ah. i'm supposed to be banned from the comp. so what am i doing up here now? to save my messages from exploding. hahaha:D

dear nygep'99 pioneers,

yes! nygep reunion after As!
tentatively two dates: 30th nov (tues) and 1st dec (wed).
time and venue not set. i'll think about them after my As. hahaha:D
if you haven't replied to my msg, reply soon. currently, response for 1st dec is quite good. except tt yengyong, nina, jo and grace can't make it. and qing and trace are uncertain.
btw. fungi requested for basketball to be in the programme. if you have more ideas, can just sms me. haha. i won't reply though. lack of smses.
please help pass the word around. i only have the numbers of 20++ pple. hehe.
that's all for now. if anyone wants to help me in preparation, please ensure your papers do not end later than the 26th. which means that all humanities S paper pple are out. muahaha:D
okay. all the best for your exams! we'll see each other soon:D hahaha. continue to encourage each other k? sms someone u haven't smsed in a long time! seeya.

your dear adorable cow,
daisytoots:P hahahaha:D

i received more smses from pple i didn't expect! haahha. another two actually. hahaa. how exciting:)
one from michael. haha. not our mj michael. but from da michael. former UL:)
one from eesiew. hahaha too. she asked me an econs question. thank God i knew how to answer. or else i'll just faint. haha.
gosh. gp on thurs. gosh. gp on thurs. gosh. gp on thurs. gp discussion for all j2s at freedy's house on wed. time to be confirmed. venue is his condo's function room. which is somewhere opposite nyj. which is in our area! yeah. or if it's the other condo, then it'll be in orchard area! who wanna come?:D let's all aim for an A together!
i'm in a singing mood. haha. figured out a tune for 'desert oasis' (finally!) but i forgot how to sing it:P hahaha.

gosh. today has been an unexpected day. hahaha.
just received smses from two people i don't expect to receive smses from at all. one is genevieve..this girl from chij punggol (lady of our nativity) whom i was tutoring in (yes. in all subjects...) maths last december:) i kinda became like her nanny.. play with her, eat with her, walk her home..haha.
then the second person's mun bbill. hahha. i wasn't just surprised, i was.. pleasantly surprised. hahaha. okay. just a diff in the words used:)
studied with joycelyn today. hehee. so funny. got to listen to the songs which sengkim burnt for us:) saturation kinetics like to set in after a few hours of studying. how absolutely disastrous. oh. there were two frens of joycelyn whom we met. there were super lame! gosh. nearly couldn't stand it at first. haha. but quite interesting in the end. i call them the yellow sisters:)
hmm. what's up with all the sec 4 pple. my sister's still studying away. joycelyn and alvin are both too excited to sleep. like huh? paper tmr!
oh. wait. my sister doesn't have any papers tmr. oops.
speaking of papers. i've decided to go for the mock paper mr ho is setting tmr. oh dear. and i haven't touched maths for like. one ENTIRE WEEK? oh dear.

i've gotta stop the bad habit of sleeping at 4.45am every morning. gosh. keeps losing track of time.
so many decisions to be made in the next few months require planning at this moment. so interesting. hahaha.
by the way, for those who haven't had the chance to try it. taking a stroll around at 2am is rather invigorating.
-as i breathe in the breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire-
of course, if you intend to try that. don't walk around alone. do drag out your sister or brother to go with you. night air makes for excellant company in another. the silence that abounds is more than often filled with cheery talk and joyful laughter.
what an interesting sound the word abound makes.
'where sin abounded, grace did much more abound'

hehe. i'm delighted with bio. believe it or not, my knowledge of biological molecules were kept at a minimal until these two days! wow.
yeah:)
haha. i can't wait for uni. then i can take lit again. yeah! was looking through merchant of venice... bassanio and antonio and shylock and 'in soothe i know not why i am so sad'! hahaha.
yeah well.
-yeah yeah yeah-
hahaha. jiali danced for service today. intriguing.
oh! and sengkim burned a cd for everyone to encourage them for exams! hahaha. lots of songs inside. just tt i can't listen to them:D *grInz* how fun.

from mingxiu and carrie:)

