where there once was frustration,
there is hope
where there once was fear,
there is comfort,
where there once was just you,
there is God.

the reason as to why i didn't update yesterday even when i was at home was 'cos i was stupidifyingly sick ever since i woke up at 7am. (ehz. dun think there's a word such as stupidifying. but it sounds nice anyway, haha:)
had fever and i couldn't stand up at all 'cos i'll start feeling puke-ish and dizzified (nono...there isn't such a word as dizzified as well) once i try to stand up. then my vision will turn black and then i can't hear and before i faint or something, i'll tumble onto my bed and everything will come back progressively once more:) (the word progressive has been stuck on my mind ever since word for life lesson this morning)
so, i had to call long yuan to tell her i had a fever, can't go for caregroup and the seminar and had to spend like 3/4 of the day lying in bed sleeping. hahaha:) at least i had lots of rest:) had a nice time talking to my mum as well:) ate my first meal at 3+(?), then proceeded to puke everything out after i ate medicine which is supposed to prevent me from puking. ah wellz:)
second meal was at 7++... mi fen tang:D not much appetite either:)
anyway, main point is that i feel so horribly horrible that seriously, i couldn't see any thing to learn from me being sick. ('cos i believe that through everything, God will give me something to learn). but then, i'm shortsighted (literally and figuratively, and God proved Himself to me once again:D)
felt much better this morning, so i decided to go for wfl class:) met mingxiu at the mrt station waiting for xuan an...then i thought, okay, so me and jitsy aren't the only ones who're going to be late. hahaha:)
went to class and found out that our instructors are late too! eepz. heh:) ah wellz.sat with jun ting and someone else who was also late:) (not very good...this bad habit of not being punctual) and just basically viewed the whole class with a feeling that i'm detached from the world. luckily my mind could still work. hehehe:)
then huichun and junting prayed for me for healing once more...and jun ting said something about 'have the faith to believe'. guess my faith in God wasn't strong enough, 'cos immediately after i stepped out of the place, i felt intense giddiness...and has to sit on the bench outside the bioskin place. ah wellz:) felt quite bad actually. huichun had to be with me for the whole entire seemingly long journey to nexus...'cos i kept resting after walking every few minutes:P
gradually, i could feel God's presence coming unto me...from all the pple around me who were concerned about me...all at once, i could feel once again how loving and caring my brothers and sisters are. very touched. they make God visible to me when i'm sick:)
and i witnessed a healing today!:D on me:D was healed after the service... had to build up my faith throughout the service though...kept praying and praying (think pple were praying for me too:) to ask for healing:D and God is good:), He healed me:D and from being extremely weak, not wanting to talk at all and hardly able to walk properly, i could talk a lot, jump a bit and yepz. walk around by myself without help from anyone. hehehe:D and i learned how to praise Him in whatever situations i'm in too!:D
i feel that i easily forget about the good things God has done for me...must need constant reminders. hehehe:) not very good. must remember:)

sister was singing this song:) and i suddenly had the urge to look up the lyrics:) so here it goes:)

[God rest ye merry gentlemen]

God rest ye merry gentlemen,
Let nothing you dismay,
Remember Christ our Saviour
Was born on Christmas Day;
To save us all from Satan's power
When we were gone astray.

O tidings of comfort and joy,
Comfort and joy,
O tidings of comfort and joy!

From God our heavenly Father
A blessed angel came;
And unto certain shepherds
Brought tiding of the same;
How that in Bethlehem was born
The Son of God by name.

[Chorus]

Now to the Lord sing praises,
All you within this place,
And with true love and brotherhood
Each other now embrace;
this holy tide of Christmas
All others doth deface.

[Chorus]

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hahaha. whatever that may be. i have never heard of it before:D prob an alcoholic drink or something. speaking of which, red wine mooncake is yummy:D lag lag lag...tried that favour last friday. hahahaha:D nina would know:)

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papa smurf? what does papa smurf do? how odd:)
yepz anyway.woke up super late today...i nearly fainted when i saw the time. hahaha:D poor weez had to stay at home for a long while before getting out of house to finally go to school:) can't exactly remember what i did in school today...too stoned i suppose:)
steph. here's a hug for u!:) *hugs*
had a refreshing time during bible study with junting, as well as with yingying, clydina and ming xiu:D though i think i babbled quite a lot of nonsense today. neurones in the brain aren't sending electrical impulses very well:)
wonder if the whole world's looking out for mars right now:D just looked out and saw nothing but a satellite blinking:D hehehe:) shall continue watching out for it:) used to love astronomy like nuts...buying all the astronomy books and what-nots. hahaha:) wonder what happened to that passion:) guess it has been translated to loving science-fic magazines like nuts. like Analog(!) and Asimov(!):)

