if i should wake up at 7am, i should probably sleep now.
hahahaa.
i was thinking, when i was bathing, that jealousy is probably caused by a lack of love and competitiveness. 'cos if i really love the people, then i would be glad for them (and i know this for sure 'cos there are people whom i genuinely and really feel glad for when things happen for them, or to them, or they did something. i'm overjoyed, in fact, to know that they're doing well:D).
so it's a lack of love.
competitiveness is also something which i prob will need to address.
the world is competitive by nature, and competitiveness has kinda got ingrained in me since young (that's what happens when u tell a kid from 6 yrs old that she has to top the class, and then u reward her for topping the class -.-) i think my parents meant well.. as in they want me to succeed, but i guess it's not very good for me :D or maybe competitiveness as a trait might not necessarily be bad, but when applied in the wrong context, it becomes bad.
heh.
why am i typing these things out?
partly 'cos i want to impart the need and desire to continue questioning your thoughts and your actions and reflecting through them. hahaha. occupational hazard.
partly also to list out things to watch out?:) hahaa.
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submitted it to God with fear and trembling.
i'm not there yet.
but help me God.
grow me.
mould me.
change me.
woo me, and let me yield to You God.
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i realized that ever since i started working, i've been having a more negative view towards life in general.
whatever happened to my idealistic and optimistic self?
hahahaa.
i shall find it back!
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God is good :)
last year, 'Stronger' was a song that helped remind me that when i'm at my weakest, God is strong. that when i feel crushed by circumstances, God is stronger and bigger than it all. when i'm struck by my thoughts, He who is stronger can carry me through.
it was a song that reminded me to take heart, to have faith, to bite down and go on.
today, when we sang the song, it was not only a reminder of God's characteristic, but in me wells up a great sense of gratefulness. i felt so touched.
today, when i sang it, it reminded me that the God who is stronger has faithfully carried me through.
thank You very much.
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on a side note, i'm still wondering if i shld carry out the polyphasic sleeping thing. hee
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
personal space -.-
lol
recently has been identifying the irritating parts of me (parts which i find irritating to myself. hahaha)
so usually they'd end with a -.-
i hate it when i'm jealous. i'd get irritated with myself when i'm jealous 'cos i'd know what exactly what i'm jealous about. then i'd be irritated and jealous. and because i'm irritated and jealous, i'd be upset.
what a horrible snowball.
and today i realized that i have a strong need for personal space.
haha.
blah.
i like chi's paws :) i like to feel the bounciness between my fingers.
lol
recently has been identifying the irritating parts of me (parts which i find irritating to myself. hahaha)
so usually they'd end with a -.-
i hate it when i'm jealous. i'd get irritated with myself when i'm jealous 'cos i'd know what exactly what i'm jealous about. then i'd be irritated and jealous. and because i'm irritated and jealous, i'd be upset.
what a horrible snowball.
and today i realized that i have a strong need for personal space.
haha.
blah.
i like chi's paws :) i like to feel the bounciness between my fingers.
Monday, May 24, 2010
between shokubutsu and dove for shower foams,
i prefer dove. hahaha.
shokubutsu kinda dries my skin.. and leaves me with a soapy smell. which i don't actually quite like.
i prefer to smell like the items that are stated on the cover, not like soap. hahaa.
though my skin feels more matte using shokubutsu than dove. LOL
i prefer dove. hahaha.
shokubutsu kinda dries my skin.. and leaves me with a soapy smell. which i don't actually quite like.
i prefer to smell like the items that are stated on the cover, not like soap. hahaa.
though my skin feels more matte using shokubutsu than dove. LOL
watched ipman 2 today!
finally :D
hahaha.
was touched. hahahaa.
i cried when he finally won. victorious, standing up for what he truly believes in and advocates. fighting for the cause he gives his life to.
made me miss martial arts. LOL
frankly speaking, i've never heard of wing chun (the martial arts style in the show)
i learned chang quan when i was in primary school. for 2-3 years. i think singapore martial arts mainly teach chang quan. hahaha.
don't remember much already. LOL.
kinda miss taekwondo too. HAHAHA. ah well :)
finally :D
hahaha.
was touched. hahahaa.
i cried when he finally won. victorious, standing up for what he truly believes in and advocates. fighting for the cause he gives his life to.
made me miss martial arts. LOL
frankly speaking, i've never heard of wing chun (the martial arts style in the show)
i learned chang quan when i was in primary school. for 2-3 years. i think singapore martial arts mainly teach chang quan. hahaha.
don't remember much already. LOL.
kinda miss taekwondo too. HAHAHA. ah well :)
koped this from my online course:
When people get up in the morning their blood sugar levels are usually good, but they decline rapidly with the morning's activity. Most people don't feel like eating and many try to get by with a cup of coffee or some cereal and toast. This sort of meal, even if supplemented with orange juice and bacon, is high in carbohydrate and causes sugar levels to peak rapidly but about an hour later they drop dramatically.
