okay. nokia hospital called me. my 6020 is officially declared dead.
boohoohooo.
haha. anyone wanna host a burial for it?
anyway, went for nygep gathering yesterday:) erm. not much of a gathering...'cos not many pple turned up:) heh. there was me, weez, jits, qing, trace, yingxin, guan, yun and her friend:)
qing has funky hair! trace has distracting earrings! yingxin looks the same! yun.. nice to see yun after 2 yrs:)
yay:) but had a nice time. OH! saw the moon hidden behind dark clouds at night, so i was commenting tt it's the silver lining in the dark sky, hope in the midst of darkness! trace had camera! but in the end she didn't wanna go get it...so no photo. so sad. but it's very nice:) the beach at night is a very nice place to just stand at, with your friends...
yeah:) me and jits and weez went to bishan pasar malam after tt (actually 'cos i didn't wanna take a bus by myself..so decided to hop onto 55 with them, then there was a pasar malam..and both of them got dragged to view it with me:D) yay:)
yup:)
and went to the library with jits today. hahaa. and then weez came. and then we went to cut hair together. all three of us! then guan came! ah well:) super funny. guan's comment is 'why did i come all the way just to see three pple, whom i just met yesterday?':)
haha:) wellus.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
hahhaa:) this comes as an obligation to update my dear adorable friends on my dear adorable life:) oh dear. what am i talking abt:)
-Holy God to whom, all praise is due
i stand in awe of You-
yeah:)
went for smu interview on wed. thoroughly enjoyed myself there. hahaa:) we talked abt languages, abt androids, abt the stupid casino, abt the difference between my high SAT score (according to the female interviewer) and my dear adorable grades (hehehe:D) very interesting topics that we talked abt. took up 30 mins:)
but enjoyed myself thoroughly.
why are u. hmm. interesting qn.
yeah:) been reading books and resting in bed 'cos felt sick for a while. hahaa:) went to celebrate joycelyn's b-day with her and peixin and wanqi and val on tues. interesting:)
qing's birthday tmr!
-Holy God to whom, all praise is due
i stand in awe of You-
yeah:)
went for smu interview on wed. thoroughly enjoyed myself there. hahaa:) we talked abt languages, abt androids, abt the stupid casino, abt the difference between my high SAT score (according to the female interviewer) and my dear adorable grades (hehehe:D) very interesting topics that we talked abt. took up 30 mins:)
but enjoyed myself thoroughly.
why are u. hmm. interesting qn.
yeah:) been reading books and resting in bed 'cos felt sick for a while. hahaa:) went to celebrate joycelyn's b-day with her and peixin and wanqi and val on tues. interesting:)
qing's birthday tmr!
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Monday, April 11, 2005
"God sets the lonely in families" (Psalm 68:6, NIV).
"Loneliness," as Karen Carpenter used to sing so sadly, "it's such a sad affair." Indeed it is. It's one of the plagues of modern Western society.
Dr. James Lynch, a former medical researcher at John Hopkins contends in his book, The Broken Heart, that loneliness is the number one physical killer today. It can literally break your heart.
"Using actuarial tables from ten years research, Dr. Lynch says that those who live alone--single, widowed, divorced--have premature death rates from two to ten times higher than individuals who live with others. Living alone, he says, does not necessarily produce loneliness, but the two are often related. Among divorced people, suicide is five times higher, fatal car accidents four times higher.
People who live alone visit physicians more frequently than married people, and they stay in hospitals twice as long for identical illnesses."
It may not be the most desirable for everyone but we can live without romantic relationships, but none of us can live healthily without at least one or two healthy, close, loving relationships. Without such we limp along in the shadows of life eking out a lonely existence ... and die a little every day.
Dr. Lynch also reminds us that, "If we fail to form loving human relationships, our mental and physical health is in peril."
Besides one's family (if one has one) there's no better place to find love and a sense of belonging than in a healthy non-legalistic church where unconditional love, acceptance, and friendship are expressed in open, positive, and practical ways. In
such a church God does set the lonely in families--that's one reason God has designed the church as a family--the family of God.
Here, too, one can find God--the only one who can satisfy our innate sense of spiritual loneliness. "To live apart from him," says psychologist, Dr. Norman Wright, "is the most pathetic loneliness of all."
"Loneliness," as Karen Carpenter used to sing so sadly, "it's such a sad affair." Indeed it is. It's one of the plagues of modern Western society.
Dr. James Lynch, a former medical researcher at John Hopkins contends in his book, The Broken Heart, that loneliness is the number one physical killer today. It can literally break your heart.