With the escalating influence of globalization, the world is beginning to look at matters such as info-communications, biology, technology, religious fundamentalism from new and quite often, revolutionary perspectives. How can the youths of today – the leaders of tomorrow – remain competitive in the pragmatic New Economy without losing sight of our ethical values in the face of mounting socio-economical pressures from all fronts?
To explore this situation further, it is the pleasure of the Living Life Arm of the Generation ACTS Club to bring you the seminar “Remaking the Singaporean Youth”. Our distinguished guest speaker for this event is Dr Vivian Balakrishnan, Minister of State for National Development, Trade and Industry. Dr Balakrishnan has also recently been appointed as Chairman of the National Youth Council. His passion for youths is evident and it is indeed our immense privilege to have him speak at our seminar.

In the 45-minute address cum 1 hour question and answer session, you can expect Dr Balakrishnan to touch on various issues such as:

* How youths today can achieve their aspirations in a seemingly pragmatic society.
* The role youths, youth workers and youth organizations could play in remaking the Singaporean Youth.
* The projected state of youths in Singapore in the next 5-10 years and the implications this would have on youths, youth workers and youth organizations.

By organising this seminar, we hope to create and promote awareness of the issues facing us today and learn from our guest speaker how we can play our part as both individuals and as an organisation such as our club to help in “Remaking the Singaporean Youth”.

Admission to this seminar is strictly by invitation-tickets only; hence, we appreciate your registration before the 20th of August 2003. Tickets will be released only upon confirmation and payment on the 21st August. We urge you to register quickly to avoid missing out on the opportunity to learn more about how and where you would fit in “Remaking the Singaporean Youth”.

Seminar details

Title : Remaking the Singaporean Youth
Guest Speaker : Dr Vivian Balakrishnan, Minister of State for National Development, Trade and Industry
Date : 30th August 2003 (Saturday)
Time : 1.30 pm to 4.30 pm
Venue : Orchard Hotel, Ballroom 3
Fees : S$5 per participant for members, $10 for non-members
Contact : Respective community representatives

yepz. anyone interested can just tell me:D strongly recommended to go!:D if u're interested, i'll go too:D

was very nice studying with corinne, steph and dancing just now at burger king:D very fun, very happy. very ...fattening
hahhaah:D 'cos i kept eating and eating like mad. according to my calculations, i've eaten a total of 6 full meals today:D wonderful, ain't it?:D
ah wellz. just wanna say it was great studying with u all:D let's study together again, yah?:D

yepz:D send michelle off on sunday night... going to miss her cheekiness and everything else. ah wellz:)
i feel very guai these days...never pon any lessons yet:D hahaha:D though i've been sleeping in lects and tutorials...so i guess it doesn't make too much of a difference:)
found out that i've a very nice og mate indeed:D javin's a nice og mate who always answers my questions without asking:D very glad for my og. hahaha:D epirotes! we rock:D
anyway...i set a book free today:D hehehe. go to the website bookcrossing.com for more details:D yepz. hopefully someone will pick up the book and write a journal entry on it:D if no one does...i'll just hafta release another book. they say only 1 in 10 books get lucky enough to have a journal entry. so i'm kinda prepared for that:D anyway, i left the book on bus 197 on the way to dunno-where:D hehehe:D nearly forgot to write this down...until steph reminded me on msn:D thankz!:D
oh yah! must write this down too:D just now when i was feeling super tired, super lethargic and super dun-want-to-do-anything-but-sleep on the bus on the way home, i suddenly felt like praying to God:D hehehe..so i decided to talk to Him in with a very tired state of mind and i was praying that i can keep awake at least for quiet time:) then all of a sudden, a thunderstorm began! it was like...one moment, nice and peaceful, next moment, lightning and thunder and heavy showers:) hahaha:D felt very surprised and very happy 'cos i love rainy nights and yepz. the rain was what allowed me to become alert and more awake:) must really thank God for that:D He knows exactly what i wanted:) amazinG:D