The effect is even worse if a person eats food high in sugar such as jam, doughnuts or sweet pancakes. This peak followed by the drop in blood sugar causes feelings of fatigue and irritability and makes concentration difficult. People who eat protein in their breakfast, such as eggs or fortified milk (milk with skim milk powder or protein powder added) elevate their blood sugar to a good level and it stays consistently high throughout the morning.
Studies have shown that no matter what a person eats after having no breakfast or a high carbohydrate breakfast, they are susceptible to fatigue and irritability for the rest of the day. It is now generally accepted that people should eat breakfast (with protein) to be able to function for a full day (Davis, 1976; Eades & Eades, 2000; Holford, 2005; Wills, 2000).
Many people drink coffee or tea as a starter for the day. The caffeine in these drinks artificially allows the body's levels of adrenaline and dopamine to rise. Adrenaline is a ‘heart starter' and dopamine promotes a sense of well being and alertness. However, because caffeine has artificially stimulated this result, the body's natural regulation is interfered with and caffeine is needed to continually keep the body stimulated.
In other words, coffee and tea drinkers become addicted to caffeine. Over time, this may lead to a higher tendency towards apathy, depression and exhaustion. After only a few weeks of using caffeine, people must either continually boost the levels to get the same result. However, people usually start to lapse into the phase of fatigue and poor concentration. The solution is to stop drinking these sorts of drinks and to allow three or four weeks for the body to readjust. The feelings of fatigue and heaviness will pass (Holford, 2005).
When people get up in the morning their blood sugar levels are usually good, but they decline rapidly with the morning's activity. Most people don't feel like eating and many try to get by with a cup of coffee or some cereal and toast. This sort of meal, even if supplemented with orange juice and bacon, is high in carbohydrate and causes sugar levels to peak rapidly but about an hour later they drop dramatically.
The effect is even worse if a person eats food high in sugar such as jam, doughnuts or sweet pancakes. This peak followed by the drop in blood sugar causes feelings of fatigue and irritability and makes concentration difficult. People who eat protein in their breakfast, such as eggs or fortified milk (milk with skim milk powder or protein powder added) elevate their blood sugar to a good level and it stays consistently high throughout the morning.
Studies have shown that no matter what a person eats after having no breakfast or a high carbohydrate breakfast, they are susceptible to fatigue and irritability for the rest of the day. It is now generally accepted that people should eat breakfast (with protein) to be able to function for a full day (Davis, 1976; Eades & Eades, 2000; Holford, 2005; Wills, 2000).
Many people drink coffee or tea as a starter for the day. The caffeine in these drinks artificially allows the body's levels of adrenaline and dopamine to rise. Adrenaline is a ‘heart starter' and dopamine promotes a sense of well being and alertness. However, because caffeine has artificially stimulated this result, the body's natural regulation is interfered with and caffeine is needed to continually keep the body stimulated.
In other words, coffee and tea drinkers become addicted to caffeine. Over time, this may lead to a higher tendency towards apathy, depression and exhaustion. After only a few weeks of using caffeine, people must either continually boost the levels to get the same result. However, people usually start to lapse into the phase of fatigue and poor concentration. The solution is to stop drinking these sorts of drinks and to allow three or four weeks for the body to readjust. The feelings of fatigue and heaviness will pass (Holford, 2005).