*~A Student’s Prayer~*

Lord, grant me a quiet heart,
before exams start.
Lead me to use my leisure hours,
to invigorate my powers.
My mind from daydreams liberate,
give me the will to concentrate.
From all distractions set me free;
that in my studies I may be
a student with a sole fulfilment,
to make my work a sacrament.
From my faint heart in love expel,
all failures fears that therein dwell.
And from my pillow drive away,
all dark foreboding of the day.
Help me in faith to rest so deep,
that I may have untroubled sleep.
While notes and lectures I prepare,
may I not lost my zest for prayer.
And may I not forget to look,
for guidance in Thy Book.
And may I ever grateful be,
to all who daily pray for me.
While for myself I intercede,
for other students too I plead;
so may exams find
each one alert in heart and mind.
Thus inward joy and peace possessing,
May exams prove a source of blessing.
Amen.

gosh.
the world is so messy these days.
anyway.
it really was a double titration.
gosh.
and i was hoping that it wasn't.
so that at least i can continue to trust in the honesty of the teachers in other jcs.
apparently not.
it is a double titration:P
guess bio prac must have been unfair too.

thank God i dun have chem prac tmr. feeling a little under-the-weather.
oh! i wanna commend the transitlink office:D hahaha. they're very nice pple. 'cos i was on 26 and i was feeling a little yah... feverish so i decided to sleep on the bus. then... i didn't realise that my wallet has slipped down the side into the small crack by the seat...hehe. got off the bus, couldn't find it and i was like 'gosh. dun tell me i lost my wallet too.' hahaha..then i decided to ask if i can go up to 26 to check again 'cos i had a sneaking suspicion that i left it on the bus. hehe. they were like 'okay! let's quickly go up the bus to check before the bus goes off again'...:D thank God for the pple in the transitlink office. hehe.
so intriguing. a brother called jimmy came for cg today. hahaa. he's very open about his life.
so strange. jiali was like leading most of the roles today. hahaa. quite funny. spread out amongst her, joce and jingting i guess. xin ku ta men le.
restructuring again. a minor one. i keep forgetting that we're the central east cg:P hahahaa. so blur. so now instead of being with the rest of the vj and tj pple, me, jits, joycelyn and michael will be in one cg. gosh. the study caregroup!
-Your hand lifted me up, i stand on higher ground
Your love opened my heart, and made this valley sing
You have turned my mourning into dancing
You have turned my sorrow into joy-
hoho. studying is so tiring. but i found good books in the library:) when econs get indigestible, bio makes studying palatable once more!
-i'll give You praise for You deserve it
i'll give You praise for what You've done
i'll give You praise for You are able
i'll give You praise till i overcome

i'll give You praise when the sun is shining
i'll give You praise in the dark of night
i'll give You praise when the battle rages
i'll give You praise till it works out right!-

let me share something joyful:)
i jumped by 2 grades for maths mock paper! hahaa. still not very good. but it's the first time my grades ever jumped:P God is good!

ooooh. nice lyrics are back:) there's a review on darren's new album and they said it's the most exciting yet. except for the song 'popular'...look at this:) i've never heard the song before but read it out and feel the beat!
'I've got a burning desire
It feels like a fire burning deep in my soul
You know its out of control
I feel the temperature rising
I think I'm capsizing
Going out of my brain
I think I'm going insane

I wanna be the crick in your neck, trip in your step
Face in the crowd that you never forget
You're never gonna get rid of me
Have to be removed forcibly
I made it my mission tonight
Scoping your vibe
Getting some digits in the 4 1 5
Don't want someone to make love to me
I Just friends and then well see

Right Dead Back On It
I know where you belong
And you just keep me holding on
Right Dead Back On It
I'm feeling you so strong
So tell me how could this be wrong

Just go to work on me...
I'll go to work on you...

Definitely I feel attraction
Chemical reaction
But how many times have i been fed this kind of lie
You need a certain kind of man
You need to have the upper hand
I do not think they understand
I am not through with my demands