A LETTER TO YOU FROM SATAN
I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores. You awoke without kneeling to pray. As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals, or pray before going to bed last night.
You are so unthankful, I like that about you. I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living, Fool, you are
mine.
Remember, you and I have been going steady for years, and I still don't love you yet. As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God. I am only using you to get even with God. He kicked me out of heaven, and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay him back.
You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you. But you have yielded your life to me, and I'm going to make your life a living hell. That way, we'll be together twice. This will really hurt God!
Thanks to you, I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life with all of the good times we've had. We have been watching dirty movies, cursing people out, stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping, being judgmental, backstabbing people, disrespecting adults, and those in leadership positions, no respect for the Church, bad attitudes.
SURELY you don't want to give all this up. Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever. I've got some hot plans for us. This is just a letter of appreciation from me to you. I'd like to say "THANKS" for letting me use you for most of your foolish life. You are so gullible, I laugh at you. When you are tempted to sin, you give in HA HA HA, you make me sick. Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life. You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood. So go ahead and teach some children how to sin. All you have to do is smoke, get drunk or drink while under-aged, cheat, gamble, gossip, fornicate, and live being as selfish as possible.
Do all of this in the presence of children and they will do it too. Kids are like that. Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now. I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again. If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess you sins, and live for God with what little bit of life that you have left. It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous.
Don't get me wrong, I still hate you. IT'S JUST THAT YOU'D MAKE A BETTER FOOL FOR CHRIST.

P.S. If you really love me, you won't share this letter with anyone

and today. went for usual service:D wonderful praise and worship! hahaha:D brilliant songs there was:D bought some stuff from Hope resource as well:) wonderful bookstore:D hahaa:)
sad to say. i lost my pencil box. can't find it at all. ah wellz. nvm about it:D
shall talk about the dinner with michelle tmr:D terribly sleepy now:D goodnight:D

saturday:D it was nice having a sink to myself while doing chem practical...although the part about having all the bottles leaking out their contents all over my hand was not a particularly nice experience. oh yah! i broke a testtube too... heh:) chem promos prac over. one down. lots more to go:D *grInz*
had bible study in the afternoon with mingxiu:D then we did lots and lots of homework:D hahaha:D not finished with them yet though. was writing out the points for bio essay when the paper flew to the chilli ...and tata! i have chillified paper. then rewrote it and tata! it happened once more. rewrote it again and tata! hahaha:D dun need me to continue to guess what happened:D so i decided to just use tissue to wipe the chilli off. ah wellz:D
went to the first ever Uni service after that...service was so cool!:D had pple all dressed up like the agents in matrix...then had a wonderful mime being put up by our creative team:D as Alan said, it's truly just a notch beneath world class standard:D had a wonderful teaching about philosophy, Jesus and blah too:D my foundation was built up too:D
very happy to see Shu Wen (nyjc bball mate) and Adeline (primary school classmate!:D) on sat night..hahaha:D
ohohoh! i found out that eng hao was from poi ching too (apparently). can't remember who told me though. hehehe:D

it is the morning after uni service:D hahaha:D supposed to be doing something to send to junting right now but i feel sleepy..tired...lethargic...lack of sleep...brain cells dead...hope she doesn't kill me if i send it tomorrow morning instead:)
when was the last time i updated? thurs? fri?:D think it's thurs. let's talk about what happened on friday:) *grInz* friday morning was terribly amusing:D was happily thinking that i've finished pw and was going to sleep at 12+ when jac called me up and told me happily that she couldn't receive my e-mail..so i had to drag myself outta bed and send it to her..then she asked if i can categorize them...blah blah. then i helped to do the feminism aspect of the pill as well:) all these led to me sleeping at 2++. ah wellz:) at least i got to know jac better:) pat fell asleep on that night...hahaha:D
friday morning in school...people were doing their pw throughout the entire day. it was like..chinese lesson consisted of people who will usually pon the class:D *grInz* people who have always attended classes were not seen at all! hahaha:)
saw michelle (goh) in school! she's leaving for norway this sunday.. so fast.. ah wellz:) guess we'll miss her:) all her pranks and cheekiness and what-nots:) she's like...one of the only three pple who have been with me in the same class for all four years:) ah wellz.
ponned last maths lect in the day to go to bk with lydia and corinne...hahaha i know it's quite bad but i've attended almost every tutorial and lecture that everyone else ponned. so yupz. and the opportunity cost to study for promos' chem prac instead is quite low... had an amused time at bk... btw, i've already clarified everything. now corinne won't be so xin1 tong4 over him. hahahaha:D
then met nina for dinner:D had a nice time talking to her after not seeing her for like an eternity. though i must admit, me being kinda broke hampered our progress in the buying dinner aspect. hehee:) i'll save up for the next time!:D
oh no. i feel terribly sleepy. going to sleep. can hear clover biting the door (!) hah.

