oh look! i have archives again:D hahaha...haven't had archives since a long time ago:D
-long, long time ago,
in a galaxy faraway,
naboo was under an attack-
yepz:) was doing pw in the comp lab after school as well...lots of craziness started when serene and pat went a tad mad from the intense amount of pw report editting and starting laughing uncontrollably:) the madness kinda passed onto me as well..and before we knew it, serene and i were sending this e-card to patricia which started like this: my dear farling, my belorvud... from victoria to pahtrick. ah well. long story:) my pw group has a group e-mail though!:D rocks:D
was flipping through the 1999 VS yearbook with corinne ('cos she's looking for...someone...;) when i stumbled unto two familiar names:D *grInz* three rather...including last year's vj sc president:) saw joseph and xuan an in there...very cute! hahahaa:) u'll feel like pinching their cheeks:D
tried squash for the first ever time today:) quite fun:D...though i kept missing the ball:D and i agree...rather addictive. hahaha:)
yeah anyway, steph and i are keeping each other awake by smses:) must study hard!:D

Circle of Friends (find this song very true:D)

We were made to love and be loved
But the price this world demands will cost you far too much
Spent so many lonely years just trying to fit in
Now I've found my place in this circle of friends

In a circle of friends, we have one Father
In a circle of friends, we share this prayer
That every orphaned soul will know, and all will enter in
To the shelter of this circle of friends

If you weep, I will weep with you
If you sing for joy the rest of us
Will lift our voices too
But no matter what you feel inside there's no need to pretend
That's the way it is in this circle of friends

In a circle of friends, we have one Father
In a circle of friends, we share this prayer
That we'll gather together no matter how the highway bends
I will not lose this circle of friends

Bridge:
Among the nations, tribes and tongues
We have sisters and brothers
And when we meet in heaven
We will recognize each other
With joy so deep and love so sweet
Oh, we'll celebrate these friends
And life that never ends

In a circle of friends, we have one father
In a circle of friends, we share this prayer
That it will not be long before all will enter in
To the shelter of this circle of friends
That it will not be long before all will enter in
To the shelter of this circle
Of friends

Reason Enough - Avalon

I don't know what You saw in me
But I'm glad you believed
In spite of my condition
That Your mission was to rescue my heart
Don't understand the sacrifice
Why You gave up your life for the sake of my soul
Only heaven knows
There's a mystery that lies
Within the logic of your love
There's an undying mercy
That I'm unworthy of
If that isn't reason enough to love You
Reason enough to give You
All of my heart and soul
There'll never be a reason
If that isn't reason enough to trust You
Reason enough to give You
All of my life I know
There'll never be a reason
If that isn't reason enough
You have opened my eyes to see
The miracle You have made of me
I am your creation
So keep reminding me
There's a mercy so much stronger
Than the weaknesses in me
And there are glimpses of Your power
That make it easy to believe

hmmm. in the library comp lab now... trying to finish up the evaluation of religious conflicts with the Pill. dun exactly know how to edit it...supposed to have econs lect now...heheheh:) seems like the school has lesser and lesser pple nowadays...though my class still maintains its nearly full attendence:) super guai class!:D although i have a feeling that there'll be people ponning class for pw again tomorrow:D *grInz*
we dissected a sheep's heart yesterday... according to lydia, miss lui seems to be having fun poking her finger through the aorta and the pulmonary artery...to me, it seems as though she's doing something she has to do but dun wish to do...ah wellz:) 'cos she has to show us the various parts of the heart. it looked nicer on screen rather when we went nearer to look at the read specimen. at least it was much cleaner than the pig's heart we dissected in sec 4 (no blood clots, minimal blood flow, no lumps of fats here and here...)
studied with xinyi, amaryllis and someone called jason (can't remember his chinese name though) from vjc yr2 ---amaryllis' friend:) yesterday at plaza sing kfc:) relatively interesting('cos i've never seen the person in school before..and he's in taekwondo too!), extremely distracting'cos we were talking...then got something about riddles and cats and dogs...)positively exhausting(studying immediately after a day of school??) and financially dehydrating:D(no more financial flow...). oh yah! xinyi has become my other twin:D so now xinyi, me and yingxin can be triplets!:D hehehhe:D wonderful, ain't it?