"Using actuarial tables from ten years research, Dr. Lynch says that those who live alone--single, widowed, divorced--have premature death rates from two to ten times higher than individuals who live with others. Living alone, he says, does not necessarily produce loneliness, but the two are often related. Among divorced people, suicide is five times higher, fatal car accidents four times higher.
People who live alone visit physicians more frequently than married people, and they stay in hospitals twice as long for identical illnesses."
It may not be the most desirable for everyone but we can live without romantic relationships, but none of us can live healthily without at least one or two healthy, close, loving relationships. Without such we limp along in the shadows of life eking out a lonely existence ... and die a little every day.
Dr. Lynch also reminds us that, "If we fail to form loving human relationships, our mental and physical health is in peril."
Besides one's family (if one has one) there's no better place to find love and a sense of belonging than in a healthy non-legalistic church where unconditional love, acceptance, and friendship are expressed in open, positive, and practical ways. In
such a church God does set the lonely in families--that's one reason God has designed the church as a family--the family of God.
Here, too, one can find God--the only one who can satisfy our innate sense of spiritual loneliness. "To live apart from him," says psychologist, Dr. Norman Wright, "is the most pathetic loneliness of all."
Saturday, April 09, 2005
You are a
protector.
Yes, you don't like to kill people. That goes
against everything you belive in. It's not that
you are a coward, but your ideals and morals
wouldn't allow it. You are the typical hero, do
the righteous things, get the bad guys and do
it all legally. But just because you don't kill
doesn't mean you can't kick ass. And that is
what you do. You use your brain and your
strength to do honourable deeds and protect
people you know and love. If an evil guy is
going to take over the world soon, it's you who
will get involved. You hate watching innocents
suffer, and love seeing bad people getting what
they deserve. You are probably also happy and
optimistic and work pretty good in groups. And
the friends you usually make are true ones.
Main weapon: Anything at all
Quote: "You only live once, but if
you do it right, once is enough" -Joe
Lewis
Facial expression: Smile
What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005
yay. i went back for another day of relief teaching today:D after a few months. hahaha:D
slept for only 3 hours last night so i was really quite tired this morning. eyes kept threatening to shut and mind to wander off during the times i babysitted the classes:)
took 3N1, 3N2 (both a bit noisy), 1T2 (i literally had to tell them stories and entertain them...quite a nice bunch of students, but very very rowdy), 5N1 (guai class. haha. they entertained themselves. as in. can see some of the students actually taking out work to do. wow. guess it's 'cos it's their O level yr this yr), 3E3 (to my horror, 3E3 contains the most number of chinese students i took in my class in January. hahaa. you won't know whether to laugh or to ask them not to do certain things:P ah well:D.. hejun happily broke something in the homeroom, weiloon had spiked his hair O_o and ivan was..well. bring much crazier than he did last time in my class.. no wonder my 3E class was so wellus, interesting.). supposed to have 5N2 too...then realised that they didn't know there's been a change in classroom. anyway, i told them tt i trust them to be able to take care of themselves...so i left the classroom and went to rest in the staff room:D hahaa.
then went to sembawang to meet jits to go to the lib... had a nice nap on the train. was quite unconscious till the train reached admiralty...hahaha. yep. overshot.
i'm sleepy. i shld go and sleep. i've been awake for... 18 hours and 30 mins. yay:)
slept for only 3 hours last night so i was really quite tired this morning. eyes kept threatening to shut and mind to wander off during the times i babysitted the classes:)
took 3N1, 3N2 (both a bit noisy), 1T2 (i literally had to tell them stories and entertain them...quite a nice bunch of students, but very very rowdy), 5N1 (guai class. haha. they entertained themselves. as in. can see some of the students actually taking out work to do. wow. guess it's 'cos it's their O level yr this yr), 3E3 (to my horror, 3E3 contains the most number of chinese students i took in my class in January. hahaa. you won't know whether to laugh or to ask them not to do certain things:P ah well:D.. hejun happily broke something in the homeroom, weiloon had spiked his hair O_o and ivan was..well. bring much crazier than he did last time in my class.. no wonder my 3E class was so wellus, interesting.). supposed to have 5N2 too...then realised that they didn't know there's been a change in classroom. anyway, i told them tt i trust them to be able to take care of themselves...so i left the classroom and went to rest in the staff room:D hahaa.
then went to sembawang to meet jits to go to the lib... had a nice nap on the train. was quite unconscious till the train reached admiralty...hahaha. yep. overshot.
i'm sleepy. i shld go and sleep. i've been awake for... 18 hours and 30 mins. yay:)
Saturday, April 02, 2005
please read the following without unicode.
