today, i petted my cat, and said to it 'i delight in you. you're so cute!'
haha.
and suddenly it struck me, God delights in me too. not cos i've done anything for Him, but cos He chooses to delight in me.
and it brings me joy to delight in my cat
and it brings Him joy to delight in me

2 wakes.
in 2 days.
went for the brother's father's wake today. hope that God will be of comfort to him at this moment, even as he's busy shuffling from the wake to the hospital and back.
going for my cousin's wake tmr.
unpredictable days

LOL
i thought host clubs are fake. i mean, the only one i've seen is from ouran high school host club.
apparently... there are REAL host clubs in TOKYO O_O
can check out this video
hahaha

got this from an article venetia posted up :)
"The Lord will put us in a place where it’s just Him and us—because it’s preparation for what He wants to do with our lives.

He knows what lies ahead, and he knows that we’re going to need the kind of resolve that comes from being alone with Him. So He takes us through a season of separation for the sake of preparation. And once our hearts are prepared, our lives will be powerfully used."

when we start out with conversations, we most often start with light conversation, when actually what we wanna say is 'how have you been?', or 'what can i pray for you about?'
at least i know that's what's on my mind.
questions like
'are you growing?'
'what difficulties have you been facing?'
'can i help in any way?'
'is anyone with you as you go through this season of your life?'

and yet, despite the questions that float around, what comes out is talk about the weather, talk about work, talk about hours, talk about how late we are.

a desire to connect, yet we usually leave after just that bit of contact.

i'm proud to declare that...

I've not taken the cab in the morning for 3 mornings!
LOL.
okay. it's a small step for many, but a giant feat for xinying :D
and God blessed me with surprise company in the morning since the 2nd morning :) (though she said she saw me on the first morning too). makes me look forward to taking the bus in the morning, even though i may be quite sleepy and all. haha.
am recently blessed with a new shepherd :) had a good chat with her on tuesday. hahaa. hope to learn lots from her! David told me to treasure her, and i fully intend to do that. haha. am already starting to learn from her! it's always quite refreshing to be able to learn from someone :) to be able to share thoughts, or uncertainties, or everything you know and have not made sense of (like poison that remains in your body, and continues to poison u bit by bit), or just to have a friend whom you can relate to :)
treasure your shepherds pple. the shepherding system is a gift to us. and your shepherd is part of God's gift to u too :)

~say the word, and i will sing for You
over oceans deep i will follow
if each star was a song
every breath of wind praise
it will still fail by far to say all my heart contains
i simply live
i simply live for You

as the glory of Your presence now fills this place
in worship we will meet You face to face
there is nothing in this world to which You can be compared
glory to glory, praise upon praise
You bind the broken hearted and save all my tears
by Your Word You set the captives free
there is nothing in this world which You cannot do
i simply live
i simply live for You~

praying that God's healing hands will be on you too :)

Miku in race car version! O_O

http://www.goodsmile.info/product/ja/3135/ねんどろいど+レーシングミク+2011ver.html

Laura Story - Blessings

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

have a recent re-interest in gestalt therapy.
it's an expressive therapy.. quite a controversial one actually. in that people are not exactly sure of
1) where the foundations lie in
2) how effective it is in being used on a long term basis
but i find it potentially effective actually. in that, there're some cases i used cognitive behavioural therapy with, and sometimes it doesn't really work. i also have an inclination towards person centered and solution focused, but in this one particular case that i'm seeing now, i see how gestalt can actually be very helpful. i see that it's particularly helpful for people who are emotional or introspective.
and yet i'm not equipped well in this therapy (like the only things we know are the empty chair -_-), and the witnessing of sandplay therapy. oh. and today i realized that playback theatre is part of gestalt as well (i've gone for the 3hr sampler! :D)
hoping to get myself trained in gestalt sandplay therapy this november. hahaa. use up my training fund :X

typing this down before i forget :)

just finished cluster supervision and farewell lunch for our previous cluster supervisor Na Chuan.
the past few cluster supervisions have left me pensive, touched and recharged.
today's one was of no exception. today was the first time we have a session with our new supervisor, and the last time we have lunch with our old.
Cluster supervision had always been relatively enjoyable with Na Chuan around, because she's real, and she does her best to make the session a therapeutic one. Really appreciated that actually. And in the last 2 sessions, she actually shared experiences from her personal life (because we were discussing about self care).
I remember the mention about right priorities.
And now she's no longer gonna do supervision, but will be writing on papers instead, as well as to craft out more of what the allied educator scheme is about (i.e. our career progression and all).
In a way, they fight for us. and knowing this helps to motivate me in my job a little further.
someone's fighting for us, how then can we give up? or lose hope? :)

Mio-chan! :) colour is more true to 2nd last photo~

and it's time to let go and move on :)

The Submarines - You, Me, and the Bourgeoisie [Official Music Video]

still really like this song :)

The Submarines - You, me and the bourgeoisie

Here I am with all the pleasures of the first world
Laid out before me who am I to breakdown?

Everyday I wake up,
I choose Love
I choose Light
And I try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Oh my baby don't be so distressed
Were done with politesse
It's time to be so brutally honest about
The way we think long for something fine
When we pine for higher ceilings
And bourgeois happy feelings

And here we are with the pleasures of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Everyday we wake up
We choose Love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Plastic Bottles
Imported Water
Cars we drive wherever we want to
Clothes we buy it's sweatshop labor
Drugs from corporate enablers
We're not living the Good life
Unless we're fighting the Good fight
You and Me just trying to get it right

In the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Everyday we wake up
We choose Love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Love can free us from all excess
From our deepest debts
Cause when our hearts are full we need much less

Yea i know we long for something fine
When we pine for higher ceilings
And bourgeois happy feelings

But Here we are in the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Here we are in the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Everyday we wake up
We choose Love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Everyday we wake up
We choose Love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Desert Song

all of my life, in every season
You are still God, i have a reason to sing
i have a reason to worship

Mio-chan's faintly blushing face sits at the side of my lappie, encouraging me to do work :D hahaha.
okay. have recently been captivated by nendoroids. hahaha. Mio is a Nendoroid Petite though (meaning that it's the small version of the small and cute version of the anime characters. LOL)

Here's showing off some of the pictures I've collected from the 150 pages in the official Nendoroid forum thread, and around the world wide web. haha.








--> Mugi-chan in Yui's dream :) hahaha. Yui dreamed of Mugi's eyebrows being pickles.

Signatures from Charn on Vimeo.

--> my church's easter video on Signatures :)

"...looked at 120 traits including personality, communication skills, thinking power and leadership potential and found that while there were some differences, they were mostly so small as to be statistically irrelevant.

The American study found significant differences in only 22% of traits. These included sexual behaviour, where men were less willing to show commitment, and in aggression — men were more prone to anger. Men were also, the psychologists found, better at skills involving co-ordination such as throwing."

maybe the guys whom i cannot ever understand have a lot of the 22% of traits :D

sian-ed. i wish everyone's as easy to read as my dad. hohoho. but that would probably also mean that they're as slack as my dad. hahaha.

grumbley.

okay.
officially tired.
work seems to be a refuge all of a sudden.

i find it amazing how there are some voices which capture me and refuse to let me go.
the first was Duffy.
and now IU.
and it doesn't just capture me for 1 day or 1 week. it captures me for MONTHS. haha