ho-humm:D
i bought a new bag today!:D hahahaa:D 'cos me and jit rather liked zi wei's bag...and since both of us needed new bags, we've decided to get the same one as zi wei's:D yup...then i thought, hmm...why not get hui chun to buy it too?:D then we have a caregroup bag:D *grInz*
yups... so in the end, all three of us bought new bags:D just a little bit different from zi wei's...i got pink (was deciding between pink and olive...but hui chun and jits says pink looks more me *grInz*), jits got red and hui chun got sky blue:D will be quite interesting if jun ting gets one too...hahaha:) since all her sheep have the bag:) (mingxiu too!:D)
seems like the teachers were nicer today...hahha:D mr ho was extra smiley , mr toh was being extra nice to us 'cos there's observation, mr lim was...well, being mr lim (though he looked a tad tired) and mr chan was... being mr chan too:D hahaha:D though he seemed to be perpectually walking to our side and looking at our papers... think he's concerned about our grades *grInz* anyway, for my first ever econs case study test, i got a 12/30...hahaha:D super funny:D
only 7 pple passed...lydia passed too! quite li1 hai4:D oh..now to think of it, no guys passed. wellus.

hmmm..
just realised that this past week, i haven't really updated a lot... ah well:)
just wanna share something here...(think i shared it with a few pple here and there:)
was just watching 'the last supper' yesterday...when the people presented this scenario:
It is 1909...you're eating dinner with adolf hitler and you know that there's a blue bottle of wine on the table which contains poison. would you pass him the bottle of wine for him to drink, so as to kill him? knowing the things he will do if you don't?
and then i was just thinking...he did kill a lot of people...persecuted a lot of jews...placed them in gas chambers and slaughtered them and what-nots...thousands and thousands of them...it certainly was tempting to just kill him. hahaha!:D
but then... the commandment 'thou shalt not kill' came strongly into my mind. and i was thinking... it's a sin to kill. a grievious sin which will cause God to be much disappointed and to grief. and then i came to the conclusion that i will not kill hitler...'cos when he dies, God's wrath will be on him and he'll eternally be in hell, suffering much worse than what he has done to others. and i figured that it's not for me to judge a man too...for only God can place judgement on people:)
yup. will you have killed adolf hitler?
anyway, i watched 'lavender' (chinese name is called xun1 yi1 cao3)...yepz. was super nice:D hahaha:D it was about this angel of happiness (played by takeshi kaneshiro) who dropped onto earth and then he discovered what was sadness and love. story plot was rather cliched...but it was very amusing and allowed me to appreciate my sense of smell even more (strange as it may sound:D). gave me a nice and peaceful feeling too:) hahaha:)
i want to watch the vcd!

There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak..."I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage.
On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, "What you got there, son?"
"Just some old birds," came the reply.
"What are you gonna do with them?" I asked.
"Take 'em home and have fun with 'em," he answered. "I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real good time."
"But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?"
"Oh, I got some cats," said the little boy. "They like birds. I'll take 'em to them."
The pastor was silent for a moment. "How much do you want for those birds, son?"
"Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!"
"How much?" the pastor asked again.
The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, "$10?"
The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone.
The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a tre e and a grassy spot. Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free.
Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.
One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. "Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!"
"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.
Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"
"And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.
"Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly.
"How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked.
"Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!"
"How much?" He asked again.
Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood, tears and your life."
Jesus said, "DONE!" Then He paid the price.
The pastor picked up the cage he opened the door and he walked from the pulpit.

i'm sick:( horrible. again. i'm sick... again.
except that this time it's just a normal sore throat, cold and cough.
i'm so thankful that i can finally rest today:D been going on and on and on for the past three weeks. sleep deprivation and what-nots... even on weekends. hahaha:) doing most things half-heartedly as well... very bad.
ah wellz:) that's in the past. really very glad that today's a day of rest and retreat...so that i can have the energy to go on living an even more exciting life, for me and for christ:)
yepz. anyway, church had a mooncake party yesterday:D *grInz*went really well...considering the short amount of time that we started preparing everything (since last wednesday). very glad to be able to serve together with the sisters and brothers:) guess all the preparations were really worth it:D yepz. dancing and steph, hope u had a nice night yesterday:D

