Wednesday, February 29, 2012
It made an impact on me when my cluster supervisor asked me if I was at The Ark, and that she saw me there.
It made an impact on me because I felt that my love for watching plays was finally converged into the counselling area. No idea why, but I've always kept my likings and my 'self' out of the counselling session, perhaps because I felt the need to behave more maturely because I'm the youngest.
but when she said that, and when she mentioned about Extremely loud and incredibly close (which was what i wanted to watch yesterday but didn't in the end), there was such a joy in my heart, like something connected between two passions that I had.
went for my first drama meeting today, and i resonate with what Dennis said about how even if they're not doing drama, they'd still go to watch plays, they'd still find out who won the oscars (things like that). i guess i resonate with that because previously i couldn't help in the production of dramas or movies, but i've always enjoyed , and actively sought them out. but to me, i've always wondered if i'm not in its production, can i still consider it as my passion?
but i guess i can, though i may not be at the same level as others, but i guess the fact that it's around on my mind constantly makes it count as well? haha.
we did a tableau today of a story in the bible. hahaha. my group did the adulterous woman scene. it was beautiful when i saw one of the teams who did a tableau of Jesus asking Peter to walk on water. it was like viewing a painting. wow.
then we did fairytales in 60 seconds. hahahahaa. that was so funny. and i'm amazed at the creativity of some of the people.
:)
enjoyed it cos learned today.
Jiali mentioned that now it's to let Him turn passion into something eternally meaningful.
i agree! :) and i think it'd take me a long journey to discover what it means too :)
thinking if i can explore playback theatre again in the future. still considering what masters to take if i take masters in the future.
faith based counselling, were 3 words that stuck to me today as well :)
It made an impact on me because I felt that my love for watching plays was finally converged into the counselling area. No idea why, but I've always kept my likings and my 'self' out of the counselling session, perhaps because I felt the need to behave more maturely because I'm the youngest.
but when she said that, and when she mentioned about Extremely loud and incredibly close (which was what i wanted to watch yesterday but didn't in the end), there was such a joy in my heart, like something connected between two passions that I had.
went for my first drama meeting today, and i resonate with what Dennis said about how even if they're not doing drama, they'd still go to watch plays, they'd still find out who won the oscars (things like that). i guess i resonate with that because previously i couldn't help in the production of dramas or movies, but i've always enjoyed , and actively sought them out. but to me, i've always wondered if i'm not in its production, can i still consider it as my passion?
but i guess i can, though i may not be at the same level as others, but i guess the fact that it's around on my mind constantly makes it count as well? haha.
we did a tableau today of a story in the bible. hahaha. my group did the adulterous woman scene. it was beautiful when i saw one of the teams who did a tableau of Jesus asking Peter to walk on water. it was like viewing a painting. wow.
then we did fairytales in 60 seconds. hahahahaa. that was so funny. and i'm amazed at the creativity of some of the people.
:)
enjoyed it cos learned today.
Jiali mentioned that now it's to let Him turn passion into something eternally meaningful.
i agree! :) and i think it'd take me a long journey to discover what it means too :)
thinking if i can explore playback theatre again in the future. still considering what masters to take if i take masters in the future.
faith based counselling, were 3 words that stuck to me today as well :)
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Just learned from penguin yesterday that we can invest using our CPF account, with the minimum of 20k in the account.
i'm considering if i should invest the amount beyond 20k, just to see if i can get higher retuns, or if i should not touch it, or if i should transfer it into my SA account to get the interest rate of 4% since that extra amount is only earning a rate of 2.5% instead of 3.5%. hahaa
and yay, meeting dorling for dinner before my first drama meeting. excited!
i'm considering if i should invest the amount beyond 20k, just to see if i can get higher retuns, or if i should not touch it, or if i should transfer it into my SA account to get the interest rate of 4% since that extra amount is only earning a rate of 2.5% instead of 3.5%. hahaa
and yay, meeting dorling for dinner before my first drama meeting. excited!
Monday, February 27, 2012
Something I really enjoy in my work, are the times when students walk in and just chitchat with you. hahahaa.
