I'm quite glad that I started thinking about the possibility of this happening around a month ago.. and how I'd answer if that happens :\
but it still doesn't lessen the effect of startling me.
at least i've thought through about what i wanted :)
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1 is better than 4
4 is better than never
and if never comes,
then I'll thank God for the time that was.

heh.
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i'm very sleepy :\
but i've not packed my bag for GC :\

i went for school retreat today :)
took some photos..
hahaa
but realized that i've not packed my bag... short update it shall be then :D:D:D

We saw him near the pavillion we had our activities.. hehee.


There was a bus which fetched us from school and brought us straight to palawan beach. Sadly, our activities were not conducted at palawan.. hahaha. instead, it was conducted at a pavillion much much nearer to siloso. LOL. we walked. and walked. and walked. and walked. and walked. and walk e d . and w a l k e d.
and reached this pavillion to find bananas and bottles of waters waiting for us :D hahaa.
had some team bonding games... (which i shan't bother to describe. played one of the games in dcltp camp before). the final game was to assemble a pushcart and have a race :D
here's my team putting the pushcart together (and me being useless 'cos i completely have no knowledge in this. LOL. what bolting system 1-5-5-1.. nuts and screws:S)

The finished product! :)

And then lunch :D
lunch was not very nice though. but had a nice view :D


After lunch was some road hunt kind of thing. dunno what it's called. lol.
dunno why everyone became so competitive. hohoho.
i'm the youngest, yet i walk the slowest. LOL.
siewhui says tt's 'cos i'm distracted by taking photos.


hee. i can't remember what the above is called. some war pill? or war dunno what.

beautiful clouds...
and random stairs :D


bridge at palawan! to the most southern part of singapore :D:D:D beautiful waters! :D


Sitting at the second segment of the tram... we got tired of walking from siloso to palawan to siloso ........

beautiful waters again! hahaa. yesyes i know i'm obsessed with water :)

one of my favourite photos :)
those people are my team members :D

My feet dangling around while taking the skyride up! :D hahaa. it's skyride up, then luge... luge is FUN! :D but skyride is a little scary 'cos it feels a little insecure. :S (even for people like me who love rollercoasters. lol)

view taken from skyride :) can see siloso beach in the distance =)

there's a pair of emoticons which follow me wherever i go for now.
meet

+_+ and >_<

hahahaha:)

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staff retreat tmr :)
gotta wake up early :S
the waking up early part is not appealing at all :)
haha :)
i've not packed my bag for gc! :\

it's so hard to be a human being.

I really really really miss this hour :)
the air at this hour
the ringing of the alarm clock from my parents' room...
seeing chi sleep :)
the coolness of the night
the feeling of having no work in the morning, yet knowing i've got things to do..
having company on msn :)
being awake and alert at night
=)
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hee.
just saw this on yizhong's blog.
'i miss the people... xy, hy, zz, nic, sl, gz, in the exams HQ'

thanks for missing us :)
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i find it interesting how different people have different interests. hahaha. i think human beings are so fascinating.
and today i just remembered that i like to see things/works in progress.. and i like to see what happens in the background of things that're shown in the foreground.. like i like to see how a service is run.. how a performance is done... how the painting comes about.
and i remember that i like acrylic paintings 'cos of the texture. beautiful texturing with acrylic tt's not found in watercolours, or crayons.. or colour pencils.
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i enjoy doing work while others talk :D

it's STILL blue screening :\
LOL
i enjoy reading at changi airport =)

: )
i prayed over my laptop yesterday (after various blue screens and attempts at installing updates and what nonsense). LOL.
so far so good :D

Koped this from one of my classmates:
'The courage to be.... a fluid process, not a fixed and static entity; a flowing river of change, not a block of solid material; a continually changing constellation of potentialities, not a fixed quantity of traits' -- Carl Rogers

person centered! :D

okay.
so it doesn't work.
hahahahhaa.
but i realized tt it doesn't blue screen as long as i don't go online.
or rather, stay out of facebook for now :\
LOL

To make an attempt to defeat the insurmountable blue screen, i cleared my private data (cache and cookies and temp files), tried not to go on country story ('cos it always goes into blue screen when i'm using country story)... and wanted to restart my comp to install updates to firefox.
yet... the blue screen watered down my attempts and extinguished the efforts.
just when all seemed lost and i was prepared to reformat, i accidentally pressed the power button beside the 'Lock this computer' button..
and...
it started to install 8 updates which were not properly installed previously!
and ~hope has found its place within me~
till now (only 10 mins.. but nevertheless 10 mins!), the blue screen is nowhere to be seen as of yet :D
so it could have been an unstable system caused by incomplete installation of vital updates :D:D:D
praying that the blue screen will continue to be kept at bay!

my blue-screening laptop can really drive me mad.
frustrated at it.

Read this article yesterday while looking for a FSC to refer a family who'll lose their house soon to.
Recently have been talking to parents and parents and more parents..
and it's almost like, out of every 3 parents i meet, 2 will be divorced/have remarried :\
hahaa.
two things i've been advising parents about:

1) Do not suddenly give a lot of freedom to your children when your child reaches adolescent years. Yes, the child will want more freedom, will say things like
'I won't do anything bad outside la. Why you worry for what? Can't you trust me?'
but...
slowly loosen the rein.
make them earn the trust from you :) (e.g. one special day of staying out with friends after school/cca)
set boundaries (e.g. timings for them to return from school by - 1 hr after school ends? -- for sec 1s.)
take care of them :)
especially fathers!
more freedom can be given in sec 3 and sec 4 though :)

2) Communicate openly to your child. Let the child know that you are willing to be a friend to them, to listen to them and to share your expectations with them. Let them know that you want them to communicate their needs to you as well.
Love them.
And be fair among the siblings.
Students have a keen awareness of unfair treatments.