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hahahaha. i like the sound of it:D *grInz*

ah wellz:D
here's some daily news:D *grInz*
had stupidified thigh training on tuesday during taekwondo...terribly tiring:D after doing the training i could hardly stand...then we had to do backthrusts without resting. nearly dieded. hahaha:D two days after the training, my thighs still feel like they're going to die. very happy today when corinne says that she went through thigh training before too...she understands what i'm going through:D *grInz*
ah. let's skip wednesday:)
today! very horrible day. hahaha:D had two tests! it's like, the main purpose of today for our class is merely the tests...'cos chem tutorial is to revise for the test and gp is...redundant. chinese as well. so the main highlights of today are the econs case study test and the horrible chem test 2:D dun think i'll do well for either of them. aw shucks. at least i won't be the only one peering at the case study test results in dismay...hahaha:D our first ever case study test!:D rocks manz. chem seemed easy. just that i dunno how to do the basic stuff. mr lim rocks though:D his constant revision seemed to help a bit:D
anyway, i'm really happy and relieved today's over:) had an intense chinese society exco meeting today as well. all the talk about hai3 cheng2 and what-nots...protecting the play...how we promise to do everything ourselves..two scripts have been written, even the committees are out. just hope that our teacher-in-charge will allow us to do it:) going to die next year in the first three months:) hopefully the grace of God will pull me through:)
went to eat and study with corinne after the meeting:D halfway when we're doing so, who do we see coming in? monkey. hahahaha:D super amused. he left after eating and studying a bit 'cos it was getting rather noisy...went to bk, then he seemed to disappear:) ah wellz:)
took 135 home today...so much faster than 31!:D took to near corinne's house and changed to 155...hahaha:) reached home in 45 mins. fastest record ever:) corinne was very nice:) waited with me for the bus to come:) thankz!:D

i've realised that my soul feels troubled whenever there's threaten of change...like yesterday when i found out that junting's going to get transferred to the west unit, i just felt an immense sense of sadness...it's relatively odd. didn't quite understand it...i mean, i'm happy for hui chun that she's able to rise up to be the cg leader, and happy that we're starting a west unit... and yah, even though junting's going to be transferred, i'll still see her anyway. but i still feel sad that things won't exactly be the same. so i prayed for serenity. finally the line 'i pray for the serenity to accept things i cannot change' comes with a strong meaning...
then realised that it's 'cos i dun want the change in my life...i like the way things are, why should they change? had this feeling a couple of times, like at end of sec 1, fungi's haircut, when kevin said something...blah. all sorts of nonsense.
another thing i realised is that though the church may already be the most secure and consistent place in the world, there're still internal changes here and there (eg. restructuring)...and that the only constant and unchangeable truth is God:) makes me appreciate Him even more:)
haha...just realised again. there're only two constant things in life - change and God.

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all of you people whom i know (friends and brothers and sisters and mother and father) will always be first on my priority list:D so if for any day you feel unimportant, remember me!:D *muackZ*!
hey. i dun usually give kisses. appreciate it.
muahahhaa!:D

1am in the morning and what am i doing? homework. hahaha:D
finally got down to doing hw at around 10 pm...after going to muji to buy a new pencil (pen?) case, pens and what-nots. felt the after-symptons of sat's sickness lingering about as even as i walked about... so decided to go into the Life store:) came out feeling very happy and refreshed:) the store was playing nice familiar worship songs (don't ask me what, i have a terrible short-term memory) and the store person is nice and friendly:) all students get a 10% discount btw. hahaha:)
-Lord i lift your name on high,
Lord i love to sing your praises,
I'm so glad you're in my life-
yepz. anyway. had a nice long rest for the past three days:D sleeping for ...more than 12 hours a day... both in the night and in the day. ah wellz. i'm dead though. haven't touched any hw yet. can't be helped. i'm sick:P hehehee...