I need personality please
Intellectual breeze
Ease of conversation, not a sexual tease
Somebody devoted to me
Stacked with sincerity
But you dont know me
But i know it feels
Take a chance on something baby
Show me how you feel'

hahaha:) oh. and look at these lyrics in 'void' ...
-Just like a spinal chord
Severed and broken but the spark still tries-

and these lyrics sound like they'll sound quite nice:D
-Waking up from a coma (tossing, turning)
Sweat has covered my body (my mouth felt dry)
My life flashing before me (nothing much to say)
Still it was so boring (did you hear me sing?)
Only I could adore you (the wind through the trees)
Silently barking orders (rushing up to me)
This is only beginning (don't anger the sea)
Oh, the wave's crashing higher and higher on me-

oh. and these lyrics sound so disastrous:
-Cynical, jaded, faithless, disappointed, disillusioned, used
If I could take back all my sweat, my tears, my sex, my joy I would
My time, my love, my effort, passion, dedication
In case of mistaken identity I gave these things to you
If I sound angry, bitter, sad, infatuated, it's the truth
Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, just a few
Stages of acceptance that it's really over
It's just so complicated and I'm stupid for believing in you-

ah well. wanna contrast two songs here:) so here goes:) both by darren as well:)
'darkness' - Darren Hayes

Been spending so much time underground
I guess my eyes adjusted
To the lack of light
I got
Covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

I have been waiting
Always waiting for something new
Happiness has always ended
In the blink of an eye
There was no one attending
No one attending

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I got covered in darkness
Covered in darkness
Ever wonder why I never really truly connect
Although my eyes are open
I can hold your gaze
But I am never connected
Never connected

I am famous for my generosity
They say I am the kindest
But it is easier to
Give than receive love
Give than receive love

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I was covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

Turning pages over
Run away to nowhere
And it's hard to take control
When your enemy's old and afraid of you
You'll discover that the monster you were running from
Is the monster in you

Better to hold on to love
Better to hold on to love
Change will come

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I was covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

It doesn't really matter where it all began
Cuz all I know
I was lost
I was lost
No, no

It doesn't really matter where it all began no no
All I know
I was lost
I feel lost
Lost
No...

and the contrast...

'Light'--- Darren Hayes

The light, it flickers
Your light, travelling down so deep
Illumination

I have been cold, I have been blind
You have come to change my mind
I can put my faith in you

The light, it blisters
Your light, coming down so bright
Transformation
Turn it up, give me some room to grow
Turn it up, give me that sense to know

I have been cold, I have been blind
You were sent to change my mind
I can put my faith in you

For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I trust, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, in you

The light, it glitters
Your light, when I stand this close
It's almost blinding
Turn it up, give me some room to grow
Turn it up, give me the sense to know

I have been changed, I have become
I have flamed under the sun
I'm the reflection of you

For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I trust, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, in you
In you, you, you

For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I just, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, you, you

It flickers
It blisters
It glitters

In you, in you
In you, you, you
You are

ooh. what a shocking night. hahaha. was browsing through bAa's blog (my bball buddy in nyj!) and got a few shocks of my life:P
anyway, here's what i got from her blog:)
'What life skills are you trying to teach to your players. Below are somepositive messages that I try to teach and emphasize to my players.
1. Make Christ and His teachings the foundation for your life. Your goal is tolive a Christ-centered balanced life.
2. Act like a Winner. I can't stress enough the importance of handling yourselfat all times with class and integrity, especially in the tough times that truly test everyone and usually bring out our worst instincts.
3. Always be positive. Positive people can take on the world.
4. Be committed to hard work. Hard work is not always fun, but it's the priceyou must pay to be more successful. The harder you work, the tougher it is to surrender. 5. Be nice. Treat others the way you would like to be treated.
6. Avoid having to be right all the time. Your goal is to connect with people, not defeat.
7. Be committed to doing things the right way. Remember that perfect practice makes perfect.
8. Smile! In every culture it is the light in your window that tells people there's a caring, sharing individual inside.
9. Learn to stay relaxed and friendly no matter how much tension you're under.
10. Write down your goals and review them often. When you fail to plan, you are planning to fail by default.
11. Focus all your attention and energy on the achievement of your goals.
12. Don't put things off. Get in the habit every day of doing the more unpleasant things first... If you tell someone you're going to do something,then do it.
13. Eliminate the word quit from your vocabulary. If you want to be successful over the long haul, you must be willing to stay the course... People, who won't quit, don't.
14. Learn from your mistakes. There are four things you should do with a mistake: 1) recognize it, 2) admit it, 3) learn from it, 4) forget it.
15. Be able to admit your weaknesses and establish short-term goals to overcome them.
16. Dress and look your best at all times.
17. Respond with a simple, courteous "thank you" when anyone pays you a compliment for any reason.
18. Sit up front in the most prominent rows when you attend class, meetings, etc.
19. Replace the word "can't" with "can," and "try" with "will" in your vocabulary.
20. Be on time. Always try to be at least ten minutes early.
21. Thrive on pressure. The more you prepare the better able you are to handle pressurized situations. Pressure often brings out extraordinary results.
22. Develop a study routine. Discipline yourself to study 1 to 2 hours a night.Your grades/ performance reflect the amount of time you are willing to invest.
23. Stay humble. Respect and recognition comes from personal sacrifice, hardwork, and the grace of God.

