounds. she'd stop whenever i stroke her forehead, but start again when i stop. i wonder what kind of dream she was having O_O

bought Habibi :) and finished it in 2 hrs! lol
it's a little too exotic and explicit for my liking. haha
i prefer Blankets in terms of story plot, but the drawings in Habibi are simply astounding.

LOL. SNSD tickets sold out within 10 minutes of special Samsung mobile pre-sales. this is madness O_o all 5500 tickets are sold.
i was in conference when i received smses from junyao informing me of the updates. wahh. lots of black market sales going on now. hahaaaaaaaa

on a totally random note, i think why i like SNSD is cos as a girl group, they're quite funny. hahahaa. their appearances on variety shows crack me up everytime (e.g. hello baby, Taeyeon and Syeohyun on We Got Married, the whole group on Win Win, Champagne and the likes).

it's actually quite irritating how there's a delay in the sinking in of 'reactive emotions' towards events. like for this, it's a 9 months delay.
it's as if my body went into strict denial for 9 months, and in a time when it's finally safe (or rather, now that there's time to deal with them) to acknowledge the emotions, the denial lapses and everything floods in.
and i'm left wondering why i'm angry and disappointed with the person after a 9 months lapse.

ADHD:

hyperactivity -
one example:
You may get bored easily. Boredom begins to set in about 15 minutes after you begin a project, or a few months after you begin a new job. You find TV boring, the computer is better, a little more interactive, but still becomes boring. You have an intense need to make everything in life a little more interesting. You food contains more spices, your desk contains toys, your life is filled with gadgets that looked great at the store but you lost interest when you got home.
another example (i used to get scolded for this a lot. haha. like all the way from when i was very young i was scolded for this. then ppl kept giving me strategies (e.g. junting asked me to write down my thoughts first)
You may interrupt others or answer a question before the other person is finished. Entering in a conversation in the middle of someone else’s sentence can be embarrassing and lead to others thinking that you are rude and inconsiderate.
Example #3:
You may become restless after a few minutes of inactivity. Time to sit down to a relaxing evening with your partner and 15 minutes later you are ready to go and do something, or you begin to fade in and out of the conversation, planning what else you can do. You spend your day at work walking around and talking, getting coffee, making phone calls or anything else you can do to relieve the restlessness from sitting at a desk.

Emotional Turmoil:
You may become easily angered. Do you find your temper rising over the smallest incident? Does your family and friends wonder why you can get angry so quickly? At the same time, are you able to release your anger quickly, left wondering what all the fuss is about?
--> used to say that my emotions come very fast, but they disappear very fast too. ah well

things that scare me in the night:
1) my mum using her handphone to look for things in the living room. from my view, it's only a light floating around O_o she spooked me in the same way for 2 nights in a row!
2) calls from my other ftsc/counsellees at 12+am >_<