Just had some drama girls come in (they helped us out in the drama performance for the parents to show what RTP is about) and say hi. haha. one's super energetic and her energy bounced off me.
and she told me of what her class thinks about me, which amused me greatly.
Just had some drama girls come in (they helped us out in the drama performance for the parents to show what RTP is about) and say hi. haha. one's super energetic and her energy bounced off me.
and she told me of what her class thinks about me, which amused me greatly.
Was just thinking about friendships and this song came to mind :)
don't you feel that there are some friends in life whom you wish will always be around with you? that no matter what, no matter where, no matter the situation, whether it's silent, or full of words, you just feel comfortable with them.
:)
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Friday, February 24, 2012
I really appreciate people who seek to build you up even though you're not directly under them.
Like a previous HoD who's retired from the school.. she'd ask me how i am, and share about certain things about image or how she feels that the welfare and organisation of the staff can be improved...
or my previous RO who's still forwarding emails of possible organizations or talks i can go for, and evaluated my programme with me so as to see how i can possibly beef it up :)
Like a previous HoD who's retired from the school.. she'd ask me how i am, and share about certain things about image or how she feels that the welfare and organisation of the staff can be improved...
or my previous RO who's still forwarding emails of possible organizations or talks i can go for, and evaluated my programme with me so as to see how i can possibly beef it up :)
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
I'm not sure if it's just me, or it's for others as well, but somehow or another, my Burberry The Beat doesn't last long at all! LOL
Could be cos it's the EDT.
i'd spray it on, and it disappears afters like 4 hrs. 4 hrs is VERY SHORT. and i mean like completely disappear. like don't smell anything at all. and it's got a very woodyish spicy note in the middle which i really don't like, though the startng and end notes are really nice and citrusy.
on another note, i really enjoyed today's work though. i counted, 4 counselling cases back to back, and 2 negotiations. tough, but super enjoyable. i wish everyday's like this. hahaa. but now it's the afternoon, and i have to do paperwork. again.
Could be cos it's the EDT.
i'd spray it on, and it disappears afters like 4 hrs. 4 hrs is VERY SHORT. and i mean like completely disappear. like don't smell anything at all. and it's got a very woodyish spicy note in the middle which i really don't like, though the startng and end notes are really nice and citrusy.
on another note, i really enjoyed today's work though. i counted, 4 counselling cases back to back, and 2 negotiations. tough, but super enjoyable. i wish everyday's like this. hahaa. but now it's the afternoon, and i have to do paperwork. again.
Losing A Best Friend Feb. 21, 2012 By Mila Jaroniec
When it happens, you won’t want to believe it. You’ll take their word for it when they say they’re busy, swamped at work, “just doing me.” You’ll make excuses for them, put your ringer on extra loud in case they call. But you’ll still feel the change, and because you can’t rationalize it, you’ll try to ignore it.
It’s a specific kind of loneliness that hits you like a wave of nausea. When the two of you are having a beer and you realize that you have both been staring out the same window for twenty minutes, nothing to say, the opposite of a comfortable silence. When they cancel plans consistently and stall when giving you reasons. When you scroll through your contacts and stop at their name and almost call but don’t, feeling suddenly, inexplicably, abandoned and confused.
Sometimes there’s no huge fight that marks the end of a friendship. No falling out, no major disagreement. Sometimes it just falls apart for no good reason. Distance. New relationships. Priorities. Somehow these things can become more important than your connection; they shouldn’t but they do. And as we get older we tend to downsize, prioritize. Trim the corners of our lives, keeping what’s important and discarding what isn’t. Sometimes we stop needing people in our lives and it isn’t even conscious. No one wakes up in the morning actively thinking “Hmm, I think I’ll stop being friends with so-and-so today.” It just goes out with an empty fizz, like a cigarette hitting the bottom of a Coke can.