She steps out of her life, heaves a sigh and took out her keys to unlock the doors. Again.
She does this everyday.
Opening up the door, a sight greets her eyes. Her cat is lounging on the sofa, mewing softly as she steps into the house.
A warm presence admidst the coldness of the house.
Nobody’s home.
… I couldn’t tell you why she felt that way, she felt it everyday…
Her dad is at work. Her mum has gone out to buy groceries. Her brother has his own classes to attend.
She is all alone at home.
She can’t help but sigh again. She understands in her heart the necessity of her dad’s work, of her mum buying groceries, of her brother studying, but she can’t help wishing that the family can spend more time together.
Dinner time comes. The whole family gathers together at the table.
‘Hey dear, how’s your day?’ her mum enquires.
‘Fine. Just lots of work. Mrs Wong wants me to send in a script for the script writing competition. She feels I’ll be able to win the competition.’
‘Oh that’s good. Do you need any help? By the way, how are the common test results?’
‘It’s okay. I can handle it. Hmmm. Got top in class again, but my grades dropped’
‘Oh. That’s good. Just continue working harder and you’ll definitely be able to get that scholarship you want to study dentistry in Oxford.’
‘Yah okay. Thanks mum’
Home is where a person belongs, isn’t it?
She has burdens. Burdens that cannot be shared with her family.
…And I couldn’t help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again…
Burdens that her friends seem to understand. Burdens that maybe her boyfriend can soothe?
‘I understand what you mean… hmmm… ‘
‘Haha.. how can you be worried about this? You’re too smart to worry about it.’
But do they?
Can they comprehend how I truly feel?
She wonders.
…What’s wrong, what’s wrong now? Too many, too many problems. Don’t know where she belongs, where she belongs…
In the silence, who is there to be with her?
In her despair, who is there to comfort her soul?
In her loneliness, who will always be there to stand beside her?
In times of insecurity, who is there to assure her always?
Who will be able to understand how she feels inside, how she is inside, with no reservations, no expectations?
Who will carry her burdens for her?
…It’s where she lies, broken inside…
She can’t hide from herself.
She knows the hurts that are still hurting her.
She knows that she longs to show her real self, one without any masks, one that is not merely a façade.
Broken inside.
She steps out of her life, heaves a sigh and took out her keys to unlock the doors. Again.
She does this everyday.
Opening up the door, a sight greets her eyes. Her cat is lounging on the sofa, mewing softly as she steps into the house.
A warm presence admidst the coldness of the house.
Nobody’s home.
… I couldn’t tell you why she felt that way, she felt it everyday…
Her dad is at work. Her mum has gone out to buy groceries. Her brother has his own classes to attend.
She is all alone at home.
She can’t help but sigh again. She understands in her heart the necessity of her dad’s work, of her mum buying groceries, of her brother studying, but she can’t help wishing that the family can spend more time together.
Dinner time comes. The whole family gathers together at the table.
‘Hey dear, how’s your day?’ her mum enquires.
‘Fine. Just lots of work. Mrs Wong wants me to send in a script for the script writing competition. She feels I’ll be able to win the competition.’
‘Oh that’s good. Do you need any help? By the way, how are the common test results?’
‘It’s okay. I can handle it. Hmmm. Got top in class again, but my grades dropped’
‘Oh. That’s good. Just continue working harder and you’ll definitely be able to get that scholarship you want to study dentistry in Oxford.’
‘Yah okay. Thanks mum’
Home is where a person belongs, isn’t it?
She has burdens. Burdens that cannot be shared with her family.
…And I couldn’t help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again…
Burdens that her friends seem to understand. Burdens that maybe her boyfriend can soothe?
‘I understand what you mean… hmmm… ‘
‘Haha.. how can you be worried about this? You’re too smart to worry about it.’
But do they?
Can they comprehend how I truly feel?
She wonders.
…What’s wrong, what’s wrong now? Too many, too many problems. Don’t know where she belongs, where she belongs…
In the silence, who is there to be with her?
In her despair, who is there to comfort her soul?
In her loneliness, who will always be there to stand beside her?
In times of insecurity, who is there to assure her always?
Who will be able to understand how she feels inside, how she is inside, with no reservations, no expectations?
Who will carry her burdens for her?
…It’s where she lies, broken inside…
She can’t hide from herself.
She knows the hurts that are still hurting her.
She knows that she longs to show her real self, one without any masks, one that is not merely a façade.
Broken inside.