Am doing my best to finish up the courses from the mental health academy so that I don't have to pay another sum of money for another month's worth of unlimited subscription. hahaa.
i find it interesting to observe the differences between my own caregroup and the tg caregroup after dinner on saturday. we went to the outside of the 313 foodcourt 'cos there's a garden with seats kind of thing. my cg pple (the brothers) were intrigued by the chess pieces (personally, i was too. hahaa. quite interesting) and started having a game of chess.
the tg sisters sat down and watched.
and after a while, got bored and proceeded to the playground.
and upon coming back, got bored again ('cos the brothers started a 2nd round of chess) and sat down and waited. hahaa.
funny.
one of the differences between the needs of a female and a male is that females need conversations, men look for recreational companionship.
though not everyone is the same ba. hahaha
i find it interesting to observe the differences between my own caregroup and the tg caregroup after dinner on saturday. we went to the outside of the 313 foodcourt 'cos there's a garden with seats kind of thing. my cg pple (the brothers) were intrigued by the chess pieces (personally, i was too. hahaa. quite interesting) and started having a game of chess.
the tg sisters sat down and watched.
and after a while, got bored and proceeded to the playground.
and upon coming back, got bored again ('cos the brothers started a 2nd round of chess) and sat down and waited. hahaa.
funny.
one of the differences between the needs of a female and a male is that females need conversations, men look for recreational companionship.
though not everyone is the same ba. hahaha
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
A better quality for the song can be found here
梁静茹--接受
仿佛上一分钟
你还陪在我左右
还以为我们会开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空
却模糊了我们的脸孔
哼过的歌到底是什么内容
仿佛已经自由
下一个我变成风
吹过你的脸孔 差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂
觉得心言不由衷
我们都接受
一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实的过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动
能记得多久
仿佛已经自由
下一个我变成风
吹过你的脸孔差点失控
回忆在在夜里闹得很凶
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂
我们都接受
一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实的过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些人都
能记得多久
我们都接受
一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实的过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动
能记得多久
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Feeling a little lethargic at this moment.
not physically tired, but rather a lack of drive.
not enough stress?
hohoho.
maybe it's lethargy from 2 consecutive nights of intense sharing. hahahaa.
anyway
im view of public service week, we did a discussion on three questions. one of which touches on how we can better ourselves and provide better service. lol.
my team (which somehow got reduced to only my other ftsc and me), mentioned 5 things:
1) To listen with an open mind
2) To be willing to admit mistakes and to re-learn (embracing change as a constant)
3) To be willing go the extra mile, even after office hours
4) To do professional upgrading (in terms of skills and knowledge)
5) To remind ourselves of the reason for service in the first place, for that would be our motivating factor
The things in italics are given by me. The rest are by the other ftsc :)
Funnily, my vp said that that sounded like what our Director General of Education said in her speech. hahaa.
And interestingly, he continued on to say that it's also very important to take care of ourselves so that we can take care of more people. hahaha. Thank God for him :)
not physically tired, but rather a lack of drive.
not enough stress?
hohoho.
maybe it's lethargy from 2 consecutive nights of intense sharing. hahahaa.
anyway
im view of public service week, we did a discussion on three questions. one of which touches on how we can better ourselves and provide better service. lol.
my team (which somehow got reduced to only my other ftsc and me), mentioned 5 things:
1) To listen with an open mind
2) To be willing to admit mistakes and to re-learn (embracing change as a constant)
3) To be willing go the extra mile, even after office hours
4) To do professional upgrading (in terms of skills and knowledge)
5) To remind ourselves of the reason for service in the first place, for that would be our motivating factor
The things in italics are given by me. The rest are by the other ftsc :)
Funnily, my vp said that that sounded like what our Director General of Education said in her speech. hahaa.
And interestingly, he continued on to say that it's also very important to take care of ourselves so that we can take care of more people. hahaha. Thank God for him :)
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Koped this from Chrystal in facebook:
A hug can turn your day around, it’s like an emotional Heimlich. Someone puts their arms around you, and they give you a squeeze and all your fear and anxiety comes shooting out of your mouth, and you can breathe again.
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Had a longggggg chat with my papa yesterday. haha.
was good :)
thank God for you brother!
A hug can turn your day around, it’s like an emotional Heimlich. Someone puts their arms around you, and they give you a squeeze and all your fear and anxiety comes shooting out of your mouth, and you can breathe again.
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Had a longggggg chat with my papa yesterday. haha.
was good :)
thank God for you brother!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
make up is an art.
look at how many steps (and number of products --> as well as amount of money to be spent) the girl uses to create a natural look.
:)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wo4Ws6bQO8g&NR=1&feature=fvwp
look at how many steps (and number of products --> as well as amount of money to be spent) the girl uses to create a natural look.
:)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wo4Ws6bQO8g&NR=1&feature=fvwp
Psalm 139
1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
And for today, I could identify with the whole Psalm at one setting.