In so many ways, losing a close friend is worse than losing a lover. Lovers are transient for the most part but friends are supposed to be there for you always, or so we like to believe. Friendship is a special kind of love that’s not supposed to fade. You never expect the one person you thought you could always depend on to disappear without saying goodbye. And when they do you feel sickeningly stupid and cheated, wondering what you meant to them all along, whether you were just convenient or in the right place at the right time. You never really know for sure.
You look through pictures from back when you were happy — holding each other up drunk and ecstatic, working on art projects on a rainy Sunday afternoon — and can’t understand what happened. Reach for the phone. Attach a photo to an email, start the subject line with some fusion of “Remember this?” and “I miss you…” Get suddenly overwhelmed by a horrible emptiness and discard the draft, leaving the phone untouched. History. So much history flushed down a dirty sink.
And the worst part is, you don’t even know how to explain yourself. You know if you bring this up with them they’ll give you a blank expression and a blank excuse. You don’t want to explain how you feel. You can’t. You just want them to get it, to read you like they used to be able to. You want to take them by the shoulders and shake them, screaming Where are you? What happened?! Until you’re blue in the face. But you can’t do that either, because you’re no longer on the same level and it’s going to make you feel crazy.
In life, it’s a given that you will lose people. People will flow in and out like curtains through an open window, sometimes for no reason at all. But losing someone important to you will feel like a suckerpunch every single time, and you’ll never see it coming. Which makes the friendships that do hold out, the ones that make it through countless breakdowns and breakthroughs and changes and years, so damn important.
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sometimes it could just be that they leave.
sometimes it could just be that they have new priorities now, like being in a relationship.
When it happens, you won’t want to believe it. You’ll take their word for it when they say they’re busy, swamped at work, “just doing me.” You’ll make excuses for them, put your ringer on extra loud in case they call. But you’ll still feel the change, and because you can’t rationalize it, you’ll try to ignore it.
It’s a specific kind of loneliness that hits you like a wave of nausea. When the two of you are having a beer and you realize that you have both been staring out the same window for twenty minutes, nothing to say, the opposite of a comfortable silence. When they cancel plans consistently and stall when giving you reasons. When you scroll through your contacts and stop at their name and almost call but don’t, feeling suddenly, inexplicably, abandoned and confused.
Sometimes there’s no huge fight that marks the end of a friendship. No falling out, no major disagreement. Sometimes it just falls apart for no good reason. Distance. New relationships. Priorities. Somehow these things can become more important than your connection; they shouldn’t but they do. And as we get older we tend to downsize, prioritize. Trim the corners of our lives, keeping what’s important and discarding what isn’t. Sometimes we stop needing people in our lives and it isn’t even conscious. No one wakes up in the morning actively thinking “Hmm, I think I’ll stop being friends with so-and-so today.” It just goes out with an empty fizz, like a cigarette hitting the bottom of a Coke can.
In so many ways, losing a close friend is worse than losing a lover. Lovers are transient for the most part but friends are supposed to be there for you always, or so we like to believe. Friendship is a special kind of love that’s not supposed to fade. You never expect the one person you thought you could always depend on to disappear without saying goodbye. And when they do you feel sickeningly stupid and cheated, wondering what you meant to them all along, whether you were just convenient or in the right place at the right time. You never really know for sure.
You look through pictures from back when you were happy — holding each other up drunk and ecstatic, working on art projects on a rainy Sunday afternoon — and can’t understand what happened. Reach for the phone. Attach a photo to an email, start the subject line with some fusion of “Remember this?” and “I miss you…” Get suddenly overwhelmed by a horrible emptiness and discard the draft, leaving the phone untouched. History. So much history flushed down a dirty sink.
And the worst part is, you don’t even know how to explain yourself. You know if you bring this up with them they’ll give you a blank expression and a blank excuse. You don’t want to explain how you feel. You can’t. You just want them to get it, to read you like they used to be able to. You want to take them by the shoulders and shake them, screaming Where are you? What happened?! Until you’re blue in the face. But you can’t do that either, because you’re no longer on the same level and it’s going to make you feel crazy.
