i borrowed Jingting's description and used the same words "they're very brave" to describe this new coupling I know.
I can only imagine the social expectations they have to go against, as well as a lot of explaining to do. the new grounds both of them will have to navigate through. may God be in the centre of their relationship :)

lol. just flatly told someone to stop messaging me.
i think facebook is awkward because people whom u dun even know well at all (like talk only once, introduce ONCE) can message u and keep messaging u.
really need to separate my friends from acquaintances too. feels uncomfortable.

JUDGMENT DAY (2013) TEASER #02 (zz, shunyi, myself (big pink bag) as passerbys at 0:19-0:21. LOL)

Serving in the Christmas drama has really touched my heart greatly. seeing everyone work together, seeing everyone serving together... and seeing how the many many small hands put together can produce something that God can use to touch the hearts of people, the insignificant words written, which did not seem much, were used by God to make people laugh, to make people think, to touch something within them.
when i receive the praises from the people, i get reminded of how there're so many more people who deserve the praises much more than me. the amount of time and effort they've put into the whole production. i saw unsung heroes who gave and did not ask for things in return. the actors who didn't have any lines, but had to put in as much time (or even more time than me) and much more effort in thinking up a plot for their actions, the directors who had to put in time for 3 rehearsals a week for at least 2 months, staying with us, encouraging us, directing us, making each detail better. the parents of the children who acted, who came, left, came, left, had to yield their schedules to the timing of the rehearsals as well. the lights people who were there for so many more hours than us, who had to be on duty for the entire stretch of time. the stage managers, production crew who did up the dance, the music, the multimedia.the image people who had to be there as early as us in the morning to ensure that we look presentable for stage.
i just get reminded that i'm merely a fingerprint contributing to the collage that forms a whole picture.

i think not going for my quarterly holiday is taking a toll on me. haha. maybe it's also cos I didn't get a proper break (like total mental break from any work. haha). i guess it's not a very good idea to be working during your holidays. haha.
i wonder what will happen in January, when both the school and prison work kicks in :) coupled with tuition. and japanese lessons. and ministry.
thank God there're no more rehearsals. haha. though i really enjoy the rehearsals. i guess having everything mashed up together is a very good idea ba :) haha. pretty interesting how God took away some commitments/delayed some commitments.
i feel quite sorry to my sensei cos I've been skipping her classes :\ like out of 6 lessons, i've only gone for 3! D: ahhhh.
and seriously, i really dislike pms. hahaa. everything just comes at one go. headache, muscle aches, fever, fatigue.... jialat.
praising God, listening to Beethoven and laughing at my cat while sitting in my air-coned bedroom seems to help with the symptoms though :) hahaa. now i just wish i don't have a case conference tmr morning :(
i really really need to set aside time to write the christmas cards :\ and to tidy my room. hahhaa.
yay to bangkok at the end of the year! thanks to Clara for suggesting the holiday! woohoo!

getting irked by the way things are done.
irked by people who becomes 'spiritual' all of a sudden.

talking to my inmates has been interesting :) i feel like i've been learning about the more vice-y aspect of life these few days. the security guard now recognizes me even though my pass is not ready as of yet.
i just can't help thinking that if they've been given the environments that we have, the chances that we've gotten, then it would be that things would probably be much different for them. if there's been someone who encouraged them, someone who disciplined them, someone who bothered to be with them, someone who would have wanted to fight for them, someone to accept them and allow them to express as they are, then things would have been very different?

stuck between two slightly ambiguous situations. one more than the other.
for the other, am observing.
for the one, i have a slightly greater desire to lay it on the table and talk about it. haha. but then again, it could just be hearsay.
i hope it's hearsay.
leaving the situations in His hands and waiting it out.