:)
lol.
it's painful to have to ask parents to consider filing for beyond parental control :S

Got this from a blog :) (the person got it from an actual writing from an American dentist in response to an ad which rewards anyone who kills an American or a Canadian :\

"An American or Canadian is English, or French, or Italian, Irish, German, Spanish, Polish, Russian or Greek. An American may also be Canadian, Mexican, African, Indian, Chinese, Japanese, Korean, Australian, Iranian, Asian, or Arab, or Pakistani or Afghan.

An American or Canadian may also be a Comanche, Cherokee, Osage, Blackfoot, Navaho, Apache, Seminole or one of the many other tribes known as native Americans or Canadians.

American and Canadians are Buddhist, or Muslim. In fact, there are more Muslims in America or Canada and they are free to worship as each of them chooses. An American or Canadian is also free to believe in no religion. For that he will answer only to God, not to the government, or to armed thugs claiming to speak for the government and for God.

An American or Canadian lives in the most prosperous land in the history of the world. The root of that prosperity can be found in the Declaration of Independence or the Canadian Constitution which recognizes the God given right of each person to the pursuit of happiness.

An American or Canadian is generous. Americans or Canadians have helped out just about every other nation in the world in their time of need, never asking a thing in return. Americans and Canadians came with arms and supplies to enable the people to win back their country!

As of the morning of September 11, Americans had given more than any other nation to the poor in Afghanistan.

Americans and Canadians welcome the best of everything, the best products, the best books, the best music, the best food, the best services. But they also welcome the least. The national symbol of America, the Statue of Liberty, welcomes your tired and your poor, the wretched refuse of your teeming shores, the homeless, tempest tossed. These in fact are the people who built North America .

Some of them were working in the Twin Towers the morning of September 11, 2001 earning a better life for their families. It's been told that the World Trade Center victims were from at least 30 different countries, cultures and first languages, including those that aided and abetted the terrorists.

So you can try to kill an American or Canadian if you must. Hitler did. So did General Tojo, and Stalin, and Mao Tse-Tung, and other blood-thirsty tyrants in the world. But, in doing so you would just be killing yourself.

Because Americans and Canadians are not a particular people from a particular place. They are the embodiment of the human spirit of freedom. Everyone who holds to that spirit, everywhere, is an American or a Canadian."

I'm not an American.. but i thought it's quite well written! :)

hhahahaa.
I was searching for 'feeling giddy after breakfast', which led to searching for 'how to make work more interesting'.. which led me to these 2 articles...
1) 10 ways to make laziness work for you
2) structured procrastination
And I do agree that procrastination is often a manifestation of perfectionism!

still feeling giddy.

Had a counselling session yesterday!
hahahaha
daidai was my counsellor. hahaa
she needed to do assignment using sfbt (solution focused brief therapy), so she asked me to be her counsellee.
lol.
sfbt will always remind me of stanley.
hmmm.
going through counselling is therapeutic :D regardless of whether it's for an assignment or not. hahahaa.
and it really helped to have the miracle question posed to me! it helped me see things which i missed, and helped me to realize why there was a change in my behaviour.
going through the session as a counsellee also made me realize tt people might not be used to the different things presented using sfbt at first... it took a twice asking of the miracle question before i really realized what it is i really wanted to happen.
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i am naturally
magnetically
attracted
to lost things.
like chi.
and human beings.

there's something fascinating with reading poignant liners.
inspires one to come up with poignant liners too!
hahaha.
maybe someone can sell a book full of poignant liners :)
it's interesting 'cos the liners become instantly entangled with memories and experiences. then one can say 'i can identify with that!' or that 'i've gone through that!'
:)

I've always felt that if I should die suddenly, it would be alright.
'cos I've done many things which I've always wanted to.
Things which I've thought were not very possible when I was younger.
And sometimes this lapse into complacency.
hahahaa.
God's really blessed me much.
may i continue to be fruitful and faithful with what God has given me :)

lol.
super funny.
been going out for lunch with a male and female colleague.
my female colleague has been double meaning her words recently, promoting the male colleague.
i'm super amused.

Got this from online. someone wrote 7 reasons to quit the job. lol.

4. Hierarchy and politics? No Thanks: Large organizations tend to be hierarchical and there is nothing you can do about it. People are classified according to their rank or seniority rather than by the quality of their ideas or by their drive. Sometime ago I was trying to implement the first internal blog for my division. The first thing I did was to call directly the HQ guy who was responsible for the communications platform, and he assured me that it would take no longer than 1 week to set the blog up. Guess what, after a couple of days I received a call from the Communications manager from our division, she wanted to “explain to me the rules of the game”(!). Basically she told me that all the communications related requests needed to pass through her no matter what, and she would therefore take charge of the blog set up. Two months after that call my division was still waiting for the blog.

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VERY TRUE about large organisations being hierarchical!
and very true about the rank or seniority thing.
sucky.
but i guess one good thing is that you don't necessarily have to be stuck with one person for lunch. lol.
thank God for the lunching company!