I guess in a way, I'm not able to operate often in a non-existential frame of mind.
Life, death, pain, the state of being alone in the world as a human being.. these are things which are constantly manifesting in my mind. i question them, and live life through the conclusions of these questions.

my mind does not wish to let up on the existential questions in life. i am not satisfied with things that seemingly bring about happiness, but do not provide satisfaction in the long run.
the temporal irks me. and yet, i am familiar with the temporal and how things constantly change and are in flux.

but i guess constantly talking about this and thinking about this tires me out as well :)
and now i just have a craving to eat very good food. haha.