my mum keeps asking and asking and asking and asking and asking and asking about my freelance arts teacher job. she doesn't believe that i'll get paid. BAH.
to earn some extra money from july onwards... here's a banner u might be interested in. no idea if it's true though. but it's free. so wellus.

peixin forwarded this poem, written by a doctor for a girl who wants to tell the world to live life to their fullest :)

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

i came back from watching 'man of letters':) it went past my expectations=] haha. i'm not a person who's good with words, seriously, but the play was exceedingly good, comparable to even the famous music of a twist of fate. it's of a different feel though. man of letters has much more changing of sets, much more actors and much more chaos, yet the splendid fusion of music, acting and brilliant dancing is one that will just captivate you for the 2 hrs of play.
i enjoyed myself immensely. i enjoyed myself even more immensely 'cos i didn't have to pay for the tickets. how do i describe? i can't. it leaves you with an awe that causes you to search your heart, knowing that at a certain period of time, you might have felt at least how one of them has felt. when Ming sang, he drew me in so intensely into his song and his intense emotions that i could identify with how he felt. the grandiousity when it's required blows you apart. the set changing delights you and teases your imagination at how a simple set could be changed into so many various settings with just movements of a bridge forward and backwards, with additional backdrops dropping from the sky.
beautiful seamless acting from emma yong and robin goh. george chan, on the other hand, acting as gan seng, had flaws in this acting. but his character is not easy. having to be a person who is not good with words, yet able to speak eloquently on other occasions, it requires you to sew in the character with your own personality and display this new piece of art to the audience at all times. terribly hard, if you ask me.
wonderful dancing. what can i say? they're brilliant. absolutely brilliant.
and the words used! the words used in the letters for roseanne (acted by emma yong),such lyrical and beautiful language. such rawness of emotions displayed on the stage.
some flaws in the hastened changing of scenes at certain parts. and some flaws with the acting of some of the background character, but overall, a magnificent work to behold. i'm so proud of our singaporean actors and actresses.

"A friend loves at all times" (Proverbs 17:17, NIV).

The following description of a friend came from an English magazine: "A true friend is one who has the courage to disagree with us when [we are] in the wrong, and advise us for our own good, rather than let his sympathy or sentimentality cause him to agree."

Charles Spurgeon once said, "Friendship is one of the sweetest joys of life. Many might have failed beneath the bitterness of their trial had they not found a friend."

Samuel Johnston said, "We cannot tell the precise moment when friendship is formed. As in filling a vessel drop by drop, there is that last drop which makes it run over, so in a series of kindnesses, there is at least one that makes the heart run over."

And Dr. Alfred Adler, internationally known psychiatrist, based the following conclusions on a careful analysis of thousands of clients: "The most important task imposed by religion has always been, 'Love thy neighbor….' It is the individual who is not interested in his fellow man who has the greatest difficulties in life and provides the greatest injury on others. It is from among such individuals that all human failures spring."

Oh the priceless value of having at least one deep abiding friendship. Thank God for the gift of friendship.

yes. it's 3.13am again. hahaa. i am very very tempted to forfeit everything and go to sleep right now. but i wanna write down what i've thought about today. and so here goes =]
went for the briefing for the job of taking people around on trail. (oh shucks. at this moment i remember i haven't given jan the songs for tomorrow. oh brother, don't kill me. lol). yes. back to the briefing. it was briefed by this person called lena. the thing about lena is, we already have a preconceived opinion of her due to yesterday's nonexistent briefing after waiting for 4 hrs and being late for the dear da vinci code seminar which i really wanted to attend=] hahaa. yes. and from hearing other pple's opinions of her as well. needless to say, my opinion of her was bad bad bad. and it grew worse with the description she has of females.
today's briefing didn't change much of my opinion of her. she thinks everyone's interested in relationships (ONLY interested in bgr) and that our world revolves around that. she thinks that females are always trying to entice males by revealing less information about themselves (diao4 wei4 kou3). seriously speaking, i was quite disgusted by her, and i'm seldom disgusted by people. that's bad =] hahaha. but weiling pointed out something quite true.. she made the point to remember our names. seriously, it takes effort and a keenness to remember the names (i can't seem to remember no matter how hard i try=S) and this effort on her part softens the whole outlook of her personality. she can be a person who teaches well, providing that 1) she doesn't place ALL the blame to the admin assistants who are already so overworked and 2)she doesn't have such a disgusting view towards the pple in the world.
and upon typing this out, i hereby rest my judgement about her. 'cos it's seriously not for me to judge. hahahhaa. i better go repent.

