From an article about ADHD in women :

Does ADHD in women show up the same way it does in men?
Women and girls with ADHD are more likely to internalize symptoms and become anxious. Symptoms most often reported by women are dysphoria [unhappiness], inattention, organization problems and impulsive behaviors.

For men, it tends to be external motor activity; for girls it’s more fidgeting and twirling their hair. With females [you see more] hyper-talkativeness. They’re out of control emotionally.

From another site:
It is a misunderstanding that those with ADHD cannot concentrate and focus, because they often can. The difference is that they can intensely focus on what is of interest to them at the time (like swimming or video games) but have difficulty with subjects or tasks not of their choosing (like homework assignments on topics they don't like or group activities). They may feel overwhelmed when trying to organize and complete other assignments or responsibilities, leading to increased stress. In essence, they space out because of this overload.

This is in contrast to those without ADHD, as they are still able to focus and follow through with an uninteresting task without being distracted. They can organize, remember conversations, plan, socialize and balance, even when stressed by multiple assignments or life needs.

my symptoms are catching up with me. sigh.

heh. thought i'd post this up here :)
cos found i think through this i learned 2 things about myself:
1) i greatly hesitate about doing things/writing letters/buying things for others. hahaa. cos i think i'm rather scared that they'd take it wrongly, or that it's too intense, or that they'd think i'm weird. hahaa. so i keep controlling myself. and end up giving things late, or i'd take like 4 weeks to finally offer to help do something :X hahaa. this card is another example. i finished writing it and wanted to not give it cos dunno if the teacher will find it weird. in the end, i think she was quite touched. hahaa.
2) partly wrote this card cos there was a sensing in my heart that she was somewhat lonely/down due to her birthday coming, and thought that it would be nice to help our sensei to see that Singapore doesn't have to be a lonely place :) i mean, it's not easy to travel to another country to work by herself. heh. glad to have allowed God to work through me.

had music practice earlier on. haha. praise and worship practice for robert's and melissa's wedding.
my first time helping out in a wedding! am so excited :)
was blessed by the fellowship tonight. haha. people whom i'm comfortable with and can just be myself. people whom i enjoy the presence of :) (hahaha. maybe cos more than half the room were sanguines! hahaha. and the other half was like phlegs. hahaa. so you have nicely sang people and nicely phleg people and you have my favourite combi of people:D hee. well. not really, but it just fitted nicely today. haha)
made a new friend too -->jocelyn from adults grp :) our quiet pianist. haha.
had a good time with melissa as well. we were preparing fruits together for the rest of the people :) had a good time talking to her and getting to know her more! she really has the gift of serving :) she keeps seeking to serve other people :)
am glad to be able to serve alongside 2 of my ex CLs! privileged :) haha. and to be able to have good fellowship in huichun and weizhu's house.
had a good chat with jiadai too! :) to be able to listen to her share. was greatly encouraged to have someone in the same counselling sector, and to be able to hear her share about her life :) thank God for her openness :)

i think my mum's language of love is gifts. lol.
she thinks that whenever ppl buy things back, it's a show of affection.

headache.
pain around eye region.
cramps.
back ache
stuffed nose
sore throat
loss of voice

hahaa. am still thankful it's remaining as a cold though.
though the headache's really getting to me. haha. pain.
finished reading 'the upside of irrationality'! haha. do read it if u have the chance. pretty interesting detailing of social experiments and implications :D

heh.
am getting slowly tired of rejections.
of people whom i message who don't reply my messages cos they're running away from God.
of people whom i message who don't reply my messages/answer my calls cos they're running away from school.
each one a cut on my already scarred hands. each one requiring an additional amount of effort to want to still love the people. each one requiring God to continue to do the healing work.

yesterday i went to sleep slightly before 2am. i fell into sleep and dreamt that i was in a place when terrorists (?) came in with guns. and they got all of us to squat. i didn't feel fear in the beginning. until they started to shoot at someone i cannot see (blocked by boxes (?) tables (?)) and the person started screaming. and then someone else started screaming too. and i remember that's when i started to fear and had to tell myself to remain clear and calm.
and i woke up.
it was 2.14am.
and i remember asking myself how i'd respond if i'm really in that situation. and thinking how glad i am tt i'm not. and for the first time, feeling a tad of how it's like to have the threat of a gun to my head.
and really being thankful that it was just a dream.

Just finished playing http://www.gamezebo.com/games/awakening-dreamless-castle/review. Quite enjoyable! :D short game. only used 2 hrs and 40 mins. and i had to use up my bigfishgame credits. hahaha.
loved the graphics and the music :D and the fact that the puzzles are not too high or too easy. quite amusing at times (amusing to me la. haha)
straight forward game play :D
i've bought the other 2 Awakening titles too. hahaa. nicely used up my game credits.
glad to have a satisfying and enjoyable game! :D

haha. today's a pretty interesting day.
had free buffet lunch today cos the swc (staff welfare comm) went down for food tasting for this friday's staff dinner :D food at ywca coffee house is surprisingly good. hahaha. and there's nobody around! it's abt SGD$20 after GST and service charge. well worth it, i'd say. no salmon sashimi though.
had compliments from colleagues on my blue dress (the one from bangkok). hahaa. feels so weird.
my swc head sent me an sms complimenting my dress (again), and asked where he can get it so that he can buy it for his wife. so sweet! hahaa.
actually bought 3 books today. "the upside of irrationality" by Dan Ariely (which is a pretty good book!), the other is Sophie's world (i was like WOW! grab! haha). it's 3 for the price of 2, so i grabbed another thriller (which i can't remember the name of. hahaha).
i actually went into Times wanting to buy 'what the dog sees' by the malcolm person. in the end i didn't buy that book. hahaha

changing my ministry of 3 and a half years..

meeting with my shepherd refreshes me :) haha.
i find that i can't sustain talking about nonsensical or hala hala things for long . haha

i think that people who primarily listen to english songs has a slightly different view of love than people who primarily listen to chinese songs.
somehow or another, english songs tend to treat love slightly more flippantly, as if love can be played with, or it starts more simply. not all, but mainstream songs are somewhat like that?
whereas for chinese songs, love is sung about patience, about letting go, about treasuring a person.
not sure if i'm being fair to make a judgement like this. haha. just something that recurs in my thoughts whenever i listen to chinese vs english songs. heh

it's frustrating when i can't seem to do the things i want to do.
苦やし！