I think we're much busier during the holidays than during school term=] It kind of trains you up to be more and more diligent.
I've realised a few things about my working style ever since last semester. Self-awareness i suppose. Knowing myself so that I can be more effective in serving God - sober judgement of my weaknesses and strengths.
I realised that while I'm more effective doing things individually than in a group, I am even more effective doing things in pairs than individually. And it'll help if I can constantly communicate with the person (e.g. talking) 'cos talking helps me to organise my thoughts and having another person doing it with you reassures me.
IRP is kind of throwing me off my track. haha. Got an email from Dr Tan and I haven't replied her 'cos I don't know if my study is on track or not. Feels a bit lost 'cos I haven't really concretize my methodology for the experiment. And yet i have the feeling i can concretize it in one day if i really sit down and read and think about it. However, I've not finished reading my journals.. so if I go and do the experiment now, it may be a waste of time 'cos I didn't even concretize my exact objectives in mind. hmm. On one hand, I don't want to miss out on this pool of people and the chance to just integrate my study into already-done experiment. On the other hand, I'm not prepared enough to tap on this pool of people. In short,
I'm kinda lost. XD
And i just remembered a journal i need to read for the lab meeting. hoohoo. talk about being scatterbrained!
Oh by the way, I realised that (realised this some time ago) that I have a spectrum of behaviour for stress.
Mild stress (to me, my definition of mild stress and others' definition may be slightly different. haha) --> Hyped up. Challenge.
Moderate stress --> Zonk out. Distract self. Run away.
Extreme stress (e.g. tmr need to hand in report, today haven't do) --> Chiong. Do things quite effectively. But will die the next few days. hahaa.
so actually, mild stress is good for me. LOL. okay.
goodnight=]
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Seems like we're supposed to post the answers to the questions in the 'true friend test (which is kinda biased.. hahaa. but yup)'
Here it is! (it's kinda strange doing this, yah?)
1) Which one of these ccas was I never in before?
Ans: The answer would be swimming. hahaa. I was in table tennis in P4 and 5, was in basketball and band in the first three months.
2) What are my two favourite characters from the Winnie the Pooh cartoon?
Ans: Tigger and Eeyore. Tigger 'cos he's orange and he's bouncy and he takes things in his stride. Eeyore 'cos of his melancholic nature and his endearing look=]
3) When did I first start wearing specs?
Ans: 4 years old. Sad thing ah. Kindergarten photos show everyone without specs and me wearing them. hahaha:)
4) Which bible character do I find myself identifying the most with?
Ans: hehee. A lot of people chose Peter. Why? hahaa. I identify the most with David. His songs of praise and worship towards God mirrors what I would say. His heart after God is what I want to emulate. His love towards people is what I wish to grow in more and more each day as well.
5) What is my language of love?
Ans: A lot of people chose words of affirmation for this. haha. I have two equal languages of love. touch and quality time:) surprise surprise. yes i know. Words of affirmation make me feel somewhat uncomfortable =] ha ha ha.
6) When did I start loving psychology and want to study it in uni?
Ans: Sec 2 xD Because of some show I can't remember now. hahahaa.
7) What is one instrument I've always wanted to learn since young?
Ans: The piano. Will try to learn from classmates about how to play the piano.. not the scales, but just how to play certain things. I love the sound of the piano. It did change to violin though, after I learned that my mum used to be a violin player...haha. Surprisingly, I can't sit through recitals. but i do enjoy watching anime with classical music. hahaha. depends.
8) What are three of my favourite fruits?
Ans: They're all yellow=] Lemon, mango and pineapple xD And no, yellow isn't my favourite colour.
9) When I'm shy or tired, I...
Ans: Become very quiet. Unless I have to talk.
10) What are my favourite colours?
Ans: Pink, purple and orange. the order changes. currently I prefer purple. There was a period of time which i preferred orange. depends=] but it revolves around these three colours. hahaha.
yup. the end.
Here it is! (it's kinda strange doing this, yah?)
1) Which one of these ccas was I never in before?