you know, it's a terribly disastrous habit to sleep at 3+am in the morning? hahaa. simply 'cos it's such a weird hour and when you wake up the next morning, half the morning would have been gone=) hahaa.
just now dy was saying that he wants to hug my cat O.o reminds me of edwin, who loves cats. wellus. hahaa.
-just trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding-
sometimes i wonder if God knew i was feeling sad at a particular time and decided to send me a cat to keep me company. considering that maomi only likes to come into the house if i'm in the house, that qn has popped into my mind quite a few times. LOL.
but whatever the reason that has brought her here, thanks for the gift of love even this pet has shown.

I quite like pastor ben's entry whereby he ponders over when he became a man. haha. it can be found here if anyone is up for an interesting read. lol. the brothers had their 'band of brothers' seminar yesterday...the whole church's brothers together. what a sight to behold.
the growth into adulthood... is something which is undetermined by just the age or other so called rites of passage. you don't become mature by having a car, by going into army (though i suppose the circumstances do cause the guys to mature in a way, emotionally, psychologically and mentally?), or even in the case of what some people feel - start saying vulgarities and engaging oneself in sexual matters?
maturity in all areas - mentally, emotionally, spiritually, psychologically, physically (sadness for people who don't like to exercise xD) and even socially. what a lot to consider:) i believe maturity comes with the humility to learn in all the situations we go through and integrating what we learnt into our lives. jingting agrees with me on that. some people feel that since they're older, they're more mature, or in their words, 'seen more things'. i beg to differ =) but that doesn't mean also that you won't mature as you grow old.. increased exposure to experiences... the choices we make in these circumstnces... well :)
on another note, let's talk about friends.
i love the friends i've had throughout my life. my primary school friends (eg. lynnette, mabel, xavier, alvin), secondary school friends (spending 4 yrs together has forged a friendship deep that though at this point in time, i don't seem to be communicating much with them, be assured that you all have already occupied a permanent position in my heart. be it maintained by memories of the past, or strengthened by memories we continue to build upon... you're my friends, and you know it), my jc friends (the short 2 yrs. and all those birthday celebrations. and some i still see now. like stephanie. whom i think i'm supposed to bug everyday. oops) and my church friends. my church brothers and sisters. seeing each other in our worst times, the times when we were going through rough patches, angry(?) and sad. depressed even. down 'cos of people who've left us. seeing each other in our most elated times as well. the craziest moments. the vision that propels us and our friendship forward. to correct each other in love. the love of Christ is felt so immensely through you all. though we're all so different, and in usual circumstances, i doubt we'll even talk to each other... but the love of christ binds us together. love for christ, love for each other.
and even the friends i've made online. not much. cindy, liwen, jas, deryuan, enzio. thanks for sharing ur lives with me in a way or another. i dunno if you read this though. hmm. LOL.
i'm not going sentimental and all that, just grateful, i suppose. and glad:) really glad. you know, you can only love to the capacity that you have been loved? i've been loved immensely.

i love habbolitez. seriously i do. i started out loving this fansite 'cos of deejaying. deejaying brought out the spontaneity and creativity in me. deejaying brought out the diligence in me. deejaying brought out the love of music in me. the love of arranging music and introducing them, that they may bring pleasure and relief and peace and enjoyment and excitement to the listeners, all at the same time.
and over time, as i get to know the admins personally, as i get to know fudgie and rongfang and some other pple personally, they became my friends. there was a period when it seemed like litez wldn't make it (literally), but we pulled through. even when there were only 2 pple deejaying in one week, we made it. and people who keep changing and maturing. fudgie who matured from her temper. fantasy who showed maturity beyond his age. fire who changed to be less firey. and litez became from a scary place of admins and sticks to more or less a family.
but litez is taking much of my time and efforts. and i do so want to do so much more for God. and i don't wanna give a half hearted commitment to litez either. so i decided to quit litez.
yet, i think my action has caused hurt to some pple and confusion to others. as the editor cum angel cum asst dj head, a sudden departure caused sticks to become angry.
i've quitted. and now i dunno if i've made the right decision.