i'm dying down here. hahaha:D being buried in a whole pile of notes about the birth control pill and organ transplantation while xuan an was dancing and shawn was busking in the moonlight. hahhahaa:D
i'm going to be so dead tomorrow during school:D *grInz* how fun. just hope i dun start spouting nonsense:D maybe i can ask God for refreshment:D *grInz*

hmmmz
i have lots and lots of pw stuff to do...and i haven't started. hahahaha:D going to pia the whole night away...have fun xinying:D ah wellz.


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today!:D today was nice too! 'cos i've finally remembered to bring my mentos!:D hahaha:D of which were gone by the end of the PW period...ah wellz:)
was quite amused today during the two toilet trips which me and steph made during bio prac..:) during the first trip, we found out that the school has installed in every girls' toilet, a sanitary pad machine...those which u slot in 40 cents and out comes a box with a pad inside...then, dancing happened to come into the toilet...when steph saw dancing, she went 'hey!' and dancing went ...ehz. i dunno how she went. just remembered that she went totally excited and starting exclaiming... it was quite amusing. 'cos the exclamations were quite loud and everyone in the class near the toilet (including the teacher) turned to face us. hahahah:) i'm glad i quickly hid behind the wall. ah wellz:)
then the second toilet trip, we found out that the machine doesn't work. hahaha:) somebody put in 80cents and beat the machine till her hand hurts before she realised that it's of no use. ah wellz:)
yepz:) anyway, had bible study after school at city hall:) was happily sitting in long john's silver when suddenly i heard a familiar voice behind me. hahaha:) saw fungi! i have absolutely no idea how she popped up...ah wellz:) turns out that she's meeting qingz to buy a mambo bag in the afternoon at 4+:) yepz:) perked me up quite a bit:D brilliant:)

gracious. three pple sent me surveys to do within the past 2(?) days... ah wellz:) guess everyone's rushing out their first drafts:D hahha:) my group second draft survey's by hand this time.. or else i'll be sending to everyone else too:D *grInz*
tuesday. tuesday was a day without lydia...'cos she sprained her ankle during pe on monday:) poor girl. anywayz, tuesday was quite nice too:) though seriously i dun remember what i did...except for taekwondo:) was quite surprised to find out that Hillsong's actually coming to Singapore...they're having two performances...one on sat and one on sunday night:) junting says the performances are supposed to be service as well:) yepz:) i guess i'll just pass it by...no money. hahahha:D and i found another nice place to do hw! the nice high tables beside the carrot cake stall in junction 8 foodcourt! except that u'll have to remember to buy something 'cos if u dun, u'll feel terribly guilty for being down there:) nice environment (if u ignore the noise), bright lights and not too cold aircon:D hahaha:)
anyway, here's the song (dunno if i've pasted this here before:):
When God ran

Almighty God, the great I am
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome Lord
Victorious Warrior, commanding King of Kings
Mighty Conqueror, and the only time
The only time I ever saw Him run

is when He ran to me, took me in His arms
held my head to His chest, said "my son's come home again"
looked at my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
with forgiveness in His voice he said "son, do you know I still love you?"
it caught me by surprise, brought me to my knees when God ran

the day I left home, I knew I had broken His heart
I wondered then if things could ever be the same
then one night, I remembered His love for me
and down that dusty road ahead I could see
and the only time, the only time I ever saw Him run

yepz...anyway. sat:D sat was a marvellously brilliant slackish day in which all that i could remember was that i was sleeping throughout the entire day (well...i was suffering from a terrible lack of sleep...so much that it was affecting my mood on friday:D hehehehehehe:D) and went for bag-shopping during evening time:D didn't buy any bags though. saw this bag that i saw previously at heeren while i was buying serene's present with peilee and tracy (hehehe) selling for $12.90 in toa payoh while it was $20+ at heeren. hmmmz.
sunday! sunday we had a BRILLIANT service with the front of the auditorium having finding marlin stuff and visitors to the service having 'finding nemo' post-it pads and stuff around (which i think wasn't terribly fair. what about us? *sobsob* hahahha:D) and they were giving away 2 $10 sakae sushi vouchers to pple who'd give an answer to what a character will say at a particular scenario. and we had pastor jeff (he's usually in charge of youth service) giving the sermon:D about the prodigal son...thought it was quite interesting that it's mentioned once more...'cos there's actually a song written on the father running to the son part:D just like how our Father in heaven will run to anyone willing to turn back to Him:)
monday. didn't feel quite well..so i took early leave home:D rested a bit... home does have that soothing effect on a person:D well. felt better, then decided to go to the library to do hw:D yep. saw the librarian who's in charge of story telling to the kids and talked to her for a little bit:D still very friendly!:D everyone should come to toa payoh library to do hw:D rocks man!