In life, it’s a given that you will lose people. People will flow in and out like curtains through an open window, sometimes for no reason at all. But losing someone important to you will feel like a suckerpunch every single time, and you’ll never see it coming. Which makes the friendships that do hold out, the ones that make it through countless breakdowns and breakthroughs and changes and years, so damn important.
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sometimes it could just be that they leave.
sometimes it could just be that they have new priorities now, like being in a relationship.
referring students for ESU-B (writing referral reports on them)
tracking of PSL cases and liasing with teachers on what to do with these students
running the RTC (doing up plans with students, arranging for negotiations with teachers, handling the negotiations)
have a counselling session with student who just came back to school
have a session with students who're not regularly in school
calling parents to give advice/get updates on some students
referral of students to other ftsc and typing details so that she can refer to the RCs
update VP on PSL students
discuss with vendor on my programme which is gonna be up in March
collect monitoring charts
random things like:
monitoring special needs child for medicine taking
getting details of a student to ensure that forms for a programme is collected
chit chatting with students who come in, and getting a general sense of these students (quite a bunch will always say hi and come in to update me on their lives/ give me high fives)
and these are just the things i did today. and it'd be the same tmr, with the addition of having to liaise for home visit tmr, and having 2 negotiations tmr.
actually it didn't seem that much when i did it, but now that i typed it, i understood why i felt numbed.
and i still haven't run my ITQ for the programme. nor have i done a proper compilation of the MSL and PSL students. nor have i written my case notes for the counselling sessions. nor have i written the report for the MSL students. nor have i finished my tracking.
ok. i think i feel clearer knowing why i got numbed. hahahaa:) need Your constant fuel God! :)
tracking of PSL cases and liasing with teachers on what to do with these students
running the RTC (doing up plans with students, arranging for negotiations with teachers, handling the negotiations)
have a counselling session with student who just came back to school
have a session with students who're not regularly in school
calling parents to give advice/get updates on some students
referral of students to other ftsc and typing details so that she can refer to the RCs
update VP on PSL students
discuss with vendor on my programme which is gonna be up in March
collect monitoring charts
random things like:
monitoring special needs child for medicine taking
getting details of a student to ensure that forms for a programme is collected
chit chatting with students who come in, and getting a general sense of these students (quite a bunch will always say hi and come in to update me on their lives/ give me high fives)
and these are just the things i did today. and it'd be the same tmr, with the addition of having to liaise for home visit tmr, and having 2 negotiations tmr.
actually it didn't seem that much when i did it, but now that i typed it, i understood why i felt numbed.
and i still haven't run my ITQ for the programme. nor have i done a proper compilation of the MSL and PSL students. nor have i written my case notes for the counselling sessions. nor have i written the report for the MSL students. nor have i finished my tracking.
ok. i think i feel clearer knowing why i got numbed. hahahaa:) need Your constant fuel God! :)
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Monday, February 20, 2012
got back Blankets from someone whom i didn't expect to have lent the book to. HAHAHAHA.
i was super surprised when Joyce passed me back my book o_O
had a good catchup with her! :) seems like my catchups with ppl whose names start with J always happen after a long period of time. LOL.
other than Jesus. hahahaa.
why's 2012 passing by so slowly?!
i keep thinking that a lot of time has passed, but so far it's only been less than 2 months :(
pass faster please. haha
i was super surprised when Joyce passed me back my book o_O
had a good catchup with her! :) seems like my catchups with ppl whose names start with J always happen after a long period of time. LOL.
other than Jesus. hahahaa.
why's 2012 passing by so slowly?!
i keep thinking that a lot of time has passed, but so far it's only been less than 2 months :(
pass faster please. haha
I tried out Burberry's Body perfume on myself, and really liked the notes it ended with! ( didn't like it on first spray, but it mellows into something vanilla-ish). Really nice! Hahaha. Too bad i didnt get it this time. Got The Beat cos I liked the starting notes, but its lotion didn't smell good for me in the midnotes :( I hope the actual perfume will be okay though!
