i have lots of thoughts in my mind.. been having lots of whirling thoughts since last night. very bogged down by certain things. certain things which i don't understand (and still don't, and will never understand. haha). quite stupid hor, to think about things which you will never be able to fathom 'cos of my finite understanding.
i've never had grandparents. or rather, when i was born, only my grandmother was left in the world, and i can't pretty much remember her very well 'cos she died when i was in primary 2.
so i guess in a sense, i might not be able to fully understand the grief that comes when a family member is very ill or dies. i can only pray.
bothered by certain negative thoughts i have. hahaa. it's very stupid when you know they're negative thoughts, yet you're still bogged down by then.. 'cos looking at the situation, it seems as though the negative thoughts are right.
but God works for the best of those who love Him.
ah.
haha.
don't know why i always struggle with understanding.
understanding and the need to know. gracious. strength and weakness.
alamak.