haha. look what i saw:P
'Besides MOE has admitted that GEP's main purpose is eugenics - getting us to marry each other is their goal. Please counter this evil plan by marrying the most retarded person you know. Thank you.'
lala.
'eugenics n [sing v] science of the production of healthy intelligent children with the aim of improving the human genetic stock.
great. just what we need. A breeding plan.'
more comments:
'And about the GEP eugenics thingy, YES... its evil machinations must be exposed and
halted, before it is too late...! I can only say "The meek shall inherit the earth".'
yesh!

There's a lighthouse on the hillside that overlooks life's sea.
When I'm tossed it sends out a light that I might see.
And the light that shines in darkness now will safely lead me home,
If it wasn't for the lighthouse, my ship would sail no more.

And I thank God for The Lighthouse, I owe my life to Him.
Jesus is The Lighthouse and from the rocks of sin
He has shown the light around me, so that I might clearly see.
If it wasn't for The Lighthouse, Where would this ship be?

:)

i love the way You love me how You turned my life around
set my feet to dancing it's in You that i have found
a ???? .......of wondrous love
i love the way You love me!:D

heh. drinking JJ's Hawton drink now (san1 cha1 shui3)..tastes horrendous. hahaha:D quite disgusting. and it's a product of singapore! gosh. if all the companies in singapore try to be unique and produce drinks like that...i have a feeling that our bop deficit will get even worse. hahah:D
a very distracting day today. hahaha. had jits and joycelyn over to my house downstairs study room to study but well...i think it's quite a disastrous combination to put the three of us together. coupled with the fact that it's an afternoon! i can't study well in afternoons! makes me sleep! hahahaa. but evening came and jitsy went and it got much better. hahaha:)
gosh. joce just asked me a respiration qn. which reminds me. i can't remember anything about respiration! disastrous. hahaha:D
there were three girls in the study room imitating someone else and pretending to be really depressed over something when they weren't:P so naughty.

'bedshaped'--- keane

Many's the time I ran with you down
The rainy roads of your old town
Many the lives we lived in each day
And buried altogether
Don't laugh at me
Don't look away

You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

I know you think I'm holding you down
And I've fallen by the wayside now
And I don't understand the same things as you
But I do

Don't laugh at me
Don't look away

You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

very inspired by today's stewardship teaching...and fired up 'cos of pastor jeff's teaching. and God really probed in my heart an area which i have been holding on to far too much:P my computer time.
it was a great time just praising, worshipping and adoring the Lord today. just Him being the -centre of our focus-!:D hahaha.
-You're my rock yeahyeah
You're my refuge
You're my hope yeahyeah
and my future-
really wanna mean what i sing
-as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord i offer You my life-

what am i doing being awake at such an hour? all thanks to the dear adorable resident mosquito:P
trying to justify why mosquitoes are on earth. here are a few reasons:
1) to provide as a food source for lizards (either in the house or in the wild ---not that there's much 'wild' in singapore to talk about:D)
2) to act as an alternative source of blood transfusion. or plasma transfusion. or goodness knows what kinda transfusion
3) to spur us on to think creatively (eg. thinking of why they exist)
yeah:D
let me try to go back and sleep. zZz.

maia got out? O_o

"For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me..." (the Apostle Paul in Philippians 1:21-22, niv).

Several years ago one grandmother I know sold off the old family home, pulled up her roots, left many of her friends and activities behind, and moved to a retirement village in another town. She had been healthy and energetic all her life, but in the last year after her move she aged considerably and developed a terminal illness.

At age 65 another friend of mine retired from being a full-time minister of a large church and set up a full-time counseling center and wrote his first book. His book became a bestseller and he has since written ten more. At age 80 he had slowed down but was still counseling and writing.

What made the difference between these two people? Like many elderly people who retire or move to another place, the first person suffered deeply from the loss of friends, her home of many years, and the activities she was used to. She became lonely and life for her seemed to lose its meaning. She had no real purpose to carry her through this time of major change and readjustment.