Sunday, February 19, 2012
You are the peace that guards my heart
my help in times of need
You are the truth that leads me on
and brings me to my knees
for there i find You waiting
and there i find release
so with all my heart I'd worship
and unto You I'd sing
for You alone deserve all glory
for You alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore You
Father we long to see Your face
for You alone deserve all glory
for You alone deserve all praise
Father we love You
and we worship You this day
praying today and this came to mind:
do we enjoy being in the presence of God today?
do we enjoy the things of God today?
my help in times of need
You are the truth that leads me on
and brings me to my knees
for there i find You waiting
and there i find release
so with all my heart I'd worship
and unto You I'd sing
for You alone deserve all glory
for You alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore You
Father we long to see Your face
for You alone deserve all glory
for You alone deserve all praise
Father we love You
and we worship You this day
praying today and this came to mind:
do we enjoy being in the presence of God today?
do we enjoy the things of God today?
tried this bb cream today. hmmm. didn't like the colour when it went on my face, made my face look really pale and weird. and it didn't blend very well either. faded to a nicer colour after 20 mins or so though :) looked much better after that.
after bb cream was removed at night, skin looks healthier than before bb cream was applied:)
not for me though. i still prefer elishacoy. hahahahaa
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Characteristics of Gifted Students Who Are Bored:
Poor attention and daydreaming when bored
Low tolerance for persistence on tasks that seem irrelevant
Begin many projects, see few to completion
Development of judgment lags behind intellectual growth
Intensity may lead to power struggles with authorities
High activity level; may need less sleep
Difficulty restraining desire to talk; may be disruptive
Question rules, customs, and traditions
Lose work, forget homework, are disorganized
May appear careless
Highly sensitive to criticism
Do not exhibit problem behaviors in all situations
More consistent levels of performance at a fairly consistent pace
(Cline, 1999; Webb & Latimer, 1993)
Characteristics of Students with ADHD
Poorly sustained attention
Diminished persistence on tasks not having immediate consequences
Often shift from one uncompleted activity to another
Impulsivity, poor delay of gratification
Impaired adherence to commands to regulate or inhibit behavior in social contexts
More active, restless than other children
Often talk excessively
Often interrupt or intrude on others (e.g., butt into games)
Difficulty adhering to rules and regulations
Often lose things necessary for tasks or activities at home or school
May appear inattentive to details
Highly sensitive to criticism
Problem behaviors exist in all settings, but in some are more severe
Variability in task performance and time used to accomplish tasks.
(Barkley, 1990; Cline, 1999; Webb & Latimer, 1993
hmmm. whatever it is. i'm definitely bored. sigh. i need a job that allows me to travel. lol.
Poor attention and daydreaming when bored
Low tolerance for persistence on tasks that seem irrelevant
Begin many projects, see few to completion
Development of judgment lags behind intellectual growth
Intensity may lead to power struggles with authorities
High activity level; may need less sleep
Difficulty restraining desire to talk; may be disruptive
Question rules, customs, and traditions
Lose work, forget homework, are disorganized
May appear careless
Highly sensitive to criticism
Do not exhibit problem behaviors in all situations
More consistent levels of performance at a fairly consistent pace
(Cline, 1999; Webb & Latimer, 1993)
Characteristics of Students with ADHD
Poorly sustained attention
Diminished persistence on tasks not having immediate consequences
Often shift from one uncompleted activity to another
Impulsivity, poor delay of gratification
Impaired adherence to commands to regulate or inhibit behavior in social contexts
More active, restless than other children
Often talk excessively
Often interrupt or intrude on others (e.g., butt into games)
Difficulty adhering to rules and regulations
Often lose things necessary for tasks or activities at home or school
May appear inattentive to details
Highly sensitive to criticism
Problem behaviors exist in all settings, but in some are more severe
Variability in task performance and time used to accomplish tasks.