1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
And for today, I could identify with the whole Psalm at one setting.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Apologies. the following pictures are going to be quite random. They're just things I find noteworthy or interesting. hahaha :)
Mango tree which is heavily laden with fruits! hahaha. at my flat! it's a good form of being burdened! :D being burdened with ripening fruits! i want that for my life as well =D both in work and in ministry :D
Finally got the chance to try the Yong Tau Fu stall beside Ben Zhen Wanton noodles at cuppage :D hahaa. felt that it was so-so.. the sauce is nice 'cos of the abundance of sesame seeds! :D hahaha. so in conclusion, sesame seeds (or sesame oil for the matter) add aroma to a dish :)
Oreo cheesecake slice :) ate with huiying at toa payoh interchange basement foodcourt's bakery (that's quite long. HAHAHA. the cake was okay :) but the discussion and sharing was much much better :)
Birthday card (belated) from CG :) heee. made by michelle and huiying :) blessed =) thank God for them :)
Bazaar photos! (hahaha. more of the merchandise photos :D)
how the stuff looked like when they were at my house for storage. took up 1/4 of my living room space! >_<
on the day of bazaar! :D placed in suitcases for easy sorting and choosing :D
clothes on a rack...
books and videos :D
hahaha. dunno why i'm showing these photos :) good reminder of that day i guess. was quite a strange weathered day :)
Decided to go to tcc while waiting for bazaar to end so that i could plan out my objectives and what i want the kids to obtain from the camp and the programme :) tried the vege eleganza :D SUPER FILLING :S hee. but quite healthy la :) mentaiko tastes sooooooooooooo niceeee~
Mango tree which is heavily laden with fruits! hahaha. at my flat! it's a good form of being burdened! :D being burdened with ripening fruits! i want that for my life as well =D both in work and in ministry :D
Finally got the chance to try the Yong Tau Fu stall beside Ben Zhen Wanton noodles at cuppage :D hahaa. felt that it was so-so.. the sauce is nice 'cos of the abundance of sesame seeds! :D hahaha. so in conclusion, sesame seeds (or sesame oil for the matter) add aroma to a dish :)
Oreo cheesecake slice :) ate with huiying at toa payoh interchange basement foodcourt's bakery (that's quite long. HAHAHA. the cake was okay :) but the discussion and sharing was much much better :)
Birthday card (belated) from CG :) heee. made by michelle and huiying :) blessed =) thank God for them :)Bazaar photos! (hahaha. more of the merchandise photos :D)
how the stuff looked like when they were at my house for storage. took up 1/4 of my living room space! >_<
on the day of bazaar! :D placed in suitcases for easy sorting and choosing :D
clothes on a rack...
books and videos :D hahaha. dunno why i'm showing these photos :) good reminder of that day i guess. was quite a strange weathered day :)
Decided to go to tcc while waiting for bazaar to end so that i could plan out my objectives and what i want the kids to obtain from the camp and the programme :) tried the vege eleganza :D SUPER FILLING :S hee. but quite healthy la :) mentaiko tastes sooooooooooooo niceeee~
over the weeks, i took a few pictures of the places i've gone to and the food i've eaten. haahaha.
i love food. hahaha.
here are some of them :D
This is from Sumo House at Clementi :) went with cg pple (huiying, jan, ellson, jootat, james) after a visit to the nus hq :) hee. not nice. HAHAHA. hot soba. i asked for dipping sauce and they don't wanna give me. evil. LOL.
Went to Indulge with the nygep girls to celebrate Qing's birthday! :D too bad we didn't manage to get the inside nicer seats. hehe :\ this is my something dory fish i guess. hahaha. i can't quite remember what i ate. ah well.