Ans: The answer would be swimming. hahaa. I was in table tennis in P4 and 5, was in basketball and band in the first three months.
2) What are my two favourite characters from the Winnie the Pooh cartoon?
Ans: Tigger and Eeyore. Tigger 'cos he's orange and he's bouncy and he takes things in his stride. Eeyore 'cos of his melancholic nature and his endearing look=]
3) When did I first start wearing specs?
Ans: 4 years old. Sad thing ah. Kindergarten photos show everyone without specs and me wearing them. hahaha:)
4) Which bible character do I find myself identifying the most with?
Ans: hehee. A lot of people chose Peter. Why? hahaa. I identify the most with David. His songs of praise and worship towards God mirrors what I would say. His heart after God is what I want to emulate. His love towards people is what I wish to grow in more and more each day as well.
5) What is my language of love?
Ans: A lot of people chose words of affirmation for this. haha. I have two equal languages of love. touch and quality time:) surprise surprise. yes i know. Words of affirmation make me feel somewhat uncomfortable =] ha ha ha.
6) When did I start loving psychology and want to study it in uni?
Ans: Sec 2 xD Because of some show I can't remember now. hahahaa.
7) What is one instrument I've always wanted to learn since young?
Ans: The piano. Will try to learn from classmates about how to play the piano.. not the scales, but just how to play certain things. I love the sound of the piano. It did change to violin though, after I learned that my mum used to be a violin player...haha. Surprisingly, I can't sit through recitals. but i do enjoy watching anime with classical music. hahaha. depends.
8) What are three of my favourite fruits?
Ans: They're all yellow=] Lemon, mango and pineapple xD And no, yellow isn't my favourite colour.
9) When I'm shy or tired, I...
Ans: Become very quiet. Unless I have to talk.
10) What are my favourite colours?
Ans: Pink, purple and orange. the order changes. currently I prefer purple. There was a period of time which i preferred orange. depends=] but it revolves around these three colours. hahaha.
yup. the end.
Another thing which God reminded me about during Alpha.
the story of Nicodemus, a teacher of the law.
He knows a lot about the old testamant teachings and its prophecies, but he did not have a personal relationship with God.
let us continue to not just know more (in terms of knowledge and experience) in our heads, but know more in our hearts as well.
the story of Nicodemus, a teacher of the law.
He knows a lot about the old testamant teachings and its prophecies, but he did not have a personal relationship with God.
let us continue to not just know more (in terms of knowledge and experience) in our heads, but know more in our hearts as well.
during worship today, the words 'God has set eternity in the hearts of men' kept coming to mind.. and when Jasmine spoke, she shared about God putting eternity into our hearts as well.
the verse itself:
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
Ecclesiastes 3:11
God has set eternity in the hearts of men.. that's why men strive for things greater than themselves. things which are beyond what they see, things beyond what they can normally do. Beyond ourselves. Beyond the time we're limited by. A stirring in our hearts to do more..
Yet even as God has set eternity in our hearts, we're limited. We're limited by the works of sin.. the circumstances we find ourselves in, the limitations of our human body, our innate sinful nature that's been with us ever since we're born. there exists the constant struggle which lies between the hope for eternity, and our limitations.
And as human beings, we really do tend to look to the physical. When circumstances go bad, we doubt. When things don't go our way, we question. When situations get tougher, we run away. When the questions get too hard, we look for an easy explanation out. And we slowly cover the eternity set in our hearts with the limitations we possess, then we slowly melt into a sluggish blob of mash, instead of being the vessel which we can be in Christ.
And we forget that our destiny is in Christ. That we can be victorious in Him. that we can do much more when we let Jesus be at the steering wheel instead.
When we are weak, then we are strong.. because of we have an all-powerful, all-knowing, all-living God.
the verse itself:
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
Ecclesiastes 3:11
God has set eternity in the hearts of men.. that's why men strive for things greater than themselves. things which are beyond what they see, things beyond what they can normally do. Beyond ourselves. Beyond the time we're limited by. A stirring in our hearts to do more..
