I had 3 papers in 2 days and 1 paper tomorrow morning at 9am=) or rather later today at 9am. hahaha. and i've faced 2 security guards who have the delusional thought that they have to lock up the classroom. Praise be to God who sustained me in the past 4 days of staying over and intense studying. Praise be to God who gave me sisters and brothers who're understanding enough to bear with my temper when i'm tired out and to brighten my spirits when i'm down. Praise be to God who supplied coffee and coke and food supplies and the USM sisters and brothers who brought down home made stress balls that stuck to walls and gui ling gao and desserts and mamee and twisties and for claramae and shirley and benaiah who constantly came to visit us in the wee hours of the night, bring funny things like kiwis with them. Thank God for them! :) hahaha.
i feel joyful 'cos i just finished talking to michelle about some stuff and we prayed with eugene. when two or three come in His name, He is there with them. and indeed. joy in the face of unfinished studying and lack of sleep for so many days. it's like a natural stimulant - the joy of God which lifts you up. Better than any coffee or coke. hahaha. speaking of coke, do you know the coca cola company is responsible for the manufacturing and distribution of coke, sprite, qoo, heaven and earth teas and lots of goodness knows what. hahaha. diversification. faint.

- how far is heaven -

sleep still lurks at the corner, threatening to overtake me as i study for the physical geography segment of the paper. i just pray to God that i'll be able to remember them. hahaha.

is it possible to score the best grade for one subject in one sem and score the worst in another sem? i seem to be doing so for the subject of lit. what's hurting is that i've tried the hardest and has seemingly done the analysis of it the same way as i've always done before, yet it doesn't seem to be working.
wellus.

how interesting that my dear faithful laptop which has never died on me before (even after i've dropped it for two times) has to die on me yesterday night when i'm studying for abnormal psy. it's as if God had enough of me being distracted by the things around that He's decided to cause my laptop to happily die so as to prevent me from being further distracted and really concentrate on studying quickly and effectively in preparation for my 2 exams this friday. It was frustrating at first, all the efforts at trying to go into the system just didn't work. it hangs and hangs happily at that. the cursor moves but nothing else does. i don't even get to see my interactive desktop. sadness.
but having a change of mindset certainly caused me to focus on my tb better. and it was with a startling realisation that i found out i have 2 more chapters to study instead of just one, which i originally thought. and it was with great enjoyment that i could read the chapter once through (personality disorders was what i was reading through) and could answer the chapter test at the back and had only one mistake=] hahaha. considering that it was the only abnormal psy lecture which i skipped, i find it a great surprise to be able to do such a thing. sadly, after i slept, i could no longer replicate such a thing. confirms the fact that i study better at night. lol.
and so currently i'm at home on my pc, which i haven't turned on for around 5 months. it's a good thing i suppose, allowing me to update my pc's anti virus system, as well as making sure that i won't habbo and actually study at the same time, which can be quite detrimental for my concentration span. Thank God for jit's ipod shuffle which supplied me with the moderate arousal from the environment i needed for optimum productivity (according to my dear adorable abnormal psy textbook which states that one of the hypothesis for antisocial personality disorder could be due to the underarousal theory of some sort. lol)

As i mentioned in my msn nick, when i muttered to myself that i need some background noise to be able to study, i really didn't expect God to cause a thunderstorm to happen at the next instant. haha.
And it was good. 'cos the thunderstorm drowned out every other voice that was around and allowed me to concentrate. the coolness of the air perked my senses and caused me to be much more alert than ever. not that this alertness lasted long, but well, it was effective for a short period of time nonetheless.
i haven't been updating for a while. have been busy and caught up with the upcoming exams and with litez stuff around. speaking of litez stuff... i went to watch manderlay with liwen, cindy and deryuan. brilliant movie. considering that i spent one whole week analysing 'manderlay's prequel (both movies belong to a trilogy) --- dogville, i have no choice but to learn to appreciate this movie. and indeed, i really enjoyed myself immensely. the film was supposed to last for 2 hrs+, but i felt as if it was only 50 mins or so. too short for me. the director should increase the timing of the film.
some parts i didn't particularly like were the sexual scenes featured in the show. somehow, i dun understand why they're there or how they contribute to the overall feel of the film. i can understand what the director is trying to bring across but he could have done it in a more subtle way. hurhur. the changing of the actress for the character Grace brought across a facade of Grace in which i was unable to detect in the first movie. i felt that using the same misc-en-scene was not particularly wise in this case due to the fact that a planatation is simply much larger than a town and you can't really express the presence of that plantation with just chalk lines. though to tell the truth, i still love how everything is so transparent 'cos of the absence of real walls and that kinda staff. could be due to the fact that i have a strong appreciation for theatrical works...and a movie made likes this just encompassed both things i like - theatre and movies.
yea=] can't wait to watch wasington. to have to wait for a yr for that movie is quite agonizing.
hehe.
exams are coming up. i dunno if i'm supposed to feel stressed. though the lack of time is really getting to me. pray that i will soar like the eagle who rides on the wind to achieve height. a cooperation with the holy spirit, and not by my own efforts=)