(Barkley, 1990; Cline, 1999; Webb & Latimer, 1993
hmmm. whatever it is. i'm definitely bored. sigh. i need a job that allows me to travel. lol.
recently got a lot of samples from the sample store and so I've been using around one a day. I have a whole box of them at this moment (think i don't need to buy any shampoo / bb cream/ moisturizer for the coming 2-3 months if I were to finish using all the samples. hahaha)
just used the above product and i think it's causing me to have a breakout! (of mini pimples). this is rather sad.
i quite like the smell of the ginvera green tea series, but i think it's not very friendly for my skin.
like it's slightly oily for me i guess.
ah well.
the above is a moisturizer. and it's supposed to have oil control properties. hahahaa. i think any oil control stuff may not be too good for my face since my face is slightly to the dry side on the cheeks, and oily on the nose. i shall see what happens tomorrow :)
on a side note, Elishacoy's gold premium bb cream is really really very good! (for me at least). tried the sample and it was one of the most satisfying bb cream i've used (not that i use a lot, but on days that i do use, i do try to see if there's a difference). haha
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Really liked this song after I watched the movie previously. I guess cos I grew up with a value system that appreciates chivalry, perseverence, loyalty, sacrifice.
i guess maybe that's why certain things tick me off greatly.
i also value words very seriously, so i guess when people are careless with words, it ticks me off as well.
haha.
but anyway, it's a nice song :)
Monday, February 13, 2012
Although you think I cope
My head is filled with hope of some place other than here
Although you think I smile
Inside and all the while I'm wondering about my destiny
I'm thinking about all the things
I'd like to do in my life
I'm a dreamer, a distant dreamer
Dreaming far away from today
Even when you see me frown my heart won't let me down
Because I know there's better things to come, woah yeah
And when life gets tough and I feel I've had enough
I hold on to a distant star
yup. that's me alright. haha
My head is filled with hope of some place other than here
Although you think I smile
Inside and all the while I'm wondering about my destiny
I'm thinking about all the things
I'd like to do in my life
I'm a dreamer, a distant dreamer
Dreaming far away from today
Even when you see me frown my heart won't let me down
Because I know there's better things to come, woah yeah
And when life gets tough and I feel I've had enough
I hold on to a distant star
yup. that's me alright. haha
Friday, February 10, 2012
i really like to learn. and i really like to think. i also like to have fun (maybe that's how i give my brains a rest since i don't really stone). hahaa.
tt accounts for why learning stimulates me and gives me great enjoyment, why i read a book every 2 days (storybooks though.. now reading the whole 66 books in her detective novel collection - have finished 2, am on third one "A murder is announced"), and why i do things like buy the fun pass to go to universal studios. hahaa.
i don't mind work if it's fun. i don't mind work if it's to do with people and it's meaningful. so volunteering has never been a problem for me cos there's people and it's meaningful.
i also like to prettify things. so i love being the last one to clear up presentations (in terms of sentence structure and grammar), as well as to find good backgrounds for the presentations.
tt accounts for why learning stimulates me and gives me great enjoyment, why i read a book every 2 days (storybooks though.. now reading the whole 66 books in her detective novel collection - have finished 2, am on third one "A murder is announced"), and why i do things like buy the fun pass to go to universal studios. hahaa.
i don't mind work if it's fun. i don't mind work if it's to do with people and it's meaningful. so volunteering has never been a problem for me cos there's people and it's meaningful.
i also like to prettify things. so i love being the last one to clear up presentations (in terms of sentence structure and grammar), as well as to find good backgrounds for the presentations.
Thursday, February 09, 2012
finished what i usually do in one day in 1 hr and 45 mins when these conditions are met:
1) no one is in the room except for me
2) the aircon is on
3) i can move around the room to do my work (spreading out my stuff over 2 tables)
4) i don't have to type in the records in the excel file i've created for the purpose of tracking.
the disadvantages:
1) i'd still have to type in the records tmr :(
i feel so much more fruitful in this 1 hr and 45 mins than my hours in the morning!
1) no one is in the room except for me
2) the aircon is on
3) i can move around the room to do my work (spreading out my stuff over 2 tables)
4) i don't have to type in the records in the excel file i've created for the purpose of tracking.
the disadvantages:
1) i'd still have to type in the records tmr :(
i feel so much more fruitful in this 1 hr and 45 mins than my hours in the morning!