Yet even as God has set eternity in our hearts, we're limited. We're limited by the works of sin.. the circumstances we find ourselves in, the limitations of our human body, our innate sinful nature that's been with us ever since we're born. there exists the constant struggle which lies between the hope for eternity, and our limitations.
And as human beings, we really do tend to look to the physical. When circumstances go bad, we doubt. When things don't go our way, we question. When situations get tougher, we run away. When the questions get too hard, we look for an easy explanation out. And we slowly cover the eternity set in our hearts with the limitations we possess, then we slowly melt into a sluggish blob of mash, instead of being the vessel which we can be in Christ.
And we forget that our destiny is in Christ. That we can be victorious in Him. that we can do much more when we let Jesus be at the steering wheel instead.
When we are weak, then we are strong.. because of we have an all-powerful, all-knowing, all-living God.
Monday, June 18, 2007
Recently i got too used to the sleeping at 4am, wake up at 10 or 11am routine. So when i slept at 4+am, and had to wake up at 8+ today..i really struggled. i was happily zonked out=D awoke at 9.30am in the end, washed up, changed, grabbed my sermon notebook and went out of the house at 9.50am. Thank God for fresh morning air:)
i was super exhausted for the whole day. haha. but thank God that it wasn't during the times when i had to serve. while doing infocounter, i was relatively awake... hahaa. then when i went for lunch, i started to be sleepy again:S drinking coffee doesn't help:P it caused me to fall asleep while sitting upright.
ohohoh. but today was quite an intriguing day:D first time i saw nexus filled with so few pple. so quiet! so strange. hahaa. nevertheless, really quite amazed at the pple who came for service (even though their caregroup pple are like overseas and all..) these people had the desire to worship God for who He is, regardless of whether their cg members are there to prompt them. having the conviction which prompted them to love God even when no one is there to see. i thank God for these people:) got some pple came at the wrong timing though. haha. so poor thing.
i got to see lots of kids! hahaa. 'cos they were having hopetots at europe room..then they ended earlier than the adults. hahaa. you see small little human beings (around the age of 2) walking around.. playing in front of the mirror, falling and crying (:S), messing up bulletins:D saw sophica again! (the child of the hope germany couple.. issit hope germany.. hmm) caught her wandering ard the counter, picking pamphlets up and throwing them all over the floor. hahaha! so naughty! lol. then subsequently she fell onto another toddler. literally squished her happily XD before that she was lifting up the flap of a pram, then the toddler inside pulled it down again. so it went on. up, down up... then wander off.
seeing toddlers elicited a desire in me to want to experiment on them. hahaha!
oh oh! i made a new friend with the philipino group pple:) her name is Fiona. she's 15 months old and she pronounces her name as Iona. She decided to emulate Sophica and throw pamphlets on the floor too=] hahaha. but she's so smart! i waved to her, she waved to me. then i clapped and she clapped. and we clapped in turn to the praise song. hahaha. delightful:)
[mental note: at 1 yr 3 months, some babies dunno how to pronounce the sound of 'f']
i read somewhere that 'Father' is the gentlest name for a guy... think i saw lots of fathers today=] it's like mori senpai with honey senpai on his shoulders. he can look dao.. or aloof.. but when the 'lovely item' is on his shoulders, it softened the whole outlook. the amazing thing is, i saw more fathers carrying childen today than mothers. maybe 'cos it's father's day. haha.
i'm not particularly a lover of children:) but these toddlers perked my day. haha. their antics entertain them. i think if i have a child, i'll be laughing at him or her all day. poor child:P LOL
i was super exhausted for the whole day. haha. but thank God that it wasn't during the times when i had to serve. while doing infocounter, i was relatively awake... hahaa. then when i went for lunch, i started to be sleepy again:S drinking coffee doesn't help:P it caused me to fall asleep while sitting upright.
