i'm super looking forward to may:) looking forward to Alpha, looking forward to all the experiments (though a bit apprehensive) that we're conducting, looking forward to planning out my time, cleaning out my room, watching some plays here and there:)
yup=)
looking forward to birthday celebrations and planning them. wahhaa. the planning part, i suppose:) the time to plan and sort out things properly. keke.

To Know You - Nicole Nordeman

Its well past midnight
And Im awake with questions that wont
Wait for daylight
Separating fact from my imaginary fiction
On this shelf of my conviction
I need to find a place
Where You and I come face to face

Thomas needed
Proof that You had really risen
Undefeated
When he placed his fingers
Where the nails once broke Your skin
Did his faith finally begin?
Ive lied if Ive denied
The common ground Ive shared with him

Chorus
And I, I really want to know You
I want to make each day
A different way that I can show You how
I really want to love You
Be patient with my doubt
Im just tryin to figure out Your will
And I really want to know You still

Nicodemus
Could not understand how You could
Truly free us
He struggled with the image
Of a grown man born again
We might have been good friends
Cuz sometimes I still question, too
How easily we come to You

Repeat Chorus

No more campin on the porch of indecision
No more sleepin under stars of apathy
And it might be easier to dream
But dreamins not for me

Repeat Chorus
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Adonai
I lift my voice
I lift my praise to You
I lift my hands
I lift my worship to You
And I love You more than I can say
Oh I love You more than I can say

Ever I will sing only You will I adore
Glorify my Lord only You will I serve
For the world will fade away
Still my song to You remains
Only You will I adore

Oh I love You always
Oh I love You always

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i fell asleep just now when i reached home. heh. i think it's another parasympathetic rebound :)
really wanna thank God for bio psych exam:) 'cos i originally wanted to study in the first few days of the exams...but it was taken up due to TS :S so yup, only had thursday and friday to study and i wondered if i'll finish. haha. but thank God, i managed to read through and study:) though i worried if i can remember the information 'cos i tried to use my explicit memory but nothing much came out. hahaa. God helped me retain my information:) i could do the questions fluently for the reason-assertion and mcqs:) some people don't like reason-assertion questions...i adore them. xD haha.
bio psych exam was quite scary for me:) 'cos i was sitting to the right of the hall... and Trevor (my lecturer.. he's an associate professor) kept walking up and down to my right. hahaha. that's not the scariest part. remember i was working with a masters student called Steph on the kindergarten thing? she happened to help invigilate today. it was relatively amusing to me. until she walked up and down to my right in place of Trevor. haha. so stressful:S she was also the one to check all the names. For the front few tables, she took up the card to check. When she reached my table, she walked past it happily. lol. so weird 'cos you can't exactly say hi in the hall, yet you feel weird not acknowledging her presence:)
oh well. that's it for now:) Thank God for Lancaster who officially joined us today for infocounter=] haven't had much time to plan out for infocounter..but i'm going to make some minor adjustments again. hehe.

this flash file shows you lots of nice cursors ->> click here
got it from this website :)

there're 7 deadly sins in the world.
recently, i've been encountering anger. and it caused me to realize how much a lack of self control i have over this sin. and how much lax i've given to anger :(
but to replace anger, i need patience with other people. i need to love others. i need to see things from different perspectives. i need to understand other people more. and to have these, i need the constant presence of God and the constant infilling of the Holy Spirit :)
so do fill free to speak the Word of God into my life if you see me being angry.
- i trade my ashes in for beauty
i wear forigveness like a crown
here at the gentle feet of mercy
i lay every burden down
at the foot of the cross -
family is such a troublesome affair.
i really do need to get rid of pet peeves too (e.g. being super irritated when i'm wrongly accused of doing something i didn't do. Jesus wasn't super irritated when this happened to Him. He saw beyond what was on the surface and looked into what the person really needed - be it correction, or the forgiveness of sins).

oh yes. i went to the kindergarten to administer the tests today:) research is really unglamorous. 4 kids took me 2 hrs to administer the test. really tiring. hahaa. steph said that if i can 'volunteer' more in may, she'll put me in charge of administering the tests in the toa payoh kindergarten, with people helping me. i'm a part-time research assistant now.. think if i 'volunteer' more, i'll become a full time research assistant. so fun:) i wonder if i'll ever get to administer the ppvt and other tasks. hahaa.
5 year old kids are adorable. but they don't talk much. so boring. ha ha ha

today is my 'annoyed' day. i was annoyed with a few grps of people=] i was annoyed with the first group 'cos of the lack of constructive comments. i was annoyed with the second group 'cos my stuff was scattered all over 2 different rooms.
but it's okay now=]
in school now.. wanted to read the chapter 7 of the bio psych textbook but my textbook is missing. guess i'll read developmental psych instead=]