Weezi and Yengyong! :) Weezi is michelle's colleague! :D hahaa. Yengyong is Weijian's colleague! :D
The drink i drank. heh. the comment given was that it tasted surprisingly like Huiyuan's drink. ah well :) i think it's bad to comment on photos after a substantial period of time has passed. i sincerely don't remember what the drink is called. LOL
This is Jitsy :) needs no explanation. HAHAHA. i dunno why she's tilted. i tried to rotate her pic, but it refused to be rotated. ah well. too bad then :X
The birthday girl :) friends for 12 years le. hee. love her bubbiness and liveliness :) miss talking about cute guys with her. LOL. and about ten points offshore. haha. and of course, with fungi.
jitsy again! with brownie. HAHAHA. that's our birthday 'cake' for qingz (the birthday girl). but mainly eaten by the rest of us. LOL. nice iso even bought a second one (which was consumed mainly by me and jits :S). hohoho.
jitsy, qing, yengyong and huiyuan. yingxin, guanzhen and iso were there too! but didn't manage to take a grp picture :(
more pictures in next entry~
i love food. hahaha.
here are some of them :D
This is from Sumo House at Clementi :) went with cg pple (huiying, jan, ellson, jootat, james) after a visit to the nus hq :) hee. not nice. HAHAHA. hot soba. i asked for dipping sauce and they don't wanna give me. evil. LOL.
Went to Indulge with the nygep girls to celebrate Qing's birthday! :D too bad we didn't manage to get the inside nicer seats. hehe :\ this is my something dory fish i guess. hahaha. i can't quite remember what i ate. ah well.
Weezi and Yengyong! :) Weezi is michelle's colleague! :D hahaa. Yengyong is Weijian's colleague! :D
The drink i drank. heh. the comment given was that it tasted surprisingly like Huiyuan's drink. ah well :) i think it's bad to comment on photos after a substantial period of time has passed. i sincerely don't remember what the drink is called. LOL
This is Jitsy :) needs no explanation. HAHAHA. i dunno why she's tilted. i tried to rotate her pic, but it refused to be rotated. ah well. too bad then :X
The birthday girl :) friends for 12 years le. hee. love her bubbiness and liveliness :) miss talking about cute guys with her. LOL. and about ten points offshore. haha. and of course, with fungi. 
jitsy again! with brownie. HAHAHA. that's our birthday 'cake' for qingz (the birthday girl). but mainly eaten by the rest of us. LOL. nice iso even bought a second one (which was consumed mainly by me and jits :S). hohoho.
jitsy, qing, yengyong and huiyuan. yingxin, guanzhen and iso were there too! but didn't manage to take a grp picture :(more pictures in next entry~
Friday, May 14, 2010
the other day i was just thinking that if i die on that day, i would probably have no regrets.
hahaa. no i wasn't having suicide ideations.
it's just that from time to time, i would think on certain days, mostly after accomplishing something, that if i die on that day, i would have no regrets.
it's a contented kind of feeling. like how one would prob feel after reviewing his/her life, take a deep breath, sigh and smile. hahahaa.
sure, there would probably be things that i wished i could have done.
like going to japan.
or getting married.
or having my own children.
or taking care of pets. (lots and lots!)
or planting a church for God.
or taking care of more people.
or impacting more lives.
or helping more people through counselling.
or growing in my counselling skills.
or writing a letter to everyone i love.
hahaa. and lots more.
but at times like these, these things would just be things.
and that moment, i felt content.
and pretty ready to meet God.
there are times when i didn't feel so ready to. hahaa. but that time was not such a time.
that was a time when i breathed in, breathed out and thought to myself 'ah, if i die now, i think i would have no regrets. God i'm ready to meet you.'
of course, God didn't take me away.
life still went on as per normal.
but i hope to continue living my life such that i can have days such as these again, and again.
days which i can say to God 'God, i'm ready to meet you.'
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i realized that nowadays, there're few things that shock me.
i'm not exactly sure that it's a good thing though.
or maybe i should put it this way.. the things don't shock me, but they affect me.
in a way i guess that's good ba. like counsellees will think that what they share is shocking, but it's not. heh.
finished watching 'last friends' today.
i have deep emotions while watching the show, probably 'cos i can understand and figure out what caused each character to do what they're doing.
and their issues are what stirs me deep inside. trauma, sexuality, abuse.
the domestic violence guy is not portrayed very well though :\
lol.
ueno juri acted her role VERY WELL. hohoho. apparently she did research. or rather, it's very convincing. and i'm sure people who're going through it can identify well too.
i quite liked the girl acting as michiru actually. there were people saying she can't act.. but i think her acting rather suits the character (albeit the character is a little irritating at time :X )
i like eita's acting. finito. not much progression in terms of his character though. till now i still have no idea what happened to him. hohoho.
no comments for everyone else. mother's attitude towards michiru at the end is not believable enough. lol
hahaa.
ah well :)
that was a major diversion from my original topic. LOL
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hahaa. no i wasn't having suicide ideations.