ohohoh. but today was quite an intriguing day:D first time i saw nexus filled with so few pple. so quiet! so strange. hahaa. nevertheless, really quite amazed at the pple who came for service (even though their caregroup pple are like overseas and all..) these people had the desire to worship God for who He is, regardless of whether their cg members are there to prompt them. having the conviction which prompted them to love God even when no one is there to see. i thank God for these people:) got some pple came at the wrong timing though. haha. so poor thing.
i got to see lots of kids! hahaa. 'cos they were having hopetots at europe room..then they ended earlier than the adults. hahaa. you see small little human beings (around the age of 2) walking around.. playing in front of the mirror, falling and crying (:S), messing up bulletins:D saw sophica again! (the child of the hope germany couple.. issit hope germany.. hmm) caught her wandering ard the counter, picking pamphlets up and throwing them all over the floor. hahaha! so naughty! lol. then subsequently she fell onto another toddler. literally squished her happily XD before that she was lifting up the flap of a pram, then the toddler inside pulled it down again. so it went on. up, down up... then wander off.
seeing toddlers elicited a desire in me to want to experiment on them. hahaha!
oh oh! i made a new friend with the philipino group pple:) her name is Fiona. she's 15 months old and she pronounces her name as Iona. She decided to emulate Sophica and throw pamphlets on the floor too=] hahaha. but she's so smart! i waved to her, she waved to me. then i clapped and she clapped. and we clapped in turn to the praise song. hahaha. delightful:)
[mental note: at 1 yr 3 months, some babies dunno how to pronounce the sound of 'f']
i read somewhere that 'Father' is the gentlest name for a guy... think i saw lots of fathers today=] it's like mori senpai with honey senpai on his shoulders. he can look dao.. or aloof.. but when the 'lovely item' is on his shoulders, it softened the whole outlook. the amazing thing is, i saw more fathers carrying childen today than mothers. maybe 'cos it's father's day. haha.
i'm not particularly a lover of children:) but these toddlers perked my day. haha. their antics entertain them. i think if i have a child, i'll be laughing at him or her all day. poor child:P LOL
Monday, June 11, 2007
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Today i met up with Dr Tan in her office to discuss about a possible IRP topic. She's very nice.. going through with me the possible things I can do.. as well as when i can conduct the experiments and all. I came out thinking 'what did I get myself into?' =S=S=S lol. shucks. i really don't know what to do.. haha. i work better alone.. but i think i work better alone when clear guidelines are already given. haha. i guess it'll be a nice challenge=D but i'll need help. do help me. wahaha.
This week is a week of meetups=] Tiring on the body, tiring on the wallet, but refreshing to the soul=] haha. Update another time ba. and i seriously think my laptop needs repairing le. so sad.
This week is a week of meetups=] Tiring on the body, tiring on the wallet, but refreshing to the soul=] haha. Update another time ba. and i seriously think my laptop needs repairing le. so sad.
An excerpt from an email from Dr Tan:)
We are looking for healthy volunteers aged between 18 and 89 years old, who will be willing to take part in our research study involving language and cognition. You will be asked to do some simple reading tasks and cognitive tests. You will receive $20 for your time and effort, and sessions can be held at your home. Interested volunteers are requested to email Geetha at psygv@nus.edu.sg or call 6516 5000.
Please help. hahaha. thank you=] it's not easy to get subjects. By the way, Geetha might even be willing to go down to your house i think. If she asks how you know abt the experiment, you're welcome to say you got it from my blog. LOL. kidding:)
the bottomline is, help=]
We are looking for healthy volunteers aged between 18 and 89 years old, who will be willing to take part in our research study involving language and cognition. You will be asked to do some simple reading tasks and cognitive tests. You will receive $20 for your time and effort, and sessions can be held at your home. Interested volunteers are requested to email Geetha at psygv@nus.edu.sg or call 6516 5000.
Please help. hahaha. thank you=] it's not easy to get subjects. By the way, Geetha might even be willing to go down to your house i think. If she asks how you know abt the experiment, you're welcome to say you got it from my blog. LOL. kidding:)
the bottomline is, help=]