The second person, however, had something to live for long before his retirement. He just continued it after "retirement."

Loneliness, emptiness, and boredom are all a very real part of modern man's dilemma. They are indicative of our failure to find meaning and purpose for living and they show up in the high divorce rate, the alarming abuse of alcohol and other drugs, and in the high depression and suicide rate.

In America, for example, the most affluent country on earth, some 40,000 people take their own lives each year while it is estimated that ten times that number attempt
to. That means in our country one person out of every 6,000 commits suicide each year. And there are countless others who, while living in the midst of abundance, to quote Henry D. Thoreau, live lives of "quiet desperation."

The tragedy in life, however, is not death, but rather, as Albert Schweitzer once said, "what dies inside a man while he lives." A person dies inside when he has no meaningful purpose outside of himself for which to live."

"Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might" (Ecclesiastes 9:10, niv).

It is purpose--not wealth or success--that makes life worthwhile. Purpose makes even drudgery acceptable and is an immunization against many sicknesses. How then can we
find more meaning and purpose to life? The following tips can help:

Getting out of yourself. Another grandmother I know had a large family to bring up and was widowed rather reasonably early in life. She had her share of heartaches but never allowed these to get her down. She lived a full and active life and had a wonderful gift for passing on cheer to those around her. Her secret was helping other people. She was an active member of her church and had a deep conviction that
one of the basic purposes of the church was to help people less fortunate than herself.

No matter how busy we are or how many problems we have, we can all find little ways to bring cheer to those around us--like bringing home a rose for your wife, a special
treat for the children, a favor for a neighbor. Visit someone who is shut-in. Write a note, use your telephone, or send an email to tell a friend you appreciate him or
her. Words of encouragement and acts of kindness do wonders for both the giver and the receiver.

A vital part of finding happiness and contentment is found in discovering something more important than yourself to believe in, by helping others, and by directing your
thoughts and actions towards them. Egotists are seldom happy.

Love and friendship are also essential for giving life meaning and purpose. Without wholesome relationships, which give us a sense of belonging, we live as islands alone in a very large universe.

So take time for friends. They are a priceless asset in life. "Do you want to make friends?" asks Dale Carnegie, who gives the following advice. "Be friendly. Forget
yourself. You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you."

And remember, as another has said, "the person all wrapped up in himself makes a mighty small package."

"Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" (Isaiah 40:31, niv).

Another way for enriching your personal life is by investing your life in a worthwhile cause. Everybody needs something to live for that is bigger than him or herself--a noble or worthwhile cause into which he can put his best efforts.

A few years ago I was going through a particularly difficult time. Had it not been for both my work and an outside project, I'm sure I would have cracked under the
strain. My work is helping people discover broader personal and spiritual values and my outside project was building my own home--both worthwhile causes.

A creative use of one's talents is also essential for giving meaning to life. God gave us all talents to use. When we aren't using them, we feel unfulfilled.
One man I know was very successful in his work but he was feeling very unfulfilled in it. He felt his job was too small and that he wasn't using his best talents. So he took the risk, quit his job and went back to college to train for the work he really wanted to do. He struggled for several years but today he has built a work that is helping many people and this has greatly enhanced his purpose for living.

This is why I believe it is important to discover what your best talent is (or talents are), get the training you need to sharpen that talent, and find a place where you can use it--either in your job, in a hobby, in your church, or with a volunteer organization. God's purpose for your life will definitely involve the use of your gifts and talents in ways to help others.

Faith, hope, and charity. The poet Goethe lists nine requisites for meaningful living. They are as follows: "Health enough to make work a pleasure. Wealth enough to
support your needs. Strength enough to battle with difficulties and overcome them. Grace enough to confess your sins and forsake them. Patience enough to toil until
some good is accomplished. Charity enough to see some good in your neighbor. Love enough to move you to be useful and helpful to others. Faith enough to make real the things of God. Hope enough to remove all anxious fears concerning the future."

There is, I am sure, no greater way to increase your hope for the future and enrich your personal life than by learning to love others more fully, by developing a vital
faith in God, and discovering and fulfilling your God-given life purpose. Why not tell God right now that you want to do that and confirm your decision by becoming more involved as a volunteer in community service, a mission organization, and/or in your church or chapel. If you are not involved in a local church, ask God to help you find the church that is right for you.

yet another one:

this is my pink piggy staring up. sitting on the table........