hmmm...looks like i haven't updated for a long time:D *grInz*
let me start from last friday:) performed in the morning for chinese society:) yeah! made a friend from council in the meantime (nice person! she still owes me my shirt though...hahaha)...had fun. grinned like mad after the performance was over..blahblah. then we had maths buddy...which wasn't exactly very fun. but it could have been worse if not for steph's company (and later, rux's company) and the nice mentors (mentors! the freshmakers!) that we had on that day:) *beamz*:D
then...rushed down to orchard to meet pple:D *grInz* took a neocard. very happy 'cos some kind soul (the person with the 'cool and funky' hairstyle) treated the three of us to ice cream! the New Zealand thingie...which seriously speaking, i can't really recall the name:) ah wellz. and i tried the croquette sold at far east! both the original and the seafood:) and i ate yakitori! hahahah:)
yeah...then on the way to cuppage, we met steph, corinne, rux and lydia after they've had their sushi buffet:D hahahaa:) the number of pple i've met on friday's amazing...met like 10 pple i properly know as a friend in the first 15 mins i reached orchard:) ah wellz:)
then went to cuppage to have the university district meeting:D (haven't had one for like...ehz. three months or so?:D) we used nexus...had a wonderful slide show about the country of Sweden and it really brought out the need for our missions team to go forth and share christ with them:) yepz...i've always felt very inspired after attending prayer meets:D hehehehe:)

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the main purpose of this post is to announce that i'm still alive and kicking:D hahaha:D nah...just kidding:D
been busy with chinese society rehearsal these few days...ccas seem to be bugging for something nowadays...how odd. and financially, i'm going broke. Paid $10 for class fund, $4.30 for the photocopying of stuff, $6 for 2 pencils (ah wellz)and $5 to my PW fund...need to pay $20 to taekwondo fund, $12 for a chinese play (maybe i shouldn't go..), $10 for writers' circle and goodness knows what else. hahaha:D
ah wellz:)
can't wait for friday to arrive:D hahaha...i wanted to bring home my bio 10 years series today but i realised i left it backstage...so can't do bio hw. ah wellz. mr toh will slaughter me. hehhe:)

we had missions sunday today:D very cool! 'cos there were buskers handing out brochures and five buskers standing perfectly still and holding this globe that is sort of like a gigantic beach ball with lots of small flags pasted all over it:) i felt like poking them but jun ting says it isn't very nice to do so. so sad:D *grInz*:D
and we had praise and worship songs in all sorts of different languages playing before the service itself, and a video clip about our church planters in Johannesburg and Peru:D *grInz*:) it's very interesting to see south africans with our brothers and sisters singing together:) yepz:D

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ehz...succseed??? right.

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hahahah! i'm one! i should start dating myself:D *grInz*:D

i really admire jun ting...she can handle SO MANY things in her life SO WELL. first she has her studying to begin with (the stress of doing well enough so that she won't lose her scholarship), then she has to juggle spending time with her family, friends and her ministry. Next, she has to ensure that all of her sheep get bible study once a week (me, mingxiu, hui chun and zi wei), then she's still the caregroup leader, which means that she has to ensure the spiritual well being of all of us too (me, jitsy, hui chun and ziwei) and last but not least, she also has to account to her own shepherd:)
amazing.
now if she can do everything so well with her 7 days a week, i should be able to juggle everything better since i have no sheep and i'm definitely not a caregroup leader. hahaha:D i have like...ehz. 1% of what she has to do every week? shows something bad about me. hahaha:D okay. nvm:)
i had the shock of my life today after sub-d prayer meeting. i was chatting with jun ting when i saw .....thong kheng!...at somerset mrt station control. he was just standing there and he waved to me. and i understood then what it means by eyes popping out and jaw dropping. i mean like, of all people to see! hahaha:) apparently there's a writers' circle outing...which well... i believe reuben sent an e-mail to inform us about it...BUT... my mailbox was too full:D *GrInz*