today i went for the blood thing to provide serum for michelle's phd student's allergen thing. the doctor couldn't find my vein and had to call an experienced nurse (who takes blood from people everyday) down (especially for me!). celine is a very nice lady:) i asked her if she feels stressed drawing blood from me but she said she enjoys it. apparently, the people with easy-to-find veins provide her with no challenge. people like me make her job interesting. hahaa. so funny. but she's brilliant. she feel, feel, then she took blood from my right arm! no one (for the three times i've donated blood) has taken blood from my right arm 'cos they really can't find the vein. hahaa. it didn't hurt when the needle went in.. her hand was super steady 'cos they had to fill three tubes of blood. but it hurt slightly when the needle came out. haha.
some other stuff happened during the time..but it's all alright now:)
went to the psych grads room to look for steph for the training cum briefing session. haha. GUESS WHAT! she looks like tan seok hui. *faint* when i saw her i was like O.o then when she started to brief me and describe how she makes the task interesting for the kids, i was even more amused. ha ha ha ha ha. maybe all developmental psychologists talk and behave in the same way XD hahaha. but she's quite nice:) i was actually pretty worried after i heard abt how to administer the tests. scared that i'll make the kids cry. haha.
i'm working with k1 kids! (5 years old). administering the (u can click on the tests to find out more)Coloured progressive matrices and the Word Reading Subtest from WRAT4. Tomorrow might be administering the spelling test from WRAT4 as well, but see how first.
Today is also the day of rental of costumes ($20 for 7 days..) and the buying of some of the props:) and the onset of headache :(
Exams:) i enjoy exams :) but this sem, really not much time to study. so sad. ts practical exam just disrupted my entire study plan. haha.

=)
today we're featuring two of my favourite psychology lecturers =)
haha.
First is Tan Seok Hui =)
her website is http://ap3.fas.nus.edu.sg/fass/psytsh/
yay. she teaches developmental psy=] specifically in language and cognitive aspects of infants. 18-year-old infants.

Second is Sim Tick Ngee =)
unfortunately, he doesn't do up his website. hahahaa. so sad. anyway, he teaches me Stats2. and apparently, he dabbles into the field of parent aggression on children. as well as race and religion. haha. he's a christian =)

and this is the lecturer i'm helping out with =)
Dr Susan Liow

i think my lecturers are brilliant=) hope i can take adolescent psy next sem! haha. i wonder if tan seok hui is teaching any more modules. hahaa.

I've completely turned my schedules upside down these days. hahaa. it's called the end-of-term-must-cause-everything-to-flip-around syndrome. only applies to me:) and now i don't exactly feel very tired, nor am i motivated to study for a 7.5% stats mcq test:S haha.
i'm looking forward to helping out in administering the tests to the kindergarten children:) Excited.. haha. 'cos i think it's not something everyone gets to do everyday, but apprehensive as well. 'Cos i just realised i know zilch about the tests. hahaa. or perhaps i do know a bit about the tests, but to administer it:S what if i screw up the results? xD oooh. but if something does come out from it and it's published in a journal, it'll be so exciting to know that you've helped out in the administering of the tests which produced these results. haha. and guess what? they're starting with kindergarten children from toa payoh =)
i always find it amazing where developmental psych is leading me to.. At first, i've thought that dev psych will be the module which i find the most boring -- maybe 'cos i wasn't that interested in children. hahaa. perhaps i got influenced by tan seok hui. haha. atypical development in human beings.. and children.. haha. research is another field which never really occurred to me. but i've developed an interest in conducting experiments. haha. to see if things will turn out the way they're supposed to. and though i still do not understand fully the things taught in stats2, stats no longer deter me before i knew it:) perhaps 'cos of the lecturers as well.
i'm glad that i took issues in development this semester with jits, isobel and nianying:) haha. i think without them around, it wouldn't have been as enjoyable. each lecture feels casual ('cos dr tan knows us by name already. haha) and having them around really motivated me to study (e.g. for the test even when it's only 10%. haha). yup. and the signing up of things:) think if they weren't in the same lecture as me, i would have skipped the chance of signing up. too shy:P
looking forward to the training and briefing session on monday. hope i don't see dr tan. very paiseh. hope i don't see trevor or sim teck ngee either. even more paiseh. hahaha.
looking forward to theatre studies too. haven't memorized my lines:) went to search up videos of the pope yesterday. now i have more hand gestures. haha.

