my profile. ha ha ha.
Xin Ying is a counsellor with Fei Yue Community Services, working with ex-prison youth inmates and their families with regards to the inmates' rehabilitation to society. She provides support and emotional counselling to inmates, specializing in anger management and depression. She also mediates between family members and the inmates to resolve deep-seated relational issues. Before this, Xin Ying was working under Ministry of Education as a full-time school counsellor for more than three and a half years, providing psychological and emotional support to the students in the school, as well as to run the responsible thinking programme in the school in which mediation and reconciliation between students and teachers are emphasized, instead of punishment per se.
Xin Ying has been a volunteer with the Hope counselling services under Hope Centre (Singapore) since 2009, with a keen interest in the areas of same gender relationships and depression. She employs mainly person-centred and psychodynamic theories in her therapeutic framework for individual counselling.

i wonder what will happen if my counsellee/former counsellee ends up being in the same lg as me after they transfer over. lol. under ethical terms, i would probably need to declare it and request that they be put in a different lg as me.
that would be interesting.
or maybe i request to be put in a different lg.
that would be interesting too.
tricky situation.

seems like i can't function well when there's any misunderstanding or conflict that occurs in my relating with others. i dislike whatsapp cos clear communication is hard, and the hardest thing is that there's no visual feedback to know how the person feels.
I guess it's still very important for me to know a person, and to make myself known. when either path is blocked, it affects me quite a bit.
sometimes i wonder if it's a good thing that relationships matter to me so much. relationships not just in the sense of like bgr, but really with regards to friendships that i want to build.
of course, i can't possibly build on every friendship that I have, but when I find a person whom I really want to know, that I find is someone whom can potentially be a friend whom i can discuss more interesting issues with, then that's when I really want to build up those friendships. but with desire comes expectations, with expectations come disappointments. at each timing, each person would be at a different stage of expectation towards a friendship, and i guess we can't always impose our expectations on the people around us.
ironically, i've always thought that i seldom impose my expectations on the people ard me. guess i'm in that season of trying to critically cut down on the commitments that i have and focus, and that would include the relationships i have ard me as well. but it's pretty hard to do so.
if i have a choice, i wish i can have free money! hahaa. and spend my days supporting others. that would be nice. 

I only realized what I've been robbed of when we had great praise and worship today. I realized that I've been robbed of my freedom to express who I am as a person due to the criticisms given by other people. And it's been happening over a long period of time.
If what I'm doing does not stumble, and seeks to glorify God, and is due to a difference in preference, then from today onwards, I pledge to defend that right to express and I will not be robbed of the joy in expressing God in the manner in accordance to who God has created me to be.

2 Samuel 6:20-23
²⁰ When David returned home to bless his household, Michal daughter of Saul came out to meet him and said, “How the king of Israel has distinguished himself today, going around half-naked in full view of the slave girls of his servants as any vulgar fellow would!”
²¹ David said to Michal, “It was before the Lord, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the Lord’s people Israel—I will celebrate before the Lord. ²² I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes. But by these slave girls you spoke of, I will be held in honor.”
²³ And Michal daughter of Saul had no children to the day of her death.

The first comment that David returned from dancing wildly before God was that he received a critical comment from Saul. And that comment was due to a perception from Saul. I know not the intention of Saul, and I would think to the others, it would really have seen rather ridiculous at that moment, but I know that God honours David's celebration before Him, and it was not vile, but rather, honoured in God's eyes.

I am surrounded by people vastly different from me, of whom will have different forms of expresssions from me. I don't go around commenting and criticizing other people's ways of worship or praise as I understand that everyone has a different manner. 

But I guess it arises as I would have the tendency to evaluate my own actions before responding to the criticism. so when the timing has passed, it's slightly weird to mention it once again. BUT, I find that it affects me beyond that day, and slowly robs me of the joy in being with God's people, or robs me from enjoying just being myself in the presence of God's people. I get distracted with my actions, and instead, am unable to minister well to others. So I guess, it has to be an area I need to watch out for too.

7 people i regularly contact individually. 8 regular whatsapp groups. 10 clients, 9 with their families. 4 tuition kids. 3 ministries. 3 regular hobbies. 1 Japanese class.
this seems like the pace i'm most comfortable with. haha. crowded enough to keep me occupied, but not too stressed.

i think i have too many introverted friends who are comfortable with not meeting up. after 10 days of being alone, i'm kinda dying. hahaa. i need extroverted friends who can go crazy with me. hahahahaha.

yay. i feel fruitful tonight having settled conference writing and replying Eri on what i'm doing in kyoto.
haha.
just gotta do my reports now. sigh.
becoming the bane of my life.
giving tuition is so much easier than doing reports.