it's just that from time to time, i would think on certain days, mostly after accomplishing something, that if i die on that day, i would have no regrets.
it's a contented kind of feeling. like how one would prob feel after reviewing his/her life, take a deep breath, sigh and smile. hahahaa.
sure, there would probably be things that i wished i could have done.
like going to japan.
or getting married.
or having my own children.
or taking care of pets. (lots and lots!)
or planting a church for God.
or taking care of more people.
or impacting more lives.
or helping more people through counselling.
or growing in my counselling skills.
or writing a letter to everyone i love.
hahaa. and lots more.
but at times like these, these things would just be things.
and that moment, i felt content.
and pretty ready to meet God.
there are times when i didn't feel so ready to. hahaa. but that time was not such a time.
that was a time when i breathed in, breathed out and thought to myself 'ah, if i die now, i think i would have no regrets. God i'm ready to meet you.'
of course, God didn't take me away.
life still went on as per normal.
but i hope to continue living my life such that i can have days such as these again, and again.
days which i can say to God 'God, i'm ready to meet you.'
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i realized that nowadays, there're few things that shock me.
i'm not exactly sure that it's a good thing though.
or maybe i should put it this way.. the things don't shock me, but they affect me.
in a way i guess that's good ba. like counsellees will think that what they share is shocking, but it's not. heh.
finished watching 'last friends' today.
i have deep emotions while watching the show, probably 'cos i can understand and figure out what caused each character to do what they're doing.
and their issues are what stirs me deep inside. trauma, sexuality, abuse.
the domestic violence guy is not portrayed very well though :\
lol.
ueno juri acted her role VERY WELL. hohoho. apparently she did research. or rather, it's very convincing. and i'm sure people who're going through it can identify well too.
i quite liked the girl acting as michiru actually. there were people saying she can't act.. but i think her acting rather suits the character (albeit the character is a little irritating at time :X )
i like eita's acting. finito. not much progression in terms of his character though. till now i still have no idea what happened to him. hohoho.
no comments for everyone else. mother's attitude towards michiru at the end is not believable enough. lol
hahaa.
ah well :)
that was a major diversion from my original topic. LOL
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Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
just watched episode 6 of Angel Beats! :)
heh
i'm actually still grappling with what the anime is about.
it's as if the main story is not the important point, the stories of the individual characters are.
and the stories of the individual characters are the kind tt'd cause u to sit there and not move for some time. 'cos it's really quite raw and quite sad :(
heh
i'm actually still grappling with what the anime is about.
it's as if the main story is not the important point, the stories of the individual characters are.
and the stories of the individual characters are the kind tt'd cause u to sit there and not move for some time. 'cos it's really quite raw and quite sad :(
Monday, May 10, 2010
......
dm: why don't you speak in the volume to her (referring to another teacher) like how you're speaking to me now?
student: 'cos you're a man.
me at the side: (................. what the ....)
after some time:
student: because man is 讲道理。
student: because talk to man can easily solve problem.
me at the side: (what in the world)
dm: why don't you speak in the volume to her (referring to another teacher) like how you're speaking to me now?
student: 'cos you're a man.
me at the side: (................. what the ....)
after some time:
student: because man is 讲道理。
student: because talk to man can easily solve problem.
me at the side: (what in the world)
Sunday, May 09, 2010
Movie Taster : The Back-up Plan
Went to watch the movie after parting ways with Joe and Yizhong and Wanqi :)
Was quite tired. First time that I yawned through a movie (a dark cinema is conducive for sleeping!)
The movie describes a lady who has decided to inseminate herself (and became pregnant as a result) as she wants to have a family, but has somehow concluded that there is not going to be a likely chance that she'd meet someone whom she wants to marry. However, lo and behold, we see her meeting with someone whom she clicks with.
Movie's a little odd to me. It tries to be a serious comedy of some sort, but fails in either aspect. hahaa. There are some funny scenes (especially those dealing with children), and some serious things talked about (but these weren't expounded upon properly) in the movie.
Felt that it was interesting how they addressed the issue of trusting people. The movie also portrayed a potential father's fear in his inability to provide for the family, in adjustment to the wife's pregnancy, to rearing children. I find this refreshing as they usually depict the woman's perspective, but not quite the guy's.