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i'm amazed...i just used 18 seconds to download a 4.14mb file...send the mtvs in manz!:D cable rocks!:D

yeah manz:D
it's installed:D super fast. downloads in..1 second or something. ah wellz. too bad i dun have a burner...or else i can burn lots and lots of songs right now. ah wellz:D

where there once was frustration,
there is hope
where there once was fear,
there is comfort,
where there once was just you,
there is God.

the reason as to why i didn't update yesterday even when i was at home was 'cos i was stupidifyingly sick ever since i woke up at 7am. (ehz. dun think there's a word such as stupidifying. but it sounds nice anyway, haha:)
had fever and i couldn't stand up at all 'cos i'll start feeling puke-ish and dizzified (nono...there isn't such a word as dizzified as well) once i try to stand up. then my vision will turn black and then i can't hear and before i faint or something, i'll tumble onto my bed and everything will come back progressively once more:) (the word progressive has been stuck on my mind ever since word for life lesson this morning)
so, i had to call long yuan to tell her i had a fever, can't go for caregroup and the seminar and had to spend like 3/4 of the day lying in bed sleeping. hahaha:) at least i had lots of rest:) had a nice time talking to my mum as well:) ate my first meal at 3+(?), then proceeded to puke everything out after i ate medicine which is supposed to prevent me from puking. ah wellz:)
second meal was at 7++... mi fen tang:D not much appetite either:)
anyway, main point is that i feel so horribly horrible that seriously, i couldn't see any thing to learn from me being sick. ('cos i believe that through everything, God will give me something to learn). but then, i'm shortsighted (literally and figuratively, and God proved Himself to me once again:D)
felt much better this morning, so i decided to go for wfl class:) met mingxiu at the mrt station waiting for xuan an...then i thought, okay, so me and jitsy aren't the only ones who're going to be late. hahaha:)
went to class and found out that our instructors are late too! eepz. heh:) ah wellz.sat with jun ting and someone else who was also late:) (not very good...this bad habit of not being punctual) and just basically viewed the whole class with a feeling that i'm detached from the world. luckily my mind could still work. hehehe:)
then huichun and junting prayed for me for healing once more...and jun ting said something about 'have the faith to believe'. guess my faith in God wasn't strong enough, 'cos immediately after i stepped out of the place, i felt intense giddiness...and has to sit on the bench outside the bioskin place. ah wellz:) felt quite bad actually. huichun had to be with me for the whole entire seemingly long journey to nexus...'cos i kept resting after walking every few minutes:P
gradually, i could feel God's presence coming unto me...from all the pple around me who were concerned about me...all at once, i could feel once again how loving and caring my brothers and sisters are. very touched. they make God visible to me when i'm sick:)
and i witnessed a healing today!:D on me:D was healed after the service... had to build up my faith throughout the service though...kept praying and praying (think pple were praying for me too:) to ask for healing:D and God is good:), He healed me:D and from being extremely weak, not wanting to talk at all and hardly able to walk properly, i could talk a lot, jump a bit and yepz. walk around by myself without help from anyone. hehehe:D and i learned how to praise Him in whatever situations i'm in too!:D
i feel that i easily forget about the good things God has done for me...must need constant reminders. hehehe:) not very good. must remember:)

sister was singing this song:) and i suddenly had the urge to look up the lyrics:) so here it goes:)

[God rest ye merry gentlemen]

God rest ye merry gentlemen,
Let nothing you dismay,
Remember Christ our Saviour
Was born on Christmas Day;
To save us all from Satan's power
When we were gone astray.

O tidings of comfort and joy,
Comfort and joy,
O tidings of comfort and joy!

From God our heavenly Father
A blessed angel came;
And unto certain shepherds
Brought tiding of the same;
How that in Bethlehem was born
The Son of God by name.

[Chorus]

Now to the Lord sing praises,
All you within this place,
And with true love and brotherhood
Each other now embrace;
this holy tide of Christmas
All others doth deface.

[Chorus]