=) =) =)
watashi wa uershi desu!
doshite?
watashi get the chance to help out administering tests to kindergarten kids desu =) and the first few kindergartens are in Toa Payoh desu XD
woooooohooooooooo.

alternatively, i could be extra ureshi 'cos of the fact that i haven't slept:) it's 7.24am. and the sun is brightly shining. and the cat is happily meowing. and xinying is sleepily typing. =)

Skywire Take control of the cable car and get the passengers to safety.

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The Beautiful Letdown - Switchfoot

It was a beautiful let down
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful let down
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do

In a world full of bitter pain and bitter doubt
I was trying so hard to fit in, fit in,
Until I found out
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong
But I don't belong

It was a beautiful let down
When you found me here
Yeah for once in a rare blue moon I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful let down
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free
We're still chasin our tails and the rising sun
And our dark water planet's
Still spinning in a race
Where no one wins and no one's one

I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I'm gonna set sight and set sail for the kingdom come
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong
But i don't belong
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
Kingdom come
Your kingdom come

Won't you let me down yeah
Let my foolish pride
Forever let me down

Easy living, not much like your name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Won't you please take me off your list
Easy living please come on and let me down

We are a beautiful let down,
Painfully uncool,
The church of the dropouts
The losers, the sinners, the failures and the fools
Oh what a beautiful let down
Are we salt in the wound
Let us sing one true tune

I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
Feels like I don't belong here
Let me down
Let me down
Feels like I'm let down
Let me down.
Cuz I don't belong here
Please
Won't you let me down?
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A depraved, broken nation in need of a Saviour.

when i first saw your nick, i got a great shock. it disturbed me greatly.. so much so that i couldn't concentrate on my work. but there's work to be done.. and so i pushed it away. it lingers in my mind...
until i wanted to express how i felt and saw this song. and searched the lyrics. and what i hid away resurfaced and allowed me to cry a bitter cry for you.

'Stars lookin at our planet watching entropy and pain
And maybe start to wonder how the chaos in our lives could pass as sane
I've been thinking bout the meaning of resistance, of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent begin to look like home'

please don't wander away from the truth.

kanon is very sad :(
ever since episode 8, it's been very sad. sad not for no reason.. but sad 'cos it touches on death, touches on the denial of things.. the awareness that your friend is going to die. the denial of a dying sister to prevent hurting oneself, but in the process hurting the sister...
eternal summer also very sad :( reminded me of some stuff that happened in the past.

ah.
i do so wanna watch eternal summer. hahaa. BUT, as i was telling jiali, it's
1) r21 (probably 'cos of theme of homosexuality. brokeback was also r21 and it had nothing inside).
2) it's of an intriguing theme=] must filter=]

anyway, it's got good reviews on it even though it has the lgbt label attached to it.. and it's got 4 golden horse awards. and if it helps, the theme song is done by Mayday and Ashin. hahaa.
a few links:
Sheng4 Xia4 Guang1 Nian2 - Eternal Summer
the MV for the starting song

Next time before we start complaining of sian-ness in life.. let's take a step back and thank God that we don't have progeria.

btw, if there's one day which you're very bored:) you can try going to this website.

http://cheddarvision.tv./

hahahaha:)

- be it unto me, according to Your Word
according to Your promises, i can stand secure
... upon my heart, the truth that sets me free
according to Your Word oh Lord, be it unto me-

easter is coming this sunday:) good friday is this friday:) are you still experiencing a constant hole in your heart with which you're looking for things to fill up with, or have you found the One who'll fill this hole up?:)

studying for issues in developmental psy now=] i like it. hahaa. i like to study things which are atypical and think about them. i like abnormal psy and issues in developmental psy. i like subcultures. hahaha. i find it intriguing when people behave out of the norm:)
i really enjoy psychology:) sometimes i might wrestle with it. sometimes i may feel disappointed by it. sometimes i may be frustrated...but i love it nonetheless. you know it when you find something that fits nicely into the way you're created to be.. that piece of puzzle that fits so nicely and snugly into the grand puzzle of life... whereby the whole picture will slowly be shown more and more through each of the things you experience:) psychology is one of the pieces which fitted nicely in. haha.
and i've been finding more and more of the pieces even as i've come to know Christ:) the joy everytime some piece fits nicely in.. the hardwork that might come beforehand in trying to determine if it's the right piece... but nevertheless, when you find it, when you put it in and it fits.. =]
i wonder if anyone knows what i'm talking about. hahaha.
but yup.
really hope that everyone will be able to gradually find the pieces of the purpose of their life as well:) though my belief is that the picture can never be complete without God in your life:)