Also quite refreshing to see a movie that depicts the different thing pregnant women face as well (cravings, hormonal changes...) and how the couple helps each other along (particularly loved the 'making pancakes' scene where the male character was stressed over the incoming twins, but did not say it out. he expressed it out through waking up in the middle of the night and making lots of pancakes. the female character then came out of the room, and gently ushered him back to bed. thought it was an unique moment 'cos usually they show the girl being the one who needs to be coaxed? but the scene shows that in the relationship, it was a side-by-side helping each other along thing.)
hahaa.
but having said that, there's a lot of bed scenes -.- (not explict, but not very subtle either). and the plot is sucky. ah well :)
Went to watch the movie after parting ways with Joe and Yizhong and Wanqi :)
Was quite tired. First time that I yawned through a movie (a dark cinema is conducive for sleeping!)
The movie describes a lady who has decided to inseminate herself (and became pregnant as a result) as she wants to have a family, but has somehow concluded that there is not going to be a likely chance that she'd meet someone whom she wants to marry. However, lo and behold, we see her meeting with someone whom she clicks with.
Movie's a little odd to me. It tries to be a serious comedy of some sort, but fails in either aspect. hahaa. There are some funny scenes (especially those dealing with children), and some serious things talked about (but these weren't expounded upon properly) in the movie.
Felt that it was interesting how they addressed the issue of trusting people. The movie also portrayed a potential father's fear in his inability to provide for the family, in adjustment to the wife's pregnancy, to rearing children. I find this refreshing as they usually depict the woman's perspective, but not quite the guy's.
Also quite refreshing to see a movie that depicts the different thing pregnant women face as well (cravings, hormonal changes...) and how the couple helps each other along (particularly loved the 'making pancakes' scene where the male character was stressed over the incoming twins, but did not say it out. he expressed it out through waking up in the middle of the night and making lots of pancakes. the female character then came out of the room, and gently ushered him back to bed. thought it was an unique moment 'cos usually they show the girl being the one who needs to be coaxed? but the scene shows that in the relationship, it was a side-by-side helping each other along thing.)
hahaa.
but having said that, there's a lot of bed scenes -.- (not explict, but not very subtle either). and the plot is sucky. ah well :)
Saturday, May 08, 2010
i'm sleepy.
and i have the desire to crawl back into bed and sleep and sleep and sleep.
wondering how i'd ever survive trying out the uberman schedule in June.
also just gave myself more work by agreeing to have a camp for the students in June.
LOL
planning out the camp and the 10 week programme for them! woohoo.
having money to play around is quite fun though. hahaah.
and i have the desire to crawl back into bed and sleep and sleep and sleep.
wondering how i'd ever survive trying out the uberman schedule in June.
also just gave myself more work by agreeing to have a camp for the students in June.
LOL
planning out the camp and the 10 week programme for them! woohoo.
having money to play around is quite fun though. hahaah.
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Monday, May 03, 2010
Today I'm blessed by three people! :D
hahaha
Am blessed by Ying Jie's email who reminded me that it is faith that produces miracles, not miracles which produces faith! :)
Am blessed by Hui Ying's presence and hard work as we did the preparation for the bazaar together :D Chi made friends with her! hahaa
Am blessed by Guan Rui's email who shared about his journey and life thus far :)
Am EXCITED for the uni-ya singers!
it's like. woww! we actually have a chance to serve the church and to serve God in such a way?!
so scary!
yet so exciting!
and so nervous!
wondering if we can do it.
wondering about skills.
wondering about time.
yet excited about the rare opportunity.
got a clearer idea of my role from God these days as a sister in a predominantly male caregroup as well :)
and Clara's sharing of the vision of a jewel from God confirmed what I've suspected and seen through the months. thank you God :)
hahaha
Am blessed by Ying Jie's email who reminded me that it is faith that produces miracles, not miracles which produces faith! :)
Am blessed by Hui Ying's presence and hard work as we did the preparation for the bazaar together :D Chi made friends with her! hahaa
Am blessed by Guan Rui's email who shared about his journey and life thus far :)
Am EXCITED for the uni-ya singers!
it's like. woww! we actually have a chance to serve the church and to serve God in such a way?!
so scary!
yet so exciting!
and so nervous!
wondering if we can do it.
wondering about skills.
wondering about time.
yet excited about the rare opportunity.
got a clearer idea of my role from God these days as a sister in a predominantly male caregroup as well :)
and Clara's sharing of the vision of a jewel from God confirmed what I've suspected and seen through the months. thank you God :)