some people measure their life by the success which they have achieved in different fields in their lives. i measure my life by the decisions in which i have made. whether at that single moment, the decision which i have made will advance growth in me (be it socially, emotionally, physically, spiritually). human beings have this natural tendency to look back, to ponder about whether they have so called made the right decision, to think back on the times when they might have acted out of their impulsivesness and question about the various possibilities which could have occured should they have chosen the other choice instead. This elusive 'the other choice' which bugs many people for years and years ahead.
even to someone's death bed.
you know, i was watching this show called 'boomtown: weasson and smith' at 3am in the morning on channel 5 (not because i chose to watch this show, in fact, i accidentally chanced upon it by flipping channels upon the ending of another show. 'forced', in a way, to watch tv in the wee ungodly hours of today due to a sister wanting to finish her project and my bed being right beside our dear adorable computer:). it's quite a good show, the plot, the twists, the cinematography, worthy to be praised. i was watching this show and this show actually showed quite a lot of flashbacks. flashbacks which occur to show the past of individual characters in the show itself. and it struck me somehow that when you're about to die, you don't really ponder about successes, you ponder about the decisions you have made, and of course.. the elusive 'other choice' which you might have made.
for me, i've made some choices which caused me tinges of regret. i've made others that allowed me to accelerate forward in life. and yet some others which allowed me to discover more of myself and to learn things i have never ever imagined myself to learn.
still contemplating about this choice i've made 2 years, 3 months and an average of 23 days ago... amused at the circumstance in which i was in, amazed at how far this decision has brought me and certain that this is still the choice which i would have chosen should i be able to turn back time to that moment again.

-some say it wasn't worth the things we went through
i said it ain't worth losing you-

you. no. You.